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batmanisagatewaydrug · 6 months
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Oh no was the spin-off bad or just mediocre? Is there anything you particularly liked or disliked about it?
god okay let's get into the good, the bad, and the ???? of it all. hiding it entirely under a cut because spoilers ahoy.
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I have reservations about the Riddler as a full protagonist that I'll articulate below, but I can't really fault any of the writing re: Eddie's dialogue at all. the characterization of the Riddler as an insufferably cocky and nosy motormouth works really well, and Hasan Minhaj seems like he's having a blast with the expanded role.
I also like ESCAPE ARTIST PICKPOCKET RIDDLER recognition!!!
also hey even though they didn't follow up on some of the very promising tidbits re: Eddie's potentially deteriorating mental state dropped in Unburied, I like that it was made clear that there are physical components to his riddle compulsion, namely mentioning that his chest was getting tighter. it adds an interesting dimension to his whole schtick!
having listed all these fun traits that I enjoy, I also respect that the story doesn't feel the need to like... soften Eddie in order to make him a more likeable protagonist. oh haha the funny little asshole man? yeah he killed people. he kills a guy literally in the course of the story after proclaiming in the very first episode that he's mostly non-violent. and he's 100% chill about it because fuck that guy! he doesn't matter, he's in the way of the riddle! and the whole ending with Nadira is... oofah doofah, that's crazy. that's crazy crazy. and it's pretty tasty!
I LOOOOOVE appearances from minor villains!!! bro we got THE FUCKING TALLY MAN in this!!! also hey when I wrote that absurdly long post-Unburied fic I CORRECTLY predicted Croc, Sportsmaster, and the fucking Condiment King someone. I don't know. pay me or kiss me on the mouth for that or something.
I wish there was more Barbara, of course, but I really like what we did get of her! I like that we've kind of skipped over any need for her to have a Batgirl era and just got straight to the good stuff of being almost Oracle. I love to see her exactly where she belongs: flagrantly committing cybercrime to save lives because she can.
also the sound design is still good, and I really like the new music for the opening and Azrael's motif
also speaking of Azrael I'm going to say ONE nice thing about how he was written which is that I DO think it's interesting that they directly pointed out that the concept of Azrael as an angel of death is actually much more prominent in Islam than Christianity while also making in unambiguous that the Nygmas are a Muslim family. it adds a little bit of intrigue to the connection between Nadira and JP, not nearly enough to actually redeem Nadira as a big bad in my eyes (see below) but it is interesting!
also lastly Eddie is flirting so hard with Bruce AND Barbara I love you problematic awful bisexual representation. AND Killer Croc wants to fuck him? madness.
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I alluded to this earlier, but I don't know if I love Eddie promoted to the POV protagonist! it's a big departure from Unburied, not just in terms of who's the main character but also in terms of limiting the scope of the story. giving Bruce and Barbara's alternating perspectives in Unburied was brilliant for building up the mystery and creating suspense in the story, and when the story came together to focus fully on Bruce as Batman it felt organically earned.
and also on a more Eddie-centric note I just! think he works better as a supporting character for other people to bounce off of, rather than being a lead in his own right!
I'm putting this in :/ instead of :( because it's more of a matter of personal taste than anything but godddddd I wanted more Barbara :/ I love her :/ where is she :/ I'm mostly mad because I wanted a spinoff of her and Eddie solving crimes while he crashes in her couch and does petty crime but godddddd god god god I want her back so bad I love her more than Eddie and Bruce combined
while I like the emotional beats of the resolution with Nadira I don't... like her as a character or a storytelling device. like I'm sorry but I don't really care about the Riddler's family drama! especially not when it's as heavy-handed as "my sister told me riddles to distract me from our parents fighting." very reminiscent of the backstory where Leonard and Lisa Snart would hide out in an ice cream truck or whatever, please stop trying to make psychology this painfully clear cut.
I also didn't really need an origin story but I do like that it's kind of an updated version of his first BTAS episode!
I can't decide if Jean Paul unceremoniously killing off Flass is really funny or sucks shit. kind of both but it does veer towards the latter, I was really hoping that if they're going to keep making more of this podcast we would at least get to see Babs get an arc where she investigates Flass and gets justice for her dad on her own terms. but then again. it is pretty funny.
also god this isn't REALLY about the show but I have to say this. the Riddler a.) getting #calledout by Azrael for bearing false witness and b.) ESPECIALLY him trying to dunk on his sister by implying she should marry a white guy are SO FUNNY given the timing of the minor scandal re: Hasan Minhaj maybe just straight up making things up entirely in his comedy and SPECIFICALLY getting that poor woman doxxed by claiming she dumped him for racist reasons. I'M JUST SAYING. (editor's note: since absolved of all wrongdoing and the woman who wrote that piece is genuinely unhinged, but the timing was still BANANAS.)
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I'm just gonna say it, man: I'm not into Colman Domingo's Bruce/Batman performance at all. I don't know what happened behind the scenes to precipitate Winston Duke leaving the role, but god fuck I'm in mourning. Duke is genuinely one of my favorite portrayals of Bruce ever for his distinctive Batman voice and how much expressiveness, vulnerability, and warmth he brings to the character, and while I wouldn't want his replacement to try and mimic that performance exactly (impossible!) it seems like Domingo just... wasn't even given the memo? this is a much flatter Bruce, and I simply cannot love him.
re: my complaints about Nadira above, her character is just handled in a really underwhelming way. having Eddie repeatedly call her "sis" is stumbling straight into the one of the worst of all lazy exposition techniques, especially since Bruce works his way to that exact revelation, like would it have killed anyone to just... let us wonder about the connection a *little* longer? also, again, those flashbacks are ARTLESS. in Unburied there's framing and context for all of the ways the past blends into the present, whether it's Strange's recordings or the story taking place inside Bruce's own meddled memories. it really feels like they're just hurling backstory at us with a catapult in this one.
the ultimate big bad reveal is... ugh. UGH. Unburied was a really cool nesting doll of a minor Batman villain being manipulated by a more well-known villain being manipulated by an A-list villain with a cool and unique spin on her backstory... Secrets in the Dark has an absolutely WASTED member of the Batfamily used as a killer of the week, controlled by a minor dirty cop and a complete OC who doesn't get much screentime at all. cool!
also hey listen. as soon as they start going "hmm... I don't know this is just too big for Flass... SOMEONE else must be helping him..." it's like. I don't know, man. do you think it's possibly the only new character introduced in the series who we know was just elected to a government position? do you think maybe that's who it could be?
also hey man speaking of which they just fucking. they just used Jean Paul as a random deranged serial killer and then the fucking Riddler managed to convince him to off himself. fucking. disrespectful. this feels like that episode of Arrow (sorry to cite Arrow in 2023, I know) when Helena's just like. an antagonist of the week for Oliver to fight. disrespectful!!!!
"Makenzie I thought you didn't even like Jean Paul why does it matter" I'M COMING AROUND ON HIM
overall the plot just feels way more hectic and unpolished than Unburied and it's Unfortunate!
also hey do you remember at the end of Unburied where Bruce just casually blows the lid open on Eddie being afraid that he's like. devolving and actively losing his grip on his own brain and it's like extra bad and scary because he has no idea whether it really means anything when he passes psych evals, etc? really cool how we never really brought that up again
where was Ace :( :( :( my good boy :( :( :(
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melloncolliegalaxies · 2 months
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big little things
1. "how are you feeling?"
2. the sky—night or day. blue skies, gray skies,  sunsets, sunrise. stars. cotton candy clouds. the moon. 
3. "i miss you."
4. petting a cat, feeling the vibrations as they pur. listen to it, they're saying "i feel safe here. with you."
5. someone creating something for you—a drawing, a piece of music, a poem, a sweater. a meal. anything. 
6. that one song you listen to (over and over again) when you just need to feel understood. 
7. "you make me happy."
8. having dinner with people who can make a bad day feel even slightly better. 
9. when someone remembers you—your birthday, your fears, your heartaches. your favorite things. your dreams. 
10. "i appreciate you."
11. listening to the rain in a cozy spot—snuggled in a comfy bed, or on a couch, or in someone's arms. 
12. watching someone's face light up when you lock eyes. 
13. feeling someone you love kiss your forehead when they think you're sleeping.
14. watching someone you love sleep, taking in their peaceful expression until you fall asleep too. 
15. belly-laughing with loved ones.
16. inside jokes.
17. flowers on your birthday. flowers any day. flowers, flowers, flowers.
18. Christmas lights. 
19. feeling comfortable enough with someone to let them touch you, hug you, high-five you, hold your hand, trace your face and body with their fingers, kiss you. 
20. giving someone a gift they really wanted. observing and absorbing their glee. 
21. someone doing something kind for you without you having to ask. 
22. someone taking the time to (respectfully) teach you something new. 
23. pleasant aromas—vanilla, the perfume or cologne or deodorant your lover wears, whatever's cooking in the kitchen, and that very specific scent wafting in the air, you know, the one that reminds you of a happier time. 
24. doing something, anything during a very bad depressive episode. you brushed your teeth? fed yourself? showered? did laundry? fantastic. 
25. "i can't wait to see you."
26. being preserved in someone's spaces—your pictures are on their desk, their walls, their lockscreen, in a pendent, in photo albums. 
27. feeling comfortable enough to undress in front of someone, to present your natural self to them—no clothes, no makeup, messy hair. 
28. "i'm here for you" and they actually are. they're at your doorstep. they're texting you through it. they call, they listen.  
29. the scene in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind when Clementine and Joel's first memory together collapses. "Meet me in Montauk…"
30. someone asking you to listen to their favorite song. please listen to it—all of it.
31. "you make me so proud."
32. Ellie and Carl's "married-life" montage in Up
33. jinx. saying something at the same time as someone else and then grinning at each other.
34. when someone watches or reads the things you recommend. bonus points if they wind up loving it. 
35. when Joel tells Ellie "i struggled for a long time with surviving. and, no matter what, you keep finding something to fight for," in The Last of Us
36. "i was just thinking about you."
37. that thing you accomplished that no one knows about. 
38. someone supporting your work—buying your painting, sharing your novel with their friends, watching your streams.
39. the cutscene in The Last of Us Part 2 where Ellie expresses her frustration toward Joel for saving her life over sacrificing her for the cure, and he firmly tells her, "i would do it all over again."
40. "you make my life better." i met you and my smile is so big it hurts my cheeks. the sun seems brighter, this chocolate chip cookie tastes sweeter. i'm looking forward to tomorrow because you'll be there. your birthday is one of the best days of my life. oh my God, oh my God, this is terrifying—oh wait, there you are. it's not so bad anymore, actually. thank you for being here—for choosing to be here—with little old me in this brief moment in time when you could share it with anyone, anywhere in this very beautiful, very daunting, very big world. 
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bloodybreakupscene · 8 months
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𝐊𝐔𝐓𝐄.
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tom holland! peter parker x reader
-> so uh basically flash makes fun of peter and is like "embarassinggg 😳!!" so he runs out the cafeteria like a disney channel character but u comfort him l8r so it's okay
-> wrote this while i was in sugarland texas!! it was so much fun :3 n e ways im so hungry ( ;∀;) and i want a fruit smoothie
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"peter look! there they are!" ned pointed, hinting peter towards your presence at the table across from theirs.
