#appreciate it but aaaaaa!!!!! im so bad at interpreting real people i barely get to see!!! and then they send me art and ask for me to draw

[lunataurora]

i hate posting art on insta so much. its like every few days i decide to quit making art completely

#the community on there is just so obsessed with optimization that i never feel happy with my art even if i did before posting it #i draw for ME!! and for FUN!! i hate that im terrified of my fellow artists on that site #just the layout feels so.... business focused. i hate it i hate it dearly. #and i cant just leave!!! cuz i just want to make connections with ppl who like the things i like and what i make #and tumblr is actually toxic slutch like i dont have a single friend that can understand how to use this site... they all prefer insta.. #like. i consider my mutuals here my friends!! its just the ppl that im the closest with arent on tumby.. or they barely respond on tumby.... #legit i just dont want to draw anymore i dont i dont!! my friend keeps asking me to draw them and i do!!! each time!!! i know they #appreciate it but aaaaaa!!!!! im so bad at interpreting real people i barely get to see!!! and then they send me art and ask for me to draw #like that style and its a super smooth chibi style like???????? i cant draw smooth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my art is sketchy and not suited for what #youre after!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #....... I'll still try though. I'll always try. its not like im being paid for this. tho i never like getting paid for my art either. #its something i do for fun.... but i feel like im being used at this point. I'll make them one last icon but. after all this shit ive made #for them.... even beyond just drawings and icons... i think im done #art is hard work. and this is so constant #I'll draw the next time i feel able to. lets see if they give up or get mad at me. bc god i just got over my days long eyestrain headache #from the last times i drew digitally. one of those was their new icon. i just need rest #sorry thats. a very long vent #gross posts