#and uni&internship takes much of my free time

[megumi-fm]

this week on megumi.fm ▸ coding and coffeeshops

📋 Tasks

💻 Internship ↳ lab meet!!! got to learn about the other projects in the lab ↳ got work from home approved!! ↳ optimize protein seq code // account for missing residues ✅ ↳ add on a binding site identifier function for code using 4.5A distance threshold ✅ ↳ optimize binding site code // reducing time complexity for large PDB file inputs ✅ ↳ download and extract alphafold human protein repository and analyze pdb file formats ↳ set up progress tracker and upload code on colab ✅ 🎓 Uni ↳ Final Project: update images quality according to changes mentioned ✅ ↳ renew uni email for extra credit classes ✅ ↳ extra credit classes started this week! 🩺Radiomics Projects ↳ call with teammates to discuss next steps ✅ 📧 Application-related ↳ finished masters application form for 1/1 Uni (waiting on my referee reports) ✅ ↳ finalize referee report from my profs ✅

📅 Daily-s

🛌 consistent sleep [7/7] 💧 good water intake [5/7] 👟 exercise [5/7]

Fun Stuff this week

🍻 met up with my bestie @muakrrr <3 it was a stressful tuesday so meeting him for lunch was super comforting! he bought this cute purple drink and I got myself some ginger ale and the waiter served us the wrong drinks (gender and expectations something something) and it was amusing to watch them get confused when we corrected them 🎂 mom's b'day this week!! went out for dinner with her!! 🛒 went shopping with relatives who I haven't seen in years. bought myself a book! (rip my bookshelf) ☕ went out for coffee and dinner with my girlies (the same besties who I exchanged mugs with). we're trying to spend as much time together as possible before we leave to different countries for our masters 🎮 continuing the beginner's guide 📺 ongoing: Marry my Husband, Cherry Magic Th, Last Twilight 📺 binged: KinnPorsche The Series

📻 This week's soundtrack

Love Wins All by IU (been crying over this music video for days now. it's beautiful) KinnPorsche theme by Slot Machine: Kinn's theme [aka Phiang Waichai; TH] | Porche's theme [aka Free Fall; Eng] (first of all this is one of the catchiest theme songs to exist second only to SPECIALZ aka the JJK s2 op i'm also particularly losing my mind over how the two themes are love letters to the main characters from each other... the narrative parallels of it all are driving me insane sldkhlaksjkshs) Dum Dum by Jeff Satur + the Live Unchained version where his vocals are heavenly (maybe im so drawn to this song because the chorus is similar to the melodic motifs of the KPTS themes/soundtrack, either way, the show introduced me to him and god. I've been voraciously consuming his discography.) Ghost by Jeff Satur (on repeat all week. thoroughly obsessed with this song- the lyricism, his voice, the storyline in the MV, his acting, everything. wow. truly.)

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[Jan 22 to 28 ; week 4/52 || I. love. my. internship. like. I have been having the most fun time problem solving and troubleshooting. it's also super satisfying to see the outcome of my code. it's been a while since I used python (I've been coding on C) so I forget that python has a lot of inbuilt functions that would do the same tasks I inadvertently entrust my nested loops with, and finding out about them is always so joyous (although it means I have to scrap off several chunks of code). i am a bit annoyed though, because the other intern isn't really doing any work that we're entrusted with so I'm having to carry the team and it's taking me too much time. but oh well. I've suggested we split tasks from next week, hopefully that'll make things better.

I've also been procrastinating a lot when it comes to my masters applications and it really hit me this week when I had to run to uni several times to get things approved and completed. Now that I'll get to work from home I need to set up a proper schedule to get application work completed wayy in advance. also need to resume my GRE prep from next week.]

#52wktracker #studyblr #study blog #studyspo #stemblr #stem student #study goals #student life #college student #studying #stem studyblr #adhd studyblr #adhd student #study motivation #100 days of productivity #study inspo #study inspiration #gradblr #uniblr #studyinspo #sciblr #study aesthetic #study blr #study motivator #100 days of self discipline #100 days of studying #stem academia #bio student #100 dop #100dop

[mooninkd]

short mun introduction here. hi, hi! i'm autumn (she/they, 21+) again and i bring you not only my baby taeho here, but also ahn kiha (@srnscng) & kim aera (@orchdaria) so feel free to contact me on any of them! i also have discord upon request ♡

short muse introduction here. moon taeho, 24 y/o. university student at jeju national uni and also part times as a barback at 88&. he's a resident in yuseong bay (for now anyway) because the rent is much cheaper than in jeju city (also for now help) so it just made sense in his head to move in here even with the extra cost of transportation than to stay in the city, so he sort of just moved in with a roommate! he studies early childhood education because he wants to be a kindergarten teacher or work in a daycare (is actually looking for an internship somewhere right now so pls root for him 🙏🙏🙏). here is his profile and here is his pinterest!

answer the following prompts, either ooc or ic!

when did your muse first arrive in yuseong bay?      he arrived not so long ago on march of this year! taeho is actually from daegu and at first moved to jeju city because that's where he decided to go to university to, he has been been in jeju city for about two years (this is his third) before moving to yuseong bay. his parents aren't the greatest at parenting (at least not with him) so he's in that transitional moment of trying to heal his inner child/needing some time away from them and going to jeju for university instead of a closer educational institution. however the rent in jeju city is wildly expensive even if it's a dorm room so he was thinking about moving in somewhere else a little cheaper to cut off expenses. even then it still took him a while to find someone that was thinking the same as him and he finally took that last step to move out and here we are.

what does an average day look like for your muse?      he usually wakes up at around 6:30 to 7am (when he doesn't hear his alarm) to do the bare minimum tattoo skincare (as in wash his face and put some sunscreen) and then have some breakfast, get ready to university and then he spends four to five hours seeking higher education. then he usually just goes back home for lunch to either do chores around home (or goes out to do house chores like grocery shopping/get a new shower because his broke, etc etc), assignments or simply to take a nap and eat something before starting his shift at 88&; unless it's monday, wednesday or friday, then he goes to the recreational center to work out for around one hour to two hours before going home to prepare for his shift. taeho does his shift and then goes back home for the night, still prob tries to catch up on an episode or two of any anime he's watching (and then proceeds to regret it the morning after) before going to bed.

where can your muse usually be found?      he's a little of a homebody tbh so it's somewhat hard to see him out of the house unless he has something to do or a friend dragged him out, but if he's feeling adventurous, you could prob find in at andante cafe in the afternoon trying to finish some assignment while having some coffee and a little sweet treat, or the recreation center getting his weekly workout, or on either pierrot's lanes to try out some of the retro arcades or even the memoire antique shop simply to check if someone dropped any old mangas that he might be interested in, very unlikely, but it's something to get him out of the house, so.

how does your muse feel about hanhwa resort?      he's surprisingly neutral about it. taeho does think it's a pity and bad that the local community are losing their space in their own hometown — either because of the higher and higher prices and because the resort is so obviously trying to own it in a way —, but he also sort of thinks it's inevitable considering capitalism how the world is; sort of only hopes that his rent will remain cheaper than the his dorm room in jeju city at least until he graduates and most likely will move out somewhere else or he gets his internship/a job that gets him a little more money than the one he has now.

is there an aspiration for your muse to stay in or leave yuseong bay?      taeho has always seen yuseong bay as the place cheaper than jeju city that he's going to live until he gets his degree. even though he does enjoy the more quiet life (and despises the bad reception even if it gives him an excuse to not call his parents/to not answer their rare calls), i feel like he's a city boy through and through. he can get used to a life there if the need arises (like him getting a job/internship there, or anything like that), but i don't think that he wants to. however he isn't picky nor has this goal of living in a specific place in the end, so i guess in a way if he stays or not in yuseong bay after he gets his degree is sort of a mystery.

