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solarianvoidthearoace · 11 months

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AD(H)D with anxiety disorder/ anxious PD is when:

Coffee calms you down and for once you can be chill, actually

I mean, it also makes me sleepy, so I really shouldn’t have drank my caffè americano in the morning but I haven’t had coffee in months and didn’t think it’d be this severe (it’s fun to need a base-level of caffeine before caffeine works as it’s supposed to, even while on medication)

(Goodness fuck, I’m getting cranky now… this is why I don’t drink coffee unless I’m already sleepy – or energy drink in quantities under 0.75 litres)

#adhd problems #adult adhd #adhd coffee #actually anxiety #actually adhd #actually anxious #personal whining #anxiety and coffee #adhd and coffee #anxious personality disorder #swearing #the more you know

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depri-and-anxiousv2 · 3 months

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"We know you are sensitive by nature (born very prematurely, several diagnoses, shitty childhood, bullied)" *turns shit upside down and wrecks my mental health completely*

#why me #depression #anxiety #anxious personality disorder #cvtting addict #addiction #sober #bullied #boys self hárm too

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angelboybreakdowns · 1 year

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just. ugh. youll say “i am experiencing something that is a literal textbook symptom of the disorder i have” and nts will tell you youre making it up and its obviously not a real thing

#‘being anxious about school isnt a symptom of gad’ oh sure yeah not like its. yknow. LITERALLY LISTED AS A SYMPTOM IN THE DSM-5 #living with nts is just. so fucking exhausting #you mention anything they havent personally experienced and they think its somehow impossible #actually autistic #autism #autistic #neurodivergent #adhd #actually neurodivergent #autism/adhd #actuallyautistic #actually adhd #neurodivergence #generalized anxiety disorder

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avpdpossum · 1 month

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me: i know they’re you’re friends and they’re really nice but that just makes them even scarier because i really want them to like me and would be genuinely devastated if they didn’t so it’s just easier to never engage with them and endlessly wish i was friends with them without ever risking being rejected by them even if that means i never actually get to be their friend. like sure, strangers are scary too, but they’re easier because i’m not super invested in whether they like me or not. the people i already like? those are the most terrifying people ever. you know what i mean?

my boyfriend, who doesn’t have avpd: no. no i do not know what you mean. that is literally the exact opposite of how my social anxiety works. i can’t even imagine how that would feel.

#they get regularly baffled by my avpd shit #bc our bad-at-people-ness as socially anxious autistics looks similar on the surface #but when you dig into it ive got all sorts of weird avpd shit going on that they can’t understand #poss.speaks #personal #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c

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betweenmee · 1 year

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I can’t even recognise myself anymore

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agonisingpain · 1 year

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I want to be touched but I avoid it as much as I can

I want to be heard but I don't speak

I want to be seen but I hide myself and make me invisible

I want true connection and intimacy with someone but I keep myself as distant as possible

I want love but I don't think I deserve it

It's difficult to live like this.

#depressing quotes #quotes #anxious #i am sad #vent #personality disorder #sad quote #vent post #depressing #depression #depressed #tw depressing thoughts #sadness #sad thoughts #anxiety #social anxiety #venting

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lastsecondsquirrel · 5 months

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I am so so tired of having the compassion for everyone else that they don't have for me

You're having a bad day? Let me pause my whole life so I can help you with that. Let me give you that book that is so so special to me knowing I won't be getting it back. Let me play along with your cruel jokes, tend to your wounds and carry you across the finish line

I'm having a bad day and I must apologize for feeling feelings in your direction I guess I should have tried harder but I'll see you next time you need something

#vent #rant #parentification #anxious avoidant #avoidant personality disorder #agoraphobia #personal vent #angry #emotional neglect #parentified child #compassion

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rottingskunkc0rpse · 3 months

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#trauma edit #vent edit #actually mentally ill #actuallytraumatized #cptsd #complex ptsd #borderline personality disorder #anxious #actually anxious #anxiety #generalized anxiety disorder #ventcore #traumacore

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simplyjustagirlsblog · 9 days

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solarianvoidthearoace · 1 month

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My (25X) cousin (27M) just texted me “I asked an adult, [here’s your answer]” – I love the guy :3

Context: a few hours ago I told him I didn’t dare asking an adult because I felt like every adult I could ask would just tell me I’m a silly little kid and obviously I’m at fault and how naive I was …basically calling me stupid because I put my laundry – from the dryer, mind you – into a laundry tub and didn’t sort it to put it away into my shelves

The issue is I did laundry last Saturday (9th March) and the clothes still feel faintly damp to the touch today (18th March) and accordingly they stink

I assume the adult he asked is his mom (who, honestly, I probably could have messaged but felt weird to talk to her about this; also fear of belittling)

Verdict:

Me: WTF, yo?

Cousin: okay, WTF?

Adult™️: WTF?

#anxious personality disorder #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #personal whining #personal whiny shit #I used X because I don’t ID as non-binary #but now I feel kinda weird about it #but like I don’t wanna write GQ or A – for genderqueer or agender respectively #I’ll just leave the X I guess

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yellowocaballero · 3 months

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Omg hi Ms. Yellow Caballero big fan of your work <3 For real though, I'm really excited that your sharing the Weekenders, it was a joy to read and I'm bongocat-ing now that others also get the privilege to read it as well.

Referencing your tags, would you please elaborate of ableism in fandom and, like you said, how fandom treats characters with unpalatable disabilities?

