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ink-asunder · 2 years
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I think going to school was literally the worst thing that's ever happened to me.
#and i have been assaulted on multiple occassions!#i'm writing some school-related scenes in a story and all of them are So Much to just write down and I am having Symptoms of Trauma#idk i think it was the constant disregard and downplaying of my rights as a human. the lack of bodily autonomy because i was a minor.#the relentless bullying from peers who literally called me It and That Thing and threw a fit if they touched me#being humiliated every time I Exhibited Being Human (like going to the bathroom during break or grunting while exhibiting physical Effort)#not to mention the time some kid sh-ed and said I bit him and the entire middle/high student body witnessed against me#when nothing could've physically taken place. and the principal literally told me (at least TRY to make your story believeable)#Not to mention how my family treated my grades. it was standard shit but at the same time. the fact that parents ALLOW the kind of abuse#that goes on in schools is among the most fucked up parts of our culture#parents don't give a shit. and they don't believe you. and They have it worse as adults so why are You complaining about having 6 hrs#of homework a night. and dedicating stupid amounts of time to school. and complying to a schedule that ruins your body#i literally homeschooled because i wasn't physically able to keep up with mainstream school. and homeschool was faster. 4hrs a day tops.#not to mention the teachers who were total creeps and totally assaulted several students. yeah parents believed that one too.#ugh i have ptsd from severe medical trauma (the aforementioned assaults...) but the idea that EVERYONE is going through this school shit#it hurts my soul more than my own traumatic experiences. this isn't okay.#anyway i'm 23 and dropped out of college but for any of you still going to school--please take care of yourselves.#i'm here i hear you and you need better.
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AITA for not caring about/belittling my friend's problems because I feel my problems are way worse?
I am homeless. I live in a car. It majorly sucks, but I can tolerate most days and get through them. My friend is well aware of this fact and I complain about it extremely rarely, as I don't want to be bitching and moaning constantly. And generally, I actually can get through most days and while I'm never truly happy, most days, I'm neutral. That doesn't mean the difficulties magically disappear, however, but I can manage them mostly fine.
However, there is one obstacle that I consider worse than all others and is much, much more difficult to manage, especially the longer it goes on.
Showering. Getting clean. Personal hygiene. However you want to phrase it.
I can scrape by with baby wipes and whores' baths in park bathrooms, but at some point, I can't handle it any more and it genuinely takes a toll on my mental health.
Now on to my friend.
He still lives with his parents (no hate to those who live at home- I'm just pointing this out to illustrate the fact that he doesn't pay rent or bills, other than small ones for himself, like his phone bill) and has no children or responsibilities. He does have a job, but since he has no bills to pay and no kids to support, he always has spending money and doesn't really struggle.
He also constantly complains to me about random shit every day- his job (where he makes double what I make) or his parents (whose house he lives in)
Now, one day, the faucet in his shower was leaking. A plumber came over to fix it and shut off the water while he was repairing the faucet. My friend sent me a text every 10-20 minutes complaining about not being able to shower and having to flush the toilet with a bucket of water.
I told him that I know that sucks, because when I was growing up, our toilet broke and it took the landlord 3 months to send somebody to fix it. And during that time, we had to fill the toilet daily with water. For 3 months. So I understood very well.
Also, my friend has a gym membership that has showers (that he refuses to go to, because the showers are "gross") a rich friend that has multiple houses and gave my friend a spare to one of them, and an uncle who lives right next door who has functioning water facilities. So he very, very easily could've showered. Yet, he complained to me about how hard it is to go so long without a shower.
Oh, how long was it, you may be wondering?
SIX HOURS. 6. Not even a full fucking day.
So I told him all of what I just said. And told him what an entitled dick he was being when he didn't even have to go a full day without showering, meanwhile I hadn't had a real shower in over a month.
So AITA? I mean, it's not really a contest for who has a shittier life, but you have to admit that someone complaining to you about the same things that you're going through, but on a WAY, WAY smaller scale is kind of frustrating.
What are these acronyms?
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bellarkeselection · 8 months
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Giving Second Chances
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Wattpad request from Silverose365 Reader is a trouble teen the state is having trouble with so after multiple failed foster families the state calls John. The reader accidentally messed up on a job and gets called out until Rip makes a different choice than her previous foster family's.
John and Rip followed Sheriff Haskell out into one of the barns on the ranch. The three stops in the entrance seeing someone peaking their head over one of the hay bails. John slowly walked forward trying to not scare the girl off that looked to be a young teenager reminding him of meeting young Rip. “Hey there, kid. I ain’t gonna hurt you. Do you wanna come talk with us?”
“Where’s the girl from?” Rip crossed his arms looking at Sheriff Haskell.
He responded to John’s right hand. “She’s been bounced from foster home to another. She’s got a bad streak of breaking the law. I got a call saying the foster system was sending her to him until she bolted. Thankfully she ended up where they we’re taking her. Bringing her to John.”
Lifting my gaze up to the older cowboy guy wearing a tan cowboy hat I watched him bend down to her level. “Are you going to send me back to foster care….I don’t do good in that place. They all say I’m too old and reckless.” I had been moved around where I just started running away every time they sent me back in the system.
“I ain’t sending ya back. My name is John Dutton, what’s your name darlin’?” The rancher asked me offering his hand and I allowed him to pull me to stand up with him seeing another guy by the sheriff that was dressed in black with dark hair and hard eyes staring at me.
I nervously responded back to him. “Y/n. My name is Y/n, sir…what are doing now?”
“You come work for me.” John said looking at the man calling his name so I could put it with his face before he left us in the barn together. “Rip, you’re gonna teach her the way I did you.”
It had been a few months since that day and this is the longest that I have ever been in compared to my other foster homes. Placing a dark brown hat on my head I slide my brown boots on heading to the Yellowstone barn. Throwing a saddle on Lioyd’s horse I started tying it on until I heard one of the bunkhouse cowboys coming over to me. I believe Walker was his name. “It looks like a a cowgirl doesn’t know how a saddle goes on a horse.”
“What…what did I do?” I panicked beginning to twist the sterups and the back sinch backwards before I ran my hands through my hair.
Walker came over on his horse. “You put the saddle on backwards kid.”
“Crap, crap.” I mumbled under my breath quickly fixing it until John came over to me seeing that I avoided his gaze mumbling to myself unknown that he could hear me. “How could I put the entire saddle on backwards. That was stupid. I should have known that.”
It wasn’t the first the older rancher had seen her be hard on herself after she made some mistakes or didn’t be s quick as what the cowboys had told her to do something. And she would end up beating herself up over failing. John just hoped the girl saw that she was a good hand like he did. Because she was almost the same way when he found Rip years ago.