"shh! keep your voice down, what if they hear you?" peter said, shoving ned's arm down.
"they probably heard you already." mj rolled her eyes.
"no way, we're pretty far. . . right?" he asks, half rhetorical and half serious. mj ignores it and ned laughs. "don't worry pete! I'm sure they love you already, you just don't know it_!"
peter lays his head down on his arm and absentmindedly stares at you, you were talking with your friends sitting at a semi occupied table, hand swirling around a straw that was inside your chocolate milk carton. there was only one person he recognized sitting next to you and it was flash.
"penis parker! something you wanna say to us or what?"
speaking of flash, peter's lovestruck face falters and is replaced with a confused one. he noticed that each and every one of the people in your small friend group were staring at him, including you. his face immediately flushes as you both make eye contact.
"is he gonna say anything?" one of your friends mentions to you.
"how about you leave us alone, flash, he's not hurting you." mj defends, frankly tired of flash's behavior over the years.
"exactly, it's not even you he's staring at!" ned attempts to defend. peter and mj really don't know how to respond to that other than a shocked and 'oh my god i can't believe you just said that what the hell ned' look.
the table collectively goes 'oooo' [ aside from you ] in a childlike manner, which embarrasses him even further. he wanted nothing more than to crawl underground and become one with the moles and dirt.
flash whistles, "damn then, who were you staring at." he eyes you, in which you glare at him, a silent message for him to not say what he's about to say.
"i think i know who it is, but you gotta help me out here man, who's got your—"
"flash shut up." you say, in a light tone, but stern enough for him to know that you were actually kind of serious.
"that confirmed it." he jokes, no one really paying attention to him anymore.
you shoot peter an apologetic look and he stares back at you, an unanalyzable expression painting his face. your group continues to discuss miscellaneous topics as his exponentially smaller trio try to comfort him. you save him the embarrassment by not sparing him any glances.
"it wasn't that bad of an interaction! at least they defended you."
"ned! it was your fault this happened in the first place!"
"nuh uh."
"it's okay guys, not that big of a deal." peter brushed off, "gonna do the restroom really quick, yeah." they look at him unconvinced but inevitably let him go. he sits outside the restroom near a water fountain.
embarrassing, is all he found that interaction to be. he just needed to be alone for a bit. what pissed him off was that it was a joke, he wasn't supposed to take it this seriously. it was worse that he walked out of the cafeteria feeling and looking stupid, at least in his mind.
"hi."
he looks up; oh shit it's you.
"oh, uh, hey."
"sorry about. .you know. .flash."
"it's fine, nothing i'm not used to!" he laughs slightly, ignoring the fact that he is most definitely not used to flash's bullying just yet.
"well uh, whatcha' listening to?" you sit next to him on the floor.
"oh just, generic stuff, i guess, here." he hands you one of his earbuds, blush apparent on his face. you smile as you put in your ear as you guys share your different tastes in music, eventually spending your whole lunch period together.
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It's an EP, in between a solo and a full album. Mostly contains 4 to 6 songs.
Some artists release EP before a full album sometimes. It helps them test the pulse of the fans, to see whats working and what's not, their reactions and to also gain newer fans, to put themselves out there and get exposure and set expectations for their future full album.
I don't know if that's what Jimin has on mind.
Seems like some songs didn't make it into this one. Some pictures we got from different producers, those producers aren't on this album. So maybe it's set aside for his full album, or maybe it'll be singles later on.
And then also, if he's telling us a certain story about a certain phase of his life with this album, maybe 6 songs were enough, and didn't need to be stretched out.
Eitherways, I am looking forward to it. Let's see.
You see anon, the so called arguments used by those complaining (they are definitely not Jimin's fans) shows that they are not actually music fans. They like BTS and whatever is popular on the radio or on top charts. Just casual listeners. Fundamentally, there's nothing wrong with that. But they also act like they're experts despite having no idea that what an EP is. They have no actual knowledge and it's quite obvious from the way they write because they expose themselves easily.
And despite possibly falling into the trap of victimizing Jimin, he is usually seen guilty of everything, including his mere existence. If he's quiet on social media and doesn't do anything with his career, he's jobless. Then when it's revealed he actually worked on his music and how that project is rolling out, he's privileged. There's nothing he can do. But he doesn't have to. They can make jokes about him and fans saying that people shouldn't be butthurt because it's just a joke, except he's always the target with a not so subtle message delivered every single time. The Jimin they all talk about, be it in my asks, on twitter or any other platform, by army, some of his stans and those outside his own fandom, does not exist. He is some made up character that they can project on to all their insecurities, bad taste and bad manners and show how miserable they are.
If Face is the only album before enlistment, that's fine. If there's more to come until then, than that's fine again. He's young and he has so many opportunities to make his music and get involved in the projects he wants. I'm just happy I get to see the beginning of his journey and if at some point, along the years, long after I move on from this kpop world, if I happen to see or hear something about Jimin or his music, I hope it will be something nice.
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pulsar-ray · 10 months
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Things I recommend if you're schizospec
Take a few break days from caffeine every week . Fruit juice or decaf are good alternatives if you do it for the taste
Sometimes there will times or days maybe when. you are so tired & probably too tired to do anything . Sleeping is optimal for the organism in this case . If it happens too often do see a doctor but . for me personally after any big event I need time to sleep for a day to recover . The horrors etc
Paranoia is so hard so bad to talk to anyone . It is okay if you cannot maintain yourself at the same level but do try to keep relationships intact . It is truly horrifying but having at least a few people is very good [I cannot talk to most people more than once every now & then without panic attack but I have my one guy & even though I'm still scared he'll kill me I am significantly less scared about him]
Pill organizer . Pill organizer slays
Semi related to the paranoia thing but it is also good to try to maintain any healthy relationship you can. I like to think of them as 'business casual' relationships in which they're my coworkers. We aren't really close & we don't really feel much about each other but we brighten up the office for each other
Sometimes it feels so awesome to indulge into delusion. Ie. connecting the dots about how everyone can read your mind . Generally thinking about it more / purposefully triggering it is actually quite bad even though it is thrilling
In a similar vein don't let anyone else encourage stuff like that. There are relatively harmless delusions that don't really matter [par example I believe I am a monster & also dead & also an automaton et cetera & I'm at an okay enough dose of meds that they don't really scare or affect me. They're sort of comforting & my therapist says they're okay to let live so long as they don't get too severe] & those aren't so bad but. any of the bad ones are bad to be encouraged!
I don't know if it's my schizoaffective or autism & quite frankly I don't care but . Having routine charts or plans that can be looked at or said aloud calm me down. Structure makes me feel safe . I can control that
If you're not diagnosed psychotic & you take ADHD meds that is bad. Those are stimulants & they make psychosis worse
Also, any drug or alcohol will make psychosis worse! Not a slay!
Comfort object such as stuffed animal or blanket is always really nice. In my psychoses every object is sentient or has a personality or whatever it is so I go for the nice ones to keep with me. My blanket is very understanding & Pink Monster instantly attached to me / vice versa
Most people will be open about thinking you're delusional or crazy or whatever 'negative' term they assign psychotic people. They'll be horrifically offput ! As much as it sucks my best advice is to find people who understand / are cool about things . Nobody will be perfect in this regard but it'll be better
Auditory hallucinations suck butt! Personally listening to music or otherwise audio input all the time helps me a lot
If someone is telling you to drink chemicals kill someone become god et cetera they are probably not entirely real. They could be a real person but they're likely at least partially psychosis. If they are a real person leave them immediately
Similarly, if something completely implausible happens [ie. aliens contacting you, cartoon character living in your backyard] this is also probably not real. I know it can be very very hard to tell but if you're in good enough mind sometimes it is useful
The weather/the words you saw/the song you heard/et cetera are not telling you how your life will go. Even if it really really seems like they are I really promise they're not. I still think they are but there is no way in hell some 2000s song telling me that I have to become god is true. This goes with my implausible thing, for despite believing it I know it is not true
If you are religious bring that up in therapy. Religious delusions are so common & therapy can help them to not spawn
Your cognition will probably worsen as a result of your disorder! Just try to do what you can [mental games, children's books, et cetera] to keep it at whatever level you can. If everything is still hard & bad that is okay. Living independently is not always the goal , being happy is. If you need a carer to be happy & safe that is okay
Laughing & making fun of psychosis characters [hallucinations, things you are told in delusion, not characters with psychosis] can be nice. It is a form of power over them
There will be more posts like this sometime but alas I must go. Stay safe everyone
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magicaldreamfox1 · 1 year
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My GMMTV 2023 Commentary & Rating
disclaimer: this is purely based on my opinions and subjective tastes so if u disagree with me that's good for u pls don't be rude to me abt it thank u <3
also! my rating is based on vibes, whether or not i will actually watch a show largely depends on the final trailer!
let's get into it!
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Enigma
plot keywords: horror fantasy, mains: prim/win
do u know how mad i am abt this. i'm a win anti first and a human second. but i am also a fucked up schools stan first and a human second AND prim is in this . so i'll literally have to watch it i'm so mad 😭😭😭 it looks SO GOOD 😭😭😭😭
my rating: 8/10
A Boss And A Babe
plot keywords: bl, boss/intern romance, mains: force/book
this looks lame i'm sorry 😔😔😔 i don't like the whole boss/intern thing and i also can't take force seriously as a "serious" boss he just sounds tired </3
my rating: 3/10
Find Yourself
plot keywords: straight romance, boss/intern romance, age gap relationship
even worse than A Boss And A Babe. straight, boss/intern AND age gap??? this is dreamy repellent
my rating: 1/10
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Double Savage
plot keywords: rivalry, fighting, family drama
this one is a difficult one. it's basically just 10 Years Ticket the remix and like why. we didn't need this. foei's evil smile in the trailer tho? yeah that's iconic that's history. for this it'll depend on timing & the final trailer i think
my rating: 5/10
Hidden Agenda
plot keywords: bl, dating help, secret crush, uni bl, mains: dunk/joong
it's a uni bl. what more do i have to say. it just seems a bit boring to me ngl, it feels like a mashup of Star In My Mind and FUTS and i've just had enough. also can they give joong a role that shows emotions. please???
my rating: 3/10
23.5
plot keywords: gl, secret admirer, uni gl, mains: milk/love
fucking finally a gl!!! the trailer looked fine, a bit boring ngl but we take what we can get truly gls are allowed to be a little boring for now. now if gmm won't let them kiss in this show i will personally fly to thailand to set gmm hqs on fire. so just putting that out there watch ur fucking back gmm. u're on THIN ICE
my rating: 7/10
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Because You're My First Love
plot keywords: straight romance, first love, love triangle, mains: prim/dew(/neo)
do u know how long it took me to find out the english title for this. anyways looks boring as hell! not even prim and neo can save this. and i don't like dew so... next!
