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#and when i was a kid like it was way worse!! bc i didnt understand why sometimes people didnt get my humor
elegyofthemoon · 10 months
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people on my twt feed kept comparing pandora hearts and dgrayman and bc my 11 year old self was so obsessed w dgm i decided to pick it up again and 😭 i see why i was obsessed lmao
#the anime makes me kinda nostalgic but i cant stomach it bc ep 50 or so was a bunch of fillers that werent in the manga#hhfjfj ik i was super mad about it when i was watching that i stopped watching#but anyways!#i finished vol 2 for dgm and im sobbing my eyes out what the fuck...#NO AND IK IT GETS WORSE IM NOT READY .....#like i had this feeling id like allen anyways bc he was my fave when i was little the same way i was attached to oz as a kid JGHFJFJ#BUT NOW THAT I UNDERSTAND IM LIKE....OH.....OH NO#anyways like. allen and yuu having a conversation about self sacrifice and i was like 'ah....oz and elliot convo retrace 26 nodnod'#but the difference is that like. oz was afraid of losing everything so if it meant sacrificing himself he didnt mind so long as someone#stays...#meanwhile allen says that hes lost everything so he has nothing else to lose#allen had such a kind heart also bc of how much he has lost and him tending to guzol and lala made me uglycry like i was 11 again OK....#also yuu saying 'exorcists are destroyers' but allen acknowledging it but wanting to use that power to protect I WILL DIE ACTUALLY LMAO#NO THE NEXT VOLUME IS GONNA SLAP ME SO HARD DUDE CANNOT WAIT....#miranda and krory!!!!!!! big excited!!!#or i think krory is vol 4... OH MY GOD LAVIIIIIIIII 💞💞💞💞💞💞#ok thats all i wanna say jenfjdjf#like allens so optimistic but its the kind thats formed by going through The Worst and that makes me sob#dudes only 14 and going through it#jshdjjd that would also check out for why 11 year old me was obsessed w him. ok#snow speaks#i dont have the next volume on me.... makes me sad....#snow reads dgm
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aaronwhorechner · 24 days
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okay, listen. the scene where emily is getting ready to go out and meet viper and hotch comes in to check on her is so....out of character for him?
like, if it would've been jj or even penelope (honestly, probably even jordan) i'd completely understand him wanting to check in, but with them, he wouldve absolutely waited for them to come out of the locker room before asking if they were okay doing this. or at least made sure before they even started getting ready. at this point theyve used emily for her looks before, its nothing new for her.
but hotch comes in whiiiiiile she is getting dressed!! and his whole "hotch demeanor" is dropped especially in his little "oh" when she tells him she's dated people worse than viper. its not hotch coming to check on prentiss, its aaron coming to check on emily.
but what really gets me is....yeah okay he came into the locker room instead of waiting, but he awkwardly pauses instead of just being like "okay, ill see you when youre ready" or whatever after he's made sure she was okay doing this. im pretty sure the only reason she asked him about jordan is bc he didnt leave right away, he just....lingered fjdkjfdskfjds
the comfortableness between them in this scene makes me want to SCREAM and i wholeheartedly believe the writers were working their way into something with them but then paget got fired and when she was able to come back, knew right away that she wasnt staying longer than season 7. and then of course thomas got fired and they only brought paget back so that emily could take hotch's position,(WHICH HE SPECIFICIALLY REQUESTED MIGHT I ADD!!!!) so having them get together wouldnt have worked. (instead they had him date a knock off version of her - fjdskfjds im kidding i actually really liked beth)
anyway, i'm fine everything is fine
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bingusbongu · 3 months
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I saw your post of villanious and I smile bc there's barley any content 😔. Of you have time can you write about how would Dr Flug act around black hats apprentice (like they been raised and taught by black hat to the point they could be considered black hats kid/grandchild) Because he is secretly in love with them?
♡A/N: dawww ty!!!! Villainous has been one of my favorite fandoms like ever- and i enjoy writing for these sillies!!!! There is hardly any Villainous writers rn, and im here ti fill in that place!!!!! Besides, i love writing for my favorite nerd<3333 hope you enjoy~!!!♡
Dr. Flug × Blackhats apprentice reader!
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▪︎ he didnt believe it for one second! Blackhat, with an apprentice? Absurd! That was highly unlikely! It made the doctor laugh out loud at the thought. Blackhat would hardly have time or the patience to take in some random villain under his wing
▪︎ until he met you
▪︎ when Blackhat called the team for a meeting in his office, he surely expected it to be another mission. He was not optimistic about it
▪︎ instead, to his suprise, Blackhat mentioned a new member joining the team. Flug could hardly believe it! But what caught him off gaurd was how fondly Blackhat talked off this person, as if this was someone he had knew. And with that, Flug expected the worse. Blackhat hardly had time for friends, and if it was atleast an alley, then they had ro be strong, scary, and murderous like his boss was.
▪︎ you can say for sure he was caught off gaurd when you were introduced. You looked.. normal, like.. a person. And Blackhat let you stand near him, and the demon himself spoke fondly about your abilities, almost proudly. This spiked the doctors curiosity
▪︎ Bkackhat decided that you would join the trio on one of their next missions. 505 was ecstatic to have a friend, and Demencia could care less about another member. Flug though? This poor man was petrified. Was this a test???? Would you be observing them and reporting their work back to Blackhat?? Did Blackhat not trust them enough to do their jobs properly???? These questions sent the doctor spiraling
▪︎ when the time comes for the mission, Dr. Flug was nervous as all hell. Deciding he was going to go out of his way to impress you! If you were here to test them, then he sure was going to do his best!
▪︎ he ended up getting so nervous he nearly crashed the hat plane because he wasnt paying attention
▪︎ he was distracted! He was tring his best to observe you and understand you. You were hardly even seemed like a threat. For instance, you pet 505 willingly! Thats something no villain, let alone a favor of Blackhats would even come close to doing
▪︎ you just seemed... normal to him. What was so special about you?
▪︎ until he was in trouble
▪︎ he was pinned, unsure what to do. His plan didnt go out well at all, and he was doomed for absolute failure
▪︎ he expected to be beaten by this hero, he waited for the pain but... it never happened
▪︎ Instead, he found you where the hero would be, effortlessly throwing the hero off of Flug, and throwing him into the nearby wall without any struggle. A fierce look behind those eyes, as you snarled at the hero. Before you turned your attention back to Flug, and offered him a hand up
▪︎ he was stunned
▪︎ Maybe he understood why Blackhat was fond of you, after watching you easily ground a hero before his own eyes, he was in awe
▪︎ afterwords, on the way back from the mission, Flug nervously thanked you, and you just smiled and told him it was no trouble
▪︎ Flug and you got talking, the doctor ended up learning about you and Blackhats backstory. He hardly believed it at first, but then again, he couldnt ask Blackhat about it, that was a death sentence.
▪︎ you two ended up getting along!
