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#another vent post
antiocheanism · 10 months
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was overthinking whether or not i should tag queued posts for days just because after i overdosed a supposed "friend" didn't even ask if i was okay for days and when i said that made me upset they used "you were posting like normal on tumblr" as an excuse and tried to make me feel unreasonable for feeling that way so now my mindset is basically that if i don't make it clear that im not online when im not or if i post happy things when im not happy it'll be used to hurt me. but like it literally doesn't matter. it's posts on the web. amazing what a bad enough relationship will do to your brain weeks/months/years after it ended. i don't usually see myself as particularly irrational or neurotic
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awakefor48hours · 9 months
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[ID: two panel meme from The Office. In the first panel is Pam showing off two images but they’re edited so the image on the right says “women” and the one of the left says “a sex object.” The second panel is Pam, who is labeled as “straight men,” saying “they’re the same picture”/End of ID]
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dilamo · 2 months
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I can always sense when a woman is being mean/toxic to me even if it is passive agressive.
But men, Oh god!
I freaking can't tell that, It's way too subtle. I'm not talking about men fighting with each other. I'm talking about the subtle and nuisance way of toxicity projected by manipulative men.
WHY ARE THESE BAD VIBES SO SUBTLE?
Or Am I a bad judge of character? 🤔🤔
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thediktatortot · 2 years
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Not people saying “Fandom has always been like this” in that vent post I made. No. It hasn’t always been like this. Fandom has NEVER been like this until recently and if you were in fandom pre-tumblr purge, pre-twitter, pre-netflix boom, pre-tiktok....then you would fucking know it was nothing like this.
We still had the drive to create. We still sold prints and charms and made zines...but it was never like this.
The introduction of streaming, binge shows that drop all at once, tiktok and vine RIP i still love u vine but you were the beginning of a particularly ugly era) creating this bite sized, quick paced ‘content’ era of creation and it bled out into fucking everything else.
Fandoms didn’t die down when the show ended or the season was over. You didn’t mass unfollow artist, writers or moots just because they changed fandoms. There wasn’t this need to please the algorithm in order for your posts to get seen by people and enjoyed.
Fandoms used to last YEARS. Star Trek is literally the oldest running fandom out there and you got people in there that could care less about the new stuff and still have been happily prancing through their fucking fifty year old fandom today. Hell, even SPN after all it’s fuckups and shitshows has a dedicated fanbase STILL creating tons of art and fic.
There is no patience anymore. No calm feeling of taking in fandom and friends at a pace that which doesn’t make you stressed and is still fun.
Do I blame fandom for this? Of course not, but people are complacent with it and start changing their vocab to accommodate and end up making the situation so deep it cant be fixed.
We call Art & Fic Content now, completely stripping the value of what it is to a level of consumerism instead of personal entertainment & community bonding.
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h0neyfreak · 5 months
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feiofthefae · 1 year
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🎵 Some of you need to see this~ 🎵
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staticevent · 2 years
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based on a true (?) story; the gallery
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Haven't I given enough?
Given enough
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deviljesterlamb · 2 months
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Solomon, who notices a white hair on your pretty little head. Then is shocked but amazed too by this surprise before him.
Solomon, who lovingly teases you over it, and imagines how you would look with white/silver hair like him.
Solomon, who is trying to look at the positives from this all, but not the negatives. Of you showing your aging quicker/sooner than expected.
Solomon, who fears the days are moving too fast now and wonders if he can bear to watch his beautiful flower. Slowly began to age, and wilt, and die, before him now.
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genericpuff · 2 months
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#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO#anxiety is a hell of a thing#and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever#i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up#and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken#but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship#i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it#i am cringe and i am free#self post#vent post#altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read#too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll#i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made#i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol#i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim#i think both things can be true#i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like#while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium#“perfectly balanced as all things should be”
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teaboot · 8 months
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It's four in the morning and nobody asked but I think that one of the things I hate most about getting older is looking back and knowing which of the chubby-cheeked, gap-toothed little kids who collected Pokémon cards and played grounders and scraped their knees on the playground were destined for gaunt faces and blackened fingers, wearing mismatched shoes and screaming slurs at passersby from the sidewalk.
I know which of those children don't make it, now, and whose futures don't reach as far as they think, but I don't know which ones will get better, and I worry for the rest
What could have been done to help, if we'd known back then?
About the kid who gets hit by a car at 16?
About the one who's on meth at 25?
The one who killed herself a few months before graduation?
