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heyitssashag · 6 months

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Happy Sunday!

Today I:

Went for a 6.5km walk

Stopped at the cafe for a decaf oat milk latte. It’s was really good. Haven’t had one of those in a while.

Had groceries delivered.

Did some house cleaning.

I also watched part of the church service online but their usual pastor wasn’t delivering the sermon. The topic was about marriage. It started to irk me. Especially when they kept going on about it being only between a “man and a woman” blah, blah, blah. Love is Love. They could leave the Bible quotes out and change it to be more inclusive for everyone.

Marriage may exist between two people who love each other. The end.

So instead, I wrote in my prayer journal and prayed. I feel comforted believing a higher power is out there listening. I know that higher power loves everyone equally. Unless you’re someone like Hitler or a pedophile, no life is more worthy or important than another.

Anyway, before I step off my soapbox, I also wanted to mention my sister sent me a very negative article about Covid vaccines and asked me what I thought about it. It really bothered me that she even had to ask. I’m not going to get into the article because I feel like we could all do a Google search and find a million different fear-inducing websites about the “dangers of vaccines”. Things like, how they cause cancer, rewrite your DNA or other weird bullshit ideas they conjured up with their “independent testing”. I’m not going to deny that people have dealt with side effects or in extreme cases, have suffered serious vaccine injuries. When we take a big Pharma drug, we all run the risk of having an adverse reaction - thankfully, this isn’t the norm, though. Overall, we can thank vaccines for eradicating some very serious life threatening illnesses.

The article my sister sent quoted a very famous conspiracy theorist and I’m not going to mention his name because I don’t want any more attention brought to him. He’s a fucking fucktard dangerous person who spreads health misinformation. Especially about cancer and vaccines. I’m very tired, exhausted and irritated when I see this garbage circulating and then I have to defend… science.

On a side note, I no longer suggest to anyone that they should get a vaccine unless they work with or are in regularly contact with clinically vulnerable individuals. I think that’s a fairly reasonable expectation. - I’m tired of “educating” people around this. It just goes in one ear and out the other. People will believe and do what they want.

Anyway, I needed to rant. I could write a lot more but I just feel myself getting worked up about it and I don’t think it’s healthy. So, I’m jumping down off my soapbox, now. lol.

I’m almost at the end of season 1 of Ted Lasso and it’s definitely getting better. Once I’ve finished making dinner, I’ll be watching more. I’m enjoying it.

This is like the third day in a row where I looked at the clock and it’s 4:44. Hmmm. Interesting. lol. Which reminds me, if you haven’t watched The Good Place it’s a really good show. The first few episodes were weird but it does get really good. It’s very interesting and makes you think. Especially if you’re interested in philosophy, morality and ethics. Oh, and it’s also funny.

#metastatic breast cancer #sometimes my Tumblr posts turn into a Rantfest but I feel better now and that’s all that matters right?#blogging on my blog

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songbird-oracle · 3 days

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Vent post, TW Seizures:

It’s so frustrating being chronically ill, being disabled, and being told that nothing can be done about it.

“If you seize for over five minutes, call 911”

I constantly seize for over 5 minutes. After having 3 back to back seizures all over 30 minutes, and two other seizures later that day without warning, I went to the ER who told me “take your anti-depressants. Everything looks fine”.

I get that I’m not epileptic, I get that my seizures are non-epileptic. But they’re long and painful and disabling. I lose my memory, I aspirate, I contort and convulse. Anti-depressants aren’t going to help that. Especially when I feel perfectly fine, I’m just sending a text and then I fall and seize for 37 minutes!

I try not to complain. I try to grin and bear it. I know that’s all I can do. But it’s frustrating. I was doing better. I was getting better. And now suddenly I’m worse than ever before. It’s so discouraging. And I ask my neurologists for opinions and they say “take the anti-depressants, call us back, go to the ER”. The ER says, “your labs are fine, go home.”. All I’m asking is “can I go back to work this week or not?”

The anti depressants aren’t helping the seizures either. Tried that.

I’m tired of being told I can’t do anything. I’m tired of getting better and then getting worse. I’m tired of not being listened to. I’m tired.

Anyways, I’ll hop off my soapbox.

To anyone else who feels trapped by their chronic illnesses and disabilities, I see you. I understand you. I’m so sorry you have to go through what you’re going through. You’re not alone.

Stay strong.

#spoonie #spoonie witch #chronically ill #fnd #pots #pnes #hEDS #disabled #invisible disabilities are real #invisible disability #fuck chronic illness #fuck chronic pain

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m0tel6mxzzy · 1 year

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amy winehouse + oversimplification of addiction

// tw addiction + ed ment //

really kinda grinds my gears when ppl act as if amy winehouse like…could’ve still been alive had she never met blake. i think that’s a gross way to simplify how addiction works.

i do personally believe he is not responsible for her death even if he played a role in enabling her, but what ppl need to realize is…mental illness does not have a magic on/off button that shuts off if u never meet certain people.

both blake and amy struggled with depression, which is why they identified with each other so well. considering they were on and off, there is a huge possibility both of them never really had anyone who understood their depression and despite their issues, that’s always why they came back to each other on and off.

