#anyway excuse my ramblings

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[bitegore]

Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#red rambles #viva palestina #antizionism #i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites #i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine #as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel #and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT. #i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel #both from the inside and out #and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad #that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice' #if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it. #like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally #are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are #being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now #if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the #fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar #safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to #discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees? #i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i #work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up. #there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue #and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.

[applestruda]

Did some fanart of the dance scene in @cherrifire desert duo anamatic

#i really hope you dont mind the tag #or the fanart #but ive seriously been such a fan of the anamatic since it first dropped #ive been wanting to draw the dance for so long now #jejwnwm #ANYWAYS IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE ANAMATIC PLS GO WATCH ITS MY FAVORITE #ive already done a ramble on how much i love it #anyways its 3am so gn #desert duo #goodtimeswithscar #grian #3rd life #traffic smp #my art #also this was a fun excuse to draw cherri's excellent designs

[roxiusagi]

✨Cultivate: Slow Life on a Monster-Infested Mountain✨ by @neonghostcat - fan covers in the design style of seven seas danmei publishing ✿

sooo.. I know it would be more appropriate to post these once the fic is fully finished BUT i got too excited and was waiting too long already to post these hdjfhk and today is cultivate anniversary so appropriate excuse to post lets go!!! anyway theres only one chapter left to go so ppl who have been waiting to read it until its done the time is NOW! hahha

anyway fun fact this was originally going to be just 3 parter. but. at this point cultivate has surpassed svsss in word count if i am not mistaken......so ive decided that adding one more volume would be appropriate lol

oh well and here are the pieces by themselves

also... just to clarify im obviously in no way shape of form comparing myself to the quality of actual seven seas cover artist lmaoo hdjshf i hope thats obvious that this was just fun gimmick passion project

#my art #liushen #fic art #svsss #liu qingge #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #cultivate #Cultivate: Slow Life on a Monster-Infested Mountain #also pls excuse the bad summaries except for the only actual one hjfdk you know im bad with words #anyway i have bajillion feels about cultivate but dont kno how to say em so i hope this is clear enough taht it was made with love lol #hahha anyway go read it #also expect more behind the scenes rambles on side in a few minutes lol

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

I simultaneously want to live a lifestyle where I can regularly afford to EXTRAVAGANTLY tip service workers, whilst also living in a world where topping culture is not normal or necessary because minimum wage laws do their damn jobs and actually allow all workers to comfortably support their selves & families without relying on the arbitrary "generosity" of entitled customers

#not a shitpost #anyway tipping is not the norm in many countries bc employers are held to a higher accountability re: liveable wages #and in the U.S. specifically tipping as a cultural norm is DIRECTLY descended from post-civil-war racism #I highly recommend googling that shit bc there are MUCH better sources than my dumb little blog #but basically i believe it arose in industries that employed (exploited) a large newly unenslaved black workforce #by offering service jobs that paid unethically low wages (to post-emancipation black americans with VERY few options/resources) #with the excuse that 'tips' would 'reward' good performance and make up the wage difference to 'deserving' workers #while actually it was a control tactic that enabled racist white customers to financially abuse underpaid black employees #keeping in mind that many white americans at this point resented the new legal right of former slaves to earn money and hold jobs at all #ANYWAY I'm rambling and I don't have a list of sources that's just a summary of stuff I remember reading #I apologize for any accidental misinformation this is why i normally stick to dumb clown biology horror posts #(the nose is the fruiting fungal body. honk it thrice to Release The Spores) #...no wait wait wait i thought i was done BUT: #it's no coincidence that tipping culture has continued predominantly in industries more likely to employ women and people of color #and people without access to higher education. because TIPPING IS FUNDAMENTALLY A FORM OF FINANCIAL ABUSE MEANT TO ENFORCE SOCIAL HIERARCHY #ok whew i think im done #oh P.S. LEAVE A FUCKING TIP for people who provide you services in industries where tipping is (unfortimatrly) standard #Yes even if they do a crap job. TIPS AREN'T A 'BONUS' for 'good performance' they're literally something exploited workers need to SURVIVE #you should be able to screw up occasionally at work without being terrified of being able to pay this month's bills #Humans are human. Which means we are DEEPLY FLAWED and IMMINENTLY DESERVING OF DIGNITY AND COMPASSION. #There i did it i summarized my personal core theology nobody asked for. and in entirely too wordy a process okay i am going to BED

[botanautical]

'We all yearn for the woods. That's why every fellow on this island wants to settle down near a tree - just one will do.'

