#and we were in a really bad spot

[munamania]

i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

[reel-fear]

people who still make Joey the ink demon despite canon steering far away from that being the case this is for you I am sending u kisses XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3

People who make Joey well-meaning, sympathetic, a lighter shade of morally grey than canon I am also sending u lots of love <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3!!

And people who generally steer wildly from the direction Bendy takes with its characters and has fun with it I hope to see more from all of ur aus and rewrites!!

#ramblez #batim #batdr #this is not me saying aus that don't do this r bad blah blah I just personally have a super soft spot for Joey being the ink demon #since I really like the idea storywise the symbolism of Joey becoming the ultimate monster of this story #joeys who also take a very sympathetic role who are more morally grey than canon also hold a special place in my heart #joeys who think what theyre doing is right not just for them but for their staff who genuinely care abt them who love them mwah #I just love to see very unique takes on these characters I kinda miss when it was only like chapter 2 so everyone had this wildly #different but very unique and fun takes on where we thought the story would head hell for a while we didn't know if Joey was evil or not #thats what spawned Encore it was originally just a collection of theories I thought would come true #esp since I dont think bendy is a particularly well written story its fun to see the fandom have such fun wild ideas on where to take #the concepts and idea presented in bendy that never really panned out into anything interesting or were discarded or retconned #yknow? I miss the days where the aus were wildly out of sync with the actual story when all we had was a few names a few tapes #and we all went wild making our versions of the story and characters and then got so attached to them we doubled down #when canon didnt deliver on em #umm oops this is long have a great new year folks! Get wild get weird with ur bendy aus and rewrites #lets have fun this year and take canon as optional bc lets face it Bendy isn't great but man is it fun and I care abt that way more than #the quality of the story tbh #it had great ideas and executed them uh badly! But idc bc I can stir those great ideas in my head all day and see others do the same <3 #anyways yeah thats it love ya guys have a great 2024 <3

[marcspectrr]

The way that not even the studio seems to be supporting the release of Shazam fotg is gross. Instead of pointing out the lack of marketing and blaming its performance on every other thing except for the movie itself, Twitter could easily be promoting it, but no, it's letting it drown. People are openly admitting to not having seen the movie on their 1/2 star reviews littering the internet, often leaning onto irrelevant reasons (hating other superhero movies including Quantumania, etc.) to paint it in a bad light. People will point at the cgi and immediately rage online about it without mentioning a single plot point.

Making 'hating superhero movies' a trend is honestly also gross and getting really old. YES, there are some recent movies that scream all sorts of things that warrant shitty reviews (blatant lack of creativity bc they're made for money and not as labors of love as they should be, etc). Trust me, I have my fair share of ones that I despise and I don't disagree with the consensus on the direction of superhero movies.

But if you don't like the superhero genre, don't watch superhero movies. Simple as that.

#shazam #shazam fury of the gods #shazam fotg #im not pointing at all the bad reviews and saying wrong! just bc i loved the movie #honestly leave whatever review you want no ones going to stop you #but seeing ppl rely on the same shit in their bad reviews is starting to get annoying #and seeing even the ppl who were involved in making the movie let it fail is a little heartbreaking tbh #we all know how bad of a spot dc is in rn and some of its understandable #but like...remove the film from the center of all this drama and how bad is it really...?

[conscious-naivete]

okay seriously the real easter basket hunt is in this basement, right now. i’ve found a whole ton of baskets! most of which i did not know we owned, and none of which are the baskets i’m actually looking for!

