#antares talks

[victoriadallonfan]

Victoria: “Who’s a good girl? You are! Yes you are! Who wants a hug?”

Tattletale (rolling her eyes and raising her arms): “Well fine, if you’re that touched starved, hon-“

Victoria: “Hm? Oh, sorry, I was talking to my forcefield. Did you say something Tattletale?”

Tattletale: rapidly wishes to cease existing

#it must tough to have Victoria just talk to herself #literally and metaphorically #and powerly #parahumans #wildbow #ward #ward web serial #victoria dallon #antares #wardblr #glory girl #tattletale #lisa wilbourn

[lyriumlullaby-ao3]

hello i’m back from the dead (sleeping) and it’s time to talk about

why Cullen won’t let anyone fix the hole in his ceiling 💖

someone has probably said this before but it wasn’t me, so here we go!

so remember that Ser Cullen Stanton Rutherford of Honnleath grew up with three siblings, who he describes as being “very loud.” i see him as always being a very disciplined child, kind and warm and willing to let Mia take charge (because fighting her for it would have been useless), but a steadfast follower with a keen sense of justice and fairness, willing to voice his objections when he had any, and very fastidious about not breaking rules when Mia or Branson tried to stir up trouble. you know, that whole second child archetype. he was prone to a bit of escapism, running off to that pier on some lake which is definitely not in Crestwood, which tells us he likes having somewhere to escape to, somewhere to run if he gets overwhelmed.

skipping forward a bit, when he lived in Kirkwall, he had quite a bit of freedom to come and go physically, but to me at least it seems like he felt trapped by his duties under Meredith. he explicitly describes her keeping things from him, things she thought he’d disagree with as her second in command. he felt lied to, deceived, manipulated by her (bc he was), i think, even before the events at the end of DA2 that expose her for what she is. can you imagine that feeling? like he actually wants to do good, to treat the mages fairly and help keep them and everyone else safe (that’s why he signed up, after all), but he’s got this nasty, evil commanding officer who’s whispering in his ear, twisting all that good intention to do her malicious bidding. it must have felt like beating his head against a brick wall, like no matter what he did, his sincere desire to believe that other people are fundamentally good disappointed him. i always say that Meredith gave Cullen just enough rope to hang himself with.

jumping forward again, let’s talk about the Winter Palace. Cullen is very obviously uncomfortable there, and it makes sense why: he can’t leave, not without being extraordinarily rude, can’t get away from the people bothering and sexually harassing him, can’t get out of that jacket that is too damn tight. if you bring Cole with you, at one point in his ‘Investigate’ tree he comments that, “Cullen is afraid. They’re hurting him, following fear. He shouldn’t be here.”

all of this is just to illustrate: man’s got a Thing about feeling trapped, stuck, unable to fight back or defend himself or just flat out leave. and why does he have such a hard time with this?

because of that one time that Uldred blew up the Circle at Kinloch Hold in Ferelden. for reasons we don’t fully grasp, rather than being claimed by the demons or simply killed in the fighting, Cullen held out. he resisted demonic possession completely, somehow, and was instead trapped within that magical prison with no possibility of escape, probably for weeks. no escape from his hunger, thirst, or lyrium withdrawal, and no escape from the (probably Desire) demon(s) that tortured him with freedom if he’d only give in to those things he won’t quite allow himself to want.

so the fact that there’s a hole in his ceiling, even months into the repairs at Skyhold, when almost everything else has been fixed but a few, hard-to-access bits of masonry, is not lost on me. and sure, you could always blame it on lighting for the romance scene that takes place up there. but i like to think that it’s there because Cullen refuses to let them fix it. here’s why:

Cullen doesn’t like to stray far from his post. he likes that there’s a loft with a bed where he can pretend to sleep that’s not far from his desk, where he commands the lives of thousands of people. (i think at one point in Absolution, it’s revealed that at its height, the Inquisition was composed of ~10,000 troops, plus all the necessary support personnel.) the fate of the world is quite literally depending on his ability to do his job, and when the lyrium withdrawals make him feel like he must be losing his mind, he likes that he’s got an easy choice between resting (like he knows he probably should) or working (like he knows he really needs to), separated only by a little wooden ladder and a few planks that make up the floor.