answer the following, ooc!

list your muse’s three favorite songs.      in no specific order: super beaver - らしさ ; official髭男dism - mixed nuts ; urban zakapa - i don't love you. (was really tempted in making these three anime songs to expose this big nerd's ass but alas)

describe your muse’s wardrobe.      one word: basic. he's very very very basic. jeans and a tshirt, usually slightly oversized/loose for comfort, in simple colors — nothing too bright (and god forbid neon) but he still wears colors —, simple patterns, simple prints; if he's feeling a little bolder, he'll bring out his anime tshirts. since he has tattoos, he usually is always wearing a shirt or a jacket over his tshirt to hide them (or expose them if he's feeling "safe") since sometimes he does get a little more attention because of them and he just would rather not.

what is a color, word, and emoji that you feel describes your muse?      sky blue, diligence, 😑

three strong likes and dislikes for your muse.      really likes anime, homemade food, coffee / really dislikes spicy food, being the center of attention in a crowded room/space, things done halfassedly.

three positive and negative traits for your muse.      positive diligent, generous, well-mannered / negative critical, reticent, stubborn

three talents and shortcomings for your muse.      talents is great with kids and with handcraft things, can fall asleep anywhere at anytime / shortcomings is stubborn in his ways even if it's proven it's not the best way, always pushes himself a little too hard/is too hard on himself, can't ask for help even when he needs to

what is a book/tv series/movie/video game character that you feel your character relates to?      nanami kento from jujutsu kaisen and somewhat sakusa kiyoomi from haikyuu.

a relevant goal or arch for your character to overcome.      taeho has a huge issue with his parents because they were pretty negligent with him but he still searches for their approval/validation/attention anyway and it'd be nice for him to realize that they won't ever really give it to him, not the same way that he does with his younger brother that is so obviously the favorite son, and not be to hung up on it and instead pay more attention to the people that genuinely care for him in his life + having a little more of self worth/love instead of just allowing himself to be taken for granted by others.

extra bits !

his parents obviously had him when they weren't prepared for it and it so obviously show. they aren't the best parents since they don't know how to interact with a kid (even more so when it's their own son) and so they were never close to each other from the start, but at least they tried even if they just ended up treating him as an older kid than he actually was.

things don’t get better when his younger brother is born as the apple of his parents’ eyes, a child that came when they actually wanted one and used the excuse that he was born with a sick body to give him more attention than to taeho (but then things didn’t change when his little brother got healthy later on).

so he learned how to be an adult a little too soon and how to look after himself; surprisingly he doesn’t really resent neither his parents nor his brother for it and he does love them dearly, would die and kill for them, even if the relationship with his parents is still awkward at best.

was always the epitome of the good kid™ (and still is tbh), always well-mannered and too worried about getting good grades and behaving/not causing trouble to really enjoy being just a kid. he was always too quiet to really make a lot of friends growing up.

 as much as he just wanted to chill throughout his school years, he still ended up class president more than once and almost if not all of his group assignments he ended up as the group’s leader because at the end of the day he’s very critical and methodical about things, esp academic work, so he ends up taking charge just so things will be up to his standards. he also has very dependable vibes so people end up relying on him a lot too so in the end he does end up in positions of leadership even if the i in his mbti wants otherwise.

characteristics that he carries with himself to this day. hence why new semester is yet another broken promise that he’ll just chill in group tasks and agree with everything.

did his military service right after graduating high school because the tensions were only getting higher in his house since he started trying to demand more attention to his parents that obviously didn't know/won't give to him and one of them suggested that this would be a good thing for him, that they'd be proud of a son that didn't try to "procrastinate" his civil duties so of course he goes.

which was an experience that gave him a lot to think about his relationship with his parents so when he was done, he wasn't quite ready to go back home yet so he tries an university away from them and that's how he ends in jeju national university.

is a big— huge anime fan, has collections of mangas (that he never completes/drops midway through and reads on the shounen jump app instead), has three tattoos about shows that he enjoys/watches; but is also very lowkey about the merch that he wears/uses (i.e. wearing a sports shirt from an anime team to work out) that makes small references to what he watches, very iykyk thing.

#yshqs:intro #still need to fine out some details for kiha so his intro will come later!!

[ceebit]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ──ㅤㅤ୨୧ USERJUYO COMMISSIONS POST.

hello! i briefly touched on this a while back, but i’ve decided to make an official post where i’ll be a bit more detailed. as of october 18th of this year, i’ll be opening one round of commissions! the concept of commissions is still a bit new to me, so hopefully this is explained well. (please be nice lmao..)

for the first round, five slots will be open as to not overwhelm myself. all 5/5 slots are currently open!

each commission will be charged at a fixed price of $8 for up to 1k words. meaning up until the one thousandth word, your comm is still $8. any additional length will be priced at $0.010 a word.

examples :

≤ 1k words -> $8

1.1k (+100 words) -> $9

1.2k (+200 words) -> $10

and so on! hopefully that makes sense. for now, all works will cap at around 3-5k words. if i write over that amount, you will not be charged.

REQUESTING COMMISSIONS

commissions can either be requested directly through kofi or in tumblr dms. i highly suggest you request through kofi due to tumblr’s inability to function sometimes. though feel free to dm me here for anything you feel you’ve missed and i’ll get to it as soon as i see it.

once on kofi, you have the option of adding the personalization add-on to your commission, which is an extra $3. a google form is required to fill in for this add-on. please be as detailed as you’d like. that is where you would add more personal things, as opposed to a general x reader comm.

due to me being a full-time university student, i will ask that you give me a grace period of a standard work week before dm-ing me for updates. as we all know, life is unpredictable at best. if at any point i deduce that will be unable complete your comm during the agreed upon time frame, i will refund half of what you paid.

if for any reason you choose to cancel your commission, please let me know in advance. i’ll give updates as frequently as i can, and you’re more than welcome to ask to see any progress i’ve made.

COMMISSION COMPLETION

upon completing your commission, you have the choice of either receiving it personally through email or tumblr dms in a pdf or me posting it publicly on my account.

your commission is for personal use only, so please do not publicly claim it as your own writing.

PAYMENT

all payments for each commission sent in through kofi and in usd. if you live outside of america, please convert your currency to usd!

WHO I WRITE FOR + WHAT I WILL WRITE

as of october 18th, 2023, i currently write for all members of seventeen, stray kids, and the boyz. however, feel free to ask if you’d like someone else from any group i stan! (ex : txt, nct 127, ateez, etc.) i’d be more than willing to put in the research :)

as this is a sfw account, i will not be taking any nsfw comms. i do, however, have works with some suggestive themes, so feel free to let me know what you’d like. if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me through my inbox or dms. if you would like more privacy, my discord is juyomii.

if you’ve made it this far, thank you so much for reading. making this post is nerve-racking but if i can create content for you while putting aside money for uni, then why not? (and quite frankly, internships are not cutting it. and job postings are stingy. you know how it is.)

i also have an added post on my ko-fi to spur me on to working on my drafts, but you don’t have to hit that one if you don’t want to. i’m grateful enough for the support i receive regardless. :)

the link to my kofi will be linked here as well as in my navigation and description. feel free to ask if you have any questions!

cece 🌷

#cece’s commissions ♡ #whew i’ve been sitting on this for a bit #hopefully this goes well….!

[callmeyourala]

What are you studying in uni? And do you have any useful tips regarding university (before you start, while you’re there etc. could literally be anything☺️)

I don't share personal details like my degree and age etc, but for context I'm studying a health-related degree.

Random tips for university...

Honestly I feel like you'll figure it out. Before I started university I watched every "university day in the life" video and "university tips" video. I'm in my third year and not using any of the tips that I saw in those videos.

