#as a writer this is the dream <3 i started watching stranger things bc it was weird and. kept watching because it was actually GOOD

[maddy-ferguson]

Ngl i am a little bit tired seeing ppl come up with excuses for why Will was sidelined and receives minimum screentime each season bc supposedly he will receive all of his screentime in the finale. It just makes no sense for your supposed centre character to receive minimum screentime for 4 seasons straight. And i would agree that its all intentional if the show doesnt follow the fanservice agenda with giving more screentime to characters like Steve and Dustin and Hopper bc they are liked by the audience meanwhile Jonathan and Will and even Joyce sometimes have been shat on for a long time. There is no way to fix this only in the finale season. I dont want to sound like a hater but it is really screaming bad writing.

it's annoying because on the one hand i like the story of will being replaced by el after vanishing and i like to think of that being reflected even in the fabric of the show. because she did replace him, people (mlvns) think of mike el lucas and dustin as the core four because she took his place while he was in the upside down and then started dating mike which is obviously what will wants, and because if it all goes as planned season five will make people see that will was just as important all along (a girl can dream) (i don't mean in terms of screentime). i think that story's very fun, cruel summer season 1 (something i've said before in the notes of this post from a while ago) except the girl who replaces will does it without meaning to and she helps save his life so it's very different. on the other hand...as i said in april...

the byers being sidelined? for will i guess you can rationalize it and come up with great and convincing meta reasons as to why his character was sidelined in seasons 3 and 4 (which, yeah, fascinating, i will still hate it ten years from now, no matter how important to season 5 will is), but what about jonathan? what about joyce? how does one justify the fact that winona went from being the reason 75% of people older than 15 started watching the show to having less screentime than fucking jason in season 4? it is annoying when people act like byler endgame will make everything right and will make stranger things a perfect show because it really won’t

also i'm not sure about joyce having less screentime than jason i actually just saw people say that and i can't find a s4 screentime chart to confirm lol. but yeah the thing is...when it's all of the byers not just will getting sidelined to make room for characters like steve it's like. this is not my stranger things cruel summer-like story (that i admittedly made up) where will got replaced in his own life while he was kidnapped anymore. it's fanservice and it's steve somehow lowkey becoming the face of the show because shawn levy apparently loves joe keery so much lol. and of course fans will make the show their own and steve is not the most important character when you watch the actual show but idk. i just don't understand why they let it get to this point was jonathan not your self insert underdog miserable guy who gets the girl when the show started like why did you stop liking him when he got the girl😭😭 it just sucks because whether you like it or not the byers made the show it was them and the kids that made season one what it was. i know the will and jonathan stuff is still there (in season 4 because in season 3 despite spending a lot of time together they...have nothing?) but oh my god the joyce and jonathan relationship is...like do the writers know that jonathan is joyce's son before being will's father figure. i think the parentification stuff is great and very interesting and i hope he doesn't go to emerson OR lenora but oh my god. i just don't understand because it's RIGHT THERE in the show but why don't they do more with it. it's just insane to me. he's not all alone out there in the world but he very much is and i don't know how much of it is joyce being a struggling mother and how much is the writers not giving a fuck. do you think joyce and jonathan will have even just one conversation in season 5. that would be crazy.

the will getting replaced à la kate wallis in cruel summer and that being reflected by his absence even when he's back from being in another dimension and from being possessed thing i'm talking about i both like and dislike. because some of it feels very intentional (cf first post i linked) but some of it really doesn't, especially when the sidelining is a problem with all the byers like i just mentioned. and the end result is that a lot of people are like no will isn't important at all yes he's the one who disappeared and his vanishing kickstarted the show (some of them don't even say that they're like el opened the gate so it's her show WELL i'm very sorry guys but had will not disappeared mike never would've fallen in love with her in her yellow benny's burgers t-shirt so thank you will as always) but the only thing he does is cry and be gay and have a bowlcut now so he doesn't matter, which is always annoying. and it's not the el show but it kinda is the el show yk, do i think we could do with a little less el sometimes yes but it's not really el's massive screentime that bothers me because again, i think the willel juxtaposition swapping places thing is very interesting. what i cannot in good conscience defend is the steveification and simultaneous debyersification of stranger things i just can't!

and as i mentioned in the tags of my post from april and like you said, i think people are setting themselves up for disappointment if they think season 5 being will heavy is gonna fix it. it's too late. he probably won't get as much screentime and focus as will fans have come to expect because stranger things is not skam lol. i don't even know how much screentime would make it fair and would make people happy? i think you can enjoy the meta posts and reasons that read like excuses while still wishing they hadn't sidelined him that much. because the posts and the discussions are great but i also like having a good time while watching the show and it's not just tumblr willuminatis that feel disappointed by how little will we got these past seasons, a lot of people feel that way. at the end of the day i still think will is one of the most important characters and i think season five will reflect that but i still wish season three and four had been different in the will department. and i don't expect season five to make it up to me because it never will like seasons three and four will forever be like this! you can't convince me they couldn't have done them in a way that didn't accidentally reveal too early that he isn't gonna end up gay sad alone and dead for the crime of being gay or that he actually matters in the supernatural side of things you know.

#i was mad in april like i sound much more positive here i'm crying #i loved the first season of cruel summer i thought it was fascinating season two is very boring in comparison. the last two or three #episodes were a little more interesting but it's almost over now like it should've gotten interesting before #if you haven't seen it i'm sorry because i'm literally always saying this it's just that the premise of s1 is a girl going missing and #another girl replacing her in her life and dating her boyfriend and becoming friends with her friends etc #i would apologize about all the parentheses but then i wouldn't be me #ask

[oviids]

pls share some of your spn fic recs 🥺🥺

ok, a few things first:

followers and mutuals who do not have supernatural brainworms, kindly avert your eyes

i don’t normally rec or even read much fanfic any more but this is a CRISIS ok (cont.)

there is so. much. content for deancas out there and i have incredibly high standards, several ancient ao3 bookmarks, can speedread, and want to spare you guys the experience of wading through it all.

i also have a section for spn femslash since I was pretty into that back in the day (sadly a lot less fan content for this :/)

I don’t really like au’s or pure smut (I honestly usually just skim or skip those scenes) so if you’re mainly looking for that kind of thing this probably won’t be very helpful to you. jsyk.

i’m not great at describing stuff but i’ll do my best, i’ll also try and add tw’s when neccesary.

i wil try and keep updating this with any other decent fics i find, feel free to rec stuff too since i’m like 7 years behind.(edit 1/25/21) this is getting looooong so i’m going to start making another list on my spn blog rather than update this one

(edit 1/3/21) since this has gotten pretty long i’ve added rating/approximate word counts and marked my particular favorites with an asterisk.

Dean/Cas fic:

So Says The Sword*** - explicit/85k. FUCK its good...au/time travel where dean is not pulled out of hell by cas and says yes to becoming the michael sword. honestly could serve as an alternative to actually watching the show, if you want to get into dean/cas without actually doing that to yourself.

Fata morgana.*  - teen/6k, pst s9 finale. very bela centric and i love it, she finds cas looking for dean in hell.

Redemption Road -misc/600+k. an incredibly long fic from a collaborative writing group back in the day. canon divergent from the end of s6 on, has a cool take on godstiel and the leviathans, as well as the lovecratian mythos connection. ngl when i reread it i only made it about 28% in but imo the casual reader can actually stop around there, the rest concerns a lovecraftian apocalypse that is still good (i think i don’t remember it very well) but not required to enjoy the first half. if you prefer i have an ebook version i can send you on gdrive.

Someone Who's Feeling For Me* - mature/45k, s12. they run into lisa braeden and dean thinks cas is into her while cas thinks dean still likes her. treats lisa way better than the show ever did and the miscommunication is pretty funny rather than annoying.

a turn of the earth - mature/95k. time travel fic where cas from s10 keeps showing up in deans life from a few years before s1 to right before the hellhounds take his soul.  slow burn, good character study, and at one point cas punches the dad in the face and it rules.

On the Wings of War - teen/85k, canon divergent s5. dean accidentally becomes the Horseman of War. plays fun, fast and loose with biblical lore, michael has some rights.

Named - mature/95k, alternate s5. EXTREMELY blasphemous in a fun sexy way. manages to predict metatron almost to a T. there’s one major character death and its literally jesus christ, everyone is very sad about it and it sets the rest of the story rolling. an alternate interpretation of cas’ mission to raise dean from hell which had me on the floor. ngl its kind of misogynistic at points, but its from 2010 and tracks with late oughts-2010 spn (sorry anna the author did you dirty here:/).

The Girlfriend Experience - explicit/15k. uhhh i don’t normally rec or even read smutty stuff unless someone i know is specifically asking for it but this has stuff like sam trying to be a good ally and dean thinking holding hands with cas is ‘kinda gay :/’ minutes after having gay sex with him.

i crippled your heart a hundred times - explicit/19k, s8. cas confesses his feelings and dean spends a long time getting his head out of his ass about it. truly hits different after the actual confession, despite being written six years early it feels like its actually what could have gone down more or less if the writers weren’t talentless demons who hate us.

My Roots Take Flight** - mature/125k. reverse au where cas is a hunter and dean’s an angel...OR IS IT???? an alternate retelling of s4. tw for briefly being set in a psychiatric hospital/the hospital being mentioned somewhat frequently throughout the fic, plus more references to torture in hell and heaven than usual.

The One Thing You Can't Lose* - teen/4k.you know those posts about how cas is a super-strong super-tough ancient warrior but he just lets dean tug him around because he likes it? thats it thats the fic.

Hands, From Which All Things Are Built - teen/14k, post s8′s ‘goodbye stranger.’ cas is on the run with the angel tablet but keeps in touch with sam and dean by text, he and dean still manage to be terrible at Actual communication.

Autrement, Danger - or, The Account of an Exceedingly Long Day - mature/30k, post s11. a monster that takes the appearance of your soulmate leads to some wild miscommunications and dealing with years of repression, also dean gets to see cas’ true form which is always cool. tw for non-graphic mentions of underage sexual assault/sex work.

Down to Agincourt - mature/explicit/900++++k, endverse continuation. endverse!cas survives his encounter with lucifer and discovers another time-displaced dean from s7. i’ve only read the two of four parts but its really good, veeeeery slow burn, has a lot of fun oc’s and takes a rather surprising but (imo) entertaining and intriguing turn into Hellenic history and mythology. usual tw’s for endverse/endverse!cas but nothing graphic, it’s actually pretty light-hearted (relatively speaking of course).

Nothing Equals the Splendor** - explicit/8k, THEE finale fix it fic you’ve been waiting for! posits that the entire final episode was just a (very bad and lame) djinn’s vision.

like moses and batman and james dean - explicit/31k, post s8. explores dean’s trauma and internalized homophoba from his technically canon experience with sex work and its impact on his relationship with cas. the sex work itself isn’t really shown in any detail but it’s still a relatively heavy fic.

Crazy Diamonds - explicit/25k, s4/alternate s14. fresh-out-of-hell dean and dean from 10 years in the future are displaced from time and sent to each other’s present.

where the weeds take root - explicit/30k. au where the men of letters kick them out of the bunker and they accidentally move out into the country, get over their codependence and semi retire. featuring chicken coop building, sam volunteering at a dog shelter, gardening, and blissfully mundane domesticity.

No Resting Place - teen/6k. djinn dream fic, switches back and forth between cas’ dream of being married to dean and retired from hunting to the aftermath when he wakes up. tw for brief mention of suicide since, y’know, djinn dream.

any port in a storm - mature/52k. post s8 finale. cas and dean have to pose as a couple going through a rough patch for a case and actually deal with their emotional baggage, cas struggles with being human and metatron is up to stuff.

all this and heaven too* - explicit/7k. in the author’s own words ‘...a love letter to every trans person who ever projected onto Dean Winchester.’ absolutely unzipped me emotionally and theologically, its just. so good. tw for very brief mentions of internalized transphobia/dysphoria.

Because it is* - mature/6k, finale fix it. killing chuck does not bring back anyone back and the winchesters spend a very long time dealing with what they’ve lost, cas and dean SOMEHOW still manage to have signifigant communication issues even after the confession. tw for suicidal thoughts/brief attempt.

Vena Amoris and Other Old-Fashioned Bullshit* - teen/4k, s6. when cas fell for dean it automatically soulbonded/angel married them, shenanigans ensue when dean finds out during the angel’s civil war. funny and actually written back when s6 was airing so cas is still (or at least pretending to be) kind of an OP asshole which is fun.

