#bad again

[alexxisokay]

rotted roots

I feel heavy, 

Really heavy. 

Im not sure what pushed 

Me over the edge this time. 

Maybe beccasue my 

Pots is getting bad 

Or thay my hair is

Falling out and 

My bones are showing

Again. 

Maybe it's my urges 

To relapse growing 

Stronger and stronger 

As each day passes me by. 

Maybe it’s because i’m 

Not sleeping right, 

Pushing myself to the 

Point to exhaustion, 

But this is where i thrive. 

There is so much comfort in the 

Thought of getting bad again. 

Its a familiar feeling, 

Like an old friend 

Making their way 

Back to you. 

It’s too easy, 

And that’s what makes it fun, 

I see how far i can go

Until i can’t go on any longer.

Of course i would pefer to be better, 

But if that’s not going to happen 

Then I want to 

take myself down my way. 

Going back to  

My rotted,

dried out roots.   

Rotted roots 

#original poem #poetry #slam poets on tumblr #poem #short poem #poets on tumblr #tumbler tusday #slam poetry #writers and poets #poems and poetry #orginal work #orginal poetry #original post #writers on tumblr #mental health #mental illness #bad again #tired #rotting #discomfort #disasociation #dereality #ink blots #spilled poetry #spilled ink #heavy #sad poem #that sinking feeling #im exhausted #mentally exhausted

[its-all-coming-back-to-meme-now]

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #being borderline #borderline problems #living with borderline #bad again #mentally exhausted #emotionally exhausted #s.s.w.

[justwannafeelsmall]

My boyfriend just asked me to try and explain what it’s like having an ED to him…

How do you tell someone that the only thing you think about is being thin. How do I tell him that every time he looks at me I want to crawl out of my skin because I feel so disgusting. How do you explain to someone that you love them with all your heart but cannot love yourself until you can see every bone in your body. How do I tell him that every time he touches me it makes me want to vomit. How do you explain that every inch of your brain is thinking about food, calories, losing weight etc all day long. How would he react if I told him I starved for days so I could be beautiful for him. How could he possibly understand what it’s like to look in the mirror and hate every part of your body. How could I possibly explain what it’s like having a voice in my head constantly repeating that I am fat and any form of comment anyone has ever made on my body. How do I tell him that I don’t care if it kills me I just want to be skinny…

Idk how so all I said was “it’s okay, I’ll be safe about it. Don’t worry about me”

#ana rant #an4r3xia #i hate my body #rant #tw ed things #tw #tw disordered eating #bad again

[take-drugs-it-always-works]

It’s getting so bad again for where all I wanna do is hurt myself so badly.

Will I ever be normal?

Will I ever get rid of these thoughts?

Will it ever stop?

#depressing shit #bad again

[miniaturetimemachinecoffee]

I'm getting dark again

I'm not sleeping

I'm sitting in the bathroom

I'm isolating

I'm not eating

I'm shriveling

I'm not going anywhere

I'm not doing anything

I'm getting dark again...

#poetry #dark #bad again

[saysagain]

#bad again

[annagxx]

Pov: it's getting bad again.

#bad again #crippling anxiety #tremors #pain

[nobodycares-yeah]

How I recognize it's getting bad again? I have restless legs in bed at night, I can't find the right position to lay down and my chest feels like it is going to implodate.

#bad again #its getting bad again #help #depression #panikattacken #panic attack #anxious #anxeity #restless leg syndrome #chest #implosion #im imploding

[whororhoe]

it’s back to how it was

i’ve closed back up,

tightened the laces straightened the tongue

shut the door and turned the lock—

no one knows

the sad truths of my life

instead i wrap it up and ingest it,

swallow the bad and exhale a “i’ve been good”,

no one can know

how bad it all is

because then maybe they’ll see a warning,

a sign for help i never held

an alarm i don’t wish to sound,

because if they knew how the world

is crushing me into oblivion under its weight

they would project themselves

and attempt to stop the inevitable

even though it is them

that put the pendulum into motion,

it is them that hit a domino

when they turned their back on me—

and i don’t desire their selfish pity

when it is them

thinking me atlas, gifted me the burden

of the world on my shoulders alone,

ignoring the crack of my knees giving out.

so instead i keep everything in

i don’t tell a soul the way mine is in shreds,

i don’t allow a free showing to my demise

instead i will grow quiet

become a “haven’t heard that name in awhile”,

they say over mimosas

as i blend with the dust beneath

and silently get crushed to dirt

underneath a world

they’ll swear i ever had a choice in.

#alone #isolating #bitter #bpd #depression #tw sui implied #bad again #writing

[mysicklove]

yuuji itadori and his massive cock that he happens to be incredibly embarrassed about

#🔪 - mello talks too much #sorry im being down bad again someone sedate me #with his dick perferably

[radiation]

#Thank you once again to my friend Audio for making tjis #breaking bad

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire #'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem #the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted #also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out #so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my #notifs page cleanish lol #also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3 #secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because #of investors bankrolling everything #and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest #however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point #once again. so many murder dollars #so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction #anyways . love yall 💕 #origibberish #bigger gibbers

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’ #who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field? #like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it. #it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks. #that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀) #liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

[solitarelee]

East Asian fanartists are starting to migrate back to Tumblr because Twitter is insane, toxic, and dying, and what we're NOT going to do is let the fucking exclusionists get them, do you hear me? We are not going to let a bunch of feral idiots try to apply the most myopic version of puritanism to foreign artists we're not we're not we're not. Form an armed brigade if you have to, do you hear me. We're not going to bully the artists who may or may not even speak English because we have our precious standards of moral purity. If we see art that makes us uncomfy we're going to block the artist and tumblr savior their name so we don't have to see them again AND WE'RE GONNA MOVE THE FUCK ON.

#solitaretalk #i mean it #I will block on sight if I see any tomfoolery #and then I will screenshot your bullshit and send it into a group chat so all my more significant tumblr friends will block you too #fuck this up bad enough and you will never be able to reblog from kitty unpretty again IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT

[time-woods]

simon doodle in honor of fionna and cake dropping, sad old men gotta b my favorite species tbh

#adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #hes gonna lose his goddamn marbles again #his mental issues did NOT get fixed at the end of the series- simply swapped out for a different flavor #and its somewhat worse- cause now he can think clearly which comes with some good and bad followups #hashtag get this man therapy #fionna and cake spoilers

[blueskittlesart]

i hope everyone in nintendo’s management department dies and goes to hell no matter what and i’m not kidding

#WERE LOSING YUZU AND CITRA. I DONT KNOW IF YOU ALL UNDERSTAND HOW INSANE THIS IS #game emulation enables piracy yes but it’s also an INCREDIBLY powerful archival tool. #there are plenty of games out there that only exist in their original formats due to emulation. #this lawsuit has HORRIBLE implications for video game history. it makes it incredibly easy for companies to scorched earth their products #if they’re not profitable enough. ART IS GOING TO BE LOST BECAUSE OF THIS. GAMES PEOPLE WORKED INCREDIBLY HARD ON #it won’t just happen to bad games. it won’t just happen to old games. they will use this to keep their remake/virtual console model going #forever and you will never be able to play your favorite games in their true original forms ever again. #i am fucking INSANELY mad rn. capitalism is the death of art fr #personal