#anyway yeah the point is my dad is not reasonable

[starryeyeddreamer21]

Okay so more for my Hazbin Hotel co-parenting au

I was just thinking about other people's reaction to this weird thing they've got going on so here is all of Hells reactions

The first one seen with the baby is Alastor (he's on his way to show Rosie that he's acquired a baby) Everyone freaks out about it because "Did the radio demon have a child?" "Did he steal that baby?" "He's on his way to cannibal town HOLY SHIT HE'S GOING TO EAT A BABY"

So as we all know hell loves to gossip so that's what they do. A ton of theories go around but when they don't see him with the baby again they decide it probably met a terrible fate. So they drop it UNTIL...

Angel is seen with the baby next. They're just out buying baby clothes but people are like "huh? When did famous porn star Angel Dust have a baby?" People start taking pictures and posting them on the Internet and the people that saw Alastor and the baby in person are like OH SHIT so now the rumors are worse. Most people think Angel and Alastor are together and raising this baby.

They're still talking about all this when Charlie is seen with the baby. They're just chilling going for a walk. Hell is in an uproar. Polls are going around asking people whose baby they think it is. There's definitely memes. All in all everyone is way too into this.

So the Vees being social media demons have been keeping track of this. Vox has been pissed from the very beginning because it started with Alastor and we all know how he is. Val is writing a list of ways to use this against Angel in a sparkly pink notebook. Velvette wants this to end she's sick of everyone talking about this it bores her and she's not getting as much attention as before SO she decides to interview Angel.

She asks a simple question "is this baby yours? The radio demons? Or the princesses?"

"....yes?"

Things are worse than ever. Nobody understands what's going on. Their first thought is poly but as more demons are seen with the baby they decide that's less and less likely (and the Radio Demon in a poly relationship? Yeah okay). They realize everyone that lives in the princesses hotel is helping raise that baby so now they think if they move in they become a parent (which is not how that works)

It's not even a mystery but nobody can seem to wrap their head around it so at this point they're just waiting for all the attention to dial down or some different drama to take everyone's mind off of it

Also Alastor has no idea any of this is happening because he doesn't have social media and nobody thought to tell him

BONUS: Rosie and Cherri's reactions

Rosie: First of all she definitely goes by Auntie Rosie but anyway she's super supportive of Alastor and is so happy for him. She spoils this kid so much it's ridiculous. She's just an amazing aunt like when the kid is older Rosie is usually the one she goes to for advice. And yes she definitely tries to give the kid demon flesh but most of her parents say no.

Cherri Bomb: She's just confused like last week her and Angel were clubbing and now he's a dad? Obviously she's happy for Angel and is super supportive. Angel even starts referring to her as Auntie Cherri which melts her heart. She's a little annoyed though because now Angel hangs out with her less than ever. She definitely misses going out and doing irresponsible shit because he rarely does that anymore. She's also a terrible influence and is not allowed to watch the baby alone. She's the fun aunt but a bit too irresponsible for comfort. Also she tries to make the baby's first word a cuss word. She will be sitting with this baby for hours just going "fuck... Fuck...fuck" which is another reason she's not allowed to be left alone with the baby.

#hazbin hotel #co parenting au #the vees #velvette #vox #valentino #alastor #angel dust #charlie #rosie #cherri bomb #I wish I had the motivation to write this or at least the talent to draw it 😭

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[septimus-heap]

I've seen ppl say marcia and milo wouldn't get together bc marcia would have too high standards. But this is the same woman who got emotional when casually told she should probably have more than 1 friend. So

#sep talks #marcia overstrand #milo banda #like. Im not saying she'd have low standards. But ive seen ppl say that she would not marry milo bc he couldnt like. Match her intelligence #and I disagree!! #she ALREADY has people to have intellectual conversations with #what she DOESN'T have is ppl who care abt her emotional wellbeing. Ppl she can Talk To #marcia is VERY VERY lonely. I just don't think it's necessary for her partner to be Super Intellectually Intelligent #as long as they can Be There For Her #admittedly milo was away at the start of thm but a) he came back and b) that's. That's his job. His job involves him being away a lot #marcia definitely knew this. If it was an issue she wouldn't have married him #(I say she doesn't have ppl to Talk To bc like. She's got alther i guess. But he's dead and also. Kind of her dad. Idk abt u guys but I #would not want to talk to only my dad abt everything going on in my life) #anyway yeah. Bad wording on all this etc etc. I just disagree with a lot of the points ppl make against marcilo #(@ ppl who don't like them for reasons outside of just not vibing with it. Pls tell me ur reasons I am curious)

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[feline-evil]

Blood drooling from my mouth I neeeeeeeeed to get back into making music i neeeed to i do i need to. I fucking. Foaming at the mouth frothing at the mouth i haven't played an instrument in so long.