Rinse, Repeat - teen/3k, s8. angsty character study of cas as he’s reprogrammed and trained to kill dean. not really dean/cas since its just cas’ pov of canon events but its beautifully written and ends with him snapping out of it through the power of love (also now a canon event!).

Emergence - explicit/59k, canon divergent after s11. dean meets a hunter he only recognizes as their friend claire novak’s missing father, but soon realizes he might be the answer behind the mysterious void in his memories and feelings (aka everyone’s memories of cas are completely wiped away for three years).

Cuckoo And Nest - explicit/10k, early established relationship/character study, cas tries to figure out how he fits into dean’s life and space in the bunker.

Build a Home* - teen/20k, canon divergent s12. sam and eileen are cute and turn the bunker into men of letters/hunters hq and everyone but cas moves in, mutual miscommunication issues and pining ensues.

Down in the River - teen/5k, early s8, cas prays to dean in purgatory while sam and dean try to figure out a way to get him out.

Teaching Poetry to Fish* - mature/52k, ?? BC through the entire series/canon divergent s14 and 15. retelling of crucial scenes throughout the shows timeline from cas’ pov, feat. actual fish and poetry.

the minor fall, the major lift - gen/4k, post confession/finale fixit. dean goes into the empty to save cas and runs into several old friends (and enemies).

With the Kisses of His Mouth* - teen/3k, gen later seasons. dean and cas keep kissing by accident.

Remaining Grace - explicit/109k, alternate s6. au where cas asks dean for help with raphael and dean, of course, does. tw for temporary major character death/semi-graphic depictions of alcohol withdrawal.

The face of heaven.* - teen/10k, au, dean is a regular guy and cas is a fallen star (think ‘stardust’, kinda).

Stories Are Made of Mistakes*  - teen/5k. newly human cas has trouble getting used to a human body and humanity in general, but still figures out that he and dean are A Thing before dean does.

Hurry Up And Wait - mature/21k, canon divergent s12. a fairyland and quite possibly LOTR related case comes up and dean goes full fanboy, mary is introduced to the wonders of the peter jackson adaptions, many references and comparisons (including between cas and dean’s ‘friendship’ and arwen/aragon). also charle is still alive and has just been doing fairy stuff this whole time.

There Are Many Things - explicit/28k, s9. cas is extremely lonely/touch-starved and trying to figure out this whole human thing, as well as where he and dean stand after being kicked out of the bunker.

It's A Long Life to Always Be Longing - teen/40k, post s11 finale. amara helps dean by putting him in a magical coma so he can finally get some much needed rest and show him possible futures for him, sam and cas. meanwhile sam and cas go on a roadtrip (or several) to find componets for a spell to wake dean up. really good sam and cas friendship, they actually talk about their shared lucifer trauma and stuff.

Non-Photo Blue - gen/2k, s4/5/alternate s5. fifty moments from cas’ memories of dean.

Tall Grass - explicit/57k, canon divergent post series. cas becomes the ultimate plant dad. feat the wayward sisters gang, cathartic character growth, fun oc’s, domesticity, and lots of actual botanical info-dumping.

on vessels - no rating/gen/2k. established dean/cas, cas tells dean about how he used to imagine what it would be like to have him as his vessel.

search for tomorrow on every shore* - teen/11k, post-finale (extremely derogatory). some angels in jack’s new heaven act out and dean gets temporarily resurrected in 2003 and runs into his younger self.

Architecture of the Minotaur’s Heart - explicit/45k, very canon divergent post s1. dean’s new house seems to have a life and mind of its own, while in his dreams he sees glimpses of a world and apocalypse that never came to be and an angel that looks strangely like his mysterious neighbor, cas. loosely inspired by the book house of leaves (which i highly recommend for fans of weird horror).

The Distance Of The Setting Sun - explicit/17k, post s5. established dean/cas relationship, team free will finally takes advantage of cas’ abilities to go on vacation around the world.

diamond star halo - teen/5k, s11. dean lets cas use him as a temporary vessel while he recovers from rowena’s spell, sam is a long-suffering third-wheel.

Make Known** - teen/16k, s6/7. dean struggles to understand how cas could have become his enemy and whether he ever truly knew him in the first place.

blunt little instrument* - mature/1.4k, post finale. dean finally confronts his father in heaven, very cathartic.

my heart a compass*** - teen/10k, post confession. the empty forces cas to re-experience his most regretted moments while dean tries to snap him out of it and bring him home.

A Crash Course in Someone Else's History - teen/11k, s6. cas from the very start of s4 is brought forward in time by s6!cas to distract the brothers from his and crowley’s plans.

The Cuckoo Father - mature/8k, s7 au. the woman who found cas in the river post-leviathans does not marry him bc he was sent to her by god or whatever, but actually identifies him as jimmy novak and sends him back to claire and amelia.

The Dead Dean Clause* - teen/5k, post alt s5 ending. team free will celebrates surviving taking down lucifer by getting blitzed, cas lies to a cop and gets an impromptu driving lesson. title/description sound dark i know but it’s actually very funny and light.

Suck It, Judy Garland - mature/20k, s12 (after the ‘i love you...i love all of you’ episode). cas and sam have to pretend to be a couple for a case and dean is NOT happy about it.

By Daylight and In Dream - teen/16k, s5. pre-dean/cas, dean invites cas to use his dreams to hide from the other angels. tw for very brief mention of a memory/dream of alastair sexually assaulting dean.

The Five People You Meet in Heaven - mature/22k, post-canon. an actually happy (if sometimes bittersweet) heaven endgame written several years ago, though some details are rather eerily similar to the show’s ending.

heaven is a place on earth* - teen/2k. dean’s pov of some of the times cas left him behind throughout the show, and one alternate ending where he finally gets to stay.

I Cleanse The Mirror - teen/20k, alternate s6. dean’s body is stolen by an ancient elemental and his soul has to hitch a ride in cas’ vessel.

an exploration of gender; angelic*** - mature/4k. *oscar isaac voice* lets get into angel gender politics!! aka cas is trans.

Zenith - explicit/33k, s9. after 9x06 an angry witch curses cas with the ability to see supernatural beings and human souls.

La cucina. - gen/3k, alt s9. dean goes wild helping a newly-human cas find out what kinds of food he likes, or the early s9 domesticity we deserved!

Dean Winchester, Cocksucker at Rest***** - teen/7k, post-finale. john and mary finally come over for dinner and john reacts to dean/cas in a rather predictable fashion. SOOOOOOOOO good omg, its so funny and a little sad and very very cathartic. part of a series that has a few other really good short fics.

The Way You Didn't Go - teen/5k, s15. coda to 15.09, dean has nightmares about the moc!cas timeline.

On Drowning - teen/28k. dean saves cas after he nearly drowns, they both try and deal with the physical/mental fallout (aka the fic where thee iconic “you only touch me when you think I’m dead or dying” originates). tw for realistic depictions of drowning/triage/misc medical information.

The Thirty-Six Questions That Lead to Love* - mature/13k. claire has dean and cas pretend to be her gay dads for a case and they play the titular 36 question game, get mistaken for swingers, and birdwatch, among other things.

Assorted F/F stuff:

Deep Breaths* - mary/ellen, au where mary said no to azazel’s deal and let john stay dead, still becomes a milf.

Like Rebel Diamonds - krissy/claire, they become hunter gf’s on the hunt for cas to kick his ass for taking jimmy. not-so-stealth dean/cas as well.

To Ash and Bone - anna/ruby, same author as the previous fic (p much all of her stuff is good from what i recall). au where ruby is a witch and helps anna when she’s cursed.

Holy Clockwork Angels - jo/ruby, STEAMPUNK au with very cool worldbuiilding.

At Day's End - jo/anna (my fucking KINGDOM for more jo/anna content, the dean/cas parallels are allllll there), au where they are both at the camp in the endverse and gfs.

these posts - ok so not actually a fic but i’m now obsessed with this hannah/meg dynamic.

Tagelied - mary/ellen, the true story of how ellen got into hunting before angels interfered.

Hell's Bells** - meg/abaddon, alternate s8/9 where meg survives crowley’s attack with sam’s help and teams up with abaddon (who she has a sk year old crush on) to take back hell.

The Ecstasy of the Rose - anna/ruby, anna travels back in time to escape heaven and becomes a signifigant part of ruby’s old human life.

Angel Underground - anna/jo, kind of an urban fantasy au with a very intriguing premise (sadly its very short, i’d love to see more if this ‘verse).

Clover, Flame - billie/mary, billie was always the reaper that showed up to take mary after her death(s) over the years.

Drag Me To Heaven - anna/ruby, a variant on the ‘last night on earth’ thing with dean.

Come Home* - jo/anna, canon-divergent au where anna is the new waitress at the roadhouse and helps jo set up a (probably not really) haunted house for halloween.

#if you told me i'd be doing this in 2020 three weeks ago i'd have laughed in your face :/ #deancas #supernatural #fic recs #spn femslash #destiel #fic #the alie tag #spn posting

[wackywriterwhowriteswhenever]

I was tagged by @poweredbycreativityandcake. Thanks Sophia!

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Random Fact: Tonight, I’m planning on watching Halloween 1978, Halloween II, Halloween H20 and Halloween 2018 while wearing my Will the Wise costume before ringing in NaNoWriMo 2020 at midnight and starting to write my Stranger Things/Terminator fic, No Fate! Super excited to get started!

Tagging @willthecleric @thesnarkywillbyersfan @randomnesssayshello and anyone else who wants to

[thegeminisage]

i’m gonna liveblog my rewatch of 2.08 because i can

it’s stupid long so here’s the cut

just to give you an idea of how fast this switch flipped for me at the start of this episode when uther is like “u will find no one who embodies nobleness better than my son arthur” i went “PFFFFFT” & had a good chortle

i have a lot to say about this duel challenge sequence. 1. why are strangers always coming in and tossing their glove on the floor. everyone in that room is armed. just take them out! 2. arthur picks up the glove first this time, unlike 1.03. guess he can learn after all 3. he does it BEFORE SEEING HER FACE god classic he’s so fucking stupid

everyone getting their panties in a twist over having to fight a WOMAN when in reality she goes on to kick his ass is like...both tiresome & hilarious

i used to really be on the fence about the Vibe between merlin & arthur because while they seemed quite happy to die for one another from the get-go most of the time arthur is just being MEAN and merlin isn’t as mean back and it’s like :/ ok i don’t get what everyone else is so heart-eyes over. but in 2.08 they do a lot of confiding in one another and just general talking about plot-stuff where arthur’s insults are...not absent, but kept to a minimum, and idk it’s nice! it’s nice. less like arthur is a massive bully and more like they’re Companions. i’m not hopeful about it lasting bc this show doesn’t know the meaning of the words “consist continuity” but it was reeeeeaally good here

arthur’s face when he lost to a G I R L and uther just walked out with no comment. even back when i still hated him i was like “ouch”

that being said it was a welcome change of pace to see merlin giving ARTHUR shit for once. finally

upon morgause and morgana’s first meeting when morgause says “i hope you will remember me fondly” i went “WOW THAT’S GAY” because i didn’t KNOW and cathy told me later she had to put her head in her hands for five whole minutes. don’t shoot me i’m just the messenger they’re the ones who wrote it that way

my favorite thing about morgause is that i couldn’t immediately figure her out. i’m in the habit of throwing out guesses about future plot points for fun, because i’m a writer and that’s how i deconstruct things, and since this show was kind of meant to be kid-friendly i’m usually right. but as far as morgause went...i didn’t have a clue. i had NO IDEA this whole ep would be like this

i’ve said this before (not on this blog tho) but arthur is like...really eager to die. i keep joking that he has a death wish but upon further reflection i don’t think he’s actively seeking to end his life as much as he would be relieved to die for something noble like honor or whatever because then he would have...done it right, if that makes any sense, and wouldn’t have to worry about screwing it up anymore. he doesn’t want to die but he craves a good death. to prove to his dad and himself that he’s made of the right stuff?? i’m not being very clear. this concept requires more thought

it’s REALLY a lot for me that uther would rather throw arthur in his own chambers than have him find out about ygraine. yyyyikes

merlin sneaking in that rope was so cute. he finally got the group’s communal braincell for a few minutes

on the other hand after the troll episodes i am SO tired of dung being played for laughs. i really suffered

also man i’m so glad morgana finally got some sleep it’s what she deserves

this Dead Parent talk really mcmurdered me. both merlin and arthur lost a parent when they were very young & they now cannot remember said parent and we HAVE THAT IN COMMON so every single word they said was like an arrow straight to my heart!!!!!!! like as good as the ending to this episode was (and OH it was good OHHHHH it was GOOD) i think this right here is what truly softened me up towards arthur. this is relatability, this is emotional vulnerability, this is a genuine human connection made between EQUALS and frankly it’s exactly what i’ve been wanting from these guys for a season and a half. their willingness to die for each other is good stuff to be sure but it’s EMPTY without some meat to back it up & we’re finally getting what we deserve

“i’d do anything for even the vaguest memory” like they didn’t have to go that hard & read me for filth like that but they did. they did. arthur. babe. my guy.

almost every time someone comes in to speak with uther he’s eating and he has like an entire mini-banquet in front of him even though he’s all by himself. like, an entire plate of grapes, a whole-ass chicken, an intact loaf of bread, a bowl FILLED with whole uncut apples...wtf??

