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lazyalani · 10 months

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| Blue Lock

| Them as Taylor Swift song lines

| fluffy, becuz taylor swift is life itself, i refuse to believe reo and chigiri arent swfities, swearing cuz its me, i had to redo this cuz tumblr literally deleted the first one :'), slight angst? I like the old version of this better :(

Ft. Reo, Nagi, Chigiri, Aiku, Sae, Rin, Bachira, Ness, Kaiser, Otoya, Yukimiya, Isagi

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REO "you've got a smile that could light up this whole town" - you belong with me

Man you can't tell me his smile just not sends you to cloudnine. That one panel of him smiling at Nagi got me cursing that bitch for making Reo cry. He's so precious I'm crying. Nagi better have tripped 50 times after walking away from him. His smile is so genuine. Reo is so easy to read off field. His emotions are always easily seen based on his expressions and how he acts. Just by looking at his face and eyes, you could really tell how he feels. The way his face lights up and his eyes sparkle when he smiles got butterflies on my tummy. Fuck you Nagi.

MEGURU "we're happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way" - 22

Bachira is always a mix of emotions. I genuinely believes he can feel and handle a lot of emotions at the same time and still only show one, and he chooses what to show. He's always smiling or calm despite the chaos on field and everything. He's so chill. He'd be the fun person to be around everytime. He's a flexible person. He could be fun when it's the mood, and bring out his lonely feeling when you talk deep. But he's so optimistic he lits up the mood again. He's the type to just go with the flow of anything and worry about something when it's there. The fact that he finds a way to make himself kind of okay is amazing cuz I would honestly lash out on everyone in the field.

RIN "back then we didn't know, we were built to fall apart" - the very first time

Ah, he's definitely the angsty childhood friends to strangers trope. The moment Sae broke him he was bound to break everything around him. Even if he hurts people unintentionally, the damage is still done, no? He inherited his brother's sharp tongue and bad attitude so if you aren't a masochist or a simp, better stay away cuz this man could make you cry with a sentence. It doesn't really help that he literally grew up all over Sae. It's not like Rin is the type to say "go away cuz you're distracting me from my revenge" or something, but his change drives people away from hi.

SEISHIRO "it's me, hi. i'm the problem it's me" - anti-hero

Literally sucks at communicating. He'd be the person who would slack off at communicating and do whatever he wants when he thinks you know him enough. He's probably think you know he'd buy a new house when he complains about the broken cieling. You better get that laziness out of your spoiled ass and start trying harder AND IF YOU DONT WANT REO ILL TAKE HIM. Get your game face on GET YOUR GAME FACE ON. Don't confuse and play with my Reo's feelings you asshole.

HYOMA "i'm captivated by you baby like a firework show" - sparks fly

You cannot tell me you don't internally scream when you see this pretty man. I believe in Chigiri Hyoma supremacy, I believe that he gets all the attention he deserves everywhere he goes, and I refuse to believe that no one in blue lock had even a slight crush on him. He's just so pretty and gorgeous and cute and talented and fast and charming and dreamy and fast and red. Please let me touch your hair you can kick me afterwards. I went into daydream mode the first time I saw him.

EITA "goodbye, mr. perfectly fine, how's your heart after breaking mine?" - mr. perfectly fine

I don't even have to explain. I would've burned his whole soul down if he did that to me.

AIKU "long story short, it was the wrong guy" - long story short

Don't even get me started on this one. He's so obvious. Tbh, in real life, you'd be pretty stupid if you didn't notice sooner. Getting with him on a committed relationship, a fubu, or a fwb would be a risky 50/50 if you're weak for guys like him, better run, but if you're a flagpole then why not? You could fall for him for all he cares, he just wants to have fun.

SAE "why'd i have to break what i love so much?" - afterglow

Now he'd defnitely be the one to lash out. Aside from the Rin drama, if Sae had a childhood sweetheart or something like that, they would either end up like Rin or slowly experience and see the change in Sae. From his usual teasing manner to the dry, lesser and lesser text and messages. He'd be the type to lash out and tell you to go away when you pry too much for his taste. Sharp tongued, bad attitude, sharper actions, so realistic to the point that he does so much damage around him and what's worse is that he doesn't care. He knowd what he's doing and he just doesn't care enough. It's not he doesn't love or like Rin or his 'if' childhood sweetheart, it's just the way he is after his change. He's like a fire burning everything on his path, and he just keeps going.

YUKIMIYA "darling, i fancy you" - london boy

Like, have you seen this man? He's a 3 in 1. Angst, Fluff and Sm-- hehehehe. He's so pretty, soft boy at first look and then sexy at the second, then angsty health drama in the third. My yukki is so strong for handling his sickness so well :') come here and lemme give you a hug.

MICHAEL "he's so obsessed with me and, boy, i understand" - i think he knows

Ness, I completely understand, it's completely justified. This man is gorgeous and he fucking knows it. He's probably the center of attention when he walks in and he loves every bit of it. BUT THE NEXT TIME HE BULLIES NESS IM RIPPING OF THAT REMAINING HAIR ON HIS BACK :D Aside from him annoying himsagi everytime and being a menance to everyone, who wouldn't love him? Talented, handsome, and don't even get me started on that 300M.

ALEXIS "'cause darling i'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream" - blank space

Oh boy only a little more and he's gonna fucking snap and rip himsagi's neck off. His smile is so babyboy and innocent but when he closest his eyes you better run. Many people probably think he's just one of those die hard Kaiser defenders who bark and be a stupid, good for nothing moron in the field but my Ness is very strong and boy he BITES. Reo version 5. Kaiser, make up your mind seriously, I'll take him if you don't want him.

YOICHI "i swear i don't love the drama, it loves me" - end game

Pretty self-explanatory. I feel so bad for him. My boy just wants to play soccer and suddenly he's a double love story antagonist and a brother stealer :') ever since Rin and Nagi came into the picture he lost Bachira. Like, just go away and give him back Bachira. Then there goes Kaiser and Ness drama, an upgraded version of reonagi. Reonagi drama level 3. Cuz level one is them, them level two is Kunigiri. GIVE HIM THE BALL AND LEAVE HIM ALONE. Need to build a government himsagi protection squad cuz Ness is probably gonna break his legs sooner or later.

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gentlebeardsbarngrill · 3 months

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PoC and queer people, and queers of color are not out here being mad at everyone for no reason. Did you guys think it was just a group of cishet white men who probably don’t even watch the show? We have begged all these years for aid, but it’s dystopian-like to see you guys come together and pay over $21 thousand for a billboard within a few hours. The “charities” aren’t listed, and even then seeing fans tell the organizers use all the money for advertisements is horrifying to say the least. Even more so adding on the creator is a Zionist and antiBlack, which again White people arent gonna give a shit about as they continue to show so in all fandoms. It’s the people affected that calls this guy out, and y’all don’t listen. Do what you want, but stop diminishing our voices as the “angry crowd” have some damn compassion

CW: Racism, Anti-Semitism, Zionism, This is a save space ship so please do not read if you don't have the spoons because there's heavy shit in here today. ------ Hi friend! First of all, I want to say thank you so much for reaching out and giving me some more information! Personally, I don't think what you're being mad about is "for no reason". For me, that's not where the issue lies, and perhaps you could provide me with some further insight. So far, the only kinds of responses to this campaign that I've encountered that are negative have been "Taika is a Zionist", and I have not encountered that "queers of color " we're having a problem. Now, that could be that I just haven't seen them and now that my reach is out a little further it's coming up-- which is great, I want to have a conversation about it. I am newer to the fandom so it's possible I just haven't been around for a lot of this in the past, I admit that. I would be more than happy to hear more about what it is that "Queers of Color" have a problem with regarding the show.