he needs that little hole in the ceiling. if ever something happened at Skyhold, and it wasn’t safe or possible to leave through the three fucking doors on the lower level, he needs a back up plan, a way to get out from the top of that tower, or he’s every bit as trapped as he was at the Winter Palace, or by Meredith, or by Uldred and his demons, and he can’t be, not here, not with so many lives in his hands. not after Haven.

he needs it when he wakes up shouting, drenched in sweat, from another nightmare where he’s back there, trapped with demons who’ve murdered or enslaved your brothers and sisters and are trying to break you next, or pinned under Meredith’s thumb, doing things that he knows are wrong, he knows, but she’s his commanding officer and he trusts her, so how wrong can they really be? he needs it, first thing when he opens his eyes, to know he’s got an escape route, a backup plan. he’s safe.

and when he finally gives in to temptation, that thing he wants more than anything that he really shouldn’t let himself want, when the Inquisitor confesses that she wants to be with him when this is all over and he very dramatically sweeps aside everything on his desk, his whole life, shattering it all over the floor, he needs that little patch of sky to remind him it’s real. he’s free to leave whenever he needs to.

and that’s what allows him to stay.

#anyway this got long lmfao #but yeah. the reason why cullen still has a hole in his ceiling :) #cullen rutherford #dragon age #meta #dragon age meta #i’d like to personally rip meredith standard’s throat out with my TEETH but. that’s a different post #ask me about it sometime it’s a good ted talk #antares speaks #there’s like a little bit of #cullenmance #in here so i’ll tag that too :) #antares' meta

[desicowgirl]

It has been four months and I still have not adjusted to antar's passing. I habitually still sleep on the right side of my bed, as if he still comes sneaking in the night looking for warmth. I move around where his water bowl was placed as if it is still there. I say oh I'll feed this to antar as if he is still around to eat. I feel textures and think antar would love to nap on this as if he is still here. I miss my companion so much and the solace he brought me. I've been having a lot of rough days recently and the only comfort I can think of is curling up with him on the floor and absentmindedly petting his head and relaxing at the sound of his purring. I also don't ever bring it up to my friends because I don't need them thinking I am unhinged grieving my dead cat four months later like yeah he is a cat but he brought so much love in my life and I miss him dearly.

#antar shaped hole in my heart #talking to myself #not to be dramatic...but uhmm I miss my cat lol #antar #bea speaks

[i-bring-crack]

My Sunshine and Midnight rain couple but the Sunshine is an atomic bomb and the rain is made of acid

#im talking about Antares/Ashborn #pry it out my cold dead hands #solo leveling

[windypuddle]

james t kirk is not only brave but also intelligent and a nerd and a good starship captain but by god you make that man a mediator in a political situation and hes just trying not to punch someone

#puddle talks #star trek #star trek tos #james t kirk #im reading the antares maelstrom by greg cox

[multeasers]

Man who is consistently in looney tunes ass situations : how am I in a looney tunes ass situation

#🌊 ( ooc ) : mun talking #SCREAMING CRYING.... I'LL BE LURKING LATER PROBABLY BUT THATS IT #oh but . I will be adding / changing up some of antares's info . At least a little #mainly au stuff but also default stuff too #But LORD I got sick again ( TWICE !! ) and then my grandma was supposed to be moving back in #but now we have to drive four hours south just to take her to an appointment that NOBODY knew she had prior #dissolving into the ground as we speak . I'm so tired #Update as of nearly an hour after posting this one but #I feel like I am gettin a stye in my eye.... when I said looney tunes situation i meant from how chaotic #everything has been feeling !!!