University, especially if you're living away from home, is most people's first taste of real freedom and independence. You learn to budget, keep a clean and functional home, grocery shop, cook, study without being prompted, attend lectures without fear of your parents being alerted if you don't attend class, stay out for as long as you want doing what ever you want and much more.

University is probably the only time in your young adult life when you're alone with your own thoughts and are forced to get to know yourself, before you are likely swept into the hussle and bustle of the 9-to-5 life.

Try everything. Everything and anything you've ever been interested in, try it. Even if you think it's not cool or interesting or fits an aesthetic you are trying to fit, do it. There isn't a time when you are an adult that you will have as much unlimited access to social activities, that are highly subsidised, with people in a similar stage of life to you, whilst you also have a flexible schedule and copious amounts of free time. Take advantage of all of that.

Socialise and get to know people from different walks of life. You learn how to interact with people and make connections/friendships for life.

Apply for scholarships and bursaries. No brainer. Free money.

Do internships during your summers; secure that post-graduation job role early, so you're not worrying about it too late.

I don't have great tips for studying honestly, I have a practically photographic memory and have been able to maintain 2:1/first grades with little to no effort. I have heard that the "active recall" method works for people so check that out!

Explore the cities surrounding your university. Hop on a train and learn more about the country you are living in, especially if you are considering moving out of your home after university. There is way more to the world than your home town.

Study abroad, if you can. Take free language modules that your university offer, if you can.

If you hate your course after you start it, talk to lecturers from other courses and see if you can transfer. No point wasting time doing a degree that you hate. You'll either drop out, get a below average grade and/or hate your life.

Get on Facebook (hate, yuck, throwing up), unfortunately so many university societies connect with students via Facebook and it's where you can try and meet your flatmates before you move onto campus. Good thing is as you get more comfortable in your university you will use Facebook less (bless).

Eat your fruits and vegetables, stretch, go for walks, sleep well and drink water.. Health is wealth, and vitamin deficiencies effect your mental and physical health.

Do your laundry regularly, shower regularly, clean your room and change your bedsheets. I thought it was common knowledge, but since being at university I have learnt it's not...

Try not to get too many takeouts (clearly speaking to myself). Meal prep or buy good quality ready meals. Food delivery is expensive and not good for your health. Save your money and look after yourself internally.

Best of luck! If you have specific questions about university, feel free to send them through and I will try my best to answer them.

- ala ❤️‍🔥

#ala answers #not proofreading all of this - pray it makes sense

[fluffypotatey]

Some questions. For asks that have knowledge no one in universe of ispp would know, ex: things that Invilves the knowledge the VAs aren't real, do you want us to send to this blog or the sideblog

2) can you jump around the timelines? Like some asks set when ispp is new, when it's actually popular, pre mk involvement, some post mk

3) will you pretend to be the same person with the same views? Bc you're pretending to be pro same universe in the sideblog (according to the deacription), but like in this blog sometimes you answered back like you were also anti same universe. Would it the same for the sideblog

hey thanks for the questions!

1 - anything that involves more knowledge about the au than the fandom is aware of will be discussed here. i wanna keep the sideblog mostly in-story and not break the 4th wall too much (although if want to add anything about the au thru the blog, you can send asks like they are transcripts from interviews from other characters besides Macky or his not-real production crew)

if the ask is written in a way that delivers itself as someone from the au, then send it in the sideblog and either my character will answer it like it’s a conspiracy theory or something else will respond to it (idk but i think of something)

2 - i think jumping around timelines will be fun! it keeps with tumblr’s own kind of style of posting since we see a lot of posts that are 10 years old. however, please make sure you add a time-stamp for when you ask or submission is taking place (you can even tag the time-stamp for the submission! i’ll prob add that to the guidelines)

i think for in-story timeline, we should keep it similar to the show’s (imma try and map this out later), but also how about we mirror the years for when lmk got released (2020) and the present (so whenever s4 ends at)

3 - i think imma stay as the one character just for my own sake. tbh i am stretching myself a little thin since i have uni priorities and unfinished fics i wanna complete and internships to look for, so there will just be one in-universe character who reblogs (sorry for all the anti-same universe fans 😔 )

but y’all are free to reblog submission posts and stuff on the blog with your own kind of ‘fandom’ opinions. just make sure to tag it #unreality ;)

#i need to stop thinking 2020 was a year ago T^T #looked up lmk’s release date and was like ‘noooooo’ *checks again* ‘nooooooo’ *does the math* ‘NOOOOOOOO’ #lmk 6EarM4c au #asks #also i need to think of a tag for the in-story character 🤔 either her name pr blog name or some characteristic

[sankyeom]

hi besties!! i have been super mia because i’ve been dealing with a lot of school and internship stuff, which took up a lot of my time. i’m taking my last class at community college atm and i’m going to be transferring and attending a new uni in the fall, which is super exciting!

my last cc class ends at the end of june, so i’m going to be much more free to update and write new fics for you guys then.

for now, i wanted to thank you guys for always waiting patiently for me and being so kind and open with me. love you all, i will be coming to you will new content very soon

💛

#belle’s babbles

[chemblrish]

Hey, First of all, I love your blog. It's literally aesthetic ~ I wanted to ask if you considered job prospects before deciding on your degree because I see people around me saying chem is not worth it because of future possibilities. I also have a background in Biotechnology, but had a similar issue with it being too vague. I am working in a totally different field which I am greatful for but I dont plan on staying here long term. Seeing your blog rekindled my interest in chem so would love to know your point of view on this or any advice you could offer. You can totally ignore this if you want as well <3

[This got SO LONG omg 🙈 But I hope it can be helpful]

Hi there fellow chem enthusiast!

To be honest, it's no secret that finding a job in the scientific field is difficult here in Poland. I was fully aware of it when I chose biotech first and then chemistry second. My reasoning back then was, "I love science more than anything and, since I have the opportunity to study it literally for free, why not take it? Why not spend five years - that are going to come and go anyway - learning something I'm passionate about, broadening my knowledge, and giving myself a chance to create a beautiful future for myself? Even if I fail to get a job in science, at least I will know that I tried my best. I'll have spent five precious years of my life doing something incredible."

Which may sound a little depressing, I agree 😅 But several years later, I still think this way. Even if I can't get a job in chemistry once I graduate, at least I'm so, so happy now. I can't really picture myself doing anything that's not science-related, so I know I have to try.

But at the same time, after a couple of years studying for two different science degrees, I have some insight that I didn't have straight after high school. I have had people tell me getting a science degree isn't worth it too, that I won't get a job afterwards, but I've noticed most of those people belonged to one of the following three categories:

1. People who have absolutely nothing to do with science: distant relatives working in business or trade, my parents' acquaintances with no higher education, everybody who ~has heard things~ but has never really been in the position to see firsthand how these things work.

2. My fellow science majors who have older friends with a science degree: their concerns usually sounded valid to me. After all, they were in touch with people who actually got the degree in question and then tried to navigate the job market post-graduation. Later though I realized a lot of those people belonged to the third category.

3. Science students who honestly don't know what tf they're doing - a category that I like to divide into two subcategories:

a. well-meaning but lost students who really need guidance

b. people who went to uni because eh why not but who don't really care and who refuse to put in the work.

I definitely belonged to category 3a at the very beginning of my uni journey, so there's no shame in that. I'm a first gen uni student, so I had to figure everything out all by myself as I went.

The thing is, I got to talk to a lot of people who complained that a science degree is useless while doing pretty much nothing to sharpen their skills. They floated through uni as if it was nothing but another chore they had to cross out of their to-do list, barely passing, having zero interest in their field of study, not taking any opportunities that were literally out there. No extracurriculars, no internships, no side projects, nothing. Is it surprising at all these people struggle to find a job in science afterwards?