▪︎ Flug was still equally terrified of you, getting extreamly nervous in your presence
▪︎ He had to do some research, because he didnt fully believe your story, observing yours and Blackhats interactions. He seemed to value your opinion abit more than he did witg the rest of the crew, but he also pointed out each flaw in your work. Not like he woukd do with Flug in disappointment, but like he was teaching you
▪︎ Flug was ultimately confused, but he decided not to dig into it anymore, just incase something bad would happen of he found out to much
▪︎ he wa just confused on how you werent so hostile abd scary like Blackhat was, and alas, he would never know
▪︎ you got to come along on missions with the trio! And to Flugs suprise, you worked really well with his plans. You two even made a good team together! Undoubtedly, the first person to actually follow along with his plans, and that was enough to make him value you alot more.
▪︎ you two didn't really spend to much time together. He was usually busy in his lab, or you were busy following Blackhat around as he taught you things
▪︎ though, occasionally, you would have free time, and come and visit Flug down in his lab!
▪︎ he was suprised at first, but he hardly minded, after all you didn't touch anything, and you were more curious about asking him of his projects, which he was happy to explain to you
▪︎ he liked when you came down to visit him, although it wasnt constant, he enjoyed your company, and your curiosity of his projects, he liked talking to you. It was always so quiet down in his lab, he usually talked to his robots or to 505, it was nice to have a an actual back and forth conversation
▪︎ when he first noticed his likness to you, it was when you were helping Blackhat with his work, and spotted Flug out thd corner of your eye. And you stopped to wave at him!
▪︎ you actually stopped your work, just ro acknowledged him.. for some reason, that made his head spin
▪︎ once he realized he liked you, he desperately tried to push his feelings away. He was confident that it would never work, after all, Blackhat would forbid it , or turn him into a pretzel if he found out that one of his workers grew a fondness for his apprentice
▪︎ But, no matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't deny it. Especially during missions, when you taunted the heros and maniacally rip them to shreds, it makes his heart skip.
▪︎ or the way you punished heros???? He is smitten
▪︎ Demencia definitely noticed the hopelessly lovesick look on Flugs face abd teased him about it
▪︎ he just, couldnt help it! No matter how much he tries to bury you out of his mind, the moment where you saved him from that hero lingered in his mind. And it made him sigh each time the memory would replay in his head, just the way you looked at him was enough to make him swoon
▪︎ He had to face the fact
▪︎ that he was hopelessly in love with what he believes could never be, no matter how much he longs for it
▪︎ Little does he know... an apprentice who struggles with their hopeless love<3
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splatattackz · 5 months
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and, springing off of my last post, heres a greater post talking about ramon and his relation with lying and secret-keeping - because, in my opinion, its a topic that needs to be known to better understand his character as secrets are a big part of his family.
ill place the talk under the cut so this post doesnt take too much space :)
"just [to] let u know, i trust u even in the dark"
ramon trusts fit. a ton. and theres nothing that could ever change that. he trusts what is kept secret is best kept this way. its why he wasnt as persistent to know about the contract, even if he knew there was lies and secrets at play that he hated. he trusted him. and that trust only grew when fit trusted him enough back to tell him a little bit of the family secret (the contract).
but, despite this trust, ramon also loves fit all too much. its why he gets so defensive when fit tells lies to him. ramon is a very observant boy. he knows a lot of things he shouldnt because of this. as fit once said, "the kids too damn smart for his own good". no lie leaves his detection because he can always tell the way people shift and change when theyre fibbing. but he doesnt push or prod on the matter usually. unless its fit. because he loves him too much. he needs to know whats going on with him. if he doesnt know, how can he help and protect him? its a reason he hates it when fit mutes, too. he always feels like fits keeping a secret from him when it happens.
i remember one time they were working on ground zero (i think it was the last time they worked on ground zero) and fit was fretting over his contract and ramon made a joke about how he acted like he would die if he didnt fullfill the contract. and fit laughed and said "no, ramon, i wont die." and then muted and said smth like "itll be much worse than death". and ramon noticed fit muted and got very upset. he basically threw a tantrum over it and wouldnt talk to fit until he told him what he was keeping secret. ramon said he was upset because the topic at hand (fit dying) and the fact he muted didn't spell anything good.
"if u tell me i [either] [lose] everything or u, i would choose [to keep] u"
something ramon said to show how much he cared for fit and how that care is why he was so upset. eventually fit did tell him and even told him more about what it meant if he didnt fullfill the contract - that if he failed, he would be trapped in the wastelands forever with no escape. and that this contract was his only chance at a semi-normal life.
but otherwise, ramons relation to lies and secret-keeping isnt negative. he has told lies and has kept secrets himself. hes no stranger to it. and he even keeps fit in check about the contract when he wants to tell other people things. i remember when fit found tazercraft in the prison he wanted to tell phil but ramon stopped him and told him some things are best kept secret. and, while this was mainly a very hrp response bc the admin wanted to let the duo solve the puzzles, he made a good point of if he trusts phil enough with this maybe he should tell him about the contract too. to which fit said "no, hes not ready to know about it yet". and, again, when ramon first built the satellite for the second attempt at contact, fit wanted to tell phil where he would be in case anything happened. and, again, ramon stopped him and reminded him if he wanted to do that then he'd have to tell phil everything. and the convo ended there.
(its no coincidence that fit told phil about the secret bedroom with ramon not around :] the baby boy cant keep him in check with that stuff now..)
ill stop the post here before we are here for hours but. i needed to talk about one of ramons most interesting aspects ajaja i hope you enjoyed the little ramble
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tallulah477 · 5 months
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YESS loak who lives in his brothers shadows falling for the girl that was BETHROTHED to his brother (who has a nasty attitude and isnt well liked within her inner circles but her people loves her bc shes nice to them only in her own ways lol) is a level of angst that is so hot
like loaks reaction when neteyam confided in him telling him hes gonna run away with his maid/childhood friend and loak is like ???? youre going to run away from your duties? and neteyam is just like yeah i love my beloved more than aristocracy lifestyle
few months have passed since then and now jake is stressed out from all of this - his oldest son is missing and no one knows where he or his maid is (except loak who he sends letters too from time to time)
and like u said he NEVER thought he would be the next king he had his whole life plan out, train the knights for his brothers army, date some girl who isnt ultra famous and wealthy but in the middle and settle down and pop out a few kids and now his whole world is turned around because he now has to fill in his brothers (complicated) shoes and hes realizing how intense this was all for neteyam and hes has to learn it pronto
but omg poor princess??? the man she was supposed to marry since she was practically born, has been told from a young age she was going to be prettiest wife to neteyam and then he goes into hiding for some maid ??? that would break her ego so bad, and now she has to marry the brother who all he does is play knight oh its so bad for her
but as they hang out they slowly (so slow neteyam would have his first baby by then lmfao) they slowly begin to become friendish - princess finds it hard because her attitude is the worse and she cant accept the fact that she likes someone who all he wanted to be was a trainor for the knights
and loak is trying to ignore that she was originally supposed to marry neteyam, he knows neteyam never liked her but it still fucks with him sometimes but he gets over it eventually
AND OMLLL princess!reader who goes to visit loak on the training grounds and shes definitely does not fit in bc shes hoping her custom made dress doesnt have mud on it as she tiptoes bc god its gross here and she asks the knights where loak and they guide her to where she is
cue her knocking on the door and opening it to see loaks back and oh my god his back is so hot its so broad and waist is so tiny and hes sweating n loak just turns around like what?? meanwhile her face is super red bc she didnt know he was that built underneath that hes leaner than the knights he trains who are meatheads but he was still so defined and the mixed metal necklaces he wore just compliments him so well and now shes needs to find her maid and ask her what are these feelings
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Catch up on the story:
Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five
Extra: One | Two
CW:// Slight Mention of Pregnancy
Right?! She has such a "don't fuck with me, I'm not the one," attitude. She needs to be serious all the time, needs to always have her head on straight and can't make stupid mistakes because if she does, she loses all credibility. Sure, she's kind and looks out for her people, helping them and protecting them however she can, and her people see that and appreciate that - but she doesn't want to act like the emotionless bitch that she has to be. She wants to be happy, free to genuinely smile and feel what she feels, but she knows that if she shows even the hint of too much emotion, too much weakness, she's just going to be ripped apart.
