#at least I have a full time job

[uncanny-tranny]

The leftism/anticapitalism leaving people's bodies the zeptosecond you imply that disabled people who aren't "productive" still matter in society and need to be treated like intrinsic equals who have a place in this world:

#disability #disability advocacy #described images #image description in alt #ableism #ableism tw #my full-time job is my disability and you're lucky that i am still 'productive' as-is #your boss doesn't care that you think you're superior for being hired by them. they're still going to treat you like profit machines #it astounds me how people will capitulate for oppression because they place their intrinsic value in their ability to be at the top... #...or at least 'at the top' compared to others. it's the same impulse that makes people think their cisgender status makes them superior... #...you are placing your worth into systems which not only oppress others but offer you no true sense of worth... #...ESPECIALLY if you're also being exploited (even if just a bit)... #...you have a job sure but... do you actually get treated like a human being? are you actually paid? are you actually safe?... #...if the answer to any of those questions and more is 'no' then why do you place your value in capitalistic production. genuinely. #and why would you DEMAND disabled people to have the same exploitation you experience. why do you DEMAND productivity if you are proletaria #yes being a leftist and anticapitalist are linked but. some people still internalize capitalism without questioning it #being a leftist is about challenging that rather than assuming you're correct i think #also scientists were very silly when describing time that's like. less than a millisecond i think

[aliosne]

Saw a post about working class butches in physical labour jobs and wanted to make my own, so: I love you butches who do childcare or early education. I love you butch nurses. I love you butch house cleaners and janitorial staff. I love you service industry butches. I love you butches who do sex work. I love you working class butches who do “feminine” jobs you are cool as hell

#butch #lgbtqia #lesbian #its me im butches doing stereotypically feminine work #when I was nannying full time I kind of thought of it as I was doing Nanny Gender #like especially bc I wore mostly dresses then for practicality reasons #which gave me The Dysphorias but yeah. my way of navigating that was to get a little fluid with it. #also even tho they don’t get perceived as such: all of these jobs are as physically demanding as many ‘physical’ jobs #like girly at least when I worked in a warehouse/delivery bay I got to sit down #look I could probably think of a better term than ‘physical labour’ but like. you know what I mean. #anyway. sometimes you have those I am uncomfortable when we are not about me moments #and then you remember that you can just go talk about your experience

[canisalbus]

Not quite sure how to politely phrase this so I'll just be blunt, sorry, but would you ever open commissions? I'd pay big bux to get my priest mouse drawn by you

I do commissions extremely rarely, I'm afraid. It's not that I don't like drawing for people (or that I have no use for that extra income), I just can't handle the additional pressure and deadlines that well at all at the moment. Sorry!

#full disclosure #I've been struggling with severe depression and anxiety for over a decade now #it seems like I get completely disproportionate performance anxiety every time #it tends to make me lowkey freak out to be frank #I'd love to be able to do commissions at least a little bit more regularly in the future #but think I have to somehow get my mental health situation under control first #if I want to reach the level of professionalism and reliability that is necessary and required for the job #thank you for the interest though! It's good to hear there would be takers if I actually did the thing #answered #cawsket

[cookiiemancer]

#nepeta leijon #homestuck #home22tuck #meulin leijon #feferi peixes #artists on tumblr #more old art repost #I have been drawing less cuz depression and i got a full time art job at least for now #so enjoy the old art reposts #cookiiedraws

[defeateddetectives]

was having natsume's book of friends vs. matoba's book of enemies* thoughts again while waiting for the subway earlier today as one does and thinking about their default standing at the start of not just the series but also their lives and then throughout

many others have written probably far more coherently about this being a story about different takes on legacy which never ever stops to fascinate me but the way that natsume starts his life born as grandchild of reiko who vanished into obscurity but was immensely powerful and able to make contracts with immensely powerful yokai (often after beating them through either simple friendly games or trickery but never cruelty) and grows up with no real sense of connectedness with family until much later and inherited this collection of contracts that he now takes it upon himself to release them from these contracts as a way to restore the balance :)

and matoba who is born into notoriety into the strongest clan of exorcists (who by definition eradicate yokai) growing up with an identity impossible to extricate from his family and inheriting threats and curses and immense power that the entire exorcist community counts on him to uphold even as they hate him for it on top of inheriting mistrust from human and yokai alike what with the inability to make a contract because of his name alone and inheriting a legacy of violence and cruelty and so has continued to perpetuate it because there seems to be no other viable alternative to maintain the status quo of remaining the head of the strongest exorcist clan which is supposed to be his one (1) job :)))

