#anyways feel free to drop in and ask me about future sw fic things because hoo boy do I have ideas!

[beck-a-leck]

It's Star Wars Day and I'll promote my fic if I want to!

So most of my SW fic can be divided into 2 camps. The Wells of Silence AU, and everything else.

The Wells AU (aka Talking Without Speaking, Hearing Without Listening) - Rule 63, female Anakin Skywalker, male Padme Amidala fics, and varying events that happen when I go around and mess with that story.

Wells of Silence - 100k, T, F/M & Gen, Complete

Obi-Wan watched the security recording, numb and cold. What he was seeing should have rocked him to his core, but it was almost as if he had expected this to happen. Perhaps he had. He hadn’t been blind to Anakin’s struggles over the last seven months. He had witnessed her sheer desperation to protect her children and husband. Instead of recognizing the touch of the Dark Side growing in her, he had left her to Palpatine’s whims. He had failed her.

The OG Canon Compliant AU that started it all. Beginning near the end of the clone wars when Anakin's pregnancy is discovered and following her through the birth of the twins, the end of the war, and the fall of the Jedi.

Echos - 40k, T, F/M & Gen, Complete

The original companion piece to Wells Of Silence, including deleted scenes, bonus content, and a look at the future of the universe within the AU.

Take My Arm That I Might Reach You - 8k, T, Gen, In Progress

On the banks of Mustafar's lava river, Obi-Wan hears something. Someone calls out for help. He turns back, takes Vader from the burning river bank. Anakin can't be gone, if she asked for help, she has to still be in there.

The Redemption AU of the Wells AU. Because I saw somewhere that GL said Obi-Wan wouldn't have left Anakin on Mustafar if he had asked for help, and because I love to hurt myself I put it in the Wells Universe for extra pain. In which things are kind of terrible, but nobody dies, they just get really big boo-boos.

Hello Darkness - 8k, M, Gen, Complete

Anakin makes a decision to run away and keep her secret safe. For a while, things are going fine, and then everything goes horribly wrong. Palpatine issues Order 66.

I had a REALLY sad idea, I made it worse, I wrote the fic to hurt others. A deviation from the original Wells AU, in which I kill basically everyone except Anakin and she has to deal with that. It's a dark fic.

My Old Friend - 8k, T, F/M & Gen, In Progress

In the aftermath of Order 66 and the defeat of Emperor Palpatine, and still reeling from great personal loss, Anakin Skywalker has tasked herself with combing the galaxy to bring any lost Jedi she can find back home. Hidden in a small mining colony, Anakin finds a familiar face.

The unofficial sequel to Hello Darkness where I tried to make some things a little better. Also an apology fic for a friend for being a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad person for hurting her feelings with Hello Darkness. In which I try and make Anakin feel a little bit better by giving her a smol Grogu who needs someone to watch after him and Anakin happened to be the first Force Sensitive person he's found since Order 66.

Hello Darkness - Mortis - 3k, T, Gen, Complete

Anakin rejected her destiny once on Mortis. The Force does not like to be ignored. She has a role to play and it will bring her to it one way or another.

In which I truly cannot be stopped from torturing Anakin within the Wells Universe, because I took her from the darkest Hello Darkness timeline and then just made her miserable for several long years after than and Then had the Force come torture her with visions of dead loved ones because it wants her to do a job.

Everything Else - exactly what it says on the tin. Star Wars fics I've written that aren't connected to the Wells of Silence AU.

Better Left Unsaid - 2k,G, Gen, Complete

Satine chose Mandalore. Obi-Wan chose the Jedi. They are young. Their futures, their duties are more important than their hearts. She believes the sting of lost love will fade in time, and it does, but something else grows to take its place.

In which I looked at Korkie Kryze and said "lmfao that kid's supposed to be Bo-Katan's son? Hell no!" and wrote the fic about how Korkie is definitely Obi-Wan's son but nobody talked about it. Even Satine.

Aggressive Negotiations - 700, G, Gen, Complete

Everything about Skywalker was unorthodox. Even his parenting skills. A war meeting was the last place Rex expected to find a pair of toddlers, but there they were. But Rex is an officer, and a professional, and he will absolutely hold a child's hand if they ask. He's not a monster.

I saw an incredibly cute video of a child being adorable and immediately had to write a fic featuring smol Skywalker twins and some clones.