And Lo'ak can understand that. He knows what it's like to not be able to be who you want to be. His whole life he's been compared to his perfect brother: Neteyam who is better at facilitating communication between neighboring kingdoms, Neteyam who speaks clearly and takes responsibility humbly when needed, Neteyam who's never had to be told not to slouch during court. He's been cast aside as the 'spare', but not invisible enough to not need to be on his game.
He can't joke around like he wants to, at least not without Jake and Neytiri hissing at him to behave. He can't go exploring, can't go out and see what far away lands have to offer because "your duties are here, son". So he found something that he enjoys, a way to get out all his pent up energy and aggression, and he's good at it. So good. He has a true gift for training the knights, getting them ready to battle and protect the kingdom, but even that's sometimes overshadowed by his brother - having to train Neteyam to fight, train Neteyam to be the best, even better than himself - to be worthy of the crown he would get one day.
Would have gotten. Because Neteyam is gone now. And somehow the responsibility, and all the duties that come with it, have fallen on Lo'ak's shoulders and now more than ever he feels he can't be himself.
He would understand how Princess feels . . . if he could get over his own bitterness.
Jake is freaking out - he's sent out a search party on multiple occasions looking for Neteyam and his runaway maid, but they can't find them. Neteyam is smart, building their cottage outside of the kingdom's boundaries, and the only person who knows the location of it is Lo'ak. Lo'ak is bitter, of course, and angry with his brother for what he's done to him. But he would never give up their location. He wants his brother to be happy, so he keeps the information to himself.
He appreciates the letters he gets from Neteyam though. They make him smile, to see that his brother is finally living the life he's always wanted: something calm and peaceful with the woman he loves. He's super giddy when he gets the letter that Neteyam and his wife are expecting their first child. He's going to be an uncle! And the news makes him so happy that he just can't help but smile all day, sneaking off to tell Kiri and Tuk the good news too, and Princess is just looking at him like he's crazy - "Why is he so smiley all of a sudden? What could he possibly be happy about?"
Their relationship is rocky at the start . . . and in the middle. At first, when she was still Neteyam's betrothed, Lo'ak thought she was a spoiled brat. And now that they're supposed to be together, they can't stand each other even more. But the more time they spend together, the more they can't help how their eyes start to trace the other's movements. Their ears seem to always latch on to the sound of the other's voice. Random thoughts popping into their heads about the other (how nice they look in their formal attire, how their eyes glimmer in the glow under the chandeliers) before they have to physically shake those thoughts out, annoyed that they were even there to begin with.
Lo'ak actually growls to himself when the thought of Princess, round and beautiful with their own future child, her fancy custom-made gown falling perfectly over the bump, pops into his head after he finds out Neteyam's expecting.
He's shaking a similar thought out of his head as he's undressing after a rather intense training session. The new knights he's training are annoying, young men who think they're so great and are flooded with undeserved confidence and it just makes Lo'ak want to rip his hair out. But he heard a couple of them whispering about how beautiful Princess is, and how they'd give anything for a night with her and Lo'ak can't seem to justify the dark feeling swirling around in his chest when he hears it.
He thinks it's one of them who slams the door open, come to annoy him even more with stupid questions or overconfident remarks, but instead it's her. The woman he can't seem to get out of his head. She's panting, face flushed with exertion from trying to walk through the mud coated ground. The bottom of her dress is covered with dark brown, once shiny heels now sticky and sinking into the ground. She always looks so put together and clean, so the ruined look throws him off a bit and he can't help but think that she looks beautiful like this too - all flushed and hair out of place from where she tossed it over her shoulder carelessly in her frustration just to get it out of her face. She's scowling, mouth opened ready to give him a few choice words no doubt, but her words die in her mouth when she sees him: topless, corded muscles and strong back on display, all glistening and sweaty and fuck - now she feels like she's starting to sweat.
She's never seen a male like this before. Never seen so much skin. And he turns around when she enters, surprised and the question "what are you doing here?" falling from his lips, but she doesn't answer. Can do nothing more than gape at him like a fish because now his broad chest is on display too, tapering down into a narrow waist. All he's got on is a pair of tight black pants and boots, and her eyes can't help but linger on the slight bulge she can see from where they hug him between his legs.
She feels hot all over, a tight ball forming in her stomach the longer she looks at him and it's only when she feels a strange wetness pooling between her own thighs that she snaps out of her trance. She turns and leaves without a word, running to her bedroom and immediately calling for her maid. If she ever had a best friend, it would be her maid - the person who has been there as her helper ever since she was a little girl. Her helper, her protector, her guide.
Her maid's eyes widen as they take in the look of her Princess's state - dress ruined and covered in mud, face hot and red with embarrassment and something else she can't quite place.
"I don't know what I'm doing!" the Princess cries. And her maid is there for her, to clean her up and wrap her in soft blankets, ready to hear what her Princess has to tell and give her the best advice she can.
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barbedwirechain · 7 months
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hi!!! I've been questioning some uncertainty in my identity and you were the first person on t I saw when I looked into the "butch fag" tag, I'm really curious about what it means to be butch and on testosterone, or being butch and navigating the world passing almost as a cis man? for lack of better terminology, sorry if it's not right.
I've been out as trans since I was a kid (almost 22 now.) and I've always went back and forth on my identity bc I don't relate with other trans men or cis men in general but I knew transitioning was what's right for me. detransition doesn't feel correct at all, I'm so happy being on testosterone. im uncertain in my sexuality but have always found comfort with lesbians and butches, and I've always felt the explanation of butch dysphoria sounded more clear to me than wanting to wake up with the body of a cis man. what I mean is I think I'm a butch fag but I don't know what that means, I don't know how or if I'm ready to come out with that. I'm afraid of my future with dating or navigating queer spaces if I claim to be butch or lesbian aligned while still presenting full beard and no desire to change that.
