#anyway i think this turned out okay

[toytulini]

listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good' #like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches' #'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty? #you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ayyyy ok here's some extra Laughingstock Sillies from the past week or so. it aint much but its honest work

(human!Barnaby's design is partycoffin's - from their pokemon au! he's beautiful....)

#ALSO THAT ONE LINE FROM THE BARNABY-JULIE AUDIO HAS ME IN A CHOKEHOLD #'howdys a pretty funny fella too' AAAAAGH BITING RIPPING TEARING #im so normal about laughingstock. obviously #for the first listen of all the audios i turned That Side of my brain off #but the re-listens?? ohhhh babey i was devouring those nonexistent crumbs #the air tastes so good..... #scribble salad #laughingstock #okay well i had a whole tag ramble but tumblr Fucking Deleted it all #so! thats gone forever! im gonna go clean to work off the resulting aggression #damn they were Good tags too... smfh.... #anyway anyway thats probably the only human au scribble ill post #cause its the only one thats come out Decently and the only one im Confident Enough In To Share #so yeah! unless i miraculously scribble another Decent one uh... its improbable yall will get anymore human!wh.... #i think im gonna experiment with how i draw people #cause at present i am Not satisfied!

[shootingstarrfish]

happy new year :) looking forward to another year of making art!!!!

#genshin impact #genshin art #kaeya #genshin kaeya #kaeya alberich #digital art #my art #GRRGRRG love kaeya *makes him cry* #didnt fulllllllly achieve what i wanted with this but i think it turned out pretty anyway so its okay #slowly getting to where i wanna be

[unknownarmageddon]

So. Underverse huh

Cross belongs to Jael Peñaloza

#Armageddon art #Cross sans #Cross!sans #xtale #underverse #underverse 0.7 #Undertale AU #sans AU #AU sans #utmv #xtale sans #underverse spoilers #Okay okay I fucking love this thing I think it turned out very well :]]] #had a lot of fun with it too I didn’t hate any part of this process which is kinda rare #anyway. #UNDERVERSE

[kyurochurro]

saw this image on Pinterest and the pose gave me such riker vibes that I just HAD to draw it as him and troi HEHEHE

#churro art #my art #digital art #illustration #fanart #star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #william t riker #william riker #deanna troi #AHAAAAAA OKAY PLS DONT SEND ME TO TREKKIE JAIL I HAVENT HAD A CHANCE TO PROPERLY START TNG YEET 😭😭😭 #but I do know… I DO KNOW . I love troi so MUCH #I actually started this image drawing her and doodle her a lot on paper in my first week back to uni #but omg I struggled so much with riker here and for why BJBJCBSDJHDSBJ #he literally had like 60 different hairstyle changes during the Lineart phase like it was that bad #it just didn’t look like him but in the end I think I’m close enough 😭😭😭 #ANYWAYS This is this weeks uni drawing … the type of drawing I do in my free time on campus :P #I LOVE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH!! I was kickin my feet n giggling. like a madman #i should really draw the tos crew w these full eyes too but I always love drawing them with the simple dot eyes more HAHAHA #also little authors note. wow did that reference give me a hard time #those are some LOOONG limbs boy . Riker almost ended up looking like slenderman DAMN

[grxceful-ly]

peter bringing mayday with him to do spider stuff because yeah, he had things to live for before--but now he has a child and he is going to raise this child and be there for her and maybe if she’s there, strapped to his chest, he’ll be more careful. he’ll consider his life almost as precious as hers. maybe bringing mayday to work is a precaution. 