[antares0606]

"Chaos is in the eye of the beholder, and what is disorder to one soul is harmony for another." Vampiric-Charms

So, there are a lot of posts encouraging folk to read "old" fics. After a long absence from writing/reading fanfiction, I joined AO3 early last year, and somehow, by some incredibly good fortune, this work was where I first landed. Vampiric_Charms wrote the series "Burns Most of All" which was followed by "Feeding the sheep is prohibited" where they were joined by co-author @naamah-beherit, and the two series will forever be in my top ten, forever in my heart. Yes, I ship Melkor & Mairon, and it is all their fault.

I was new to AO3, tumblr wasn't even on my radar (thank you writers for posting amazing stories that ended with "follow me on tumblr" 🤬💖), fanfiction etiquette had changed over the years. I don't remember leaving comments (if I did, I would now likely find them embarrassing), I may not have left kudos. And I really, really regret not doing either of those things.

Don't just tell people to read "old" fics (7 years is not old!), share the stories that you love, and if you want, tell how you found them and why you love them. I'm going to keep doing this (with a very short post, I swear), and you can read it or scroll, it's my tumblr too. It's a small way of saying thank you to all the writers brave enough to put their work out there for all of us.

#fan fiction writer appreciation #antares is having an emotional day #antares does ted talks

[puphoods]

32 for whichever oc has the Strangest Habbits

32. do they have any habits that aren't particularly self-destructive, just maybe odd? ugh thats so hard to think of lol... i think antares has pica but they are also like. not human so eating isnt something she would ordinarily need to do in the first place. unless i change my mind about that.

its mostly going to be a list of BFRDs from here on if i say anything else tbh

#answered asks #my ocs #antares #<- pretty sure their tag is empty sorry i should talk abt her more... #idk whats considered an odd or strange habit forgive me

[skhardwarevers1]

one time I was thinking abt Endri’s place amongst other godly figures and remembered that Polaris fucking hates everyone and would probably be polite for about two seconds before getting someone nicer than her to ask them to “kindly get the fuck out”

#S.K brain dumps #This has been in my head for ages Polaris does NOT like people #She tolerates Crux #She banished Antares and Regulus for being annoying little shits and don’t even mention Procyon to her #She doesn’t talk about Epsilon cuz she’s jealous that while Epsilon was in her prime she caused multiple extinctions /hj #It’s actually because Epsilon kinda was fucking crazy and so she had an actual reason to banish her

[victoriadallonfan]

Victoria: “Let’s talk this out, like rational, sane-“

Someone throws a pebble at her

Pebble bounces off of her forcefield harmlessly

Kenzie (pebble lightly taps her shoulder): “Heh, ouch.”

Victoria: “YOUR FREE TRIAL TO LIVING HAS JUST EXPIRED”

#Victoria believes in brokering peace talks #sorry I meant you will broken and in pieces if you don’t want to talk #and if you so much as scowl at Kenzie #and she’s the nice one! #parahumans #wildbow #ward #victoria dallon #antares #ward web serial #glory girl #kenzie martin #lookout

[lyriumlullaby-ao3]

god they really did do Justice kinda dirty in da2, huh

#antares speaks #no listen!! hear me out #i LOVE the character choice to have him join with Anders i think it’s perfect #i just wish they’d let him be his own character still more than just like… Anders’ understudy :/ #he’s so interesting and tbh i wish you heard him and Anders speak to each other out loud!!!! #but of course they weren’t going to do that 😒😒 #can’t be seen to be showing humanity to ppl who talk to themselves or… idk how to talk about this right bc i don’t know very much about it #so forgive me if my language is clumsy!! #but like some people have more than one personality or ‘voice’ i guess in their heads and that’s totally cool and we COULD let it be normal #just give me Anders AND Justice as distinct(ish) entities even even they get confused about who’s who!! #let me interact more w Justice!!! he’s in there even when Anders is being Normal:tm: and he could have been his own character still!!!! #give me back my friend okay :c #anders dragon age #justice dragon age #dragon age 2 #dragon age awakening #i’m playing awakening again and i’m having SOOOO many anders + justice feels :((( 💔💖✨ #okay sorry for giving a ted talk in the tags. it will happen again lol