[*the matoba seiji pov series that lives in my head]

#or okay fine one of two (2) jobs if we're counting the baby ceo of thirteen companies in a trenchcoat #i dont know entirely where i'm going with this but the contrasts in where they stand at baseline still keep me up at night #no this isnt yokai murder/torture apologism (or is it) but like. i'm still immensely hecked up about how far they've come in being able to #understand one another #though yeah no please still Do Not let that man anywhere near the book of friends or not for another hundred chapters #(maybe not even then but also maybe he will have put his wedding ring back on at least part-time by then so who even knows!!!!!!) #me @me: we're approaching a full week's worth of sleep debt again girl please go to bed #natsume yuujinchou #horrible exorcist number one

[tethered-heartstrings]

coming to the realization this sprain isn't one of those "heal in a week or two :) teehee <33" and might be in fact one of those "buckleup buttercup, this is a 6+ week recovery, yer in it for the long haul"

#never sprained anything before and stifling the violence in me is a full-time job #delete later #the speaking clown #i dont have even 6 weeks. i need to be On My Feet in 2.5 weeks fuuuuck #note to others. dont let gravity make you its bitch #at least it isnt broken but maybe that would be better idk tendons dont like healing

[pandora15]

life is cruel.

it's tragic, horrific, and unfair. it gives us the worst of things, causes us to feel and experience things that are so unspeakably painful that sometimes I can't even. I can't even.

and it seems even more cruel in those moments of pain and grief and loss when you see something beautiful, like fall colors, or the color of the sky at sunset, or how the holidays typically are meant to bring joy to people but all you can think about now is that every year when this time of year comes, you'll just think about how tragic it is.

and cruel.

and horrific.

and unfair.

and beautiful.

#grief #grief tw #so i'm dealing with grief intimately for the first time like. ever. and i'm having a lot of emotions #and i can't help but observe that the way i write it in fic feels. kinda like how i feel right now? in some ways? #but also like. everyone goes through it differently and there's no like correct way to process #for me i'm. okay most of the time when i have a lot of stuff to do #which is like 90% of the time #but i'm also just feeling a lot of things and trying to figure out how to move forward #especially with the knowledge that life is short and cruel and you just never know what might happen #and i can't just not do the things i truly want to do with my life because i'm SCARED #because. you never know what might happen #you never know when the end is gonna come #anyways i drove back to my apartment today and i saw beautiful fall colors on the way #and all i can think is ''how can the world be so beautiful and so horrible at the same time'' #''so beautiful and so fucking CRUEL at the same time'' #''and to the people who least deserve its cruelty'' #anyways that's where i'm at ig #still got two classes moving and a full time job to do while all of this is happening 🙃 #all things considered. i'm okay. not great but i'm doing my best #really in my post tpm obi-wan era except to a lesser degree #but i certainly have a LOT of responsibilities to deal with along with my grief so. yeah.

[tradingjack]

The $$60 Billion Double Dollar Man

#lmao i forgor #listen. i have been drawing. i promise i have #i just uhhh also have a full time job and also have to like. keep myself alive around that somehow #dont leave much time for much else :( #trigun #trimax #vash the stampede #manga panel redraw #drawing #artists on tumblr #illustration #my art #comic #noticed nightow forgets to draw vash's earring and mole a ton just in this first chapter. it's inspiring how inconsistent he is tbh #im gonna try and draw at least one panel of vash for every chapter on one of these little cards. hopefully i have enough i can #hand them out at the next con i go to if i cosplay ww again lol. whenever i get stopped for a pic or something i can offer em

[nerves-nebula]

Anything on Neglected Karai at all? Is she Splinter’s daughter? Personality, skills, relationships, pronouns, or anything at all?

nah she's a 404 imagine not found screenshot and she doesn't exist she has no pronouns skills relationships or personality and she isn't anyone's daughter she came from the void and to the void she will return. amen.