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In regards to "Even more so adding on the creator (I'm assuming you're referring to Taika here as opposed to David Jenkins?) is a Zionist and antiBlack, which again White people arent gonna give a shit about as they continue to show so in all fandoms."

So, I can see why you feel that way. I've heard a lot from many people of color who feel as if they aren't being considered in a lot of fandoms (not specifically this one but general scifi , fantasy, etc). I am white, so I know that no matter what my background is culturally, I cannot understand the full extent of what our friends of color go through so I try to amplify the voices of those people when they bring information to the table. I do think this fandom cares, and would love to hear more if you're willing to provide it.

My First Question is, where is the narrative coming from that Taika is AntiBlack? He's of Te Whānau-ā-Apanui, an indigenous person, with jewish heritage. I did some googling (yes I realise that's not the most efficient or accurate tool, but I did try to find independant sources). The thing that sticks out most to me is regarding the 2020 following the death of George Floyd. Here is one of the articles I referenced:

Taika's tweet was "Watch the whole thing. Eloquent. Clear. Everyone is angry but there is a way to direct that anger." in response to Killer Mike's message asking “not burn your own house down” and instead “fortify your own house.” and to "Plot, plan, strategize, and organize" as he said in the video.

Now, I see a lot of reactions from people of color specifically stating "don't police my anger" and that is a 100% valid take. No one should be telling you how to channel your anger when as a society you are being murdered and you have to fight back to survive. I do think that everyone still has a lot to learn.

I am going to give you a little background on myself (not to toot my own horn, but to provide a little perspective on how much we are still learning). I am whiteyest white person there is, like I go outside and my skin practically lights on fire from my irish/eastern european ancestry, but I also have a black biological grandmother from Guayana who had ancestry back to many years before when slaves were brought over during the Atlantic Slave Trade. So growing up, even though I was white, I thought I had it all figured out on racism because my grandma was black. The narratives taught in US schools were that "racism was in the past" because schools had been white washed, and I grew up in Northern Virginia, where it was supposed to be "multicultural center of the country" since we were so close to DC. Over time, I started finding out from friends of color and indigenous friends that they were still experiencing racism towards them. I never knew, because I wouldn't have, it wasn't faced towards me. And I knew some-- but I didn't know enough even then 15 years ago. Roll around to 2010-12ish, several things occurred that made "black face" become more prominent and I had more discussions with my friends about what kind of racism they dealt with in their day to day lives. I used to color my arms when I was a kid with a brown marker because I wanted to look like my grandma. I found out at the ripe old age of 24 that was basically black face for a lot of people and that it wasn't ok.

2020 came, and George Floyd, and Brianna Taylor, Stephan Clark, Botham Jean, Freddie Gray and so many others were murdered by police and white supremacist shitwads, and suddenly, not just me but so many more white people started to get the slightest inkling of just HOW BAD it really was for black people in this country. That was the year honestly I started to question the systems of our government, and all the racial inequalities that I THOUGHT I had understood before.

Our government, our society culturally has tried its best to sweep racial inequality under the rug, and pretend like "racism is gone" when we still have systems built on racism, that benefit from racist systems of the past. (This is why it's so important that we keep fighting against people who want to white wash history books in a lot of the southern states like FL and TX) Is that an excuse? Of course not. But I believe in change whole-heartedly, and while I am still ashamed of the vast ignorance I had for so many years, and worry about the ignorance I still don't know I'm ignorant of, I do try to be better. I am trying to take that shame and continue to learn and chip away at my ignorance not only through others but on my own. I am not asking for you to pity, or to forgive me or any other white person for that kind of ignorance, what I'm doing here is trying to make a safe space to share and so you can see that people can actively change. Is it enough? Probably not, but it's a start.

-- Now, All that to say, regarding Taika... that tweet from 2020, as I said, quite a lot of people (of all colors) had their eyes opened that year to some pretty systemic racist horrors, and if that is the tweet that sparked the idea that Taika is "Anti-Black" I think, while you don't have to forgive him, it would be something to consider that quite a lot of people were well intending during that time but did not fully comprehend exactly how bad it was. I would however, if you'd be willing to chat with me in DMs about it, or send another ask, like to hear more if there was more evidence of it somewhere I didn't see.

-------- In regards to Taika being a Zionist... which I have heard from others quoting the letter he signed asking for the release of hostages in Gaza. I'm including a link to a copy of the letter just so people can read it, I realize the hollywood reporter isn't an amazing source, but it has the letter included, so thats why. Once again, when that letter came out back in October, quite a lot of people didn't actually know what was going on in Gaza.

We all heard brief things in our day to day news feed, but just like how everything is on the internet right now, information isn't "complete" it's broken up in fragments and it takes a really long time to compile them. There is misinformation galore, and it's incredibly easy to not hear the entire story. I know in October, I was dealing with health issues and I was completely just not paying attention what was going on (we all have our lives and as much as I'd like to say we can all be omniscient and fully present for all things it's truly not a reasonable expectation of any human being nor should it be, the world is a very large place, and we should help where we can but there's a limitation on human ability).

In my opinion, as someone who has tried a lot of their life to "do the right thing" and made a lot of mistakes and tried to learn from them, that letter, and Taika signing it seemed like a "Good intentions" situation again, hoping that he could help in someway. Am I making excuses for him? No, I'm expressing my perspective. I'm not here to change your opinion on him, I'm here to express why fans are still fighting for this show. Do you have other resources regarding his support of zionism?

What concerns me though as a whole, is people throwing 'Zionist' around very liberally these days. I am not an expert on the situation and I don't claim to be. However, growing up in DC when 9/11 happened, I can tell you that labels like that can get dangerous very VERY quickly. Muslim families I grew up with had their windows shattered with bricks on the night of 9/11 (and labeled terrorists) despite being pillars in the community and never having hurt a soul.

Right now, Zionist is a word that is being used to label someone in a very intense way, and it invokes dangerous responses in people. I do believe we really need to make sure we are labeling these situations properly because those kinds of labels CAN and WILL get out of hand very quickly and get people hurt.

I'm going to link to this article from the Anne Frank house to define Zionism. I am also going to list this article from the American Jewish Committee regarding racism and anti-semitism. Once again I'm not an expert on the situation going on in Gaza, and I'm happy to hear more regarding it.

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In regards to your comments on the charities: There are some charities listed in a few places, they just aren't all part of the advertising campaign one:

The main one for Rainbow Youth is here: The Renew As a Crew Fundraiser (not the advertising one) https://ry-community.raisely.com/renewasacrew/ **The Advertising Campaign / Charities**

You mentioned in your ask "even then seeing fans tell the organisers use all the money for advertisements is horrifying to say the least".

I can understand why that would be horrifying to someone who is feeling raw the way that you are. It's completely valid. I would like to offer up the perspective that some people are very invested in this show for their own reasons (some people have never felt represented in major networks) and they too are allowed to feel excited and say things that might be in their own best interest. We are all allowed those opinions, and I think the more we shame people for wanting something, the less discussion we're going to be able to have. That said, I think the @renewasacrew leadership team made a good decision to stick to their original $10K for advertising, and the rest going to charity because of the confusion. It does the most good, and still allows the original intent -- to show the world how much Our Flag Means Death means to many people.