Walking through the barn I nodded to my boss Rip Wheeler who was walking with his horse when he noticed me. He climbed up on his horse addressing in my direction. “Y/n, got saddle Mr. Dutton’s horse. You’ll be riding it today with us to learn how to ride.”
Running inside the barn I took the reins of the boss’s horse tying the rope on the side of the wooden fence. Tossing the saddle over the horse I quickly tied it together. Putting me foot in the stirrups up Rip called my name. “Woah you think you’re forgetting something kiddo.” Shifting my gaze down to the ground I hadn’t noticed my hat fell off during the process.
“Ah shit…sorry sir.” Snatching it up I placed it on my head quick climbing back on the horse knowing he didn’t like wasting daylight and I always followed his instructions as fast as he said them.
Rip had me following behind him where I griped the reins in my hands bouncing with the horse watching the others herding the cattle in front of us. Normally he was leading the pack but not today. “Go herd up the ones on the side that get loose. You got that?” He kicked his horse to go when I nodded in understanding.
Running down the valley I followed after one cafe that got loose leading it back to the group. Staying close to the group another one got loose where I grabbed my rope throwing it over it head trying to lead it back but it just picked up sped. I screamed when it managed to pull me off my horse and I fell into the dirt. “No, no,…ah fuck!”
“Woah girl, are you alright?” Lioyd came over on his horse holding the reins of mine since it ran off towards him so he brought my horse back over to me.
Holding my right wrist I winced when I tried to bend it a little. “I think I just tweaked my wrist a bit….I thought I roped it the right way.”
“You roped it around the neck when it should have been around the waist so he wouldn’t run on ya. Climb back on your horse and help us finish this out.” Rip responded sternly beside his older friend.
Scurring to my feet I put one foot in the stirrup using my left hand to support most of my weight than my right. I should have done better, sir.” I apologize when Rip glared at me watching me ride off with Lioyd figuring that she meant well.
Once nightfall had come and everyone had their horses up for the night I didn’t come down to the bunkhouse for dinner since I was staying in the spare room of Rip and Beth’s house. Brushing my hair away from my face I had banded my wrist as best as I could and put everything I had in the duffel bag foster care had given to me. I just needed to wait until everyone went to bed to run rather then wait till morning already knowing what would happen. I had messed up way more than someone my age should. “I’m too old to get adopted….I will be better off just waiting until I’m eighteen. Only two more years left being someone else’s problem..”
“When I said don’t think you deserve this. I meant it literally but I didn’t you’d run from it.” Whipping my head around I gasped through tears seeing Rip was leaning in the doorway of my bedroom.
Croaking through tears I scooted up against the pillow and headband avoiding his gaze. “How did you know I’d be here?”
“Cause you didn’t come down for dinner and you ain’t missed a meal since the day you came here. You want to tell me what’s going on with you?” He presses on with his tone being both stern but went softer when he could hear me lightly crying in front of him.
Hugging my knees to my chest I buried my face into them sobbing even more when I struggle to get the words out already sensing what he was going to say next. “I’m a screw up here, Mr. Wheeler. I can’t do half the jobs you give me right…I don’t have great confidence even when I put in as much effort as I can. You see me exactly like everyone else does…a reckless teenager who won’t make it any longer in getting adopted. Cause I don’t follow directions good….so you’re done with me. You’re going to send me back tomorrow.”
“Where the hell did you get an idea like that, sweetheart?” He blurted out raising his voice in shock.
Peaking over my knees with my hair in my eyes I whispered back to him. “That’s what every family I have been with does. Why would you be any different to me?”
“Because you are the hardest working foster kid I have seen. You’ve got good manners and put in almost more effort than any of those bunkhouse boys do. And you ain’t any reckless than most teenagers are.” He came over and sat beside me on the bed removing his black hat when he went to take something out of his jacket. He unfolded a paper and handed it to me. “You are a darn good kid, Y/n. I am hoping to help you improve your confidence in time being here.”
Scanning my eyes over the paper in my small hands I couldn’t hardly believe it. “You want to adopt me..but I….thank you Rip.” Flinging my arms around his neck he was taken back not used to seeing me giving any kind of emotion like this.
“You’re welcome, darling. But promise you will still work as hard as you would if you weren’t gonna be my kid.” He hugged me briefly until he made me look in his eyes when he barely broke the embrace.
Nodding through happy tears I grinned up at the cowboy and lead hand of John Dutton. “Don’t worry I will..uh dad.”
Footsteps came down the hallway where we both glanced over over shoulders noticing that it was his wife. “You better call me mom and come eat this hamburger helper otherwise you’ll face the bear.”
“Yes ma’am.” I jumped off his lap rushing down the hallway making it to the kitchen table almost shoving food into my mouth overjoyed to actually have a place to call home.
Beth smiled at her husband when he stood by her in the hallway watching you. “She’s our kid now, baby.”
“She’s our second change at one and I gotta say she’s a pretty good one.” He responded looping his hand with hers giving her a gentle and the pair joined you at the dinner table.
Comments really appreciated ❤️
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frownyalfred · 9 months
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*busts down your doors* HEY! Long ask for ya
okay so I was rereading your fic where EMS showed up because Dick couldn’t flip on the trampoline (rip) and it got me thinking about routine trauma.
So here’s the thing: I am not EMS. I know three people who are EMS, but my extent of EMS experience comes from one (1) ride along and lurking on EMS subreddits. Those guys are a hoot. Great memes. Anyways.
A comment stuck out to me: “You haven’t truly lived the job until you’re eating a gas station burrito next to a dead body”. I’ve seen a bunch like that. Nonchalance and dark humor because well, that’s their job. Gore is the norm. Sure, depending on the area, your usual calls might just be lift assists, but other areas are neck deep in gang violence and violent crime.
A pretty common post on that subreddit is also, sadly, “I just got a call that’s never bothered me before but all of a sudden I’m broken” or “I’ve never had a problem running this type of call before but all of a sudden it just hit me.” Delayed trauma is a bitch. Someone pointed out that if a civilian saw a fatal car accident with multiple corpses, they’d be in therapy and given support and it’d be a huge deal. With EMS, they’re just expected to deal with it. (EMS mental health is getting better- there are helplines and resources and first responder focused therapies- but it’s still a developing field)
ANYWAYS, now that I’ve given you a crash course on the EMS mental health crisis (someone should really write a feature on EMS in Gotham those fuckers would be crazy and I love them already), my point is, how would this apply to the bats? Seeing bodies is treated as very much the norm to them, but do you think it ever just… catches up? The impact of seeing corpses day after day? Do you think they have to fake being fine and tough during those times because well, “everybody else in the family is fine with it, I’m not going to be a liability/burden/weak/etc”
Do you think Bruce, the goddamn batman, who shouldn’t be ruffled by anything, ever just feels something crack inside when he looks at a little boy who could have grown up healthy and strong like his Jason, had (Bruce) someone been there for him? and then he can’t work cases with kids for a week?