#jay talkin #ok so see the situation is i am not good at any instrument but i play guitar and bass (and keyboard sometimes) and drums #i have issues with my arm that on top of affecting my ability to draw also severelly impact my ability to play #and i also live with people one of whom works in the room directly below me so im so paranoid about making noise #i cant be loud i cant be disruptive but jesus christ i need to play more often #im not going to get GOOD if i dont PLAY #yeah id have to fix my bass and ahit but. UGH I JUST WANT TO PLAY #WHATS THE POINT OF OWNING AN ELECTRIC GUITAR AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR AND AN ELECTROACOUSTIC BASS IF NOT TO PLAY THEM #i did have an electric drumkit and my dads old 80's synth but ppl all but stole them back away from me so lol. lmao #whatever. i still have my guitars. even if ppl do take them sometimes #ugh really what i need to do is figure out if i can route my guitars through my pc rather than an amp so i can record and mess w that in fl #god. fucking biting my own arms off i wish i lived elsewhere #for more reasons than just the freedom to make music and have ppl not take my shit. but yknow. itd also help that #everybody prayer circle for jay transitioning and moving out in under thirty more years ok. its a longshot but heres hoping #anyway. music. its good. i want to make dramatic weird goth metal.

[blakquill]

Every RoyAi future au be like: they removed the laws that prevented mustang and hawkeye to marry so now theyre married and have kids togethr!!

Shut up. Shut up. Wheres the marriage in secret, the silent promises made late at night with very little to show for it. The special earrings that roy gave riza and she wears them religiously as roy climbs the ranks and becomes fuhrer. Eventually leading to a call for trail for the war crimes all state alchemists from the ishvalan civil war commited. his own trial is public as hawkeye reads the news paper holding the hand of her child. (One who looks exactly like mustang but no one says a thing bc those close to here know she is just a single mother in the millitary and the kids father is uknown so the whole team treats them like their own.) And she sees the man she loved fulfill his goals finally.

She reads the title and wonders how to explain to her kid that dear uncle roy is in prison and serving a life sentence.

#quill.doc #fma #this is my future au btw #i just sont like people removing laws that are in place for a good reason #also they just #ignore roys goals completely. #but yeah i have many thoughts about this future au #anyway i need to actually like do smth with my au lmao #also. like. in this au roy and riza didnt plan to have a kid but they also couldnt bring themselves to terminate the pregnancy #so they have a kid now but its not so bad #hawkeyes sons dad is DEFINITELY not mustang btw. definitely now. *points son who is literally a mini mustang* #what are they going to do? dna test? in the 1930s??

[an-eldritch-peredhel]

🔥 Dior? (Sorry it’s a bit late!)

This answer is very late so don't worry lol!

Oh Dior my beloved. I have so many hot takes. Here are my top choices:

Biggest one is that he does technically have a human spirit but gets to pull a pro-gamer move like his mom and argues himself into being reembodied (with Nimloth's help) on the basis of true love, precedent, and trans rights (peredhel species personal identification, because it's Gender to me. also standard trans rights ✌). I don't like him being counted as an elf automatically because it doesn't make sense to me (Luthien was mortal when he was born), but I don't like him being dying like a mortal because it makes me sad! and he and his family deserve nice things!

My thoughts on the Silmaril Situation are complicated and undefined so I won't get into them as of now, but I will say that a) he and most of his people believe he was 100% in the right for keeping it and that his logic was sound, even post-kinslaying. (Dior is prideful, he knows this. If he was given a second chance, knowing what he does now, he does not know what he would choose. He doesn't know if his children would forgive him, either way.) and b) he deserves to be a bitch about it <3

My biggest pet peeve is when people try to argue (either for or against him) regarding the second kinslaying based on his youth. My man is 36. Yeah he's not old, but he's married with three kids, it's safe to assume that elf aging doesn't apply. Sure he's young in comparison to the millennias old immortals in his kingdom, but 36 is old enough to make your own competent decisions. That's a grown ass adult, and the narrative treats him as such. Also this is tumblr, according to some people on here he'd be one foot in the grave (whompwhomp)