and i do hope blake is well and do not wish him suffering for having gone through addiction and constantly blamed for “causing” amy’s. nor do i wish mitch suffering because he enabled her for the sake of touring—this heavily impacted amy, but at the same time there’s a guarantee w/ the way he and her mother treated her bulimia (which i’m not excusing, but nothing can be done) he had no tools of support to know how to help her as compared to rehab.

amy still had bulimia (which was never intervened by her parents, getting to the point where her entire studio knew she had a problem, and this was around her early to late 20s) for 12+ years before her death.

she never recieved help for that and could have died any moment even without drugs and alcohol present. she already was predisposed to certain mental issues unfortunately that were never properly resolved, and it did not help that the culture in the time period she was raised in was heavily stigmatizing toward depression and nonchalant about eating disorders.

it did not help that she was constantly mocked for her appearance and people based the state of her health on her weight, when amy had health issues that likely wouldn’t be known unless she admitted it since she was a teenager even during her frank era where people say she was “healthier” because she hadn’t yet developed substance abuse.

and i really don’t like defining her as one of the other—she was a person at the end of the day. she is not her health, the causes/factors of death, nor is she whoever ppl scapegoat for her illness instead of the fact: addictions of all kinds are not always success stories. even when someone is recovered or appears to be, amy was still struggling and always had been, but she also had music in her life as an outlet which was incredibly wonderful.

i know ppl would’ve liked some story in which she was better without blake and loved completely free of addiction, but she was still all the more valid as a human being and worthy of basic respect even during her relapses. and the media didn’t give that to her until they could profit off pretending they didn’t make shit worse for her. people simply do not treat those with addiction well (in some cases) unless there is a success story to self gratify themselves with because you haven’t endured it yourself and that person “became” more like you, or a tragedy to learn from. people don’t need to be your lessons. they can just be people.

point blank, at one point in time this talented woman was on this earth, went thru a lot of fucked shit with zero resources, and did the best she could. music was an outlet for her, and that was amazing she found something that made her happy.

anyway i’m off my soapbox. if you want to know more abt amy, watch the 2015 amy docu. may your memory be a blessing amy. i hope you know there’s ppl, even if it took quite a while, who understand + have compassion for you. <3

#sorry to bother but this is a really passionate subject to me esp bc i’ve dealt w loved ones were are/were addicts too #amy winehouse #tw ed mention #tw addiction mention

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sinisterexaggerator · 2 years

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Shriv Suurgav meets Cad Bane at Maz’s Castle

Sketch commissioned from the AMAZING Stormytitan!

This is a scene from my WIP: To err on the side of caution; or, “Look! I’m taking another enormous risk!”

Chapter 1 is posted, more to come! [AO3]

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Shriv recalled having one too many Parkellan Slings, finding himself up on his soapbox, talking to anyone who would listen about the atrocities of the Empire and the travesties they had committed against Duro and his species.

“Who does the “Emperor” think he is?!! – A dried up Sriluurian raisin if you ask me.” Yes, he stooped that low. Shriv wasn’t one to unjustly pick on someone for their personal appearance, but this guy deserved it.

“Star Destroyers – pfft. More like compensation for something, amiright? Just how big can you make them, hmm?” Shriv wouldn’t know what that was like.

“And why would you give your infantry white armor, anyway? Anyone can spot a Stormtrooper from a mile away – what about the element of surprise? Is that supposed to be some kind of power move?” Honestly, either this guy Palpatine was a genius, or a masochist who liked to watch his own soldiers die – maybe both, considering plastoid was a terrible aesthetic and functional choice in terms of battle armor.

It seemed Shriv was getting under a few people’s skin or microscales - his friends had warned him to keep it down. He didn’t listen, naturally, turning on a Duros in the corner who had his feet propped up nonchalantly while chewing lazily on a toothpick. A little droid had been idly chattering away into his inner ear until Shriv felt the need to interrupt to get this man’s sentiment. They were the same species! Surely he would back him up!

“Hey, you! Old-timer wearing the excessively large hat! You get it, right!? It’s kriffed up what they did to us!” It was beyond a normal or acceptable circumference as far as hats would go, and Shriv couldn’t understand why he’d want to conceal himself behind it; it’s purpose – did it have one? Did he think it added something to his already distinctive, somewhat threatening appearance?

I’d look kriffin’ asinine wearing something like that! - Why do I feel like I know this Duros? - Just where the hells does this guy shop? Where do you even BUY a hat that big?

Normally, he wouldn’t have been so brazen in referring to an elder Duros in such a careless, ill-mannered fashion, but alcohol did something to Shriv; that’s why he usually stayed away from it. People already seemed to think he was no fun to be around, and much less so when the filter that so loosely bridled him vanished resolutely into the ether somewhere at the consumption of a few distilled beverages.

That toothpick swiveled to the corner of this Duros’ mouth, his neck craning upward as he took in Shriv with a gaze that scrutinized, his brow ridge having curved inward to impress a scowl across his face. “S’a nice haat.”

Oh, so that’s why he wanted to hide … He had one mean mug, though Shriv wasn’t that put-off by him, at least at first. He wasn’t anymore terrifying than those stories of the cannibal arachnids they told back on Duro, anyway.

