#aside from blushy fanboy moments jude has

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I just love Xillia so much. Good or bad, parts that dont make sense, or that annoy me, or whatever dont matter. It means a lot to me and I love everyone in the cast and the journey throughout the entire game and it really is my fave in the Tales series but of course I love Xillia 2 so much that I cant separate them. They have to be grouped together, lol. Its just one of my fave games ever and it makes me really emotional to beat it again cuz that means its over 😭😭😭😭

#time to go to the sequel and cry over ludger next lol #but god just. i mean. this time around milla really grew on me and i learned to appreciate her and now i really like her #but the thing is. the romance between her and jude is SO noexistant despite the game trying to tell you otherwise #like i get jude having a crush on milla. and its clearly the game is trying to say at a certain point milla reciprocates #but at no point does it feel real. at no point does it feel like any romantic love they have for each other plays a part in anything #aside from blushy fanboy moments jude has #like if it was turned from an idolization crush to jude realizing later on that crushing on her was part of his childishness and naivete #and he grew out of it and learned to respect her as someone to look up to and follow #and milla never developed feelings for jude but instead came to rely on him as a trusted companion like HOW IT LOOKS #then it would be so much better #there doesnt need to be a disclaimer at the bottom of the screen saying 'remember: this is supposed to be romantic' #cuz thats what it feels like in the later half of the game #i think jude crushing makes senses but if it evolved and matured starting when milla 'died' it wouldnt be bungled #there shouldnt have been romance between jude and milla and it really makes me unable to appreciate good moments in their relationship #cuz i cant look at it in the platonic light it actually looks like it is #its like 'aw! look at their bond!' #*bamco whispering in my ear* 'this is romance and they are in love! dont forget!' #'oh... okay now thie just feels awkward' #like. ya know? #anyway. i feel like its one of the top two games that always feel like home to me. i can play it and literally feel like it is my home #i never get tired of playing it and the fact that the sequel exists brings me so much joy cuz i get to see everybody living their best lives #......until ludger's life starts to go to shit tho..... #oh ludger. you really shoulda stayed home. #personal