Dear Theodosia - 4k, G, Gen, Complete

A little tribute to the adoptive dads of the Star Wars universe set to the quintessential Dad Song.

Hamilton and Star Wars are absolutely perfect together and I think the adoptive dads in the Star Wars universe deserved some love, so they got a tribute via the perfect Dad Song.

#becky writes things #star wars #may the 4th be with you #lmao i doubt this will even show up in the tags there's so many links #some of y'all follow me for sw fic right? #i doubt this post will even show up in the tags #there's so many links #anyways feel free to drop in and ask me about future sw fic things because hoo boy do I have ideas! #and they're all mostly set in the Wells AU #i do have 2 WIPs listed and there's another huge project I've been slowly working on for a few years now

[lokilickedme]

Hello My Lady! Just because you asked, here are my faves of yours: #1 King (no surprise here), #2 Jack (too crazy not to love, and the stream crossing of pretty much all your stories is genius) #3 Chem/BD/TTW/TKH/TWK/can't remember them all. They're all special in their own way! Can't believe it'll be 3yrs soon since I started squatting your page!!! God time goes by fast! I'd like to add a special mention for the Muse Meetings, sooo funny, and a Golden Snowflake to Aleks. Cute little bumkin.

Thank you @fudgemuffinanon!  Dear god, has it been that long?  Seems like I joined up last year…*sits here blinking at my posts from 2015, wondering how that happened*

**LONG TEXT POST COMING UP**

You drew the lucky straw today my darling, I’m feeling wordy and in the mood to share.  A lot of people have asked me over the last couple of years how some of my stuff came about, and you mentioned one that gets a lot of asks.

Lemme tell you something about the Muse Meetings.  Way back in 1998 when I got my first computer, one of the very first things I ran across by way of internet fanfiction was a little something called The Very Secret Diaries penned by a writer named Cassandra Claire (who is now professionally published under the name Cassandra Clare).  The Very Secret Diaries (which are hilarious, btw) woke something up in me - mainly because, as a lifelong writer who had never allowed anyone to read 95% of my work, I finally realized that yeah, there were other people out there whose brains deviated from the standard in the same way mine did.  Her writing style back then (in the Diaries specifically, I’ve never actually read anything else she’s written) was very similar to the way I wrote, and those Diaries were exactly the sort of silly, ridiculous, irreverent thing I’d scribbled in my notebooks for most of my life.  And people liked it, she had a huge following based on just those out-of-context glimpses of her characters’ personal thoughts.  She was writing behind the scenes thoughts of characters, things that would never make it into books, and it was brilliant.  That was the kind of stuff I loved to write but had never given myself permission to show anyone.  She was showing hers to people, and they were loving it.

Which gave me the inspiration to not only put my work out there in the public eye for the first time ever, but to stick with my personal writing style (which I’d always assumed wasn’t what other people wanted to read, based on the books I’d been exposed to most of my life).  Not change anything.  Just do me.  And doing me meant writing silly nonsense if I wanted to.

So - The Very Secret Diaries are more or less the inspiration for the Muse Meetings, or at least the official written version of them.  I’d always imagined dialogues with my characters outside the confines of whatever story I was working on, but never thought anyone else would be interested in seeing me write it out.

The Diaries made me realize different.  Not only were her characters yammering and complaining and snarking at each other (both out of character and in), they were doing it in exactly the way I’d imagined my own characters interacting in the real world.  I loved it.  Seeing someone else do what I’d always done in my head - and do it in an official, out-there-in-the-public-eye capacity, was a revelation.  Finally I was able to give myself permission to write the way I wanted to, without restricting myself to the styles and methods in the books in the family library.  It had always been in my head, but now it didn’t have to stay there.  I could write proper stories, but I could also write what was going on in the other room, where the reader seldom gets to peek.  And other people besides myself might like it because hey, there’s precedent.

That was freeing, and I am grateful to Ms Claire for that.

So, a little history that leads up to how and why I finally started writing out the Muse Meetings:

My first fandoms that I wrote for online were Harry Potter and Star Wars (Kenobi specifically).  And yes, way back then (late 90′s - early 2000′s) there were already muse meetings among my characters.  I’ve been doing these for a long time, and I wish the out-of-character stuff I’d written back then still existed (my HP stuff bit the dust when The Restricted Section shut down, and my SW stuff was on FF.net for a little while but honestly I don’t remember my user ID there or the titles of the fics, though I have searched…so they’re most likely lost as well).  It’s sort of a shame because there were some old Anakin/Obi-Wan muse meetings that you guys would have loved…and the stuff between Remus and Sirius while we were hashing out what was going to be in their next chapter?  It still pains me that it’s all lost, but maybe it’s for the best.  That was nearly two decades ago, we move on to bigger and (hopefully) better things.