Thank Maker they all went extinct before I was born…

“Did I say excessively large hat? I meant just the right size.”

Apprehensive? Sure. Overly cautious? Absolutely. But afraid?

The Duros had shifted, placing his feet upon the ground. He unfolded his arms and stood, rising like a gangly scarecrow to a height that would tower over a field of corn and him the crow. Shriv swallowed, realizing he had two blasters holstered at his hips and something he hadn’t noticed before; forearm gauntlets with a plethora of buttons; too many to take a count, and rocket thrusters attached to his … boots, apparently. There was a menace in his crimson, horizontal eyes that chilled Shriv’s green blood by a few degrees, his instincts driving him to take a step backward for no reason other than he was invading his personal space.

Ah, kriff, you’ve done it now.

OK, yes. Afraid.

Well, not so much afraid … but maybe more like, intimidated.

“I mean, it makes sense if you think about it, as you have such a large head. You need a bigger hat.”

A few people had glanced around; some laughed. Maz tsked, thinking this idiot was going to get himself killed before the sun came up.

“Not you in particular, I just meant … Duros. Duros would need larger hats compared to other humanoid hat wearing species with heads not as large as… ours, though you are the first I’ve seen to wear such an unusual piece.”

Oh boy, you really backed yourself into a corner with that one.

“Not unusual in a bad way… Of course, I think my head’s even bigger than yours if it makes you feel any better! It’d just make me look…ridiculous. That’s to be expected… not that… you look ridiculous.”

The other Duros had stood there, glaring, but not saying a single word. He bared his fangs in a display of irritation before he removed his toothpick and callously flicked it on the floor.

Well, that’s a bit unsanitary…

His fingers had moved; latched onto the edge of his no-fight holsters lined with fresh gas cartridges and power cells – he had enough to take out an entire army. Shriv wondered what he required all that ammunition for.

“You know, you kind of look familiar. Have I seen you somewhere before? Wanted posters, maybe?”

“Master Bane, remember the rules! Maz does not approve of fighting in her castle!” the little droid piped up.

Holy karkin’ snot! That’s why he looks so familiar!

“On closer inspection, I’ve never seen you before in my life …”

Shut. Up. Just shut up, Shriv!!”

“Can’nit, Todo. D’ere wouldn’t be’a fight … just’a quick death, dat’s all.”

Take a deep breath. Deeeeep breath.

“I am so sorry. I meant no disrespect. I am not deserving of your time, believe me – just a worthless Duros pleading for his life at this very moment - in case you were unaware that’s what this is - me, pleading, before none other than the greatest bounty hunter of all time. - It’s a pleasure to meet you, by the way… A living legend with an impeccable sense of style might I add.” The first part was true, but he could only hope the sarcasm dripping off his lack of lips in regard to his fashion choices was masked by the flighty, psychological response that was kicking on in the background. Surely Cad Bane could smell his stress levels.

“You could rival my old buddy, Lando! He favors a cape, though. Ever thought about wearing one?” Now he was just rambling; past the point of redemption - he talked too much – stream of consciousness – Shriv could hardly help it; sometimes his internal dialogue just … escaped. Something he might find himself needing to do rather abruptly in the next few minutes, give or take – that, or patiently await his demise.

“I suppose it might uh… just get in your way… not very … useful…”

Lando’s cape sure as hell isn’t useful.

“This fellow’s all right, Bane – just doesn’t know when to be quiet! You should listen to your droid. He’s smart.” Maz had stared the other Duros down without a hint of fear. Shriv applauded her, mentally, realizing he needed to reign himself in a bit and that he was perhaps lucky he wasn’t dead already.

Cad Bane had growled low, a sound issuing forth from the recess of his throat. He turned to Maz, regarded her, then back to the man who couldn’t keep his trap shut as the droid named Todo chirped.

“Well, at least someone appreciates me.” Shriv felt like he could relate to that.

Try to cover your tracks a little better this time, huh Suurgav?

“What I meant to say before all that other stuff was … Duros just can’t catch a break, huh? You look like you’ve got a few stories to tell! What do you think about all this?”

Cad Bane had not hesitated. “Duro’s a sscughole – but de Empire will fall as Empire’s al’ways do – you sso angry, mebbe y’should step up t’da plate an’ quit yer yappin’ – get off yer chubbies an’ make yerself wurth sometin’ since you’re so… wurthless.”

“Well, when you put it that way…” Shriv had homed in on his accent; it was unique. He thought he must be from some dreadful place like New Tayana that he had never had the pleasure of visiting - he was a “Capital City Slicker” and somewhat grateful for it. He had been “raised right” without any of his wants or needs having to go unfulfilled, yet far from spoiled – to use Human terminology, perhaps he was “middle class.”

“You might be onto something, er, sir.”

That’s two in one day … It -has- to be a sign.

He had watched sheepishly as Cad Bane paid his tab, tipped his giant hat to the proprietor of the establishment. His little droid followed him outside as he called back to Maz, waving his fingers in the air above the wide brim of that ungainly bolero atop his head. “Keep outta trouble, lil’ lady – an’ teach dat boy t’learn when t’shut up b’fore he gehets ‘imself mur’dered in ‘is ssleep.”