I don't know how to navigate exploring this at all, especially because lesbian spaces online kind of scare me since its so easy to end up following terfs if you don't know what to look for. I don't want to be harassed or make anyone else uncomfortable with my presence. I want to connect with other butches on T. do you know of anything I could do to reach this kind of understanding?
i’ll say if you already see uh butch fag in yourself or find whatever it is in me, in you you’ve already started to reach that understanding. exploring online spaces where you have unprecedented access to people with these more “complicated” identities (more accurately—identities that are generally less referenced than others or not recognized outside of the community for better and for worse) and hanging out in adult oriented city spaces helped extend my understanding of myself as butch.
the longer i understand myself as trans the more i’m comfortable frankensteining my identity (for uh lack of uh better term). i say this to explain why i call myself the most appropriate word for me “dykefag” but butch fag… or faggot butch (on T or not) has uh community precedent. there’s articles and quotes of people saying that term or uh form of it and they’re also transsexual and/or lesbian, although this was something i found only after seeing myself in the phrase.
i understood myself as uh dyke for most of my life and uh lesbian as the most neat version of my sexuality; dyke is something i’ve reclaimed being called that as uh child and call/ed myself that for over ten years now (aside from uh brief period of bisexuality). after being on T though for almost two years i noticed people are less likely to see me as uh dyke so that word begins to feel more personal and intimate for me. but butch?
butch is always exactly right. its not something i reclaimed or have complicated relationship to, i just am.
i am and i mean it with no irony or “meh”-ness; i am butch and i think i’ll die butch.
uh good two years after beginning to call myself butch and right after starting T I leaned into my lifelong attraction to butches, already holding an interest in “‘queer’ masculinities” via research in college. eventually i realized i wanted to be that. i wanted to be masculine ina way that never didnt hold uh layer of unspoken queerness. even in my current “mostly cis-man passing” form (i don’t take it as an insult, i present more masculine than androgynous like i used to for comfort and safety) i’m always butch. most people assume ima cis gay man or uh very hairy bulldyke and at some point i was like… these lines are so easily blurred because of how i decide to embody butchness, on purpose, and (what’s read as) faggotry through my attraction to other butch and queer masc people. i experienced the difference between dyke and fag fade away and began to tag my shit with dyke fag and butch fag to be in the same spaces as other gay trans people who had this line also fade away.
maintaining my attachment to being butch and loving butchness led me to follow “butch4butch” pages and explore butch4butch tags and see myself as a butch4butch gay more and more solidly. and the more i searched for butch4butch, the more i came across trans fags and nonbinary butch lesbians (and both!!). similar to going on tumblr in 2011 and finding out there were people who didn’t believe in the christian god, lex and tumblr specifically led me to uh set of trans people who embodied this faggot butchness, whether dyke (lesbian) or faggot (gay boy) identifying— not to mention all the gay boy dykes and the fagboy trannies. i found/find myself relating to their appreciation of masculinity and consideration of transness and gender noncomformity more than any other space, including ones that are for lesbians which, in my honest opinion, always end up catering to terf-bubbles or narcissist echo chambers that define themselves through gender essentialist ideas about masculinity/men of which i no longer see any viability in.
inside, exploring tags online or apps for Gay people who do Gay shit and have Sexy and Fucked up understandings of gender can help you understand yourself further by identifying and also dis-identifying with others without having to “conflict”. outside?… i rarely explain what i am. and for better or worse, i don’t try to. i let people think i’m whatever they think unless someone directly asks or when cis men try to approach me and to conceal my agab and also deny them i kinda just straight up lie and play cishet man. i recognize we exist under 20 million ___ or ___ binaries, both imaginary and tangible, new and old, outside and inside—shit even nonbinary and binary began to feel like another binary to me recently and the only thing that alleviates that is 1) going through butch(4butch) tags and seeing cis, trans, and who knows butches loving each other in coexisting without pretending they’re at war and 2) being in community with other dykesfags, or fagdykes, and butch faggots irl. and like, lesbians in person are also jus way more awesome. *whispers* like most people. i understand this is, unfortunately, only as easy as your access, space, transportation, and work and personal life allows. most of my adult queer experience is in non-sober spaces ina city that i lived around or in and that can't be disregarded or forgotten.
to wrap this up, i didnt look for em (us haha) til i felt i was one of them but We’re Everywhere. not uh majority but uh presence, and that’s enough. and if i’m being honest even if i never found any of these people, i felt so intensely about being uh butch faggot and uh dykefag i saw myself simply going with it—but going with it with the knowledge that it’s near impossible to make anything up at this point. someone has almost surely shared the idea or identity regardless of if they publicized it or let it be archived. and even as much of this response IS about that, i can’t overemphasize that even if it’s something you did made up, all alone, 200% you, the feeling is true, yea? the beauty of frankensteining your [trans] identity is seeing that you can kinda be whatever the shit you feel as long as it’s truly comfortable and honest to the time with reasonable respect to yourself and your community.
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wolvesandvisions · 5 months
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resharing my thoughts from twitter but i just watched the two parter lemonhope episodes again after a few years since seeing it and i actually think ppl who say its their least favorite episodes should probably rewatch it again as an adult if they haven’t already
i never personally hated it as a kid because i knew it was saying smth but i didnt get what. but now i know its clearly about what its like being an abused kid who leaves their home and doesnt know what to do with themselves
like when i was like 13-14 it seemed weirdly abrupt that after he saved his people he just left. i thought a lesson wasn’t learned. but i think its cool now. bcs after he finally repaid the debt that was haunting him he still wanted to move on, and its actually really interesting. some of these AT episodes just came out at a weird time
just for fandom related context and what I remember, Steven Universe was airing, Finn is literally at his worse, at this point we’re all teenagers so everyone not only understands theres a plot but expects one now and gets irritated when the story doesnt directly tie back to whats going on, a lot of lack of patience n trust in the story
and i get it i dont think i blame kids n teens at the time for being really frustrated, disappointed and confused with abstract storytelling and really intense plot lines with no clear resolution right away. i think it just makes me more grateful we got more seasons and these stories got told anyways
in my rewatch im getting closer and closer to Breezy which was the episode that made me drop the series as a kid - and I regret it a lot in hindsight. like at least for me i know very soon a looott episodes are about to got into even more painful subject matter and i do remember talking to my sibling who said they felt seen by some of the episodes in this time period but ln a way they literally Could not Process at the time and thats. still important i think
all in all im glad lemonhope as a set of episodes exists at all, and the fact people struggle to empathize with it even now is due to a lot of factors about the lemon characters that cant really be changed and actually make everything all the more interesting
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oneangstymotherfucker · 10 months
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somethin i think abt a lot is that when i was in hs we had to read the handmaiden and i was dragged through that unit kicking and screaming. legit wrote my teacher a whole ass email about how god awful that book was in every way and how it was very horrible that we should have to read it when it had no value at all and the only value i could imagine it having was if all the people who said it was good was just getting off on all the sexual stuff in it. i cried over that fuckin book bc i was so MAD.
(im real sorry ms c you knew what u were doing i was just an angry kid with way way WAY too much repressed sexuality and unprocessed trauma and now that i figured myself out i know what's going on a little better.)
but the thing is i wonder if a lot of the younger antis who were raised on tt popsy shit like 'avoid everything and everyone that makes u uncomfy!' and 'don't ever go near things that scare you!' are just letting themselves be fueled by their own unprocessed trauma and fear. bc i get it, its really fucking scary and i was angry for a really fucking long time about that book. i got depressed and afraid and it triggered shit i didnt even know i had and i felt gross and worst of all i was scared that i was into it because i had no idea what that would mean. it made my symptoms worse, which ultimately helped me make them better.
anyways what im trying to say is i think the sort of watered down tiktok mental health stuff is dangerous enough as it is, but i also think its fueling the whole anti movement (and others too...) in a lot of different ways.
part of understanding the difference between fiction and reality is understanding that fiction isn't real and can't hurt you, but can cause feelings about things that might hurt at first. it's like letting puss out of a wound. it's gonna hurt but that's how it gets processed and then better. that is how fiction helps us grow- by showing us all the things inside us and letting us see how we really feel about them. then we can make informed decisions about what to do about it.