“what would YOU know about magic, merlin?” “nothing ;)” i did have a good chortle truly

i’ve already made my points about arthur and a good death but MAN he was hasty to put his head on that chopping block for no good fucking reason at all. holy shit. him casually doing that swing-thing he does with his sword to the axe ahead of time really adds a lot to this entire thing and also aged me ten years

when arthur was like “what if my father’s attitude towards magic is wrong” and “surely not everyone who practices magic can be evil” i gasped so fucking loud. so fucking loud

and the worst part is you can practically feel merlin’s heartbeat pick up. just LOOK at his “wtf am i hearing is this for real could my dreams actually come true” face. but at the same time, he’s got to be the one with a healthy suspicion here because arthur is in over his head. so he STILL can’t trust it. and then naturally it goes to hell so quickly that the chance for merlin to confide in arthur is lost. i can’t believe this took 4 irl years and five seasons. watching this live must have been like TORTURE. i’m practically bingeing it and i’m still suffering deeply

it’s very odd to me that arthur specifically said his mother died before he opened his eyes but the first thing ygraine says to him is that she remembers him staring up at her. to me that’s an obvious clue that she’s a fake, and the cutaway during that line to merlin’s face tells me he had the same suspicion (and that he’s kind of horrified by it)

ARTHUR FEELS SO GUILTY FOR HER DYING AND I’M ALSO DYING AND SLDFKMGHLSKDFJH

i know for a fact that ygraine’s telling of these events is slightly altered from the truth too...there’s no way that uther would have been so overcome with grief that he went on to commit genocide if he knew beforehand that his wife would die and was willing to sacrifice her

on the other hand, there’s also a cutaway to morgause’s face during this speech in which she looks surprised or confused at what ygraine says, which doesn’t add up if she was pulling these strings, so...What Is The Truth

not to be like this but merlin bearing witness to this whole series of events is like...there’s some things that once you go through them with somebody things between you change and there’s a new intimacy there...i don’t expect much from a show that likes to return to the status quo but in my heart it’s how i feel

OH BOY HERE WE GO. arthur arrives in camelot and pulls his sword out as soon as he leaves his horse leaving a visibly spooked merlin behind him this is the STUFF

“arthur was born of magic” is really a hell of a line because even though i already knew this backstory i hadn’t stopped to consider it like that...no, magic is not a crucial part of arthur’s identity and how he views himself the way it is for merlin and morgana, but it’s still a part of his history and what made him who he is, that made him alive and different from other people. his hatred and fear of it becomes so much more tragic in that light. i think also there was such a clear line drown before between people who are magic and people who are not and for me, mentally, arthur kind of...swapped sides, or is at least straddling the border

merlin’s absolute FURY at uther’s hypocrisy is like...........fucking. another thing i wanted to see for a season and a half. imo there’s not nearly enough meat to the fact that merlin is magic and ultimately serves uther who is trying to decimate him and his kind - has actually SAVED UTHER'S LIFE on MULTIPLE occasions. this is the first time this show actually went “hey uther is responsible for the deaths of hundreds of people and that’s really not at all ok” and i am SO into it. like, no, he’s not misguided. he’s not “just grieving.” he’s a murderer. he’s responsible for genocide.

the final 9 minutes of this episode feature arthur pendragon being absolutely FURIOUS. he’s LIVID. he’s PISSED. and i love it more than anything else this show has done so far

i genuinely, truly believed he didn’t have this in him. never in my WILDEST DREAMS could i have imagined arthur doing this. i had written it off as the stuff of fanfics. but holy shit my man snapped

HE👏DID👏THAT👏

reasons i did not see this coming at all even a little: 1. i figured there was no way arthur would get over his anti-magic thing until near the end (i know it must come back later, but STILL) 2. i did not believe for one second he could ever seriously stand up to his father for more than a few minutes at a time 3. most of what’s making arthur so goddamn pissed is that he thinks his dad killed his mom on purpose but he’s also showing a fair amount of horror at the fact that uther hunted down and killed everyone even remotely associated with sorcery like animals. do you know what that is? does anybody else understand the enormity of this? HE IS SHOWING EMPATHY. i DID NOT believe he was capable of it.

i do feel a way about how uther started this scene from a place of cool confidence - he was handing out orders, “leave us and no one comes in,” manipulating the situation, “she was lying to you, magic users are trying to destroy us,” and finally trying to close the door on the topic and reassert control, “i am your kind and your father and you will SHOW ME SOME RESPECT” - and arthur was not only having none of it (the way his eyes narrowed as uther’s casual “she was lying”...oh boy) he TURNED THE TABLES and had uther ON THE DEFENSIVE. the number of times we’ve seen uther shut other people down and get his way because he’s king and everyone is afraid of him and this time uther was the one who afraid LITERALLY for his life. HOW’S THAT TASTE BITCH god it was SO satisfying. like, there’s one shot where arthur is walking slowly towards him after all his verbal tactics have failed to de-escalate the situation and he’s in the backround with his eyes so fucking wide and he looks TERRIFIED. i LOVE IT

“you are my son. you would not strike an unarmed man.” “i no longer consider myself your son” AND HE STRIKES HIM

HE👏

DID👏

THAT👏

when i say that i LITERALLY screamed i am not at all exaggerating or using hyperbole. cathy asked twice if i needed to pause & collect myself. i could not have paused if my life depended on it

i’m really on the fence about merlin stopping arthur. on the one hand, arthur has suffered enough and doesn’t need to suffer more by having to carry the guilt or dadmurder. under the other, uther is a monster and needs to die, and the entire world would be better off without him

like...arthur’s face when he says “you have caused so much suffering and pain”...he really finally got it. for one beautiful brilliant moment he understood

i am NOT on the fence about merlin lying to arthur. that was the wrong way to do it. arthur 6000% deserves to know the truth and that’s only gonna come back and bite them later i’m sure (unless it never comes back at all in which case i’ll be pissed)

i’m not sure that arthur would have backed off if they had told the truth and said “uther didn’t realize your mom was gonna die so really that part wasn’t his fault”...he was really mad! but he might’ve. lying was not the way to go. i’m so angry at literally everyone in that scene for allowing arthur to walk away believing he was wrong. he was so full of conviction and he was about to do a really good thing - not good for him personally, but good for the world - and everyone he trusts lied to his face in order to maintain the status quo and not have to deal with anything ugly. i HATE it. i’m team arthur now. i’m in the arthur defense squad. all those dumb liars aren’t good enough to be his friends!!!!!!

like, even his dad’s words were sooo carefully chosen to avoid lying but also avoid telling the whole truth. even in that moment when arthur was laying it all bare and they could have made some sort of progress as character and as people. we had to go BACK TO THE STATUS QUO

Once Again Arthurs Heart Is Hardened To Magic i hate it thanks

honestly look uther telling arthur that he’s a trusted ally in the fight against magic should make him feel a lot more distressed than what we got. i mean i’m sure he’s glad his cover is safe but he should realize that if uther approves he’s doing something wrong

furthermore, uther hasn’t changed a bit. he says he came to thank merlin and that merlin is a loyal servant and trusted ally, but then threatens his life before he leaves. honestly we should have just let arthur stab him

i do appreciate them making a point of mentioning that merlin was tempted to let uther die and that it would have been better for him if uther HAD died and he only did what he did to protect arthur but like...there were ways to do that that didn’t involve lying i think. this is an optimistic show most of the time. it wouldn’t have messed with my suspension of disbelief if arthur had dropped the sword knowing the real whole truth! but no, The Status Quo

i don’t know if i will still love arthur so much in the coming episodes.................we’ll see. i’m kind of nervous because i don’t know how they’re ever going to top this. i think we peaked right here and it’ll never be this good for me again

#personal #merlin blogging #this is.............literally so long sorry #no one is obligated to read it. #i doubt anyone would get to the end anyway #but i just needed to talk about all 1000000 of my feelings #tldr is im v proud of arthur and very mad at everyone else #which makes ME an annoying arthur stan now. oops! #liz's meta #liz's merlin stuff #not really but this post deserves a spot in the hall of fame #liz makes stuff

[sgtbuckyybarnes]

1-15 for louie harper lola noelle aaaaand stella thanks!!!

I thought this said 1-5 but you tricked me! 😂

1. Have they ever brought home a stray animal? If so, how did that go?

Louie - She’s brought home Alex if that counts?

Harper - Harper isn’t really an animal person so I don’t think she’d bring one home but she’d defo give up her sandwich if she saw a stray dog on the street

Lola - Prefic Lola would never but the Lola who has broken away from her parents and responsibilities is learning all about this kind of stuff ends up adopting a stray cat (who lbr actually is the one who adopts her)

Noelle - Noe would bring every single stray home if she could - including Fangs and Sweet Pea! Her and her mum could never afford to get their own animals so she’d bring any that she saw back home...to the point where when she was younger her mum had to explain it was normal for cats to be out even if they had owners. Dogs are defo her weakness although she was known to even bring injured birds, mice etc home

Stella - If there was any possibility Noe and Stella could meet they’d start an animal sanctuary together because she’s as bad!

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2. What is something that your OC and their best friend knows about one another that no one else would know?

Louie - Louie and Lexie know that the other still suffers from nightmares. Obviously Mark and Alex know they can have trouble sleeping but they don’t know the contents of the dreams whereas the girls are constantly telling one another to get them off their chest

Harper - Harper doesn't really have a best friend tbh! If her and Mal were canon Mal would be the one who’d know about her fears of her past...she’d feel too bad dumping that on Bucky when he’s been through enough himself

Lola - Lola isn’t a sharer. She has had friends who were only her friend because she had money so there’s nothing someone knows about her no one else does

Noelle - Noe and Fangs know pretty much everything about each other! 

Stella - Her and Michael know how overwhelmed the other is with their new life in the big city. No matter what fronts they put up they still have that terrified streak.

3. How does your OC greet their best friend in public?

Louie - Hugs, hugs and more hugs!

Harper - I think Harper would get to the stage with Mal where she’d greet her with a hug, every one else gets a smile and a wave, Steve gets a blush

Lola - Her and Toni greet one another with fist bumps

Noelle - Sickly sweet nicknames most people hate (Fangs gets ‘my love’ a lot for example)

Stella - She beams every time she sees Michael, just her entire face lights up

4. How does your OC greet their partner in public?

Louie - Once they’re together Louie and Alex are aaaaaaaall about the PDA

Harper - She reaches out and squeezes Bucky’s hand

Lola - She likes to wrap an arm around Sweet Pea’s waist and lean her face against his chest

Noelle - Like Louex once her and Fangs are together they’re all about the PDA. With Jug she’d be more shy

Stella - With a kiss

5. Your OC meets a magical talking frog with a quest, what is your OC’s next move?

Louie - She’d think someone had spiked her drink

Harper - She’d probably kill the frog 😩😂

Lola, Noelle & Stella - Would immediately be up for the challenge 

6. What song does your OC go absolutely wild to? Describe how they get wild.

Louie - Louie loves anything pop music, especially nineties stuff! She’d be all hair flipping, dancing on tables kind of wild

Harper - As wild as Harper gets over music is a tap of her foot. She’s more into old school rock like ACDC and Guns n Roses

Lola - Idk if this is bc of her fc but Lola loves Andante Andante by Abba, she loves to get up onto the Karaoke to sing it

Noelle - She hates to admit it but in a total cliche way Noelle adores Mr Brightside, jumping up and down and singing at the top of her voice

Stella - I don’t really know any 1920s tracks tbh but if she were around nowadays Stella would love Shoutout to my Ex by Little Mix, she’d be dancing around her room and jumping on her bed

7. Your OC is running from the guards, why are they most likely running from them?

Louie - For helping when she wasn’t supposed to, she’s too caring and can never leave someone behind

Harper - Oh god where do I start with her, she’s probably acted on her instincts by mistake over something

Lola - For being rude

Noelle - A sarcastic comment gone the wrong way

Stella - Helping to protect her family the Shelby way

8. How would your OC describe their best friend using three words to a stranger?

Louie - (About Lexie) Hard-working, Kind, Scatty

Harper - (About Mal) Trustworthy, Badass, Kind

Lola - (About Toni) Badass Tiny Person

Noelle - (About Toni) Nosey, Bossy, but-I-love-her-a-lot (she has to add that last bit or Toni will kill her)

Stella - (About Michael) A Massive Nightmare 

9. Your OC decides they can dye their own hair, with their very little knowledge about hair, how does this go? Do they have their friends with them, supporting them? Do they do it when they are alone? Do they do it before a big and upcoming event?