In regards to which charities they are going to -- I had seen somewhere that they were going to a charity Samba and Vico Ortiz had chosen but I asked the leadership team on twitter and this is what they responded with (which I think is fair, they're trying to take their time to make a good decision with the help of everyone involved).

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I would also like to point out however, that we do have the ability to care about more than one thing at once. One thing that makes life worth living is the little things that make us smile. I have a lot of stuff at home that makes life rough, and my escape is this gay pirate show, and this beautiful, compassionate community that supports it.

We are allowed to have things that we love as well as the things we fight for. I do a lot of my activism on facebook and in person, I don't bring it to tumblr much because this is the safe space for a lot of people to dream and have dreams. It is important for everyone's mental health to step away from the realities of life sometimes (which I know some people like those in Gaza or Ukraine can't do) or else we all burn out and can't help anymore.

I hope this helps a bit in showing you we do care about queers of color, and we do want to know more how we can help, and we are willing to listen. There's a lot of compassion in this community, and I think a lot of people would be willing to talk about it if things are done in a safe space. I do apologize that you feel like we've "diminished" your voices, that was not the intention. If you would like to use that voice to provide more examples and your views I'm happy to listen. I do think we need to allow people to enjoy things too though, because life's not worth living otherwise. Nothing is perfect, but we continue to try and improve.

I would also like to recommend that if the OFMD fandom renewal campaign is bothering folks, please feel free to block us. We don't want to make anyone feel bad, but we also want to express ourselves in a healthy manner. Much love your way Anon.

#ofmd #our flag means death #asks #anon asks

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thewebcomicsreview · 2 months

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Homestuck 2 updated early this month, and we're Yiffy now. It's a Valentine's Day miracle!

Yiffy was one of the most interesting characters in HS2, because literally everyone treated her like shit constantly. Jade's giving her daughter a smooch but also Jade sent her off to a boarding school explicitly because she was embarrassing to acknowledge and also Jade named her child Yiffy Longstocking on a joke and never bothered to change it. In the epilogues, Rose acknowledged that nothing in Candy was "real" and she was joining the rebellion basically for the luls, and one some level Jade and Rose don't think Yiffy is a real three-quarters-human person, and I think they think of her more like an OC in a game they like.

Well, that was my read of HS2, lets see how HSBC handles her.

Oh, this visual is great. Kanaya is so pissed off she's turning into the Ancestor art style in real time. She also kind of looks like Batman, here.

No doubt if your POSSE OF PUBESCENT PUNKS back at school could see you now they'd throw up laughing.

I am suddenly way more interested in Yiffy's gang than I am in half the HS1 cast. What kids join a gang led by a dog girl named Yiffy Longstocking?

Engineering that reprieve might be just about the only real solid your no-show non-mom has ever actually bothered to do for you.

Oh thank christ, there was a part of me worried that Yiffy wouldn't resent her parents for being the second-worst parents in HS2. This is the most interesting thing in the sequels, I think.

TAVVY: ,,, And also, everyone knows you exist now,,, instead of just me,,, TAVVY: And our moms

TAVVY: Wow,,,! YIFFY: TAVVY: You know, i was almost kidnapped,,, once,,, TAVVY: My mom removed the window, after that, TAVVY: Which, um, sucked, TAVVY: Though, i guess you'd know, uh, about that,,,

Oh, interesting. Tavvy knew about Yiffy this whole time? Actually, this and Yiffy's description of him via narration earlier imply they grew up together. I guess that makes sense, since he's Jane's kid and Jade inexplicably put Jane in charge of Yiffy, but he never told Vrissy about her secret sister? That's a bit fucked up, dude. Yiffy's not saying anything (and I hope she doesn't for a long time, until she has something meaningful to say), but her text color is Dave's red, even though she's not related to Dave. Or she is and HSBC is going to retcon HS2's most hated plot point somehow.

Pepis

Look at this ARRANT BEAVIS double fisting those cans of pop

"ARRANT BEAVIS" is a great Homestuckism

The Sylph has been slow boiling, you can tell.

Interesting that Yiffy refers to Kanaya as "The Sylph". I don't know what else she'd call her, I suppose, but Yiffy of all people being the one to mention Classpect is odd.

You've only been around this earth for 15 years, but it's a self-evident fact that there are no useful authorities. Gifted with unimaginable power, their concern only stretches so far as to manhandle those dependent on them, and tangles into ineffectual deadlock the instant it meets a challenge worth addressing. Potential killed for the sake of comfort. True kindness is real, but only for those that bare teeth and break skin. Why should these disingenuous, bystanding, spineless, SELFISH adults get anything they want?

Fuck yes, Yiffy hates all the HS1 characters. I've been hoping for this, she has more beef with them all than even Tavros, and it's a bit of Vriska energy this comic has needed that neither actually Vriska really provides.

Yiffy being the best thing about HS2 was maybe a hot take before, but hopefully it isn't now. She's great.

JADE: and of course you arent obligated to ever forgive me but... i dont want to lose you too! JADE: i love you kanaya JADE: youre my family KANAYA: You Fucked My Wife

This is the best update in the entire comic.

KANAYA: And Though That Travesty Of A Name Is Undoubtedly An Incomprehensibly Offensive Piece Of This Particular Puzzle KANAYA: What I See Is Not An Explanation KANAYA: But A Glossing Over Of The Worst Detail ROSE: Jane.

Yeah, HS2 kind of glossed over Rose/Jade putting TrumpHitler in charge of their literal child. I could copy/paste this whole conversation but basically Kanaya is pointing out that there's like fifty plot holes in Yiffy's backstory and it makes no fucking sense at all and are they going to retcon her to being Jade/Dave's ecto-kid?

ROSE: You've managed to exhume the solemn cadaver of my mother's memory and make her the star of another argument. KANAYA: As If You Ever Bothered To Bury Her ROSE: What does this have to do with anything!? KANAYA: What I Am Doing Is Demonstrating That I Have No Intention To Mediate This Situation KANAYA: Or Pacify It KANAYA: Or Even Be A Little Bit Nice Right Now KANAYA: So Perhaps Youll Actually Take Me Seriously For Once

This is the well-earned sass we've been waiting for since Yiffy's reveal.

ROSE: But more than anything else, I took her up on it because it felt oddly ROSE: inevitable. ROSE: Anyways, ROSE: Deep down, I knew it didn’t matter. ROSE: However we handled it. ROSE: Whatever hurt we caused. ROSE: It was never that serious.

Man, I'm glad that I'm live-blogging and put my read of the situation up as I went because I fucking called it. Yes! I am capable of retaining information when I read instead of staring at the screen slack-jawed.

ROSE: I knew you would forgive me. KANAYA: Rose KANAYA: When Did You Stop Trying JADE: yeah rose!!!!! JADE: what the fuck!!!!

Oh shit, Candy Rose is evil?

JADE: b-but i just dont want things to get even worse!!!!!! KANAYA: Then stop pretending that my feelings are top priority KANAYA: AND TRY BEING HONEST FOR ONCE JADE: WHAT DOES IT EVEN MATTER!!!!!!! KANAYA: Excuse Me? JADE: you heard me! JADE: you were wronged kanaya! JADE: the truth cant change that JADE: saying it just fucking hurts more JADE: what does that accomplish? JADE: its so embarrassing, would you even get it if i had?