my rating: 1/10
Cooking Crush
plot keywords: bl, cooking, uni bl, mains: off/gun
it's an offgun bl what else is there to say truly. now controversially i don't like it and i think it looks boring. this cutesy fluffy plotless type of plot is just not really my thing anymore i think? ik they'll do well tho so love and light
my rating: 4/10
Wednesday Club
plot keywords: ensemble cast, friendgroup, drama
now this???? yeah i was actively tuning in. i love drama i love fucked up situations i love people making bad choices and i love people doing worse than me. i wish joong wasn't in this and also what's up with that fakeass laughing in the trailer???? and also i don't understand why they used that music in the trailer? the trailer in general could've been a little better but i'm putting my faith in the final trailer it's gonna be good i'm manifesting it
my rating: 7/10
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Last Twilight
plot keywords: bl, visually impaired person/caretaker, mains: jimmy/sea
LISTEN i love jimmy but this is a no. first of all i don't like the jimmysea pairing (not for any rational reasons but oh well) and i also don't like these kinds of slice of life existential plots that they get here and also had in vice versa. so i will be skipping this sorry jimmy </3
my rating: 3/10
Loneliness Society
plot keywords: straight romance, lying about a relationship
looks boring. i don't really have anything else to say abt this one.
my rating: 1/10
Only Friends
plot keywords: ensemble cast, friendgroup, sort of bl, drama
now THIS??? all the fucking awards there are. best show that was announced this year everybody else go home. it's gay, it's messy, khao and neo are serving severe cunt what else could u possibly want. now idk why they had to throw in forcebook and mark. but not even they can drag this down for me it looks SO GOOD. ask me abt my ideal only friends casting
my rating: 10/10
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Faceless Love
plot keywords: straight romance, face blindness, rich/poor, love triangle, mains: dew/kao(/peach)
this is not how face blindness works. this whole show is so embarrassing it's funny. i can't take it seriously. also did she literally cure his face blindness at the end of the trailer. no words
my rating: 1/10
Dangerous Romance
plot keywords: bl, high school, enemies to lovers, rich/poor, tutoring, mains: chimon/perth
when i said i want chimon in a bl this is not what i meant. idk it just didn't hit.
my rating: 5/10
The Jungle
plot keywords: ensemble cast, fuckboys, drama
NOW THIS???? U HAVE NO IDEA HOW FUCKING MAD I AM ABT THIS. first of all. the trailer for this show FUCKS so hard. and yet i know this is gonna be a terrible show. AND fucking krist is in it. WHY. i'm so mad i'm so fucking mad
my rating: 2/10
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Midnight Museum
plot keywords: fantasy, magic, mains: gun/tor
there really is not a lot to say abt this plot wise but my god does it fuck hard. the cast is excellent (they already had me at namtan), the visuals are amazing, the concept looks so good. i'm so excited for this
my rating: 10/10
Our Skyy 2
plot keywords: ensemble cast, previous bl couples, special episodes
there's not much to say abt this. it's our skyy 2 it's self explanatory. as for the couples themselves: i will begrudgingly tune in for patpran, depending on the ending on the eclipse i'll decide whether or not to watch akkayan, puentalay no, nuea/kluen probably not, never let me go pondphuwin idk yet depends on whether or not i'll watch the show and how it ends, phuphatian maybe, my school president guys probably not and a boss and a babe forcebook no
my rating: 6/10
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Beauty Newbie
plot keywords: straight romance, my id is gangnam beauty remake, mains: baifern/win
so we've reached the final flops. yeah nobody moved. when will win be locked away in gmm's basement. we've seen enough of him.
my rating: 1/10
The Interest
plot keywords: straight romance, debt collector/indebted, violence, main: bright
nobody moved. why are they making this. what is the plot. bright needs to stop being handed main roles i'm so serious.
my rating: 1/10
Final Reflections
overall it's a very mediocre year ngl i was a little disappointed. there were very few shows out of the 18 that i was enthusiastic to watch but otherwise it's all very meh. i hope the final trailers will be better tho i'll stay tuned for them!
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ddejavvu · 1 year
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(the anon is me) Honestly, when I saw the discussion, I HAD TO JOIN sjsjsj so tyty
I get that- honestly, the only reason I got into kpop was because my cousin forced me at first because I was obsessed with Motionless In White and she wouldn't let me come over until I learned everything about BTS so I had to put that obsession on pause for BTS . So, I did and learned I actually did like their music so far! I mean, I'd prefer to have found them on my own but I mean, at least I get to say I was there from the "beginning" sjsjsj (not saying that being there since the beginning is more important or anything, it's just nice to find people surprised when I tell them.). but honestly, happy for you that you found your ults <33 and SAME, love them <33 I just got into Monsta X so please, anything you'd like to share, I'd love to hear???
LITERALLY WHAT I'M SAYING. Some people in fandoms become so toxic, even to others in the fandoms. How about the fans that believe you aren't fans unless you can remember every members birth-date, blood type, place of origin, etc. LIKE I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER MY OWNNNN. I get wanting to know about them because they're your idol or whatever your reason may be but you don't gotta hassle others about it, others aren't obligated to know such information and plus, some are multi stans, such as myself, and literally can't harbor ALL that knowledge. We are NOT spencer reid sjsjsj- NGL twitter stans scare me sometimes but some are absolutely lovely. But I still keep my distance like you do, better safe than sorry. But the tiktok edits are always something else LMAO the amount I've seen posting the funniest shit ever of the idols really make my day. (I will now send you some when I see them, if you're cool with that-) and I block people who do fanwar stuff. I just think everyone has their own taste and if you don't like anothers, you don't have to say anything, just leave it alone and block the person if it bothers you so much.
SOWJOIJSOIJ stahop you're literally so sweet, thank you <333 I barely meet any metalhead kpop stans T-T to be honest, when i see other metalhead pages, most of the time in their DNI is just Kpop stans and I'm literally making the ಠ_ಠ face cause dude, why so mad?
YOU'RE SO REAL FOR THAT sjsjsjs Honestly, I saw Hobi and was like, yes. HIM. and to see how far they've come WARMS my heart. But the enlistment always got me on my toes.
LMFAOO my bsf showed me chewing gum by nct dream and shine by pentagon and i was hooked.. but yes i definitely know what you mean!! ugh yes mx is so so so good i really recommend their series that they did called 'puppy days' (?) it's just them hanging out with puppies for the day and they literally have to nap halfway through the day bc they're so tired LMFAOO - it's so cute!! that's my favorite piece of mx media hehe
don't get me started on fans that gatekeep FROM OTHER FANS.. i'm really really bad at remembering dates so like kim mingyu my love!! i'm sorry but i don't have enough space in my brain to remember your birthday and my mom's birthday, and only my mom will be upset if i don't </3 you literally won't know </3 i always see their posts about it and silently wish them a happy birthday but like i do not always remember and that is okay!! ugh or people that scold you for not streaming mvs.. babe i have a big girl job and i go to big girl school i do not have time to stream an mv!! i am going to listen to the song if i like the song.
i think a big component of internet drama like that is age/maturity.. i'm not saying that every young person is immature and every older person is mature but like,, even just looking at my 15 year old self is so different in terms of maturity and i would have totally engaged in stupid pointless fanwars just to be right on the internet.. now i don't even fight with people on the internet for good reason lmfao i just block and scroll and it's SO BENEFICIAL to my life
not the dni... people get so creative with those omg i feel like mine is just generic lmfao - it astounds me to see some of them!! i don't necessarily think it's a bad thing, they're just curating their online experience like they're supposed to, but it is interesting to see everyone's preferences laid out in the open like that bc i'm not used to it
YES i love bias-at-first-sight <3 aw yeah i know that's coming up soon!! i wish you the best <3
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blole-hack · 2 years
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I've been questioning if im autistic
big sensory problems seriously
i like vegetables but i cant stand the tastes of some of them and textures. i mean i eat it but there's certain THRESHOLDS that i just can't, im about to puke, im sorry. it tastes good but idk why my body is rejecting it
i cant stand STRONG TASTES and STRONG SMELLS. But apparently I smell some things stronger than others???? like i can smell pee in some places where others dont lol (its the bathroom of course i smell the pee) and then it sticks to my nose bc of the particles that got stuck on my mask (as in anti COVID-19 mask not masking) so i had to swap masks but everyone else seemed fine
cant stand cold food lol do i just have stomach problem
cant stand perfumes or efficascent oil
cant stand sounds that people dont even think are loud tbh but its mostly because I'm scared of damaging my ears
its really hard to sleep without ear plugs but i think i just got used to it after sleeping near someone snoring.
touching certain textures is fine I'm just mildly germaphobic so if i touch something that feeels like it has like, idk, germs??? but im not scared of getting sick??? idk microorganisms scare me even though i know theyre everywhere
i cant stand the smells of some masks which other people dont notice (like, the insides)
but there's some things im dull at tasting or smelling
motion sickness dude... my whole life dude. and travel lag for hours
feel pressured to act normal but sometimes i just wanna let go maybe its social anxiety
cant speak/can barely speak idk if its enough to count as nonverbal during mornings but its so hard
its hard to respond when so many things are going at once
bad sense of direction because its hard to remember locations because of so many things around at once
triggered when some random person touches me but i just have boundaries
i dont really stim unless im excited. i dont rock back and forth for self soothing, or maybe i do??? idk i move sideways sometimes. i cant sit still i think HAHHAA when i discovered it was a thing though, shaking things off is pretty neat ow my ankle jk
iii do get the urge to just verbalize random shit fidget in certain ways but i dont really do it
i mean i do fidget but when I'm nervous
i do mimic things and basically built my identity by chipping things off from characters since I've been so confused about who i really am and that's the most accessible way of expressing and experimenting about it
some synthetic sounds or just music honestly hurt my ears. i dont know why. these things arent being complained about by other people. it makes composing and appreciating music hard.
ive never really parroted things randomly when i was a kid i think or llike older or something. i guess i did when i was like 3 until yeah
i dont really relate to the special interests thing though. might be important to have. actually maybe its art, music, writing. but growing up ive been kinda a stubborn person who didn't really wanna learn from anyone and just did things on my own. butt once i realized i would greatly benefit from learning i cant stand a day where i dont learn or improve IM JUST A PERFECTIONIST MAYBE but i dont really talk about them thaaaat much i dont really talk about anything much i dont really have much to say unless people are asking me for information
Ive been considered weird by peers before. when i was in grade 1 i tried writing a book in a small tiny book. it was a self help book. and then my classmates wrote "you're crazy" in the pages and tHATS WHEN I LEARNED TO USE EMOTIONAL WARFARE AND CRY IN CLASS TO GET WHAT I WANT MOTHERFUCKER -
I've always been so confused about socializing and why people seemed to know more about it than me but i realized afterwards that it's really just an art, there's no hard and fast rules besides not truly being a douchebag, and people just do whatever
i guess another thing that could be considered a special interest is my unstoppable urge of asking people about themselves, I'm really curious about others but have no idea how to talk about myself lol (i mean its stoppable i dont wanna look weird but i do wanna prod people so much)
i really wanna learn more about psychoanalyzing people but i hate Sigmund Freuds work HAHAHAHAHA
if it was more accessible maybe id be more nerdy about i
reading books is hard man...