Louie - Louie would have Lexie there and they’d try their best but she’d end up in the hairdressers the next day

Harper - She’d be good at it, having had to disguise her appearance more than a few times

Lola - She wouldn’t have a clue!! Toni would end up stepping in and fixing it for her

Noelle - Even though she would never have done it before Noelle would be surprisingly good, there’s a gifset of Zendaya with red hair and it looks amazing so I think that’s where she’d go. She’d be the one to do it just before a big event no matter how many people told her that was a bad idea

Stella - I don’t think she’d even try, she’d be too scared that it would be ruined!

10. Your OC accidentally becomes a vampire for a day, what is the first thing they do with their new found powers?

Louie - If we’re taking TVD vamps she’d use her blood to heal people

Harper - Her humanity would be switched off immediately and Bucky would have to bring her back

Lola - She’d freak out that she looked ugly with fangs

Noelle - She would be an amazing vampire she’d just revel in the power

Stella - She’d scare off all the Shelby’s enemies 

11. Your OC decides to dress as their best friend for Halloween as a joke, what do they do to look like their best friend?

Louie - She’d be more likely to dress up as Mark and be extra annoying and say she was him

Harper - Harper would go full on Captain America and she’s not even sure if he’s her friend let alone her best friend

Lola - Her and Toni would dress up as each other, raiding each other’s clothes and just doing over the top impressions

Noelle - She’d stick a pair of vampire fangs in her mouth and be like “Guess who? Eh? Ehhhh?”

Stella - She’d just be a dick to everyone and say she was Michael

12. What is something completely random about your OC that even you, as the writer, find confusing?

Louie - She doesn’t like pineapple on pizza?? Problematic tbh

Harper - How she can be so organised but such a mess at the same time (sorry girl xoxo)

Lola - A lot of stuff confuses me about Lola, it’s due to her upbringing in such a well off family. She can be such a brat and sometimes come across uncaring even though she actually really does care with every fibre of her being

Noelle - The fact that she even wanted to become a serpent. Part of me understands she wants a family around her but her mum was so against this gang mentality and Noelle would usually go with whatever her mum thought 

Stella - Why she stays with boys who don’t seem to care about her and definitely don’t deserve her

13. How does your OC celebrate their birthday? What is their wildest birthday story?

Louie - She has all of her friends and their kids round to eat cake and watch movies. Her wildest was probably when she was still at home, her parents were away and she had a party at the house, police were called and she ended up arrested for being too noisy

Harper - She doesn’t really celebrate birthdays

Lola - She likes to be the centre of attention on her birthday, everything is about her from morning until night...and probably for the entire month tbh. Her wildest birthday is probably to come in the fic, partying barefoot on the beach with three gang members

Noelle - She is a Princess on her birthday, she absolutely loves it (and not just her own she loves everyones birthdays and always tries to make them special). Her wildest was probably when they were young and they (her, Fangs, Toni and Sweet Pea) snuck out to go and camp at the quarry. All of them ended up being reported as missing until they strolled into her place the next morning smelling like campfire.

Stella - She likes a lowkey celebration for her birthday, again her wildest is probably to come. I can imagine the Shelby's have a wild time for birthdays 

14. Your OC and their friends decides to go to a restaurant at 3am, what restaurant are they going to, and why are going to a restaurant at 3am?

Louie - They’d be at Joes because they’d probably have been having a lock in. The owner would trust her with her key as well so her, Alex, Lexie, Mark, Meredith and all the others would have the run of the place

Harper - Her and Bucky would be in a local take away because they couldn’t sleep

Lola - They’d be going out for ice cream after a night of partying

Noelle - Pops, especially after Veronica takes over, and because they’d hate sleeping in the tents and would need cheese fries to help them get over it

Stella - It’s not a restaurant but they’d still be drinking in The Garrison pub

15. Your OC now gets to strut around in a cape, what colour is the cape and what do they accessorize the cape with?

Louie - Light blue to match her scrubs

Harper - Black, Shuri would add it to her uniform and Harper would lowkey adore it

Lola - White and it’d be with whatever summer dress she’d be wearing, cropped so it was just a little longer than them but didn't drag on the floor 

Noelle - Noe would love a cape omg. Hers would be black with the serpent logo on the back and she’d wear it everyday in place of her jacket

Stella - Black with red inside, she’d wear a suit underneath 

#this took me ages but I loved doing it a lot #Louie Donovan #fic: Bulletproof #Harper Rhodes #fic: As I Was #Lola Davenport #fic: Break Free #Noelle Bamber #fic: Homecoming #Stella King #fic: Gathering Storm #answered #isaaclahys #have you reblogged this?

[sydwrites-things]

Meet the writer tag

I was tagged by @radiowrites :) thank you so much!! <3

Rules: Answer 10 questions, write 10 questions, and tag 10 people

1. Do you change your characters names often or are they set in stone?

Sully is set in stone. It was originally Stella for like five years when this story was about super heros, but as it changed into a murder mystery/“super” ability thing, I wanted something more strange and saw it on Pinterest and fell in love. When I told my sister she wheezed and said it was from Monsters Inc, and I died, but I love it and I’m not changing it. But Winston was originally Will but now Parker can call him Winnie and he gets really pissed off (“only my mom calls me that, douchebag.”) it’s cute.

2. Tell me a piece of writing advice that you actually found useful?

To write dialogue and then go back and add the other stuff. It help the dialogue be more natural and I find that just dumping all the words down first helps my word count tremendously.

3. In your WIP, how many different languages do your characters encounter?

Not sure yet—probably just English since it’s all I know. (Except sign language)

4. Are there books you have read again simply for the enjoyment of it?

The Poisonwood Bible (amazing!.!.!.!.!)

5. Your novel is being brought to film or TV. List up to five musicians/bands you hope they'll approach for the soundtrack.

Oh wow a lot of thinking on this one,,,,Well Ruelle is good for the dramatic songs for trailers and stuff, and I have a short playlist with songs like Muddy Waters and Mama’s Gonna Give You Love and Tumbling Lights But I have no set artist honestly. But making playlists sure is fun (and a good procrastination method).

6. Do you have any personal hobbies or skills that you just couldn't help but give to one of your characters in your WIP? Did they take it willingly or did they hate you for it?

Lmao Sully is an aspiring author, Winston is in love with the camera (photography etc), Parker is an aspiring director, and Meredith is super involved with theater (and therefore dramatic as fuck) but yeah when they met they kinda established roles in order to make their first “movie” and they all stuck with them after realizing they love each hobby.

7. Do you consider yourself part of any fandoms?

Okay I love Stranger Things and Sharp Objects and IT and Grey’s Anatomy And Ghost adventures. The only fandom I’m somewhat active in is ST because I looked at one too many edits back in October and now I can’t escape it on my IG explore page. But I’m not obsessed with it.

8. Have you ever had your characters visit you in your dreams?

Lol no stay on the page you little shits (except for you Winston, you’re doing great)

9. Who is your youngest character?

I’d say Parker is the youngest. He seems like a Scorpio and that would make him younger than Sully who is a Taurus like me.

10. Does your favorite food exist in your WIP?

Sully, like me, loves sweet potatoes. I mentioned it in my first chapter because Sully pukes after her and Charlie get in an accident and she something horrible and I think I mentioned sweet potatoes and my sister read it and just rolled her eyes. But I’ve eaten so many (and carrots) that my skin used to be yellow/orange (it was my goal bc my A&P teacher told me not to)

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My questions (I’m gonna keep some bc I wanna know):

1. What was the last book you read? Did it inspire your WIP in anyway?

2. Do you consider yourself a part of any fandoms?

3. How many words have you written in one sitting?

4. Do you change your characters names often or are they set in stone?

5. Do you have any personal hobbies or skills that you just couldn't help but give to one of your characters in your WIP? Did they take it willingly or did they hate you for it?

6. When did you first start writing your WIP and what was the hardest part to write

7. Do you follow any youtubers that you watch for inspiration?

8. Do you write straight through or out of order?

9. If you could meet just one of your OCs, who would it be and why?

10. If your OCs were all in a burning building, who would you save?

I tag: @progress-in-writing @jaycewriteslikealot @omgbrekkerkaz @hauntingbliss @rewritemywayout @seraphilth @devins-words

(If you do not want to do this, don’t! It’s perfectly fine, just ignore it :)

#creative writing #writing community #new to writeblr #my writing #tags #wip #writeblr

[quillwritten]

25 Questions Tag

I was tagged by the wondeful @jaimistoryteller so here’s what I’ve got:

1. Is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

Oh my gosh, so many. I just don’t have the time or the energy or the storage on my computer for all the stories I want to tell.

2. What work of yours, if any, are you embarrassed about existing?

Some of my first works of fanfiction I really hate so much that it hurts to think about but I was only a baby writer and that’s really what most first fics end up being like so I won’t take them down bc some people seem to still like them even if I have no idea why (but I will not be telling you any more about what they are or where to access them).

3. What order do you write in? Front of book to back? Chronological? Favorite scenes first? Something else?

I used to write chronologically unless I had a burning need to write one particular scene or paragraph but with Silverstorm I’ve worked more on the scenes that interest me and hop around when I’m bored; if I’m not enjoying the scene, the likelihood is that neither will my readers.

4. Favorite character you’ve written?

How can you ask me this? but it’s Elva. I really want to work more with her and I’m currently tossing around the idea of saving her story for my dissertation at uni. There just needs to be so much more incidental autistic represention (tbh there needs to be more autistic representation full stop.)

5. Character you were most surprised to end up writing?

Probably Tom Pepper. He started as a kind of placeholder for all the other kids at the academy and was supposed to be really oblivious in general but he’s grown into quite a perceptive young man -- except in the case of politics, but we all have our faults.

6. Something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now

Nothing, really. There are lots and lots of things that are complicated to change but I’m not even finished my first draft -- there’s plenty of time the fix the things that aren’t working.

7. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

I’m definitely enthusiastic to tell people I write. I’m less enthusiastic when they ask what it’s about because then my brain forgets all the words it’s ever learned, let alone good words for describing the novel.

8. Favorite genre to write

Definitely fantasy. This world and it’s rules aren’t enough for me.

9. What, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

Mostly it’s listening to the playlists the amazing @ava-burton-writing made for me for my characters. That really helps a lot. Otherwise it’s reading books that have a similar sort of theme because it can get me worked up and excited for doing that thing better and in my own way in my writing.

10. Write in silence or with background music? Alone or with others?

Usually silence because my brain gets distracted easily but sometimes no sound feels weird so I put something on in the background. Usually film scores or the character playlists.

11. What aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

Everything has improved because that’s what practise and experience does. I don’t know what’s improved the most.

12. Your weaknesses as an author?

Long, long, long sentences and paragraphs. I’m working on it.

13. Your strengths as an author?

I think I’m pretty good with characterisation, but I don’t really know.

14. Do you make playlists for your work?

I don’t understand playlists if I’m honest. That’s what I have Ava for.

15. Why did you start writing?

I’ve always wanted to tell stories. My only two dreams ever in life have been to be an author and a performer. I’m still determined to fulfil both of those dreams.

16. Are there any characters who haunt you?

One character still haunts me in the painful ‘omg I can’t believe I wrote this character so badly’ way and she’s from one of the aforementioned fanfics.

17. If you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

Ignore assholes who try telling you “their way to write is the right way” also ignore pricks who tell you “you have to use it for those who are not male or female”

Oh wait, fledgling author me already did that, which is why I use zhe/zher/zhers/zherself.