This is such an excellent ask, thank you so much for gracing my inbox with it!
It's a very good question. I'm also on a lot of those subreddits (needed to do some research for that fic) and the discussion in those forums and on TikTok is like you described, a kind of practiced desensitization to all gore and suffering in order to survive in their job.
What I've seen from those discussions (and my EMT friend) is an almost sub-conscious trend where they allow themselves the "thing" that breaks them, and they push a lot of that trauma and emotion onto that thing. Like an EMT saying they don't do kids, or they don't do gunshots to the eye, etc. And they'll sob like a baby on those calls, while remaining stone-faced and level-headed through the triple homicide.
I'm just theorizing here, but I imagine the Batfamily uses similar coping skills -- pushing all that trauma and suffering into a box which cracks only under limited, defined circumstances. And they break or snap only under those conditions, because, subconsciously, they allowed themselves to.
So yes, Bruce might be 99% fine with most of the bodies he sees, but there might be a little boy who has a detail (like Jason's dark hair) that just slams into him out of nowhere.
PTSD and trauma literally change the structure of the brain. Individuals react differently to trauma after that, but there does appear to be a "desensitizing" effect with repeated trauma, as the body tries to compensate.
I agree that the Gotham EMTs must be some crazy motherfuckers. They probably deal with 6x the normal shit EMTs deal with in other cities. They probably take on a lot more trauma and burn out quicker than other EMTs, too.
Anyone else have thoughts on this? I admit I don't cover PTSD explicitly in a lot of my fics.
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holdmyhand · 1 year
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Could you do one for gaz being a dad? (Sorry my English isn’t very good)
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick being a Dad HCs
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**Warnings**: Fem!Reader, pregnancy and birth, mention of a weapon, fluff!, actual fluff with no porn this time, suggestive theme mentioned two times, brief mention of alcohol. 
This is short and sweet. Hope you don’t mind OP!! I put just as much love into this one as I do all the others.
And I love your mind OP. Gaz as a dad??? Yes!!!
The Gaz!Dad content is lacking and thank you for asking me to feed it 🥰 .
I'll be honest though. I really had to wrack my brain for ideas.
Gaz doesn't strike me as a dad type right away BUT. The only reason I think this is that Gaz is a young man, committed to his career and likes not having a whole bunch of strings attached.
This changes one night.
Task Force 141 is taking shelter in a safe house during an operation. It's storming outside. The thick humidity that hovers over Columbia threatens to choke its residents and lays heavy on your skin. Warm, heavy rain pounds against the sheet metal roof-- thunder rumbles ominously in the distance. Cheap plastic fans are placed around the safe house, the dull creaking of the fan blades is the only noise inside. The boys are long exhausted from running-- escaping a failed intel operation. A fake tip from a mole that lead them directly into a trap.
They're spread around the main room in their own spaces. Ghost is sitting on his cot, absent-mindedly cleaning his 9mm with a blank stare-- familiarity controlling his hands at this point. Price is lying on his back in a cot, his beige bucket hat placed over his face-- blocking out the murky yellow light illuminating from a bulb that hangs on a chain in the center of the room. Soap passed out a while ago. He'd taken a few hits and was exhausted after getting patched up.
Gaz is lying on his cot looking through photos-- photos of you. Whenever Gaz is at home on leave, he keeps a disposable camera on him. 'Just in case' he always says as he stuffs it into a jacket pocket. Some of the pictures are important happenings: vacations, you two at sporting events, etc. But most of the photos are mostly of you doing mundane things. Lounging on the couch, folding laundry, reading a book. Gaz loves these photos the most, little memories memorialized in the ink and photo paper. Gaz loves doing nothing with you.
His phone buzzes softly next to him-- pressed against his side from where it slid into the cot earlier. Gaz tucks the photos back into his billfold and grabs his phone.
A message from you. He furrows his brows in concern because you typically don't text him during an operation-- it's a photo. He taps on the image multiple times to download but it's taking too long-- he starts to text you back.
The image is downloaded. It's...a thermometer? He's having trouble figuring out what is in the photo and why you--
It hits him. As soon as he sees 'positive' and the two pink lines the breath is knocked from his chest. His heart is beating faster as he jerks up right into a sitting position, clutching his phone with shaky hands as he texts back.
"You're pregnant?"
Babe💕 is typing....
"Yes! You're gonna be a dad <3"
There's tears in his eyes and he's laughing. He doesn't realize he's laughing until the rest of the task force is staring at him curiously. Soap is startled awake as well. Price breaks the silence. "Why ya laughing, son?"
Gaz can't believe the words that fall from his lips. "I'm going to be a dad." 
It's like a second wind of energy flows through the room. The boys are congratulating him, patting him on the back and generally chatting back and forth. Soap brings over a bottle of Irish whiskey he'd found earlier in the kitchen-- a safe house necessity. They pass the bottle back and forth while telling stories about friends or relatives they know who had kids. It's a much needed win after a shit day.
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Gaz is upset he can't leave now and come home to you. It's not safe to leave. Communication is limited and he doesn't hear from you due to this. It pains him to know you're at home carrying his child and he's not there to support you. It breaks his heart.
You're two months along when he finally comes home. He's been anxious since they were released for leave, excited to see you and meet his unborn child. During the plane ride he was bouncing his leg so much that Soap would initiate conversations with Gaz to calm him. Gaz is clicking a pen in the taxi cab home-- one he accidentally stole from the airport when he signed a receipt. Gaz is damn near bursting through the front door of your house to see you.
You see the cab pull onto the street, stopping in front of your shared house. By the time you get up from the couch and unlock the door, Gaz is already there lifting you into his strong arms. You squeal as he carries you inside the house, clutching onto you with an iron grip. You can feel his grin pressed against your stomach.
He's lowering you gently to the wooden floor--when you meet his eyes you can't help but mirror that infectious smile of his. You break the silence-- words that will forever reverberate inside his head like church bells.
"We're going to be parents."
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If y'all aren't married yet, you can bet he's proposing a few days later when he takes you out to an intimate dinner.
Gaz is GREAT at researching baby things. He's got a planner that's packed full of important dates and notes. When each trimester is supposed to happen, when can you feel the baby start to move, doctors appointments, even your food cravings you had that day: he's got EVERYTHING written down.