#dazai osamu #bsd dazai #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #bsd fanart #it's dazai day!! #i wish this insufferable fictional man weren't so beloved to me #but as somebody plagued by silly brain issues he is oddly comforting and makes me feel less alone #and bsd introduced me to actual dazai osamu whose writing is honestly groundbreaking to me and i've barely even scratched the surface #it's something about the confluence of humour and tragedy... the desire to exist to bring joy to others at the expense of one's own #i feel like asagiri imparted this notion well onto bsd dazai - i know a lot of people dislike dazai and question his motivations #but i have faith in him and believe he's pursuing good #anyway excuse the ramble! the caption is from dazai's short story 'monkey island'! thank you to my dear partner for finding it for me!! #i'm really very happy with how this piece turned out - i wanted to depict bsd dazai but really pay suitable homage to his namesake #it's been a while since i've had fun drawing but this one and other recent pieces this month have really brought me back into it #happy birthday dazai #botanautical

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Laughingstock Lives in My Head Rent Free because Of You (/pos)

YIPPEE YAHOO <3<3

#who is he arguing with? a neighbor? a relative? a wrong number? inquiring minds want to know! #is it obvious that i dont know how to draw rotary phones. be honest #kidding kidding Anyway Back On Topic #it always makes me feel soooo so so Delighted yet Mischievous whenever i get a #'you're the reason i like laughingstock' ask or whatever #ITS SOOOO EMPOWERING LIKE HELL YEAH. SUFFER WITH ME. ARENT THEY PERFECT TOGETHER #the funny fluffy husbands??? yes??? Yes!!!!! #rent free! I Pay Them!!! #stg ill be so normal and then they pop into my head and my intelligence/personality regresses to that of a golden retriever #scribble garnish #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #also was this a fun excuse to draw howdy in casual clothes? yea #in my mind he's over at barnabys and was like 'oh dw ill answer your phone for you <3' #cut to ten minutes later he's still on it. hes arguing. barnaby has no idea who's on the other end. howdy will not take a breath to tell hi #your honor They Are So <3 #BUT YES HAHA WELCOME TO THE BRAINROT!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

[aroace-genderfluid-snake]

edgeworth’s still autistic btw just maya is too

#give maya some more credit come ON #i remember playing the game for the first time and going ah! autism #i might make one for phoenix if my brain goes there again but deadass i couldn’t sleep until i made this #anyway! #maya #maya fey #ace attorney #autism #aa1 #aa2 #aa3 #miles edgeworth #edgeworth #i added the alt text! sorry this was just midnight ramblings and i didn’t realize people would actually see it #not an excuse ik but i’ll do better next time

[tomboyyyaoi]

#i need to draw a post trimax vamery every so often so i dont explode #i was trying smth new here excuse that its a bit weird #ok so allow me to ramble in tags a bit #imdesperate to push my art in a different direction im getting really sick of how it looks and feels at the moment #im so so so thankful for everyones support but i feel if i cant make art i like then im going to struggle making it #so i want to make art i love looking at and making #so expect either a bit more inactivity on the art front maybe. or maybe the opposite if all goes well idk #coz im just not having fun making what im making rn #anyway lol vamery #trigun #vashmeryl #trigun maximum #meryl stryfe #vash the stampede #my silly art #id in alt text

[peachfruitcake]

did you hear about what Martin said about Susan and Linda on the Twitter space he hosted on the 27th? i thought of you instantly when he started talking about them and have been waiting for you to post your thoughts! :-)

HEHE YES IM THE ONE WHO’S QUESTION LED TO THAT!!!!!