Hi Ms. Bud Lite I'm a big fan of you <3

TL;DR A fear of writing characters of highly marginalized identities shields you from criticism and discomfort, but it's actively stigmatizing to people of these identities and as a writer you really need to get over yourself and write The Icky People.

I guess I'll come out swinging on this one and say that fandom doesn't like severe mental illness. (As a note, when I say severe mental illness (SMI) I mean illnesses such as psychotic disorders, bipolar disorder, substance use disorders, personality disorders, etc)

Obviously, nobody likes people w/SMI. It's just insanely egregious in fandom to me, since fanfic writers absolutely love writing characters or HC characters with depression, anxiety, or a specific variety of PTSD That Isn't Scary. People actively reject any character HCs for a SMI. When people write a character with SMI, they nicely downplay it, ignore it, substitute it for a disorder they like better, or rewrite it. It's completely untolerated, in both headcanons and in fanfiction, and every time I bring it up I always get the most interesting reasons why somebody couldn't possibly acknowledge a character's SMI in their writing. I've heard all of these:

"I don't know enough about the disorder to write it accurately." Do research.

"I'm not X, so I can't really depict it." You probably aren't a cis white man, but you depict those guys just fine.

"It feels insulting to the character." There is no shame in having a SMI.

"I can't understand what it's like, so it's better to be cautious and avoid giving characters stigmatized identities." There are LOTS of experiences that you'll never understand because you've never had them - you just don't want to write anything you're uncomfortable with. People with SMI make you uncomfortable, and you don't want to write anything that makes you feel uncomfortable, or think of a comfort character in an uncomfortable way. SMIs are marginalized differently than solely depression/anxiety/The Nice PTSD, and by refusing to write them you're actively contributing to the stigma.

I think (?) I've spoken in the past about how I believe that the rigorous external and internal policing of writing people of marginalized identities is actively harmful towards efforts to increase diversity of experience and background in fiction. A lot of fanfiction writers are just terrified to write people who they can't directly relate with, because they're worried 'they'll get it wrong' and be Big Cancelled. I think this is negative enough when it prevents people from going outside of their comfort zone, but on a macro level I think this results in people refusing to write characters of marginalized identities as all. It's an insidious thought process, and it's reflected in people's unwillingness to diversity their writing or acknowledge canon diversity.

'Well, I don't understand what it's like to be Black, so I don't want to write Black people'. 'I want to project on this character, so I only want to write them with mental illnesses and identities I have'. 'If I write a marginalized character incorrectly people will yell at me, so I won't write a marginalized character who's marginalized differently than me at all'. Can you imagine writing a lesbian character with a boyfriend because 'you feel uncomfortable writing lesbian experiences'? It's blatantly homophobic. But people do that with disability and race/ethnicity ALL THE TIME.

People with SMI notice that you feel uncomfortable with them. It's obvious. They notice when a character has a SMI + anxiety, and you only write their anxiety. They notice when a character displays symptoms of a SMI in canon, but you write it out. And POC notice when the characters of color are written out. I know we all like to project on the blorbos and relate to them, and in the joys of your own head do whatever, but as a writer if you only stick to identities you're comfortable with you are actively being a worse writer. Which to me is the REAL sin lmfao.

#my asks #thanks for enabling me lizzy if i didn't get this out i would have just vagued for the rest of time #even just beyond all of this on a more subtle lvl. HC people with SMI cowards. just do it. its good for you.#the two times me/a close friend have proposed on a fandom server "hey I read X as having a SUD/being on the schizophrenic spectrum'#there was actual fascinating pushback and rejection #people got MAD.#'blorbo wouldn't be an alcoholic he's not a bad person :(' fuck off #i dont use the word often but its ableism and you can be mentally ill and still ableist #if you dont feel educated enough on something to write it then do research #and while research wont give you everything it's a start #if you feel like you can only write people just like you then frankly? skill issue #i mentioned that the last fic was a bit of a spite fic - well #it was scientifically fascinating how the majority of a fandom wrote/acknowledged a character as depressed and anxious #but actively got incredibly defensive when someone suggested that the psychotic character may have had a psychotic disorder #it was so blatant. very annoying. anyway.

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beautifuldarkmind · 1 year

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when you're trying to sleep but your brain decides it's time to start listing every awful thing about yourself :)

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borderline-culture-is · 19 days

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bpd culture + anxious/avoidant attachment is seeing your fp talking and laughing with someone else so you think don't look don't look at them don't even acknowledge what's happening just keep smiling because then it can't hurt you just don't look and everything will be fine and then realising this behaviour is reminiscent of a child covering their eyes in the dark because if you cant see the monster then the monster cant hurt you.

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#bpd + anxious/avoidant culture is #bpd + anxious/avoidant culture #bpd + anxious/avoidant #borderline culture is #borderline personality disorder #bpd culture is #bpd culture #bpd safe #bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #fp #bpd fp #fp bpd #anxious attachment #avoidant attachment #- 🍁

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void-aaa · 2 years

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Have you ever just reached the point where you stop collecting personalities and shut yourself off. Like I stopped being somebody I'm just being nobody, tired and exhausted.

#bpd #quiet bpd #mentally drained #mentally ill #mentally exhausted #anxious #borderline personality disorder #numb #vent post #bpd vent #v.rnt

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agonisingpain · 9 months

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It's not only about thoughts in my head, my whole body aches when I feel the urge to self harm.

It is truly an addiction.

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