Don't get me wrong, nobody has full control over their life - sometimes you just get lucky. My friend's friend (lol) needed to take a break from uni after his BSc and got a job in an analytical lab straight away. But most often you just really have to work your butt off to get what you want. The people from my old uni who truly cared about biotech worked extremely hard to get to where they are now: with published papers and working with their profs. Harsh as it may sound, I now know that if I don't want to be one of those people with a """useless""" science degree, I have to do more than is expected of me. I have to put my introverted, anxious self out there, because being passive probably won't get me anywhere.

The people who love you and care about you mean well when they say chemistry isn't worth it, but that doesn't mean they're right. Similarly, people who graduate with a science degree and then struggle to get a job aren't all slackers who just didn't try hard enough - that's absolutely not true. Life isn't always what we want it to be. I wouldn't exactly feel comfortable giving you advice since I'm still in uni, but I can tell you my experience, and my experience is people who know what they want and who are willing to work very hard for it, usually get it.

I'd say this is also no secret but it tends to float over people's heads (no shame in this either, it's hard to imagine your whole future when you're like 20) that when your profs tell you to do more, they're being serious. When they say doing extra is important, they're right.

So, I believe in all this stuff and I work hard and I got myself an internship, and will this get me a job in chemistry? I don't know! I've no idea! Maybe I'll fail miserably! Maybe I'll be one of those people who genuinely try hard and then just happen to be really unlucky! But right now I'm doing everything that's in my power not to let that happen. I can't guarantee you success in the scientific field - nobody can - but I can tell you hard work, determination, and faith in yourself increase your chances of succeeding dramatically. It's a cliche, I'm aware, but if you never try, you never know. You only get one precious chance to experience living on this floating rock and everything that comes with it. Why not try to make it good?

#as always insight from more experienced chemblrs is very much welcome! #chemblr #chemistry #inbox #chemistry asks

[weareyour4]

4 Things You Might Regret as A Student at Uni – LaurenET

Being a student can be some of the best times of your life, but it’s only after you graduate and start working your first big girl job that you begin thinking of all the regrets you have about uni. Here are just 4 of the regrets I have that you might have too:

Not Doing Any Internships

This is my number 1 regret about university. At the time, I genuinely believed I was too busy or too shy or too confused about what kind of career I wanted to even think about applying for internships. It turns out, I just didn’t know about The Grad Soc. This company help students and grads find flexible (between 5 to 10 hours a week), paid (£11 per hour!) and remote (an introvert’s dream) internships that last around 3 months. Looking back, if I had found them at uni, I would have been making the most of my weekends, saving up that extra cash and figuring out what kind of work I actually really liked (and what I absolutely didn’t want to pursue). One thing you realise coming out of uni is that a degree doesn’t mean much to an employer and it’s your work experience that speaks volumes when you’re trying to land a grad job. It sounds simple but it’s not something I knew.

2. Wasting My Student Loan

In particular, on a bunch of new clothes. Don’t get me wrong, I saved like mad (maybe a little bit too mad at times) but I made some very regrettable purchases where that money could have been put to good use. No, I didn’t need the Anastasia brow gel because it was trending online and no, I didn’t need a new outfit for every event. If you’re a student reading this now, it’s worth asking yourself why you’re buying something. Is it just for the sake of buying? Can you find it somewhere cheaper? Can you wait a couple of months and if you still want it then you can get it? It might seem like the odd £20 here and the odd £15 there but it really starts to add up (and trust me, the future grad version of you will wish you had that money for a new vacuum or office desk or something “adult”).

3. Not Enjoying the Small Things

Uni is hectic. Every day feels like it’s mad and that’s not always a bad thing especially when you’re young, a little bit wild and soaking up all the freedom you have. But one regret you might find yourself having as a grad is not enjoying the small moments that made your uni experience. Like sitting in the library with your friends, all of you experiencing a stress-induced meltdown and you’re counting down the days until term ends. Or going home to visit your mum and dad. Or walking back to your flat with your besties. Or cooking dinner for your housemates. At the time, you’re so wrapped up in that essay you have to finish or that presentation you have to do that you forget to really soak up these small moments.

4. Throwing Away My Free Time

Once you graduate, you realise how time consuming it is working a “proper” job and you begin to regret throwing away all that freedom you had. Personally, I wish I had done more than binge watch and shop with my free time. If I could give advice to a current student, I’d say make the most of the time you have now where most of you have very few responsibilities. Travel to new cities (spending money on a new experience trumps new clothes by the way, take this advice), try new coffee shops, make new meals, choose a hobby, and stick to it (even if you’re rubbish at it, you’ll come out of uni with a passion for something that isn’t related to your career). I also wish I’d spent this freedom exploring my future options better. Could I have done some online courses? Could I have been networking? All of this hindsight is something you wish you had as a student. 

And these are just a few of the many regrets you might relate to! Ultimately, it’s important to look forward rather than wishing you could change the past but hopefully this lands in the hands of newbie and current uni students who can learn from my mistakes. 

[silberpilz]

Yo

Big fuckin Rant down here i needed a place to vent please feel free to just skip this i need to yell into the void

Ah yes btw mentions of very much not good mental health i had

Idk i can't believe the two weeks i waited at least a month for just are over. Just like that. And life just goes on and i have to work again and i hate work. I feel bored and empty. I want to create but cant manage to do more than doodles or a few words, if i even do it. Also i just know my pains will never really go away.

Ghaaahhh i'm sorry for being such a sorrowball again but idk what else to do about it. It could be way worse of course and i'm thankful it's not (yet) but man. I just want to be happy. All i could think about in my last week of vacation (in which i got sick anyway) was that i just fucking LOATHE having to work full time. I hate it so much. Why do i have to spend most of my concious day and most of my energy just to get not even a actual employees amount of money (i'm still a trainee) and i still have to do it for almost 2 further years. 2. YEARS! Why does it take so long!!! If i didnt have Abitur it would be even longer!!!!!

Ok since this is escalating anyway:

I know i tried my best in trying and failing so many times trying to get into a profession within my actual interests but damn. Did it leave a mark on me. I am exhausted. I feel like i wasted so so much time. Got to repeat 10th class 2 times, uni was trash, design college didnt want me, gardening was good but my bosses started to treat me like trash for some reason and having to scoot there during winter made me freeze before and after work in a way that would make icicles blush and i just wanted to fucking end it and it was very hard to not give up to these thoughts. Then i tried to get into my towns bookstores and one of them didnt even let me do a test internship and the second one all of a sudden had someone else who was sooooo much more better and knowledgable about literature than me i FUCKING GUESS. Then i had a minijob, trying to get into some creative and cultural field of study again but hey. Times running out. Would i even have a future with that stuff. Working on a pprtfolio would take time. I need work right now RIGHT NOW OR ELSE MY FUTURE WILL BE IN SHAMBLES FOREVER (thanks mom and dad) And now i'm here. It could be worse. My bosses are nice, the stuff i deal with is kinda interesting. But well. Its retail. And all my direct coworkers are some 40+ yo women who are way too snarky and nosy at times. All the more friendly coworkers or the ones my age are either in the forge or in another floor and they work different jobs. Like i said it could be way way worse and i'm thankful its not. But i'm just not happy. I constantly long for more. And i'm so tired all the time. As i'm starting to age into adulthood, all of this gets into my body and recently also into my nervous system.

I just want to hang out with my friends again. I just want to have fun and not worry. I want to have energy and independency. But to achieve that, i have to push through all of this. I can't give up again, sadly.

Maybe one day i can express myself more freely again, worry less, have more free time and still be able to pay rent. And my back will hurt less. And i can help others more effectively.