#asks #lesbianhaleth #ask game #dior #my headcanons #i maintain that dior had ABSOLUTELY NO REASON to expect the kinslaying #and people who say he should've given up the silmaril bc of it don't make sense #the feanorions are the bastards who tried to kill his dad and kidnap his mom- failed miserably. tried to kill satan- failed miserably #killed a bunch of distant relatives across the sea yeah but then they were trying really hard to act sorry #and he has no particular desire to formally pardon them but they havent done it since and there were admittedly Circumstances there #even IF you assume he somehow knew about the oath up until the 2nd kinslaying the feanorions hadn't killed anyone in pursuit of it #(no alqualonde doesnt count as oath-killing) #related to the age point when people say b&l died early it drives me nuts #yes he was 33 which is younger than most people lose their parents to old age but BEREN WAS 70. they had dior late #and 33 is still a grown ass adult #also an unrelated pet peeve but thingol died first #anyway

[yuribalisms]

Okay I think I’ve figured out why I’m having such a hard time right now especially and it is…. not fun

#I just need to vent if anyone reads this I just wanna stress that I am fine #well…. not Fine obviously but like I’m not gonna Do anything so…. yeah #anyways #I haven’t been suicidal since I lived with my mom #most of my time in high school I was high key suicidal and those were the times I was actively engaging in various forms of self harm #and was actually going to attempt one day and the only reason I didn’t was because my family came home early #and one of the things that got me through all of that was telling myself I only felt that way because of everything my family put me through #that after I moved out and didn’t have to live with my mother or put up with whatever guy she was with at the time #or parent five little kids that I didn’t sign up for #and then I wouldn’t hate life I would be okay and I would be happy #I left at 17 and other than a few months at the start of Covid I have not had to stay with them for an extended period of time #and I HAVENT been suicidal at any point that I haven’t lived with them #so in a way I was right I was only that way because of them I wasn’t fucked up I was fine it was just THEM #I wasn’t going to have to live this way forever #except now…. I feel very suicidal again #and it’s just kinda sinking in ‘oh…. it’s not just my family I AM just fucked up and stuck this way’ #I’m never gonna Not be this way it could always come back no matter how okay I am #my family isn’t the only trigger that causes it and I…. don’t know what to do with that #like yeah the abuse they put me through for years is probably the main culprit #and I get anxiety and depression from my mom AND dad #I know my mom tried to commit at least once and was hospitalized over it #she’s never pursued actual treatment for it tho #my dad does and like actually acknowledges it but idk the point is I had higher probability of ending up this way cuz of genetic factors #and then…. yeah everything I grew up with didn’t help #but getting away from all of it…. didn’t fix it…. and I just Am this way #and I don’t want/can’t accept that #except I’m gonna have to or I know I can’t actually… get better #it’s fine….. I mean it’s not but like what can I really do it’s…. ugh #I’m tired of being alive but I’m MORE tired of being tired of being alive I just wanna LIVE but feel like I can’t #kaz rambles

[arthur-r]

thank you guys for the help i know nobody’s awake anymore but i’m awake now again and the email is officially sent

#i’m nervous cause i’m not seeing philosophy club anywhere #and yes i am capable of learning and growing as a person and doing other stuff with my life #(when i told my dad yesterday that i was nervous he said i should see this as an opportunity…) #but i would rather prefer to be in my regular thing every thursday… also i kind of need this teacher #i’m trying to not skip class as much anymore (i kind of did a lot of that last trimester) so it’s not like i’ll just be always over there #but my mom gets home tomorrow and it’s making me nervous. things were getting pretty bad between my parents #and y’all understand there’s only one adult in the entire world who understands what it’s like at home? it was cool knowing him #anyway the real point of philosophy club is learning philosophy and seeing friends. and that’s why i want to do it and was excited for it #but the reason that i’m nervous about it not happening is because what if i just never have a place like that again #but!! the email is sent!! and if there’s no philosophy club there really isn’t anything i can do #i’ll just have to join newspaper and start going to silent reading and all of those things i could do #also getting help from teachers. that’s a big one. that’s what raider time is actually for. and i could use it #but on the other hand that half hour of every day is like. my only piece of free time cause i’m away from parents and not in class #so i tend to want to use it for self care and fun times. plus last year that meant i could stay after school to get help from teachers #thereby maximizing my away time even more!!!! which was pretty great and a good situation #so anyway idk but the point is i sent the email and it’s the morning now and i’m gonna plug in my phone #and a friend of mine is driving me today so idk when she is getting there #because yesterday it was a different friend but not today and i don’t remember this friends driving schedule #but anyway yeah. and yesterday was a bad first day but maybe today will be good #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[spade-club]

