#are you all really that self centered

[szollibisz]

i think the reason writing saf comic scripts with curtwen turns 3 pages into 20 is because i have a vague idea for a small comic but as i write it down i have to backtrack and go "owen would manipulate curt here" "curt would not tell owen how he feels" "they would not communicate that clearly" "neither of them would want to bring this up because they both know, deep-down that it would lead to the discovery that their relationship is just not meant to work" so instead of a little page comic where they banter over something it turns into a fucking odyssey of lying, attempted murder, regret and repeat

#shocker it's hard to write about a relationship that fundamentally doesnt work #if you could see all the comic scripts i have lying around... #man #there was one i really wanted to do but 1. it was long 2. it was kind of heavy 3. idk how the fandom feels about curt being a shitty guy #not like owen where he has 1000 mental illnesses but just like an ordinarily shitty guy #he's a super self centered stubborn asshole who's proficient in ruining his relationships and pushing people away bc he hates himself #but i feel that kind of gets pushed aside bc owen is just so. owen. #spies are forever #owen carvour #agent curt mega #saf #tin can bros #szolposting

[purerae]

Kieran would def clutch his hands like arthur when he knew his crush's dream man is nanami like- BIG DILF ENERGY, responsible, dutiful and blonde? The things he isn't lmao, imagine him choking in rage when he read the smut fanfics that his crush wrote like the FILTHY filthy smut that even kieran didn't even delve into irl.

oh my god LMFAOO kieran would literally hate it if your dream man is Nanami because hes so immature compared to him. This guy already hates on blonde dudes because he thinks they’re off brand versions of him so his hatred would go up by 100x.

and to come to Kieran’s defense a little (even though i rarely do 🙏) if Kieran found out you wrote filthy smut about a character i feel like he’d tease the living shit out of you and make jokes about recreating it or ‘being better.’ This man would do almost literally anything in bed if it made you happy. If you wrote smut about a character specifically, he’d still get extremely jealous and say shit like “What’s the point in writing stuff, when you can recreate it with me?”

#to all my blonde babes out there he does not hate you #he just hates all the guys who are blonde and are slightly interested in you #when hes extremely self centered but you can still tell deep down hes insecure LOL #i feel like i could write an essay on how complex this man really is #what a silly guy #purerae #yandere blog #male yandere #yandere playboy #delete later #yandere headcanons #yandere #yandere oc #yandere x reader #yandere oc x reader #male yandere oc #yandere male

[commsroom]

the "big picture" - whether that refers to some detached, calculated greater good; ruthless ambition and progress for the sake of progress; or even the dear listeners' cosmic indifference - as an antagonistic force in wolf 359 is so fascinating to me because of the way eiffel as a protagonist is set up to oppose it, just by nature of who he is. eiffel retains his humanity even under the most inhumane circumstances. his strength is in connection, and with that he's able to reach others who share his core values, but he's operating under a fundamentally different framework from the show's antagonists. he can never understand where they're coming from or be swayed by their points of view because, for better or worse, he can only see the world through a close personal lens.

