#anyway i really like it now so yay

[gawki]

Happy bday to Elden Ring!!!

My headcanon for Goldmask and Corhyn! My thoughts in the tags for those who don't want spoilers. :3) Process video on TikTok.

#digital #human artist #elden ring #im posting again yay!! #im also on TikTok now so if any of y'all like that app im gawkiart on there! #anyways #headcanon! #i like to think corhyn #obviously #had no idea what he was getting into because he was SO FUCKING STOKED FOR THIS ADVENTURE #AND HE WAS ALSO SUPER INVESTED AND IN AWE OF GOLDMASK #but in the end #both of their worlds crumbled #literally and mentally #corhyn basically got his heart broken when he learned GOLDMASK isn't perfect!?? #really high expectations what can u do #and goldmask tried for the longest time to hold his composure but in the end really wore him out #uhg #well I mean he wore himself out #possibly to death and I feel like Corhyn died of a broken heart before his actual demise #it was my first ending because I just loved their dynamic so much

[gotchibam]

Hello!! My chibi commissions are now open! ✨

You can avail for a slot through my commissions page! Thank you so much for supporting my work!! 💖

#commissions #chibi commissions #commissions info #YAY finally finished the chibi samples after so long :))) #was going to do a chibi trainer w/ their pkmn for the sample but... i've been itching to draw astarion & karlach for some time now #so I drew them instead c: #i'll make a separate post for them later but yeah!! I really like how they turned out 🥺 #anyways im actually finished w/ the poke doodles now but I haven't queued most of them yet #expect them to be posted soon 😌 #i'll work on the character comms next then the chibi ones!

[zukkaoru]

thinking abt kunikida with hand tremors and chuuya always making sure they have straws in his apartment so kunikida has an easier time drinking without worrying about spilling,,

the first time kunikida asks for a straw with his drink while they're out together, he's worried chuuya is going to tease him or at the very least raise a judgmental eyebrow. but chuuya isn't stupid and he can figure out pretty easily that it's just an accessibility tool. then weeks later, kunikida goes over to chuuya's place and when chuuya pours them both drinks, he wordlessly retrieves a straw from the cupboard and places it in kunikida's glass before handing it to him. it's such a simple gesture, but kunikida wasn't expecting it and he's still getting accustomed to his hand tremors himself so having someone who accommodates his needs like it's nothing is...really nice. it's something he still has trouble doing for himself. but chuuya treats it like it's normal, and that makes it feel more normal to kunikida too

#important note that i hc chuuya with chronic pain so like. they have their own issues with their body not always functioning properly #obviously it's different but they are familiar with needing accommodation (that they really don't want to ask for) #bsd #kunikida doppo #kunichuu #<- yay i have a post with substance to add to the tag now ✨🌟💫 #anyway i;m. having brainrot over them #hello grace here

[shima-draws]

shima it's been so much fun seeing your art on my dash this year!!! genuinely so glad you got out of your slump and are passionate abt drawing again. good luck w/ the charms ! can't wait to see how they turn out (:

SOBSSSSS THANK YOU OMG that means a lot for me to hear!! Especially since like. Me personally, I was very frustrated at the lack of art last year. Ofc none of that was really my fault, like I’ve mentioned before I had fucking awful chronic back pain last year that lasted like six months so I couldn’t even sit down in a chair properly for more than an hour at a time. (And on the other side, depression was hitting HARD. It’s never easy to draw when you’re just Sad. Or when you have major art block which I ALSO had RIP)

So now that I’m doing art again and way more frequently I’ve been SO happy…mostly bc I just. Love to create!! I love making things!! And I love sharing them with you guys! And seeing and hearing your reactions to them!! It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve been in such a good place with my art. Hopefully I don’t run out of steam anytime soon and can keep drawing fun silly cute things 🥰

And thank you aaaa!! I just finished designing all of the One Piece charms I want to make, so things are progressing smoothly. Once I get closer to finishing all the designs I’ll be sure to share them with you guys ;)