18. Were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? What were they?

The idea of Harry Potter definitely influenced me possibly too much but I’m not the biggest fan of J K Rowling herself (#avatoreplacejkr2k18) so I’m using my own style and actually including diversity and making it all better.

19. When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?

...I don’t. Okay but for real I have like seven different places I make notes and then I try to collate them in scrivener and then I forget so I never know where that one particular note is and have to look in every place until I find it.

20. Do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

I used to be really good at long sit-down sessions but I’ve been really struggling lately and not writing much at all.

21. What do you think when you read over your older work?

Usually my first reaction is cringing embarrassment but I’m working on appreciating my old work more because it shows how much I’ve improved and I did think it was good when I wrote it so at least someone enjoyed it, even if that someone was only me at the time of writing.

22. Are there subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?

Yes.

23. Any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

Many. 

(This isn’t so much helping my writing but I’ve just come back from a hen weekend where there were three women who all had the same first, second, and surnames and someone said ‘honestly, you couldn’t write stuff like this’ which was meant in a jokey reality is stranger than fiction way but all I can say is watch out for characters with the same names in my works from now on)

24. Have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about, in order to better a scene or a story?

Not really an expert. I’m a bit of a lazy write, I admit, and whilst I do lots of research, I tend to stick to things I either know or can make up.

25. Copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of.

This is a bit I’ve shared before as part of a large excerpt but I really love it:

Avery realised why no one was calling her out for not sleeping on her second night out of the medical room: they weren’t sleeping either. She went wandering at three in the morning and found Sorrel in the cloisters calling all manner of animals to him and getting them to fight a glowing blue dummy. Avery watched in silence, her throat tight, and crept away without saying anything. The next night she woke up to Elva biting her lip as a vine twisted its way through the window and across the bed. “Sorry,” she signed. “Go back to sleep.” Avery shrugged “I had a nightmare anyway. I’m gonna take a walk.” “Again?” “Yeah. I won’t stay out too late.” When Avery found Anita in a philtre classroom with a cauldron bubbling on the table, she dragged a hand across her face and blinked away the sting behind the bridge of her nose.

I tag: @sapphicauthor @quecksilvereyes @ava-burton-writing and @boothewriter

#25 questions #tag game #tagged #25 questions tag #silverstorm #casters #avery #sorrel #elva #anita

[bluebipples]

Mora/Bean is Canon

(but I’m not sure about Endgame)

A very (very) long, unnecessary post. I’d like to start this off by saying bisexuality is consistently erased in the tumblr community, but this isn’t about if bean is bi or a lesbian because it literally does not matter 

*ahem* Also, spoilers if you haven’t watched season 3 because, i don’t know, you probably have a life

anyway, there’s lots of speculation on whether or not Bean’s romance with Mora was a dream or not, and I’m here to give you the (probably) definitive answer (and throw a wild guess at the next season).

To begin with, Disenchantment is no stranger to foreshadowing. In fact, rewatching the show a few times you notice that the writers practically laid everything out in front of us the entire time. It’s actually admirable from a writer’s perspective, imo, but I’m not here to cream my pants over the writers. An example of their consistent foreshadowing would begin in the very first episode, when a blimp is seen in the far background of one of the scenes over some mountains. This would later be explained by the introduction of Steamland, which became a pinnacle location to the plot in seasons 2 and 3. There are plenty more examples, but I’d rather save it for the ones I’ve found in season 3. (And, one could argue, Bean asking a hot mermaid to nibble her earlobes was foreshadowing her later romance with one, but, hey, who am i to over-speculate)

Now, for the juicy stuff, as well as some artistic appreciation. Was anyone else absolutely in love with the ocean scenery? Like, somebody popped the fuck off in the background department bc hot damn. Don’t worry, I promise, this is extremely relevant. 

(excuse the thing in the top left) This is the sky a few hours after they’d left Steamland, meaning it’s early morning / sunrise. Holy shit, I nearly cried when I saw this scene. This is goddamn beautiful. The clouds? The blending? The bright coloration? Who the fuck did this??? How do I give them money??

Sorry for the lack of a consistent timeline, but I didn’t get a good shot of the sky in the same day afternoon shot, so, here’s the afternoon sky before Bean and Elfo crash.

And this delightful pink son of a bitch is the sunset, into which our ladies rode with my heart soaring. At this point, I had to pause to search ‘disenchantment’ on tumblr to see if it was gay and sure enough the top image was mora and bean kissing. i love this hellhole.

Now, why the hell are skies relevant, my friends? Well (I’m starting to realize this is another fucking dumb sky post like that one that’s 10 years long but this is worse because I’m losing my mental sanity to prove half an episode in a 3 season cartoon actually happened)

This would be when the ‘dream’ starts, which is after Bean hits her head, and presumably, late afternoon. Swimming with your mermaid girlfriend underwater all the way to Mermaid Island probably takes some time, so they get there by, say, sunset maybe?

yes, i use subtitles, i do not have a good attention span. So, yeah, maybe sunset-ish, or like, really late afternoon. 

and, of course, our wildest sapphic fantasies come true. again, excuse the subtitles. 

Here’s the juicy juicy shit that real good-good. Please stay with me.

The lyrics to Mora’s song:

They say that you’re a drowner

And we’re parted by the sea

But I can keep you floating

If you just hold on to me

I’ll keep you safe, I’m on your team

And when it feels like just a dream

Believe it’s true

Because I do

And someday if there’s a war

On some not-so-distant shore

And lines are drawn

I’m never gone

This star’s your guide

And I am always on your side

Well, well, well, how the dots have connected and my gay brain is spiraling. Not only am I swooning, but I’m also itching with theories. Lots of ‘em. I’m about to give MatPat a run for his money. 

First, I wanna get out there that if you tell me Bean’s subconscious could have written that song, you are incorrect. Bean is a lot of things, but... creative isn’t exactly one of them. There’s an entire episode dedicated to how bad she as at writing creatively (unless it’s about her familial issues): season 2, episode 8: In Her Own Write.

So, ‘when it feels like just a dream / believe it’s true’ sounds a whole lot like we’re being told something. Or, Bean is, but she’s not great at picking up hints. Another fact we are shown again and again and again. 

‘Someday if there’s a war / On some not-so-distant shore’ I mean, this shouldn’t be so hard to point out. Kinda seems like Dreamland is in a bit of a tizzy right now, huh? I mean, what with the Elves learning that the Trøgs are direct descendants of their forgotten ancestors that adapted to living underground overtime and- oh- wait- did that not get revealed yet?

Well, let me do you a think by referencing Skyrim because that’s the easiest example I can think of. There are these ugly bitches that ruin my entire day every time I encounter them called the Falmer that dwell underground that were once Snow Elves, but had adapted to living underground after, you guessed it, the arrival of... goddamn nords/humans (a few centuries after, but still). Large eyes with poor vision, bigger ears to make up for that lack of vision, and a more grey skin pallor from, y’know, living underground. I won’t give you a lecture on evolution, because this is already super duper long. Kinda wild that Disenchanted would take a commonly used Fantasy trope like creatures colonized by humans adapting to life underground, it’s almost like the whole show is to poke fun of overdone fantasy tropes.

And, of course, it’s revealed that the Lost Kingdom of the Elves is underneath Dreamland, directly where the Trøgs dwell. It doesn’t take a genius to connect the dots. Elves have hidden themselves in this world - remember, Elfo was the first elf since Leavo to leave Elfwood in years. So let me spin you a yarn about a well-known tale called Colonization. I’m sure we all know where this is going. Clearly, not all of the elves stayed underneath Dreamland. Judging by how many Trøgs there are in relation to how many elves, I assume less than or around half of the elf population managed to evacuate Dreamland while those who remained took to living in the shadows. We’ve seen the conditions of their underworld, and, well, one can assume they went a bit nutty along the way. I’m sure the mushroom spores didn’t help.

Then, there’s the prophecy. Bean, Elfo and Luci are the saviors of the Trøgs.

‘Lines are drawn’ - after Bean is crowned Queen Bean (lol) she and Elfo drift apart. He obviously feels abandoned by her, and even if he did sacrifice himself for Dreamland, I’m certain he won’t be killed. I’m on that wonderful conspiracy train that the Ogre Queen is his mother, but that’s another story for another day though it’s somewhat related. Needless to say, if the Elves declare war on Dreamland, lines will certainly be drawn. And, I recall my statement above: Bean, Elfo and Luci are the saviors of the Trøgs. I’d count it as ‘saving’ them if they reunite with their cousins, the Elves, and take back the kingdom that once belonged to them; wouldn’t you?

‘I’m never gone / This star’s your guide / And I am always on your side’ This is a callback to a few things in this episode. Mora tells Bean that the heart of the Big Flipper leads to Mermaid Island, as Bean recalls when she is given the necklace Mora made for her. So, that’s another double nudge-nudge wink-wink from the writers (a joke they also made consistently this season, making me feel aggressively mocked. so i have powerpoints on this show, now, and nothing to do with them.) 

Anyway, if the Elves and Trøgs do succeed in taking over Dreamland, Mora has explicitly stated that Bean has an ally in her - and, of course, the mermaids. So, looking too deeply into a song written by a fictional mermaid for her equally fictional girlfriend aside, let’s move on to more obvious evidence.

Bean then wakes up on the beach to Elfo saying nobody wanted to help them, , yadda yadda, it was clearly a dream, right?

(yes, I wanted to get the caption that made me cry. now you have to be sad, too.) except, wait a second, that’s a goddamn morning sky. And, beyond that, the very next episode which continues off from Bean and Elfo walking back to Dreamland, it’s also morning and leads right into the rest of the same day. well, shit me a brick. chronologically, it makes sense for this to have not been a dream.

and, naturally, the nail in the coffin. There it is, the necklace, right there in front of our fat faces. I’m sure you’re wondering how Bean can sleep through swimming underwater for presumably hours, but, hey, tHAT’S JUST A TH-

In conclusion, the Disenchantment writers make it a point to give us not-so-subtle hints (mostly in the background) towards future plots. This seemingly innocuous, what, ten minutes of a sapphic fantasy come true could be an incredibly important plot point. It’s not the first time they’ve used a small storyline to pull the strings together for a far bigger one - they literally do it every season, multiple times. My evidence towards Mora and Bean having a real romance stems from the design of the sky backgrounds that clearly show the passage of time throughout the episode (and show), as well as the fact that Mora’s necklace washes up on shore not long after Bean wakes up. Along with this presented evidence, I believe the Elves are going to try and overthrow Dreamland (just like, basically, every other kingdom or secret society in this show) and Bean will have to figure out for herself if Mora really is waiting for her on Mermaid Island. As for what else Season 4 has in store, I have lots of other theories but for the 4 people who read this, I shall not disclose.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk, and I am so very sorry.

Also, here’s a bonus pic of the ocean scenery.

(luci voice) who did that?