ARTIFICIAL/SYNTHETIC FLAVORS. ARTIFICIAL/SYNTHETIC SMELLS i cannot stress this enough. i cant stand the combination of chocolate and milk sometimes, i cant stand the taste of whey protein sometimes when it has chocolate and milk as its flavoring
i think this is neurotypical as well but my senses get dulled sometimes when im focused on something else then later when i break focus all the sounds return. i guess yeah that makes sense but like it feels like i dont even process them subconsciously the info just gets thrown away HAHAHAHA
cant sleep when something is touching my neck even if its just my clothigny
when im already affected by motion sickness all of my senses get worse i guess thats normal
are my talking patterns weird <- my thoughts almost always
on the flip side, despite my interest in people, there's also me not understanding people and fictional characters *some emotions or recognizing them until i read or watch analyses or meta posts (thats why I love them)
i mean getting diagnosed is incredibly terrible Because People Will Make Your Life Worse and judge you for it with stigmas but heyyy at least i can get an excuse from my family why i dont wanna eat those *specific* vegetables please i beg i feel bad for the veggies whenever i want to vomit them
so yeah since i cant get diagnosed might as well ask actual neurodivergent people on tumblr
maybe i should just blender them into a nice textureless juice if i want my fill NUTRIENTS BABY without the near vomit experience!
wonder if any neuro divergent peeps out there relate or if im neurotypical but i really just do have problems with textures and tastes
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idiotthewise · 2 years
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Depression and bad days with BPD tips because those days take you by suprise.
Options, suggestions:
Shower. Not a bath, a shower. Use water as hot or cold as you like. You don’t even need to wash. Just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. Sit on the floor if you gotta.
Moisturize everything even if you're a man's man and not into that girly shit. Try it. Use whatever moisturiser you like. Unscented? Mans lotion?Pound shop stuff. Fancy 48 hour stuff that makes you smell like a field of wildflowers or alpha viking? Use whatever you want, and use it all over your entire skin. It really helps. It feels fucking good.
Put on clean, comfortable clothes.
Put on your favorite underwear. Cute black lacy panties if you're a woman? Or bloke! I dunno. Those ridiculous Thunder Cats boxers you bought last year with Lion O on the bum? Put them on. Why not? I'm assuming a lot about your underwear here but you get the drift.
Drink cold water. Use ice. If you want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost. I always use lemon. Or whiskey! No don't.
Clean something. Doesn’t have to be anything big. Organize one drawer of a desk. Wash five dirty dishes. Do a load of laundry. Scrub the bathroom sink. Cleaning is cathartic for me. Helps me feel in control maybe and/or less hectic.
Blast music. Listen to something upbeat and dancey or rock music and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. Sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both. I do. Music lifts me up.
Make food. Don’t just grab a bag of monster munch or a snickers to munch on. Take a bit of time and make food. Even if it’s super noodles. You don't need to do a Gordon Ramsay and swear at everyone. Prick. Add something special to your food like a soft boiled egg or some steamed vegetables. Prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something.
Make something. Write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, carve stone, anything creative, artistic. Even if you don’t think you’re good at it. Create. That's my personal go to thing quite often.
Go outside. Get out there. Take a walk. Sit in the grass. Look at the clouds. Smell flowers. Put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin. Take your socks off and feel the grass on your souls. Earth yourself ....... man.
Call someone. Call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. Make a prank call to ....... actually no, scrub that. Talk to a stranger in a coffee shop. Have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. If you can’t bring yourself to call, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. Even if you don’t say much, listen to them. It helps.
Cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. Play with them. Take pictures of them. Talk to them. Tell them how you feel, it's not daft. I do.
This post may seem a bit cringe and cliche or silly and just shit to some, but this list keeps people alive. I know.
Just do one thing for now. Just one. That's all you need to do.
**Your absolute best won’t ever be good enough for the wrong people. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right ones. Remember that. Keep holding on. The darkness will pass and you can reset, refocus and keep going.
One Love.
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crypticpatterns · 2 years
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9, 26 and 46 (for the music ask meme)
9. A song you loved 5 years ago
My music taste from five years is absolute trash because all I was allowed to listen to for most of my life was contemporary Christian music. Five years ago I would have been sixteen...which means at that point I hadn't even listened to any musicals yet, so I can't even use anything from Hamilton.
I'm relatively certain I didn't have Spotify yet as a sixteen year old so I can't check, but I think a song I was obsessed with around that time was Proof of Your Love by forKing&Country. I don't listen to their music nowadays since I'm not a Christian anymore but if you want an actually good song by them that I still like, listen to Burn the Ships. It wasn't out in 2017, though.
26. A song that reminds you of your favorite fictional character
I have a whole playlist for Goro on Spotify which I won't share because I'm insecure and I don't feel like I have enough songs in it yet because I only really recently got into music that's actually my style instead of garbage Christian crap.
Anyway, I will choose a song from that playlist. Killer in the Mirror by Set it Off. Here are some of the lyrics:
'Cause I used to believe in justice
A place where there was better judgment
But now I'm feeling so disgusted
By the "have its" and the "have nots"
Get back, put your hands up, kinda messed up, but it's tough luck
And I'm sorry, but I don't feel bad for you
'Cause I know if you could switch this
You'd be dishing out the same shit
Saying sorry, but I don't feel bad
Now I know there's no one I can trust
I used to think there was
Tell me that I'm cutthroat
I think you got your eyes closed
Feel the fear and swallow back the tears
Let weakness disappear
There's nobody but me here
The killer in the mirror
I have considered drawing an animatic for Goro with this song but it probably won't actually happen.
46. A song that you wish more people knew about
I can't really say I'm into anything indie or unpopular. My music taste is pretty basic atm since I've only just started exploring different genres and bands outside musical theatre. So I think for this I'll go a bit unconventional and recommend my favorite instrumental song. Standing the Storm by William Joseph. Genuinely it's just. so good. It says so much without any words and I'm obsessed and probably always will be.
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servin-up-surveys · 10 months
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survey #149
Do you like getting flowers as a gift? I do, even though I can't quite explain why, like they're just gonna die now. I think it's pure tradition which makes me like it, despite the fact I generally don't give a microscopic shit about traditions.
Who is one person you never get tired of? My boyfriend.
How different would your life be if “that one thing” didn’t happen? I'd almost certainly be married to and have kids with someone who didn't ultimately believe in me and was by this point probably extremely frustrated with me being mentally ill that he'd likely hate me. We would not be a happy couple. Who knows, maybe I never even would've gotten the mental help I needed.
What is “that one thing”? A traumatic breakup.
What’s the most desperate thing you did? god I am NOOOOOOT going there
Where was the last place you took a train to? I've never been on a train, actually.
What are your living arrangements currently? Are you happy with them? I live with my mom and our pets. Yes, I enjoy my mom's company, but both me and Girt want our own place by now, it's just not reasonable with the housing market.
Have you met your soulmate? I don't believe in those.
If your best friend wanted to cheat on their partner, you would say what? Well my best friend is my boyfriend, so we wouldn't stay together. In the hypothetical where my best friend wasn't my own partner, I'd definitely tell them to do the same, not just straight-up cheat. Let them go first.
Who do you know that gives very sound advice? Specifically Mazzy, they are fantastic at balancing realism with acknowledgment of emotions.
At what age did you start to feel like a teen and not a kid anymore? It was the exact day I started my period, which was 12 or 13, according to my mom.
What is your parents’ idea of grounding you? Taking away computer privileges.
Do you think art museums are pointless? ?????????????????????? does ANYBODY ACTUALLY think this?????????????????????
Do you care about looks when you’re looking for a romantic partner? I don't think I do, or if I do, it must have to be a case of extreme unattractiveness for me to notice. Me being attracted to someone has to be no less than at LEAST 90% about personality.
How many times have you moved? Officially four, but I've "lived" in apartments with Jason and much later Colleen temporarily.
Is Christmas stressful? It's not for me, yet, I'm sure because I'm not expected to get my loved ones stuff because I have no income. I already have to ask my fucking mom to get at least ONE thing for my s/o, because that's one I feel WAY too bad about not getting anything for, even though he doesn't care whatsoever. It's such a garbage fucking feeling. Historically I've always made/gotten people gifts I put a shitload of thought into and often a great deal of effort, so me ACTUALLY having money to buy gifts for so many people for a holiday will likely be really stressful for me. I'd likely obsess over something not being "good enough" or overspend.
Your best friend has a good or bad taste in music? Good, we like mostly the same stuff, but there are some small surprises. His music on shuffle is insane though haha, going from death metal to some goofy parody song.
What would your friends be surprised to see in your music library? The number of Melanie Martinez songs on my iPod would definitely surprise people, I genuinely like a lot of her stuff.
Do you like to talk about the future when in a serious relationship? Yes, it's reassurance to me that you're actually interested in staying together.
Do you like public displays of affection? Only to a certain extent; I don't want to do overtly sexual things in public, but things like simple, quick kisses or calling me a petname in front of others, I do like because it shows me you're not ashamed of being with me.
Do you believe in moving in together before engagement or marriage? For me, that's what I'd prefer. I want to see how well we operate living under the same roof until we decide to do that forever.
Do you watch mukbangs? No, I've never quite gotten the appeal. Actually I have watched people who normally do vlog-like content do mukbangs as a random thing in the past, but that's primarily because I was invested in them as people and just liked watching whatever they did, but it's been years.
How do you lose weight? What’s your favourite diet food and exercise? Gonna be full honest, historically my biggest weight loss period was from extreme undereating, like I did nothing else to cause it, and because of that I'm still dealing with it as I try to re-lose weight I gained back, but I've been at a plateau for a very long time now... which I now know is likely from how extreme my hypothyroidism is. As a teenager I lost a good deal of weight from playing WiiFit daily; I got in the best shape of my entire life with it. I have gone done a bit with physical therapy too. I haven't found a reliable - and safe - weight loss method that works for me yet as an adult...
Do you have a lot of friends? Do you have a partner? Have you ever had one? I don't have many friends, but those I do have are pretty fucking great quality. I have a boyfriend and he's my best friend literally ever.
Do you currently have any hickeys? From who? No.
Who was the last person to come to your house? Girt.
Have you ever had sex with the same gender? Totally honest I'm not really sure what the consensus is on what cis female x cis female sex is, but either way I say no.
If you’ve experienced both, is sex better with men or women? I have a feeling that sexually I'll always prefer men, but I wouldn't really know.
Have you ever been the other woman? No, I will not be somebody's second choice.
Would you ever want to be with a virgin? If no, why not? I couldn't care less. Neither of the people I've been with sexually were/are, but it wouldn't bother me at all.
Do you constantly find yourself internet stalking your ex? No, last I knew he only had Facebook and I was (rightfully) blocked, but I haven't even tried to look in a very long time. I don't look at Sara's accounts anywhere because I've learned it never, ever serves me any sort of good whatsoever so I just don't.
Are you friends with any of your exes? Not really; I don't have any bad blood with Aaron, we just haven't talked since like, the start of high school, and he deactivated his Facebook many years ago. Juan and I have recently messaged some, but I'm keeping distant and have no interest in actually pursuing friendship with him.
Do you have an addiction? To what? Internet, for sure. I've been that way since I was a kid, and it's never been fixed. I am annoyingly useless without Internet connection, like I have no idea what to do and it's seriously pathetic.
Blunts, bowls or bongs? I don't smoke, so I wouldn't know.