#rant #vent post #feel free to skip #might delete later

[zepskies]

Hey! Just something i wanted to seek advice about… there this guy i like, and i feel its not a good idea to fall for this guy, not because he’s bad or smt, he is very smart and a good person but he is older than me, a little bit too old maybe? I’m 21 he probably in his early 30’s and I’m doing an internship where he works, he’s not the boss but very important to the place. I just started this internship and i cant quit because its allotted to me by our professors in uni. So I’m pretty much stuck till 1st week of December🤦🏻‍♀️ He’s also someone I report to and literally stop functioning when i see him. Even when i say “good morning”, dude its not even audible to ants for Christ sake🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ No guy, i mean literally no one has made me feel this way🤦🏻‍♀️ how the hell will i survive the next 2 months… -intern anon

Hey there, lovely!

Wow, this is my first "life advice" question. I'm by no means a relationship expert, but since I'm a bit older than you (27), maybe I can help you out here.

First of all, congrats on getting an internship through your school! This sounds like a great opportunity. And this is your time to be a sponge, learning as much as you can and getting as much experience as you can in your desired field before you leave the threshold of university/college, and head into the working world.

Now, I won't say too much about the age gap, only because you're over 18 and you can do whatever you want with anyone you want...

However, I do have thoughts about the work dynamic. This man is your superior (as in, you report to him for work). You're just getting started in your career.

The balance of power is inherently unequal here. Even if he makes advances toward you, if I was in your shoes, I would professionally shut it down.

(Or let him know that you want to focus on the work for now, and if he's still interested after your internship is done, then you'll give him your number. I wouldn't give him your number before that point, even if he asks. Keep your work channels at work: through email, Slack, Skype, Microsoft Teams, what have you.)

Why? Because while he may seem charming, attractive, nice, etc., unfortunately, you never know someone's true intentions. The work/romance boundaries could blur very quickly.

And in this situation, he holds all the cards: he's more established in the company, he has authority over you in the workplace, he's probably more experienced in corporate bullshit, he's much older than you, (and he's a man 🙃).

Were the relationship to be exposed (I'm not sure what dating policies are at this company), he could even use that power to cover his own ass and throw you under the bus. Or, I hate to say it, even to try and manipulate you.

As I said, if I was in your shoes, I would take this internship opportunity to learn as much as I can about my desired career! Be friendly, but professional with this guy. Count to ten in your mind when you see him. Call him a "basic bitch" in your head. Whatever you need to do to just treat him like you'd treat anyone else. 😂

And if he hits you up after the internship is done in December, feel free to let him buy you dinner. 😘

(Thus ends my unlicensed dating advice. ❤️❤️)

#ask me stuff #I hope this helps hun! #relationship advice #internships and work babes #real life stuff #zepskies answers

[princessmia-tarot]

hi, i'm k! may i please receive a reading from you? i have already completed all the requirements for my internship application. however, i am still processing the memorandum of agreement between the company and the uni. the processing is slow moving, and i am getting anxious because it may delay my internship start date. i should be starting next week but with this state, i think it is impossible. i want to ask will i be able to start my internship perhaps the 2nd week of this month? thank you sm! 🌞

Hello K! 🌞

Of course, I can provide you with a reading regarding your internship start date using the 4 of Cups reversed:

Internship Start Date (4 of Cups Reversed):

The 4 of Cups reversed suggests that there may be a shift in your perspective and a potential opening for positive change. Let's see what it indicates about your internship start date:

New Opportunities: The reversal of this card often indicates that you'll be presented with new opportunities or options that you might not have initially considered. This could pertain to your internship situation.

Increased Flexibility: You might find that there's more flexibility in the timeline than you initially thought. The delays you're experiencing could potentially be resolved or expedited.

Reevaluation: This card encourages you to reevaluate your expectations and how you're approaching the situation. Is there any action you can take to expedite the processing of the memorandum of agreement?

Positive Outlook: The reversed 4 of Cups also suggests a more positive outlook and willingness to consider alternative solutions. Keep an open mind, and explore different avenues to make your internship start date work.

Patience and Adaptability: While it's uncertain whether you'll start your internship in the second week of this month, the card reminds you to practice patience and adaptability during this process.

Communication: Consider reaching out to your university or the company to inquire about the progress of the memorandum of agreement. Clear communication can sometimes help speed up bureaucratic processes.

Backup Plan: It might also be a good idea to have a backup plan in case the start date is further delayed. This way, you can ensure you're making the most of your time.

While the card doesn't provide a definitive answer, it does suggest that there's room for flexibility and adaptation in this situation. Stay proactive, communicate effectively, and be open to alternative possibilities. Your willingness to adapt may play a role in determining the final outcome. Wishing you the best of luck with your internship journey! 🌟📅👔

xx

Mia💗

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[tamaradoubraomonibeke]

Independent research

“I find it really insulting when people expect me to work for free” – Otegha Uwagba lays bare the inequities of the creative industry.

On it’s nice that, I came across Otegha Uwagba, a Nigerian female author. She studied at Oxford, faced many shortcomings e.g racism, classism and misogyny. In her statement, she talks about how all that contributed in her deciding to create her own path (a podcast and creative platform for women). There were two issues I noted in what she stated.

- The lack of privilege.

- The expectation to do her job for free.

My opinion.

Lack of privilege

I will first discuss about the lack of privilege. She spoke about interviews and how she was told it’d be like a ‘family’, only to be treated anything but not. It could be believed that the pandemic worsened things for black creatives. There are less scholarships and internships given by agencies. As a result, the process of streamlining candidates is more difficult. Many may argue it’s about talent, however, we know tue deep in our hearts, a person’s name already can disqualify them for even being offered a job. Obviously, I don’t have much experiences with industries, however, many black creatives I’ve seen have complained about the inequality. This is why I adore Jessica Walsh, not only does she look out for women but queers and people of color. I haven’t met her in person but the first step to realising you have any form of privilege ( like how I am abled), is acknowledging that just because I don’t witness any form of discrimination against a minority group or I’m not antagonist towards them doesn’t mean anything. Because others will still antagonise minorities.

The expectation to do her job for free

Firsthand, I can say I have experienced this with family. It’s understandable to an extent as they don’t expect too much from me or I have explicitly explained how these things take time. If good quality is what they seek. That’s not the annoying part, the annoying part is when non-creatives claim how design is easy. Sometimes, because I am an illustrator, there is this belief how easy it is. I’m speaking for my visual communication and any design course, we have to strategise. Realising design is everywhere (sometimes not great), and how much thought goes into these rules annoys me. This is why my main aim as a creative (aside from financial gain), is to make non-creatives understand more. Everyone moves too fast in this world that they don’t appreciate works or, give any thought to it. I can sadly say, we are all victims to it but I try more to always look outside instead to my phone. There’s also the notion design can be self-taught ( well technically, in this course, our studies are carried out on our own). I believe it’s one of the re-occurring problems setting design back. Design is always everywhere and since there are many, sometimes we end up doing work for free in desperation. Otegha spoke about how doing free internship wasn’t a choice for her due to finances. That’s the same for me. I cannot do a free internship, not because I’m a poor, it’s another financial burden especially in summer, paying for living cost when I could be at home. Also, I started learning Adobe when I came to uni, so it was all new to me and I can’t spend anytime on an unpaid venture. My way to curb the design is controversial. Thus, that’s where I end for the end.

Author: Jenny Brewer

8 July 2021.

Accessed: Saturday 8 April

#visual communication #opinion #news #creative industry #publication #book

[weraceasone]

Hi :)

If this is too personal please feel free to ignore.

Can i ask how did you know it was the right decision to drop out?