it's an ideological conflict he has with all of them, but notably with hilbert: "you talk about helping people, but what about the real, live people around you? [...] that's your problem. you're so zoomed out." eiffel will never, ever see that "big picture" because he is so zoomed in. at his best, he puts things into perspective and grounds the people around him. at his worst, his perspective narrows so drastically inwards that he becomes blind to everyone and everything else. his failings are deeply, tragically human - they're personal, they're impulsive, they're self-destructive. they're selfish. no matter how much he might try to narrativize or escape from himself, he's still left with doug eiffel: "it's taken me this long to realize that running from everyone else means that you're alone with yourself." eiffel could never be convinced to harm others on purpose, but he has hurt people, and it's never been because he didn't care. the very fact that he cares so much, that he's incapable of reconciling the hurt he's caused with the things he values, is what keeps him from real growth for so long. where many of the other characters in wolf 359 will justify their cruelty in service of something they consider more important, eiffel is so caught up in vilifying himself and the fear that he's always going to harm the people he cares for without meaning to that he shuts himself off from the people who care about him and perpetuates his own self-fulfilling prophecy.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #someday i'll finish my essay about the big picture as an antagonistic force. it's only been on my list of things to do for uh. ever #eiffel really cannot be convinced by Big Picture ideology in any form because he's so. unambitious and inwardly focused #he's not self-reflective at ALL but he is self-centered #and in some ways that's genuinely a good thing #but it's interesting. that he vilifies himself and tries so hard to. externalize his redemption and see some humanity in others #as proof he might be able to be better. when if those people consider themselves villains at all then they consider it necessary #i'm not sure if i'm phrasing this the way i want to but his worldview is just. fundamentally incompatible. #when i think about eiffel i think a lot about. how self-loathing is also a kind of exceptionalism. considering yourself uniquely bad #is its own way of avoiding accountability. #idk. it's complicated. it's a lot. it's interesting that lovelace talks about the 'big picture' when she's briefly a sort-of antagonist #but her 'big picture' is personal and emotionally driven in a way no other use of the phrase is #and then of course you have hera in am i alone now. such a big big universe etc. #when she betrays that perspective immediately and directly by talking about it through such a narrow personal framework #one of the most direct examples of 'big picture' thinking vs. personal connection in that contradiction. but that's another post maybe.

[mortyenthusiast]

doubt ill ever finish this, but ghost and mosca yayyy

#sludge life #sludge life 2 #ghost sludge life #ghost #mosca #replayed sl2 today ohh what joyous fun #i really think ghost is such an interesting character when you pretend the player doesnt control them #because they are sooo apathetic to the people and world around them. #from the littering to feeding the necroshroom to the. Thing. and like there is no opportunity for them to interact with anyone ever. #as in they have no dialogue options #i also like the implication that they would have totally flown off with another plane if air traffic control wasnt down #but people still love them. like mosca slug big mud uzzi #THE WASHING MACHINE GIRL? click sick in general #like clearly people love them but on a surface level view they literally dgaf #but at the same time they do go out of their way to look for big mud. IDK im just rambling #they obviously have friends for a reason. but at the same time they did basically disappear in the good ending of the first game. #they seem to be pretty um. self centered maybe? idk how to word it better. one track mind and all that

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

Happy New Year!!

*pops grape juice bottle* woooo we’ve made it, guys!

2023 was such a nice year in the fandom, in my opinion. There was s3 and that was a banger, but I feel like the stuff we were up to ourselves over here was amazing too. I got to talk more with some of my mutuals who I hadn’t been as close to before, and lovely people keep coming to this corner of the internet!! We had our first sketchbook event and are currently preparing for a general Hilda Appreciation Week, I feel like this is all amazing considering the size of this community.

Just wanted to thank everyone who’s been here for the ride as well! It’s certainly always more fun when you have people to be insane with you. I just. Get very touched thinking about the amount of support in this fandom and how we creatively fuel each other.

Anyway, just wanted to write this post as a thank you. I hope you’re having a lovely end of the year, and may 2024 be even better 💜

(I do have one small writing update to add, though! The first months of the year will probably be relatively devoid of new content from me. This for two reasons. One is that I churned out so many fics this year that I feel like even the people who like my writing are having a hard time catching up (I don’t know how this happened either-), and the other is that I’ll be using my free time to get ahead on preparing my content for the rest of the year! I won’t completely stop or anything (Hilda Appreciation Week will see to that), just wanted to leave this noted so no one things I’ve Vanished from the fic writing scene or anything. I’m just preparing my next attack. Anyways that was it happy new year!!)

