Something that always bothered me is how we did read in Griffith’s inner voice, during his infamous battle with Guts, that ultimately, he didn’t care if he killed Guts as long as he was not leaving him. I know I shouldn’t be surprised because Griffith has always been possessive, but that one sentence particularly gave me a gross, icky feeling bc it is word for word what men say before committing a femicide. There’s a lot in my country, and really, it’s always the same thing (“I prefer her dead than leaving me”)
If you otherwise enjoy Griffith as a character and/or ship griffguts then that sucks, it's a shame that that association makes you feel icky. It always sucks when negative associations make it harder to enjoy something.
Personally I don't make that association because Guts isn't a woman so misogyny isn't an aspect of their relationship dynamic and I don't project it onto them. I feel like that moment works really well within the canon context of mercenaries fighting (ie Judeau, Pippin, Guts, and Corkus all thinking Griffith's challenge is fair and Guts in fact thinking it's flattering), everyone in the story being a hired killer and Berserk having several scenes where various friends and allies fight to kill, and Griffith's intense emotions that he himself can barely comprehend.
It's not super good and nice of Griffith lmao, but it's a realistic, believably dark moment between two people who kill for a living and have a ton of issues, which compels me and makes me ship griffguts even more.