He had insulted Cad Bane and lived to tell the tale. “Was that a – was that a threat? Should I be… worried?” he had whispered to the pirate queen.

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juriyuna · 2 years

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Juri for the ask thing!

HER..........

Why I like them: Jeez, where do I start? She's probably my favorite Arc 2 girl. Y'know when people talk about how they have an absolute terror of a dog that they still love to bits anyway, even if it chews on everything, barks all the time, yanks on the leash, and constantly gets into trouble? That's how I feel about Juri, haha. I love her for how much of a badly-behaved mutt she is. Her personality isn't always the best, and she's not very bright, but she has a good heart and loves her friends and family.

I really like how they subverted the "angry fire-themed character" trope for her (more on that below). It's also cute how easily excited she is, and how invested she gets in cheesy romance and shonen manga. :') Plus her design and voice are both great.

... and maybe it sounds funny to say this, but she's surprisingly relatable??? She experiences emotions at 0 or 100 with little in-between, gets agitated and stressed having to sit in class, struggles with studying because the words on the page Just Will Not Stick, forgets important assignments, and apparently shows up late to things often enough that Ao teases her about it. idk if Juri's "sickness" (unspecified canon mental illness) is supposed to be ADHD, but F4 nailed it anyway. RIP juri i know it sucks

Why I don't: ... I can't think of anything! Even the shitty stuff she's done was interesting from a story standpoint.

Favorite episode (scene if movie): There are a few others I love (CR and her MSS), but I'm gonna go with this:

because holy shit, just-- everything about this scene. Internal screaming over the CG aside, I think it's one of the best dives into Juri's character in the game. Yuna finds Juri about to attempt suicide, tackles her down to stop her, and Juri still tries to laugh it off as a misunderstanding despite how obvious it was.

Eventually, after some prying ("Do you really think our relationship is one where you can pull the wool over my eyes, Juri…?"), she concedes that... yeah, she was trying to kill herself, and says:

Juri: "…To be honest, havin' me out of the picture would be a huge plus for Futatsugi right now. [...] I've always been a troublemaker, and I can't control my power when it builds up."

Juri: "When our fight with Kamihama is done, I knew I'd wanna try to kill you again. You're tryin' to hold everything together, and I'm just getting in the way."

Sure, she acts all "too cool to care", but deep down, she hates herself more than anything. She feels like all she's good for is causing trouble and hurting everyone around her. The reason she lashes out so often is because violence is the only way she knows how to vent the stress and energy from her "sickness". She can't even see a future for herself because her "sickness" causes her so many problems. It doesn't sound like she had any real friends growing up- she even says in her Kagome interview that hanging out with PB has changed her outlook on life. But now that she has close friends for the first time, she's scared of dragging them all down with her "sickness". She thinks that the only way everyone's gonna get to live in peace is if she's gone, and struggles to process the idea that she could ever change.

Gonna awkwardly soapbox for a minute here, but... I've been there. I've gone "between my anxiety and ADHD mood swings, I'm never gonna be able to function in society, so what's the point in going on?" more times than I can count. Nothing feels as hopeless as being stuck with a shitty brain. You ever get mad at yourself for getting mad too easily, then get stuck in a neverending feedback loop of rage? The writers really captured that feeling here.

It's painful from a pure storytelling/character perspective, as well as from a #relatable perspective. I almost never cry over games, but man if this didn't try to get me close. Juri needs a hug. ;;

Favorite season/movie: She's only in Arc 2, so, uh, that.

Favorite line: Again, she has a lot of good ones! But this time I'll pick her Awaken 3 quote:

"Yeah, I killed a bunch of people. Selfish? Maybe. Point is, they're part of the reason I keep the flames burning, and it's why I can't afford to lose. That's why I call myself Juri the Great. Sure, it's a bluff, but it keeps me strong 'til the bitter end."

Between this and "I'm gonna make this city a place where magical girls never have to fight to the death again" at the end of CR, I'm (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`) JURI!!! knowing that she cares so much... that she puffs her chest up and drives herself to keep winning so that all the lives she had to take won't be in vain.....

Favorite outfit: I've always liked her magical girl outfit! Before I got into Arc 2, I thought the wings and tail were part of her outfit, but learning that they're part of a little dragon-shaped backpack made them even better. It's fun; it suits her.

OTP: [rrips my fuckign shirt off] JURIYUNA!!! AAAAAAAAH I love everything about them...... it is incredibly compelling to see how their relationship grows and changes- for better or worse- through the course of CR, their MSSes, and the main story. They simultaneously bring out both the best and worst in each other, but still come back to each other over and over.

It's... endearing, in a way, how much Juri relies on Yuna. Probably not exactly healthy, but man. The way half of Juri's life revolves around Yuna, to the point where she literally breaks down crying when Yuna says "I'm not fighting you while you're injured" in CR... The fact that she straight-up says she "belongs" to Yuna... When her teacher gave her some ice cream to share with her friends, and she immediately started smiling to herself thinking about bringing Yuna a surprise present..... That Juri's doppel quote is "Encouraging unfettered atrocity is love"....... Absolutely perfect disaster couple. ;_;

Brotp: Juri+Ranka! Every scene between them is a delight, honestly. They have such a fun dynamic together. Before they even knew each other's names, Juri jumped in to fight arguably the most ruthless magical girl in Futatsugi (possibly along with the other Monzenbashi lackeys) because the Bat made Ranka cry. They've been ride or die from the start, haha.