#nnstuff #ask #sorry but like. im in college. i already cant make the art i want to cuz im busy all the time #yea i know a lot of characters outside the main cast are underdeveloped #i know we barely see april #i know the foot clan basically doesnt exist yet #if this were my full time job and i got like. paid to do it or something maybe i could come up with something but as it is ! #im sitting at my work desk trying not to imagine killing myself because this next assignment is going to make me miserable for #at least another full month #and i didnt get to choose my partner because everyone else had already paired up because they all just. fucking known each other somehow #even though ive been with them all since freshman year #somehow im just not friends with any of them #and all i really want to do is attempt suicide to get out of it!! #but i CANT because god knows i wouldnt succeed!! and then i'd have to face making everyone i know fucking miserable #SO!!!! #TL:DR IM WORKING ON IT

[realasslesbian]

Personal but: tomorrow I gotta call my neurologist's office and ask them to transfer my medical record to my doctor, so that he can sign off on my disability pension, and I can't wait to hear what excuse I'm going to get for why they cannot perform this basic fucking task. It's gonna be like "actually because we write our medical records on circle-shaped paper we're unable to scan it into normal square-shaped paper format, so that's why we can't transfer your medical record, guess you'll just have to choose between death by seizure or death by starvation uwu". And I know anyone reading this will be thinking I'm just being silly and dramatic and to that I say: tune in tomorrow and find out lmao

#then after that I gotta actually get this doctor to fill out the form correctly #which you would think would be easy for someone with a whole ass medical degree #but everyone always a dumbass around me so BET #and THEN once I've gotten two consecutive people to do their jobs I gotta face the final boss #which is the welfare office #which is notoriously staffed by devoutly malignant dumbasses #looking at the doctor's statement #deciding they don't know better than a doctor #which often they DO decide they know better than a doctor so that ain't a given #and then looking at that in conjunction with my homelessness #and coming to the conclusion that I might in fact struggle to work full-time #and if they still want to force me to do pointless activities to punish me for relying on welfare #that I should at least be referred to a disability employment service #who will be far better equipped to force me to do those things in a way that ain't gonna result in me in an emergency department #so all this gotta line up all these people gotta act right in a row #and I never get people acting right ever #so I have low expectations #but I have over the years grown some humour about this sort of thing so I genuinely can't wait to see how ridiculous this gets #lmao

[moregraceful]

what jersey did you purchase today??

THEY GOT ME WITH THE GAME WORN CRISCUOLO JERSEY MAN 😭 IT WAS SO EXPENSIVE AND IT'S NOT EVEN SIGNED 😭😭

shit won't even fit i bet, that man was the size of a grain of rice and weighed less than my dog. this org has my balls in a fucking vice

#you guys know how i only wear the john leonard jersey to sharks games bc it was such an ill-advised purchase? me with this crisco jersey #the cuda should be paying ME money. i MAKE them money. by POSTING #i'm sure i make some equally normal purchase of a cvf jersey i can't wear anywhere later this week too. i'm so sure 😭 tf is wrong with me #which btw. downloading every single podcast on the face of the planet for this roadtrip knowing full well what's gonna happen is #i am gonna listen to 5 minutes of a locked on sharks episode and get ripshit mad at jdy and spend the next 7.25 hours listening to #spotify's tropical house playlist while carefully crafting the most dumbass notfic about environmental conservation #which is what always happens when i have to drive by myself for long periods of time #AND BTW. RE: CRISCO JERSEY. THIS ONLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I WAS MAD AT ONE JOB AND THEN RECEIVED A VERY ANNOYING TEXT MESSAGE FROM ANOTHER JOB #AND THEN THE ORG EMAILED. STEF GOT ME IN A VULNERABLE MOMENT. I WAS DYSREGULATED!!! I WAS NOT MYSELF!!!! #the best part is the sharks proshop called me this morning like hey your simmer jersey is ready. i was like oh yay :) <3 UNKNOWING......... #all three of my jobs made me so exhausted today guys it just never ends #but then it's like well. if i didn't have three jobs. i couldn't make insanely stupid purchases either #so even though i burned out so hard i feel dead inside a lot of the time. at least i can create THE most baffling sharkuda jersey collectio #where was i going with this. oh right. mackblack win tn schedule that selena gomez lockdown starting NOW #cage replies #tausendsorgen #LESA

[hiphopcherrrypop]

they are even in my subconscious… sick and tired 😭!!!