Let’s play, “was I abused” game! Reblog and bold the things your parents have done to you! Italicize if you’re not sure. (copy paste it all and then bold)

(I found this and thought I might as well do this to help myself with denial later!! obvious abuse tw!! also I have a lot of stuff that came from outside the house too, but this is like. parent stuff yeah idk!!)

Physical abuse

parent slapped me to prove their point/teach me a lesson

parent spanked me as a “punishment” saying it was for my own good

parent pulled on my hair to force me to move

parent threw things at me while angry, things heavy enough to hurt me

parent trapped me into a room/corner so I couldn’t escape them

parent hit me when I wouldn’t obey them/tried to confront them

parent used a twig/stick/belt to lash at my body

parent grabbed me to force me to pay attention to them

parent pinned me down and physically prevented me from escaping

parent brought me into situations where I feared for my life

parent made it painfully obvious for me that I’ll obey them or suffer injuries

parent threatened to beat me if I wouldn’t do as they say

parent forcefully fed me something I refused to eat

parent made an attempt at strangling/drowning/burning me

parent banged my head/body into the wall/furniture

parent forced me into sexual activities

Emotional abuse

parent called me derogatory names and slurs more than once

parent said my name mostly with hatred and scorn in their voice

parent degraded and humiliated me in front of others for fun

parent insulted and devalued something really important to me

parent deprived me of something that meant the world to me

parent yelled and swore at me in anger more than once

parent blamed me for things that were out of my control/not my fault

parent shamed me for my physical appearance

parent guilt-tripped me for not pleasing them well enough

parent regarded me as a burden, and shamed me for needing them at all

parent insisted I couldn’t take a joke after I got hurt from their insults

parent never comforted me/got angry if I reached for comfort

parent punished me for crying/showing fear/showing trauma symptoms

parent humiliated me for showing excitement and happiness

parent subtly let me know that my feelings and my problems don’t matter

parent got angry at me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent blamed me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent compared me to cousins/other children to prove how I’m the worst

parent decided for me how I feel when it was convenient for them

parent told me that I was crazy/delusional/need to be locked away

parent threatened me with kicking me out/sending away if I don’t change

parent refused to accept my sexuality/tried to force it to change (gender but same deal)

parent required for me to act normal to protect family’s reputation

parent isolated me from family activities they all enjoy

parent assured me that nobody will ever want me

parent insisted that I was lucky and that I could have had it much worse

parent made me responsible for their well being and made me the caretaker

parent insisted that their harmful acts were all made “out of love”

parent demanded me to be available for their requests at any time

parent punished me for trying to establish boundaries

parent destroyed my belongings as a revenge

parent made inappropriate sex jokes and comments in my presence

parent denied doing any of this and insists that all the blame is on me

Psychological Abuse

parent kept pointing out my flaws as proofs that I wont achieve anything

parent called me stupid, incompetent, ignorant, while withholding information that I needed to know in order to complete tasks

parent would change their side of the agreement in crucial moment and then pretend it was obvious from the start

parent stalked me/distrusted me without any reason/invaded my privacy

parent attacked my insecurities and vulnerabilities in any argument

parent forced me into degrading actions while they watched me do it

parent threatened to leave me

parent accused me regularly of behaving the way they did

parent never acknowledged, praised or approved of my actions

parent always demanded they are right without any proof/explanation

parent insisted that they’re a great parent using financial support as proof

parent insisted that I should be grateful for how good they are to me

parent gaslighted me and tried to make me believe my memories weren’t real if I confronted them with what they did