#disclaimer: it's like 2am and i don't know what i just wrote because my brain won't function enough to read it over again #i also have read like zero spiderman comics so if this doesn't make sense because canon already speaks on it #i'm sorry #atsv spoilers #spiderman: across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #peter b parker #mayday #i am having thoughts #PLEASE BLOCK APPROPRIATE TAGS IF YOU DON"T WANNA BE SPOILED PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU #miles morales #into the spiderverse #spiderman #spiderman spoilers #this thought came about because i think swinging around with a child is the stupidest/coolest thing ever #and i feel like peter wouldn't do it without a reason #anyway sorry for the random change in fandoms i saw the movie tonight and it was fantastic #also #catch me crying in the theatre because peter wants his daughter to turn out like miles #OKAY IM DONE SPAMMING THE TAGS NOW BYE #across the spiderverse spoilers #spiderman across the spiderverse

[good-wine-and-cheese]

Science- Ashbury Heights

My magnum opus of Tenma amvs

#tetsuwan atom #astro boy #naoki urasawa's pluto #pluto anime #atom the beginning #umataro tenma #my amv #dude I am literally never going to make an amv with this cool of an opener ever again #I tried not to favour one tenma over the others but some definitely had more/more relevant footage to work with #I think?? 63's tenma appears in more episodes but I don't know which...so I just went with the first episode only lol #anyway fun fact I learned from watching these clips over and over: of the Tenmas we ever see hugging Atom/Tobio #only 1980s Tenma actually crouches down to Atom's height to address him #based on this alone I am willing to believe he would have turned out sort of okay bc he knows how ur supposed to talk to kids

[starry-bi-sky]

more cfau miscellaneous things because Childhood Friends Danny and Jason have my head and heart always and I need to finish rewriting chapter two dammit (and redo the half-finished chapter 4 because its just Not The Vibes). i'm almost through I need to get through the graveyard scene. (i just stubbornly refuse to have it be shorter than the original chapter and thats the little death. that is the mind killer.)

Danny and jason’s ghost forms both smell faintly like burnt flesh and cigarettes. However, Jason has a more smokey smell while Danny’s smells almost,,, electrical? In a sense? Like he just straight up smells like burnt flesh and sulphur while Jason smells like someone put him in a smoker first.

It’s very much an unpleasant smell but Danny finds an odd comfort in it just as much as he finds a comfort in the smell of nicotine.

(Jason post-revival smells burnt flesh once and is immediately offput by the fact that it brings him an instinctive comfort. He doesn’t realize its because it reminds him of Danny, and is uncomfortable by it.)

-

In an au of an au, Danny’s altercation with Rath ends with Rath regaining enough of his sanity to snap out of the grieving state and ends with him breaking down. Instead of being souped and imprisoned, Rath, who is permanently 14, decides to Move On into the unknown. He’s exhausted, heartbroken, and tired.

(Is this influenced heavily by the ParaNorman scene where he talks to Agatha and helps her move on? Yes. But it doesn’t fit with the Original Storyline so im shoving it into an Au of an Au.)

Rath tells Danny that Jason lied to them (which he genuinely believes), and that he’s tired of waiting/looking for him/grieving. Jason is gone. He isn’t coming back, he abandoned them. And he wants his mom and dad, and his sister, and his friends. And he’s ready to join them.

He leads Danny out to Gotham, which other than Amity Park might’ve been the only city left untouched due to Rath’s own mental block on the place. They go out to the park he and Jason used to frequent or up to one of crime alley’s rooftops, and there Rath lies down and goes to sleep. Only to never wake up again, materializing into nothing as his soul moves on.

Before Rath leaves, he forces Danny to promise him that he’ll only wait for Jason for ten years. After that if he doesn’t find him, or if Jason doesn’t show, then Danny has to move on. Whether that be like how Rath does, or if its inly mentally/emotionally, doesn’t matter. He has to move on. Don’t wait for him. Don’t waste his time any more.

(“Oh, and if you find him, kick his ass for me.”)

Danny reluctantly agrees, and Rath lies down. Danny sings to him as he falls asleep.

(Angsty points if the vigilantes including Red Hood caught wind of their presence and were silently watching from the shadows. Rath might know they’re there, but Danny’s too focused on Rath to notice.)

