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vivinaoquerkcal · 2 months
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eu comi um, tava com gosto de "acordar mais gorda amanhã"
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noonebutalone · 10 months
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TW: ED TALK/ SH MENTION
I don’t know what the fck I am.
I want to be skinny. I want to not have trouble breathing or being insecure about my body….but I’m addicted to food. I LOVE food.
Food is my escape
Food makes me feel safe
Food fills me up
But I also cry because I’m eating myself to a heart attack.
I can fast, I know I can. Maybe not long term and not right now but maybe I will soon.
I’d like to prge but the idea of vomit makes me think I’ll die. There’s also people around and you’d be able to tell by my face.
I have a fear of vomit but if I could I’d be friends with Mia.
I would s3lf h@rm if I could but it wouldn’t make anything better. Just another thing I’d have to quit…..
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willows-woes · 1 year
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"you'd restrict yourself all day and then eat enough to make you sick at dinner, feel bad, and the cycle continues." hearing it from someone else's mouth just makes it feel sadder.
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foxyslide · 2 years
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🦋DIARY🌸
TW mention of ed
TW mention of ed
TW mention of ed
Fri 10/06/22
height: 163cm
Sw (for this diet): 57kg
cw: 54.9kg
hw: 70kg
lw: 52kg
gw: 47kg
ugw: 45kg
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yesterday..
breakfast: fasting
lunch: fasting
dinner: peri peri chicken (literally just chicken hubby loves to eat this shit 😭 no veg at all!!) 450g 810kcal; buttered toast 116 x 3 348kcal (soooo many calories for sooo little satisfaction..); chocs 54 x 12 (don’t remember how many hubby mixed up the wrappings with his ones before I could count so I’m guessing) 648kcal
= 1,806kcal -_- no fruit or veg, I need to eat separately from hubby
Cycling:
16.8 miles, 1,008kcal burned
BMR:
1,806 - 1,268 = 538kcal intake 
I gained a kilo from yesterday’s dinner. I was 53.9kg when I came home from cycling, I was feeling so good and light, feeling great about my body, and now I feel shit, ugly, fat, and my fucking stomach is rumbling. I lost my ana buddy (we both have b.e.d so not ana but that’s what ppl call it and that’s how we found each other.) it was helping me sooo much to have her, she was the sweetest. Hubby said that he would be my buddy from now on but his first day has been a failure instead of helping me restrict he said I should eat, finish my food, stop complaining, not to worry I will loose the calories cycling which is true, but I’m not looking to maintain my weight I’m looking to LOOSE weight. He’s honestly a shit buddy lol 😅, I’m pissed at him and at myself for just going along with what he said instead of removing myself from the situation and hanging out by myself until he finishes to eat, which is my plan for today. He did help me with looking up the calories and calculating them but because he’s not worried about loosing weight himself he got frustrated/bored very quickly about the topic, and I want to talk about it because it’s important to me. So I’ve messaged him I’m gonna look for another buddy online, or hopefully find my previous one! 🤞
Also fair to say I’ve completely failed the diet I was on!! I will try again once I find a new buddy 🌸
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so-honeyyy · 2 years
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tryin to see if can start going to a dietitian
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buggerlugs93 · 25 days
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Love the first few weeks of serious restriction when you lose fast. 5.4lb down since 1st March and not even much effort.
Effort has started today. It is 13:09 and I haven't eaten. Today the plan is OMAD - I intend to just have sugar free drinks and water till tea time.
The only thing I have almost caved with is Greggs - bought it for other people but not myself, and crisps, they're in the house but I am avoiding as I know it'll lead to a binge and that won't get my skinny.
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I hate having B.E.D
I'm tired of the urge to eat after I ate.
I'm tired of the urge to eat to the point of nausea.
I'm tired of paying more for plus sized clothes that do not look good on me.
I hate breathing heavily when I walk around in the heat.
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fairiesprite-zero · 6 months
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𝑖 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑐𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓, 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑝𝑢𝑘𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒. #𝚜𝚊𝚖𝚎
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chubbyybunnie · 6 days
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Tw: ed talk, specifically binge dis0rder talk,
I find it so interesting the delusion some of us share. (By "us" I mean people like ALR, myself, and some of the people on My 600lb Life who are afflicted with B.E.D. OSFED, ETC)
Like.. the way we convince ourselves that calories dont count if its a snack and not a "dedicated meal"
The constant "one last hurrah"
The justification of the addiction
Also, checking the scale and fully expecting to see a drop knowing we havent had a successful day One in about a year or longer....