JADE: you have no idea what its like out there JADE: how traumatizing dating regular citizens was JADE: imagine trying to love someone who already knows every available detail about you JADE: who has *opinions* on what happened to you as a child JADE: who assumes youre indestructible JADE: newsflash it fucking sucks!!!!!!! because no matter how nice they were JADE: they didnt want to know me JADE: they wanted to date the god of space

I have no notes, this is great and I'm thrilled everyone is mad now.

JADE: so everyone could lecture me again on how "bad" my "boundaries" are? ROSE: (I did that one time.) JADE: you want bad boundaries JADE: do you know how many people would be waiting outside public bathrooms to talk to me about their problems? JADE: this one guy randomly started apologizing because they cooked their hamster in the microwave! JADE: and they looked so sad... i had to hug them and say it was ok JADE: but it was not ok! JADE: they murdered their hamster! Rose: Ugh... JADE: and their other hamster killed itself KANAYA: JADE JADE: out of loneliness!!!!!

What the fuck, this is amazing.

The art here is great, by the way.

JADE: millions of people told me they loved me JADE: but i was never a real person to them JADE: i couldn't let that happen to yiffy too KANAYA: What JADE: i had to save her kanaya! JADE: give her the chance to grow up as a normal kid with a normal life

Jade she's half-dog and she's named Yiffy Fucking Longstocking, that ship has sailed. How are people not going to know she's your child?

Oh, okay. She wears a hat. Sure.

This art is so good!

KANAYA: Even If I Didnt Want Her KANAYA: She Was Already Here

*Makes a note in my "ominous foreshadowing lines journal*

What. Why does Jade have a Frankenstein in her inventory? What's that about?

And that was the update. Honestly? Banger, easily the best HSBC update yet. I could, and if I didn't have DnD in five minutes perhaps would (and perhaps still will!) write a whole essay on this. Phenomenal. A+

#Homestuck 2 #Homestuck 2 liveblog

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infomaniac · 5 months

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can anyone tell me if i count as a Real Trans and Real Gay/not straight person. i keep seeing stuff about how bi people arent Real Gays and we dont matter we are not in any danger bc we're actually just glorified straights and we're all nothing but sluts who try to coerce lesbians and gay men into being sluts and coerce lesbians into fucking men/gay men into fucking women and this is all i ever see anyone saying any bi people ever and obviously people do not respect nonbinary genders or intersex trans people so i really don't even know anymore. i don't know anymore if i am really considered lgbt or if an exception is made for people like me and we dont belong. i don't know if i am allowed to call myself lgbt or trans.

i read something a while back that was like "in quiet moments you may start to believe the lies they tell about you" and like i think thats whats happening im just not gendered correctly or called my name ever irl bc i live with an abuser and i am not otherwise validated very often bc people online don't really talk about me or say my name so in quiet moments all i have is negativity and its latching onto my ocd and psychosis and torturing me. but i don't know

#if anyone has an answer i would really appreciate it #i was going to ask in the discord im in but i feel bad bothering them with this

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taikanyohou · 10 months

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ill be honest with you faiza. i truly dont want be negative but i dont think sungho will ever choose junseong. even if he says hes indecisive between him and seonwoo, he'll always choose seonwoo in the end as long as he keeps giving him any hope. and im not saying sungho doesnt like junseong, they clearly get along so well, even if nothing else happens their relationship as friends or something else makes my heart warm, anyone can see it, but he keeps saying that since he's never had a chance to be on a date with him he doesn't know but they've been together so many times... they were roommates too...

it breaks my heart because you can see that since the beginning junseong has never lied and has never jumped between people. his heart has always been in the same direction and he has never played with anyones feelings, truthfully he's i think the only person, or at least the one i respect the most in that house.

you can also see that he himself has no hopes either, he's like "i dont think he'll choose me but ill pursue him anyway because that's just how much i like and feel for him". there's also that scene where he cries and i know the trailer is edited in a way where the context for most scenes is all wrong but... to see him cry, i can tell it's not because of something good. i hate to see someone im rooting for going after someone that might never show any interest in them, it hurts a bit to see. (this is not me hating on sungho!! love that cutie but i just dont know...i know he's not trying to be hurtful on purpose its just how these things are)

i try to not get involved in dating shows because these things never go well but maybe its because im queer too and i feel different about a dating show dedicated to queer people. and maybe its also because i just feel for junseong and i just want him to be happy but im truly nervous about the next episodes... im sorry to just write so much about this to you but i started watching this because of you so you should feel responsible!

hiiii anon!!!

oh anon, i know what you mean. i truly do love junsung from the bottom of my heart. he's from one of the few people who have just. remained true and genuine. and its how much he likes sungho and how clear as day he is about it, but at the same time, never putting any stress or pressure on sungho. he's so selfless but will stand his ground and is determined and its everything you'd want.

and i get what u mean. theres this fear that all seunwoo has to do is give an inch and sungho will go to him. and that might happen. but, as of now, sungho said in ep 7 that he feels equally for them both. truth is it hurt seeing just how stressed sungho looked tbh. he doesnt want to hurt anyone with the decisions he makes and none of it comes from a place of malice.

but i also wanna say that sungho isnt naive. he isnt stupid. he clearly can read seunwoo and junsung and their body language so well. he observes it all. and he's starting to notice seunwoo for the people pleaser that he is. and at some point sungho's got to make that call of what it is he wants to go for, but he isnt stupid. so, yeah, i havent given up hope on 2sung just yet, not at all. we're only halfway through the show!

what we are all certain on is that junsung will keep fighting till the end for sungho's affection.

and i also feel like saying that, yeah, the phonecalls are a huge part of the show, but they arent the be all and end all. i know we're all, just like junsung, waiting for sungho to choose junsung and ring him, but there's so so much sungho has done and shown outside of that that shows his feelings towards junsung. and i think that matters just as much. the notes, the choosing junsung as his roommate again, all the little things in episode 7 between them, there is so much warmth and genuine affection sungho has towards junsung too. and that keeps junsung going, makes it worth it bc sungho is giving something back to him too.

of course, its sungho's call to make at the end of the day, but i wouldnt get disheartened just yet!

#faiza answers #his man 2

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hcdidterms · 4 months

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Hi there, different anon from before, i'm a programmed DID system before you start saying i'm policing survivors. I really can understand the want to belong and feel accepted when you have trauma that is so horrific and feels so isolating. I don't want this to come across as an attack on you or how you cope. I personally wouldn't use the flags, and that's my perogative - and at the end of the day if you or others want to use them, that's your choice too. I really just want to remind you of something, that I think is important.

Pride flags have obviously been used in various communities for a long time (you don't need a history lesson, i get that), and they have good connotations. while i can understand the want to maybe reclaim aspects of your trauma, I really want to speak - if not to the creator of this blog, but the people who might use the flags, and remind them that sharing information about your programming if you are a survivor is inherently dangerous online.

I 100% believe it should be talked about, and there are great online communities that exist for that (though they obviously need to be monitored like any other community, even more so than normal ones in fact). I just want to remind people that telling strangers on the internet who can contact you that you have been through something that makes you inherently vulnerable to outside influence and abuse can be so dangerous, and to please be aware of this if people are going to use the flags.