When he researches though, he always shows it to you and asks if it's legit. So just expect him to come to you with a LOT of questions, he just wants to make sure he's getting everything right and there's no misinformation. Even if you don’t know the answer to his question, because this is your first pregnancy as well, you’ll research it to so you can confirm for him. Please be patient with him. He just wants to learn everything so he can prep accordingly.
Gaz is buying everything that you'll need-- but way before you need it. He's buying toys and toddler clothing and you're standing with him in Target going 'sweetie we don't even know the gender yet????'. It's precious how excited he is though so you let him get away with it. 100% buys the baby an England football jersey. Just accept it now.
Gaz loves doting on you and taking care of your wants and needs. He loves the feeling of being needed by someone. This man is PREPPED. Need a water? BAM. Already in his hand. Those authentic cannolis from that niche Italian store 7 blocks away? Give him five minutes he'll bring home a whole pan of cannolis plus some extras to put in the fridge.
He loves seeing you pregnant. It wounds him a bit when he sees you struggling with something, crouching, generally moving. He's like 'oh my poor baby :'( ' but he's also 'I did that to her >:) '. Loves rubbing your stomach when he gets the chance, running his fingers along the protruding skin, tracing the stretch marks with adoration. Gaz gets pretty touchy-feely when you're pregnant-- which isn't really out of the ordinary but before you were pregnant, there were times where the two of you respect each other's spaces and may just sit on either side of the couch. Once you're pregnant though, he's always got a hand on you. Never lets you out of his sight.
When your water breaks this man PANICS. He's a trained soldier, he works under pressure all the time but seeing you in such pain has his adrenaline sky rocketing. The go-bags are already in the car, they have been since you hit your third trimester. Gaz carries you to the car with zero hesitation. One second you're leaned against a wall clutching at your stomach, the next you're pressed into Gaz's chest as he carries you out to the car.
Gaz sits in the delivery room with you for the birth, despite the herculean grip you have on his hand he's kissing your forehead softly and whispering praises in your ear. Gaz has seen some shit in his career. Watching his wife give birth to his child is nothing in comparison-- he's there with you the whole time.
100% cries when the nurses hand him his baby boy. You're tuckered out, napping in the hospital bed, Gaz is gently cradling his son in the chair next to you. Nothing but love and adoration in those dark brown eyes.
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Gaz with his baby is the cutest thing you've ever seen. He's definitely the over-indulgent dad. The one that let's their kid get away with everything. Mostly when they're young and within reasoning of course. Your child could be drawing on the drywall of your living room and Gaz would be like 'He's gonna be an artist one day :)) '.
Gaz is very protective of his baby boy though. He's always got an eye on the kid and never let's them get hurt. He'll do that 'tossing your baby up into the air' thing that dads do but Gaz never actually let's go. Just sorta hoists them into the air and then back against his chest. He started calling minor injuries ‘boo-boos’ when you he heard you call them that. Gaz has definitely said this during an operation by accident and Soap nearly toppled over in laughter.
On more than one occasion you've come home from work or shopping and you'll find Gaz dancing with your son in his arms, bouncing him around and tickling him as music plays from his phone. Gaz will also fall asleep on the couch with your son on his chest-- you have many photos of this. Gaz's collection of photos has quadrupled since the beginning of your pregnancy. He's taken up scrapbooking so he can immortalize the memories. He loves his little family so much. He never thought of himself as a family man before, but now he can't picture himself without you two.
He tears up when he takes his son to the first day of preschool. Without the little guy around what is Gaz supposed to do!!!! Guess he'll just have to make another one with you ;).
Also busts his kid out of school a lot just to spend time with them. Who knew a kid would need so many dentist appointments in a week?? You find out eventually and you have to reprimand Gaz because your child NEEDS to learn but he sits there like :[
Gaz just loves his kid and would do anything for them. He'd go to the ends of the earth for both of you.
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gz-missfit · 7 months
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So....Tazercraft again huh? /aff
I could go on for a bit about how Pac e Mike behaved during that kidnapping, how much their reactions spoke volumes about their trauma and how fucking good these 2 are at breaking people's hearts while teasing at this situation multiple times during the stream (also having heard some of their voice acting of a lot older videos just how fucking good Pac has gotten at acting like Jesus christ my heart). But I feel like a good amount of posts in the tags have summed up everything I would've wanted to say amazingly and I definitely recommend scrolling through them.
I wanna talk about something else tho. Richas. Moreso his relationship with Pac.
Richas has said before that Pac e Mike are his chill dads, the ones that have always let him get away with shit or encouraged his shenanigans but he still has always carried different relationships with each of them individually. He's a bit more distant from Mike due to the time where Mike isolated himself away from Richas in the fear of Richas loosing his last life because of him. Richas knows Mike is dangerous, he knows Mike's a bit unhinged and I'd like to think that unhinged almost destructive chaos is what Richas got from Mike. (Taking for example yesterday when he warned Bad that Mike is the one that can kill him) Richas knows Mike is smart and even tho he doesn't have the knowledge to talk with Mike about it he still relishes in the chaos his Dad Mike's ideas bring.
Now Richas relationship with Pac is what peaked my attention yesterday though and it showed me just how much of his emotional personality he got from Pac.
Starting with the obvious it's that Richas isn't often seen sad, he's not seen as a sad egg but rather a mischievous ball of positive social energy and that's how Pac is seen by anyone aside from Mike and nowadays Fit. Everyone sees Pac as this emotional ball of sunshine who's always happy if a little anxious, but both he and Richas hold their actual emotions close. They're rocks for others before they are people who let their own emotions out. Pac having always been the emotional rock for Mike while Richas has always been one for all his parents. It's fascinating to see how genuinely similar they are with this.
Which is why yesterday when Pac told Richas what had happened I feel like was the first time we saw Richas react to the news that one of his dad's got kidnapped again. Obviously he's bound to Crack at some point, he's a kid after all. But to have Richas be this clear about his emotional body language and distress is rare in terms of kidnapping. Seeing him physically recoil, frantically and in disbelief shake his head stung so much cause it's the first time we've seen Richas react this strongly to something like this infront of one of his parents. And I feel like it's because he has that more emotional relationship with Pac.
He let's himself be this openly emotionally vulnerable with Pac because he knows how Pac is. It's like how you have that one person you're not bothered to cry infront of because you know how they are when emotional and they know how you are. They're both people who are painfully aware of how many emotional burden they carry of other's just by being themselves and I feel like a big part of Richas view of Pac comes from that too! (Him saying to Bad that Pac is the most precious Brazilian and that Bad should be careful what he does to him) Richas knows how important Pacs emotional stability is to the people around him and how I feel like he himself takes after Pac a lot in just constantly pushing through things. Because that's what's Pac always done and Richas had to learn this from someone after all.