Also-- that scene in CR where Juri is sulking alone after losing a fight, trying to tell Ranka that she should give up on her too, and Ranka tells her she's not leaving... Actually, the scene where Ranka talks Juri down from a suicide mission is cute too. They butt heads a lot because they're both bad-tempered, but they're so good for each other.

Headcanon: A small, kinda silly headcanon I have is that her dad is/was involved with the yakuza. When she was a kid, when her dad had to be away from home for a bit, one or two of the other gang members would come over to look after her. She never thought anything about the fact that her babysitters were always shady-looking dudes covered in wild tattoos because she was like, 5. But now she's got a bunch of badass honorary uncles, which she thinks is pretty damn cool. (yuna finds out and is like "ah. that certainly explains a lot.")

Unpopular opinion: idk how unpopular this is as I live in a hole away from most of the fandom, but: While she was a villain for the first 7 chapters, she reads as more "traumatized kid with untreated mental illness" than straight-up a bad person. She wants to change (although she doesn't know how/if she can), which makes her absolutely redeemable in my eyes. (The first step to fixing a problem is admitting you have a problem, after all!)

A wish: Please... let her learn that things are gonna get better... let her see that she's not a lost cause... ;_;

An oh-god-please-don't-ever-happen: If she dies (even if it's to save Ao), I'm gonna be... I don't know. It'd leave a really bad taste in my mouth after she said "I'm never gonna have a future because of my sickness; nobody's ever gonna be happy as long as I'm around". Killing her off would feel antithetical to PMMM/magireco's message of "even when everything feels bleak, there's still hope".

It doesn't seem super likely, since 1) it'd end up feeling like a rehash of Sakuya and Yuna in ch.7, and 2) Juri dying would probably push Ao even further off the deep end, but the possibility is still there.

5 words to best describe them: My Baby Needs Advanced Therapy

My nickname for them: Just "Juri"; I don't generally have fun nicknames for characters, aha.

#dear god this got long #came down with a case of Blathers the Owl #magia record #ooba juri #hc post #long post #asks

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zanathan-aisling · 11 months

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absolutely fucking hilarious to me (aka i'm actually no joke mad whenever i think about it) that a "maligned" yuri bracket that as the creator admits started about lesser known or disliked femslash just about IMMEDIATELY derailed as soon as the creator allowed leniency for "oh well a lot of people seem under the impression that something is 'maligned' (synonyms: vilified, slandered, infamous) if its UNIVERSALLY FUCKING BELOVED by the fandom but the story itself gets in the way of it for reasons ranging from "author is a dipshit" (perhaps a valid reason to consider it maligned) to "its a fucking tragedy and the fact they can't just live happily is MEANT TO BE SEEN AS FUCKING SAD *YOU ARE THE DIPSHIT HERE*" so like, all these polls are just popularity anyway so who can say if "most popular out of a succession of lesser-known, shitty, not-shitty-but-people-act-like-it-is, etc" is any more meaningful than "literally just the most popular ship we put on the bracket. like you could've answered this without even doing the polls just go over the initial bracket and choose the most dedicated fanbase and extrapolate"" and now its just a succession of Farcille sweeping every single matchup despite the fact that i've never met a single fucking person worth caring about who actually dislikes it. like i assume the pervs who just write the usual isekai monster x innocent girl "fanart" (...did they even read it...?????? i kinda feel like they got maybe 2 volumes in lmao. fake fans) don't really care for it but who gives a shit about them they should die. its not unpopular in the slightest aside from *probably* i assume overexposure or the one sad little laios x marcille shipper sitting in the corner who doesn't simultaneously also ship farcille in that kinda wierd freudian-isn't-the-right-word way that makes my stomach churn. FUCK THESE SENTENCES BRO WHY DO I WRITE LIKETHIS ok i wrote ahead but didn't address a point bc i my skull turned off but- Farcille doesn't even get like, morality discoursed much??? Like theres always those ships out there which are popular but get picked apart for potential patterns of abuse or unhealthy behavior or if you *think* about it Adora and Catra were both raised by the same (nonconsentually adoptive) parental figure which can make it incest Which Is An Argument That I Struggle With Completely Disregarding Because Of The Subset Of Incest Shippers That Do In Fact Take It That Way (But As A Positive), y'know. that kinda shit. Not even getting into the cases where a ship is more unambiguously fucking bad on a morality standpoint fandom popular or not. I could use this opportunity to soapbox but I won't.

hell even some of the contestants that actually have some leg to stand on are still an ill fit - kyosaya is from Madoka, which means that while fans can feel whatever way they please there Is a certain malicious element to their existence which isn't just excusable as "part of the tragedy/conflict", but its STILL one of the two "heavy hitter" ships outta the original series's fanbase (i don't know dick all about magia record). HELL madohomu at least gets the "is there discourse about it being dysfunctional/abusive/one-or-the-other-involved-painted-as-a-predator" treatment, despite being like... THE relationship the series itself fucking circles around. idk maybe madohomu was in there and i didn't notice. still wouldn't really fit though (maybe back in 2014....)

anyways delia x jessie would belong on there more than like 90% of the bracket just for the "they're basically canon" sweep-kerfuffle (if they WERE in this bracket. lol lmao that'd be hilarious actually wonder who they lost to)

#zannies giant brain #apologies to what i presume is the vast majority of my mutualsbase who've only ever heard about this bracket #from me complaining about it

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jadedaceofspades · 10 months

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So, as a lot of people know, I had seen a psychiatrist and I am not ashamed to tell people. In fact, I urge people to seek out help if they feel like something is really off about them mentally. Mental illness and disorders should NOT be stigmatized, particularly personality disorders, cluster Bs even more so.