*the handmaidens tale my b
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nicegaai · 5 months
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having nor/ice thoughtssssssssssssss sad sad whiny kitty cat noises. wahhhh. im thinking about them wahhhhhhhh. WAHHH
what if i took all my small canonverse ideas and compiled them into ONESHOTSSSSS........................................ and what if they were CHRONOLOGICALLY ARRANGED ..... and showed RELATIONSHIP PROGRESSION over the course of 1000 years ...... and it wasnt that deep but i pretended it was and called it something like "i was meant to keep you warm" because i love to steal fox/i/ng lyrics. maybe even id find a way to make this a 5 times + 1 time format.
if i can wrestle my way into figuring out what goes on in nors head i could do it. ive figured that i want ice to never ever see him as a brother. my vision is that nor is iceladns hot babysitter fantasy and first crush that never goes away. he wants to marry him when he grows up but then his feelings stay that way and it never ever ever ever ever goes away and only gets worse. u understand? do u see it
and UNFORTUNATELY nor knows ic/eland likes him from the beginning. he can tell from like ice's adolescence onwards and is like yeah idk about all that...... but the attention is flattering and he loves this little guy so much and thinks its sweet. he doesnt get to visit often but ice writes him a lot because hes in love with him ykwim and nor loves him so much too (platonic) and always writes back.
and yeah they go through periods of living together for various reasons. sickness unions famines etc etc. not ever for long and nothing ever happens. if adolescent iceland pushed boundaries, nor would humor him a little with like...a kiss, bc he spoils him, but ultimately he hard-shuts it down. and ice would be traumatized forever and block the memory out / be eternally tormented at night by the time he did such and such so is the worst person alive etc
and ice begins teen life with the whole he will never love me and i am a tormented soul shtick. now he writes to him less, tries to put more distance between them... so it hurts less and all that. hes not GOOD at pretending he hates nor or whatever but its easy to lose connection when messages are rare and visits are rarer
he spends much more time at denmarks than with no.rway. he sees den.mark as a proper older brother / uncle / fatherly figure. hes closer emotionally to him and lives with him more and all that. his tutors are danish and he goes to boarding school in cop.enhagen in the 1800s. idk how this ties into the romance necessarily but its timeline relevant. whether or not denmark picks up on the crush , i dont know. i could go either way lol. also, den + nors relationship is strictly brotherly btw. ironically. because theres not enough fics where theyre platonic and i really do enjoy them that way too
nor and ice remain distant for several hundred years. its once ice gets into his pushing for independence mixed with modern technology for better communication ..... somewhere between say, the invention of the airplane and landline phones, nor and ice repair their relationship. iceland is coming into adulthood (independence) for real, and is SO mature about his international relationships. he can be so mature and normal about norway. he can sit down with him and have lunch and discuss business and norway wont talk down at him for being young at all (lie) and he'll be so chill about that and not yell at him (he only does it once) (he only has to do it once)
all this isnt to say n.orway himself didnt attempt to stay close over the years, but ic.eland wasnt reciprocating, and even if they saw each other every year at christmas (doubt) that doesnt make them really CLOSE. but i think iceland was always particularly special to him bc of how close they were as kids. and they WERE both kids back then. little icela.nd sent him letters while nor was like 14 at best. i believe in teen mom norway and his eldest sondaughter icey. at least from nors perspective. even tho hes so absent so much of the time. when he comes around he showers him in gifts as a love language even way back when
anyway, ice.land still has an obvious crush on nor and nor finds it SO cute. like he could just pinch his cheeks and coo at him for it. ice tries to keep a lid on his emotions but can only do so much. nor doesnt SAY anything to point sus behavior out. but as soon as he notices,,,, its like there was no time apart, to nor. ice is so closed off and stiff and weird around him and nor wishes he would relax so they can connect properly and he honestly CANT
the solution is to drink otgether i think. at some point. maybe not immediately but they'll get to it.
icela.nd isnt like oohg im too young to drink, i think hes just lived long enough that hes a bit Over It / doesnt want to act like an idiot / really doesnt want to act like an idiot in front of nor. but nor could peer pressure him into anything if he really tried so they finally get tipsy together and i think that goes a long way to repair their relationship.
they do this many times and as long as ice is careful to not drink a lot he'll be fine. hes gotta keep his wits about him and still be able to feel shame. one time he indulges a little hard and i think ice trauma dumps on him and they kiss to make up for the time nor pushed him away and nor didnt realize he was still hurting so much about that. nor is tipsy enough to do it (not even drunk) and afterwards he goes ohh wait i kind of enjoyed that. and do it a few more times then make out for a while and it doesnt go anywhere, they fall asleep
the next day they completely remember kissing and know the other remembers it and just mutually dont talk about it.
icelan.d is VISIBLY struggling even harder around him for at least a few days until he gets a handle on his emotions. and nor has a lot to think about. in general.
i dont know where the dna stuff comes in. im falling asleep while typeing this
but icelan.d obvioiusly is like wtf? we arent related. thats impossible. i cant even fathom this. and nor.way is like you are the closest i will ever have to family and i am your biological father and icel.and is like what the fuck ew you can say brother as much as you want but never say father again im begging you and nor is like Bet.
and then they test and they're first degree related. father or brother would be appropriate. and nor is like yeah obviously (already believed this when he kissed him) and ic.eland is like (max harlow voice) SUICIDE !! SUICIDE !!
icelan.d sits with that information for a while but his crush still doesnt go away. nor gives him space and also sits with the information. he never thought he'd end up here but he decides that hes into it. its kinda hot. I Do believe in slutty n.orway supremacy i thnk hes slept with most of europe and doesnt have a strong internal sense of familial boundaries considering he is a landmass and is like yeah id do that again we're both adults hes cute whatever
next time they see each other nor comes onto him. and ice is squeemish about it but this is also everything hes ever wanted. whats he gonna do, say no?
at this point i fell asleep but im awake again uhhhh
ic.eland gets to cope with being a creep a weirdo and getting what he wanted in the worst way possible and nor gets to torment him with the brother thing not as a kink but bcz it makes him uncomfortable and he thinks its funny.
i forgot to talk about the actual oneshot ideas that inspired this in the first place didnt i. oh well
aaaaaaaaaaaaand post
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sparkedblaze · 10 months
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ok so that being part of ur au
medda checking in on them when she can
following their accounts terrified to reach out again
she wants these boys to know that she is so so so very sorry for the way it happened
the heartbreak every time she sees the aftermath of a fight bc even though they arent hers anymore they still are
you never stop being meddas kid
👏🏼YOU👏🏼NEVER👏🏼STOP👏🏼BEING👏🏼MEDDA’S👏🏼KID👏🏼
@noxexistant I DIDNT THINK IT COULD GET WORSE 😭😭😭
Currently making myself cry with this
I will say, I’m gonna have to slightly edit my original expansion bc in my au Racer was adopted first (its a joke that he says he’s the oldest bc he was the first adopted, but he’s several years younger than Jack and Charlie (NOT CASEY 😤))
When Oscar first sees that she’s following them he almost just blocks her. Pretends that she doesn’t exist like he does most of the rest of the people from their past.
