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FALLING FOR YOU chapter: 5

~sope series~

Doctor Min and sickie hosoek

Hoseok keeps in touch with his doctor. The more they communicate the more feelings he has.

Tw: lots of fluff, In correct medical terms, mentions of emeto, adult language

previous chapter: the hospital chapter 4

Word count: 3,815

❝ you're not burdening me, my love. taking care of you is my responsibility. ❞

❝ you're perfect the way you are. ❞

❝ don't worry, I'll be here when you're awake. ❞

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Hoseok was finally home free. Dr. Min stayed by his side the entire time. Whenever he needed something he'd get it for hoseok, if there was a problem he would find a solution. Dr. Min also gave hoseok company. He'd talk with him about his experience as a doctor and a med student. Hoseok liked to hear the doctor talk about his life, in the short time he had known him he noticed Dr. Min didn't really share much of his personal life. Hoseok hoped to learn more. Once the Dr. released hoseok, yoongi was quick to offer hoseok a ride home. He knew for a fact that the medication Dr. brown gave him was quite strong. Far too strong to drive while having. He knew from prescribing it to many of his patients that it can make a person very drowsy. He also knew that taking it incorrectly can make the patient feel worse or heighten symptoms. The nurse gave hoseok the newly prescribed medication with his last meal before he was let go. Hosoek was starting to feel it now as he tried gathering his things. The medication sat heavy in his stomach along with the meal he had. It helped a lot with the pain in his stomach but he could feel the effects of it in his body. Hoseok yawned approximately for times as he was gathering his clothes into his bag, along with his charger and watch. yoongi counted in his head. All the more reason for yoongi to drive he thought.

Hoseok changed into new clothes. Once finished Dr. Min grabbed his things as well and began to walk towards the front of the hospital with hoseok. Once they reach Dr. Min's car hoseok stops. This catches yoongi attention and he stops as well. Hoseok felt a wave of guilt. The man had been helping him all day and all night for several days now and he's still helping him get home. Hoseok realizes that Dr. Min had taken a lot of time out of his day to help hoseok get better. " are you sure you want to drive me home. I can get a uber or I can call my neighbor up and ask for a ride. I just feel like a burden, you spent so much time helping me." yoongi looked at hoseok eyes he really wanted to help him but hoseok was feeling burdened all because of his help. yoongi really didn't mind helping the other. He just wanted him safe. No other reason. He told himself. Yoongi speaks up. " You're not burdening me, taking care of you is my responsibility as your doc-." "But your not my doctor?" " Mrs. Browns my doctor now. Hoseok blurted out. He felt bad immediately after. He felt rude for saying that. He was being rude to the person who's shown him so much care. But there just had to be a reason as to why yoongi was willing to help him so many times and for so long.

yoongi kinda snapped and got defensive. He knew hoseok wasn't dumb and that yoongi was more than a doctor helping out a patient. yoongi feared that it was more than that so he snapped. " your right! I'm not your doctor but I am A doctor. This means I can't just watch idly by when someone needs help. I couldn't help you figure out why you were feeling so bad but, I thought the least I could do is make sure you got home safe and wasn't feeling so bad. " yoongi looks to the ground feeling a bit bad that he let himself get a bit heated. " if you still want a ride I'm happy to give you one. I just really think you should ride with me so I can monitor you while you are on that medication. It's quite strong yoongi adds" yoongi made up an excuse to stay and take care of the other. " monitor?" hoseok says looking confused. " it's really strong, I've prescribed it to another patient before who hasn't had very good reactions to it. That's why when I met you I proscribed a much safer kind of medication." "I'm sorry," hoseok says looking gloomy. he put a hand on his stomach it was feeling odd again. " that was extremely rude of me. I know you're just trying to make sure I get better, and that you care a lot....... as a doctor." hoseok looks up to doctor min as he says the last sentence.

I'll take that ride." yoongi looks up. It's ok. They both hop inside the car and close the doors behind them. The first few minutes of the drive were dead silent. the only noise was the hum of the engine. Hoseok doesn't know if it was the little argument he started, the new meds, or the excessive bumps and potholes on the road but it all starts to take a toll on his stomach. They get on the highway. Dr. min drives faster. hoseok begins to feel sick. He doesn't dare look out the window. They're driving too fast and the blurry sight makes him feel worse. He keeps his head in his hands. He can feel the food shift around in his stomach. He hopes that he can just wait it out and just puke in the comfort of his own home if he has to. The feeling gets worse as Dr. MIn picks up the pace to go around a slow-driving car. Hoseok takes one of his hands and grasps the doors handle when the car jostles. His stomach isn't handling the movement well. He has to force down burps that come up each time his stomach jostles. He starts breathing roughly threw his nose, it doesn't help much in keeping him calm. His mouth begins to water. he's got to speak up or he'd make a mess in the incredibly clean car. Before he can even get the words out Dr. Min speaks out. Yoongi was lost in thought. He was upset at the conversation they had before leaving. He kept focused on the road as he thought. He was confused about his feelings for hoseok. He was mostly upset at himself for letting himself get angry and snapping at hoseok. Even if it's because he hasn't been geting much sleep lately. He had no excuse. He glanced over at hoseok. hoseoks hands were covering his face. yoongi watched as hoseok moved one hand from his face to the car's handle. " you ok?" Dr. Min asked in curiosity. Is your stomach giving you some trouble? " yoongi says looking back and forth between the sickly boy and the road. " actually..." hosoek starts. I'm not feeling very well. I think I need to stop." yoongi was confused for a moment. A little light bulb popped out of his head and he realized what the other man meant.