#were like really bad at the ‘store them in one particular spot where we can find them next year’ thing

[irregularbillcipher]

honestly i'm not even opposed to the idea that birdie was a messy father. like i generally see him as a very loving and decent dad with the best intentions but even i have some thoughts about parenting flaws and fuck ups he probably had and how his parenting might have impacted the boys from the limited stuff we know about his general personality and his life situation pre-flash. like yeah i think he had the best intentions, but i also think there were probably things that were harder on the hall boys than they had to be, wrt joey's disability, jimmy's mental illness and their mom not being around, because birdie didn't handle them correctly. it's just that blaming alcohol for any parenting issues he may have had with jimmy and joey is literally and canonically incorrect

#like obviously this is exacerbated heavily from him being boozed up constantly but birdie pretty clearly blames himself for things #and is VOCAL about things like worry and grief #so i can so easily see joey and jimmy being nervoud to approach birdie when joey can tell his health is going sour #or when jimmy knows he's starting to be in a really bad place mentally #and it's not because birdie is abusive or they're afraid of him or anything! they know he'd care and wouldn't be mad at them #but they're kids who care about their dad and whenever they're in a bad spot dad just Worries So Much and isn't good at hiding it #so they let things fester longer than is healthy because well. we don't wanna make dad sad :/ #we don't wanna worry him more than he already worries... #like i do not think birdie was a perfect dad and his (well meaning) reactions to things probably were rough on the boys #i even have a few thoughts about him potentially being So Worried For His Boys that he had to like #step out of the room for doctor's appointments or break down when his kids really needed him to hold it together #i truly and genuinely believe that he just like... fucked up a lot even though he had good intentions #and that it did impact his kids even though birdie was a pretty Normal Dad who really loved his kids and had kids who loved him #it's just that like. alcohol genuinely canonically did not play a role and birdie seemed to care about his children deeply

[butch-himbo-king]

i miss our conservatory dates 💕

#we dont really have an opportunity to go to our favorite spot anymore since we moved it’s like two hours away #but they were always really fun #and their renovation should be done by now so they have an entirely new room that i wanna check out so bad #and they have a butterfly exhibit rn that’s always so cool

[galmiahthepigeon]

The absolute power of not having to talk to people if I don't feel like it

#was at the gym having a gay ol' time minding my own business #and suddenly i look to the left and i see this guy i used to go to synagogue with at the door #the first time we met we thought we had some kind of connection bc we were both kinda weirdos and we didn't jibe with the rest of the group #both the more time passed the more he started realizing i was a WEIRDO weirdo who doesn't know how to make conversation #and it all turned really awkward #and to make it worse i had a bit of a crush on him and he could tell and he would be quite mean about reminding me he wasn't into me #so when i saw him today i wanted the earth to swallow me bc FUCK NO I'm not talking to that guy #if he comes up to me and tries to catch up i will kill myself on the spot and forever change the tragectory of his life #fortunately he didn't seem to recognize me at any point #he wasn't even that bad lmao i just HATE catching up with ppl i had any sort of mildly awkward relationship with #this isn't something i wanna put my energy into. goodbye

[crowsandkings]

Cosplays (really just makeup) I did this weekend at a small con of The Darkling and demon!Nikolai

#shadow and bone #the grishaverse #the darkling cosplay #Nikolai lantsov cosplay #shadow and bone cosplay #sinister creature con #shadow stuff #this was my first time ever even touching scar wax and if I do say so myself they look pretty damn good #they need to be bigger/deeper next time once I painted them black you couldn’t tell they were 3d very well #and next time I’ll have the embroidery on my kefta too #it’s a really cool coat but it deffo needs the embroidery #I just didn’t have time because I was running a table at this con and all my energy in the past weeks was spent making inventory to sell #did kinda bad tho we had like the worst spot in the hall and didn’t even break 500 #upside is that is still profit because it was 8 min from my house and the table was only 150

[liebelesbe]

btw the Azubi meetup today was good (except for the walking way too much and the heat)!! I talked to a few ppl I'll be working with in September and they seem nice <3