#(Also I post WIPs of the designs on my Instagram like. ALL the time as I’m working on them so) #(If you really REALLY wanna see them you can head over there for a sneak peek) #Shima answers questions #Anyway yeah I think having a massive hyperfixation on something helps too #I was kinda drifting from fandom to fandom last year so I couldn’t keep up the motivation to draw #But now I’m in OP hell and I’ll probably be here for a while so. :) #More art ideas for my brain to come up with! Yay! #Nice things #Genuinely this ask made me smile so much ty 🥺 #cheswirls

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

#this post brought to you by: me #i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses #i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP #like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready #anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT #and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk #and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message #even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL #AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!! #i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year #i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17? #ive had a good well paying job since i was 18. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job #which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind #so theres no point staying here. #i might never have this kind of job security again. #but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something #on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now #on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT #but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to #richard started yelling and swearing el oh el #might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible? #but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option #the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going #idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks #this is why i want to get out of here #also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about #not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey! #if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!

[orcelito]

Oh yeah, so turns out I DIDNT flunk my 2 classes my last semester I took (spring 2023). I got a C and a D. Which normally a D wouldn't be passing, but bc it's not a prerequisite for anything, my advisor is making an exception for it. WHICH MEANS I only have 8 classes left to take before I graduate. Since my life insurance money will cover all my living expenses for A While, I'm not gonna look for another job and instead will just focus on studying and finishing my degree. 1 class in the summer, 3 classes in fall, and 4 classes in spring. Assuming I don't crash and burn again (which I'm going to do everything in my power to prevent), I should be able to graduate college by spring 2025.

10 years after I first started college. I should've graduated in 2019. But better late than never. So long as I do finish, it will be okay.

#speculation nation #i fully thought i failed my classes that last semester. i crashed and burned bc of a variety of reasons #and i ended up on academic probation. so i ASSUMED i failed. #but apparently not!!! yay!!! #i gotta make sure i do as good as possible in my remaining classes to make sure my GPA isnt ass by the end #it's at 2.95 right now. so long as im above a 3 it wont be too bad for job prospects. #not as good as a 3.5 but i dont care about being in a swanky tech job anyways #so long as it's something Functional. something that will let me live comfortably. thats what matters. #this life insurance payout really is life changing huh. i hate that things happened like this #but im so grateful he had this in place. this will be indispensable for letting me finally finish. Finally.

[qbdream]

“it’s DOOMED” <- man who doesn’t know how good he looks

#punz #punzop #dailyaskers #mine* #punzo got a HAIRCUT !! #don't get me wrong i loooved the hair but this is. very flattering on him #also i would apologize for making Yet Another gif of him and his headphones going on/off but i would be lying #i simply like the way he holds his headphones and also maybe his hands #GOD the eyebrow slit really adds to the look too #u know what. else. would add to the look. nudges a bottle of nail polish closer #anyway yay haircut he looks hot and pretty and u know what im still looking at these and earrings would also. be so good #im so tired i'm gonna stop myself now LMAO

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Was silent for a bit there but do not fret i come back today with the third part of the hanahaki comic and feeling somewhat less depressed!

#i ramble #yay #funny that for some reason the hanahaki comic got a lot of new notes today as now everyone gets a new installment #am still a lil burned out but atleast some stressfull things irl have cleared up so i am generally better #i just make a pause every time i catch myself thinking of making art as 'work' #im just sitting there like 'i cant play minecraft i have to do work' and then im like no fandom is supposed to be fun #had to take a small step back there for a bit #well and also i was just really unwell #but i am better and thats whats important #i just gained so many followers and that makes me really nervous #but thats a problem i will just have to deal with #tumblr equivalent of stage fright i guess #anyways get ready for the hanahaki comic

[jils-things]

memoryshipping x studio ghibli: the masterpost ✨✨

see them separately: (x) (x) (x)

no need to rb!