[ask-bet-anon]

(No no no, Bet as Kris and the anons as the soul, so that way we can have Lunar as Susie and have Chaos Trio)

Guess that answers who Susie would be. Cus I can't imagine anyone else in that position with Antares as Kris

#mod life #au talk #poor Bet hurts Shai in two universes #though Antares and Lunar feel slightly more fitting

[i-bring-crack]

Antares x Jinwoo but Antares has a vessel and its Cha Hae-In. He can only use her when her power is on the brim so he doesn't have full control of Haein. Either way Jinwoo suffers the bisexuality panic because on one hand he does like Haein and her kind to dominating nature and he also likes Antares' spiritual form and honestly it's even worse that they are both his enemies—

#solo leveling #sung jin woo #cha hae in #sl antares #See my vision? #best part is antares and haein bickering and them looking crazy to the rest because they are technically #talking to invisible beings #anyways haein likes jinwoo while antares likes the shadow monarch #so its a win win for them but loose for having to deal with each other. #they compromise somehow

[larkkspuur]

cant think of anything else but minecraft rn

#olitalks #antares needs to TALK to some people cause SHIT! IS! HAPPENIN! lmao #things are popping off in kingdom recently #i gotta talk to people as ant and im VIBRATING

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[lefluoritesys]

A breakdown of apps you can use to communicate with your alters as separate people and write down information about them online and offline with their pros, cons, and a personal rating because I really needed it when I was new to being a system:

Note: by "PC" I mean any computer/macbook/etc. By "all devices" I mean PC, mobile, tablet, iPad, etc.

I apologize for mistakes in advance.

1. Antar: An app created to chat with your "inner self," found in both Play Store and AppStore. One of the more popular ones among systems. It is an app where you get to create personas that would be chatting with each other in chats called "sessions." Those sessions can either be given a name or just left named after the date they were created on. Each persona is given a color that would become the color of their messages in sessions. Offline app.

Pros: Fiarly easy to use, no in-depth information needed to access it fully. Biometric lock; 4 languages (English, Chinese, Hindi, Spanish) for the system, however any language can be used via text; no limit to the amount of personas added (as far as I'm aware). Messages sent by the wrong persona can be changed; the "quote" feature allows you to start a thread under a message; provides descriptions of each persona. You can also give your personas an avatar rather than just a color. Has a "replay" and "visualization" feature, though I'd say it's strictly just for funzies.

Cons: Not available on PC; has no backup, phone-related resets or deletion of the app results in all information lost. Session order constantly changes depending on which senssion you entered, which in my opinion (+OCD) is a nuisance; you can't delete the "me" character which I've been wanting to do for a while. Can't add hexcodes.

Personal rating: 6/10. If you need an app that you can lock from unwanted visitors, if you don't mind and even prefer something simple, and if you don't care that the conversations might disappear, this app is a good choice.

2. Discord's PluralKit: A more avdanced discord bot with tons of settings and commands that was created specifically for systems. Allows you to add almost any information about your system memebers, even such things as birthdays. The way it works is, it "proxies" your messages with a certain command somewhere in the "normal" message, sends a message identical to yours from a bot created with the name you chose, and deletes your original message. Basically replaces a message from your account with a message from a bot you created earlier. Proxies are small commands that give the both a green light to do that, and they can be whatever you want them to be. Online bot.

Pros: Feels like different people are talking; allows you to track your switches; available on all devices; one system can be linked to multiple accounts, although you can't create multiple systems under one account; allows you to group alters together; allows you to restrict access to certain information from all users; allows you to add as many alters as you want; has a number of ways you can access the information you put in which would all be sorted and organized for you; autoproxy allows you to not proxy every message you sent; since you can't delete messages of other people on servers that are not yours, and the bot messages are not, in fact, yours, PluralKit allows you to react to the message with an emoji that deletes the proxied message; while you can't use it in DMs, you can set up commands in DMs with the bot; every memeber has a unique code, and so does the system itself, and it records when the member was created; can be exported to SimplyPlural.