Neglect

parent didn’t notice I haven’t been eating properly

parent didn’t notice I was sick/didn’t care for me while I was sick

parent didn’t notice I was injured

parent didn’t notice I didn’t have clothes/shoes I needed for school

parent didn’t notice I suffered from trauma

parent didn’t notice I was anxious and stressed

parent didn’t notice I was depressed

parent didn’t notice I was cutting myself

parent didn’t notice I was suicidal

parent didn’t notice I was being sexually abused

parent didn’t notice I was being bullied

parent failed to get me medical attention when it was needed

parent failed to teach me the very basics of self care

parent didn’t seem to notice any of my needs and feelings except the absolute minimum I required to survive (hardly even that)

when I notified them of these things, they denied it, accused me of lying, decided it wasn’t happening and/or blamed me for it

Financial Abuse

parent made me feel ashamed for needing money

parent made me feel like I’m a financial burden to them

parent only gave me minimal money to survive

parent made sure I never have a decent amount of money on me

parent took the money I earned from me

parent used the money to blackmail me

parent insisted since they “pay for my stuff” they have the right to control my behaviour and actions

parent had enough money for luxury but kept me without anything

parent refused to get my medicine/get me medical attention because it’s too expensive while they got everything for themselves

parent would keep me anxious over if they would pay my expenses or not

parent would make me do as much work for them as possible before they would pay for a necessity

parent kept me in the dark over family finances even when I was of age

parent would make sure I never have enough money to escape them

#oh man uh. hm. #literally im not kidding TODAY my parents told me I had it so easy compared to them #like. okay. you didnt hit me #congrats on that im sure that was so hard for you?? but like. that doesnt erase the everything else. #they literally started talking about the abuse they went through as kids and I was just like. I cant participate in this conversation. #and then my dad said its because I had it easier and im like. yeah sure well pretend thats why haha #anyway thank you emotional amnesia for allowing me to do this post easily. you suck but ily xx #also there was nothing for *dragging me through the house to get me to do what they wanted* but thats okay ig #also idk what forcefully undressing me and shoving me into shower classifies as either #so like. yk. there is some physical stuff too its just idk what to call either of those #oh also for the food one its bc I was allergic to the stuff they were feeding me and I told them that but they didnt listen!! #so pretty epic double whammy there #OH AND my mom would tell me after every fight *you better not be telling people about this* #to the point that I stopped telling people because I was scared she would find it and freak out #alsoalso the only reason she knew I was sh-ing was because she read my texts and then she demanded me to tell her everything about it #so she could *help me* or whatever. and then she promptly never brought it up again as if it never happened #so a lot of weird as fuck shit idk #also the way she checked my texts to make sure I was okay but didnt notice me being groomed online lol #and instead just taunted me about the crush I had that she found out about through that. fucking. okay. #okay thats enough oversharing I will just hit post now hehe

[bakerysnake]

so i got my computer taken away and i don't have any other devices of my own 😐

#snake::fromsnake'sdiary #there's a vent later in the tags #i'm currently using a different browser with built in vpn in case my dad is tracking my computer or smth #said i wasn't studying well #(which i haven't been as much as before; he's right) #and i cried 😐 #but he didn't change the password; which i'm so thankful for #and i get it back for 30 minutes a day twice during break; 45 or so once a day when i've got school #so um yeah i'll be less active #which i was gonna do anyways cause summer break is over but i got stuck in this situation instead #fucking annoyed but it is what it is #if i wanna listen to music with headphones i have to do it in my mom's room where she can see what i'm doing #and my music will be playing out loud from right outside my room instead of inside it #annoyed annoyed annoyed #and my mind keeps going; you would've had to do this eventually anyways #which is true but it's getting excessive and i want it to shut up #let me vent a little #it's just telling me i would've had to do this at some point anyways and then that the reason i got caught is all my fault #and then everything's my fault #shut up mind

[kuiinncedes]