After my urge to write HP fic fizzled out I stopped writing for a while, but there were always muse meetings going on in my head for stories I scribbled mentally.  To me they’ve always been more fun than the actual stories, which explains my love for gag reels and behind-the-scenes featurettes for movies (I watch those first, always).

And then I found AO3 - funnily enough, I discovered it while searching the internet for one of my lost HP fics - and I decided to start writing in earnest again.  With all those thousands and thousands of fics and endless fandoms, it seemed like the perfect place to indulge my need to share what went on in my head.  And as I settled into the MCU and my stories started to grow to include multitudes of characters, those impromptu staff meetings with my muses kept being called to order.  Stuff that my characters would never say in the context of their stories got said.  Scenarios that were too ridiculous to waste time writing were played out.  Arguments and fights and bantering between characters who, in the restrictive confines of their own tales, would never in a million years interact…now they were throwing poptarts at each other (and occasionally knives) while the side characters wandered out of the room to watch TV or raid the fridge or sat in horror as someone’s until-now unassuming wife brandished a melon baller as a weapon.

It was messy and fun and was by far my favorite part of the writing process.

That’s what eventually became the Muse Meetings.  You want to know how they escaped my head and became an official thing?

Well I’m gonna tell ya lol

One of my very first friends in here, the fantastic @elvenfair1, was one of my first readers at AO3 and she told me I should post links to my fics at this site called tumblr to bring in a bigger audience.  So I opened an account here, followed her, posted some links as suggested, and she and I began messaging back and forth pretty much every night as we wrote our respective fics, bouncing ideas off each other and discussing plot points and brainstorming for character names.  And as my characters sassed me and refused to cooperate with what I wanted them to do, I would tell elvenfair what was going on in my head with my dumbass OCs and OFCs and we’d laugh and gripe about trying unsuccessfully to reel in our unruly muses.

And then one night back in 2015 she said “You should post this muse stuff, it’s hilarious.”

You know what the first thing I thought was?  Cassandra Claire did it 14 years ago and people loved it.  So yeah, I can sure as hell do it if I want.  If nobody is interested in it, at least it’ll amuse me and elvenfair and that’s cool enough.

And so I did.  I started posting them in here first, then as people started requesting them more I eventually moved them to AO3 in a more structured format.  And now you guys have multiple Lokis hurling curses at a bartender and viciously baiting a hapless movie star while teenage versions of two other attendees flirt with unsuspecting OFCs, with an occasional appearance by Thor dropping hints about future chapters and looking for fruit roll-ups.  It’s messy, but it’s fun and I’ve always enjoyed writing it as a way to let my brain decompress, especially when one of my “real” stories has hit a roadbump.

Since then I’ve seen countless other professional writers doing the exact same thing - J.R. Ward even posts her own version of muse meetings on her official website AND has a published book (her Insiders Guide) that is almost entirely nothing BUT muse meetings.   It’s surprising how many writers actually do this and I sometimes wonder if authors like Poe, Steinbeck, Vonnegut, Tolkien, Gaiman, McMurtry didn’t do it themselves (I’d bet money on McMurtry).  Just goes to show there’s not an original idea anywhere in the universe…no matter how much you might believe you came up with it first, someone out there has been doing it for a long damn time before you - and a million more will do it after you :)

Anyway, I haven’t written any muse meetings in a while but they still go on constantly in my head.  I get asked about once a week to go back to doing them, and one day I will, when I have time for it.  My actual fics are struggling for writing time as it is and I made a conscious decision to weed out the unnecessary stuff in favor of “real work” (yeah right lol)…but yeah, the Meetings are still one of my favorite things and I won’t stop doing them permanently - they’ll be back.

So thank you Cassandra Claire for inspiring me to let them fly…if it weren’t for those whacked-out Diaries, the Muse Meetings would all still be in my head with only one person (me) laughing at them.

#fudgemuffinanon #long post #it's been a while since I got to talk to an adult IRL due to the kids being sick #so here have all the words at once lol