Cons: Commands are difficult and complex, and so is the dashboard; can only be used on servers; sometimes offline as all bots are, though rarely; you can't use it anywhere outside discord (a con for those who don't use discord); I had instances where I saw people use it for roleplay which is also allowed; proxies are a pain; you'd need a guide to tell you why certain things are needed in it; you cannot reply to messages with gifs when using a proxy; when being exported to SimplyPlural it exports everything, so if you had 10 members on SimplyPlural and 15 on PluralKit, it's best to add those 5 manually than delete 10 new exported alters (I did it with 100+ alters by accident and it was a pain).

Personal rating: 9/10. Complex, difficult to figure out, but once you get ahold of it and how it works, you'd be amazed. Also a pain that you can't use it in DMs, but it's to be expected from a bot. And you can always create a server with just you.

3. Discord's Tupperbox: A discord bot created mainly for roleplay, but actively used by systems who cannot get along with PluralKit. A simpler bot, easy to use and figure out, most things can be done via dashboard, doesn't have the opportunity to add a lot of inofrmation. Online bot.

Pros: Simple; allows grouping alters; allows different tags for different members and groups, sometimes individually; way simpler commands, and most things can be added via dashboard; looks and works almost the same as PluralKit when in a conversation; available on all devices.

Cons: Can't add avatars via dashboard, only using the commands; can't add two alters with the same name (which you can do with PluralKit); people reported it glitching out and deleting members; mainly used for roleplay; gives a weird list of members via commands that is unusable in my experience; doesn't work out of discord.

Personal rating: 7/10. Perfect for people who just want to talk and not write down information about them with the bot, but the threat of members being deleted, especially as a larger system, is concerning. We mainly use it for OSDD-1a subsystems. It was also not created for systems, as far as I'm aware. I see more cons than pros.

4. Simply Plural: Another more well-known tool used and created for systems. Simply Plural is an app that allows you to create profiles of your members and add any information you'd like about them via custom fields. It has a chat feature, allows you to track your front and switch history, add friends, and many more. Supports endogenic systems (which is being mentioned not for discorse purposes but as a fact. Whether you find it good or not is up to you) and allows singlets to create profiles as well, although I don't know a lot about that part. Both offline and online app.

Pros (and a bit about the app): Backup included; tracks your switches and front, allows you to change exact time for them, too (24-hour clock down to minutes included); the polls feature works like polls on same Tumblr and everywhere else but specifically for your system memebrs; analytics provide information about who fronts the most, during what time of day they usually front; you and your friends can see each other's profiles, which is why singlets can also create profiles, which allows you to acces info about each other's systems; "trusted people" feature allows you to pick whether you want everybody to see your alters or not, or if you want outsiders to see your profile at all; provides resources and guides to plurality (which I personally haven't checked, but still putting it in the pros, if somebody thinks I shouldn't, let me know); has an app reminders feature; you can add as much information as you want; front history shows up in a person's profile; alters can add notes; alter groups are available; available on all devices, however, only as a website on PC; colors of your alters can be used in the chat to highlight names; hexcodes are available; "custom front" is a status you set with fronting which can be hilarious sometimes; connects to PluralKit in a number of ways.

Cons: The chat feature is a bit difficult to use, and first time I did, I freaked out because I couldn't get out of it (the trick is to go to "channels" and press "navigation", there you'll see the dashboard); friends can't communicate with each other; copy-pasting is hard on both mobile and PC; something about the interface and navigation irks me and our visually impaired self; notes have same visibility as the profile itself, which is inconvenient if you want your profile to be seen but not your notes; avatars can't be added via website.

Personal rating: 6/10. I don't like how it looks and works (probably due to being visually impaired and other issues), but if you manage to get the information in it, it's pretty accessible and thoughtful of what systems might need. Could be used as a tool to start working with your system rather than do it long-term.