#seriously THIS WHOLE EPISODE #WAS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL #why was this such a gorgeous episode #who did this #who dunnit #i want to personally give you a fucking raise #they really goddam popped off #also if anybody read this. #im so sorry #i thought abt posting it on reddit but i dont want to get roasted #for being uhh #fucking insane #this is probably just all bullshit and it probably doesn't make sense #but i had to expel this demon from my body #before the tumblr discourse over a fictional characters sexuality takes over the whole fanbase #for the record idk if shes bi or gay bc arguments could be made for either one but at the end of the day #it doesn't fuckin matter because it's a cartoon and we are kebabs on a rock hurtling through space #where was i going with this #oh the proper tags #disenchantment #disenchanted #disenchantment netflix #disenchanted netflix #bean #mora #bean/mora #disenchantment bean #disenchanted bean #disenchantment mora #disenchanted mora

[kayliemusing]

Survey 7

1. First thing you wash in the shower?  - Hair 2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? - Neither. Blah! 3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - I’ve never been kissed. 4. Do you plan outfits? - No 5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?  - I’m feeling a little tired, but overall really good because I finally wrote a piece I’m proud of. It didn’t feel like pulling teeth for once.  6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? - My blanket! 7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body?  - Scream 8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?  - Last night I had this weird dream that I was watering brown grass and the water was making it go green. That was it. That was the dream. 9. Three of your current feelings right now? - Tired, content, proud/relieved 10. What are you craving right now? - Nothing really. I feel okay. Earlier I was craving some kind of candy. 11. Turn ons?  - Hands, jawlines, toned backs (I know it’s weird but have you seen a nice back? great eye candy), confidence, kindness, humor. 12. Turn offs? - Offensive jokes, Rude to food workers/retail workers or rude in general, arrogance 13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? - Cabbage 14. When was the last time you cried? Why?  - This morning listening to worship music. I know it sounds tacky to other people, but I was just feeling really grateful to God at the time. 15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? - I guess Wonderwoman because I like her outfit. lmao. I don’t really watch/know a lot about superheros. I watched Wonderwoman and enjoyed the movie and she’s insanely beautiful, so that’s my choice. 16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? - No 17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? - Lick it, how do you bite it?! It’s so cold!! 18. Favorite movie ever? - I don’t think I have favourite movies. I’m not a big movie watcher. So I have a few I like but I don’t know if I’ve ever had a favourite movie. I think closest to my favourite movie would be The Greatest Showman though or A Christmas Carol (2009) because that one makes me feel happy and content. 19. Do you like yourself? - Self love is something I struggle with the most in life. As of right now, no. I have a lot of self loathing and I don’t know why. There are things I love about myself like that I’m kind hearted and that I pay attention to small details and that I’m self aware. But I could list a million things I hate about myself, and like three things I like. 20. Have you ever met a celebrity? - No 21. Could you handle being in the military? - No way! 22. What are you listening to right now?  - I can’t listen to music while I do anything else, because I can’t multitask. So I’ve been sitting in the quiet. But I was listening to music earlier and I think I was listening to Ahay by Of Monsters and Men. 23. How many countries have you visited? - I’ve never been outside of Canada. 24. Are your parents strict?  - No, but they had boundaries and rules. 25. Would you go sky diving? - See, I like the idea but I would never go through with it so no. 26. Would you go out to eat with a stranger? - No, that’s so awkward and I’m bad at conversations that goes past “Hi, how are you?” with people I don’t know. 27. Whats on your mind right now? - Nothing for once. I guess writing, like always but mostly that I’m proud of myself for spitting something out that I really enjoyed writing. I missed that, because I’ve been struggling with my writing. 28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? - Not really.  29. Have you ever been in a castle? - No 30. Do you rent movies often?  - No 31. Whats your zodiac sign?  - P i s c e s 

32. When was the last time you had sex? - Haven’t had that yet. 33. Name five facts about yourself. - I’m a Writer, surprise surprise since I never stop talking about it on my surveys - I love Taylor Swift (another great surprise since I ranted about her yesterday) - My favourite band is Of Monsters and Men - My favourite writer is Richard Siken - I was born in March 34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? - No 35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny?  - I do believe in karma.  36. Brown or white eggs? - I think they taste the same, so both. 37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? - No 38. Ever been on a train? - Yes 39. Ever been in love? - No   40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it?  - Yes, because I don’t believe in ghosts 41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? - I’d love to be Taylor Swift for a day so I could check out her house and see her kitchen, and write a kick ass song.  42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to becopme more attractive, would you do it?  - No 43. Whom do you admire and why? - Taylor Swift. I admire her as a writer, of course, but I also admire her as a person and business woman. She’s so clever and quickwitted, and she’s so kind and generous. But also, I’ve seen how people have tried to tear her down her entire career literally for just existing and being a successful female artist and she’s always gotten back up and come back with a bang. I just love that devotion to her craft - that it’s basically stayed the same since she started: writing music. 44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? - I loved anything Robert Munsch 45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? - I would panic first of all, but I would call 911. If it was safe enough or I thought I could make it, I would save the baby but I’m not going to deny that I would probably be panicking and too afraid to go inside. 46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? - I don’t really care what they do as long as it’s not mlm. 47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? - Haven’t done either. (I’ve had wine before obvs, but have never been able to stomach more than half a glass.) 48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? - Same answer as the last. 50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it?  - Probably not because I’m assuming it’s blood money or stolen or John Quinones is hanging out in the distance with a camera crew ready to shame me.    51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them?  - Yes, because it’s not leprosy and it can’t jump off of them   52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? - That’s a solid nope 53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? - I haven’t yet 54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires?  - No, but I’ve always found werewolves fascinating. 55. If you could live forever, would you want to? - I hate the idea of dying, but I’m going to say no because I feel like living forever would be lonely and painful, and I’d like to go to heaven and live a better life there. 56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? - Probably Cher from Clueless when that guy slung his arm around her shoulders. “Ugh! AS IF!”  57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? - I’d like to either visit the 80′s bc I feel like they were iconic, or the 1830′s-ish because I love the detail they put into architecture and furniture. Probably would hate the Polio thing, but beggars can’t be choosers. 58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it?  - No, I mostly disagree with capital punishment. Even if the person was horrendous, I don’t believe in celebrating death. 59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? - No because the internet would hurt my feelings and I would cry during debates 60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? - I think that would be cool, yeah. Then you could know what you’re getting.  61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy?  - Wealthy thanks.

#survey

[aaronsminyard]

85 questions tag

i was tagged by @andrrewminyard​ ty!!! and im still in awe over ur url sdkgdjb

Rules: Answer and tag 20 people

— What was your last

1. Drink: coffee

2. Phone call: my brother

3. Text message: my girlfriend (there is no difference so far in our answers wow)

4. Song you listened to: body in water by nico muhly

5. Time you cried: i dont remember either?? it was just over a week ago, i vaguely remember but i dont know why?

6. Dated someone twice: never

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never

8. Been cheated on: never

9. Lost someone special: its debatable

10. Been depressed: yikes yeh

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: two weeks ago on a school trip to geneva

— Fave colours

12. black

13. red

14. forest green

— In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: i’d like to say so

— Life

16. Fallen out of love: debatable, mostly no

17. Laughed until you cried: not for a while

18. Found out someone was talking about you: oh yes

19. Met someone who changed you: very much so

20. Found out who your friends are: im still working on it (as well)

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: yes

— General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl: all 

23. Do you have any pets: nope :(

24. Do you want to change your name: i have - would like to legally tho

25. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing - i worked

26. What time did you wake up today: 1130

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: lurking on discord and finishing the gentleman’s guide

28. What is something you can’t wait for: SUMMER HOLIDAYS (also)

30. What are you listening to right now: the countdown clock on 8 out of 10 cats

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes, what a dick

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: not being able to go out and do new things with my friends

33. Most visited website: probably pinterest or discord... tumblr would be a very close second

34. Hair colour: dark blonde that i really need to dye

35. Long or short hair: short

36. Do you have a crush on someone: my girlfriend (shh, i love her)

37. What do you like about yourself: uhh, maybe how many projects i like to start?? but then i also never finish them

38. Want any piercings: i really want my seconds done

39. Blood type: i wish i knew

40. Nicknames: cas, casp, crispy, paddy

41. Relationship status: in a relationship

42. Sign: aquarius

43. Pronouns: he/they

44. Fave tv show: hmm maybe pretty little liars bc i just finished it?

45. Tattoos: i want one

46. Right or left handed: right

47: Ever had surgery: nope

48. Piercings: firsts in my ear

49. Sport: i run

50. Vacation: im on spring break but stuck at home as far as im aware

51. Trainers: adidas all the way bb

— More general

52. Eating: just finished waffles

53. Drinking: coffee

54. I’m about to watch: the end of 8 out of 10 cats does countdown lmao

55. Waiting for: something to do

56. Want: to go out and do something

57. Get married: if the time comes

58. Career: writer or astrophysicist

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: both

60. Lips or eyes: eyes

61. Shorter or taller: either

62. Older or younger: younger, by 5 days (@ moon)

63. Nice arms or stomach: arms but i wouldnt say no otherwise

64. Hookup or relationships: relationships

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: both? either

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: yes

68.Turned someone down: last week,, it was painful

69. Sex on first date: no

70: Broken someone’s heart: i think not… i hope?

71. Had your heart broken: no

72. Been arrested: no 

73. Cried when someone died: for my gramps

74. Fallen for a friend: ohhhh yes, but she did the same so we are good

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: eh

76. Miracles: eh

77. Love at first sight: no

78. Santa Claus: no, although i did dream that i met him a couple nights ago

79. Angels: no

— Misc

80. Eye colour: blue

81. Best friends name: ella (moon)

82. Favourite movie: kill your darlings or catws

83. Favourite actor: i dont know

84. Favourite cartoon: bobs burgers is the only one i can watch

85. Favourite teacher’s name: philip or lloyd kfgdhjb

thanks for getting rid of my boredom for a while skghdfb,  im tagging @victorvalc @mahcaulay @grishae aswell, and @austens @j-murphy and @revolutionnaire-e if you guys want to, and anyone else who wishes to

#gtkm

[beepbeep-losers]

tag you’re it

tagged by @gingerbreddie

Rules: Answer 30 questions about yourself and tag 20 people you wanna see do this too (that is a lot uhhhhhhhhh)

Nicknames: ash and ashes (only by my boyfriend on that one tho?)

Gender: female

Star sign: gemini

Height: 5'2″ or 5′3″

Sexuality: bi bi bi  (also poly)

Time: 10:48pm

Birthday: june 3

Favorite band: uhhhhhh panic! at the disco and fall out boy 

Favorite solo artist: logic and beyonce and blackbear and chance the rapper and I’m bad at deciding things guys why do you do this to me don’t stop tho I like them still

Song stuck in your head: black spiderman by logic

Last movie seen: ...................high school musical 2

Movie I want to see: I CAN’T WAIT TO CRY LIKE A BABY AT THE NEW STAR WARS

Last TV show watched: three’s company

Why did you create your blog: I watched IT and then I started reading IT fanfiction and then the actual book and then I was like............fuck it I’m going all in

What do you post/reblog: IT and a bit of stranger things and sometimes random shit but I try to stay on topic

Last thing you googled: "reaction gif” because I needed more saved lmao

Other blogs: I have @rad-ravenclaw which is basically my void that I shout into but I don’t post on it much rn?? I should probably manage that one better lmao

Why url: beep beep.......bc richie......losers......bc the losers club..... and I thought it sounded cute together and I call you all losers in my head (with the utmost affections)

I follow: the best and most wonderful losers in the world thanks for coming to my ted talk

Followers: you guys are hella supportive and amazing and??????? wow ily

Average hours of sleep: uh I sleep a lot but I have no sleep schedule

Lucky number: sometimes things have to be in multiples of 3, 5, or 15 for me to be 100% happy and comfy

Instrument: I used to play piano and I wish I could play the guitar bc that is Super Attractive

What are you wearing: a giant t shirt

Dream job: I have three. they aren’t related but here they are: writer, worker at the harry potter theme park, head of education/programs at a museum

Dream trip: shit idk I wanna travel all over???? really wanna go to barcelona and ireland and nyc though

Favorite food: chips and salsa. forever and always.

Favorite song rn: fuhhhhhhhhhhhhh black spiderman by logic but also welcome to the jungle by guns n roses but also sweatpants by childish gambino but also raise a little hell by trooper 

Top three universes: wait what does this mean. is there a magical universe where people aren’t shitty? where oppression doesn’t exist, or at least not in such enormous quantity? wheRE I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND (as well as my boyfriend)? bc all three of those

Last book i read: ioakjfs;dhg;oiajd;lsjigoa I am terrible at starting and finishing books but I’m reading IT right now

I’m gonna tag a lot of people that pop up when I start typing lmao @loserlovver @eddierichietozier @tozbraks @lycheebev @lgbtrashmouth @lemonadeandrice oop that’s all I’m uhhhhh done but anybody else can do it and say I tagged them

#this took a million years bc i'm bad at decisions oop #tag ur it #ashton talks

[paperbackphoenix]

92 questions holy shit

I was tagged by the marvellous @phoebe-does (why phoebe, why, it’s so many)

Rules: answer the 92 questions and tag 20 people

last… drink: water rip

phone call: umm my friend liv i think? asking “where tf are you”

text message: “Nearly at the top” honestly can’t remember what that meant

song you listened to: moonlight sonata by beethoven bc im a nerd

time you cried: literally today because patrick rothfuss is a fantastic writer and kvothe’s life is sad

have you.. dated someone twice: what does ‘dated’ mean?

kissed someone and regretted it: my mom oh my god, i’m joking

been cheated on: no

lost someone special: no, actually, i’ve been very lucky so far

been depressed: the emotion? yes. otherwise, no

gotten drunk and thrown up: fuck alcohol guys

list three favorite colors… colors: blue, lilac, grey (i am aware this is a shade)

in the last year, have you… made new friends: yeah!

fallen out of love: was never in it m8

laughed until you cried: absolutely

found out someone was talking about you: yeah and my friend recorded the conversation (argument) lmao

met someone who changed you: not really?