#damn dude... what a movie does to a selfshipper.... #im very proud of these - because i figured out a nice filter for these edits #for those who're curious - i used gaussian blur + bloom + faded frame or whatever it was called in ibispaint and ofc the vhs effect #and i totally intended to make the VHS effect a combo of purple and green since it was an option available AHEHEHEH #i honestly... really like how i drew stevens back view 🥺🥺🥺🥺 like it looks so. #attractive?????? is that the right word? it just looks really nice to look at from behind #i tried to make sense with his hair and i think it worked well here #jaides hair is so POOFY AAAHJCCKCK shes so pretty 💚💚💚💚💚 #okay guys who wants the air walk raise your hand SLASH J SLASH J DON'T ACTUALLY PLEASE #I AIN'T DOING AN AU HERE BECAUSE YOURE BASICALLY SAYING YES JAIDE SHOULD BE A GRANDMA AKSKDJSBDHJSJDJSJSJS #yk im so tempted to do a little... directors cut here but itll be so LONG 😭 #i literally havent seen this movie in ages i only saw it once but my sister is such a big fan of the movie and she checks it often LOL #but now after watching it again recently im like #alright i kinda get thr appeal now AJSHSHAJSBSHS #tho i regularly listen to the ost (THE OST IS LITERALLY ON THE STEVAIDE PLAYLIST AND NOW IT HAS MORE IMPACT ON ME LMFOAJDHSHA) #i know i keep saying this. but. howlsophie = stevaide ufghgg 😭😭😭😭 i never saw this coming #WEEEGHH IM TRYING TO PUT IN ALL MY THOUGHTS HERE BUT I CANT REMEMBER #IM ALREADY DOING A DIRECTORS CUT AKAKSKSJSJSJSJAJ #YEAH ANYWAYS YAY MEMORYYYYY #♥️ memoryshipping #~ art

[boomerang109]

I'm supposed to still be doing homework but I wanted to pause really quickly because I really think I might be getting better

I hit a wall last week (and hella actually really helped me, but I had to ignore her advice for a few days to see it) where I just kind of realized I don't actually do much to make myself feel better? And like. I want to be so specific that like. I'm feeling physically better these days so it's so much easier (not easy, mind you--I'm still in pain AND mental health is still making it hard, but it's easier)

But like I just had like three days in a row where I just tried to do homework in bed and instead I did NOTHING and I basically talked to no one and I was just making myself miserable and I was like. It's the end of the semester and at this point it's my fault I have so much work. So I need to make a different choice and do it. So I have?

And I spent HOURS doing work yesterday. And it wasn't perfect--I meant to go to an aquaintance's show and I didn't make it, but I did a bunch of work and got some late assignments turned in. And I'm still working today and it's fucking slow going. I thought I was gonna get through two modules (I don't call them that, god hella you've infected my brain) but I still have ten pages left of enlightened sexism (but my focus is a little shot at this point in the day. BECAUSE I SUDDENLY HAVE ENERGY?? like i'm gonna go put my laundry in and like. idk maybe even walk around a bit because i have energy. like not a lot. but for nearly 8pm at night? It's crazy.)

I just. I hope this is the iron and the medication change. Because I've been having such a rough go of it. But I think some of it has been me. I think I got really good at being sick and treating myself like I was sick and I'm not anymore.

Cause like when I was sick I let myself get away with all sorts of bullshit cause 'oh I can't, I don't feel well.'

But I'm getting better. So that means putting on my big person pants and doing shit. Even when it's hard.

#i went to bed really depressed last night #like just gave up on the day #and it honestly was just cause i hadn't eaten #and i think that's my newest goal is just making sure i eat #oh fuck jack we need to talk about that at some point for study abroad #i'm shiiiit at eating and it's not your job to make eat or anything #(can you imagine if i was like haha it's your problem and in tumblr post no less) #but if you happen to see this. at some point i just would love to have a convo about if you'd be willing to just like. make sure i'm intaki #food? and like if i suddenly become uncharacteristically rude? it's 99% of the time going to be because i'm hangry #i was gonna be like 'oh no what if i can't get safe foods' #but we're going to italy and like. pasta is a safe food for me. so i think i'll be good. #(i may end up stressed out by how fancily they make it because it has been pointed out to me that my preferred way of having it 'butter and #cheese' is essentially just buttered noodles but like i also like alfredo so it's fine #anyway i just wasted the last ten minutes of my study time so now it's break time!! #yay laundry time #life of a boomerang