I need people to understand that just because your partner or ex or parent or friend or whatever showed the same symptoms of someone with a personality disorder, you cannot just go around calling them those things. These are disorders that need a medical diagnosis. Yes, your partner MIGHT have been a narcissist, but until they actually get diagnosed, calling them a narcissist is not correct because those words are strictly attributed to personality disorders. Narcissist is attributed with narcissistic personality disorder, sociopath is attributed to antisocial personality disorder and schizo is attributed to the three types of Cluster A personality disorders.

You literally cannot just look at a website, look up symptoms and armchair diagnose someone. That's literally ableism. What is ALSO ableism is to say that ALL people with personality disorders are abusive and do not care about people. I'm so tired of going into the NPD SAFE tag and seeing people trying to demonize people like me and then try to backpedal and play the victim when they get called out on their bullshit. What the fuck did you think was going to happen? You really thought we weren't gonna say something?

Anyway, I'm gonna get off my soapbox now about this because I have a headache dealing with these people. Like, I'm sincerely sorry that you were abused, but for you to blame ALL of us? Fuck you.

#actually npd #npd safe

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bloodyke · 2 years

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1, 2, 21, 22 for the ask game!!

1. whats your favorite thing to rant/ramble about?

okay so i have autism AND adhd so i have a lot of opinions and things to say about almost everything so i go on nightly 1-2 hour rant about whatever topic i feel like and my parents just have to listen to it lmaooo. some topics that come up a lot tho are my favorite pieces of media (i.e cql/mdzs, vampire fiction, ptg, games i played recently, movies i watched recently, etc etc), my oc lore, new marine bio/astrophysics/science facts i learned, things that piss me off, and politics (which is usually inder the things that piss me off category)

for example tonight i ranted about how much i hate new age spirituality/wicca/metaphysical manifestation stuff and how its all right wing racist appropriation conspiracy bs which turned into me talking about various LEGITIMATE folk religions and practices that ive been researching which turned into me talking about creatures in those practices that scare me which turned into me ranting about how terrible horror movies are recently which turned into me ranting baout how terrible horror video games are recently which FINALLY turned into me explaining the entire plot and mechanics of Pathologic and why it is ranked as one of my top three games of all time despite it being objectively One Of The Worst Video Game Experiences Of All Time (which was done on purpose by the developers theatre of cruelty style)

2. do you have any oddly specific love languages?

i have two! one is if we are in close physical proximity to you i will learn what your specific like superstition? not the word im looking for but whatever ANYWAYS ill learn what superstition you have about good luck/having a good day and whenever i see you're having a bad day ill sneakily arrange for that thing to happen to you so you feel better

like for example if you think that finding a penny in your pocket means you're gonna have a good day ill sneak a penny into your pocket!

my second one is i LOVE making gift packages for people i care about like if i find stuff that reminds me of said person i will collect them so i can send a big bundle of stuff their way! and it doesn't necessarily have to be stuff i bought like ive personally sent you flowers that i pressed myself and ive sent sandy bread i baked from scratch with a handwritten letter on paper i made myself etc etc etc it just makes me happy to give people a whole package of stuff perfectly tailored for them

21. whats a random piece of advice you want to give?

theres a lot i can say here that ive typed and deleted a bunch of times bc i couldnt choose just one thing to say and i also didn't want to get up on a soapbox and start preaching so i guess ill just leave it as: nice is not the same thing as kind, kind is not the same thing as correct, nice and kind are not the same things as just. you do not have to be polite or kind to be good and sometimes to do the right thing it is necessary to be abrasive/rude/a bitch

22. do you like wearing nail polish?

i like the idea of nail polish but in reality i physically cannot stand the sensation 😔😔😔

#answered #i hope the advice one makes sense i can elaborate more if you need me too

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park-jimin-isnt-real · 1 year

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ugh I didn’t like Jackson before but now I hate him. He’s manipulating, gaslighting, forcing mc to be emotionally dependent on him. It’s so painful that she’s so desperate for his concern when he’s generally derogatory about her ability to think, and apparently micromanages her gown to the amount she eats. She’s mad at Jin now because he’s controlling her, but at least (in my opinion) he actually cares and he’s being relatively honest about what he’s trying to do even if he’s going about it in mistaken ways. It kinda frustrates me that she doesn’t realize that Jackson is ten times more controlling and toxic than Jin. Is someone going to have to sit down and therapy session style explain it to her? (Actually I deal with people who insist that I need to continue to rely on them because I’m not capable. And it does feel like they’re preventing me from developing any independence and I have much less freedom than many of my friends my age… so this chapter sort of🤨😬😥? I realized saying this makes me sound like reeeally young. Like I should have been saying this at 16 or 18 years old , but that was a while ago) I had to smile at vmin doing vmin mischief, it fits perfectly. Is poor Tae going to have to go dumpster diving? And Jimin better stop before she stops being able to ignore his Ill-timed seducing and snaps🤣