I also wanted to quickly bring up the idea of programs being something to celebrate. I'm understanding that that is not the point of this - i've read your post, and I understand your POV. I just want to suggest that potentially having a flag of something does create an identity of celebration around it - I know for example that certain programmed alters in my system would take this sort of flag and then use it to reason that their programming is something to be proud of, or not to be changed.

I think there is this blurred separation in the RAMCOA survivor community between celebrating the fact that you have survived and are a survivor - and celebrating the identities that may have emerged from surviving. I know I for one am 10000% proud and vocal about how much my alters have survived - but that does not mean that I am celebrating what they survived and the identity that they had to take on to survive. Creating flags seems like these programs are part of someone's concrete self and identity - and I hope you can see how this could be seen as anti-healing rhetoric and anti-change? In making a program part of an alter's identity, it could make them feel like they can't change, they can't deprogram, they can't move forward.

I completely agree that surviving is something to be proud of. But I am struggling to see where celebrating and broadcasting intimate trauma details (because it is intimate trauma details - knowing which programs someone has survived gives out a lot of information that can easily be used against people) helps survivors - which surely is the whole point.

Again, I want to reiterate that I am not attacking you (the creator), or the people that may have reblogged or identify with this flags. I just really want to, speaking survivor to survivors, reach out and remind everyone to please make sure to critically engage with HC-DID material and resources, and do what's best for you to heal and survive. Don't let your programs paint you in a corner (not pointed at anyone specifically). you're all so much more.

Sending genuine support from another survivor. I hope you can take this as the constructive feedback that it is meant as, instead of an attack - as that is far from the intention of this ask. Take care <3

We've already expressed that our flags arent meant to be used in public so not gonna reiterate

And obviously if your alters use our flags to prove that it's good or normal they were programmed you should just - yk - block us??? We're not forcing you to use these???? I truly don't fucking understand you people going "erm ita bad because [personal reasons]"

It's the goddamn internet, block buttons exist. We're not fucking forcing you.

Also AGAIN, it's not fucking broadcasting it's supposed to be used in private

You're telling people to do what's best for them but while writing this you didn't stop to think for a moment that *this* is the best we can do to heal at this moment.

We don't have access to professional help, even if we did there aren't any *DID* specialists in our whole country, let alone ramcoa specialists. THIS is the only think that's helping us

Being "out and proud" about being programmed is the only thing that's helped us.

Even though I've responded in a rude way we have taken in this constructive criticism, thank you

Take care

-Dani

#<HC_discourse>#did system #hc did #hc did system #highly complex did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder #programmed did #programmed system #ramcoa #ramcoa system #actually highly complex

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ctrlemis · 2 years

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Let's set some boundaries.

i feel like i need to expand on this: yall are not god. yall are not cupid, and yall are not the boss of anyone but yourself. that being said, stop trying to interfere and dictate over people just because you can hide behind anon and say all the shit you want. just in general people on here not understanding that they arent god, they arent matchmakers and they do not know everything. im sick of people feeling as though they can do anything in the name of 'whats right' or 'trying to help' when they dont care. writers and creator set boundaries on here and time and time again they are disrespected and ignored and im so sick of it. they act as if we're just a bunch of puppets for their entertainment, when we are all REAL people. its sick. stay out of peoples business unless they ask for your help. yall barely know half these people yet you feel the need tonbe all in there business. telling them when to update telling them what to do. yall will always cross boundaries and i am fucking sick of it. go outside and get a fucking life instead of tormenting people on this app who talk on here just to talk or write just for fun, because yall take the fun out of it.

and since it was brought up by a friend, when yall go and say "oh this person is super nice go talk to them" yall automatically make the person youre speaking to not wanna talk to them. because firstly its forced and that sucks, and two, just because i go and act goofy around person a, c, and d doesnt mean ill act goofy around b. not to mention, you are putting pressure on that person youre talking abt to be how you say. "but whats wrong with being kind and nice?" nothing, but when you make it seem like thats all this person is, yall erase the other parts of them. yall basically treat us like idols and we aren't. because yeah im friendly to anons and yes im silly with my moots/friends but if i just meet you im gonna be shy bc i dont know you. and if this person is expecting me to treat them like how i treat sei or mai for example, and i dont, they may feel like oh i have something against them. then that puts pressure on me to go and act like that with them even though i dont know them that well.

this is a rant but yall need to read it all, because i dont think yall understand how invasive yall are and can be.

edit: i feel the need to add i am not only referring to writers on here but also anons and readers as well

#ctrlemis #⸺ let's get serious real quick #this is something ive been meaning to say but yall pushed me to the fucking edge #expect this to be updated every five minutes

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arillusionist · 7 months

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s&b s1e2 live reaction!!

the episode title omg... nina and matthias better show up in this

young mal and alina are so cute

KAZ AND INEJ ALREADY?? IM BEING FED HELL YEAH

but i can tell this is not gonna be a cute scene

i mean their scenes are never "cute" but shes already yelling 😬😬

OH THAT WAS PAINFUL TO WATCH

inej is so valid tho i love how she knows what she wants and she doesnt let herself get pushed around 💪💪

even by kaz

the darkling isnt even that hot what do people see in him??? the crows on the other hand.............. bangers all of them

ah this is the scene from the trailer

oh thank god we're in ketterdam again i like alina's plot but its very predictable and crow's plot is not

and thats funny considering i've read soc but not s&b 💀

inej is gonna save kaz im calling ittt

oh nvm!! see what i mean abt it being unpredictable

Ahh inej and jesper time 😍😍

STOPPP NOT INEJ DRINKING JESPER'S SHOT

wait huh?? why is inej going to the menagarie????

KAZ DRINKING JESPERS SHOT TOO IM CRYINF

indirect kiss 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 (not really)

KAZ HAS BLUE EYES?? I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS HES SUPPOSED TO HAVE BROWN EYES INEJ LITERALLY DESCRIBES THAT A MILLION TIMES

damn kaz is smart

alina girl theyre not tryna kill you

what tf does mal have against grisha 💀💀💀

happy to see inej but why the Fuck is she still in the menagerie i dont like this

WHEN SHE LETS HER HAIR DOWN >>>>>>>

"would you like to see how it works" HDHFLKJFKLJFL

okok thank god shes just gonna kill someone i thought that heleen bitch was gonna make her do what she did before

jesper being in awe of inej is so funny to me 😭😭

i feel like everybody is being way to chill abt alina being a fucking Sun Summoner. like theyre all like ohh yeah ur special ur the chosen one but thats it?? why arent their reactions more extreme?? this girl is literally a legend?????

every time a fjerdan appears i go a little delulu and think its matthias

look i js wanna see all the crows ok?? 💔💔 ik wylan isnt in this season but stilllll

i can definitely see how harsh the fjerdans are towards grisha now.. like it was obvious in soc but this rlly Shows it

oh OH damn

JESPER ASKING FOR AN EXPLOSIVES EXPERT LMAO 😭😭

i love jesper

OH SHE DID IT!!!

aww i feel bad for alina ☹️💔

GET AWAY FROM HER GET A JOB 🗣️🗣️

"you would turn your back on her so quickly?" dawg.....

the person saying "eh whatever" in the background when jesper fired 💀

jesper is so bad at lying

KILL HIM INEJ

…she has a brother??