he quickly brought down his speed slowly and found a place to pull over. Hoseok was minutes away from puking but he swallowed back not wanting to make a mess. Swallowing only made it come back up faster. He moved his hand from coving his face and held his mouth instead. Yoongi was alarmed at how sick the boy felt so fast. He knew it wasn't a good idea to give him such a strong medication. This is exactly why he didn't proscribe it to him he thought. Yoongi makes it over to a patch of grass. Hoseok pulls on the handle that he's been holding onto so tightly. He steps out of the car and bends over the grass. He closes his eyes and opens his mouth. Sick he'd held captive in his mouth feel to the green grass. Another round came up. This time splattering, creating a puddle on the ground. He tries slowing down and taking a breath, but his body doesn't allow it. Causing him to bring up round after round. He felt energy leaving his body. He finally stops. He feels dizzy from vomiting so fast. His hands shake as he guides himself to the ground. He fells a calm hand on his back. It soothes him. Yoongi bends down closer. Hoseok seems to be enjoying the hand on his back. Hosoek sits back on his knees and tries to take in air into his lungs. He points his face up trying to escape the awful smell in front of him.

" Sorry, I feel much better now. " hoseok puffed out. hosoek moves his body further away from the puddle. He sits down and pulls his knees closer to his chest as he tries to catch his breath. Yoongi sits beside him. yoongi rubs his back and arm. " what happened?" yoongi asked. " I was a little carsick is all. It happens sometimes. I'm sorry I should have mentioned it." hoseok says in between breaths. " no, it's not your fault, I should have driven a bit slower. I just was lost in thought and got carried away." hoseok finally caught his breath. he stayed silent after Dr. Min's last sentence. He didn't feel like talking he still felt like a burden. He rested his head on his knees holding them together with his arms and staring at Dr. Min with his deep brown eyes. Hoseok was so tired he could fall asleep right where he sat. especially with the Dr. rubbing his back. He couldn't explain it, it was just so soothing. Hosoek yawns, and rubs his eyes. " we should get you home you're probably super tired after that." yoongi says rising to his feet. " no no let's go get some food first. " hoseok says still sitting on the ground. " really I owe you for all your help. " hoseok says geting up from the ground. " I thought you weren't feeling very well," yoongi says confused. " I'm doing much better throwing up helped a lot. Hoseok was lying. He still felt sick to his stomach and motion sickness usually lingered with him until he takes time to rest. I promise I was just a little motion sick." yoongi looks skeptical. " come on, please? I'm sure you are hungry, I haven't seen you eat very much. It's on me" he couldn't eat much when he was stressed yoongi thought." he'd been stressing over hosoek at the hospital. Plus he just hates the food there he always packs a lunch before going to work.

"fine" Dr. Min says, " only if you get yourself water where ever we eat."

"yay, hosoek says as he walks to the passenger seat of the car. They drive over and hoseok picks out his favorite restaurant. They sat at a table. The waitress asked what they would be having. They both looked at the menu. Hoseok wasn't hungry but he wanted to prove to the Dr. that he was doing better and that he didn't have to worry about himself. He ordered his usual. he'd regret that later. Dr. min noticed that they were serving one of his favorite meals and he ordered, that. Once their meals arrive Dr. Min chows down. He didn't realize just how hungry he was until he started eating. The food was great. Hoseok was trying hard not to seem suspicious. He had to force each fork full of his meal down. Each bite sat heavy in his stomach. He began to sweat. He was having an extremely hard time eating. He felt an extremely strong wave of nausea and quickly gulped down water. Yoongi saw and laughed a little bit. " you must be very thirsty." Yoongi calls the waiter over to get hoseok a refill of water. Hosoek really wishes Dr. Min didn't. He had to force the second cup down not wanting to cause any suspicion. He felt his stomach rage against the water.