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

ok ok so you know how my life has majorly revolved around my pain since july & how that has been extremely difficult :) well lately I find myself getting up later than I want to & making my bed as badly as I possibly can & getting out of the house after noon when I planned to get out in the morning & walking to the library when it’s sunny & sitting there for hours & the whole time I’m most concerned with writing & that it’s incredible what I’m doing, it’s a little paradise

#you know how I hoped September would be kind to me well it delivered #I actually didn’t realize how mentally poorly I was doing until I got out of it ! #like oooooof it’s like a chronic pain veil #& to be very honest it’s because I’m physically better so I cannot blame myself and I don’t lol bc there will be a time when that happens #<< again #I mean better loosely I just mean I haven’t had 8/10 pain every day for weeks LOLLL #but it’s really quiet and beautiful & im grateful !!! like yay I can still create ! #I’m not thinking abt my pain 95% of the day now it’s probably about 40%? 50? so a lot but I’m literally not every single thought LOL #sometimes it’s even like 20! not even cuz anything is getting better bc it’s not but I will take it even if idk why!!! #(& by nothing is getting better I mean meaningfully better but I have been blessed with some good days lately which I had none #of all summer) #I say this bc every day I wake up and immediately think OH GOD MY PAIN which is so valid bc it’s awful in the morning getting up is like #falling into a black hole Lol but also while that thought is still there I also thought #wow I’m so excited to write today I’m so excited to see what Jeremiah does #HE IS THE NARRATOR OF HEALING #also like SOOO PRIVILEGED to be able to do this like I also wanted to say that! #anyway update for u since I know I have shared the Despair but none of the beauty yet lol #lots of love chronic illness/pain bbs <3

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

#also i used to get beaten to finish my food nearly daily & it would take me forever to do that like literally hours with no exaggeration #just made me hate eating even more. now my technique is eating as fast as possible before i even realize how overwhelming #the sensory experience is & i can just be done with it VS the pain&dread of eating slowly -> disgust of Everything+hyperawareness #eating tightens my muscles like i hate it so fucking much catching the food putting it in my mouth CHEWING swallowing #what a damn chore #so i always liked cheese it was my “safe food” pretty much the only thing i liked #i even hated the foods autists usually like like fries & fried chicken meatballs ETC. HATED. #i was/am more of a soup & turning all my food into varieties of Slop kind of girl nothing hard for me please... #i experienced middle school during the like ♯Thick era of the world which was honestly a good thing like for The Populace #but i felt like killing myself because i felt like an unforgivable fugly genetic failure & people did not hesitate to let me know #anyway either way i would be unhappy caus if i did gain weight during puberty i would have a meltdown about all the Changes #so i feel content for the time being about only losing the fat in my face & getting age appropriate wrinkles really #trying to enjoy the privilege of thinness while i have it because it will not last forever 0_0 but that should not matter anyway... #the privilege of thinness: being way uglier than others & constantly looking like a gibbon dying of disease + no energy or strength ever #JK people are much MUCH nicer to thin people & they do things for me on account of looking physically incapable so um yay i guess #light at the end of the tunnel that is very significant in the grand scheme of things socially. ♯CountingMyBlessings #also i was raised on ♯HAES tumblr from 2014-2018 i truly believed in that & was so damn envious i was not curvy & beautiful LOL #so i never hated overweight people really i think for the most part the SJW tumblr values stuck with me #but now i know it depends on your base frame & genetics & there is no guarantee to what you choose to do (naturally) acceptance is peace #sorry for the gigantic Arse post i just needed to get that off my chest for a long time. not on here specifically just in general #oh & i am a ♯Grignoteuse but grignoter (grazing) is different from eating in my mind&body #& my insecurity was not a result of wanting to fit in really but kind of in the sense that i wanted people to stop berating me for my looks #like body wise only & also not understanding why every other girl looked like a girl blossoming into a woman #& i looked like i was transitioning to Malnourished (unsexed) Ape made worse by bein GNC.& like the need for control later on & erthang ETC