Now for those who didn’t listen to that space, Martin said that Linda called her to say goodbye but never specified how it went of course. Besides “hey Susan I’m leaving sorry this is really impacting my mental health” “gaaaaaaaaaaey”/j

This is all a personal headcanon but I like to think that their friendship grew incredibly distant ever since Linda married Felix, Susan probably stopped talking to her altogether for a while and it would leave Linda very confused and upset. They might’ve started talking to eachother again a little bit as the series of events began to approach but only very brief small talk, maybe Linda complaining a little and giving Susan a few life updates and them both talking about stuff they’ve been noticing with others lately (especially Felix’s drinking), but nothing deeper than that.

I see Susan being extremely emotionally closed off to most people except maybe a select few that she knows very closely, so if you were to ask her what’s going on in her life she’d give you a very vaguely watered down version and not what’s actually going on or how she’s really managing herself emotionally.

So basically she used to be more open with Linda, but during that period she sort of just started treating her like a stranger.

So when Linda called her first to tell her that she’s finally leaving, Susan acted how she usually would, keeping it calm, understanding and respectful and wishing her luck, but she won’t really show any more than that. Or that she cried later and felt pretty bad that they couldn’t be so close anymore and that she’ll probably never be able to make up for herself acting so distant for the past many years again.

Of course this all comes from how I view Susan as a character myself though and also the fact that I refuse to pass up the idea that she has feelings for Linda. I like to think that she introduced her to Felix cuz Linda was getting more desperate to find a relationship and Susan was getting weird thoughts so in a panic she shoved her off to him so she could avoid the urges. They’ve been boiling within her since highschool and she always was able to push them aside or excuse them as “she’s just my very close friend I don’t have many close friends so she feels extra special” and as the years went by they began distracting her a lot from her work and were growing stronger and more unavoidable aaand they were really beginning to affect how she’d interact with Linda and you see Susan hates feeling like another has any control over her and Linda just wouldn’t shut up about hooooow badly she wants a relationship and hoooow many dates keep failing and Susan was at the point to where she was starting to get the kind of dreams that make you stare up at the ceiling in horror when you open your eyes in the morning so one day when she overheard Felix speaking about being single and wanting to start looking around, she decided to introduce her to him. Susan allegedly never finds a problem she can’t fix in some way so that was her solution.

They hit it off, Susan’s solution isn’t working for some reason cuz she doesn’t feel any relief at all and in fact feels worse but just sucks it up and just focuses on her work and looks the other way. Linda and Felix get married, Susan feels like throwing up the entire day and now feels somehow even more worse by now and suddenly whenever Linda wants to chat she’s suddenly always “busy” every time. Susan’s often busy anyways but you know yourself when there’s a difference between “shit I’m busy that day, let’s do Sunday instead” and “Sorry I can’t, I’m busy”, “I don’t know when I’ll be available.”

While Linda and Felix were dating, Susan probably assumed that she was just jealous that she couldn’t have a little fun at her age herself. When they got married, Susan told herself that she’s probably so depressed over it cuz it’s making her feel like she’s fallen behind others her age and that maybe she feels bitter that all of these people are moving on and going through these important life stages while she remains behind. Which made no sense otherwise cuz Susan couldn’t give any less of a fuck about starting any sort of family or going out. But that’s what Susan would tell herself that she feels so she wouldn’t have to think about it any further. By the time Susan thinks she’s over whatever it was, she begins having brief talks with Linda occasionally. Not often and still a bit distant, but way better than before.

So yeah can you imagine how shitty and guilty Susan felt that whole time of her weird bitterness toward Linda being in a relationship and not being able to approach her much anymore or how Felix turned out to be such a shitty husband.

If this headcanon is aligned with twf’s canon, she’d probably be dead before she even gets to actually acknowledge and accept her feelings as they are. Such is life though. Not like she could’ve done anything about it.