And then Morris burst into the room, chirping about Mama Medda (Oscar will never understand why he still calls her that) following them. He wants to say hi. Wants to meet up with her. He misses her cooking and her kind words.
Oscar doesn’t want to. She never did them any favors. She abandoned them. Put them back in a system that didn’t care about them. She didn’t care about them. She proved that already.
He puts it off as long as possible, but with the way Morris looks at his phone every time they get a notification from Medda (be it a like, or a comment, or a retweet), he can’t hold off forever.
Oscar DMs her on Twitter. Nothing but his phone number, but Medda is elated when she sees it. She’s instantly calling him with a flurry of questions. ‘How are you’s and ‘How is Morris’s.
And the first thing he tells her is that she don’t mean nothing to him. She’s heartbroken at the statement, wonders why he wanted to reconnect in the first place if that was true.
“But Mo wants to have lunch.”
And that explains everything. It isn’t Oscar reaching out to her. It’s Morris, who doesn’t know how to do it himself, but was always excited for suppertime because Medda would accommodate him any way she could. Morris, who would cry and hide with Oscar when she had to wash his favorite blanket, until it came back to him warm, and fresh out the dryer. Morris, who insisted on calling her Mama Medda when she asked him not to call her ‘Miss Medda’.
She agrees immediately, asking when and where. They plan to meet a week out, so Morris has enough time to prepare for the change in schedule.
As soon as she’s in the little restaurant, Medda can hear the excited kicks against the bottom of the booth. She can hear the little chirps coming from the corner.
She knows what she’ll see, even before the two are in sight. Morris, rocking, trying to contain his excitement (the way he always did in public because of some of the homes they’d been in before hers), and Oscar, stone faced and glaring.
She meets his glare with a smile, sitting across from them. Oscar sat on the outside of their side of the booth, back to the wall, eyes roaming their surroundings. Looking for threats. Always searching for danger.
Morris is the first to speak, rapidly firing questions and statements at her-anything that comes to mind, really. ‘We fight for a livin now’ she knows. ‘Jack gots a guy’ she knows that too. ‘Didja see our fight yestaday?’ She had. ‘Why we hadta leave?’ She didn’t know if she could explain it, even if he gave her long enough to answer.
Their lunch went on like that. Medda and Morris talking, Oscar ordering for both brothers before going back to leveling his glare at Medda, and Medda trying to follow Morris’s thought process as every track seemed to lead back to the question ‘why did we have to leave?’
She tries to explain it. Tells him that they and Jack posed a threat to each other. Oscar gets angrier at this. He slams his hand against the table (making Morris jump) and all but shouts about how they were there first. How they deserved to stay there. And the pity in her eyes as she looks at them only makes him angrier. She tells him that she knows they deserved to be there. But so did Jack. And at least Oscar and Morris had each other. Denton had tried to pull just Oscar, but she wasn’t going to separate the brothers. Not with the bond they shared. Not with everything they’d been through.
Jack had had no one.
And, she told them, it had been the hardest decision of her life.
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yossarianirl · 7 months
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in terms of josukes existence in cddh, theres 3 things i like:
-ryohei not getting promoted bc of josuke existing (we actually get to see how discrimination against single mothers/mixed kids affects the higashikatas. i consider this info canon bc it adds so much to ryohei and josukes relationship)
-josuke’s attitude to cops, avoiding them and saying theyd assume he was up to smthn bad if they saw him (again adds to his relationship w ryohei, and also fleshes out how much of a troubled kid he is)
-josuke fusing that villain guy with a tree and not giving a fuck (i love it when he condemns ppl to a fate worse than death i love him being fucked up and insane)
but besides that he was sooooo :/. like he felt really ooc a lot of the time, he acted like way more of a jerk and like he was purposely trying to annoy others. he didnt have any of the sweet attitude he has in canon. i wouldve been fine w asshole middleschooler josuke if 1) it was intentional n he had a character arc showing how he grew into the canon version 2) it was set more than like a fuckin week before pt4. also annoys me that josuke got no arc or personal goals or literally anything, and he didnt even get a redesign like hol horse did when hes on fuckin school holidays so he shouldnt be wearing his uniform esp not for a school he hasnt even started at. i can make up justifications to myself to make this make sense, but in reality the creators just didnt care
also the ending where ryohei contacts joseph makes nooooo sense bc why would the higashikatas have his contact info and never talk to him once, not even to tell him that josuke fuckin exists. like ur telling me that tomoko wouldnt have tried to contact him if she knew how to?? or that ryohei wouldnt at the very least want joseph to give them child support, since theres no way theyre financially well off? like dude fucking what. why would they wait until josuke is sixteen entire years old to tell his dad that he exists. author does not understand any of the higashikatas istg omg
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i am curious exactly which reasons you hate mcyt now even tho you used to be a fan. As an outsider I know vaguely some of the people have done bad things but im interested in your specific reasons. You have no obligation to answer obviously
no dont worry i love talking shit its my hobby (joke, btw. my actual hobby is being cringe online)
under a read more bc this is long i just hold a lot of parasocial hate in my heart. hope you guys like reading !
edit: also to be clear im not trying to start any fights i just want to be left alone by mcyt fans. ok guys take it easy
tl;dr the Three Who Shall Not Be Named and their blasted SMP friends/acquaintances are all my parasocial enemies. Theres fun cringe and then theres mean cringe, and i feel that this corner of mcyt goes in the latter.
from my experience i think that they're really manipulative of a typically younger and vulnerable audience... i just remember them always promoting subscribing to their stream or purchasing donations to kids (that, i believe, honestly saw them as stand-ins for parental figures in their own lives) and that honestly disgusted me so much. i remember being frightened at the way that (mostly teenage/minor) fans on twitter talked about them like they could do no wrong... it was a weird kind of adoration that still freaks me out when i think about it too long. while they cant control the age of their fanbase, they could at least act accordingly... if i knew my audience was full of youngsters as young as 10 or 12 i would not say or do half the things theyve done, i will say that much.
moreover, i think they were very bad at handling their rapid rise to fame -> the Main Three Who Shall Not Be Named were frankly quite young and very immature, so this might be unfair, but honestly watching them felt like if you took the really unfunny highschool bullies and gave them a twitch stream to go nuts in. they couldnt control their rapidly growing and rabid fanbase in a way that felt safe to participate in.
i really didnt appreciate how they treated some of their fellow streamers. it felt cruel, and i cant understand how people could keep watching what would otherwise be bullying, even if it was all a "joke" or "prank."
And, much worse, was the casual racism and misogyny and other bigotry. i remember the misogyny especially was so bad, particularly from the young blonde and british streamer, whose main shtick was being rude to women because it was "funny." it was just crass and immature, and made my younger sister and I very uncomfortable, especially with the way his fans seemed to really enjoy that. a lot of these guys' and their friends' jokes hinged on being edgy or shocking, and honestly that shit was so overdone and unfunny.