He felt it coming back up his throat. He excused himself from the table. " Sorry, doc I'm gonna head to the bathroom a moment." Hosoek got up quickly and went off to the bathroom. Luckily this is his favorite restaurant so he knew exactly where it was. He pushed threw the door. it was relatively empty to his luck. He found the cleanest stall and waited for hell to break loose. Yoongi didn't think much of hoseok's disappearance. He just sat quietly and at his food. Hoseok wipes sweat from his face after he threw up his undigested meal. He stood hunched over the toilet waiting for another round. He felt terrible. He threw up another round and managed to gain control over his stomach. The dizziness was far stronger than before. He cleaned up and left the bathroom. A terrible bout of dizziness and nausea hit him outside the bathroom. He felt like he could tip over from the dizziness. He sat down outside the bathroom on a bench. He waited for the feeling to pass. As he waited he could feel pain rise in his stomach. He looked at his watch. The meds must have been wearing off. It's time to take another dosage. He had to tell Dr. Min but couldn't get up. With all the pain and dizziness he could get himself to move.

Thirty mins when by. Yoongi was geting very worried. He wants to give the man privacy but he feared something happened. The Image of hosoek limp body that night he found him popped into his head. He swiftly got up. Alarming those around him who were eating. Yoongi walked till he found a waiter and asked where the bathroom was. The waiter pointed to a back wall that lead to another area. He quickly walked to the area. Anxiety puts fearful thoughts into his brain. He was about to walk straight past hosoek but he saw him from the corner of his eye. Hosoek looked down and he had a hand on his stomach. Dr. Min put a hand on his back. " hoseok, let's go get your meds and take you home." hoseok didn't protest as yoongi threw and his arm over his shoulder and guided him out of the loud restaurant. Hoseok felt weak as he walked. But pushed on anyway wanting to get home. Yoongi took hosoek to the pharmacy market and got his medication. Yoongi drove carefully as he took hoseok home. When they reached hoseok house it was late in the afternoon. Hoseok was weak, tired, and nauseous, and his stomach hurt. He explained to yoongi when hoseok was home. yoongi sat hoseok down on hosoek's couch. yoongi took water out of hoseok's fridge. he pulled crackers out of his cabinet and gave the items to hoseok as he administered the meds. "Here," yoongi says. " take these.." Hoseok does as the doctor asks. He helps hosoek lay down in bed and get comfortable. " alright Mr. Jung." "thank you so much for the lunch I really appreciate it. I really do hope you start to feel better.

Yoongi walks toward the door. "wait. Please. " hoseok exclaims. " I know you're probably tired but please please don't leave me alone." Hoseok didn't want to be left alone with his thoughts and with how terrible he is feeling. Yoongi looked sadden. It's the first time hoseok sees him so sad. Hoseok knew he was being selfish again. "please." hoseok says eyes watering. Yoongi was extremely tired. But his feeling for hoseok overcame the way he was feeling. hoseok was so kind to him even through his sickness. Yoongi was beyond only wanting to help or feeling bad for him because he was so sick. Hoseok had something that he couldn't describe. He brighten yoongi's mood and it made yoongi want to stay around him. yoongi silently let go of the door handle. yoongi simply can't resist. "ok, I'll stay yoongi says walking up to hoseok who lies on the bed. He asked hoseok, what happened at the restaurant. be honest." yoongi says sitting on the edge of hosoek bed and the furthest end. yoongi was tired of standing he just wanted somewhere to sit. " I felt nauseous. that's why I went to the bathroom. I threw up a few times and I felt my stomach begin to hurt as I tried to exit. Which is why I was sitting on the bench." both of them were silent. hoseok was feeling bad for being caught in a lie. He felt the need to explain himself. " I just wanted you to know I was geting better but it got worse. "Jung.... you really scared me." He felt his voice wobble. I worry about you a lot. a lot more than my other patients" yoongi scoffs and hoseok laughs a bit. I've been giving you a lot of trouble, haven't I?" " yes, you have " yoongi says bluntly. hoseok laughs.

Yoongi thought the mood was geting lighter after the joke he made but hoseok burst into tears. " I'm really sorry Dr. Min. I'm so stupid, I shouldn't have lied to a doctor." yoongi leans a little closer to hoseok. " hoseok don't you ever say that about yourself. You're perfect the way you are. you are not stupid." hoseok blushed and looked down. yoongi's hand was on top of his again. Yoongi saw and moved his hand away. why did he keep doing that he thought? An awkward silence fell. yoongi kept the other company as hoseok lay in his bed sleeping. Yoongi's body was hurt. His back was killing him and it was night outside. " hoseok? yoongi says softly, his voice sounding sleepy. I'm gonna go lay on your couch." yoongi whispers. Sleepy hoseok looks at Dr. Min. " don't worry I'll be here when you wake up I'm not leaving. " Yoongi was absolutely exhausted he hand to lay down." Hoseok lays back as yoongi leaves the room. Yoongi settles onto hoseoks couch. He took a look at the door, it was still busted. He felt his eyelids get heavy as he fell asleep. Shivering as he slept.