(If only so that Red Hood realizes that this is what happened to Danny, and that Danny is gone before he can make things right. The tragedy, folks. The angst. The initial realization that Danny was Rath, and then also that Danny was dead and has been dead for years, and that before he moved on, he moved on believing that Jason abandoned him.)

(like i said it doesn't fit in the original timeline/storyline hence why its an au of an au and isn't nearly a fleshed out, but i was largely just focusing on the tragedy of Rath moving on and Jason being alive to see it and realize just who Rath is.)

-

Just like how the Lazarus pits shot Jason's twiggy 4'6-5'4 (depending on what you find) feet tall and 86lb ass up like a tree an essentially fixed his malnutrition, the portal did the same thing for Danny.

(granted i forgot about malnutrition and danny's likely stunted growth at first -- his family lived in crime alley and despite both his parents working, I don't think they had enough food all the time. He probably wasn't as badly malnourished as Jason was, but he wasn't healthy either.)

Granted his ghost in its "natural" state (14) is short, and his growth spurts were slow at first, it did result in him reaching his dad's height. There were points where it just happened overnight, like a baby. He went to bed one night 5’6 and woke up the next day 5’10.

Jazz is shorter than him. Although I have't decided if she's even liminal at all (and if she is, it didn't cure everything because she would have also suffered childhood malnutrition, and since in au canon their parents didn't get their hands on physical ectoplasm until after they got to Amity Park. So the exposure is less.)

-

Danny's voice absolutely sounds like canon Dan's. It kinda just dropped one day when he was 16-17 and never went back up. Sam and Tucker sometimes ask him to just talk about anything because they find his voice soothing.

I'm not sure yet how Danny would feel about it at first considering Rath, but I imagine that Rath, when he did speak, would have had a quieter and scratchier/weaker voice considering he's spent the last decade shrieking and crying.

(and i suppose technically that shouldn't have any effect on his throat considering he's a ghost and idk if that would actually affect him, but i like the idea so im keeping it)

In the beginning you could hear him from a mile away by the sound of his loud, echoing wails, but ten years later you can only really hear him by the soft, shuddering sobs he makes. Like he's gasping for air that isn't there. The future is full of very quiet survivors.

And it's much easier to speak when you pitch your voice upwards (especially when whispering/speaking quietly) so he might've spoken in a higher, airy pitch in order to be heard. So Danny might actually find a comfort in having a lower voice.

#tw mentions of gore #cw gore #i suppose this counts as gore #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #dpxdc crossover #childhood friends au #cfau #really leaning into the idea of rath just being a horror. the horrors! i am delighted in the horrors! #im having fun with it #i swear to god turning 19 turned a switch on in my brain because i am much more comfortable with gore and heavy injury now than i was l #literally a year ago. the urge to write about some of danny's most horrific injuries in his fights is STRONG #like the hORRORS folks. *th horrors*. i dont think i'll ever write a dissection fic because that icks me out but the idea that danny's had #to stitch up his own throat because it got slit in a fight nd he cant shift back to human until he's done because his ghost will survive bu #his body wont #the idea that he's been impaled multiple times before and it hurts each fucking time but he still gets up and hurls the hurt right back in #equal measure. because that's how you wanna play? okay. lets play. he's 14 and his best friend is dead. he can play. #and the idea that all ghosts have 'corpse' forms where their ghosts look exactly like how they died. and danny is utterly unrecognizable #jazz being liminal or not just isnt important to me because she's barely gonna show up in the story anyways #same reason why i hardly use the headcanon that ellie becomes danny's daughter because what use is she to me like that? she'll hardly have #an impact on the story and i refuse to treat characters like props. if they can't help progress the story then they aren't included

[lighthouseas]

i feel like i am in the minority when i say i think byler would adopt a kid lmao

#just one #in like. 2006 or smth #is this just. me. that thinks they would be good parents #like i think it'd definitely be a debacle between them fs because they don't wanna turn out like their dads #but i think it'd be mike who eventually brings it up and they discuss it and eventually go through with it #however i don't think they'd have more than one i think taking care of a baby would be hard work and they'd love the baby a lot but they are #like okay!! we are not doing that again <333 #anyways. is this just me or #stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #st.txt