I've been thinking about it, i'm absolutely miserable at school and i know that's not the career i want but what if there's nothing better? but on the other hand i don't think things can get much worse tbh

Thank you and hope you are well <3

hi anon🫶🏼, don’t worry it’s not too personal!!

personally for me, it was a decision that took a long, long time. the first time I thought about dropping out was back in october 2021 (during my second year) when I realized the subjects we were studying actually didn't interest me at all. I pushed it away at the time, out of fear of the opinions of others and because I didn't really know what else to do.

so, I went on and on and on, and like you mentioned, it just made me absolutely miserable. the subjects didn't interest me, I had no motivation whatsoever to do my assignments and I knew in my heart that this wasn't what I was supposed to be doing. but I persevered because I've always put the opinions of others above mine. I thought this was what I was supposed to do: go to uni, get a degree and all that kind of stuff. I also felt bad about the fact that I had already made it this far, so I told myself to just finish it.

then in my third year, I had to do an internship. so I applied for internships, got accepted at one and told myself I had to do this. the internship started in february, but I already started having physical symptoms back in december. I started having a lot of panic attacks, was constantly walking around with headaches and stomach aches, was always nauseous and just could.not.stop.crying. seriously, I cried every single day. it honestly made me depressed. but I still moved on, cause I was scared of the consequences of dropping out. so I started the internship and it was the absolute worst time of my life. the people were incredibly nice, but I just hated it. I hated the 9-5 lifestyle and the work and I hated feeling isolated working in an office all day, it just made me absolutely miserable. so after feeling incredibly depressed and crying my eyes out for two months straight, last week I quit and dropped out.

I know I joke around a lot on tumblr about being a uni dropout, but it has honestly been the hardest decision of my life and the hardest time of my life. but I know in my heart that I made the right decision, because I automatically felt a million times better when I made it. I want to start living my life for myself and not care so much about the opinions of others. and I know in my heart that getting a degree and working in an office is not the right choice for me, even though that may be most desirable to a lot of people.

I was just like you, anon. I always worried so, so much about: what if there's nothing better? what if there's nothing I enjoy doing? but I think the answer to that is this: maybe it is okay to just see where life takes me. I am allowed to try whatever I feel like trying and if it doesn't work out, then I'm just going to try something else. I don't need to know the whole roadmap of my life right now, it is enough for me to just know the next step. I have passions and hobbies and I'm a hard working person and everything will work out for me, just because I said so.

I hope everything works out for you, anon. whether you choose to continue with your degree or drop out, I wish you all the best🧡.

#also if anyone is reading this and in uni: getting a degree can also be VERY right for you! go you! #it just wasn’t right for me personally #elle answers #uni dropout diary

[mish-tique]

Hello, it is I, rosiest of them all, Rose 🥺🌹

I thought you were gonna rest after your day yesterday but you wrote for us anyway and thank you so much, and you're still going to have to write fics, but please remember to rest miss missha!!

Also, you bake?? and your author's note is so relatable fr

SPOILERS below the rose line, people!!

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

fuck the pandemic really!! now i'm just living that uni life vicariously through fics

"He and Charles had already danced earlier tonight and now Max is happy to look from a distance." and "But as much as he might hate it, he does want Charles to have a good time, so he joins occasionally." <- maxy really is just there to be the pretty (and brooding) boyfriend, ain't he? When will I have that?! (so tru tho to your earlier statement miss missha, i don't have the time for relationships right now, i need to prepare and be a girlboss first)

"That’s another of those signs for him to actually get himself down there." <- also another reason i'm not having relationships, boys in books and fics, and f1 drivers are much more interesting and prettier and perfect (they've raised the bar too high)

"Max hates the feeling of being surrounded by that crowd, it feels like he’s tiny and nonexistent, about to be drowned in a sea of strangers, but it’s all worth it the moment Charles enters his eyesight." <- aww charlie's his safe harbor

"Pierre might make some annoying noises in the background, but they don’t register properly to Max." <- it's okay pierre, you can bring me with you next time, or yuki, or estie (OR ME, i'm not too old for you yet, and i'm definitely legal) (sorry for that, at least they weren't redacted thoughts this time)

"If he happens to make eye contact with the asshole who still hasn’t left when he looks up, it’s all purely coïncidental." <- when will it be my turn?!?! this ending was perfect

and don't be sorry miss missha!! 💖🍬😢 (read: i'm single and is living through lestappen vicariously)

no really, this was so soft and sweet and i'm aww-ing

roses for you and well wishes again to your family, i hope you don't visit the hospital again in a long long time. also please rest and eat delicious baked goods!!

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

-Rose 🥺🌹

me? rest? what when where? jkjk. I played some monopoly with my family Saturday night which was a lot of fun and im taking like walks three times a day. I'm making the most out of my free days before work starts!

and yeah I bake! I'm mainly making apple pies, pear pies, and carrot-walnutcake these days. My dad helps a bit which is sweet because it's like this father-daughter bonding time.

LET'S GOO

honestly. covid ruined the best years of my life. whelp. can i just blame that for still being single? LMAO

max is there to be armcandy and the knight in shining armor from time to time!!

also you are right. whomst the fuck has time for a relationship when you still have to girlboss.

my books have ruined me for any actual person

"when will it be my turn?!?" <- me every time i give a fic a happy ending

thank youu <33 Honestly, i hadn't been in the hospital in ages after my internship but suddenly i was there for like 14 visits in one month? but yeah that was a stressful time, I'm glad i got everyone together and safe now.

#Rose Anon #🥺🌹 #missha's kinktober #qued

[lifviakaza]

To Deserve Something

"Aku ga masalah di bayar berapa aja. Gapernah mikirin malah, serius."

A friend said that to me today and it reminded me of myself years ago when I was still pursuing my bachelor's. I just thought "It'd be cool if I could work there/here." Next thing I know was that I sent my CV and got an interview and passed the exam then I was in. I remember my first part time job was a teaching job to students' houses. I just followed my two best friends lol My first paycheck was 60.000 IDR hahah Then my second job I got because a friend of mine wanted to take an English course in a place and we were asking the boss/manager about the prices yet he ended up interviewing me in English and asked me Grammar questions which fortunately I could answer correctly (ofc, I was and I am still a grammar freak wkwk)

Then he eventually said this, "Nah, kamu ngapain les lagi? Udah pinter kamu. Jadi asisten saya mau ga? Kebetulan sy memang sdg nyari asisten. Saya gaji 500 ribu sebulan. Gimana?"

Mr. J, almarhum, a smart and casual guy, my first real boss, very adventurous and full of freedom. So yeah, my friend paid on the spot for her course, I got the job😆 I loved this job so so so very much. That was my first time being exposed to Bule, most of them are native speakers of English. My job description was mostly driving the Bules around, feeding them local food, well, talking and assisting them with teaching equipment they needed. I even cleaned the office, like literally sweeping, mopping, all of those. Again, it was fun.

And then at the same time, I was doing my teaching internship in a boarding school and again, I took over some of the "real" teachers classes because she was busy with some other things. Sometimes she asked me to check hundreds of students' tasks and input the grades etc and she'd pay me weekly even though I always said, "But this is my internship, it's not paid." And every time she'd answer, "You've done more than the PPL syllabus."

Next thing, I vaguely remember how it happened but obviously someone offered me a girl's dormitory supervisor job, "You can live here for free, we pay you almost 6 million every 3 months. And the job is simple, just watch the girls in dormitory. Wdys?"

Yeah, I bought a bike and moved to the school the following day. And starting that month, with my 5 part time jobs (manager's assistant at Mr. J's, translation project, private teaching, this dormitory supervisor job + I wrote 2 articles per day for a fresh website at that time) I earned 5-7 million per month and still asked my parents and sister for my monthly allowance, what a bish right? :) I know, I know, you can and must judge me cz seriously, ever since all that, I always think that money is my goal in life. Every day money, money, moneyyyy wkwk. I work so freaking hard to get it, I can spend it on whatever I want (mostly food, food, and food + a bunch of entertainment fees🙃).