found out who your friends are: nah this past year has had like no drama whatsoever

kissed someone on your Facebook list: no, and who uses facebook anymore? look i might use the messenger app but that’s it

general… how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all bar internet friends

any pets: no and i’m salty about it

do you want to change your name: not really, but if I had to i would happily

what did you do for your last Birthday: had some friends round and played games

what time did you wake up: 7am

what were you doing at midnight last night: listening to the harry potter audiobooks (my g stephen fry)

something you can’t wait for: hamilton!!!!!! hamilton at the west end in april!!!

when was the last time you saw your mom: about an hour ago?

what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my procrastination. it would’ve saved me a lot of grief last year

what are you listening to right now: mendelssohn’s symphony no.3 (tbh if you don’t listen to classical music, you’re missing out)

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah its a really common ass name

something that is getting on your nerves: these questions no ummm my history coursework; i picked the one question that doesn’t fit the structure they want us to use

most visited websites: youtube and tumblr maybe?

other info about myself… mole/s: fucking hell yeah it’s all my mom’s fault

mark/s: i never usually scar but i’ve got one on my knee now from having to continuously skid across the floor in a play (dedication)

childhood dream: i’ve wanted to be loads of things. let’s say an actor

hair color: blonde, but also purple atm

long or short hair: its kind of in the middle?

do you have a crush on someone: no, thank fuck. i just see people and think how painfully attractive they are and that they probably aren’t gay

what do you like about yourself: my creativity

piercings: i have 2 on each lobe

blood type: who knows this shit

nickname: purple becky, because there are 2 becky’s in my circle of friends

relationship status: standing alone on a hill in a big flowy dress

zodiac: leo

pronouns: she/her

favorite TV show: ummmmm game of thrones is really good, but i don’t watch tv a lot

tattoos: none because you have to be 18. i’ll probs get one maybe

right or left hand: right

surgery: never

hair dyed in different color: purple, and i want to experiment more at some point in my life

sport: whats this? i played tennis for a long time but now my sport is stress

vacation: i’d love to go to scandinavia and see the northern lights. OR canada

sneakers: we call them trainers here

more general…

eating: what is this even asking? i’m not eating anything right now? i want ice cream though

drinking: water still

i’m about to: watch something with the fam I think

waiting for: college to start yikes

want: to get my alevels over and done with

get married: marriage sounds a bit shit and expensive tbh

career: editor? author? actor? idk man

hugs or kisses: hugs man they feel 10/10

lips or eyes: eyes

shorter or taller: who can be shorter than me (i’m not actually that small)

older or younger: WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? older i guess?

nice arms or nice stomach: a nice stomach that doesn’t get so fucking hungry all the time (who cares about arms?)

sensitive or loud: loud as fuck

hook up or relationship: right hook

what am i

troublemaker or hesitant: god i obey rules even if i hate them. i’m scared of getting into trouble rip

have you ever… kissed a stranger: who the fuck do you think i am

drank hard liquor: yeah, i bought my dad some spiced rum (i wanted the bottle tbh) and it fucking burned. twice. there was the rum burn and then the spice burn a few seconds later. not pleasant.

lost glasses/contact lenses: not so far. i don’t need my glasses all the time though

turned someone down: lmao yeah

sex on the first date: how dare you i am a maiden

broken someone’s heart: i doubt it, the guy was like 13 at the time

had your heart broken: no

been arrested: fucking no

cried when someone died: robb and catelyn stark

fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in… yourself: sometimes i wonder if i actually exist

miracles: not really? i’ll say “WOW THATS A MIRACLE” when its just like... idk luck?

love at first sight: nah that’s bs

santa claus: i’m not 6

kiss on the first date: depends???

other… current best friend name: elie

eye color: blue/grey

favorite movie: god idk? grand budapest hotel?

FINALLY, THE END

ok i tag: @bvkspine @boneseasonofglass @kat-from-minasmorgul @beckisbookshelf @word-stuck @teaandalotofbooks @happybibliosaurus

i’m... not tagging 20 people soz

#about me #paperbackphoenix #tags #wow #did you need to know all this #no

[whimsy-muse]

All the crush questions

whoaaaaaaaa boy

1: Do they drink coffee?- yeah, he likes coffee a lot c:2: Are they left or right handed?- pretty sure he’s right handed but I’ve never seen his handwriting :(3: How do they do their hair? Facial hair? (If they have it)- I mean, his hair is long and he does have a beard c:4: What’s their favorite animal?- i’m gonna guess cats! 5: What is their relationship status?- he’s dating me lmao.6: What is their favorite band/singer?- I feel like it changes every once in a while, or at least his favorite song does. (I need to actually ask him this question lmao)7: Are they more a cat or dog person?- cat person.8: What does their laugh sound like?- like the cutest, dorkiest thing ever.9: Do they know multiple languages? Which ones?- nah, I think he wants to know multiple ones tho.10: How old are they? How old are you?- we’re both 20, but my birthday is a couple months before his.11: One word that describes them.- AMAZING12: Do they have any pets?- his neighbor gave him a kitten like yesterday13: What is their favorite TV show?- tbh he doesn’t really watch tv, he’s mostly watching youtube when he’s watching stuff... so I’ll just say for now that his fav Youtube channel is Achievement Hunter c: (you’d think I’d know this but I don’t aaaaaaa)14: What is their favorite movie?- I don’t think he’s ever mentioned his fav movie to me :/ 15: What car do they drive?- he doesn’t drive yet, but he definitely wants a super cool car that he can customize. 16: What ethnicity and/or nationality are they? - he’s white and from New Zealand. c:17: Where did you meet them?- facebook18: What was your first meeting like?- He followed my Facebook page and we started talking via the comment section.19:  What is their zodiac sign? Are your signs compatible?- He’s a Cancer and I’m a Gemini. People do say that they’re compatible, I guess. I had a website say that it’s almost perfect compatibility or something, lmao. I looked this up around the time I was breaking up with my ex bc I wanted to see what the compatibility was for fun.20: What month is their birthday?- July.21: What is your favorite outfit on them?- I mean, he only really wears jeans and like black shirts, lmao. So, that one.22: Are they good texters?- Yeah, I’m not ever left on “read” for long and if I am, he lets me know what was going on?23: Your favorite feature about their appearance.- Eyes

24: Your favorite thing about their personality.- Can I just say his whole personality?25: Do they make you laugh?- yeah26: Do you make them laugh?- I feel like he makes me laugh more than I make him laugh lmao.27: Are they good huggers/ kissers?- I need to go and figure that out, now don’t I??28: What is your favorite “flaw” that they have?- answered29: Are they nice to strangers?-answered30: What is the funniest thing they have ever said?-answered31: Saddest?-answered32: Weirdest?-answered33: Cutest?-answered34: Ever dreamt about them? What happened in the dream?-answered35: How tall are they? How tall are you?-answered36: Do they have a booty?- I mean, we ALL GOT A BOOTY. But, he’s been doing squats recently ;)))37: What are their hobbies?- video games, talking with me on discord, watching youtube videos, listening to music c:38: What are their talents?- VIDEO GAMES. Like, he’s really great at them and I’m not lmao.39: What would your dream date be with them?- I’d really love for us to have a picnic in a rose garden or something really dumb like that.40: Does anyone know about your crush/love?- I mean, I think people know considering we’re dating and I’m very vocal about it.41: What do you guys have in common?- some of our music tastes, we both like anime and video games, and I think a lot of our views are pretty close??42: Do they go to the gym?- I mean, he’s started working out again, but I’m not sure if he goes to a gym by his house or not. He might just go outside for that.

43: Do they go by their given name?- Nope, I don’t even call him his given name.44: What is their favorite color?- Black and purple.45: How far apart do you live from them?- 8,299 miles.46: What song reminds you of them?- a lot of my VOCALOID playlist music reminds me of him, but I’d say a lot of RWBY music does too. 47: Do they listen to a lot of music?- yeah48: What do they smell like?- g o o d49: If they were in a book (protagonist or antagonist or supporting character, up to you) how would the writer describe them?- Shy at first, but really loves and cares for his friends. Wears a lot of dark colors. Prettiest blue eyes ever.50: How often do you see them?- We haven’t been video chatting bc my dumb boyfriend won’t get a webcam (electronics are pretty expensive over there)51: The last text/ message they sent you?- “Okay cutie nini”52: The last thing they said to you in person? on discord?- I think the last thing we said to each other out loud was “Goodnight, I love you” lmao.53: What is the most embarrassing thing that’s happened to you in front of them?- I say a lot of embarrassing shit for sure, lmao. But, it’s hard to pinpoint the MOST embarrassing.54: Do they have any tattoos or piercings?- I believe he wants some, but rn he doesn’t have any.55: What color are their eyes?- blue56: What is their clothing style?- ever see the clothing created by Blackcraft? That. 57: What is one thing that makes them really special?- ONE THING??? HOW CAN I PICK ONE THING??? But, I guess... he’s never really believed in bad shit being said about me and stuck around me no matter what. 58: Will you tell your crush your feelings?- I TELL THIS FUCKER EVERY DAY. ♥59: How long did you know them before you started falling for them?- we met when we were 14, soooo... 6-7 years, but pretty sure I started falling for him when I was like 19.60: Was there a defining moment when you knew you liked them?- Well, I mean, there’s a lot of moments I knew I liked him, but one of the most embarrassing things was being able to just naturally say “I love you” when we went to hang up in discord one day. I mean, that was recent, but it was like the moment I realized “FUCK, I REALLY DO LIKE HIM A LOT” I guess?

#ask #answered #long answer #anonymous #yang answers #some of my answers are bad #i have some bad memory so i feel bad that i can't remember some stuff #Anonymous

[auideas]

Ask the Admins 13.0

anon asked: For any of the admins! I’m not sure if this was asked previously, so I apologize in advance. But what's everyone’s favorite au / prompt? (Also thank you guys for starting this blog, im forever grateful this exists)

Chamomile: awww! I’m grateful that this blog exists too (lol). My current favorite type of au’s are murder mystery au’s because of the Rabbit Doubt writing group I’m in so like, expect so many of those coming up soon. I’m also really digging superhero au’s.

M: I’m a fan of the whole “kidnapping / assassin / mob / killer” sort of a trope for some reason - it’s loads of fun to try and mess with original tropes and make them ridiculous, funny, modern, etc.!

Jynn: My fave AUs are ones that incorporate real life twists on typical AUs, like including people with disabilities.

@tomorraw​ asked: How many of you guys are there? Do certain people answer in certain genre? Or does everyone write what they are given? How did you guys meet? (Btw, this is one of my favorite idea blogs. They are so many different views on different ideas and so many genres.)

Chamomile: Currently there’s four of us! I know admin m and admin jynn from a loooong while back -- like two years back. Admin jynn and I go back to our homestuck roots (love her for that) and we’ve stuck together ever since. We all just kind of write whatever floats our boats! M: I met both Jynn and Chamomile through working on the Night Unvaled, which is a Night Vale Fancast that we wrote and produced. We’ve been friends ever since!! As for the certain genre thing, I can’t really say that we all write solely one genre, but we all certainly have our specialties!! Jynn: We have a posting schedule for who posts what when, but when it comes lists we all just take what interests us. Chamomile and I met more than two years back… in a Homestuck role play. Shortly after, we met M in a podcast project we were all working on and we've all be friends since!

Anon asked: what are some of your favorite tropes?

Chamomile: does “I love the way that you understand me and make me feel like I’m the only person in the world when you pay attention to me” count as a troupe? Like an OTP troupe? Bc that’s my ultimate favorite.

M: My favorite trope is messing with tropes. Best thing.

Jynn: “Flaws” turning out to work to someone's advantage!

Anon asked: What is pastel/punk or pastel and punk? I don't get it and google isn't explaining it to me because it's a meany

Chamomile: I remember this AU! It was an AU Friday list that I did and loved doing it! Basically, there’s  ‘pastel’ aesthetic which is very like, cutesy baby pink and pastel blues and other ‘soft’ colors being worn with other ‘soft’ aesthetic items like, glitter or hair clips or oversized sweaters ands stuff like that. Then there’s punk aesthetic, which very like, ‘heck all of you, I want to be comfortable and show that I’m rebelling against the social/political norms’. It can vary from person to person, so it might be better just to google ‘punk fashion’. The whole tag is supposed to be sort of an ‘opposite attract’ type deal.