[maskyartist]

told you i was makin a Clay and Floyd AU

just some silly doodles about Clay leaving with Floyd to help with his solo career to show he could've run things better than John Dory did. the two skyrocket to fame :)

feel like Floyd's got a bit of a tude here he's definitely a pop star/rock star a lil annoying but we love him

Clay handles a lotta the heavy lifting for the two of em, scheduling n such n making sure Floyd is booked for venues n such but they're still a team, just Clay handles business and Floyd handles fun :D

song reference : End of the Line

#masky says #dreamworks trolls #trolls floyd #trolls clay #solo career manager au #doodles #i know i know im making aus and not developing them #BUT FUCK YOU IM PLAYING IN THE SANDBOX WITH MY SILLY LIL TOYS >:( #THIS IS FOR ME THIS IS ME TIME #IF YALL DONT LIKE IT U CAN WAIT UR TURN >:( #anyways i love them a lot #they're very silly to me #thinks....clay getting put in the bottle instead-HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT #he went to meet with velvet and veneer himself >:( to gauge em before his brother met em #i like to think here he got taken during this lil 'battle of the bands' situation #it was mostly for promotion for floyd's new album but these two wished to meet with floyd on potentially collabing #so clay went first and whoops #funboy's good enough #LIKE LEMME HAVE THIS OKAY-

[gxlden-angels]

Bro I hate fundamentalists and culturally-fundie parents they'll say shit like "spare the rod spoil the child am I right haha yea my parents used to have to beat my ass with a switch almost everyday but I sure did learn my lesson" but like??? no you didn't??? you were hit multiple times for something you very obviously did not, in fact, learn

Like studies about how harmful even lightly spanking children is aside, you're literally contradicting yourself?? Some even admitted they got worse as they got older cause they wanted to see how far they could push their parents before they got punished

And studies not aside, you're gonna get child raising advice from the same book that tells you to stone your wife if her hymen doesn't break on your wedding night instead of the decades of research we have now?? Just say you're a bad parent and move on my guy. Skill issue

#bro I had a coworker go 'unpopular opinion I think some kids really do need beatings' and I'm like???? #unprompted???? what's going on there???? #well anyways I ended up going 'yea so I plan on specializing in play therapy with autistic children so I've been learning about talking #to children and the ways their parents and environment affects them' #and they're like hmmm but beating this kid with a stick after they broke something or I upset them to the point of yelling is good actually #had a boss say it taught him and his kids respect cause they were hard-headed #and I'm like?? that's fear not respect! they fear punishment! they do not act out of respect for you! #he's a conservative christian black man tho so he's like 'But Authority!' like bro I don't even respect you what are you on about #'You don't respect police and their authority?' Nope! I fear them! I do not respect cops and every cop/cop-adjacent person I personally know #has reinforced that for me #'We'll agree to disagree' Cool! Doesn't mean you're not wrong! I could believe trees aren't real but that is in fact incorrect #then he pulled out the bible verse and I was like ah okay I forgot you like 'here's how to treat slaves' book you're so right bestie #I'm totally wrong now and so sorry for doubting you and your 2000+ year old book I don't believe in <3 #They'd go 'well I turned out fine!' then say something that directly contradicts that #anyways I need christians to get their grubby little hands off the current state of Child Protection and Rights in the U.S. #So we can actually start working on helping kids without the force of christian hands suffocating them #cause homeschooling and child raising by evangelicals are so fucked up bro I'm tired of this shit #I'd only stay in my current state to help children get out of that cycle since I'm in the bible belt #ex christian #religious trauma #child abuse tw

[skitskatdacat63]

"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!! #i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again????? #mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :( #and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭 #perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ????? #also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art. #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

[inkydoc]