#also saying it to force myself to take a breather from posting GEJDHJDHD #cause otherwise I’ll just post the ones that are ready asap and run out of prepared content lol #also! didn’t want to say this in the post bc I was afraid of coming across as self centered?? idk?? #but the people who read my tags will probably find it fun: I was checking my ao3 stats for the year and I posted 18 new fics!! #also posted just over 180k words in total. it’s my second biggest word count in a year #second only to 2020. for obvious reasons #and I’m soooo happy with what I wrote too. I feel like I’m finally beginning to like my own writing. excited to see how I can improve #also I finally played with writing things outside of my usual sketchbook formula!! dipped my toes in Raven Scientist *and* created an OC #it was really nice to try out these things and be pleased with the results!! #2023 really was the year to get silly goofy with writing and love it #if all goes according to plan 2024 will be decided into a ‘tying up some loose ends’ era #and a ‘write what you know and I’m a flipping nerd’ era #may college have mercy on me. and May my inspiration not leave me please :’))) #wife speaks

[sysig]

Very cool and not at all uncomfortable vent sesh (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Emperor Awesome #Commander Peepers #Some friendly Eyesome :D #This is all Awesome's fault lol I thought about him being dramatic and lying on the ground and venting to Peepers and it became an Idea #Awesome stop being fun to draw challenge - at least it's not as hard a challenge as Peepers stop being being fun to draw lol #A lot of his poses were really fun for this as well :D Although I didn't mean to put Awesome behind him initially lol #They're probably at Awesome's actually - Peepers brought something to work on the workaholic needs his enrichment lol #I just can't imagine Awesome being comfortable on the Skullship let alone Peeps' quarters lol ''Damn bitch you live like this?'' #Like he can talk ♪ But at least he knows what he likes! #Peepers gets all the vent sessions haha - at least Awesome would probably return the favour! Gossip ♫ It's still probably mismatched #Both for Awesome's selfishness and Peepers' discomfort with relying on others and being kinda repressed #If Awesome pushed him the right way he'd probably spill a lot though hehe #But anyway this is about Awesome! I think actually becoming friends with Peepers after he told him off would recontextualize some things :) #Still some hard feelings but not enough to reignite the fight over haha #And actually letting Peeps in and his words sink into his bones - and as he says watching Peepers work so hard but still just be a minion #What does this say about me??? thinks the self-obsessed shark man lol #Meanwhile Peepers was just expecting a self-centered rant but he actually got caught in the crossfire enough to be complimented hehe #At least Someone around he recognizes how hard he works! #''Alright fine you've got my attention keep puffing my ego'' lol #His little quirked ''brow'' hehe <3

[zeb-z]

the sooner badboyhalo viewers realize he’s an unreliable narrator the sooner I’ll be able to sleep at night

#qbbh is unreliable he’s a little bit of an asshole he’s the worlds biggest hypocrite he’s self centered and in it for his own interests #he lies for fun he dishes out ‘pranks’ and ‘memes’ but cannot handle it when the role is reversed he needs things to go his way or he’ll #lose his muffins like #and I love it for him! his character can be frustrating sure but it’s fun he plays a good role!! #but bbh chat you are the bug under my shoe. be normal. learn what rp means for the love of god #media literacy! critical thinking! reading anything other than Twitter posts and hot takes please! #I’m once again seeing weird takes and it’s like man. qBad is so misunderstood. not for all the reasons you think though #he’s not misunderstood because he’s really in the right or good or whatever. he’s misunderstood because nobody understands his characters #views or intentions. i don’t think his character fully does either! unreliable narrator! please for the love of god! #I know I’ve made a whole other in the tags rant about this before but like it’s never been more applicable again #bad’s twitch chat be normal challenge level IMPOSSIBLE #and I don’t get why man. take example from the doozers w foolish. from jorge w bagi. Cellbit’s chat (for the most part) even #idk anyways #mcyt #qsmp #bbh #z speaks

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

more alt L? maybe even with a mullet + undercut? maybe?