I honestly can't remember finer details, and im not about to go looking (so take this with a grain of salt), but i just remember their content being full of a lot of uncomfortable moments. it was like experiencing some kind of microagression every 10 seconds and not being able to comprehend the insult until it was too late. it made me feel small and stupid, especially because i thought i was the only one who felt that way (and still do, honestly). call me oversensitive, but thats just how i felt (and still feel). moreover was the discomfort of them using language, which for lack of better words, reminded me very much of performative white liberalism. you know what i mean - when someone talks a lot about good things, but then they treat minorities like shit or allow these minorities to get treated like shit.
also, as the cherry on top of this rancid pile, the Main Three Guys and their SMP friends all seemed super okay with certified shitty people like Pp pie and notch. Very uncomfortable that they would be okay with being associated with them, let alone look up to them??? Huge red flag.
the fact that ive gifted my time and energy (through fanart) to a piece of media that has hurt me is so revolting. in the grand scheme this isnt a huge deal, but it definitely hurts that ive made shit for shit people and that fans still behave like i made this art for them. in reality i want to throw everythign into a pile and burn it. it just makes me very sad and hurt.
i could go on, but this is long enough as is.
Anyways, i'm not here to tell people what's right and wrong, but i honestly think that these guys are more hurtful than anything else and i simply dont want to interact with anything associated with mcyt ever.
but if im gonna be completely honest, i cant really blame teens or tweens for being into that awful cringe (derogatory) shit becuase that is the nature of being stupid and young, and hopefully theyll grow to understand why that shit is so bad. but if you are a college student or older and still into them im side-eyeing you so hard...
Theres fun cringe and then theres mean cringe, and i feel that this corner of mcyt goes in the latter.
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azudarlings · 1 year
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hi guys have a random rant i went on about jamil's character as the way i see him
I ALWAYS SAW JAMIL AS REDEEMABLE CAUSE I UNDERSTOOD HIS WHOLE STORY IN A WAY WHERE IT WAS LIKE HE'S ALWAYS BEEN TREATED AS LESS THAN KALIM DESPITE BEING LIKE SMARTER THAN HIM MORE ORGANIZED PUT TOGETHER SO IT WAS A SLOWLY BUILDING RESENTMENT--HE COULD NEVER OUTSHINE KALIM, AND IT MADE HIM LIKE BITTER TOWARDS HIM, CAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS JAMIL BEING FORCED TO BE MORE MATURE THAN HE ACTUALLY IS, ALWAYS JAMIL MAKING SACRIFICES, WHILE KALIM WAS ABLE TO DO ANYTHING AND BE LOVED BY HIS FAMILY WHEN JAMIL WAS JUST SOME TOOL TO THEM. THERES A THEORY ABOUT HIS SISTER, WHO IS LIKE 3ISH YEARS YOUNGER THAN HIM, THAT SHES A REPLACEMENT FOR HIM CAUSE KIDS DEVELOP A BEGINNIGN PEROSNALITY AROUND 3 AND IF JAMILS PARENTS DIDNT WANNA RISK IT THEY COULDVE HAD HIS SISTER AROUND THAT TIME IN CASE JAMIL FAILED AT BEING A PROPER BODYGUARD RETAINER WHATEVER HE IS AND ALSO JAMIL WAS LIKE SOMEONE WHO JUST WANTED ONE MOMENMT TO SHINE AND THEN HE'LL BE FINE REPRESSING HIMSELF AND PRETENDING AGAIN BC HE WOULD ALWAYS BE PRETENDING UNLESS HE WAS ALONE, THAT'S WHERE HE COULD FINALLY REST AND LET HIS GUARD DOWN BUT MAYBE NOT EVEN THEN BC HE HAD TO ALWAYS BE ON ALERT AND SINCE THIS STRESS WAS ON HIM SINCE HE WAS A LITTLE KID HE JUST SLOWLY GOT MORE AND MORE NUMB BUT ALSO MORE AND MORE ANGRY AND BITTER BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS KALIM THIS KALIM THAT AND HE HAD TO DUMB HIMSELF DOWN TO SOME MEDICORE NOTHING, NEVER GETTING ANY COMPLIMENTS OR PRAISE OR NOTICE, NOTHING JUST CONSTANTLY DROWNING IN KALIM'S SHADOW THAT KALIM WASN'T EVEN AWARE HE CAST. LIKE IDK IF I SAID THIS BEFORE BC I LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT BUT JAMIL SHOVED ALL HIS EMOTIONS BENEATH HIS LITTLE MASK, PROBABLY HAVING TO LOOK/ACT PLEASANT AND MAYBE TO KALIM HE COULD BE A LITTLE BIT MORE LIKE HIMSELF, BUT NEVER COULD REVEAL HIMSELF AND AS A KID ESP SINCE HES DONE THIS SINCE A KID HE DEF MATURED WAY FASTER THAN A KID SHOULDVE AND LIKE HES TO THE POINT WHERE HE CAN JUST SEPERATE HIS EMOTIONS ENTIRELY FROM A SITUATION, E.G. STUDYING, WHICH IM GUESSING IS BECAUSE HES ALWAYS BEEN HAVING TO PUT HIMSELF LIKE ASIDE FOR OTHER PEOPLE SINCE SERVING KALIM WAS HIS JOB AND THOUGH HIS ACTIONS TO KALIM ARE OBVIOUSLY VERY LIKE THERE'S NO EXCUSE BUT IMO THERE'S JUSTIFICATION LIKE THERE'S A REASON WHY HE ACTED THIS WAY, HE WAS SO SO SO SICK OF KALIM GETTING AWAY WITH EVERYTHING FACING NO CONSEQUENCES HAVING EVERYTHING HE WAS LIKE JEALOUS LIKE WHY CANT I HAVE THAT AND HE WAS SICK AND TIRED OF NEVER GETTING ANY PRAISE OR UNDERSTANDING OR EMPATHY BECASUE JAMIL KNOWS HE'S SMART--WAY SMARTER THAN KALIM BECAUSE HE'S CONSTANTLY HAD TO DRILL EVERYHTING HE DID KNOW INTO KALIM'S HEAD AND SINCE HE'S WITH KALIM 24/7 HE NEVER REALLY GETS A BREAK FROM HIM WHICH DEFINITELY JUST MADE HIM MORE ANGRY LIKE HE SAW ALL OF KALIMS FLAWS AND IT PISSED HIM OFF BC KALIM DIDNT EVEN SEE THOSE AND NORMALLY HE WOULDNT CARE OR MIND ASIDE FROM BEING ANNOYED BUT THIS WAS COUPLED WITH THE FACT HES CONSTANTLY STRESSED AND BUSY MOSTLY BC OF KALIM AS WELL AS ALL THE STRESS AND EMOTIONS HE'S BOTTLED UP AND HE JUST LOSES IT DURING THAT WHOLE THING W KALIM CHAPTER 4 CAUSE WASNT HIS PLAN JUST SOME SHIT ABOUT MAKING EVERYONE THINK KALIMS HAD SOME KIND OF BREAKDOWN BUT IF HE DID THEN HED JUST GET REPLACED BY SOMEONE YOUNGER AND JAMIL WOULDNT BE ABLE TO OUTSHINE THAT PERSON YOUNGER THAN HIM CAUSE HES THE SERVANT OR WHATEVER SO THE SITUATION WOULD BE WORSE … SO IM CHALKING IT UP TO JAMILS SNAPPING POINT HE FINALLY HAD ENOUGH (WHICH SINCE THE LETTER HC SOMEONES TELLING HIM NOT TO TAKE SHIT AND JAMILS JUST BEEN WANTING TO FINALLY BE FREE AND SOMEONE ELSE BELIEVES HIM SO THATS THE FINAL PUSH HE NEEDS) AND SINCE JAMIL JUST WANTED LIKE ENOUGH TO BE OPEN ABOUT HIS GRADES AND ACTUALLY TRY IN THINGS HE STICKS W KALIM AFTER THE WHOLE OVERBLOT INCIDENT AND LIKE DOESNT TRY ANY OTHER SHIT I THINK CAUSE THEY GO TO VDC OR WHATEVER TOGETHER IN THE NEXT CHAPTER AND ARE ALL BUDDY-BUDDY SO JAMIL LIKE FINALLY GOT HIS SHIT BACK TOGETHER AFTER THAT WHOLE INCIDENT AND
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roseworth · 11 months
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3, 6, 9, and 13😝
choose violence ask game
3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr
idk what the WORST take ive seen is but i bravely held myself back from saying anything when i saw this one but now ill talk about it <3
there was one time i saw someone make a post about "batfam morality codes" or something then gave a quick description of everyones. and JASONS was "everyone deserves a second chance." and respectfully what the fuck were they on about. JASON. aka the one that i really hope everyone understands is the one that kills people. now to be fair i think theres a lot to say about jason and his attitude towards second chances but what we all know for damn sure is that he does NOT believe Everyone deserves a second chance. thats the whole reason he kills people. do you think he kills them and goes "but you can still change <3" BESTIE THEYRE DEAD
6. which ship fans are the most annoying?