That's why after graduating from uni, it was hard for me to find a job with minimum standard pay of 7 million, bcz now, yeah, it's all about money cz apparently your parents and neighbors expect you to be an adult. And an adult, he takes care of himself in all aspects of life including financial one. But nah, I was a fresh graduate who graduated from a C-accredited university in Sumatra, and I expected to be paid that much for this job: teaching. That didn't work out ofc! Wkkw This is Indonesia, most teachers are underpaid! Well, I could've worked in Jakarta, I was offered a bit more of 7 million at that time, but I hate Jakarta, no offence but big  and crowded cities are just not places for me:)

Long story short, I worked in Russia as a CS and definitely was paid even triple of my expectation. When I came back to Indonesia and started to teach English again in a well-known English course, I got not even Monica's standard and the boss said, "that's the rate for Indonesian, in this city, it's considered super high already fyi"

2 years kinda well spent in Lombok, I came back to Russia, same city, same country and here, I'm paid equal to even higher that real native English speakers. Why? Here's what I've been observing: - I don't have any accents, and here, it's more than enough to be considered "international teacher". - I have the knowledge of course lol - But the most important thing is that, all of these 10+ years of teaching, managing, supervising etc, and obviously so so many learnings and making mistakes kinda events, I have been trained to be able to teach in the most fun and communicative way possible. That's why teachers with TEFL, TESOL certification, they are paid higher. Even really really high if you have passed CELTA exam. Well, I have TEFL, it was a piece of cake lol Planning to take CELTA but even to take the exam you've gotta pay seharga umroh paket GOLD😂 So yeah, I need to go umroh first lah. Aamiin😆

So I know, I know how hard it is to be a teacher in Indonesia. "Pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa", that's totally true! It doesn't matter how much we r paid, it won't be able to pay each and every effort we make to educate hundreds even thousands of students. Teachers are the second parents of every group of children, sometimes we are their only home. Coba deh ngajar di pedalaman atau low income districts, you will feel how it is to be a real teacher. You either truly do your best or do nothing at all, because it's difficult. Difficult to explain to the students how important it is for them to pay attention, how essential education is. It's hard to convince the parents not to let their children work and send them to school instead. It's challenging to teach them because most of them don't really know how to behave. It's not comfortable to sleep on the floor and not to be able to see cars every day and so on, many more. So yeah, hats off to these people who dedicate themselves to educate the less fortunate, they are true teachers, may God grant them what they deserve in this life and afterlife.

-Mong

[muffindaddystyles]

Soft dom harry makes subby reader upset subspace?

MEANIE ANGRY H :D BUCKLE UP FELLAS

Y/N's day is been shitty so far. It started with an ache in her lower abdomen from Harry’s morning stiffy bulging against her asscheeks fattening everytime he snuggled into her to hoard her warmth and blankies and to stuff his face in her neck with incoherent blabbering.

She wanted to wake him up with her hand, mouth, hole— anything around his cock and to please him and dull the burny feeling in her tummy -- but -- she had an important workshop at UNI that was must needed to be attended.

The time she managed to knock herself out of her needy and lusty headspace, she was getting late and whirling around the room and closest like a thunderstorm -- burying a snoring Harry under the heaps of clothes and littering the floor with her shoes collection, the kitchen got treated much more worst with maids being not around (she’s used to Harry waking up earlier than her and making her a full course brekkie) after making a laughable ruckus of cabinets all she stuffed her mouth with was a chocolate protein bar.

The stars were still not in her favour. She was grabbing onto her hair until far when she missed the bus (she usually don’t take buses, Harry makes sure the driver drop her off safe and secure) and it started raining leaving Y/N with nothing but a bare head to take all of it as she already left the bus shelter to stop a taxi.

If all of that wasn’t much of a tragedy and humiliating, Y/N slipped the moment she stepped out of the vehicle and on the slippery curbs of the building, she saw her life flashing right infront of her eyes as the papers tucked in her armpit fled everywhere and landed on the rainy mud sadistically along her. It gave her a serious hit in her ankle and completely yanked her hip, still being a stubborn-head she picked herself and went inside despite how many glares the cleaning staff threw her way for bringing the dirt with her feed all over the shiny floors.

She felt bad.

Stupidly bad.

Her workshop teachers were kind enough to accept her late arrival, but her designs for fall got rejected and they’d have been a huge milestone for her to get her dream internship.

Y/N felt awfully, teeny, pathetic and little while slumping into the corner of the bus and holding her breath to refrain from crying these little liquidy bitches out of her eyes.

Reaching back home she was met with pure chaos, bumping into petrified and agitated employs from Harry’s company scurrying out of their main foyer and she could persist but to ask what happened only to be informed in stammers that the staff messed up big and caused a loss of million dollars— making Harry terribly mad and fire people left and right.

It wasn’t a joke at all.

Because once, she steps inside, bag falling from her shoulder as she sighs in exhaustion feeling her muscles stiffening everywhere but one particular spot's hurting wrenchingly— her foggy mind couldn’t figure it out yet. She peeks into Harry’s home office to be met by a very annoyed, aggrieved, furious Harry pacing in his office all whilst with a phone against his ear shouting at someone who was destined to be humiliated today just like her and she pouts gingerly seeing his features skewered tightly into displeasure, the vein that curves along his temple prominent with blood pumping erratically in his body.

His head snaps up at the door’s creak and albeit his eyes softens a little, the kink of brows and the scowl on his lips is still there and he watches her paddle towards him carefully knowing anything at the moment would burst his chimneys out and she wants to be good for her daddy.

“Hi.” She speaks timidly, pout getting more rusty when the greetings not returned and instead he keeps all of his attention on the phone keeping a loose arm around her.

She grumbles, when he gestures down at her to give him a sec and untangles himself from her walking away and huffing and puffing into the phone.

How could he!

She feels so denied and rejected and kicked like it’s done to those affection starved lil puppies.

Her clingy tendencies flying high drunk and wooly. The needy beastie inside her wanting nothing more than take a bath where Harry could cream her back in her favourite berry bubbles, massaging her head and whisper sweet nothings into her ear, then lots and lots of cuddles, maybe he'll be generous enough and let her keep him snug inside her while they watch movie because she had such an awful day.

But, No! He's trying to escape free from her because she’s such a burden for him now.

Her eyes turns glassy, her shoulders slumping sadly and out of nowhere she’s feeling cold and barren as Harry’s voice becomes a wafting fume for her— an indication she has gone under too much.

“Daddy . . .” She stomps behind him, circling his footsteps like a whiny puppy and grapples at his dress shirt gasping sullenly when he swats her dainty hands away and glares down at her in dominance, his tone harsh as he blocks the receiver with his palm and mouths at her with a huff, “Stop being needy fo’ once. I’ve clearly some important issues to care for, Y/N.” Poor Y/N's deathly grip on his shirt loosens sorrowfully and her chin wobbles as she nodded still wanting to be good for him and if it wasn’t enough to give her the biggest heartbreak of the year— he even rolled his eyes at her too grumping under his breath about something how he turned her into a spoiled brat himself.

“Okie. . .” Her voice strangled and small. She shrinks into herself but wasn’t paid any heed from Harry and without another word she leaves him as to be it.

Having a huge breakdown in her room didn’t help at all. A painful headache hitting her like a train as she clumsily strips down, wearing one of his t-shirt heavily drenched in his scent he keeps for her under her pillow anytime she needs it and hides under the blankets with tears still running down her swollen cheeks— slipping into a light slumber from all of weariness and crying.