#tldr Susan is emotionally stunted as fuck and has no idea how to identify her emotions and struggles a lot with strong emotions. she’s the #poor bastard type to stand there light a deer in headlights whenever someone cries around her #you ask her how she feels and she doesn’t react on the outside and is like ‘it’s cool’ but deep down she’s falling to her knees and crying #plus she’s a busy woman and got no time for gay shit like pining #idk if u wanted that whole hc ramble but take it anyways (˘◡˘) #it’s cool that you thought of me though!!! means a lot I like it when I’m the first someone thinks of when it comes to susan Woodings :^) #now if you’ll excuse me my sleep gummy is kicking in #the walten files #twf #sulinda #twf sulinda #twf susan x linda #the walten files susan x linda #linda thompson #susan Woodings #headcanons #I remember after Martin announced them being school friends and that Susan introduced her to Felix I made a post mentioning how I see her #haven done that to push Linda away so she could avoid her attraction fo her and how that blew up in her face lol #and he liked the post heehee obv I know that that doesn’t mean it’s canon but it is to me 😁😁😁😁🌼 #i stg if this is incomprehensible to read #I’m too tired to proofread and I just wanna post this lol

[drbtinglecannon]

Hi-Fi Rush really said "let's make a rhythm game that's made with such love and passion for music, has good characterization and growth, the humor and character designs are fun, the enemy battles are creative, the main villain is defeated through the power of friendship, and it contains tons of bonus content with no microtransactions, all for half the cost of an AAA game" and it fucking slapped

#hi fi rush #i'm still thinking about it #my partner has been going through each stage again on the hardest difficulty & getting new content. its like! its so fun! its so fun #i miss when games didnt cost 60-70$ and had fun/passionate/creative stories and no microtransactions. bah #the running gag of cnmn always drawing his expressions was so funny it literally never got old. also korischa & peppermint & macaron are #all so hot. the villain fights were sooooo fun & creative too & theres a jojo parody villain thats HILARIOUS! also 808 my beloved #like its not that deep but also it is???!! at the same time. ive been watching him play it while our cat with cancer has been on my or his #lap so its been like. extra sentimental for me. cats still doing alright now but we dont know when thatll change #anyway excuse me rambling about the action rhythm game that dropped out of nowhere last month #tc posts #hfr

[missholoska]

happy halloween!! I've been spending the past 2 weeks working on a short comic about my soriel kid and despite my best efforts it won't be done in time, so for now here's a preview 🎃

#holoskart rambles #as toriel's daughter who takes after papyrus she is extremely not immune to Being Annoyed By Dog #also I decided AD deserves a curly tail :] #anyway I'm hopeful this'll be done this week! it mostly just got delayed by getting double vaccinated and my arms aching all weekend #but page 4 of 5 is like 80% lined and I probably won't do much shading so it shouldn't take too long from here #and neue thinks about halloween all year round so it is never too late when she's involved. it's the perfect excuse #neue femur #wip

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

happy new year everyone!! 🌟✨ it's been almost exactly a year since i first tentatively poked my head into this little space here on tumblr, and being part of the wonderful am/miles/tlsp community here with you all has truly been one of the highlights of my 2023 💗

as i'm sure is the case for most of us, it's been a year of ups and downs for me. i've been lucky enough to experience some amazing things (living in a new city, reconnecting with my creativity, getting my dream job, discovering music that speaks to my soul, making new friends, reading some amazing books) and human enough to experience some less incredible things (chronic pain, family difficulties, discovering my dream job is not in fact my dream job, getting long covid, the ever uphill battle of healing from trauma). through it all, this space has been a continued solace and source of joy, where i've met some truly special people and felt part of a little community where i get to have fun and flail and just be me. i can't even begin to express how grateful i am to be part of a space like this, or how grateful i am to everyone here who makes it what it is ✨

i also just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone who has supported me with my writing over this past year, whether that's through kudos or comments or messages or amazing cheerleading/editing help. one of the absolute gifts of discovering this fandom has been the writing fic side of it. maybe it sounds silly, but writing four walls has genuinely been one of the highlights and biggest achievements of my year. writing has always been something incredibly close to my heart, but my degree left me totally sapped of inspiration and confidence, and i'd been struggling for a while to climb out of that after graduating. something about alex and miles just instantly sparked off inspiration in me that i hadn't felt for a long time, and getting to write about them over the past year has reminded me of the sheer joy of creating and the magic of getting to share that with people ✨

it's something that's finally given me the confidence to pick up my own original writing again too, and i couldn't be more grateful to alex and his wonderful lyrics (particularly the entirety of humbug) and to everyone who's supported my fic ventures for helping me reconnect to and explore my creativity. it's the best feeling in the world to finally feel like i'm coming home to that part of myself and carving out a proper space for it in my life 💗