That's why the way that stream ended hurt me so much more, Richas coping mechanism after deep emotional trauma is just wanting to sleep. Pac actively said he wanted to do nothing but sleep now and Richas KNEW what that implied, he himself knows best what that out of Pacs mouth means because I'd like to think that that's what he learnt in the early days of the favela 5. That's how he learnt to deal with emotions because Pac had always been the one to be so open with his own to Richas. It's why Richas didn't stop him. It's why Richas just helped him get to his room and sat at his side while he played a melody in hopes that he'd ease some of the emotional pain his dad currently carried. Richas still ended up being the emotional rock in this, but his behavior with Pac was so much more emotionally charged yesterday. He was so much more vulnerable himself because he is so much more similar to Pac and actually seeing it this obvious was almost painful.
Richas and Pac are used to dealing with their emotions on their own so for Richas seeing Pac break this openly infront of him was distressing because he knows how much it takes for someone, who buries distress deep down so he can carry the weight of others peoples feelings, to break this upfront. To dump all his emotional pain onto someone and I feel like Richas was for the first time openly struggling to be a emotional rock until he gathered his bearings.
And I'd like to think that he slept alongside Pac for the same reasons yesterday, hoping that the dreams would take any tears away that were so close to falling while he was awake.
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archivalofsins · 7 months
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Gunsli as a Mikoto enjoyer you must be losing your shit now that his second trial is drawing closer and closer! You're going to avidly defend him, right?
Meanwhile
Me *carrying a large stick around the panopticon*: FUTA, MU I JUST WANT TO TALK COME OUT! GET THE FUCK OUT HERE!
Futa & Mu: We're not on trial anymore-
Me: The phones...
Them: Huh?
Me: WHOSE FUCKING PHONES ARE THESE?!
Them: ?!
Me:
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Well?! Any answers?
Mu: You already did this with me during my trial?!
Yeah, it wasn't really about you it was just for the bit-
So, huh Futa?! Huh whose phone, is it?! Because I know this isn't your phone for several reasons!
So, let's run this down from the beginning-
Question 1
Which cellphone is Futa's?
Sorry, to disappoint but in the battle between iPhone and Android Futa is firmly on the side of Android.
This is made abundantly clear by the fact that unlike Yuno who owns wireless earbuds, Futa's owns wired ones. Something not supported on Apple devices since 2016.
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So, why did someone who owns an android phone have what appears to be an Apple charger plugged into his laptop near that flash drive? Well chances are he hooked up that iPhone to his computer to get some information off the phone, erase that information, then move it from his laptop to that flash drive.
We also know this iPhone isn't Futa's because he displays the UI of his actual phone while looking through the color inverted version of twitter-
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At which point we can see his UI is completely different from the phone we see breaking at the end of Bring It On.
Futa's phone is also put on full display at the beginning of Bring It On and in other instances showing multiple physical discrepancies between it and the phone that breaks at the end.
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From camera placement to general make of the phone and the brightness on the red of the phone case. All things that have remained consistent over the course of Milgram. Making it more apparent which phone is his.
Question two,
Why would Futa take someone else's phone and what information could he need?
He states what he needs and what he's using the phone for at the beginning of Bring It On,
"Found one…! Countdown till I make you say sorry. Let’s go! A victory march! Dan-Da-Dan. Eat this! Don’t act like you have no idea! We won’t forgive you. You’re the crazy one! Ban-Ba-Bang." - "All evil hypocrites should disappear. I won’t stop until you say “sorry”. Now let’s begin to hunt down the liars."
He's using it to get information on the people involved in the incident and track them down.
The rest of the members of the party he was working with for a time. That ended up putting all the blame for that incident on him. This is probably why he's not hanging out with them when he goes to the arcade and is instead watching from a distance.
Using the situation to get rid of two people at once since the hat girl was possibly involved with the group as well hence the line,
"Flames closing in, are both sides losers?"
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"Fuck it! You won’t be forgiven; it was stupid licking each other’s wounds." - "You can’t escape, how do you like the taste of punishment." - "You gotta be kidding, I’m an undead hero!"
I've already speculated that Futa's murder was the result of him reacting to the outcome of the hat girl situation and that Futa and this other victim were a part of the same group before.
(I have made way too many posts on Futa: X, X, X, X, X, X, X and many more. Back to the topic at hand though.)
However, the hat girl could have been uninvolved with the group as well. Yet, taking into consideration the very targeted and extreme harassment the group is depicted doing in Backdraft while Futa is looking on in shock and terror I think it's hard for me to not consider this being personal in some way.
That display perfectly calls back to these lines of Futa's in Bring It On,
"I won’t stop until you say “sorry”." - "Now, let’s be reasonable. We are the ones that blow the horn for justice. We will punish you down, this is a warning."
Futa has made it abundantly clear he only does this until the other party apologizes or backs down. Something the hat girl was already doing while the others continued to attack her anyway.
In Backdraft, Futa also spray paints the ones who did this in black as they were doing it. Then we see their tags on the image of the victims have been spray painted over on the wall with black as well once it cuts to the girl.
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Black is used as the color to highlight the words on Futa's second trial CD as well,
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I believe this color is being used to highlight Futa's version of justice. Just as he says in the voice drama that Es and him are no different, both simply stating that something was bad and things going out of control.
Adding to this Es (and the audiences) judgement of Futa is represented with the same color at the end. As if visually stating the judgement the audience gave to Futa should actually be given to these people instead and reiterating the little difference Futa sees between what he did and what Es and the audience is doing now.
Backdraft even going as far as to have the eyes behind Es be the same color as the spray paint, the people in the group are portrayed using to harass that girl. Making it seem as though by punishing Futa we're supporting the people who did this instead of the other way around.
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This makes Futa's question of,
"Should I succumb, make your wish come true?"
Come off as though he's not only speaking about Milgram (Es, and the audience), but the others involved in the harassment of that girl who may have begun doing the same to Futa hoping he'd react in a similar way to their previous victim.
Something alluded to through this image and messages at the end of Bring It On.
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QRT Storm Pazuzu (=Futa)            I think I’ve got all her details now. Based on her previous tweets I’ve worked out her school. The fact she lives so close is hilarious lol Judgement☨Onizuka You’re the worst offender of all.
"Full of yourselves, are you?" - "Bye bye idiots and devils with the faces of angels." - "You gotta be kidding! I’m the real hero!" - "You gotta be kidding, I’m an undead hero!" - "You’re the crazy one! Ban-Ba-Bang!"
Also we see in Bring It On through Futa's inverted colored phone screen that his icon looks like blue fire or mirrors JudgementOnizuka's normal colored one and vice versa. Implying some sort of connection between the two of them.
