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itsscottiesstark · 2 months

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If you haven't watched Around the world in 80 days with David, or if you simply don't want to get your heart broken by a Fogg x Crowley comparison, you should maybe scroll past this.

Oh, you're still here? Good.

Imagine this: It's been a few months since Aziraphale left. Crowley has been spending them drinking and sleeping away the days, ever since the second the angel disappeared from his eyes.

He hasn't been in contact with anyone, ignoring Muriel's attempts to get him out of there.

And he won't talk about it. He can't talk about it.

So, one day, Muriel stops by his flat to check up on him, finds him deliriously drunk, slumped over at the feet of his couch, probably fell during his attempt to grab another bottle and couldn't possibly get back up.

He's slurring, his hair a mess, his clothes rumpled. He must have at some point ripped his shirt open, maybe in despair or simple overheating, because Muriel could see his now bare chest, bracketed by his shirt, but there were buttons scattered around him.

Muriel hurries over to his side, grabs his hands and tries to get his attention.

"Mister Crowley?" They take his hand in theirs and give it a firm squeeze. "Please, Mister Crowley?" The demon won't look at them. "Crowley?!" They say, unintentionally in a similar way Aziraphale used to call out his name when he was worried.

His eyes slowly open and attempt to focus on the blurry, blindingly white image in front of him. Muriel repeats his name, and Crowley finally speaks.

"Aziraphale...?" His eyes are as open as he could get them, but the image is fuzzy as ever. Still, there's only one person his unimaginably drunk brain wants to see, so that's what he sees.

"No, it's me, Muriel," they try and correct him, but he doesn't seem to be able to listen. Or even care.

"My darling Aziraphale, you came back! I always knew you would." A couple of tears escape the demon's eyes, his glasses nowhere to be seen to cover them up as usual. "I always knew," he repeats, his voice breaking. "Well, no, I didn't know, but I hoped." He attempts to squeeze the warm hand still holding his. "I dreamed," comes a whisper.

"Mister Crowley-" Muriel attempts again, but gets interrupted once again.

Crowley brings their joined hands on his naked chest. "Feel my heart, Aziraphale," he whines his name. "It's always been yours. Waiting for you." He's properly crying now, sobs escape his mouth but there's also a faint smile there. "Now you're finally here, I can tell you everything!"

Muriel couldn't stand interrupting him again, he was smiling. Clearly, his own brain was deceiving him, but he was smiling.

He told them, thinking it was Aziraphale, about his travels. His blessings, when he was doing Aziraphale's job. And then he told them about his blessings, when he definitely wasn't doing Aziraphale's job.

"I saved a young boy's life!"

"That's wonderful," Muriel cooed.

"I just want you to be proud of me," Crowley admitted. "Just once." He looked them in the eyes, or tried to, anyway. "You see, angel, I've been alone for such a very long time. You were right to go. To leave me."

Muriel wanted to stop him, comfort him, tell him he was wrong. But he didn't seem to want to hear anything they had to say. So they remained silent.

"I could never have been good enough for you, I think you knew that from the start." His voice was now raw with emotion, no more whining. It was as if he was numb to those things he was saying. Like he'd accepted them. "I think we both knew."

With that, he closed his eyes and went to sleep. Soon, soft snores started coming from his mouth, replacing the heartbreaking sobs.

Around the world in 80 days, 2021. Episode 4.

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lianne-blop · 6 months

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Encantober Day 16: Grief

#encantober #another heartbreaking scene :’)#day 16 #grief #encanto #abuela #abuela alma madrigal #alma madrigal #drawing #art #colored pencil #traditional art #fan art #fanart #disney #my art #sketch

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everrgrreeen · 5 months

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This song is so Layla x Warren coded that it wouldn't leave me alone til I made an edit with it.

Even after almost 20 years since this movie came out (and I saw it in the theater), there's not a single person who can convince me that he didn't end up falling in love with her.