2023 was far from perfect, but it was filled with so many brilliant moments of illumination and i feel i am leaving it with a deeper sense of myself and my path moving forward. i know it's going to be a rocky one at times, but i am excited for what 2024 holds in store for me - and i can't wait to continue flailing with you all over all things milex and to enjoy all the amazing fics/gifsets/posts/art to come!

wishing all of you a year ahead full of wonderful moments and new experiences and fulfilment 💫✨ i really am more grateful than i'll ever be able to adequately express for this space here, and to all the amazing people i've been lucky enough to get to know through it. here's to an amazing 2024 for all of us 💗💞🩷💓💖💕💝

(the photos above are just a random little collection of ones over the past year that i particularly associate with the various things i've talked about in this post)

#god this ended up being much longer and more sentimental than i realised 😅 #happy new year!! 💜 #also please excuse the photo of me lol #it’s not the best and i’ve blocked out my face for obvious reasons #but it was taken the morning after the am concert in my hotel room just before i left #and i was just feeling so utterly elated and swept up in the post gig high #so it captures one of my favourite moments and feelings of the whole year 🥰 #i couldn’t not include it #anyway i’ll actually shut up now #i blame having an hour to myself for the first time all holiday for this degree of self indulgent rambling 😅 #personal #lulu posts

[captain-astors]

The T in T-Owl stands for transmasc, thank you and goodnight. 

#I did not plan to draw Takizawa today but I needed an excuse to post that sentence. I feel bad when I textpost. #Maybe I should make a sideblog to repost and ramble on freely? #Anyways Zeph draws shirtless men the sequel #my art #tokyo ghoul #tokyo ghoul re #tg:re #seidou takizawa #takizawa seidou #if you don't agree with my silly headcanon that's fine just don't be rude about it kindly.

[random-lil-illing]

player appreciation week day 2!!

player is the biggest mama's kid ever and you can pry this hc from my cold, dead hands. they love her so much whih means they are absolutely terrible at lying to her. their mum is just genuinely curious about what theyre doing on their computer all the time and player doesnt exactly want to tell her that they're helping a superthief commit crime.

#my art #art #digital art #finished art #fanart #carmen sandiego netflix #carmen sandiego #carmen sandiego fanart #carmen sandiego 2019 #carmen sandiego player #csplayerweek2024 #cs player #player bouchard fanart #player bouchard #also idk if anyone has noticed this yet but i heavily associate player with the colour purple. anx i associate their mom with yellow #yknow bc theyre opposite/complementary colours. an dtheyre really close so- #i didnt include their step dad bc i think player sees him less as a dad and more as 'chill idiot whos married to my mom' yknow #and also because idk how to draw older men. im learning okay 😔 #also his mom knows their lying bc they make up the most bullshit excuses ever but she always lets them get away with it #shes very chill lmao. as long as player isnt getting hurt or hurting anyone else shes fine with pretty much everything #anyway #enjoy the burnt food #<3 #bored duck rambles #cannibals rambles #sick rambles

[mars-ipan]

I JUST WANNA MAKE THE WHOLE EARTH SMILE

#martzipan #nagito komaeda #sdr2 #WAUGH. kinda slayed with this one. kinda fucking killed it #i will use komaeda as a battering ram to break my artblock. worst comes to worst i can always draw him #i wanted to put him in! a box. bc it would make a neat pose. and then i broke rules on purpose to make him look cooler #i considered making this servant but then i realized i did not want to draw his leash or figure it out compositionally #i tried so many new things on this one. gradients mostly. i messed around with the csp texture materials too :3 #proud of myself on this one #oh yeah! this was also an excuse to test out the new maeda playlist #and the verdict is: it's good :D i wanna add more over time but deffo a good base #anyways. i was not expecting this to turn out so good but safe to say it is now going to be the cover of that playlist. which is cool #OK TAG RAMBLES DONE. tumblr please be good to me on this one i really like it