Anon asked: So in regards to the color au in which you only see color once you touch your soulmate: what if you were born blind? Or when you touch your soulmate, it turns out that you are colorblind?

Chamomile: mmmmmm I’m not a fan of this AU bc of reasons I’m too longwinded about. Skipping this question for me.

M: I guess it’s possible and would make for quite the interesting change in AUs from the usual soulmate trope, but make sure you’re careful when it comes to writing AUs about topics you’re not personally familiar with (such as being blind), but go for it!

Jynn: Idk about it. Lmao I'm picky as heck when it comes to soulmate AUs, and this one has the potential to be interesting but never “stuck out” to me.

Anon asked: hi there! i'm new {ish}, and i've been looking thru ur old posts. i think it's really cool how u help ur followers, school related or not. out of curiosity tho, who is the person who according to that school survey watched so much anime? if u have time, would u mind asking?

Chamomile: Anon I want to know too like, please, show yourself.

M: We support you. Maybe. For the most part.

Jynn: Show ya self ur among friends. I too have consumed too much anime.

Anon asked: Just wanted to say I love your blog. It gives me inspiration! :)

Chamomile: Aaaaa! Thank you <3

M: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jynn: Awwwww!

Anon asked: just poppin in to ask if its okay for us writers to adopt these aus? and claim the whole plot as ours but still credit the bunnies (ie linking it to this acc)? thanks for clarifying!

Chamomile: Totally! We completely encourage it because it brings more people to the blog and also, we get a lot of satisfaction from seeing people enjoy our prompts! Here’s a link on how to cite our au’s: link

Anon asked: omfg, i still think the admins are gorgeous. like f***, you are cute.

Chamomile: Bless your heart, thank you! We really should update what we look like...

M: OKAY YEAH WE SHOULD PUT OUT UPDATE PICS!!!!!! BUT THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Jynn: :o ! Thx!

@genosha-meiuqer asked: Weird question. If you woke up one morning and realized you could grow a beard made out of cotton candy, how happy would you be on a scale of 1-10; one being not happy, and ten being extremely happy.

Chamomile: Genosha, I would be so hype, you wouldn’t understand. Like a 10/10. Even if I did get tired of my new cool cotton candy beard like?? I can just wash it off?? Because cotton candy is water soluble?? I see no problems here?? 

M: maybe a 2. Too sticky.

Jynn: 7/10. Might get sticky and tedious (and I work in and pool so it'd probably get in the water) but endless free cotton candy? Yes.

Anon asked: Deadpool 2 boyfriend? yes or no?

Chamomile: consider this….boyfriend….and girlfriend…..dating both at the same time….

M: yus

Jynn: Yes on boyfriend but NOT at the expense of a lady characters story ending badly.

Anon asked: what's your dream job?

Chamomile: whatever makes me happy? Right now I’m happy serving coffee and doing odd writer jobs in exchange for gift cards (#hit me up y’all), but in the future I might want something different so like, it depends as I grow!

M: Creative Producer in Hollywood!!

Jynn: Aaaa I wanna work in entertainment. Running tech, performing, whatever. Gotta be near that world.

Anon asked: Are you a part of any fandoms? Which ones?

Chamomile: oh jeeze well uhhhhh -- I still hold homestuck dear to my heart, but I’ve mostly moved into podcasts (SAYER, The Adventure Zone, WTNV, Carpe DM) and a lot of like, writing niche groups with my friends? If I can count those as ‘small fandoms’.

M: soooooo many: Nightvale, Merlin, Doctor Who, Supernatural, Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, etc. Too many.

Jynn: Still Homestuck like Chamomile. Various Nexflix series: Voltron, Stranger Things. Miraculous Ladybug too. Lots of Max Fun and Night Vale Presents podcasts, McElroy products. I work about 60 hours and week so I like things I can listen to while doing other things.

Anon asked: If you were a dragon, what would you hoard?

Chamomile:....scraps of paper. I have so many. I write down AU ideas and story lines on them and then just like, shove them into my bags and pockets and forget about them.

M: pens. so many pens.

Jynn: Useless cute stuff/LUSH products/stim toys probably.

Anon asked: M, did you draw the illustrations in your piece "The Beacon"?

M: I made it in photoshop, yeah! If anyone is curious, here’s the link to the fic (https://drive.google.com/file/d/0BxP7qW60hE6fUmdSWDJMNHBhRGs/view?usp=sharing). The first draft was written by Admin Chamomile for a speed write but adapted and extended by Admin M just for fun. Go for it and read it if you’d like!!

(Chamomile: just gonna….slide this first draft right here….shhhhhh)

Anon asked: How long would you survive in a zombie apocalypse?

Chamomile: hopefully until humanity can find the cure, lmao

M: maybe a month. maybe.

Jynn: Mmmmm no.

Anon asked: Which Never Book quote is your favorite?

Chamomile: “What were you thinking in that last moment between life and oblivion?” Jynn: “So you take another hit, and sick into a whiskey flavored kiss because he’s not there to tell you no.”

Anon asked: Unicorn or Pegasus?

Chamomile: Unicorn! No real reason why. M: Pegasus. Fly bitches. Jynn: Pegasus is more utilitarian.

Anon asked: this is probably too late for ata, but have you ever wanted to write a piece where the characters are southern but you don't know how to write their drawl or accent or dialect? (currently going thru this for the walking dead)

Chamomile: This sounds like a really interesting “How Do I Write” segment soooooo check back on Thursday ;D 

M: ^^^^^^^^^^

Jynn: Not this specific situation. I live in Missouri so I know well how they talk lmao. I have run into something similar with an Irish character though, lots of research!!

#ask the admins #faq #admin jynn #admin m #the admin chamomile #admin syren is absent so we'll have us all together for the next one!

[failfemme]

tagged by @odangonuisance!!!

What is your aesthetic? pastels in general, but pink in particular!!! i think otherwise it’s best summarized as like “sleepy kitty cat femme”??? like marie from the aristocats having a lazy day on a soft cushion!!!

What is your favourite halloween costume you’ve done? probably peter pan!!! that was when i was 18, so i’ve lost or outgrown all the pieces except the hat, but i’d love to recreate it someday!!!

What is your dream job? children’s book writer/illustrator <3 <3 <3 i want to tell stories in beautiful ways and make kids happy!! as a kid, i could spend forever just flipping through my books, staring at the pictures, and my dream would be to make a book that the next generation of artists is inspired by while they’re still young like i was.

Who is your current celebrity crush? uhHhh i’m in love with the entire cast of the bold type, but especially aisha dee (kat)!!

What are three movies that make you cry? it’s really easy to make me cry haha!! i sobbed the other day watching finding dory. uhhh cheaper by the dozen made me cry when i first watched it as a tyke and basically every time since. typical stuff like the notebook, finding neverland, the normal heart does the trick?? i’m a cancer, it;s harder to find movies that DON’T make me cry haha

What is the last book you finished reading? 

jinkies, i dunno!! probably a manga tbh. i’m currently making pretty good pace through gender outlaws: the next generation, which is very good!!!! it’s already a little outdated 7 years after publication since preferred language around trans identity changes so quickly, but reading it feels like a hug from trans and non-binary ppl all over the world :D

What colour eyes do you have? 

they’re green, but i have a lil circle of brown/hazel around the pupil... i love my eyes tbh...

Do you dance in the car? YES A LOT

Earrings or necklaces? earrings!! i only own like 2 necklaces, but i wear earrings almost everyday. i like lil dangly ones best bc shaking my head and feeling them move around is a Good Stim.

Favourite drink? i am a diet coke addict, but i also love apple juice!!

What is one thing on your bucket list? haha idk?? probably something cliche like travelling to france or italy??

First concert?

my first concert was a local band when i was like 14, but the first one for a band i really cared about was the front bottoms when i was 20!!! i cried!!! they’re good!!!

What are your favourite lyrics?

oh jeez.... the one that’s been sticking with me lately is from tfb’s “the plan (fuck jobs)” that goes “when my mind is uncertain, my body decides.”

What is your ideal weekend? most weekends during the school year i just sleep as much as i can to recover lmao. i like chiller weekends where i have more energy to maybe go out once at the start of the weekend and then spend the rest of the time resting and working on creative projects.

What are three things you couldn’t live without? cats, a sketchbook, my mountain of pillows

How would your friends describe you? uhHhhh.... awkward, intense, clever/funny?? a binch?? i’m really quiet and sort of aloof around strangers, but i tend to take on the loud, funny guy role in my close friend groups??? 

What song will always make you dance? CARLY RAE!!!!!!!!!! any of kesha’s early stuff.... fucking hoodie allen’s “no interruptions”

What is your favourite ice cream flavor? chocolate chip cookie dough!! yum c:

i tag @ten-paces-fire, @girlronanlynch, @cniska, @ghostzzy, and @peacehon!! plus you, if you want to do this!!!

#long post /- #ask meme

[tsingadark]

I was tagged by @chimtokki to do this ask thingy, thank you so much! :) <3

THE LAST: 1. drink: diet coke 2. phone call: my mum 3. text message: I think the last one was me sending a link to a tumblr post to a friend :D 4. song you listened to: the last of the real ones - fob 5. time you cried: the day before yesterday, I think? 6. dated someone twice: never 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yeah, but that was ages ago haha 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: haha lol I have depression 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: oh wow, that must’ve been 8 or 7 years ago?

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. black (yes, I know it’s technically not a colour), mint, green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yes, I have (only a few though) 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: yes, I do that quite a lot 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes, but not in a bad way? 19. met someone who changed you: yes, several people 20. found out who your friends are: if this is meant in a negative way, then no 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: haha no

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Probably around 98% 23. do you have any pets: yes, three cats 24. do you want to change your name: I don’t particularly like my name but I don’t think I’d want to change it 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I spent the day at home then at a friend’s place, doing nothing special bc I don’t like my birthday 26. what time did you wake up: I usually wake up between 7 and 10 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Watching a movie with my sister 28. name something you can’t wait for: bts’ comeback :’) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: I saw her, like, 2 hours ago 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: ha, too many things... 31. what are you listening to right now: the last of the real ones - fob 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: so many things but I try not to let them affect me too much haha 34. most visited website: definitely tumblr 35. mole/s: too many to count (my arms are full of them) 36. mark/s: a lot? xD 37. childhood dream: being a vet! (now I want to be a writer) 38. hair colour: atm dark brown  39. long or short hair: short 40. do you have a crush on someone: no 41. what do you like about yourself: that I keep going despite some things being shitty 42. piercings: I have 7 in total, two standard lobes, one rook, and 4 helix piercings (got two of those yesterday) 43. blood type: a+ 44. nickname: shelly 45. relationship status: taken 46. zodiac: pisces 47. pronouns: she/her 48. favourite tv show: my fav tv show used to be supernatural but I haven’t watched it in a while 49. tattoos: none, unfortunately 50. right or left handed: right handed 51. surgery: nope 52. piercing: not gonna repeat it xD 53. sport: not too big on sports but I like running 55. vacation: I’m going on vacation next year!! but not this year :( 56. pair of trainers: converse

MORE GENERAL 57. eating: does this ask what I eat the most or what I’m eating rn? :D 58. drinking: I always drink coffee in the mornings 59. i’m about to: finish this and then continue reading the jikook hogwarts au I started reading earlier 61. waiting for: this day to end so I can go to bed 62. want: for things to get better (also, I want a cat) 63. get married: sure 64. career: don’t ask :’( 65. hugs or kisses: not too fond of either tbh 66. lips or eyes: eyes 67. shorter or taller: taller 68. older or younger: don’t have a preference 70. nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms but I don’t particularly care either way 71. sensitive or loud: both in moderation I guess 72. hook up or relationship: definitely relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: both, I guess

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: no 75. drank hard liquor: yeah 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: I’ve misplaced my glasses a few times 77. turned someone down: yep 78. sex on the first date: no 79. broken someone’s heart: I think so? 80. had your heart broken: yep  81. been arrested: lol no 82. cried when someone died: yes  83. fallen for a friend: haha yeah, my then best friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: sometimes, a lot of times I don’t 85. miracles: yeah 86. love at first sight: I do believe in it 87. santa claus: not really 88. kiss on the first date: depends on the circumstances 89. angels: yes

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name: miriam 91. eye colour: blue 92. favourite movie: love actually I’m tagging: @sildurin, @mendesbangtan, @jungkookjimins, @ccyphers, @parkkchimin and everyone else who wants to do this :) (as always, don’t feel pressured to do this if you don’t want to)

#personal #me #thanks again for tagging me!!!