:P

#no one: my dad: takes one short look at the work i'm doing which is like putting stuff into a database and involves googling a lot of stuff #'this is all ur doing for ur work ur just searching stuff no communication with others no gjadjfbnfhgjdghwurglf' #what am i supposed to say to that lmfao #the way i wanted to be like L I T E R A L L Y who the fuck asked stfu #why u out here minimizing the work i'm doing for no reason #how do you fucking know what i'm doing for my work you looked at my screens for two seconds than k you so much #;alksdnfgjkshdbfbsgbfjvgcjfdfk #i haven't been the best at explaining it to him when he's asked me before but like #lowkey this is why bc i feel like ur gonna fucking judge me when i do lmfao #or i feel like he always asks like #like how does this relate to what you wanna do as a career or whatever i'm just like I DON'T KNOW!!!!!! WHY AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO KNOWWWWW #can't i just do this work bc i think it's important and i like the team and i like the purpose of the work #do i need to fucking know exactly how this ties into my entire life bc i can tell ya rn it probably doesn't #i dont know what the fuck i wanna do i dont know what the fuck i am doing currently lmfao #:))) anyway it's fine lol #just had to do a lil rant bc he just said that so unsolicited and just annoyed me lmfao #NO ONE ASKED!!!!! WHAT WAS THE POINT!!!!!!! WHEN U SEE ME CURRENTLY WORKING AND THEN BE LIKE 'THIS IS ALL U DO?' TF DO U WANT ME TO DO LMAO #my brothers a fucking lifeguard wb him ..... 'this is all u do for ur work just sit in a chair for hours' #it's not really comparable i guess bc he hasn't started college yet but yeah lol #wbu father this is all u do for ur work just talk to ppl idk lmfao #jeanne talks

[filmcel]

i’m the fool for thinking this guy is scared of me bc he likes me no he’s scared of me bc he could b my dad =_=

#that’s a huge exaggeration he could not b my dad at all. #i just thot it’d b funny to say that sorry sorry #captain’s log #I wanna b so positive about it and then i remember and then i’m like wel fuck who cares and then i’m like I CARE #anyway uhhhh. i think this will continue until it becomes a real problem for me #aka my friends murder me #whatever . yolo ! Hehehehe! #i do enjoy having that feeling that a guy is more scared of me that i’m scared of him #but also…. why is he scared is probably not a good reason #by probably i mean definitely #anyway um …. yeah im scared of him actually that’s just not true at all to say i’m not #but!……he’s still more of me. so that’s a win for me regardless #hes scared i can’t tell when he’s joking #BUDDY THATS U THATS LITERALLY UUUUUUU #HE GETS SCARED EACH TIME I JOKE ABOUT ANYTHING #BUDDY ITS OKAYYYYY!!!!!!! #it’s actually scary talking to him KNOWING the TRUTH. #i think i might be leading him on #i SHOULD b leading him to jump off a fucking cliff tbh! … byeee!!!! #tbh my issue is . i love talking i love guys. i love being a silly freak. #but guys aren’t attracted to me so i don’t usually get to that point #this rare instance is one that’s fucked for me . except i still wanna be silly and fun and etc. #bc it makes me happy bc i love attention and i love making guys uncomfortable #someone dissect my brain should i retire #fuck this guy i need a silly baka who understands my jokes….🚬 #What’s wrong w having a guy u occasionally text can’t i have my own personal mystic messenger #Like genuinely! #my friend keeps saying we r ‘talking’ and i understand what she’s implying #but i talk to many ppl and it’s not much different than this #just bc HE likes me doesn’t mean we r ‘talking’

[yourknightinshiningplastic]

made a joke the other day in dollar tree and my mom got all. like she does about jokes. basically one of them has pride stuff and my mom was wondering why and I said "maybe they're homophobic idk" and she said "well they can't do that it's discrimination".

#anyway my constant worries that my parents might think im gay are for nothing i think #guy told me happy pride at cosco (i had a rainbow hand fan) and she told me 'even tho youre not gay' after he walked away #and she asked if i knew why he said that (insinuating that he was gay like im some kind of dumbass) #then she told my dad and he said 'well shes not gay' and then mom said 'yeah but he was' #so i think it is all right #they have plenty of reason to i always lied about not liking boys (they teased me about it I didnt like it) #and you'd think by now they would be like 'she hasn't grown out of not liking boys maybe she likes girls' (i like both actually) #but no #they have no idea #because i don't fit their image of gay #my mother has literally told ppl yeah she likes her rainbows and srsly not suspect a thing #i mean i don't really want them to know im sure they wouldn't really mind #i just know theyd use it against me #my mom calls my brother slurs sometimes just because shes mad at him #she used to say them to my cats too #even tho she claims that 'ppl shouldn't say those words' #she literally uses gay as a synonym for shitty #(and the r slur and faggot as well) #basically shes one of those ppl that says theres nothing with it idc if you're gay or straight but then points it out #shes also said it doesn't matter if youre black or white or purple but then acts racist #my dad isn't much better hes just not as loud about it all the time #okay im done for now #winona has something to say