#sky high 2005 #sky high #warren peace #layla williams #layla williams x warren peace #layla x warren #this is actually kind of heartbreaking like it's one unrequited love turning into another unrequited love #he cared about her so much that he still came to homecoming IN A TUX even though her plan was off and will wasn't even there #and he was willing to put himself between her and royal pain to protect her #don't even get me started on the head shake at the end #poor bby boy :(#don't worry we all know they would have gotten together in sky high 2 if that would have been a thing #I could talk about this all day lmao #they will end up together in my fic though so go read my fic <3

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oatbugs · 6 months

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thinking abt when i was in iran before getting femto LASIK at this insanely good eye clinic and the receptionist, without looking up, was like if ur nervous take one of these and pointed to a candy bowl full of beta blockers

#i saw the same candy bowl on like several other receptionists' tables and didn't clock it was full of tablets #anyway Irans medical care is in fact actually insane. still reeling from the fact that i got femto lasik just by calling the eye doctor #asking if he has time tmrw and he was like...yeah sure ill pop into the clinic #and also another surgery that was done like 1 or 2 days after the consultation. this isn't to say they do a rushed job #bc they are phenomenal im just baffled abt the speed of it all. ig im used to the uk where u have like...2 yr long waiting list #but tbf there are a) less qualified ppl here and b) there is def s better work life balance for medics #compared to iran #anyways #also most receptionists were like. recently graduated doctors. so theyd be on their reception shift and then when they finish that they #go straight into the clinic offices and start treating patients etc it was so sleek and fast as a process #anyway i also heard the most horrifying stories there bc this was during the protests do ppl would also come in bc like #their eyes were fucked up by gas or being beaten by the police etc etc it was rly heartbreaking sometimes

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craycraybluejay · 19 days

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reportedly little kids are calling each other gay as an insult just like in the early 2000s now with the added bonus of calling each other trans as an insult

#queerphobia #queerphobic culture #the culture is bad. it is bad. schools need to crack down on discrimination and bullying #they never do #american education system #do better #transphobes #generational hate #hate has no place in educational facilities more than anywhere #hopefully i can one day be a speaker at schools and campaign against it #but like. come on. teachers and staff do BETTER. the kids dont know better so TEACH THEM #thats your JOB #istg they witness the kids harassing another kid and calling them gay/trans like its a dirty word and dont DO anything about it #stop hate #anti bullying #teach your children #not to fucking harass each other #it is heartbreaking that they don't have anyone teaching them kindness

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wonder-worker · 10 days

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I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the death of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die)#elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not)#I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually:#the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another;#her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months;#how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old);#how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress;#and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was)#the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her.#(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether)#nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be?#apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared'#and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund)#rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least)#more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

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olliebjorkstrand · 1 month

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i need a hug after that loss

#that was heartbreaking #kraken lb #love you krakenblr we will live to see another day

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saeshiraw · 8 months

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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

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teerayus · 1 year

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Legend has it he’s still waiting outside Hia Win’s door to this very day

#Happy Team Gets Let Into Win’s Room Day #episode 7 please end with win and team curled around each other #if I have to endure another heartbreaking cliffhanger I’ll explode fr #between us #between us the series #winteam #teamwin #win phawin #win phawin wanichakarnjonkul #team teerayu #team teerayu siriyothin

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raayllum · 1 year

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RAYLLUM S4 MEME: scenes [3/6] 4x09, “escape from umber tor”

I have to go after him. I know.

#rayllum #rayllumedit #caylangst #s4 #s4 meme #graphics #arc 2 #my edits #colouring this scene is a nightmare and yet i must persist #personal fave #tag ramble #first off the call back this is to 2x07 and 4x01 is masterful but that'll be an edit & ramble for another day but #the way somber music plays. the way rayla is more off kilter than ever bc she only has One blade to begin with #the way callum lets her even tho the place is coming down but it's not like he Leaves either!! he just #Stands there and Watches her go until he almost dies / is crushed by rocks #bc he's testing himself he's seeing if he can Let Go #now that he realizes she Hasn't changed the way he hoped (look at his surprise when it cuts to his face)#and that he can't change what he both loves about her and what infuriates him about her more than anything #and the hand over heart!! the unconditional love!! the heartbreak. the cycle.#the way of after a season of looking away from her he looks away and then looks Back like GOD #put this scene on my gravestone

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mostlykind · 5 months

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I started perfect marriage revenge and not even joking it keeps making me cry because of how perfect seo do-guk is. he’s so sweet and soft and men irl just suck in comparison :/

#another day another deep and genuine heartbreak realising fictional love is not realistic #and I will probably never live a whirlwind romance 😭#don’t talk to me I’m mourning #the life not lived nor will it be :(#rahma watches stuff #perfect marriage revenge

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girlcrushau · 30 days

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