#bucchigiri?! #i woke up and LUNGED for my phone + started typing in ewhatever in notes was open #which was stocking job stuff so sry for the grocery list oops! #if i can secure 4 day work schedule instead of 5 again maybe i will storyboard this based on my memory LOLLL... #but if not i fear i will not have time bc i back to school now #the kabedon was in some place with no one else liek what are yall doing alone in there anyways🤔 #the jabashiri hagure hand holding had like slomo zoom frame of their hands before switching to full shot im cryyying #my sleeping mind is genius i guess #i wish i remember what was the setting of their trip besides brief stop in weird liminal space airport room #if i draw this i'll prob just go BEACH TRIPPP even tho geographically idk that that makes sense #i will have to fill in mental gaps im glad i wrote some stuff down at least #they were out of school uniform but i dont rly remeber anyone's outfit except mahoro had a cute summery dress ^_^

[mcmissileproof]

like yes I did go to a "prestigious institute" to get a "chemistry degree" so I could have a "meaningful" career doing "science" or whatever but I would really ideally like for my job to be The Resident Weird Guy. we don't know what he'll do or when he'll do it but he sure does stuff sometimes. I think that would be peak

#like yeah I have a job that's at least somewhat interesting and like. materially useful for real life reasons. #and that's cool! #I do like to do things that are useful #but my actual ideal is just being some kind of full-time eccentric #''so what does that guy do here'' ''oh he's weird. he's our weird guy'' that's the dream

[lynchiangf]

they invented grad school to make sure you get sick of being a student, thereby prepping you for being part of the workforce for the rest of your life

#I know having a job sucks too (mourrisey said this in the 1800s) but at least you get paid #I'm working more than full time on stuff I mostly dgaf about and I'M the one paying

[rapha-reads]

I just finished The City We Became by NK Jemisin and I already want to dive into book 2, The World We Make, so, so bad, because, shit, living cities, intertextuality, myths passed down in history, Lovecraftian monsters, queer and poc main characters, vibrant language, modern, rhythmic style? Totally my jam, yeah, that's what I live and breathe for, and I need the next story now. But also it's close to 6am and sure, it's Sunday, and sure, I'm super jobless and only thing on my agenda is finding a goddamn job, but just because my life has less direction than a car without a wheel, doesn't mean that I should encourage my self-destructive tendencies by jumping into another 400 pages book right now... Right? Right? Just a chapter. Just a chapter and I'll go to bed... One chapter. (every bookworm around the world, laughing at me: yeah, sure, sister. One chapter. We believe you. Have fun not sleeping.)

#the city we became #the world we make #nk jemisin #the great cities trilogy #books #science fiction #fantasy #scifi fantasy #literature #rapha reads #rapha talks #bookworm problems #if someone finds me a job in the next five business days i swear i will put my life in order and starts sleeping at night #right now i'm full on nocturnal and it's starting to be a problem but at the very least i have time to read and discover gems like this one #definitely another excellent find this year is starting under excellent literary auspices

[girlwithfish]

the job application process will make u want to die wheeeeee

#like i feel ashamed if i do work at a coffee shop rn cuz im gna b like yeah ill do this for now and also keep applying for jobs in the actu #actual career i want but realistically i prob wont bc working full time will take up all my time n i wont have energy to apply for other #shit thats what happened to me last time w the last job #Anddd idk i jhst dont feel very adult if i work at a coffee shop im not looking down on food service at all but i feel others will look down #on me like i have a degree what am i DOINGGG but also i just need a job. #And id like a low effort front desk job ik i cld do that and itd be chill idk im not very ambitious but i dont have admin experience so idk #Andddd i kinda gave up on trying to work in publishing editing but ill keep trying idk i shld apply for more copyeditjng stuff >_> #its just all sooooo muchhhh #what am i even doinggg idont know what i want i jhst want a job that doesnt make me stressed or sad and decent pay. yipee #and i dont wanna rly work in food service or retail or customer service Lol #like i wanna sit down. and work on the puter. i can do that #IDK #but yeah at least i got an interview ig for this barista job but its not what i rly want but maybe i shld jjst go for it cuz idk if #im gonna hear back from anything else atm.