please dont throw things at me. timkon fans.
LISTEN i like timkon, its my prob favorite ship for both of them. however their fans are constantly so annoying. if i see one more person say that steph or cassie would be homophobic upon hearing that tim and kon are dating i might actually hunt them down and hit them with my car. not to mention soooo much of timkon is kon being Tims Boyfriend instead of acknowledging anything about his character
anyways thats obviously excluding all the ships that i hate for other reasons. like ill take a timkon fan over a batcest fan any day but i think i just find timkon fans more annoying bc i have the tags of ships that i hate blocked so i only have to deal with the fans of ships that i do like
9. worst part of canon
answered here but ill think of another 🤭
is it too general to say the new52 bc. that is the worst thing that has ever happened to dc and im not even exaggerating. literally ripped away actual backstories and nuances of so many characters then tore other characters out of existence and there wasnt a single character that got out of that unscathed. so many characters havent been remotely the same since it happened (my girls 😔😔😔) and no matter how much they try to come back from it they still cant fix it
i think its possible that comics would still be almost as shallow and disconnected as they are now if the new52 didnt happen but it definitely made it worse in a way that they may never actually recover from
13. worst blorboficiation
SLADE. FUCK. im tired of slade fans saying "but old man hot 🥺" or acting like hes a good father to any of his kids. hes homeless divorced his kids hate him. thats his entire deal and you cant take that away from him. hes just a pedophile and i dont think im being too harsh when i say that anyone who tries to say hes "misunderstood" should die
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magnoliamyrrh · 1 year
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since i was a kid i never understood what the damn point of hitting your kids and cussing them out and yelling and insulting them is meant to achieve. i remember those moments very well as a kid, and all i remember isnt even fear, but actual pure hatred, and when it got bad enough, itd just shut down and wish to god it would be over. thats it. it never taught me "disipline" it never taught me to listen it never taught me emotional stability or obedience or consequence and it sure as hell didnt teach me respect. half the damn time i didnt even understand why i was being punished. i think by the time i was 5 or 6 already i would talk back to my grandmother and mom and tell them outright to just hit me and be done with it, i started straight up taunting them to hit me every time theyd threatenen it and just tell them to do it again when they did. which pissed them off immensely. i just refused to cower (tbh probably bc w my dad i went through much worse shit lmao), they beat me right into having a worst attitude and bpd, thats all they ever achieved
my aunt never beat me, raised her voice at me, cussed me out, anything. ever. not even once. we got along perfectly, she basically never had a problem with me when i was staying with her. i cant even remember a single argument that we had, and its not like i always got my way or anything. no, she just. talked to me like a human being lmao
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2 x 05 commentary
- Simon your feelings are showing 👀
- wille CANNOT stop smiling asdfgh
- the little sandwich!!!
- good on you Alexander, he deserves that
- ew speech
- honestly Sara’s right there even though she’s talking from her own heart . There’s no point pushing it with someone you’re not in love with when there’s someone else
- how does Marcus not know I swear he saw wille after the kiss
- not sara practicing how to talk to the royal family bc of august💀💀
- that was a PERSONAL attack on simon about the solo. Fuck this, not the royal family ruining his singing just bc it was Simon ‘s lyrics
- another piano scene but this time he approaches him again🥺
- thank you simon for actually telling wille what’s wrong
- how did wille not realise the song was about him lmao
- honestly fair call Simon. the flashbacks to season 1 tho which him now being the one to say to forget about it🥺
- omg I knew wille was gonna tell him now
- “you’re exactly like them “ I GASPED
- honestly valid points there simon, that wille needed to hear.
I do feel like wille was right about the lawyers and getting away with it, I mean , he’s been raised knowing this. He did what he felt was right
- please tell me wille is about to give a different speech
- awe he’s so anxious rn:(
- omg he can’t fuck up the speech now and let august get it:///
- Love that the girls are filming a tik tok hahaha
- “I feel like you could have a dark side” you are CORRECT
- oh Rosseau 🥴 genuinely not felices fault tho
- wille talking about how he should be grateful but it’s so hard to handle… I’m so so glad he’s in therapy this is exactly what he needs
- “mamma” sigh….. 🥺
- the irony of Sara crying about felices supposed betrayal AS IF SHE DIDNT DO THE SAME THING EXCEPT A THOUSAND TIMES WORSE
- oh my god. okay wille didn’t know august was next in line when he found out so he shouldn’t have used that HOWEVER
he went all the way to Simon to tell him that and the COMMUNICATION THERE. “This is the situation. This is what I feel. That’s all” YES
- “did he just say he’d renounce his throne for you?” 😭 I’m so glad ayub and rosh were there for that
- omg august is he buying the horse?? I hate them so much but why do they genuinely work together like he actually seems to really care???
- wtf sara icing out felice like that???
- I love how they’re using the book from class as a metaphor . and omg how wille and Simon are using that to communicate how they UNDERSTAND how the other feels omg this is PERFECT
- okay PLEASE tell me simon is going to find out about Sara and august soon
- awe Linda loves her kids sm🥺
- fuck not Linda being so happy about Simon and Marcus help
- omg a change of mind??? Police?? I mean yeah
- awe wille fuck
- the comfort blanket 🥺
- “I’m not trying to stop you. But it’s scary” Thank you for maturing wille this is exactly what I want to see😭
- OH MY GOD THEY🥹🥹 YES YES YES
PLEASE CLOSE THE CURTAINS THOUGH
- HE CLSOED THE CURTAINS ASDFHFJF YAY
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