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#and you atill haven't done it despite it being literally one phone call and one driving trip away
nowendil
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:/ why can't i sleep when im supposed to
#sometimes I think I really should go and like talk to someone or something
#nowe talks
#don't reblog
#im so sorry for the rant i will delete this in the morning i promise aldjskd i will be fine
#but then i realize that the therapist would literally just be like '?? so like…not doing this thing makes you hate yourself on top of making
#you anxious. every time you remember that you're not doing this thing you grow more sure you're irredeemably horrible as a person. the only
#way you cope with this is avoid thinkinng about it which kinda works for now but only makes everything gradually worse and makes it feel
#like getting hit by a truck every time you remember it. you could just do it. you have the resources to do the task. but it's been so long
#that now you're too ashamed to do it because you think people will be mad at you because you didn't do it earlier (which is the reason you
#didnt do it earlier) but also not doing it earlier kills you. what? and because you've been not doing it for so long the thought of it being
#resolved in one day in one way or another makes you physically feel sick because that means you could've really done it months ago
#if you weren't such a selfish coward? ok. yeah i think i have had enough of you lol peace and love <3'
#like dude you have had this same anxiety fit AT LEAST once a month for AT LEAST five years
#and you atill haven't done it despite it being literally one phone call and one driving trip away? ok 😐
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