"you choose him over my freedom" "you assume its one or the other" hdhfjk the angstttt

ok i know inej is mad at kaz but the shot where they were looking over the conductor guy... THE power couple omg 🔥🔥🔥

aww alina 💔💔 jessie is a hella good actor tho

what is she doing!?!?!?

OH MY GOD THE SCENE CUTTING TO KAZ AFTER THE GUYS TALK ABOUT DOING FOOLISH THINGS FOR YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS

HE SOLD THE FUCKING CROW CLUB ?????

HE DID IT FOR HER~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KAZ

KAZ OH MY GODDDD

KANEJ IS REAL

THEY ARE REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

AUGHHHH H💗💖💖💖💖💖💖

ITS NOT ALL ANGST AHDFJKFLJGKJGLKJGLKJFKLJLKFJ

i could not care less about mal pining for alina KANEJ. IS. REAL. AHHH!!!!!

ok i care abt alina tho!! ☹️☹️ feel so bad for her

aww its overrr 💔💔 if the show wasnt on the verge of cancelation i would watch another one but im tryna stretch this out

#shadow and bone #grishaverse

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jarvis-cockhead · 1 year

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i came out as trans last night to my mum thinking itd go a lot better than it did, i love her and she loves me and she cares about me immensely and im not upset with her but i no longer know how long it will be before i can live the life i want to live. 'i cant even cut my hair' i keep thinking. i wanted to cut my hair. haircuts are always scary for me and i wanted her to help me. she doesnt want me to do anything until ive had professional help. she doesnt want me to do anything permanent, full stop. she told me she doesnt see how it would help me and i know that she just doesnt really believe me. i knew she has concerns about the rise in trans people but i also knew shes not transphobic and i guess i thought maybe for her own child itd be different. i have no idea where shes got her information from because she currently believes that from what shes read there is no evidence of transitioning making people happier, which of course isnt true, a simple google search will show you papers and studies that say otherwise. she doesnt want me to cut my hair. i was always scared of my dads reaction because while hes also not generally transphobic, i knew hed be resistant and would find it difficult to come to terms with but after her reaction im completely terrified. my dad and i are very close, we run on the same unique frequency, and if something were to change that i dont know what ill do. i cant lose that. we arent telling him yet. he is the only thing in the entire world that makes me want to do nothing, because i cant lose him. i cant cut my hair on my own for fear of raising questions before he knows. i cant do it. i told my mum i love her for the first time in i dont know how many years. i cried until my head hurt. at some point when i was about 14/15 i remember telling her i hated my name and she told me i could change it if thats what i wanted. last night she told me she doesnt know if she could use different pronouns or a different name for me- not for a long while, anyway. i couldnt tell her my name. on top of all of this, she has a very understandable reason for why she also cant prioritise this situation, in relation to stress and her health, and i am not upset with her. the last thing i want to do is make her more ill. we're going to talk to her friend together who is very good at talking through issues. i have no idea when this will happen, im away at university most of my time now. for weeks and weeks and weeks when ive come home ive wanted to say something and now i almost wish i hadnt. i cant come home and be me. i cant come home and be me.

#advice welcome idk what to do lol

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yum-cy · 1 year

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I’m sorry but how do you expect a blind actor to do the stuff daredevil does…there are not blind ppl w radar sense irl, if there were then yeah they should’ve cast one. But it is a lot more feasible to get a sighted actor to pretend to be blind and pretend to have a radar sense of the things he can see than it is to get a blind actor and have them pretend they have a radar sense of things they can’t see. In an ideal world perhaps with enough preparation maybe it could be done but idk…but yes with any other blind characters they should be played by blind actors, I just think it would be very difficult to cast a blind actor as a character who, while still being blind ofc, can perceive the world around him accurately enough to do things like hand to hand combat and parkour

Okay. 1st of all. Can sighted people hear a scream a mile away over new york traffic? Because as far as im aware, they cant.

2nd of all. THAT IS NOT THE POINT OF THE POST dear fucking gd. besides. i can do hand to hand combat. do you think im lying about this? do you think im some sort of outlier in the blind community? im not. i learned from a blind person in a class full of blind people.

And parkour? You just need to be aware of your surroundings. And you think Charlie Cox is doing that shit without hesitation or without multiple attempts or without, oh, i dont know, safety measures put in place????? THIS ISNT REAL LIFE!! And even if it was, blind people can do parkour?? It isnt impossible. We arent stumbling damsels in distress. We're full people with different skills and abilities and we can learn shit

Did you do any fucking research at all?? Did you read the post??

Im trying my best to explain this clearly, but i honestly just want to tell you to fuck off. Next time you want to be an ableist ass, just fucking stop

Also, saying "im sorry" doesnt make what youre saying any less shitty

Based off what you said, youre sighted. You have no fucking place to talk here. If im wrong, im sorry but you really need to check your internalised ableism and not make it my problem

#yancy's bullshit ✌#i typed this out because im pissed and needed to rant. but i couldve just deleted this and i wouldnt have owed you anything more #not sure i got my sheer rage across here but im so tired and pissed off #ableism #anon. why the fuck did you think you had any room to talk to a blind person about a blind issue

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clericbyers · 2 years

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Hiya, saw this video on tiktok about st being queerbait, im only on s1 can you tell me if its actually queerbait?

well . that's a bit of a complicated question and it all depends on how v2 and the last season decides to end things. what we do know for sure is that there are queer characters (robin, lesbian and will, gay) and they each have their own romances going on (robin and vicky, though that may just be a throwaway reference in contrast to steve's romantic struggles, and will and mike, the latter i'll speak to more).

i wont spoil you of the story, as i still believe s2 is the best and though i personally dislike s3 and s4 isnt finished yet, they of course each have plenty to contribute to the story of stranger things. now, the claim that st is queerbait is an interesting thing. queerbaiting occurs not just in the context of the show's characters but the people involved in it is as well. from actors to directors, to writers and producers, everything that goes into telling and marketing a story that puts emphasis on a queer romance between two characters that never resolves—or resolves in the direction of denying either character being queer, is queerbaiting.

right now, there is explicit tension between will and mike and the development of their friendship. s4 has pretty much deliberately shown us that any previous readings people had about will's sexuality and in particular, his crush on mike, are true. mike on the other hand, well, that's far more up to interpretation than will, but i'm firmly biased in the direction of mike being closeted and s4-5 showing us him coming to terms with his feelings.

the queerbait here would be between mike and will because the show has given us a lot of evidence that will's feelings are real and that even mike's are too. st4 really hammered that in imo, and you can tie that in with the promotions for the show—the interviews cast has given that include talk about mike and an emotional monologue, mike kicking into gear when someone he loves is in danger, will having a crush on someone in the party, etc etc . it doesn't make any narrative sense for this duo to not be a reciprocated crush. if they arent, despite all that's been said and done between the writing, the parallels mike and will have in comparison to other romantic "endgame" couples, the interviews and vague hints, then that would be queerbaiting.

but until it is set in stone that the story will essentially shoot itself in the foot by ignoring mike and will's unique, different, special, honestly romantic relationship, i don't think this is queerbait. but i can see how one might say it could be . but we're not there yet . we'll see in july for sure once everyone's reunited.

