#and we made gifts for the people in that tumblr chatroom and our new almost-friends in that discord server for valentines day

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I love just like. Seeing how as time passes we see more and more people using hey/hem/heir pronouns, aka the one's that Moon made. Like so far we've only seen it used by people that know us, or at least know us as a friend of a friend, but like, just seeing something so personal to one of us click with even just one other person is so?? Amazing??? And unexpected????

If we told our younger self from even just a year ago about any of the crazy stuff that happens just. Casually. To us now I'm not sure that they'd even believe us ahsvsvsh

Anywaves this was just me being surprised but happy.

#suroh rambles #I still remember how like. I think it was really late 2019? #like the last fews months of it or so #we had literally zero (0) online friends and only like 4 irl friends #and we were in a really bad spot #and then tumblr came out with these new chatroom things. and we were at such a low point that we said ''fuck it'' #and shoved our wariness aside (well kind of. a little.) and just joined a few for the fandom we were in at the time #and we just shoved our worst ideas in there occasionally. constantly ready to run away at any moment. but?? they liked us??? #and they liked our horrible ideas and our sweeter ones too and they liked *us* and they don't know this #but one of them was the first to call us by our name. by suroh. and they forgot the h but it made our heart feel so warm all of a sudden #and then they invited us to a discord channel and we took another wary leap of faith and downloaded the app #and then we met one of our best and closest friends by saying one of the first things that came to mind because we've always shown our worst #first so we know to run away from the get go instead of getting our hopes up #(the thing was ''milky salsa'' btw and we still occasionally giggle about to this day) #and they invited us to their discord server just so we could share it with the people there #and then we met our other two closest friends (and honestly we still think of the icons they had way back then first when we think of them) #(and we know what they look like now) #and we made gifts for the people in that tumblr chatroom and our new almost-friends in that discord server for valentines day #because we've always loved far too much far too soon and couldn't help but want to show it; even if it scared us a lot. #and they complimented us and told us how much they liked us /p and we'd never heard that spoken to usso much in so little time that we just #fell into a mess of blushing red. and we realized then that there was *hope* and it scared us so bad because we knew we'd fallen hopelessly #we were so scared of things going wrong because we always seem to be the reason that people hate us. #and honestly if I could go back in time I'd just want to hug ourself from back then and reassure them that'd all be fine #that it'd turn out more than fine #cause kit? you weren't the reason people hated you. we still feel like that some times but you really aren't. #honestly I think you being you is how so many people have fallen for us /p #and how we've allowed ourself to fall for them in return (/p again) #anywaves this was me being *incredibly* sappy and no you don't get to know who wrote this #suroh loves heir friends a lot #damn this jumped topics but also really didn't