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It's also telling that Futa is represented by fire and Onizuka water especially given the repeated line of,
"Can't douse this fire."
Within Backdraft.
The lyrics,
"Don’t get cocky, you in that cypher!"- "Holler-holler from safety, so worthless."
These lines can not only refer to the audience or Es but the people he used to hang out with or individuals getting overzealous/too confident with their harassment online. Something the group he used to be in did.
Backdraft also shows off Futa's willingness to just fight head-to-head about it through the line.
"The fight’s up here! Come up to the ring and face me!"
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"You won’t be forgiven, a coward, never!"
Question 3
How did he get the phone? Whose is it?
"Are both sides losers?" - "The fact she lives so close is hilarious lol."
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It's more than likely the hat girl's phone. Just like the phone we see get smashed in After Pain appears to have belonged to Mu's victim and former friend. Once again, making this another way Futa and Mu parallel each other and why they were paired up.
If the hat girl were also in the group or followers of these people before she began getting harassed, Futa would have an easier time looking over, keeping up with, and figuring out who was responsible for the harassment. That is if he did get her phone after she died.
It would also be similar to how Mu's victim seems to have been involved with Mu or the friend group Mu was in before she passed away as well. However, the phone could belong to Futa's actual victim then when we see it falling to the ground and breaking in Bring It On could be during the altercation portrayed in Undercover.
One thing is for sure Futa and Mu both use breaking phones as imagery for silencing others-
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That and they both have a very firm grasp of framing.
Futa would still be able to look over old interactions he was in from his own phone. So, like with Mu in After Pain and It's Not My Fault there may be some playing around with time. In fact, I think there may be playing around with time present in all the prisoner's music videos that becomes more overt depending on the prisoner's personality.
In Futa's case, this is probably why the interactions on his own phone have those inverted colors while the interactions on the one we see break later does not. This coloring choice could denote that these interactions happened before what we are witnessing now. You know how flash backs are usually put in grey or muted colors.
Just as it's implied through After Pain that the messages on Mu's phone happened before her bullying. Futa just goes about displaying this in a vaguer manner.
There are also these things from Bring It On as well that I covered elsewhere before, but I believe it was in reply to someone else's post or something because I can't find it in my archive.
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These read,
WARNING [FUTA'S TWITTER ICON] "CONGRATULATIONS [REDACTED]! YOU BROUGHT JUSTICE TO THE WORLD!!! CONGRATULATIONS [REDACTED]? YOU BROUGHT JUSTICE TO THE WORLD???" WARNING [FUTA'S TWITTER ICON] CONGRATULATIONS [REDACTED] YOU BROUGHT [REDACTED] TO THE WORLD!!! CONGRATULATIONS [REDACTED]? YOUR BROUGHT [REDACTED] TO THE WORLD???
I also mentioned this before with this but again can't find it but on the map during the final fight we can see Futa's indicator moving away while appearing to spawn back in.
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Also the D in world is styled after his twitter icon-
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And at the beginning of Bring It On his phone switches between the Bring It On screen and his twitter feed each time the video glitches before he heads out-
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So, yeah- Some credit for all the work Futa did trial one trying to cover up the truth is long overdue.
Whelp that's it. Fuck you Futa for pulling one over on me though really thought that was his phone he dropped.
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genericpuff · 23 days
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in reference to the have you read LO poll by god have I tried but god. God...
A vicious cycle. I go okay I really do need to plow through more of it if I'm gonna hang around the ULO reddit, and then I step on the comically placed rake. I can't do a complete skip thing bc I'll be too disorientated on where I'm at in the plot but my brain only tolerates it up until she declares she's missing her dick appointment and like, girl. Please. You committed mass murder (if not genocide) and this is a slap on the wrist considering, let alone that your moms got the worse end of the deal.
Why it's that specific moment idk but the bottom just drops out for me and it's soooo fucking stupid because like, she couldn't have just... bitched about being stuck with hard labor? That's the bitchy shit I'd sort of expect from a privileged nepo baby and even barring the twue wuv story going on it's her actual biggest issue going on right then. What she's presently living out. But yeah no, horny, we gotta establish that she's horny. Okay.
Sorry about the borderline vent over it there's just enough really interesting thoughts mixed up in the pile of flaming garbage to make one go rabid if they stew on it, and you clearly get that given the rewrite. Have a good day.
omg i've had that exact sort of thing happen with me before too tho, not in quite the exact same sense of like, "wanting to take part in a community but struggling to get through the source material it's based on", but there are like, so many webtoons and manga and stories I've tried to read - after being urged to by pals and people who read them - that I've dropped after multiple attempts of trying to read them. And they're not necessarily dumpster fires like LO (though some of them definitely aren't great) it's more like I'm sitting there wondering "when's this gonna get good? when's this gonna be worth all the hype?" Tower of God is the biggest one that comes to mind, I have tried to read that webtoon on SEVERAL occasions and I just can't justify trudging through all those early episodes for it to maybe "get good". And that's not even me saying it's bad, it's just not interesting to me in the slightest. No hate to anyone who likes ToG, I think I've also sorta drifted away from shonen over the years so that's definitely not helping, but I just can't be bothered to try and read that webtoon anymore, I've given it so many attempts and I'm doing lmao Kudos to the creator though because it's a LOT of work to make a webtoon of that length and they should be proud of that.
Back on the topic of LO though, yeah, I was following the comic when that episode was still brand new and it really made us all go 🤨 because of how out-of-pocket it was. And then like an episode (or two?) later she bullied a former classmate of hers from 10 years ago at his job. That was the precedent for Persephone's character that was set for the third season of LO and it's just gotten worse as it's gone on.
Either way, if I'm being honest, you're really not missing much by skipping over the majority of S3 (like, if you made it to the dick appointment episode before giving up then you're already pretty close to the current point in the story). Like I'm not gonna lie, you could easily skip up to the midseason cutoff point because everything leading up to that is just a bunch of nothing. Hades and Persephone get married and it's the most underwhelming scene ever despite it being the moment people had been waiting years for, also they 'adopt' Dionysus but he's barely in the comic except for when Rachel remembers he's a character so you could also get by on minimal details. Oh yeah, and it turns out Demeter had a kid during the 10 year time skip who we see in like two episodes and then proceeds to get fridged forever.
So yeah, as much as I'd recommend people read LO as a sort of "entry ticket" into the crit community surrounding it, S3 is a lot of nothing and you would frankly not miss out on a thing if you skimmed it or skipped the middle portion of it entirely lmao
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bahja-blix · 2 months
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Oliver the Deaf/Mute imp kid controversy
During my break from most platforms due to family issues and me not wanting to indulge myself on most platforms for peace and quiet I pondered something during that time. I wanted to do something fun Regarding lil Oliver who Finally has a name after all the backlash Viv got for NOT naming her Deaf or possibly Mute character...