#yams answers #anon #byler #its not even about being overly confident or pessimistic #if you just LOOK at the way mike responds to will vs el and the way he treats them both #even if hes an ass to each of them the way he comes back from that is different and speaks VOLUMES #nothing anyone can say will erase that fact and the decision that the writers and editors left those reactions in the final version of #these episodes

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ask-dcf · 2 years

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*the bottle forms two new notes, ready for reading.*

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*Chara's note reads as follows:*

"Honestly? I understand. I understand completely. Its scary, yknow? Love is scary. But you deserve it- sides, there aint no going wrong with Frisk, right? Theyre the kindest person, in both your universe and mine.

As difficult as it is, we're all kinda 'chained' in our own way. Trapped. Its a part of life. But whats important is how we handle our prisons, or whatever. Like...decorating a prison to become a home. Idk if that makes sense? Lol I can't exactly think with everything going on, to be honest.

Take as much time as you need, honestly. But don't let personal chains hold you back forever, okay? Trauma sucks, but honestly, i've found that treating it like an asshole animal you're stuck with as a pet has helped. Does that make sense? Should I even be writing this letter right now? Frisk says no but idc youre getting this anyways

Has anyone told you that you're really cool? cuz you should know that. i think so at least. You have snazzy clothes too. You look very suishable. I kinda wanna squish you. maybe someday we could meet in person? idk if thats possible, but yknow.

Rock on, and fuck those buttercups lol

-Chara"

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*Frisk's note reads as following:*

"So cool to be hearing back from you!! :D its always nice to make a new friend!

Firstly, I wanna say! Chara can hate humanity, without hating you! Sure, you're human, but...cmon, do you REALLY think she isnt at least fond of you? I heard that she sang to you! Only someone that really cares sings to you! And she blushes a lot around you, too! Thats suspicious to say the list :p

And hey! You arent a weak nobody! You're a frikkin Frisk! The savior of Monsterkind! Sure, Data and Chara helped (which is very cool of them :D) but!! You're one of the ones who saved monsters! That DEFINITELY is more than a nobody!

Besides!! You dont have to have committed some giant act to be a 'somebody'!! Everyone's lives have a meaning, no matter what anyone else tells you. That includes yours.

My big sister Celest told me once 'your value is not what you can do, or how well you can do it. it is who you are. And as long as you are something, whether big or small, you are valuable. Even if that 'something' is just being an everyday person.'

And shes right!! You are valuable, and so am I...even if...its hard to understand or remember sometimes..but if we keep repeating that, someday, we'll believe it with our souls, right? so keep your head up!! or cry if you need it!! both are fine!!

You and I both have people we still want to save. I don't know what will come of either of our situations but...at least we will have each other to tell! ^v^

Sincerely, me! <3

(Ps: tell your Chara that my Chara is delirious, which is why their note might be weird =~=)"

*They read their letters. Confused and slightly flustered as they write their responses*

To Chara (Me): *multiple cross outs as if not sure how to respond to some of these* Thanks… I will need alot of time to think, but i appreciate the support…. And well. what i went through was way too much for me… So it will be hard for me to deal with it. Also thanks, good to know i am cool with my poncho (even though its color is different now) and uuhhh not sure on the squishy thing. i dont think i am… And uh. yeah would be nice to meet another Me thats not a murderer. -signed Other you

To new Friend me!: *couple scribbles aswell unable to respond* I genuinely think she more or less tolerates me the same way she tolerates an aquiantece…. i at least want her to see the outside and know that humanity isnt all bad. Maybe if i show her how peaceful it is then maybe ill have more confidence in being her-*big harsh scribbles* Forget that. As for the blush thing i think she is just shy around another human… maybe… And the singing uh…. no comment… haha… And well… its debatable of the save thing… I…. I also had help when i wanted to save the monsters. its hard to explain what i saw but it did involve Data again… I appreciate Your sisters words of wisdom… while i still dont feel confident i…. I want to at least make Chara see the good in humanity… despite its flaws…. maybe that can be enough for me to be happy…. even if in the end… she… doesnt…. you know…… And yeah. good luck on the people you wanna save, ill try my best myself. stay safe. -Frisk

*they put their notes in the bottle. and it teleports. Frisk looks down sad while Chara looks at them with a bit of worry.*

#undertale #datatale #datatale au #frisk #chara #ask blog #ask dcf

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I totally see your point about needing to increase accessibility in all games, but also there's no game that it os without it's accessibility faults, nor is Build Mart the least accessible. There are ways to work around a colorblind member or nd member, you put them in a position they can avoid their disability in. A colorblind person could still easily be a runner, the color secrions are all labeled and everything else hs different textures. And if you make an nd person a more permanent builder then they don't need to memorize things. One of the best things about buildmart is how much communication is necessary. The people who excel at the game have very clear and concise communication systems set up to work quickly and efficiently. And as for games that a person can have disabilities thay make them unble to improve upon? Lets look back at those high anxiety games that were mentioned, Parkour Tag and Battle Box. There are also multiple creators with anxiety disorders who play and Grian for example has on multiple occasions expressed how overwhelming those 2 games are for him and it makes him unable to focus properly and his hands to get so sweaty he can't control his mouse properly. Thats not something can be trained, that's a result of that disability. So why aren't we calling for them to not be played or just nixxed entirely? And it's incredibly frustrating and sad and upsetting sometimes to watch because he gets so frustrated with himself for neing unable to do it. But I have seen little to no calls for those games to be canned. And while we're at it, what about Dodgebolt? Its a classic, we all love it, but again, talk about high anxiety. Poor Grian has literally hd a panic attack playing that game and yet, again, not a peep from the community to throw it out. This is all coming from the perspective of someone who hs both ADHD and an anxiety disorder, trust me I know how both can affect you and what things can and cannot be just trained. My point in all this is to say, is it really about inaccessibility, and if so, why aren't we advocating for better accessibility in other games too?

I feel like a major point is being missed. I gladly welcome discussions and call outs about inaccessibility, just because I'm only talking about one game doesn't mean that other games arent also putting certain people at a disadvantage.

Focusing on builtmart first

A colorblind person could still easily be a runner

Yes colorblind people can be runners but they're at more of a disadvantage than a non colorblind runner would be. Yes everything is labeled but having to slow down and take the time to read each color is slower than the quick glance around that someone else could take. An easier situation would be to place the colorblind player as a builder so they're closer to the builds, but still there's a issue with having to be within a specific range of the block in order to read its block label. Even then that's not fool proof bc in the instance like the Red Rabbits team with 3 colorblind players there would be at least one of them running or else there would only be one block runner for 3 builds

If you make an nd person a more prominent builder then they don't need to memorize things

Sure, but actually not really. They need to take inventory of their build, what blocks they need and how many plus how many they already have, and say they tell the runner what they need but the runner forgets and asks again the builder would need to take inventory again if they forgot.

I've watched dreams povs for buildmart several times, plus I watch his content regularly, he moves around a lot. Dream is constantly moving around and, while of course I don't know him or what strategy would work best for him, he probably wouldn't enjoy being a builder so putting him in that position might not be what he wants or feels most comfortable with.

One of the best things about buildmart is how much communication is necessary

It is and that makes it a great team game. But communication can be a huge road block for overloaded nd players especially considering communication only gets you so far when you forget what you've been told nearly immediately. Buildmart requires a lot of communication. I've watched buildmarts go smoothly and communication is a huge factor in that, but so is being able to remember what you were doing, where you were going, and managing inventory for several builds.

