spiderbit we'll meet again don't know where don't know when but I know we'll meet again some sunny day. spiderbit it's now or never come hold me tight kiss me my darling be mine tonight. and yeah you know what. spiderbit roier cubito on that boat pov as unknown/nth. for funsies and torture
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So. Javi asks Shauna for the hunting knife for an art project, which results in one wooden wolf figure. side note holy SHIT is Javi good at wood carving I originally expected him to make more since he’s probably really bored like everyone else but now it seems like one wolf figure was on purpose. Is it a protector? Does it represent Shauna? What about Javi? I really, really want to believe that it’s to signify that Javi is a lone wolf and is okay and alive somewhere. I will die on this hill thank you very much 🥲
I’d love to hear other theories!
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Past three days have been just misery and regretting my life choices and having writer's block when I really can't afford having writer's block right now.
Fuck this why can't I keep up stable amounts productivity like everyone else around me instead of having these wild swings.I mean I know why but also WHY?
God I'm so exhausted of pretending I'm normal and organized and put together.I'm starting to suspect it costs way less energy to actually be all those things than to pretend when you're not...me.
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I have a whole week off, so excited to veg out and play Sims... and I turn my old faithful laptop on this morning and it can no longer detect its own hard drive 🙃
Fingers crossed I can get the 2+ generations of Normal screenshots off of it or we'll have to find out how unhinged I get when I have to redo entire generations lmao
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Ok, maybe this is a dumb take, but I've always thought if you could be moved emotionally (maybe even to tears) by fiction: it is (or at least can be) an indicator of your ability to empathize/emotionally connect with a story or characters. Yes, they're fictional, but they're stand-ins for the human experience????
And yeah, if you're crying at every single adverse experience ever that a fictional character encounters, maybe that's something to kinda squint at like r u ok, but like, for example
If the literal animal cruelty in guardians of the galaxy 3 makes you cry for the absolute torment this fictional creature is undergoing moves you to tears (particularly if it can also serve as an emotional stand-in for being tortured and detested and looked down on by the very people who created us i.e. pare ts???)
1. that's the point? That's why it was written that way??
And 2. It's not a bad or silly thing that you're affected emotionally?? That is actually a good thing if you feel something????
I'm tired of my bf laughing at me when I tear up at a movie or a book, and telling me "it's just a story" when I'm like "but it's sad!!! it's easy for me to imagine that pain and it makes me sad for them even though I know it's just a story"
I can't believe I've put up with this for as long as I have. What the fuck.
He says he's "just too logical" for "that stuff." and I can feel the annoyance/tiredness/disdain/"oh this again" when I get emotional, to the point where I don't watch things around him that I know might make me cry
It didn't even crystalize for me until tonight. Because I realized my friend's reaction to noticing me crying at something that hit hard was to hold my hand. And his is to roll his eyes
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That fun game called 'do i actually need pain killers or am i overdramatic' where i am in an amount of pain that exceeds the normal amount of pain but does not reach the lying-immobilized-on-the-floor amount of pain and have to decide whether i can afford a small amount of pain medication or if i should restrain myself just a bit more
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I just wrote all of this in the tags because I feel like my thoughts don't matter and I shouldn't make anyone read them but no, I'll write it in a post instead.
I just had a really fun realisation (that was sarcasm)
it doesn't matter what name I go by - as soon as I start associating a name with myself/identifying with it, it feels gross.
I thought it was because I associate my real name with mainly negative memories (and also because of gender stuff)
but no. even when it's something that only my friends call me, something that's only been used in a positive context. even when it's something silly like a username or tumblr url. as soon as it starts feeling like 'me' it's bad.
if I hear or read or think about any of those names/usernames, I feel nauseous. I feel afraid. I feel disgusting. the name doesn't matter because *I* am disgusting and bad.
so that's great. and I don't know what to do about it. guess I should write this down for my psychiatrist appointment (because if I don't I will forget but the problem won't go away)
no name no pronouns please pretend I do not exist 🙃
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Happy to report I'm no longer responding to the religious people on my posts! Apologies to anyone who may have taken the psychic damage of seeing that unexpectedly!
It had been a while since I had purposely kicked a metaphorical wasp nest so I guess I was overdue. I am simply a sexy fool. 🙄 I do it a lot less nowadays tho, which is good!
I did genuinely set out at first to get information about how Catholics reconcile certain paradoxes within their faith, and then I was like oh right oh no I just remembered why I stopped doing this
On the upside I DID actually learn a lot; even if part of what I learned was don't tag Catholic tumblr in your posts about Catholicism, Jack. (Listen. I'm a work in progress! 😅)
And now I am very dedicated to putting a priest in my graphic novel who fucks a demon. Which I was going to draw anyway, so I might as well make it work with the story. For art. And penises.
Anyway, I hear the song "Godsend" by Trebuchet and I go a little bit insane in a good way. It's like if Supernatural was good and also a song. I'd really like to capture that energy in my work. There's also this song called "the queer gospel" that I love very much, which is about the inherent holiness of queerness and queer community regardless of if there's a god. (I actually made a burlesque routine for that song once, and more than one person said it made them cry happy tears! Which is a hell of a point of pride for me! AND a hell of a point of Pride!)
*okay if someone sends me an anonymous message that makes me laugh out loud and not feel rancid, then I will answer it if it brings me joy and I have a funny response. I will tag it accordingly and then block that person as soon as they stop being funny. But I'm good on debate and philosophy now. I got my answer. I had forgotten what those answers looked like. But I am grateful for (and moderately horrified by) the reminder. Please see the tags for an explanation of my new favorite phrase involving a man, heliocentrism, and one very hot piece of wood~
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