When you have a fight with your partner what do you do? We talk it out. We haven't had many of these at all, so I don't have a big pool of reference, but we absolutely value remaining calm (something I'm learning to be better at) and being completely upfront and honest. We put a lot of emphasis on maintaining strong communication.
Who does the grocery shopping in your house? Mom.
Are your parents still together? Hell no, I have a hard time believing they ever were lol. Dad is so like, not the person I would picture my mom falling in love with.
Have any siblings you know of but don’t actually know personally? Yes, my dad's first daughter Tiffany. Never met her in my life and know almost nothing about her; I think I've only seen a single picture of her. I love my dad but he does not get any fatherly awards, given he has nothing to do with her and very barely Misty, the daughter from his first marriage. The one time Misty came here with her kids, it was literally her who reached out to him to go to dinner and just meet his grandkids. It bothers me that it's only me and my two full-blooded sisters who seem to always matter to him.
Greatest fear? Living alone on the streets with nowhere to go.
Something most people fear that you do not fear at all? Snakes are one, I'm always stoked to see a snake.
Don’t you hate getting nice & comfy & then having to pee? UGH YES, and it sucks because I absolutely HAVE to get up and do it or else I literally cannot fall asleep.
Ever faked being pregnant? No, and these people fucking disgust me. This isn't a topic you joke about.
Ever had a major surgery performed on you? I wouldn't call either that I've had "major," no, at least I don't think so.
Which of the seven deadly sins are you guilty of? I mean at some point I experience all of them, but sloth is the one I'm MOST guilty of.
Do you believe in divorce? Yes, it should absolutely always be legal to leave someone if they no longer enrich your life. I VERY much do believe you should put immense thought into marriage and NEVER rush into it, and look into various possible futures with that partner and see if you still feel the same. I do definitely believe that a large percentage of people certainly don't take marriage seriously enough and never should've gotten married in the first place, but yes, divorce should always be an available option for people.
Is intelligence a turn on for you? Yes, show me that big brain papi
Who has made the biggest sacrifice for you? My mom.
Do you treat others better or worse than yourself and why? Oh, way better. I just don't like myself enough and hold myself to absurd standards I don't have for others.
When you sleep next to someone who usually falls asleep first? Oh, it has ALWAYS been the other person, with literally everyone I've ever shared a bed with. I have always had major difficulty with falling asleep; I even struggled as a kid. My brain just cannot shut off, ever.
Do you think it is harder for a parent to outlive their child or for their child to outlive them? Both are fucking awful, but I definitely think it's more difficult for a parent to outlive their child; like you have kids being so sure that you're going out first, that you'll never have to be in a world without them again, but for plenty of people, it happens.
What is one selfish thing you tend to do? I HATE talking when I'm listening to music, specifically if Mom and I are in the car; I've controlled the music forever, and I have to admit that I get annoyed when she talks over it sometimes; unless she's literally attempting conversation, I don't reply to most things she says aloud; if it doesn't require my input, I'm not saying anything. I'm fully aware how bitchy that is, it's just this shitty thing about me I've never managed to correct.
What kinds of people do you find intimidating? Pushy, loud people that are entirely blunt and not afraid of hurting your feelings at all and are go go go 200% of the time.
Who is the most overbearing person you know? Our fucking landlord/family "friend," which I don't really consider her anymore.
How old was the first person you kissed? At the time we kissed, he was early into 18.
Do you plan on moving out within the next year? It'd be nice, but I'm not so sure it's gonna happen.
Have you ever slept nude? Only accidentally, just kinda Happened and I'm very grateful I stayed under the covers because this was with my teenage bf with his parents home lmfao
How many stories tall is your dream house? Honestly a dream house for me would still be one story; I don't want more rooms than we need (just more cleaning to do) and I'm not into stairs, lol.
Do you consider yourself to be promiscuous? Entirely the opposite.
Do you have any obscure pets? No, ball pythons are very common pet snakes, and the champagne morph is popular.
Do you consider yourself politically correct? I try to be, but I do sometimes worry about slipping up with a word I didn't know was even offensive.
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elfinblaze · 11 months
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Eurovision 2023
It's two weeks to go, so I thought I'd post my personal Top 12, as it stands. That could change once I see everyone live, but for now, my list:
1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrFUKqTy4zI Cyprus - Break A Broken Heart, by Andrew Lambrou Catchy, solid, radio-friendly song, with an impressive voice. Not anything unusual, just a genuinely good song, which is not a bad thing. This is one I actually listen to often, so it's going straight to number 1 for me. Unfortunately I think it's going to get lost among all the other strong songs this year, so I expect I'm in the minority when it comes to loving this song. 2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y12_YMs9kCQ Germany - Blood & Glitter, by Lord of the Lost Germany sent a band from Napalm Records, which is a legendary record company in the metal scene, and I - for one - am thrilled! Now this is some catchy Metal music, enough to make you debate whether you want to dance or head-bang or a bit of both, but not so heavy it's inaccessible to a broader audience. I like the voice, the melody, how tight the band sounds. Fantastic band. Very German. This is our taste in music. 3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqtu2GspT80 Australia - Promise, by Voyager I'm tossing up whether I'm biased putting both my home countries at numbers 2 and 3, but I don't think so; I genuinely like both songs and think they are objectively good songs. I'm thrilled both countries sent their strongest genres this year, and this one's a really good, old-school, solid Australian rock song. I'll be shocked if Australia win, but I expect them to do better than people might be thinking. 4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8-Sbc_GZMc Switzerland - Watergun, by Remo Forrer One of several anti-war (read: anti-Russia) songs this year, and my favourite of those. I'm a rock fan. As should be obvious from this list. I love the low voice and the message, as well as this being a solid song as well. 5. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ak5Fevs424Y Ireland - We Are One, by Wild Youth Catchy rock ballad with uplifting lyrics. A bit generic maybe, but pure natnip to me. And I know I'm in the minority here, but I don't care: this song reminds me of pop-rock bands from 10 years ago, so it's like a comfy set of slippers for me. Just enjoyable to listen to. 6. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zt7U0-N1mlk Norway - Queen Of Kings, by Alessandra Insanely catchy dance number. I know it's a favourite to win, and I'm not surprised. Apparently it's doing very well in gay clubs too (I haven't been clubbing in decades, but this is what I hear). I wouldn't mind Norway winning. 7. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GWfbEFH9NvQ France - Évidemment, by La Zarra A catchy pop song! With meaningful lyrics, and I'm hearing this one is another favourite to win. 8. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znWi3zN8Ucg Finland - Cha Cha Cha, by Käärijä This was in my top 5, and it dropped a bit after I've listened to all the songs a few more times, but I still like it. Very fun. 9. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oeIVwYUge8o Serbia - Samo Mi Se Spava, by Luke Black I dunno what it is about this one, but it entrances me. I don't think it's very popular, but it grabs me and won't let my attention wander. Must be the heavy beat. I like it. 10. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZMmLeV47Au4 Austria - Who The Hell Is Edgar?, by Teya & Salena I love the literary references. It's not my favourite, obviously, considering it's 10th on this list, but it's got a good beat, and a hook, and it has the potential to win the competition, which… I would not be mad about. 11. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Apqwl0ayL6A Malta - Dance (Our Own Party), by The Busker This has such a catchy beat, kinda jazzy, but still poppy. Makes me want to dance. 12. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJ21grjN6wU United Kingdom - I Wrote A Song, by Mae Muller It's a decent pop song. Still trying to decide whether I want to listen to this once Eurovision is over for the year, or not. But at least the UK sent a decent song.
I don't know who's going to win. I doubt it'll be any of my top 3 (not because I don't think rock can win; Lordi and Måneskin proved that), but I'm usually surprised by the winner, so who knows. Maybe Norway. France is in with a chance too. Anyway, there's a lot of great songs this year.
And now for some bonus songs:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqGM_8Nn3D0 Promise (House Remix), by Voyager I don't know how the band managed to film this video with straight faces; it's amazing. The uniform bopping, the robotic banging on the beatbox, the screaming into the telephone! It's brilliant. If you want a dance version instead of the original version of this song, this is fantastic.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgs4KeaEsBk Gladiator, by Jann Because this was allllmost Poland's entry, and in my opinion it's miles better than the one that was chosen instead. It's darker and different, and it grabs me. Jann (Jan Rozmanowski) is such a fascinating young singer and I can't wait to see where his career goes. If this was in my Top 12 List, it would be battling France for 7th place. Is it obvious yet that I like some darkness in my music?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JefXBxvPElE One Last Song (accoustic), by Lord of the Lost Proving what a fantastic band they are, this song gives me chills. There's a bleakness to it (without being gloomy), but also a loving and sincere note, which is what makes this song so special. It's love and sorrow, and beautiful. I love it, I love it, I love it! Having watched a few interviews, the band seem like really friendly guys too, and they very clearly know what they're doing.
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Hi hi so i wanted a match-up i never did one of these things but im super excited and i would like Bnha!
I'm Tara
My personality ; shy around new people but when you get to know me i can be very VERY extroverted person im passionate and my mbti if you know what that is is INFP 9w1!
I have a preference for male!
Also im a female))
Hobbies; Dancing, drawing, painting, listening to music actually anything creative!
And my pronouns are she/her.
My star sign is a Cancer with q Sagittarius moon.
Sorry if this is to long but in any way thank you! :)
If you wanna call me an anon it will be 🌸anon!
Hello anon 🌸! You did well! These events are kinda weird at first, but its fun to see who people would ship you with if you were a character! Anyway!
I match you up with…
Mirio!
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I will explain, don't worry!
• Mirio would love you because you could be a small bean and at the same time an energetic person!
• He loves your shy side and loves it when you lean you him when first meeting people!
• That being said, he tries his best to see if the other person is an ok match for you to meet.
• Will they make you nervous? Do they deserve your cute energetic self?
• He also loved how you could be so full of life with him, it meant the world to Mirio that you were close enough to be like that with him.
• He doesn't quite know how to dance but he is down to it if you ask!
• He likes to peek over your shoulder to see what you are drawing/painting.
• Sharing earphones with him is a nightmare. He moves a lot so…
• You have different taste in music, so he did a playlist you both could enjoy! Mixed songs!
Now for the little scenario…
Tsuki's note: do you have a blorbo? Let me know about them!
Imagine: You are feeling a little down and missing him, so Mirio decides to have a little couple moment.
• You miss him so much, you know he is a hero to be and often stays out.
• But you still miss the times he wasn't so busy, the times you would go for a walk in the park.
• Not like his hero work was bad! No it wasn't, it just took him away from you and his family.
• Like today. He had to help the remaining pro heroes now, since the prison break out and the whole Dabi thing made many heroes quit.
• It was in the middle of the afternoon, you were drawing something for a current blorbo, when you heard the doorbell ring.
• You grunted, it was the worse to stop in the middle of a sketch!
• You dragged yourself to the front door and as soon as you got there you heard a knock. You asked " who is there?"
• The reply you got: Owl. You didn't quite recognize the voice. But you decided to play along:" Owl who?" This time, a familiar voice replied: Owl will be seeing you again soon.
• You laughed a lot and swung the door open, to see Mirio standing there with a bright smile.
• You hugged him tight, he picked you up and spun you around.