#death note #death note fanart #l lawliet #my art #it is so late (it is not so late i just haven’t slept since school started) #i am so tired #but maybe i wanted to sketch? maybe i wanted to sketch L? maybe i don’t have the energy to line and color things? #anyway here’s some sketches #i love sketching on black backgrounds #i think it makes neons better and that’s all that i sketch with #the colors i chose spoke to me so now you must see them #you must see my vision #it is full of bright ass colors that surely cannot be good to look every time i draw especially with my awful slowly deteriorating vision #but whatever #have these late night (not really late night)alt L sketches #i gave him an undercut bc i’m self-centered and jealous of the mullet so we fuse hairstyles to make the ultimate haircut that i now want

[siflshonen]

The thing about watching Frieren is that instead of reflecting and thinking to myself about the folks in my life I took for granted until it was too late and aspiring to change, I realize that, unfortunately, I may have been taken for granted by a whole bunch of immature and self-centered moe elves.

#and I can’t believe I put up with them all my life #Frieren #soso no frieren #like ok certainly it’s an instance of give and take where sometimes I’ve taken people for granted too #but #I dunno the show just depresses me now #you don’t feel anything for her?! a friend asked me #and I had to be like #not really #I’m the most self centered person I know but that used to not be the case #oh well!!!! #that’s it for today’s tumblr confessional

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#Woha... Alright read the chapter 🫡 #It's just. I get where Fukuchi is coming from and I feel like after rereading it the whole thing was a little more clear but... #Did it *really* have to be so complicated. Like dude did it **really** have to be so complicated. #Maybe it had to idk. After all I'm always the first to say that a complex reality can't be reduced to simple axioms– #and that semplifications never bring anything good. #But at the same time was there REALLY no other way #Couldn't you promote your ideas diplomatically instead. Couldn't you become a democratic activist or politician. #Couldn't you write a book‚ person named OUCHI FUKUCHI #Also couldn't you? Talk about it with someone before executing your crazy plan so that anyone else might have pointed to you how crazy it i #But I suppose the whole central theme of this arc ultimately was “people who try to do everything by their own are destined to fall” #And to an extent it does still feel kinda self-contradictory of a plan. Like ahah my plan included not to make anyone suffer!!! #[turns half world population into a vampire] #Like c'mon? Violations of human rights can happen even without killing people dude #(Also Akutagawa) #(Like I get it he's only one (1) person. But he's also the only (only) person for me so I can't bring myself to ignore him y'know) #Mmmmmhhhhhh that's of the main things ig. I YELLED when they brought up Max Weber and the what-is-a-state question #That's like. One of the main questions my whole life studies centers on. #The adrenaline that gave me to see it mentioned in my current hyperfixation ahfjvafjhcvlawsvfblwhkv #This chapter was just so so political theories packed I felt like I was just still studying lol. #I feel like this was a true “get why bsd is labelled as seinen”. #You just can't do this kind of in-depth political theory discussion in shonen manga ig #What else. Still patiently waiting for ss/kk 😔 #random rambles

[chewwytwee]

This just in, tumblr user who’s only learned about Palestine over the past few months feels incredibly emboldened to tell everyone what they think about the ICJ ruling and the history of Palestinian resistance

#.txt #like idk it is kinda annoying to see all these people actively talk over Palestinian voices because they’re just soooooo smart #I will never pretend that I can fully understand or really speak on the issues of colonialism period #but discourse tumblr no. 44563384930 from Illinois has the most enlightened take on international law #like Jesus Christ you can have your opinions but to be so fucking self centered and unaware #to not be able to understand your own limitations as a beneficiary of the same systems that allow for Israel to claim legitimacy