Once the smoke cleared from Harry’s mind and his capabilities of rational thinking coming back to him, he was reminded of how he denied his baby of his littlest of affection and tenderness when she clearly looked so glum and sad and upset.

He wanted to whip himself in head.

He’s such a twat that he let work come between them.

He curses himself. Making a sprint to his bedroom, knowing he’d find her none other than there and he was right puffing out a disheartened sigh when his eyes falls over his princess buried under all of these layers of blankets, he crawls up towards her carefully not to startle her awake.

Grunting at himself when he finds she’s been crying, he strokes a thumb up her blushy cheeks and her wet lashes, kissing her puffy eyelids and her little sad unhappy pout away.

He frowns. Feeling her feverish and flushed under his hand, “Hey puppy . . .” He thumbs down her throat getting a little fretful when she doesn’t stirs, however she’s such a squirmy little one and he moves the blankets away to let her body cool itself smiling proudly at his shirt swallowing her whole is when she snuggled herself more into her stuffie letting the shirt ride up her thighs and hips exposing a ghastly bruise of red and purples and he frowns not remembering it being there before.

Now. He feels shittier. Wanting to jump of the cliff for being a shitty sadist boyfriend to his only beloved.

“No!” Y/N whimpers loudly, squirming away from his touch as he examines her gently and it sent shockwaves to each of her tissues and lions causing her an undeniable pain.

“Puppy, shh, shh. ‘s just me, making sure if y'okay.” He scrambles closer to her towering her to cradle her face and kiss the tip of her nose—- his face falls drastically and his heart cracks miserly when Y/N pushes him away with a sorrowful mumble not even letting him wipe the drool away from the corner of her mouth as he usually does.

“’M okay . . .” She tries to knuckle the sleepiness away with shivery hands, “No you’re not —...” He’s cut off by her angry pout and her silly efforts to keep as much distance between them as possible, “I don’t need, Daddy . . ‘m big and I could take care of me self.” At her puny waver realization dawns upon Harry and his brows shoots up to his hairline feeling nauseous and terrible for not taking care of his babylove earlier.

He’d have never let her be away from him if he knew she was in her subspace.

“Y/N baby . . . I didn’t mean it, darling —--...” With gentleness he tries to approach her but she wraps her arms around her petite figure in a protective manner, haziness taking best of her and Harry’s chest suffocates into itself, being a dom it’s your responsibility to make your subby feel protected, loved and happy and he even failed at that.

He quickly cups both of her hot cheeks in his nippy palms when she hiccups sadly, a sob threatening to slip out, “Yes you did! You meant it. Said you spoiled me, I don’t want your money, promise! I just want you and y'shooed me away saying Y/N’s too needy . . .” Harry flinches at her words. He never even spared a thought to this negativity that she chooses to be with him for his money because he knows out of all the people she’s the only one who loves him out of the boundaries of status and money.

He realises how stabbing they'd have been to her when she was so sensitive and floaty wanting nothing more, just him.

How deep she has gone if she’s taking her own name in third person.

“’M sorry baby. So sorry. Swear on myself, didn’t mean to hurt my baby, knows tha’ work shouldn’t be an excuse t’ make y'feel unloved—- but those bastards got a tick outta me.” He rambles on frantically. Afraid she’ll think he’s lying and would finally make up her mind to leave him.

“You didn’t?” She asks with so much innocence Harry nearly cries out, “’Course I didn’t! How could I? You could never be needy, Bab. I love you so much and you’re my whole word, forgive me please?”

“You’re forgiven,” She let a small smile flutter up her features, a tinge of gleam in her previous dull eyes brightening the whole room and Harry immediately bunches her up in his lap.

“Can I kiss you?” He asks her, not sure if she still needs space from him and would rather be better without him but she bobs her head shyly and he chuckles softly before touching their lips together into a tender loving kiss and brushes their noses up and down murmuring sweetly coy to her.

“Now, could y'tell daddy how y'got this bruise baby? How did ya get hurt?” He coos, brushing her sweaty hair back and rubs her sweet gland behind her ear delicately, “Oh yeah . . . this, was raining and slipped.” She murmurs, hissing a gasp jolting away when Harry glides his fingers gently down her hip bone and fresh tears springs in her eyes as she buries herself in his chest, “Daddy hurts. . .” . “Oh babypie. Daddy’s g'na take care of his love.” He lays her down gently kissing her forehead when she whines for him to keep on holding her, “’M right here darling. G'na prep us a bath, make my baby alright.” Saying this he quickly disappears inside the washroom and next their room’s sursuring with marble tub filling with warm water, Harry throws in her favourite pink coloured bath bombs and rose essences and throws their towels in the warmer coming back with her as he left her to be, he has decided he’s gonna love on her whole night, “My baby’s the best, ain’t she? She’s my bestest girl.” He coos down at her sweetly and slides his forearms under her knees and back picking her up carefully and brings her to his chest securely.

She closes her eyes, biting down a whimper when Harry dips them in the water some it sloshing down the edges of bathtub and it envelopes them and gives a stingy feeling to her bruise before soothing it down.

He rubs her arms, and circles smoothing patterns on her tummy and kisses her a gallons as she melts in his embrace and he let’s her sink into him more, nibbling and sponging wet ticklish kisses on her neck making her purr and become a puddle of softness in his hold while she takes her time to mumble all the bad events that happened to her and he felt so guilty of not asking her how she’s and how her day went when she came to him, in need of some of his lovin.

“I love you so much, bab.” He suckles her earlobe, toying and plucking her bottom plush lip, “Was prick to me love —.. you deserve all my lovin,” He noses at her jaw, not forgetting it to mark it with his pecks and sloppy bites.

“’S okay daddy, y'had a bad day too.” He’s grateful to have her in his life. She cares about him, maybe more than he does for her and he feels himself lucky for it.

“You want me to help you relax?”

“Can I have you?” Her tone bashfully desperate and coy, Harry meanders their fingers together and kisses her knuckles softly.

Considering her wound still being sore and pulp, having sex would be painful for her and she might not grasp it in her hazy mind but Harry doesn’t want to hurt at all.

He plants a little noisy smooch to her shoulder when she nods, she mews and purrs when Harry glides his palm all the way down her body and cups her pussy digging his palm into her mound and coats his digits with her arousal dipping the pads of his fingers into her entrance, “All this wet f'me?” Palming her tits while whispering sweet nothings into her ear when she gasps and closes up on Harry scratching nails into his bended knees.

“Shh, shh puppy, jus' relax hmm? Feel yourself.” With sputtery inhales she does as he says, soon two of his fingers slips inside her and he strokes her pussy and pulls them out making her all whiny and pushes them back with a squelching noise, fucking her with it smiling and stopping when her thighs parts falls again his’s completely.

“Daddy!” She writhes and whines, trembly hands trying to bring Harry fingers back to her pulsating wetness, “You’re the cutest.” He smiles against her lips giving her cheeks several squishes and pats her head loving to see his adorable princess all flustery for him.

On her demands. He slicks his fingers back inside her and caresses the insides of her thighs while she pants and sinks onto his knuckles blabbering out daddydaddydaddy weepily.

“Cum fo’ me, puppy. Feels good? Yeah? My baby feels nice?” He rasps in her mouth, curving and petting the soft spot inside her pussy and sucks onto her upper lip when she moans and mewls loudly gushing all over his finger and he keeps on fucking her till she’s all sleepy and balmy against his chest.

Harry coaxes her tenderly, smoothing his hands all over her twitchy spots and patches sloppy kisses all over her face that makes her all giggly and shy—- the amount of endorphins spiking high in her system.

“Love you so much, daddy.” She mushes puckering her lips into his throat.

“Love you too, pup.”

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