I wish I could feel the magic of living again.
I just feel so ordinary these days and I don't know if it's just simply my fault for allowing myself to fall into this dark pit of living in my comfort bubble.
The problem is, I want to feel something again, that I miss. So I try to recreate the moment I felt it, and it never works, because moments never hit as hard as the first time you experience them.
I guess I need to go out of my shell and allow myself to experience new moments. Which is scary. It opens up the possibility to get hurt. To feel worse than before. And I really don't know how to overcome that fear inside of me.
But I'm desperate to feel the magic again.
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I’m starting to realize that is very hard to write Kyle in character because so many people have conflicting opinions on him.
If you write Kyle as being smart and compassionate, people will complain that he's too perfect, if you write Kyle as an one note, brainless bully, people will complain about him being too cruel, however, if you decide to write Kyle as being both, people will also complain that he’s being inconsistently written compared to the rest of the boys.
There’s no winning and that’s sad.
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@sparksnyper Same here! 💕 I might have a little something for you :3c
Before Sero worked up the courage to confess, sometimes he’d get nervous talking to Setsuna and something really stupid would come out of his mouth, and he’d get so embarrassed that he just… used his quirk to yeet himself backwards, just noped right outta there XD
Little did he know that Setsuna found it endearing- nowadays they love telling each other the stupidest things on purpose, often making it a game to see who laughs the hardest
Their height difference isn’t an issue thanks to Setsuna’s quirk- she can just float her top half up to Sero so she can easily reach him to kiss him or hug his neck or whatever 😊
Sometimes Setsuna like to “guess who” Sero, but he can always tell it’s her- mainly because he quickly realizes there aren’t any arms attached to the hands covering his eyes :p or a face attached to the mouth saying “guess who” for that matter
They’re totally the kind of couple who would have a themed wedding- dinosaur cake toppers and everything XD
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Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?
Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!
I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.
I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.
I am going to talk about the prologue.
The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.
Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.
But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.
They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.
I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?
Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.
Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.
At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.
What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.
It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.
But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.
ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?
When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.
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Need to rescue Space odyssey from film bros*. As it’s sort of left the film with a reputation of having a bunch of guys “you have to have a high IQ to understand Rick and Morty” levels of BS around it where they 1. Are absolutely surface level analyzing 2. Got the surface level stuff wrong too
Like I cannot stress enough that yes 2001 is a bit of a artsy drag to get through sometimes but it absolutely is not what these people are trying to make it out to be. There’s so much more to the series and it takes a watch or too but once you get it - you get it.
Maybe we can shoo them away by revealing it’s always been “woke”? Idk something about having an optimistic view of the future where everyone gets a long for scientific discovery, evolution and stopping nuclear risk forever. Something about the fact the computer is explicitly not evil just mentally ill. They even spell this out there’s no excuse to keep saying this.
Something about the second book/film having a bisexual couple as main characters. Russians are good guys, Racism bad, Women smart, and that he sort of accidentally just makes a lot of character closeted gay (or bi) from trying WAY to hard to make them seem straight (between Dave’s situationship and crazzyyyy women divorcing characters for noooo reason they really wanted to stay together see it’s not their fault or anything…)
*I don’t know if film bro is the right term, or what would be the right term in this instance but it’s a good stand in
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I think Im entering my phase of saving art I love again, just to stare at it for hours, like I did when I was 12 years old, rather than drawing myself. (I did draw stuff back then still, but I wasn’t expecting me creating masterpieces, I just did it to fulfill a need that rn I don’t really have anymore).
I know my unhappiness and my art block and everything is all connected. And I think I might just need to sit back or do something else that inspires me. I don’t want to envy other artists, like I do now. I want to aspire to be like them in a positive way.
Because I still love art. I can feel how much it touches me, how it tucks on my heartstrings. I feel it so very deeply.
Maybe that’s all I need to do right now. Just sitting back and taking everything in. Giving it the attention it deserves.
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I’m doing research for designing Gabriel Agreste for the French Revolution AU, but is it a conisidence that the color palette he uses is associated with royalty? Like, the white tones and that royal red you see in every portrait of a king, ever…
Like, what is this lmao!
Because if that’s the case, how funny is it that Louis XVI compares to Gabriel? Bruh, they are both weak hot heads. Thomas was this intentional, cause if it was, thank you for being a menace in society XD
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