Omg I'm so sorry you've had to go thru that 😔

I was talking with my husband about eot the other day, asking him for his opinions and "does this sound realistic?" and in talking about this specific chapter I learned that I naturally have a very codependent personality and am prone to becoming abused, much in the same ways our darling mc has been with Jackson. Actually, my parents exhibited a lot of the same mind games and manipulations that Jackson shows in the story during my engagement to my husband, and he suspects that's why I'm so good at writing eot. I've been thru it, in a way. But writing eot had also helped me heal some of that trauma, and I imagine that by the time I'm done, maybe I still won't be totally cured or anything, but I'll have processed a lot of it and have gotten better. And I didn't even realize any of this until I was writing this specific chapter.

Anyway, getting off my soapbox, sorry bout that all too real moment, Jin will mellow out here pretty soon, and MC will slowly start healing emotionally, these things just take time. And vmin was probably my favorite part to write, I talked about it in a previous ask but I really needed their brand of goofiness to help level out this chapter, otherwise it would've been just too dark.

And I have been dying to use yoongi's "a fall from that height won't kill him" line for months now, I'm so happy I finally got a natural place to use it 😂😂 Tae returns her jacket after going on a mini quest that he drags jimin into, and jimin... stays the same honestly 😆 he'll get his comeuppance in a few chapters in what might be my favorite chapter of the story that I have planned

#thank you for reading!!!#my place for stories #asks #answered #eot #tw: abuse #jay screams into the void

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Sigh. Some beach. 🥴🙄🤨🤔🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️🎶

Ya know my loves..... I have to wonder... do people realize how much they limit themselves, & others, when they close themselves off because of labels?

Basically I out nsfw & 🔞 & 21+yo years ago to protect children.

But tumblr went off the deep end with the purge & makes anyone explicit.

Which I am not.

I've only ever been sensual.

Sapio sensuality/sexuality at that.

I really hate labels.

Such as paying for ✔.

Wtfh!?!?!?!?

With the economy in the tank. Inflation going towards the 1970s. About to be in another recession. The housing bubble about to burst again.

Thank God. I despise "gentrification".

I mean where do all the people go????

To the "burbs." And the higher the middle class the more paid for that housing. Pisses me off no end. As I watch people driving cars they can't afford & covered in bling. But yet if no social media nor ...current administration.. they wouldn't be living so high on the hog. So all the working class stiffs out here in the burbs that trudge to work everyday, pay for their lifestyle. Why so many people are out doing things other than working during a weekday!

Oh! & they either 1-can't drive worth shit. 2-are driving without a license/insurance. Or 3-are so living beyond their means that can ill afford a traffic citation. THAT THEY DRIVE EITHER AT OR BELOW THE SPEED LIMIT & create a mile long trail of cars behind them on the single lane state roads around me. Roads that aren't easy to pass people on!

Just flipping gr!!!!

& jimney crickets too!!!!!

Yes. The ✔ & unable to ♡ set me off.🙄🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Yes.

We are.

Headed down the exact same road as the Romans & the Greeks. Jumping off the cliff into things that aren't...

Why does humanity never learn?????!!!!!?????!!!!!

Sigh. Slump. Dejected tail.

God... I am listening.

Yes. This is why I don't like going out & being amongst people anymore. Between traffic, more people at here than have been in 25 yrs, & seeing how they act like sheep & destroy store shelves... then seeing how & what they buy.. grimace. I mean.. whole milk. 🙄🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤨🤔 unless its goat, or human, I have never drunk it but speciality milks. It's no wonder the obesity epidemic. Whole & skim are only different by less than 2% of fat. I'd rather not waste all my calories & daily intake on fat in cows milk. Which is the worst digestive for humans anyways! Yes. Try goats milk before trying lactaid. And there are breeds of goats that make 1 gallon of milk per day! That's supposed to be twice what cows do! Why again did cows milk become the norm? Sigh. Don't get me started on human milk. What we should be drinking! Just. I do a lot of reading & just cannot fathom how people tolerate "factory food." Nor by being lead around by a ring in the nose like sheep. I just don't get it.

Anyways.

Sheepish blushin grin.

How I'm feeling!

Roflmao!

Giggling hysterically!!!!

Ok!

Back to work!

Lmao!

Yes my loves.....

I usually do gifs after writing.

Anywhooo!!!

zip it t!🥴🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤐😏🙊😹

Sheepish blushin hiding face grin.

I love you . . . . .

I am! Yours . . . . .

Even when I get on my soapbox. Yikeees!

~TkP.