5. Twinote: An app that is your "personal Twitter." Pretty sure it was created for the purpose of having fun rather communicating with alters. Offline app.

Pros: Backup provided; allows "private accounts" that other "users" can't see; can create as many users as you want, as many posts as you want; can upload up to 4 images; works almost like Twitter; has a chat feature; comments, retweets, likes are present; "lists" feature allows you to group users and see only their messages which could be used for "things only protectors sent" and such; storage shows all pictures used in the app, so you won't lose anything; tagging and following people is still an option, and following private accounts give that user an opportunity to be the only one seeing their tweets.

Cons: Can't upload videos; can't do much with anything other than posts and profiles, so trends and other stuff there is off-limits (as far as I know); you have to constantly switch between profiles for the chat feature; share button only shares the contents of the message; very easy to accidentally press the wrong button and delete a tweet by dragging it left (which I almost did a few times).

Personal rating: 7,5/10. I know it's probably annoying that I didn't just type either 7 or 8, but the reaosn why is cause I have mixed feelings about it from a practical point of view. We use it strictly to communicate what we did during the day as a small journal and just joke with each other, and it's incredibly funny in itself, but it doesn't allow you to write down a lot of information about your alters and has a character limit in profiles. So it's strictly for communication.

6. Notion: An app created as a dashboard for literally everything you could ever dream of. You can personalize it however you want and use it for whatever you want. Those who saw the post we made a while ago probably know the reason I'm mentioning it is due to a template that I linked here. Online app.

Pros: Can be used for literally everything without limits; available on all devices; big and has enough storage for a lot of information, text, projects, etc; can be designed however you want; a lot of useful templates for all life instances (even taxes); can be shared with people who also use Notion in a variety of ways (either only comment, only see, etc); can add your own custom covers and icons via both gallery and links; looks neat and doesn't mess with visual impairment for us; can add a page in a page in a page which can be used for diaries; links to different pages on other pages are also available; endless possibilities, I could rant all day.

Cons: Glitches on the phone a lot; certain things are allowed on computer and not on mobile and vice versa; all templates available only on PC; you need to have an account in order to use it; glitches if it's offline; sometimes deletes a bunch of text because of glitches, usually the triggers for it are writing a lot in it directly or erasing previous text a bunch of times; can't invite someone in your space, it would take too much storage; some storage needs to be bought, although, I don't know the limit (but there's a lot. Like, a lot)

Personal rating: 9/10. With all its antics, I love this app dearly, it's incredibly useful, and you learn to deal with the cons. It's the best one I've used for communication and information storage so far.

7. Texting Stories app: As ridiculous as it sounds, it could be used as a tool to communicate with your alters, especially in secret. We are fighting for our safety here, so I ask you to take this suggestion seriously. Could be used when you don't want to let anyone know you're a system and have noisy family members/relatives/etc who like to snoop through you personal devices, by using it, you can say you've just been doing a story. Offline app.

Pros: I believe you can add as many people as you want; can add avatars; different stories can be different days of the week; easy to use; easy to brush off as "just making stories."

Cons: Can't change colors, you need to pay for most things.

Personal rating: 5/10. Can be used for emergencies and communication only, although we haven't used it much.

8. Notes: Just the same plain old notes app on your phone that everybody has installed as default. Offline app.

Pros: Easy to use; can be easily lost within your other notes for privacy; used for literally everything you desire, even drawing; automatic backup.

Cons: Doesn't give you the ability to really present as separate people; doesn't have as many options as Notion.

Personal rating: 5/10. used it at some point just for communication, was cool, somple, easy, but nothing too big.

I hope this helped to put these apps in perspective. I do apologize for it being a bit all over the place, but I did attempt to make it coherent enough (I am currently in a psychotic state, it's difficult for me to communicate). And remember, there are always options to use a written journal rather than a digital one. If anything, it's better to keep both in case one gets lost. Who knows, maybe our parents asking us what we would do if the internet disappeared is actually a warning. /j /nm

-host

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