#you were allowed to take your family with you so I talked less to the guy who'll be doing the same Ausbildung as me and more to his mom lol #she asked me a lot of stuff and he was so embarrassed by her lol (which is exactly why I didn't take my parents with me btw) #and then afterwards I talked to a few guys who have already started their Ausbildung and they explained some stuff for me #apparently most people already know the basics BEFORE starting!! oof. I know absolutely nothing 😬 we'll see how it goes #doddie redet #during the meetup thingy we were lead through the giant fucking Rathaus. house where the mayor is. city hall?? #and after that I almost passed out. like slid down a wall to sit down & saw spots & my tinnitus got really loud #BUT I had smth to drink & I could sit for half an hour to watch a weird Ausbildungs-Video & managed to feel good enough to keep going 👍 #literally nobody noticed I felt bad tho I almost couldn't hold up my head and was the only person sitting but nobody even looked at me #oh well 🤷 #OH AND BTW what I didn't consider before is that apparently my job is a very male dominated job lol I was the only one who's not a man

[aroaceofthesea]

Okay so i havent completely come to terms with it yet but WE WON THE HP CODEWARS (a coding competition in teams) AND WERE ACTUALLY GOING TO HOUSTON TO COMPETE IN NEXT YEAR'S COMPETITION WHAT

#what what what #what the fuck #(only adding the pic of me alone bc im too lazy to ask my friends for permission lol) #no but really what #like we knew we had options to make podium but no way we were going to win #we didnt even rlly believe we would actually make podium before starting bc there were some rlly good teams #(we kinda know everyone good so that was easy to spot) #and then after the competition we were like huh we did pretty badly we think #then we thought again and compared with last year and we said huh maybe not suuuuper bad but not rlly good either #(last year it was online and you could have a computer per person but this year it was only one so it was rlly different) #amd then we talked with the ppl that we knew and we were like huh were the best so far #then they talked to like everyone good bc they literally know everyone and they were like congraats youre 99% sure winning #and we were like naaaaah impossible you probably missed someone or smth theres no way #like we were pretty sure we were gonna be making podium by then but we somehow didnt even fully believe it #and then at the awards ceremony they gave the first girl team prize to someone else with less points and we were like aaaaa we made podium #and then they announced the third position we literally screamed bc since we knew ppls points we knew it meant we were first #i almost cried istg #like being 2nd or 3rd or 4th or first girl is like yeah im good but im not the best but like being THE best? being first is scary #it feels fake and confusing but also im so happy and i dont know how to express it aaaaaa its so weird #and the fact that were going to HOUSTON next year? what the actual fuuuck feels impossible #like were going to go there? a prize that is only for the first group? rlly? just like that?? whaaaat #also now hp has our data (we obv gave it to them) and they will likely be happy to accept us to work and/or get internships there so yayyy #but im still not over any of this it rlly feels fake like what the fuck one of the important hp research facilities asked for MY email?? #what the fuuuuuuuck #also unrelated but they just had a paper mache how to train your dragon dragon just there in the corner of a football field like whaat #(a dragon that was bigger than us not some cute little figure eeh) #mine #life #codewars

[mariocki]

Annette Andre and her enormous eyes once again cross paths with Simon Templar, as Annette, who works "on the newspaper" in The Saint: To Kill a Saint (5.19, ITC, 1967)

#fave spotting #annette andre #randall and hopkirk (deceased) #randall and hopkirk #the saint #to kill a saint #itc #1967 #jeannie hopkirk #actually Annette had already made 3 prior Saint eps‚ only one of which i gave her a fave spotting for (3.6) #not sure why i didnt with the others. perhaps her eyes were not significantly large and doleful (not to go on about it but she does have #remarkable eyes). here she... works on a newspaper. that's all we find out (is she a journalist? a copy writer? an editor? a type setter?) #and even that might not be true. she starts the episode by firing blanks at Simon in an attempt to enrage him and drive him to murder Peter #Dyneley (himself a repeat offender in Saintland‚ making his third and final appearance here). he killed Annette's father during a bank #robbery... or so she says. weirdly the episode is markedly sympathetic to him‚ presenting him as a basically decent man who loves his wife #and maybe works a little too hard. that his work is apparently bank robbing is never really gone into. actually the whole thing feels like #it needs digging into deeper‚ not least bc the ending kind of implies Annette was in with the bad guy... something Simon apparently doesn't #notice. after she shoots at him he tails her to a derelict building where she evades him laughing. at the end of the episode the real bad #guy (remember Dyneley is weirdly positively represented here) takes Simon to the same derelict building to execute him #'i wondered how this place fit in' says Simon which only seems to suggest that Annette is part of the frame up and working with real #bad guy... but nothing more is said and Simon happily reunites with her once Dyneley has saved his life (weird!!) and the adventure is over #so is she part of the plotting?? does he just not care???? what's going on Saint crew??