☺️😏🤭😹🥨🍳🙊👩‍🏫🕵️‍♀️👩‍🔧🧠📚📖📜🦉

✝️☸⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🤲👣🐾🌂🔗⛓🧰🧣🧤🥾🏔🤓👩‍🏫🕵️‍♀️👷‍♀️🏋️‍♀️🐯🦉🐐🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🌲🧶🧵⌚⚡🌟🌠🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾💫🧭🕯

Tu.1.10.2023 11.03am!

#Spotify

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squarerooto · 3 years

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a lil questionable that the only nonwhite/black heir in clare siobhan's not so berry challenge so far is an evil criminal 🤨

#i guess you could say that the yellow gen heir isnt white since she has kiyoshi's genes but from what i see she has NO asian features which #is also a lil questionable!#am i surprised? no. not at all #i like clare siobhan but her fans need to stop praising her for the ''diversity'' she puts in her game #i know it probably wasnt on purpose but still #anyway ill get off my soapbox #quinn talks #the sims 4 #clare siobhan

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sparring-spirals · 2 years

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Okay, so I recieved an ask discussing Marisha and Taliesin's interactions last ep, and while I'm not going to publish the ask because it has a level of speculation wrt cast relationships/interactions I'm not personally comfortable with, I think the question was genuine, so I'm going to say a few things.

Firstly, to answer the base question: I don't think Laudna's actions were out of character, actually. I've already got some speculations on why this behaviour can be considered new to what we've seen so far, but that's not the same as "out of character". I can think of some reasons that are interesting and add layers of complexity, and honestly: we're still pretty new to Laudna? I'm much more inclined to adjust my understanding of Laudna than feel that it was "out of character".

Secondly- and this is more broad. I think if you find yourself speculating or worrying in-depth about the casts interpersonal feelings, relationships, possible tension or bad blood, etc, its very important, and helpful, to remember a few things:

1- The cast are adults

2- The cast are professionals

3- The cast are friends.

4- The cast are full humans that we don't know personally

5- The cast are not their characters

And I mean this kindly! With Critical Role you devote many hours of your time to watching these people talk, they all roleplay VERY intensely, you might spend a ton of time picking apart and analysing the minutiae of character expressions, speech, interactions. And with the way the cast poke fun at each other both in and out of character, it makes sense the lines get blurred. But, quite frankly, that only makes it more important that you can separate the two, and conduct yourself responsibly with these kinds of things.

(more in depth thoughts below the cut. Sorry, this got LONG)

The cast are adults, the cast are friends, the cast are professionals. This is my main "take" whenever I see speculation about "is ____ mad at ___?" "does ______ resent ________?" "do you think ______ is feeling upset/sidelined/offended by _____?"

They are probably not genuinely unhappy with each other, they've been broadcasting this game live for 7 years and friends- actual, IRL friends, for longer. They presumably like each other, and are used to working things out with one another, personal and professional. They are adults, they probably know how to hash things out, instead of passive aggressively vibrating with tension at a table. They can talk to each other, they know how to talk to each other, they have to talk to each other because this is also a professional venture.

Momentary disagreements, friction, tense conversations, are going to happen in this kind of format, when they all rely heavily on improv, roleplay, and willingly engage with flawed characters and realistic interactions. If they put you on edge, or you feel unsure about them- that's fine! That's okay! But attributing them to cast interpersonal relationships, trying to anticipate tension or secret simmering tensions- is, in my personal opinion, deeply unhelpful, and only going to cause you grief. We see these people interacting, uncut, for 4 hour chunks. If you convince yourself of something- its going to be very easy to find more evidence, and then, you can't really do anything about it other than worry about the personal relationships of people you dont know.

So, for me, this is my thinking:

1- Tension is largely in character, and intentional, and the cast loves committing to it and know how to separate the two.

2- If it isn't, sometimes heat of the moment or roleplaying Vibes can factor in, and that makes sense, and again, the cast know how to separate the two.

3- Even if its something that extends out, or sticks, the cast know how to interface, check in, etc, with each other to address concerns and communicate, and will probably work it out.

4- It is their job, and their responsibility to do that, if something came up. Me doing rampant speculation and catastrophizing on the side does nothing but ruin my own experience.

5- Furthermore, they're actual people, and extending the analysis and speculation I do on their characters is... uncomfortable, and I personally don't want to do that.

6- They seem like reasonable enough people. They've got a good track record. It'll probably be okay.

So- I don't think you've got anything to worry about. But more importantly, for your own sanity, and enjoyment, remember that the cast are people- generally nice, reasonable, fully fleshed people we do not know, not their characters, or props or figureheads. And proceed accordingly.

#woof this got long. Initially i was going to leave the ask alone but i do think this separation is something some people struggle with so.#critical role #cr discourse #cr cast #spar speaks #c3e16 #cr spoilers #(in the barest sense)#anyway listen: its important to know how to consume media critically but also in a way that like. you are enjoying your media.#know how to separate your reactions and your assumptions from each other. and if you need to step away or arent enjoying something anymore:#thats okay! it doesnt make you bad. it doesnt make the media bad.#i dont think ill really follow up on this- i dont want to Actually Discourse Ive just seen enough discussion in this vein that #i wanted to provide what helps me enjoy my own experiences with fandom. do whats good for you. dont be an ass. yknow.#anyway sorry ill get off the soapbox now. ... and back onto the meta soapbox :')

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