It is really all the same chain that binds us?
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What's Luvvvv?
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~ Chapter two ~
TW: Nun! jus cussin and usage of the N word (As I said in chapter one im black so dw)
MADE BY ~ ME AND MY BSFS YURI AND KRISSY
Now Playing:
[Middle of You]-[Wiz Khalifa]
0:58── ❍───── 4:13
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I'm just Chillin' in my room, blasting music and playing roblox on my PC (yeah it's a childish game but I still love it.) My mom walks up stairs with Deandre. "Wuzzzuuuuupppp" Deandre annoying ass say as he finna sit on my bed. "Boy if you don't get yo dirty ass off my bed." I swat my hand at him from my desk. "Man its whatever but I only came over here because I need a re-twist" I roll my eyes but turn my game off "Go get my supplies and I'll do it. Its in my closet." he grabs the shit then sits down on the floor. I take his hair down and pop his forehead. "Nigga the fuck was that for????" I smile at him and look him in his face "For being an annoying shit now pass me my phone. He obviously complies.
Now Playing:
[So Sexy]-[Twista]
0:04─❍────── 3:51
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I pull him into the bathroom and wash his hair. But of course since he can't keep his fucking mouth shut he complains. "It's too much waterrr" I glare at him and just put the water right over his face. "C'mon I gotta blow dry this shit." I tell him to go sit in my room while I clean up the bathroom.
5 minutes later I come back to blow dry his hair and twist it. "Wow. For once you're not complaining like a lil bitch?" He does a soft laugh, "Just lettin you do ya thang. You get paid to do hair I don't." I smile at his niceness and I don't hold his head as tight as I was cus yk. I'm a very petty bitch. "Pass me my phone, I'ma play my fav song."
Now Playing:
[B.E.D]-[ Jacquees]
0:04─❍────── 3:54
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"This song be havin me in my feelings." i say as I'm tryna follow along with the song. He just leans his head into my lap some more and closes his eyes. "Don't go to sleep, you gotta walk home." he smies then my playlist shuffles to other songs. "Alright, done come to the kitchen real quick." we both walk downstairs to the kitchen and I turn on the stove, "Nah, you ain gotta make me no food." I look at him then laugh "Boy ain nobody tryna cook for you, I'ma press them naps out the back of yo head." I say as I put the pressing comb on the stove and I get a paper towel. "Pressin comb? that hot shit right?" I nod my head and he flinches as if its already on him "Uhm...we dont needa do dat." I hold his shoulders "aweee ya scared of the heat boo boo?" he shakes his head no but his reaction when I press his hair is different. "Thats how as fuck. Why you burnin me???" I roll my eyes, "Boy I ain burnin you thats just the heat" he winces until I say I'm done. He looks at the time
10:55 P.M
"You can stay over if you want. But you're sleeping on the floor." he gives a tired smile. "ight, thanks princess." he runs upstairs but just lays down on the floor and sleeps quickly. I throw a blanket over him and lay in my own bed.
11:45 P.M
Less than an hour later I still can't sleep. I turn to my wall and try to sleep. "You ight lil momma?" I nod into the wall but then turn so I can look at him on the floor. "Why is you awake?" he just looks at the ceiling "You kept tossin and turnin, ya ass woke me up" he says very matter a factly. "My bad.." he gets up and just lays next to me. "Go to sleep aight? I'ma be here all night sadly" I glare at him. "Whatchu mean sadly. My house is lit. And keep that bonnet on." he does this thing as if he's trying to mock the way I always roll my eyes and crosses his arms "Giiiirl quit playin an go ta bed" he says in his best girl voice. "Ya know what? Fine. Andrea" he looks at me like im crazy then says "Nah It'd be D'Andrea." He makes me laugh then rests his hand on my arm "Now go to sleep." I slowly drift off and fall asleep (obvi).
5:13 A.M
I wake up and I feel his arms wrapped around me.
"Uhm..." he blinks when he hears my voice "My uhm...my bad. but I also did want to tell you one thing when I came here to get my hair done.."
TO BE CONTINUED???