I wanted to try to crack exactly what Fizz and Oliver said and how accurate it is which will require me to also learn more along the way and it's thanks to the fact that I actually have an official Sign language Dictionary that has real pictures that teaches a reader how to Sign when speaking with your hands, what to Sign, and much more. The book itself was given to me as a gift from a licensed Sign Language and Deaf speaking and assisting teacher who was awesome to talk to. She specializes with Special Needs and other forms of Disabilities in her class such as Autism, ADHD, (Both in which I have but were diagnosed many years apart) or other Disabilities on the spectrum or differing conditions. And I've kept it since then.
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This is Oliver, Olive or Ollie for short. Say Hi :D
He uses Sign Language to speak and is possibly both Deaf and Mute however I'm going off research regarding his condition/disability.
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Here is the book from front to back ^^
As I read and look around at the endless adventure of learning a new Language and cracking what the show Signed it will also further my development of more accurately developing my own characters that are either Mute, Deaf, Or both. Some of them are main characters and either speak fluent Sign Language along with another Language taught via writing which is hard work but can be achieved over time. Some don't speak another language. Some of them are secondary, supporting etc. there's Always a role for them. Kuma is one of them, She's a main character of a series I'm working on. I'll show her later once she's finished in design. She is Both Deaf and Mute and uses a hearing aid to help hear from her Left Ear. She mainly speaks fluent Sign Language via hands or writes what she says. She's fluent in Japanese writing all in which took her years to learn by special teachers. She's treated as a person from thick and thin. Unlike how Viv treats her characters. Kuma originally comes from Tokyo Japan but moved internationally to California for college.
If you have any questions regarding my journey please don't hesitate to ask ❤️🙏
EDIT: I absolutely despise how Vivziepop writes her characters when it comes to "Trying" to represent something. That's why I was inspired to write this! That's why wanted to step in and be entirely goal oriented when representing stuff you can't do Viv. Viv sucks at representation in every way shape and form. From writing harmful stereotypes of All kinds, to misrepresenting the LGBT plus community I've been in for almost a decade, SA, SHrsd, Domestic Abuse victims (I hate to dig up a huge part of my past however... I fall into all those three categories too... Bcus my biological dad... Did unspeakable things to me...), to the way she writes her women vs guy characters in a non equalized way, the way she writes about drug abuse or alcoholics, and not give two shits about their development to the way she literally didn't give a shit about Oliver AND misrepresents the Disabled community that I'm ALSO in and left Oliver nameless UNTIL her audience CALLED HER OUT for that like... What the hell went through your head when you sat at the round table of yours with your team you call "Geniuses" like... Deaf Imp Child????? DEAF FUCKING IMP CHILD???? LoooooL! Stop trying Viv it's over! Your own political party doesn't like your ass no more neither wether traditionalized old school Dems like me or Modernized Americanized Dems. Everyone who saw through your bullshit regardless of who they are or where they lean don't want your shit anymore because you failed everyone around you multiple times for YEARS. I've found out So MANY things about you mate. I actually looked up to you... Lots of us did... And you only get worse from here. Your audience ain't the bigot unless they actively boot lick and kiss your ass. Valid criticism wether Harsh or Not is NOT "hate" lmao 🤣 love how thats your favorite go to word. Maybe come up with something original to call your audience you sack of poorly packaged horse shit, mmk! (Pilot Angel Dust reference btw if you get it)
Off topic but Viv really went Too far >:(
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executethyself35 · 2 months
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Misc. Tag Game!!
Thank you to all who tagged me!!
Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?: I have not been outside this godforsaken country, but i've been to Oklahoma multiple times and it was fun!
Something you’re proud of yourself for?: Making it to AREA for marching band!! It's a really big deal for us band kids
Favorite books?:
A Coal Miners Bride- Susan Campbell
The Journal of Douglas Allen Deeds- Rodman Philbricks
The Devil All The Time- Donald Ray Pollock
Generation Kill- Evan Wright
Something that makes your heart happy when you think about it?: My gf, and the weird shit my brain comes up with
Favorite thing about your culture?: I'm a southern whiteboy, but i guess cowboys
When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?: Last year before the summer, i watched BoB first and fell in love
Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favorite?: Nope! But i'm trying to convince my mother to take me to Half-Price Books so i can go look for them!
Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?: Skip Muck my boy!! and favorite scenes gotta be "Well Don, let me see, I was at home in Tonawanda and then hitler started this, so now i'm here"
Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?: I do not make content for other fandoms, i barely make content for this one
Favorite actor/actress and your favorite film of theirs?: RICHARD SPEIGHT JR. and ik this is gonna be a basic answer but i love his role as Gabriel in Supernatural, but also him in BoB!!
Favorite quote/s that you wish to share with others?: It has become my most popular post on here "This stuffs orange, spaghetti ain't supposed to be orange, *Perco voice* this ain't spaghetti this is army noodles with ketchup"
Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?: I don't know how to express my emotions for shit, and when i was 8 i bit through my own lip!
If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?: The answer is yes bc i need constant validation
Three things that make you smile?: My gf, thunderstorms, being precieved as a boy
Any nicknames you like?: Most people just call me Lex or Lexi, but i mostly just prefer to go by Alexi
List some people you love to see around on tumblr: there's alot, srry if i forget anyone, @turtle-toe, @b00ks1ut, @malarkgirlypop, @blueberry-ovaries, @1waveshortofashipwreck, @dontirrigateme, @liptonwashere, @panzershrike-pretz, @ronsparky, @love--persevering, @vanellq77, @montied, @ithinkabouttzu, @footprintsinthesxnd, @xxluckystrike and so many more
What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?: Die, i'd completely say fuck it and kms bc the worlds done why not
Favorite movie?: I have a terrible time picking, but i'll say The Lost Boys
Do you like horror movies?: Yes, i mostly critisize the victims cause their dumbasses
Tags: @montied @liptonwashere @kafka-ohdear @dontirrigateme and all the people i listed above!!