✨️✨️✨️ i guess i wish i had a cat ✨️✨️✨️

in today's lesson on artistic intent and the difficulties of an ADHD-adjacent brain having to keep up with smart technology, we will discuss why it's important to turn off night shift mode on your ipad while drawing :D turns out it's been like that for months now so that's fun, certainly explains why my stuff looks so different on pc from what my ipad was showing to me. the curse of digital art, amirite :"D

with this one i ended up putting a low opacity layer over the whole drawing to kinda simulate what i saw while i was drawing, but i also like the actual outcome even though it's a bit colder overall, the blues are a lot better in that one which isn't surprising :3 if you want please tell me which one you prefer, i honestly can't decide now that i let myself sit with both of them :D

#bee and puppycat #bee and puppcat lazy in space #bapc #drawing #art #digital art #fanart #illustration #digital illustration #procreate #procreate art #artists on tumblr #my art thingies #okay arguably the layer might be a little too strong #gonna have to adjust things but i think i like the idea in general #i was really enjoying how warm my art looks under the eyestrain filter #anyways this turned out nice i'm really proud of this

[starflungwaddledee]

this is a long shot and i'm sorry to ask, but if you don't mind, can mutuals (or contacts or regulars... just... this community) of mine who aren't jumping ship like... let me know? will any of us still be here? is it over? i'm trying to know if this really is it or what's... even happening. i hate to reassurance seek but i'm feeling pretty miserable and confused.

edit: felt like i was being really pitiful and fragile making this but everybody is being so nice to me and responding so patiently with all your thoughts and i'm in tears of gratitude thank you thank you thank you 💖

#i glanced and thought they brought out a feature so that we could turn off ai access #that seemed... okay? i thought? but now i'm really confused. i don't know. i'm so tired and scared. i just can't... keep doing this #i know this is stupid but this feels like it's my fault. #it happens every time i find something. if i'm happy somewhere. it just.... poof. goes away. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry #on the edit: i would only *ever* think this about myself. double standards that i hold for myself are high. i expect emotional control #& performance from myself only. i would never think badly of anyone else being stressed about this or anything. thank you for your kindness #this community has been so beautiful and kind at every turn. i'm so grateful to get to be here and meet you all #okay... being really sappy now. y'all get to see my anxiety first hand today!! whee!! anyway. i'll get it together. haha! thank you.

[unknownarmageddon]

Unsure what to caption this

Cross belongs to Jael Peñaloza Killer belongs to Rahafwabas Apocalyptic Kross AU belongs to me and @denieatsart

#Decently satisfied with this one. I don’t hate it but I’ve done better I think #I am. Struggling with aka art ideas though I can’t get any coherent ones lmao #but I still like this one okay :] #it turned out what I imaged so that’s something #mostly I just wanted to get it done cause when I started it again the background had already been entirely finished #anyway #Armageddon art #Cross sans #Cross!sans #killer!sans #Killer sans #Undertale AU #sans AU #AU sans #apocalyptic Kross AU #sanscest #if you couldn’t tell what’s happening here is Cross is picking the shit out of Killer’s jacket

[radfae]

this is genuinely upsetting. how much longer are women not only going to be complacent in but actively encourage misogyny?

#i mean the post is just weird and wrong in the first place #and there’s a lot to pick apart about how it’s contradictory #and people on twitter on both sides REALLY aren’t helping discussion #but i’m just saddest about this :/ #they think it’s okay because it’s not happening to them #but they don’t realize that this affects us all #it’s not that they even think misogyny is acceptable against evil or bigoted women (most of them anyway) #it’s that they don’t even recognize what is and isn’t misogyny anymore #we’ve gone too long suppressing feminists and we’re feeling the effects #and now they can’t even call out when someone is going against women #why do you think that cain deleted that post? because there was something wrong with it #he KNOWS that he is being brash and speaking out of turn #he KNOWS that that post will get him called out #he KNOWS he did something wrong #:/