Horse girls and class clowns and little boys who dressed up as power rangers for Halloween.
Man, what the hell happened?
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antiocheanism · 7 months
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we don't have any money i'm too ill to even take in commissions anymore and the stress rashes are back. teehee ><
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cannibal-nightmares · 2 months
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"prayed like a Father, dusk to dawn tempted the Devil with my song you, my peace of mind, my all, my center if my wants and needs divide me, then I might as well be gone"
[ x ]
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skellydun · 9 months
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starting to realize why I never used twitter or reddit after my carefully cultivated internet enclosure gets broken into
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wuxia-vanlifer · 2 months
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I think one of the reasons why I find Li Lianhua so relatable is bc I was, too, a talented gifted kid praised by adults, who couldn't waste talent so I had piano lessons, singing lessons, two acting classes (one outside school, one with school), artistic gymnastic lessons, volleyball, dance, theater shows in the summer, and let's not forget studying bc you're so smart of course you'll be a good student (and you can't bear to disappoint the teachers and the parents). So I also participated in philosophy Olympics, Italian Olympics, maths Olympics and every science competition organised by my school, while also signing up for P.E. extra activities bc I was the only student my P.E. teacher (her words) said had some life and passion for gymnastic in all her classes.
Then uni times, went to live outside my childhood house for the first time, and also outside the town I grew up in where everyone knew me and automatically put expectations on me (and my siblings sadly)
And suddenly I just want to have long walks with my friends, spend my free days laying in bed, cook and eat my food, read books lazily, drink warm tea in late afternoons, and let time pass without feeling guilty. All the while learning to accept to live with the constant exhaustion (and finding out my constant headache and being almost always in some kind of constsnt pain of is, in fact, Not Normal) and slowly understanding myself and having epiphanies about my gender and sexuality.
Truly, Li Lianhua and his tired gifted kid burnt out chronically ill constantly exhausted self who just wants to water his plants, wander in the Jianghu, scam people and sleep conquered me in ways young heroes of the Jianghu of other c-dramas couldn't (no shade intended)
Or, citing my amazing roomate (who I dragged in the fandom) wise words: "He's so damn relatable it should be illegal"
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eriexplosion · 1 month
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Cut for fandom salt
The reason I get so heated about the 'Is Tech Alive/Dead' discourse is that like. It is very hard for me to explain just how pissed I would be if he was dead. Not because 'oh no a thing happened in the show that I didn't like' I'm in my fucking thirties I've dealt with shows making stupid decisions before. It's what a permadeath here in particular would mean with everything surrounding it.
It's starting a series based around getting you to want a family to reunite just to pull the rug out 2/3rds in and say 'lol dumbass they were never going to reunite.' All those themes of family and needing it to be complete? Never meant anything.
It's building up a character, intentionally making sure he's read as neurodivergent in a very clear and confirmed way, giving him multiple plotlines, and then cutting them all off without finishing any of them by taking two episodes to set up a mission that has zero plot purpose except to kill him off and then say Oh well it's stakes and consequences there had to be a price to pay for... trying to reunite the family and save their brother I guess. How dare they.
It's providing zero confirmation in story on the death, spending months upon months saying shit like 'he doesn't come back in this episode at least' and 'this was the end of mine - and that's a good thing!' and 'if you could only see who's on my screen' knowing that there's a large portion of fans genuinely upset by his death, using social media pretty much exclusively to rub our faces in the scene, and then turns out they were just stringing everyone along the whole time, he really was dead, the lack of confirmation in episode meant nothing, us playing coy and dropping hints for ten months meant nothing, fuck you for giving a shit.
It's setting up a story where the clones could be more than soldiers and then abruptly cutting it off and going on and on about how wonderful it is that he died self sacrificing as a soldier and it's what any clone would want, because this show about how all clones are individuals is actually about how they're all interchangeable and any clone would want the same thing.
It's that if Tech is dead there is not a single piece of the show, a single interaction with the fans since it happened, a single anything from anybody involved that was not set up to make ND people hope (or god forbid even feel some kind of acceptance at seeing a neurodivergent character getting treated seriously) string them along, and then punish them for it so that everyone else can coo about how mature and bold it was to kill off the autistic guy for shock value. And then they don't even fucking address it the next season because ~oh there's just no time~
And I would really prefer if a show that I have loved almost every other aspect of, that has been genuinely well written and moving, didn't randomly decide to drop every single piece of their writing ability in order to put out the most ambiguous death scene ever, fuck with their audience for ten months, and then shit on them for caring.
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