And as for games that a person can have disabilities that make them unable to be improved upon

I don't watch Grians pov for MCC so I didn't know about his anxiety playing Parkour Tag and Battle Box and I also don't know how often he practices those games or how often he talks with players that excel at that game.

As someone who also has anxiety I know that anxiety can be improved on for some people. I don't know what would help Grian or if that situation could be improved but as someone who does watch him what are somethings that you suggest that could help him?

I have hand tremors so my mouse sensitivity is pretty low, would practicing those games with a low mouse sensitivity aid in his difficulty? Would playing with people who could give him tips help lessen his anxiety? Are there ways to add to those games that would allow a player a bit more ease such as temporary immunity or requiring 2 hits to get tagged?

Like I said I think there's always room for improvement

So why aren't we calling for them to not be played or just nixxed entirely

You are welcome and encouraged to make posts bringing issues to light. Just because I made a post about the ableism of buildmart doesn't mean I don't think other games don't have their flaws. Also to mention I gave suggestions to improve buildmart, despite the fact I don't like it.

And it's incredibly frustrating and sad and upsetting to watch because he gets so frustrated with himself

That's exactly how I feel when George and Dream have to play buildmart, watching them beg for buildmart not to be played and then watching their morale crash and burn as they continue to get frustrated with buildmart. It is super upsetting to watch someone get frustrated with themself especially over things they can't control, which is why I'm calling out buildmart and offering suggestions for improvements.

Not a peep from the community to throw it out

So make a post about it! I'm a huge advocate for calling things out and bring light to subjects that are important to me.

My point in all of this is to say, is it really about inaccessibility, and if so, why aren't we advocating for better accessibility in other games too?

Yes it is about inaccessibility. I'm not talking about other games because I am talking about buildmart. You're welcome to ask me what I think about other games (I can't guarantee that I'd have very substantial things to say but you're welcome to ask).

Why aren't we advocating for improvements in other games? Well 1. because I wanted to talk about buildmart so I made a post about buildmart and 2. Why aren't you calling for improvements?

Anyone is allowed to call out games and put suggestions out there! Just because I made a post about one game doesn't mean you can't make posts about other games!

#buildmart #mcc #blazeanswers #blazerambles #blazebattlesbuildmart

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doomsdayradio · 2 years

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non-parts anon here, let me explain

the part about final fusion is from the fact that the TOSD was created to "fix" systems and encourage final fusion. it's not inherently something you have to believe, but saying system only means system of dissociated parts and that you have to acknowledge that reminds me of the TOSD, and that ideology of "fixing" a system

the TOSD is not confirmed also. yes, systems more often form from childhood trauma, but we can barely scientifically know what consciousness is, how would we be able to scientifically tell if someone's actually "just dissociated parts" or actually separate consciousnesses. what even counts as a conscious awareness? i'd go further but i don't want to start feeling derealized right now lol

saying system of dissociated parts is also inherently using parts language on other people. did you not read the line? "system", meaning a group of, and "dissociated parts", also known as CALLING PEOPLES ALTERS/HEADMATES PARTS. yes, scientifically, it could be that way, but scientifically we could be not even real people. again, we're made to procreate and die. not everyone wants to have sex. we've made a life beyond nature, we've personized ourselves. why do we have to stick to scientific language even if we are disordered/traumagenic.

parts can have personhood, but the TOSD states that they're parts of a whole person, and again, encourages final fusion as the main/only way to heal, and if the TOSD is correct, and it is only a result of trauma and you're dissociated parts, it makes logical sense that the only way to heal would be to make the parts not separated... aka FINAL. FUSION. humanizing the parts / giving them separate personhood is seen as harmful to recovery for many.

i hope this clarifies some stuff

i have literally never heard that the TOSD was meant to "fix" systems as far as ive been aware its simply the current leading theory on how osddid forms so if you could possibly explain this more thatd be appreciated

i dont even know what to say to this one it feels dangerously close to "well psychologists arent even sure if osddid exists" and id rather not entertain it because itll also make me derealize and spiral 😭

dude i literally do not know what to tell you no matter what you do or how much you dislike it as an osddid system you are scientifically dissociated parts of the same person??? you dont have to use parts language literally anywhere else in your life, you can view yourselves as completely seperate people thats fine we're like that too most of the time but like you have to acknowledge when it comes to science that if you have osddid you are dissoicated parts of the same person?? like im sorry if that makes you uncomfortable its just. a fact?

again ive never heard the TOSD to be used as a way to "fix" systems, dehumanizing alters is a whole different like ableist thing that feels like too much to get into rn and will just result in a tangent

#im sorry if this doesnt make sense im tired and dissociated 💀#words words words !!#❓#syscourse #syscourse neutral

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warderfromtheborder · 2 years

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We are your Salvation

I once said that the ending of Shadowkeep was frustrating on release due to that line having no meaningful conveyance, like the punchline of a 20 minute long story but we never heard the story. I also said I trusted bungie to build off of it and give it a great payoff later down the road, as a very important and Very Good story beat, validating the choice to end such a pivotal story on such a (at the time) confusing note.

And hooooo boy I think I was right.

2 things have happened since then:

The Witch Queen and its attendant story reveals came out, and

I finally got into reading Berserk

And the Shadowkeep finale makes sense to me now. The doppleganger in the Black Garden saying "We are your Salvation" is the same as Griffith saying "I will get my own Kingdom". The first time we heard it was like the first time Guts heard it, it didn't mean anything tangible or relateable, it was just a giant signpost from this being we can't ignore saying 'YO this is where we're headed smiley emoji'.

Now, thinking back to it, after learning about

-the Witness

-Rhulk

-and the manipulation of whole fucking planets like chess pieces

-and carrying the cost of loss and heartbreak

-and the EXCRUCIATING existential misery of Crow

-and Osiris

-and Savathun

-and seeing how much can actually be sacrificed for the sake of just O N E person's dream of a better world, now when I hear

We are your Salvation

I see Griffith after his reincarnation proclaiming to Guts again

I will get my own Kingdom

Because now, like Guts, we know what that destination is. It isn't just intent, it's a promise. We've seen the roadmap. We know what it costs to get there, and the Witness was telling us that we don't have a choice of whether or not to pay.

The Witness, like Griffith, is so confident in its victory, and so shamelessly unfazed by its horrific means, it walks right up to us and doesn't say,

We have killed so many uncountable numbers of life and light and struggling hope and blazing glory and unshakeable faith that it makes your attempts to subvert the rules look just so darn cute, downright adorable, but it doesn't matter, we're still going to help you yes I said help you, we're going to take all that pain away and it won't hurt anymore because by the time we're done all the things you've ever cared about and all the people you've saved and all those guns you've told yourself will be the One that fires the shot that sets Everything to rights, we will have destroyed every last bit of it and you won't be hurt by anything at all. There will be nothing to suffer from. And nothing to suffer for. And that means you will be at peace, and isn't that what's best for everything? We're going to make sure none of you has to do this any longer.

We're going to save you, struggler.

A signpost. A promise. An immeasureable price to be paid.

We are your Salvation.

It's so good! Such a great line! It means so much! And how fucking brave to be like, 'they arent gonna know what to make of this for years to come even tho this is the definitive declaration of war from the enemy' absolute madlads I love the narrative team so much.

#Destiny #shadowkeep #witch queen #Berserk #Sorry for my run on sentence s #Witness #Winnower #Darkness #Black fleet

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