[todayisafridaynight]

i think i would have gone loco if jo and aoki got to meet up just once after ichi breaks through to him like. the damage to my psyche id have wouldve been immeasurable, irreparable even

#snap chats #im at the vet waiting for my dog please listen to shit thats been tormenting me for months #finally releasing all of my drafted thoughts im ill and im free #srry i know i talked bout it already in todays ask but im still thinking about it #this is also inspod by one of my twitter mutuals saying aoki’s death was the only foreseeable path for him like girl i thought we were fam #but no 😭 ill stand by forever that him dying was legit so dumb and unnecessary idc idc 😭 #anyway. let me begin. because its not as if aoki wasnt conscious of jo constantly tailing him #take a shot every time i quote the Lost Dog comment its just such a good line and just exposes jo its my everything ok leave me alone #but please just like. in the weird timeline where jo and aoki did get to be cellmates- or at least were in the same cell block right #id throw up and cry if aoki looked at jo differently that day. like it doesnt help that jo’s without all his flash and flair #hes just in slacks and his hairs all tussled and he just looks So Normal. like hes Not a murderer #as soon as that warden bring aoki in i know jo movin to see him with all the love and concern only a father got #aokid never say sorry i just know hed be awkward as hell in jo’s presence now #like if aoki really did take ichis words to heart and starts to actually see jo as his family and as someone who cares about him for him #id kill myself on the spot thats why they had to kill aoki #no id die and throw up if aoki just outright asks jo if he does care about him or something like that #jo gonna need to muster up every ounce of his will to say he does not because he doesnt but because hes Just Like That. hes a hard nut #but he loves his kid more than anything and im gonna tear my organs out thinking about it #jo your kid sucks but ik you still love him thats the worst part #i wanna write or draw somethin with them in jail together so bad but i always get distracted #and again i have comms to do today. #OH BUT SPEAKING OF MY DUMB ASS DOG GOT LYME DISEASE 😭😭😭 #they said he should be fine in like six months if we’re good with meds but still.... this is lame..... #ALSO I FOUND OUT MY POM MIX IS PREDOMINANTLY A PAPILLON..... thats fucked up yo butterfly dog... #ok im gonna go be insane idk how much else i could elaborate on this bye bye

[niccerooniererer]

imagine living in the miraculous ladybug universe, in Paris, and one day.

waking up to a 15 year old spoiled (and traumatised) teen being the mayor

#I swear to god the writers can't stop her slander #I swear like there will be an episode where like an akuma or some shit like #makes a volcano and like it's about to erupt and ladybug is like #oh my god shit shit shit lucky charm! and it's a spotted chloe figurine #she's like ''oh no. we need to sacrifice Mayor Chloe to the akuma volcano'' #and so like oh soooo heroic and heavy heart they do #the lucky charm doesn't bring her back either so like a funeral is held #but no one is crying at said funeral cuz the writers really want to make it clear #that this 15 year old was the most despicable being ever #and Marinette is there and smiles and thinks about how she's glad she was the one to do it #and proceeds to feel no guilt for seasons until after a lot of complaining from fans #it's sort of mentioned off hand that oh no she's better now she feels bad now that #she sacrificed chloe to a volcano and if there was another way she would've chose that #sorry papa louietuals I was watching some ML episodes yesterday and yeah they were stupid