• You asked him many questions as you led him inside: Why he was there, what happened to his duties, how things were going,if he was hurt.
• He avoided the most serious question - which was " how things were doing" - and replied the first one: he missed you. Decided to come relax with you.
• You were overjoyed, but worried by his lack of answers.
• You decided not to push though. Mirio would come around to it when and if he wanted.
• But he did notice you were a bit down.
• You soon forgot about your drawing and wanted to talk to him, but he got up from the couch and offered his hand to you.
• You were confused at first, he smiled at you: " c'mon! Take my hand!"
• So you did. To your surprise he decided to dance with you!
• No music, just you two waltzing around the living room - or trying to.
• You both laughed so much.
• You were so close to Mirio, you missed everything about him, the warmth, the laugh, the smell, the voice - all of it!
• This little session lasted until you two almost knocked a vase.
• Then you two busted out laughing.
• After this moment he apologized for being so absent.
• You forgave him. He was here and now, but asked him to take a bit more time to himself.
• Sure, everyone needs the heroes, but if he is not ok how he is going to help others?
• You could see he felt a little bad about it.
• So you just pulled him back to the couch and decided to use some white noise.
• You just wanted to cuddle with your favourite hero ever.
• Ah, if you ever say that to him, he gets ridiculously happy and blushes a lot too!
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Let me know what you think! Thank you for participating and requesting!
Cheers!
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loisinherlane · 3 years
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songs that make your heart beat
rules: put 5 songs that just make you feel out of this world with a short explanation. it could be your comfort songs, your favorite ones, anything that makes you feel things! and then tag your friends!
tagged by @anti-solidcoffee which is funny bc i’m having a whole music breakdown tonight
1. Seven Years by Alexa Ray Joel--this is a song i just listened to tonight but it makes me feel things because it’s like. the romance of growing old together and also you can feel that it’s not a perfect relationship but it’s still.
2. Kyoto by Phoebe Bridgers--complicated relationship with father? check. upbeat song about dark topics? check. i like to scream this in the car.
3. Knots by Anna Nalick--i can sing really high on this one and it also makes me feel things. it’s about complicated relationships again. i love anything complicated.
4. Let It Be by the Everly Brothers (also check out the cover by Foxes and Fossils on YouTube)--it’s just high key Romance. i love slow romantic songs that i can sing with all my energy.
5. Birthday by Maisie Peters--a song about someone forgetting your birthday that probably shouldn’t make me as emotional as it does but like. the realization that someone really doesn’t care enough about you to remember even something big hurts.
tagging @rainelinde and anyone else who wants to because i’m too shy to tag anyone other than good friends
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Love for The Venus Signs <3
I'm in a really mushy mood, and I feel like y'all deserve some love. Starting 2022 off with positivity! Without further ado, this is what I love and appreciate about the Venus signs <3
(I apologise in advance for all the <3 I'll be doing I'm so sorry it's a habit I cannot break for the life of me)
Aries: You are so fun! You know what you like, and I respect that. I love the way you are able to decisively put an end to relationships when they no longer serve you, or are positive for you. Now, I'm not saying you aren't loyal, or you leave when times get tough. What I'm saying is that if your partner is cheating, you absolutely will dump them. If someone is leading you on, you will stop chasing. I admire your self respect. You also have really interesting taste (in a good way!). I trust you 100% for music recommendations. You are probably one of the only people where I know *exactly* how much you love me, and I feel it every day. You'll die before you let me forget it. Thank you, my dears.
Taurus: One of my favourites!!! I want a Taurus Venus to fall in love w me so bad omg. You make ABSOLUTELY sure that your partners (and other people closest to you) feel safe and secure with you. They can tell you literally anything, and you will love them just the same. There is something about your love that feels like ~a mix between kitten fur, and silk bedsheets~. I want to take you on a nice date that I've spent a month planning and SHOW YOU, as much as I can, how wonderful you are. By the way, you are so unbelievably pretty (no matter what gender you identify as). You always make the people around you feel so cared for, without being smothering. Also you have just the right amount of possessiveness to make me feel wanted, without being toxic. MWAH!!! *kisses you* <333333
Gemini: I love the way you show your love. It's very subtle, and if you weren't paying attention you could miss it. You won't necessarily tell me outright with words, or give me hugs or kisses, but I know. I know because of the way you RUN to tell me some exciting news. Or how you always make an active effort to find me and say goodnight/good morning or hello/goodbye to me. I know because of how you always make me food whenever you are making some. I know because of how you give me my space, and never pressure me. I know because of how you try (and succeed) to make me laugh, every single day. Every single action, every word you say or move you make is filled with love that you are begging the other person to understand. And it's okay honey, I do. I see you, and I love you too <3.
Cancer: I've told you how much I love you already (here and here), but it will never be enough. You are so tender. I actually believe you not only feel love, but you ARE love. You always understand how I feel, and you have always been there to listen. Even if it's literally 2am and I'm just ranting about manga or IS NOT more important than sleep. You are my greatest supporter. My greatest hype-man. Every time I see you I'm overwhelmed with emotion, and I really don't know how to express it. I would love to tell you exactly how much you mean to me, and I try, but I don't want to freak you out. Just, please know that you are amazing. I know your family might suck, life might be hard. But YOU, my love, are extraordinary. One of the best people I can think of. I am being fully serious when I say I would die for you. Not a single doubt in my mind. Also I love your fashion and makeup please teach me you're amazing ily <333333333.
Leo: You are the most thoughtful motherfuckers in the whole world. I can push, and push, and push you away but you'll always be there. You know I need you. I always will. I'll never tell you, but I miss you so much when you're gone. Like, seriously. My family is fucking *crazy* sometimes and you are the only people who I feel safe enough ranting to about them. More than anyone in my life, you know me like that. You also remember everything. Maybe not specifics, but you remember the important bits. I love your gifts. Not in a materialistic way, it's just... I actually cry every time I think of the fact that you care about me enough, that you remembered, and you went out and bought me something?? Oh my fucking GOD I love you. Also, I love the way you call me out on my bullshit. It's always in such a kind, but super blunt way. You challenge me to be better. You make me better. Thank you, a thousand times over. I will never, ever be able to truly express my gratitude for you.
Virgo: So underrated???? You are so kind to everyone. Are you that kind to yourself? You deserve love too, ya know. Stop working for a minute. Sit down. Drink some water. Seriously, please drink some fucking water. You matter. Rest, my love. Let me rub your shoulders. Lay your head in my lap and let me play with your hair. It's okay to be soft, alright? It doesn't make you weak. I pinky promise. The only time you let me in is when you *truly* cannot take it anymore. I am always thankful for that, but please let me in before that breaking point. Let me take care of you, as you take care of everyone else. Would all that be okay with you? Come lay down with me, sweetheart. Let me massage your scalp until you fall asleep, while we watch a Studio Ghibli movie. If you're sick of being inside, let's go to the botanical gardens. We'll look at the beautiful greenery, and I'll tell you that they'll never hold a candle to you. Let me pepper your pretty cheeks with kisses as I try to convey to you just how much love I have for you. Love that overflows, and is dying to be expressed. Please take it easy, and know how much I utterly adore you.
Libra: Okay so I dated one of you guys for about a year and half, so I have the most experience with you guys romance-wise (everything else is platonic unless I've said so). In fact, he'll probably read this so, hey man how's it goin! Anyway. You are not soft and mushy and ditzy than the stereotypes say?? I don't even know where that came from. Are you affectionate and sometimes PDA-y? Sure. But are you cutesy little air-heads that are obsessed with romance? Not in the slightest. Not in a bad way anyway. You are romantic in the way that you are very adaptable to your partners and what they need. They want tons of physical touch? Great, coming right up! They want space? That's no worries, as long as they text you when they can. Your priority is making sure your partner is comfortable and happy as much as possible, and you'll bend over backwards to make sure they are. You are also such good friends with your partners, first and foremost. Honestly really good S/O material, 10/10 would recommend. I'll love you always <3333
Scorpio: The most dedicated of partners. You want someone that would die for you? That would kill for you? Scorpio Venus. THEY EXPECT IT IN RETURN so be prepared for that, but absolutely y'all are worth it. First of all, your style and tastes in decoration n shit are everything, I love it. Please send me any and all design or fashion Pinterest boards you have. Second, please help me raise my standards babes I need to. I know y'all don't settle, teach me how to find a good partner please. Third, the best friends to rant about relationship issues with. You can get really deep and intense very quickly, you can just bitch, you can fit any kinda ~vibe~. I appreciate it a lot thank you. Honestly, I want more of you in my life. Everyone deserves this kinda energy. I hope you find someone who loves you as deeply and as clearly as you love them.
Sagittarius: Pleaseeee be my best friend. Also, please send me all your playlists. Babes we both know you have them. I want to watch anime with you. But like, one that's not serious (My Hero Academia or The Disastrous Life of Saiki K sort of vibe??). Let's make a secret handshake. Let's go for a drive and explore forests. Let take pictures of the pretty mushrooms and discuss whether or not it would reeeaaaally be that bad if we ate one?? (yes it would don't be stupid). Let's go clothes shopping, I really wanna hear your takes on my outfits. Text me at random, awful hours asking if I'm awake and start debating the meaning of life with me. Also, tell me if I'm being an idiot. I overthink constantly and I desperately need you to tell me to shut the fuck up. On the same note, tell me if I'm ever being ignorant. Send me articles for causes I'm not very educated on yet. Thank you very, very much. You are my best, most precious friends. I love you <33333
Capricorn: Potentially biased because this is my placement, and two of my best friend's placement, but still. I know exactly how hard it is for you to express your love. Trust me, I do. I am SO thankful for when you open up, and do tell me how you feel. I promise I feel the same. Why do you fight my love so much?? We both know you crave to know your love is reciprocated. But when I try to tell you how much I love you back, you kinda,,, don't know what to do?? Let me do shit for you, dammit! Let me make you big dorky collages of your favourite band that you won't stop talking about! Let me buy you your favourite snack every time I see it because I always think of you when I see it! Let me take stupid selfies of us! Let me give you honest, but incredibly loving advice! You make my chest all warm n fuzzy, and you make me smile like an idiot. This is what happens when you don't let me actively express my love back!! Don't be dumb, let me show you are much I adore you. Please, let me be soft with you. I love you so so so much <3333333
Aquarius: Your love is special. I mean, all love is special, but yours is in a different way. You piss me off (in a loving way). You make me do stuff that's outside of my comfort zone, because you know it's good for me. Of course, you're always right, it's never as bad as I think. But I'm still gonna fight you on it. You want me to be my very best self, and push me every day to make sure I am. Don't worry, you let me rest when I really need it. You're very good at knowing when I'm just anxious or when I'm actually too tired. I appreciate your seemingly innate understanding of people. I also appreciate how you always know what's going on in the world. And if you don't know, you sure as hell are willing to learn. I have a lot of respect for you, as much as I may not show it. You deserve more warmth than you get, though. I love you, please know that. Always.