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wannaglowup · 2 years
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I just found out there's shit ton of different fetishes about eating disorders. People literally get satisfied out of our mental illness and our suffering. They love how e.d. people fragile and petite. they love how we destroy ourselves. They love how purging "wrecks our bodies and souls". They love when our brains go fuzzy . They love how we lost control of our mental illnesses. They love when we cant even consent anymore.
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littledaintydaisy · 3 years
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Big Ana Lesson Learned Today:
Never, ever ever ever EVER purge after eating smth. spicy.
I am still crying tears of literal PAIN from trying to purge.
Please please never ever repeat my stupidity. It can cause real damage to your throat and nose.
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noonebutalone · 7 months
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If I had friends who were an0r3x1c
I’d have a better chance of losing weight
I’d fail but I’d still try
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skinny4dilfs · 2 years
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Love how my mom constantly degrades me when it comes to my weight and says I've always been a greedy pig since I was a toddler in her annoying ass “I'm just teasing you” voice 😒 when it's literally her fault like hmm maybe you shouldn't have bought McDonald's and pizza for every meal maybe you shouldn't have let your 3 year old drink 5 sprites a day maybe you should've taught your child healthy eating skills instead of giving her copious amounts of greasy pizza for breakfast lunch and dinner but then calling her greedy when she eats it maybe you shouldn't have shoved candy in your childs face everytime she was upset teaching her food as a coping mechanism instead of actually consoling her I'm pretty sure some hugs would've sufficed!!
Whenever I bring it up her only excuse is "we were struggling financially fast food was the cheapest option" which I completely understand that junk food tends to be cheaper but her buying fast food multiple times a day for every meal was not cheaper than buying some frozen veggies and rice from Walmart for like 10 bucks not to mention it would've lasted multiple days as leftovers whereas two 5 dollar 8 slice pizzas from little ceasars only lasted one day between my mom sister and I for lunch/dinner. She refuses to admit she only cared about convenience. Also she could have easily taught portion control in a healthy manner but she insists calling me greedy and chubby as a 5 year old was her way of teaching portion control like stfu!
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foxyslide · 2 years
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🦋DIARY🌸
TW mention of ed
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Looking for buddy, no coaches and no minors DNI, preferably with B.E.D, only looking to update once a day as i work and am married, if you’re looking for more interaction I’m not the person for you I won’t have the time. Message me if interested 🪴
age: 28 height: 163cm
Sw (for this diet from monday): 57kg
cw: 54.9kg
hw: 70kg
lw: 52kg
gw: 47kg
ugw: 45kg
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candy-calories · 3 years
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best low cal foods! tw
if you’re craving food but you dont want to consume loads of calories, here are some of the best foods to eat ~
- yumyum noodles!
these noodles are very filling and they’re around 73-76 calories per 100 grams. one package is only 60 grams so thats around 44-47 calories per package.
lowest calorie flavors: duck and curry
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- oatmeal porridge {havermoutpap}!
when im visiting my family in the netherlands i make sure i always stack up on this stuff.
its basically already made oatmeal porridge. its only 75 calories per 100 ml. its way less then homemade porridge. that’s normally around 200-300 calories per 100 ml.
i always eat the one from melkunie, its pretty filling and, as i said, low in calories.
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- grapes!
i think we all know about this one, grapes are not the best in filling you up tbh but its a great snack with low calories.
its around 70-80 calories per 100 grams.
- cucumber!
oh my, im in love with cucumber. they actually fill me up pretty good for something that’s mostly water. they’re around 13 calories per 100 grams!
- bell pepper!
great snack with low calorie intake, only 31 per bell pepper. you can also get snack size or fun size bell peppers.
- snack a jacks, rice cakes!
there are multiple flavors and they’re only around 31-67 calories per rice cake.
my favorite ones are the multigrain rice cakes: (31 calories per cake)
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the bbq paprika flavored (37 calories per cake) and the cheese flavored (38 calories per cake) are also really good and low in calories.
- plain rice cakes!
this one is pretty common around the ed community, so i think you already know about this one but i had to include it.
plain rice crackers are low in calorie, they’re not very filling tho so i actually don’t eat them often because they’re a binge trigger for me.
the calories can differ from where you buy the cakes. mine are around 38 calories per cake.
i like the snack a jacks more because they taste better and some of them are lower in calories.
- cottage cheese!
all those vegetables, fruits and crackers can pretty boring to eat sometimes so cottage cheese is good to eat with them. its 90-95 calories per 100 grams. it may not look great but its pretty good.
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hope this helps <3
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