[pepprs]

10 minutes left and then some clean up. i am absolutely fucking exhausted but also grateful for my friends and idk what the results even are but i think we’re going to be ok

#i was doing really really bad for the first hour and a half and then i was sedated with phone art and apple cider and chocolate. but my feet #ache and my throat hurts from talking as loud as i can and i know i am suppressing SO many mentally ill thoughts that have occurred to me in #the last 5 hours 😍 and i am terrified bc some of the ppl iwintersctdd w tonight were DEFINITELY sick and even though they took covid tests I #don’t want to be cavalier about it. Omg the hours between 6:30-9:30 were so fucking bad i genuinely wanted to *** on the spot lol. but im ok #now and i am goijg to sleep a lot and then we have a full work week to deal with lol 🤪 #purrs #it was so fucking humiliating to be visibly doing bad too. one of the mentally ill thoughts i had was i am not good under pressure or stress #and i am not good at telling people what to do so i am failing everyone and embarrassing myself and everyone knows im having a bad time beca #because im defective and not good at my job etc etc lol. and i still do kinda feel like that but i have sugar in my system LMAO #omg yeah i was spacing out and stumbling and sagging my whole body it was so . 😞

[mer-se]

Prima facie round two. 5/17 🎭🤍

#pics and videos don’t do the front row justice at all #the way that it curves to the stage is crazy I had to take wide angle pics and even then can’t really tell how close it is #it’s also the only row lit up the entire show with a spotlight #was kind of overwhelming because you’re like face to face #like! at one point she sits on the floor of the stage and we made eye contact for what felt like a whole min and bro tell me why I felt SHY #like grl 😳 #we got some smiles at the end too that invoked some gay panic #she’s even more beautiful irl it’s crazy #and talented like she puts everything into that #was so different seeing the performance so close up man was intense #like her crying hurt my damn feelings #my friend went out before us to try and find a spot for me to get an autograph cus friendship #because there's people there waiting before the show even starts it's wild #she got up front tho! and met a bunch of ppl someone had seen the play 8 times and there were other ke tattoos #I pissed off some ppl but made it up there and jodie wasn't feeling well enough to sign #I wasn't even mad I hope she's ok she does so much man I'd need a year off in bed #did get to see her drive off tho haha #maybe we'll make it down once more before it's done either to see it again or do other ny shit then try for an autograph #we’ll see #I hope she doesn’t get burnt out I even felt bad contributing to the feralness #the show is so heavy I hope she’s taking care of herself #we got sprayed a few times by her drinking water and yelling/talking so if she's sick and l'm getting jodie sick idec #I know ur not suppose to take pics aside from the bow don't come for me #that's why I took it from a horribly under the stage low angle from my ankle basically lol #l've had a headache and motion sickness grossness since the drive down p sure it's a migraine wanna just go sleeps #was so worth it tho for that incredible lady 😮‍💨 #also! got to drive a bronco to and from which was cool I love them lately #ok bye I wrote so much shit probably incoherent #mine

[cuntstable]

what did you think of p5?

oh i can tell you werent following me when i watched it in 2020 because i would not stop SHITTING on it lol. its actually what made me lose interest in jojo for like 2 years until i read stocean this year 😭

#i think… its genuinely the worst jojo part 😭 i understand why some people like it because some of the characters are charming #like i like mista and LOVE fugo. but i feel like out of any jojo part it had like the MOST wasted potential #like nothing was explored properly i think. not the interesting characters or themes. even someone like bruno who i like and who got a lot #of spot light could have been explored better i think. and its was just so…. unpleasant. and dragged on. like the pacing was bad #and because we didnt really get to know most of the characters OR their relationships in depth the cast couldnt really carry it either. and #also i think most of the villains were very weak #giornos a really interesting character on paper but i think he suffered the most from not being explored properly. i like him but hes #a little bit……. boring? in the actual story 😭 its so sad because again hes soooooooo good on paper #jojo