Pisces: Kind of a soft spot for me, if I'm honest. You are so very pretty. Every single one of you. I love how cuddly you become. Just, stop thinking for a while? Lay your pretty head on my chest, and watch a funny movie or something with me. Let's just chill out, calmly in each other's soft presence. I'll bake us some cookies! You can help if you want. I'll make the dough and you decorate, yeah? Wonderful! I love the way you get into my astrology stuff with me. You'll let me nerd out about it for hours on end. You'll ask me questions about it, too! You'll watch my favourite show (Brooklyn Nine-Nine for anyone wondering) with me over and over and over again. You will give me book recommendations. You will be patient with me as I go into every crystal shop I see and read each card about the crystal's meaning (even if I already know). You'll plan our future lives together with me. Not in a crazy way, but like, we'll talk about how badly we both want a cat and what we would name it. I love you guys so much. You inspire me every day, I love you <333333
Okay everyone, this is all I have for today! I hope you appreciate my love, I spent ages pouring my heart out here. Tell me what you think! Remember to please drink some water, eat if you can, and that you are loved. Thank you so much!!!!
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IN YOUR FAVOR | SUNA RINTAROU
pairings: Suna x g/n!reader
summary: In such a large, corrupt campus, it’s hard to find someone who’s willing to put up with anything, especially your drunk self.
from the writer: this was supposed to be my xmas gift here but oh well uhm anyways I have to work like three days in a row after posting this... fun :D eh idk maybe I'll get some inspiration from my male coworker while I'm at it or something (that’s not called using him.. righttttt? right :)) though this is technically going to be my last fic of the year, I'm glad its this one because imma be honest, I think I'm the shit/j no I just laugh at my own jokes but really, to anyone who actually reads my rants, I hope u enjoy this bc this made me laugh way more than any other fic I've written and in a way, its special <3
genre: fluff, crack, drunk fic, strangers to lovers (?)
wc: 4.4k (whew longest I've written in a while)
notes & warnings: reader is drunk!!! also a lot of secondhand embarrassment so this is your first and only warning!!! mentions of alcohol, two mentions of m*rder (in a drunk way), your dorm mates are really shitty, party at a sorority house, cursing, reader is all kinds of drunk (it’s called inclusivity people 😃)
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“Hey, can you watch our drinks for us? We’ll be right back.”
Three red plastic cups find their way into your arms, the owners walking off without another word to you thus, leaving you defenseless in the house of a sorority you didn’t even know. The sigh you let out gets lost in the blaring music that bangs against the walls, vibrating with a frequency large enough to cause a headache without the alcohol.
You lean back against the wall, eyeing the entrance of the house with envy lingering in your eyes, before deciding right there that you’d leave the moment they came back for their drinks.
Placing the three cups down on the nearest table, you take to holding only your drink to which you periodically sip from. The alcohol burns as it passes through your throat, leaving an almost dry feeling in your mouth with a taste that makes you feel off about the beverage. Regardless, you continue with your drink, and then another, and then another.
It’s after you’ve already finished three drinks that your dorm mates come back, two hours having passed since they promised to come back for you. “Hey, sorry. We got distracted on the way back.” For two hours? Looking down, you can tell how they don’t even bother to hide the new drinks they had gotten for themselves along the way, making you roundly roll your eyes as you walk off.
“I’m leaving.”
You don’t wait for an answer, and even if you did, it’d only be drowned out in the music just like everything else. Your cup finds the trashcan on the way out and you’re thankful for the cold air that greets you as you walk down the shallow steps of the porch, regardless of it being the middle of winter.
You should have known it was a bad idea to come along in the first place, especially when the word sorority had made its way into the conversation. You mentally shake your head, trying to clear your mind and the bad gut feeling for the most part before reminding yourself that you could start looking for your own apartment soon as you start your walk back to the dorm building.
All is quiet but it takes a minute for you to notice that your steps are starting to fall out of sequence, your body swaying as you desperately try to find your balance again. Shit. Tell-tale signs of alcohol.
Looking around, you spot one of the many cafes that litter the campus, the warm light attracting you like a fly as you mindlessly stumble through the door. Though it could be considered early to be leaving a party, you still feel the pins of shock at the sight of a line to order and people lounging about at tables seemingly placed at random.
The thought dawns upon you: a night cafe.
The sign with their hours on the door is too small and blurry for you to make out, but it’s pointless as you’ve already claimed a spot in line without thinking so much of what to order or to even skim the menu. What am I doing? I should just go home instead.
Just as your conscious agrees with your mind, your body digresses in retaliation as it brings you closer to the counter in shaky steps and unbalanced coordination. Just as you’ve watched your feet hold a place where your body is oddly balanced, you’re called up to the register to order.
Your hands land on the counter, palms flat as your arms straighten to support your weight and you keep your head down. “Um, I...” Just leave! Your eyes follow the counter several inches to the right where you spot a menu, but the words are too blurry for you to read. You’re drunk.
Just as you think about reaching out for the menu, one of your arms give out, your legs already too tired to support your weight any longer, and you think you might just be ready to leave this world after coming to the conclusion that there is no coming back embarrassment-free from passing out at the register of a cafe.
The ground grows closer as you fall, almost in slow motion until you stop. There’s something that comes around your back, warmth palming at your side as one of your arms is lifted to come across a pair of broad shoulders. Someone caught you.
“I’m sorry,” You hang your head impossibly further. “I didn’t think the alcohol would be so strong.” You keep your eyes down on the floor, watching a pair of black boots walk closely to yours. In the sound distance, you think you hear words of reassurance.
Your mouth speaks apologies for you before you’re being seated at a table, a tall window serving a scene of winter pleasant on the eyes. The cool air is frosted against the glass window, a chill emitting a shiver that runs up your spine and falls down your arms before you hear a voice speak muffled words, the same voice that spoke of reassurance.
You let out a soft sigh of confusion, eyes glazed over but ears perked as you listen again. “I’m gonna get you some water and food.” There’s a pause, but eventually, you realize that the person speaking is waiting for an answer. You nod quietly, lips pressed together in a silent apology and agonizing shame.
I really should have just left.
You wait until the black boots disappear to lift your head, turning to look at the drizzle starting outside the cafe. You watch as anonymous figures in large coats jog for shelter, book bags being held over heads as a temporary shield. Even as you sit in the arms of manmade sunlight, it oddly feels as if you’re running with them in the rain, just as cold under the sky that bears its tears to the world.
There’s a clash of ceramic on the table in front of you, but it isn’t until something bumps against your shoe that you turn your attention away from the window. The black boots are back, one near your shoe that’s enough to tell you what had bumped against your foot.
You look at the table, a steaming mug of what looks to be hot chocolate and a plated croissant sitting fresh in front of you. You curl your lips in, the bottom half stuck between your teeth, before popping them back out. “Thank you...” When you raise your eyes to look straight ahead, you can only make out the middle section of a black apron, breast pocket showing no name or name tag of the sort.
“Suna. Suna Rintarou.”
You raise your chin, making brief contact with green before looking away with a pout just shy on your lips. “Thank you, Suna.” Hopefully, he’s heard you over the distant chatter of lingering customers as your head fills with one thought.
He’s... pretty.
The hot chocolate slides past your throat, not as easy as water would but easier than the alcohol that now runs freely through your veins. You let out a quiet sigh when you’ve let the mug hit the wooden table again, the smell of chocolate burning on your lips with a sugary aftertaste.
Slowly, you go to pick at the croissant, flakes falling to the pristine ceramic in a similar manner of fall-toned leaves kissing the concrete with tips curled in at a last attempt of self-protection.
Oh, now you’re getting a little too cheesy.
You look down your side again, eyes traveling down the arch of your leg and to the floor where black boots wait in patience.
“Are you okay to get home—”
“I’m sorry for causing so much trouble.” The piece of the pastry you once held in your hand is placed back onto the plate before you continue. “I really don’t drink this much, I don’t know why I did, but I’ll pay you back. Here, lemme get my wallet out.” Your voice trails off, eyes pointing themselves to the pocket of your coat where you think your wallet might be.
Your hand is shoved into the pocket, fingers clumsily rummaging around until pressure on your arm stops you mid-search. “You don’t have to pay for anything,” There’s something else that Suna says but you don’t get a chance to hear as he continues. “Just tell me if I can call someone to pick you up or help you back to... wherever you came from.”
“I was born in (hometown).”
“Okay, thank you. So there’s no one I can call?”
You shake your head, the knowledge of your roommates being the only people you know lingering absentmindedly in your brain. There was no one else, so you shake your head again. “My roommates are still at the party, high and drunk off their asses by now, I bet.”
There’s a low scoff, one that almost sounds like a chuckle but there’s no time to think as Suna sits himself in the seat across from you. “Okay, I’ll drive you to your apartment—”
“I live in the dorms.”
Suna presses his lips together, silent and in waiting in case you have something else to say, before proceeding. “Okay, I’ll drive you to your dorm after I close up. Sound good?” You pause before nodding silently.
“Thank you, Suna.”
You don’t realize that you’ve fallen asleep until Suna is shaking you by the shoulder, the engine turned off with the car still on, and the headlights reflecting with a harsh glare against the car in front. “Building C, right?” Just as you had told him, he had parked right across the street from the brick building stacked tall with overpacked dorms and communal bathrooms. Home sweet home.
“Uhm, y-yeah. Looks like it.”
Maybe I shouldn’t have parked across the street. Suna thinks to himself with a frown pressing on his lips. “Can you get in by yourself?” He eyes the building across the street.
“Yeah, yeah. It’s... um...mm.” Mid-sentence, you fail to catch your head that falls limp on your shoulder, pushing your body into an uncomfortable position as you lose another battle to sleep.
Suna turns off the car and unbuckles his seatbelt before going around the car to help you out of your seat. With your arm around his shoulders and his under yours, Suna is almost tempted to just carry you as he nearly drags you across the street and to the entrance of the building.
“Hey, can you get your entrance card out? Need to scan it to get in.” When Suna looks down at you, your eyes are slitted and glazed over, but more or less open as you slowly gain consciousness. With a small hum, you start to fumble for a card before pressing it against the panel.
The light flashes red.
Again, you press the card against the panel, and again, the light flashes red. Looking down at the card, you almost sink into yourself as your eyes find red letters in bold. “Oh, this is a Ch*potle gift card. Oops.”
That’s actually an Am*zon gift card, but Suna keeps his lips sealed as you finally pull out your entrance card to which a green light flashes in response. “Waiiiiit.” Suna turns to look at you, foot raised in a mid-step through the doorway. “What’s wrong?”
He watches as you cast your eyes downward, a force pulling the edges of your lips down. You mutter something too quiet for him to hear, so Suna leans in closer with a question for you to repeat it. “What if you do something bad?”
There’s a pause in his actions, delayed by a sliver of shock before he’s overtaken with amusement. “Oh? Like what?” Straightening to his full height, or as much as he could with you on his shoulders, Suna can’t help but let a smirk fall onto his lips.
“Like,” You lean in closer to his ear. “stealing my stuff. O-or, m*rdering me.” All in the midst of drunken chaos, Suna thinks this is the best use of his time that he’s ever invested in. “That’s a big jump between the two. Hm, maybe you shouldn’t let me go with you. Good thinking.”
Sliding his arm out from under you, he lets you stand on your own two legs, wobbling like a newborn until you admit defeat by grabbing onto his outstretched hands. “Okay, let me just walk you to your door then—”
“Nooo.”