An hour into yoongi's sleep He hears someone call his name.

hoseok couldn't stay asleep knowing Dr. min was on his couch. Dr. min has done so much for him. He went from a night of no sleep. To two nights sleeping in the chair of a hospital room. He felt bad that Dr. Min barely even got any sleep. So, He got up. He sees yoongi sleeping on the couch. He calls out to him. Dr. Min, he whispers. Yoongi turns over in his sleep. Hoseok calls again. He walks over to the sleeping doctor. He looks so small curled up on the couch. Dr. Min, whispers, Come sleep in my bed, it is more comfortable. I feel bad for making you sleep here. Yoongi felt hoseoks soft hand touch his shoulder. Yoongi felt like he was in a vivid dream. He thought he was in a dream. Surely this couldn't be real. hoseok guided the small man to his room. Yoongi couldn't feel himself climb in he was just there somehow. everything around him was hazy and dreamlike. Yoongi eyes are hard to keep open as he watches hoseok enter the bed and face him. They stayed apart, but somehow they got closer and closer as they slept. Yoongi opened his eyes and he was in the dream-like state again. He was laying on his side and hoseok was too in front of him. Yoongi took his arms and wrapped them around Hosoek. Thinking that if this is a dream he might as well make the best of it. Everything felt so real. Hoseok's soft breath rose and fell with his warm body against his own.

Yoongi didn't want to let go so he didn't. The last thing yoongi felt in his sleepy mind was hoseok grasping onto yoongi holding him back. hoseok was engulfed in warmth. He can't believe Dr. Min is actually laying here with him. though it was exciting he felt somehow extremely calm. Being here, with Dr. Min, he didn't feel sad. he didn't feel lonely about his friends and family being out of town. IN yoongi's arms he felt safe. They rested well threw the night. So did yoongi. He hadn't slept with someone in years now. Just to hold someone and feel their warmth made yoongi's heart feel indescribable. Hoseok held on to Dr. Min as he slept not ever wanting to let go. Dr. Min was allowing himself to be vulnerable and sleep with him. Maybe this was the start of something new hoseok thought. This is the sweetest dream yoongi has ever had. A bright light hits yoongi's eyes directly making him blink. His mind was groggy. He felt pins and needles in his arm. It was under something. Yoongi opened his eyes wide and sat up quickly. his heart was racing. He thought he was dreaming of laying with hoseok he didn't know it was real. This startles hoseok awake. Hoseok stares at yoongi as yoongi quickly gets up from the bed. Yoongi slides on his shoes he doesn't even recall taking them off. " Dr. Min?" hoseok says yoongi doesn't respond. Yoongi makes a move for the door but feels tightness around his wrist. "wait ? tell me what's wrong" hoseok thought Dr. liked this, being with him what changed? was he mistaken?"

"THIS!" yoongi says angrily. Angry that he let himself get comfortable. angry that he let hoseok see his true feelings. yoongi quiets down his voice this time when he speaks. "This is wrong hosoek.." hoseok can feel his eyes well up. "you. were. my patient, I could be fired for this. I shouldn't have let myself get carried away. " Yoongi grabs his things and storms off yoongi closes the door to hoseoks apartment. He walked to his car feeling intense anger and grogginess. What was wrong with him he thought. Hosoek lays back down on his bed for the rest of the day. He doesn't eat. He doesn't sleep. he just lays there crying looking at the ceiling. He stays that way until nightfall. He doesn't hear from yoongi again. Yoongi is extremely upset. lots of emotions run threw his head as he drives home. when he gets there he drops his bag and sits on the floor. He curls into a ball and puts his hands in his hair. Anxiety runs threw his body. He yelled at hoseok. the same person that has been so nice to him. The person who was taken to the hospital a few days before. The person that felt like a dream in his arms literally a few minutes ago The person he broke a door for and could have gotten in trouble for being around. He did it anyway all cause he wanted to know hoseok was safe. He wanted to be there for hoseok. Yoongi sat and thought for a really long time. He came to the conclusion that he can no longer fight his feeling for hoseok, he found it to be pointless and only hurt the other. He couldn't imagine himself not being around hoseok. but he knows he hurt him. He knew hoseok felt something too no matter how hard yoongi tried to avoid and ignore it.

Yoongi thought long and hard all day about the situation. he came to a final conclusion. He has to fix things. If he's going to keep this thing he has between hoseok he should do it right.

Yoongi picked up his phone and sends a text to hoseok...

yoongi texts hoseok.

Dr. Min: hoseok can we talk in person?

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