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd is so determined to not think of himself as a good person that the king of hell himself can tell him he almost certainly would go to heaven if left to his own devices because he's fundamentally a kind person and lloyd will still say he's self-centered and selfish and doing everything for his own gain five minutes later

like. you gotta admire the commitment at least

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #i have no doubts lloyd fully believes this #he really does think he's selfish and self-centered and doing everything for himself #but like. there's only so many times people around you can tell you you're a good person who cares about others. before you gotta consider #that maybe you are indeed a good person who cares about others. #i'm of the opinion that when it comes to doing good things actions are more important that thoughts and intentions #like if you're doing good things because you genuinely want to help and care about other people? that's great keep it up! #but if you're doing good things for your own sake and don't really feel strongly about others? that's also ok and you're still doing good! #and that's sort of what i believe lloyd thinks of himself except. it doesn't hold up to what he actually does and thinks lmao #like when push comes to shove it's been shown that lloyd *will* choose to be kind he *will* choose to help he *will* choose to be good #even when there's nothing for him to gain and no one to impress and sometimes even when it's something that could go badly for him #there's lying to yourself and then there's whatever lloyd's got going on #<- this is all about a webnovel with a giant hamster and a snake who poops steel btw

[abibeur]

I swear if I see another post mocking another language for its vocabulary seeming “ridiculous” in comparison to English words that look the same, I send poison pen letters to you, on sight. I don’t care anymore.

#hoo hee haa is dutch even a real language? #oh french you can't be serious... #IF YOU LIKE YOUR OWN TONGUE THAT MUCH TAKE THE ONE IN YOUR MOUTH AND CHOKE ON IT FUCKER #if you want something to criticise #go curse the académie française #or spain for its disdain of the multiple regional languages #or the discrimination over the creoles all over the world #OR YOUR OWN FUCKING LANGUAGE #YOU MAKE FUN OF WELSH #IRISH #SCOTTISH #AAVE #AND SO ON #WHEN YOU'LL UNDERSTAND YOU'RE ALL SELF-CENTERED WHITE CLOWNS #WE WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO REALLY TALK ABOUT THE TONGUES OF THIS WORLD #linguistics #🖕

[howtotrainyouragents]

Channeling all my extrovertedness into my DnD character

#all 0.1 percent #he’s a bard who wants to start the world’s first boy band #I was gonna make him arrogant and self centered #but I felt bad #so now I’m just an idiot who befriends everyone #immediately adopted the first two people who were remotely nice to me #gay panicked hard at my crush #shared strawberry pancakes with a stranger #it's so funny how so far this really does mirror my relationships with my friends #me loving everything that comes out of kiran's mouth #me going along with and vibing hardcore with seraphina like I do w/ saniya #like two peas in a pod #being obsessed with penny is literally just me being obsessed with noa #also you gotta see Lisia and Innocence's designs and story so far ITS INSANE #ENEMIES TO LOVERS (i think) TF #there was a sword under the chin #tried not to scream #also there's a pink dog and I thinks that's pretty amazing #li's dnd adventures

[compacflt]

Bro I've read so many incomplete fics where the last post is from the author saying next week for sure and then to not post anything for like years where the like 5 obsessed fans are still waiting haha. You're doing great, take care of yourself, you're doing this for free and don't owe us anything.

this is true & i appreciate you anon

but i owe it to Myself to get out of my top gun phase ASAP so it can stop taking up all my mf TIME‼️‼️‼️

#i love you guys. So much. but at my core i am a self centered person & this is really all about ME #not finishing my extras for YOU im finishing it so my hyperfixation can be OVER #a little update: did end up cutting a few more scenes #we’re back down to 64k #never underestimate my ability to say the same thing thirty different ways (that’s how we got in this extras mess in the first place) #but looking good! #another midterm starting AS I POST THIS

[massholecharliekelly]

We don’t talk about Dennis’ mommy issues nearly enough

#do you want a tissue of the dennis system for men really is the perfect example of it too #all of the dennis system for men is fantastic for examining dennis as a person #but the last one really hits home #he really was dependent on his mother for any sort of felling of safety or validation #but because his mother was emotionally abusive and self centered it was all conditional #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #iasip season 16