“I won’t steal your things, or k*ll you.”
You look up from your feet to Suna. “Promise? Or else I’ll never be able to wear these shoes again” The two of you look down at said shoes, the toes clicking together and Suna has to admit—they do look good on you. Suna bites the inside of his mouth to rebel against an oncoming laugh that threatens to break his exterior.
“I pinky promise.” Suna isn’t sure what he meant to accomplish by adding the action of interlocking pinkies, but that seems to further reassure you as you let him guide you inside the dimly lit building.
The cold elevator lighting stabs at your temples as you enter, your eyes squeezed shut before you open them slowly to adjust. “What floor do you live on?” Suna brings you over to the panel with many buttons waiting to be pressed—
“I swear to god if you even think about pressing all of the buttons on here, I will get off and take the stairs back down.” Though the statement itself should worry you, it only brings a giggle bubbling at your lips before you look back at the panel. “It’s the third one,” You press the button, and the doors close. “I think.”
Suna hopes he heard wrong just now.
You’re slightly leaning into him more by the time the elevator doors open again, body nearly lax against his until he’s nudging you awake. Walking out, you’re met with two signs pointing down two different halls with a section of numbers on each.
“What number is your dorm?”
“Three hundred and eighteen, on the right.”
Suna brings you to the left, double-checking the sign pointing and labeled with numbers three hundred to three hundred and fifty. In the distance, presumably down the right hall, there’s shouting. Suna thinks quietly to himself once again. I hate dorms.
It’s a short stroll down the hall with an occasional misstep but you eventually make it there safe. “You have your key, right?” Your eyes widen, suddenly wide awake as you look up at Suna. That’s why you couldn’t fully get rid of that bad gut feeling from earlier.
“Oh no.”
“Red toothbrush, just like you asked.”
Handing you the plastic package, Suna watches as you fumble to get the opening before tearing the cardboard at the back. “Hehe, yay.” Still seated at the edge of his bed with your clothes folded on his dresser, you swing your legs slightly toned in Suna’s spare clothes.
Suna draws out a short sigh after looking at the situation he’s gotten himself into but alas, finds himself patting you on the head before turning to wash up in the bathroom. How did he become so weak to (your) puppy eyes in such a short time?
“Oh, I’ll grab you a towel.” Walking out into the hall, Suna digs through the closet but finds no spare towels in the end, eventually sighing as he finds himself making his way into the only other bedroom in the apartment.
“Tarou? What are you doing in my bathroom?”
Suna’s younger sister is typically a heavy sleeper, but of course, he can count on her the most to wake up during the few times he wished she wouldn’t. “Do we have any extra towels?”
“Huh? Why—” The young woman gasps. “Do we have guests—do you have a guest?” Hoping that the next morning would work in his favor—however it played out—Suna gives a brief explanation of the situation to his sister.
“Awh, you must really like them if you—” Quickly, Suna slaps a hand over his sister’s mouth and as much as he loves and adores her, he can’t find himself doing so at the moment.
“Good night.”
Leaving his sister’s bedroom, Suna finds you at the bathroom sink of his own room with a pout spread across your face. “What’s wrong?”
“I don’t think I’m the best person to put the toothpaste on.” Looking down at the toothbrush, Suna notices the dot of toothpaste that’s only managed to land on the handle of your toothbrush. “Here,” Suna washes it off before redoing it. “Ah.”
Grabbing hold of your chin in one hand, Suna uses the other to brush your teeth as firmly as he can without hurting you. “Suna, I ca’ brus’ myshelf.” He curses quietly to himself. “Sorry. Force of habit.”
Even as he looks away, Suna can hear the hum of curiosity coming from where you stand. Turning back, your head is tilted slightly to the side with eyes drowned in confusion. Don’t look at me like that.
Suna sighs. “I have a little sister that I used to help get ready in the morning for school.” At the mention of a sister, you perk up, but his explanation is forced to wait as he steps out of the bathroom to let you wash up.
Finally, you walk out with a mind that’s admittedly clearer than before. “You used to brush her teeth for her?”
“Yeah, and her hair, and get her breakfast.” Looking over at you, Suna is met with a teasing smile to which he grimaces at. “That’s nice. Are you looking for another sibling?”
With a gentle push, Suna rolls his eyes as your chuckles make a brief appearance. “No, shut up.” Though he was thankful that you had sobered up a little more at the end of the night, Suna still hadn’t come to the issue of where to sleep until now.
Grabbing a blanket, Suna starts to make his way out of the room, until your voice stops him. “If you’re comfortable, we can sleep in the same bed, but otherwise, I’ll sleep on the couch.”
Looking back at you, Suna raises an eyebrow before walking to stand before you. “You’d let a guy like me sleep in the same bed as you?” With a playful tone twisting itself into his words, he awaits your response that doesn’t come as expectedly as he thought.
“Yeah, you are letting me sleep here despite not knowing me, and you already pinky promised to not k*ll me so I’d say it’s a win-win.” For you.
Suna lets out a huff of amusement, a smile teasing his lips before he gives in once again. “Fine. Just don’t hog all of the blankets.” You smile back at him.
“Good night, Suna,” You pause. “And thank you.”
The digital clock on the nightstand reads six in the morning when you peel your eyes open, letting your vision adjust as the numbers no longer appear as a jumbled blur of red. A grey sky sits past the light curtains of the bedroom, casting a glow that’s delicate and yet enough to let your eyes scour the interior of the room.
There’s a weight on your waist and another that pulls against you at the shoulders, both coming from the source of Suna Rintarou. His grip on your body is unexpectedly tight, even in the midst of his dream-infested slumber, and before panic can set in, the events of the night before flash through your mind and leave you with a horrified expression spread across your face.
I’m never gonna live this down. If your arms weren’t trapped in the hold of Suna, you would have definitely hidden your face in your hands but alas, you settle for the pillow as the haziness of sleep starts to fade away.
You can only crane your head at an awkward angle to get a glimpse at Suna behind you, and when you do, you’re tempted to fall back asleep as the need to not wake him arises—with the wanting of putting off your embarrassment. Though in the end, it’s not enough (even though you really wanted to go back to sleep).
The struggle to shimmy out of his arms turned to be worse than you thought and as your feet touch the cold floors of the room, you immediately want to dive back under the covers for some platonic (?) cuddling and warmth.
Before you even reach the bathroom, you give into digging through Suna’s closet for a sweater to keep you warm in the unnaturally cold apartment. Sending a mental apology and a promise to give it back later, you shrug on a sweater before making your way to the bathroom.
By the time you’re done, Suna is surprisingly still asleep under the warm covers of his bed, a visible empty space indicating your stay. Maybe I could sneak back in— Before you can take another step towards the bed, your stomach squeals with the urge to eat. Pressing your lips tightly together, you restrain yourself from getting back in the bed and instead turn to venture further into the apartment.
Though you had an assumption that Suna was also a college student, you were still shocked to find yourself face-to-face with the person who seemed to be his roommate—a girl who seemed to be not much younger than you.
Your jaw slackens, mind racing to find something, to at least say good morning but the girl beats you to it. “Are you the girl Tarou brought home yesterday?” Tarou? Even if it were in a different context, meeting a stranger coming out of your roommate's room at six in the morning has never made a good impression on anyone, but you nod.
“Um, we didn’t do anything! I was just drunk and stupid—and really lucky, but I’ll leave now if you want—” A laugh cuts into your sentence, making you watch with wide eyes as the girl attempts to quiet down for the sake of it being early in the morning. “Sorry, it’s fine, really. Stuff like that and having to do with my brother definitely isn’t any of my business.”
“Brother—are you his sister?” Finally, the girl nods with a smile. “Suna Aoi, but you can call me Aoi.” Holding out a hand, you take it as an offering to shake before introducing yourself. “Even though this looks bad, do you want some breakfast? I can try to make you something.”
Without a word, Aoi leads you out into the kitchen, sitting herself on a counter stool with her hands folded in front of her. “Yes, please.” Sharing a laugh, you familiarize yourself with their kitchen and it isn’t until you’re digging through the fridge that Aoi speaks again. “Thank you, L/n.”
“No problem, and Y/n is fine.”
The sizzling of food on a pan is what wakes Suna up, and immediately without another thought other than the fact that his sister can’t cook for her life, he stumbles into the kitchen to be met with an unfamiliar sight.
You, the person he took in yesterday night, in his kitchen teaching his sister how to cook food that somehow hasn’t been burnt to a crisp yet.
“And then you just wait until the bubbles start to show before flipping it. Let me get the batter.” Your eyes meet when you turn to grab the bowl filled with the thick pancake batter, your sudden silence making Aoi turn in curiosity to see her brother standing with an unreadable expression—though she makes no comment on it. “Tarou! Look, I made pancakes.”
Moving to the side, Suna can see a plate with two pancakes stacked neatly on top of each other. In other cases, he would be none other than encouraging his sister to make more for him but in this case, the only comprehensible word he can get out is an ‘oh’.
Taking his sudden awakening into account, you take the chance to let Suna clean himself up. “Are you hungry? I’ll make some for you right now. You go eat too, Aoi.” Shooing the girl out of the kitchen with a spatula in hand, you shoot Suna a look before turning to make more pancakes.
Whatever the look is supposed to mean, Suna isn’t sure he wants to know.
When Suna comes back into the kitchen, he only finds Aoi sitting at the counter with an empty plate, save for the random drizzles and puddles of maple syrup. It isn’t until Aoi points it out that Suna realizes that he’s pointedly looking for you. “They went back to their dorm, but they’ll be back soon with your clothes.”
Nodding, Suna sits himself at the counter where a plate presents itself with a stack of pancakes, an extra third one sitting on top with a smiley face drawn from syrup to which he assumes is out of gratitude for last night. “Oh, and you know how I’m moving out, right?”
Suna looks over at Aoi, eyebrows raised slightly at the vague question. “Yeah? I literally packed half of your shit, and your welcome by the way—”
“I found you a roommate.”
“You what?”
Suna puts the fork down, steaming pancake piece forgotten on the plate as he fully turns to face his sister.
After breaking the news of moving out, Aoi had suggested Suna get a new roommate out of concern for his wellbeing (suggested being “get a roommate”). Though in all honesty, Suna was hoping to have a chance to live on his own for the first time—
“Oh, sounds like your roommate’s back.”
“What? They’re coming today?” With no time to ready himself, Suna watches as Aoi opens the door to reveal you in a pair of fresh clothes.
“The good thing is that you’ve already met them.” With arms in the air and jazz hands shaking, Aoi presumably introduces you as Suna’s new roommate.
“Hi, Suna. I’m L/n Y/n, your new roommate.”
Suna looks down at your outstretched hand, only going to take it in his own when he realizes that he never got your name in all of the time spent with you.
“Better start remembering then.” Aoi’s words reach his ears in a low voice, and Suna realizes that in the midst of his shocked state, he must have muttered his words aloud.
Fuck.
But maybe the morning did work in his favor.
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Looking up from your phone, you observe the cafe in its daylight image before turning to Suna beside you. “Damn, how’d you get around that counter in time to catch me? That shit’s long.” Without looking up from his own phone, Suna replies without a stutter.
“Oh please, I could see your drunk ass coming from a mile away.”
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