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duexdub · 2 years
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Hey idk if your requests are open but if they are
Itto x male reader smut modern au reader is what’s considered a quiet kid and ittos that loud extrovert guy who always talks too the quiet kid expect he attualy succeeds in making the quiet kid like him because he’s just that nice one day the reader is stuck in detention with itto cleaning up the auditorium when he randomly said “yknow I bet I could make you loud really quickly, They say it’s always the quiet ones after all” and your just like “huh-“ a few minutes later lots of shits happening I guess he was right he did make him loud part of his reason was cause the reader was kinda cranky at him for getting him in trouble so he tried the last thing that could make you speak too him
Dom!Arataki Itto X Quiet!Male Reader (School AU)
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CW/TW/Contains : Scratching, muffling(with hand), creampie
You sat at your desk in class fidgeting around with a pen in your hand, trying to get through this class before lunch. You felt a tap on your shoulder from behind you. You tried to ignore it until said person gripped your shoulder. You turned with a confused face seeing your white haired classmate look at you with a dumbfounded look. “Hey you have Ms.Miko’s class after lunch right? Do you think you can give me the answer for this question on the homework?” He looked at you with a awkward smile. You thought about it and nodded. you turned your head to see if your teacher was looking and turned back pointing at the answer, “the answers, B.” You whispered, and quickly tuned back. “Woah, you spoke?!” You heard Itto say out loud. Your teacher turned from the board and looked at the two of you. “Mr.Arataki, i’ve asked you multiple times to not speak during my class, a shame you’re dragging y/n with you. You both get after school detention. “ He said quickly scribbling a piece of paper and having students pass it through to you. You grabbed your slip and angrily put his on his desk.
It was now your last class as you stood up from your desk ready to leave. “Itto, Y/n, you both have detention in the auditorium.” You heard from your teacher, you sighed and went to walk in the direction of the auditorium with Itto by your side. “You’re not mad at me, right.” You heard him ask, you shook your head. “Still thinking about how you spoke, its like the first thing other than the “here” you say in class.” You nodded your head. “You seem mad, is it my fault?” He continued to ask you questions all the way to the auditorium.
You both walked in and saw the janitor’s bucket of cleaning supplies, a note attached to it with instructions. You went to grab a mop and a pail before you heard Itto say out, “ i bet you 5 bucks, i can make you really loud, louder than you’ve ever been.” He said with a cheeky smile on his face. You stared at him with a confused face until he quickly stepped up to you grabbing your face and pulling it to his lips. Your eyes widened then closed into the kiss. He separated your lips from his, looking at you with eyes filled with love. He glanced at your neck, quickly attaching himself to it. You felt him lick, kiss, suck and bite on your neck. You gasped out grabbing onto his hair as he continued to repeat this process.
He let go of you leaning back out, both of your faces tinted with blush. He grabbed your ass lifting you up, latching your legs around his waist you two started to make out again. He managed to walk over to the auditorium door and locking it, pushing you against it while so. He turned with you and rested you on the ground with him on top of you with his hands around your head. He lifted a hand up, moving it to his belt, starting to unbuckle it, letting his pants lightly slide down. He pulled down his underwear with it, just being past enough for his dick to be free. You face flushed, you could feel the erection rising in your pants. Itto started to pull your pants down taking one of your legs out of it. Your entire lower half was naked. Itto spread you legs lining himself up with you, lightly thrusting in. He panted as you had your hand over your mouth. He started to move slowly, eyeing your body as he did. Thought it went slow and steady, it already felt like a lot, his length and girth taking a play in it. “C’mon im supposed- to win this bet… let me hear you.” Itto panted out to you. You removed your hand from your mouth and moved it to your dick, stroking it the same pace itto was fucking you in.
He dug his hands to under your back, lifting it slowly as he sat in the ground. You moaned loudly, feeling your lower half lift off the ground. Itto squeezed your waist, starting to speed up.
He put your hips down and bent over to you, he lifted your legs up, throwing them over his shoulder. He started to hold onto your thighs, ramming into your hole. “Aa-ah~” you moaned loudly grabbing onto his back, gripping it tightly and scratching it. You felt a warm hand go over your mouth, muffling your moans. “I-i heard you now.. don’t be so- loud~” he moaned out. He continued at this speed, the sound of skin slapping echoing through the empty room.
You both soon moaned loudly, releasing yourselves onto each other. You felt a large load be released into you, the warm and thick liquid filling you up.
You sat up and started to crawl towards your backpack, crawling slowly as you could barely feel your legs. Itto’s cum continued to leak slowly out of you while digging in your backpack. You pulled out your wallet and sticked your hand out to him holding a bill. “K-keep your money, y/n” you heard him say. Your body soon gave out on you falling asleep on your backpack.
You woke up against the wall, cleaned up with your pants back on and ittos jacked around your shoulders. You saw him moping the floor, especially the spot where you two fucked on.
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TWO INNA NIGHT… maybe more i got 2 more ideas for childe and diluc
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itsclydebitches · 6 months
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Since the Ever After was mentioned tell me how annoyed are you by the fact that the story never explains how the hell those two kids end up in the EA when it took RWBYJN falling into a void created by a relic to reach there? Also the blacksmith claims the door is open for the brothers and their creation and yet there seems to be no easy way for the brothers creation to even find the damn thing. So many frustrating questions left unanswered because RT are hacks.
RWBY continually strives to be a story that's had three times the work put into it. To my mind, there are two ways to explain (structurally) how Alyx and Lewis fell.
1. You make the differences between the fairy tale and the truth of Team RWBY's journey a focal point of the Volume. So we learn not only how the fiction differs significantly from reality (Alyx's simplified heroism vs. mistakes with the Cat, for example) but also details like how she really fell, preferably in a way that ties back into the larger world building. So, for example, instead of the fairy tale's metaphorically generic, 'There once was a girl who fell through the sky' they learn that this literally means, 'The Relics weren't always secure in the vaults and the misuse of one landed the siblings in magical trouble.' Put in the work to explain the original fairy tale to the audience, how it differs from what really happened, and reveal more of Ozpin's motivations for building the vaults all in one go. 2. You keep things vague but still satisfying from a world building perspective. Personally, I'd be much more willing to accept a hand wave-y, 'They got to the Ever After somehow' if Remnant was full of 'somehow's that, later in the series, were all collectively attributed to the residual magic/magical objects hanging around. Basically, make it a part of the, 'Most of these fairy tales are real' reveal but... better. Drop multiple references to people who have mysteriously disappeared throughout the series. Sometimes they return and they're deemed insane, speaking of impossible worlds with impossible things. Build religions around it that Oobleck discusses during class. Ruby speaks to older characters (like Maria) thanking them for the cool story they told and they very seriously inform her that it was a warning. That was all true, you foolish girl. Haha sure, grandma. You build up for the audience that something is clearly going on, you eventually reveal to the skeptical characters that all these 'impossible' things are real (a better version of the birbs/magic vs. semblances conversation), and then when Alyx's story comes along we have a framework for how that might have happened. Not the specifics, but an understanding that Weird Magic Shit is a staple of living in Remnant, reality hopping included.
But we got none of that work. As mentioned previously, I'm kind of in awe of how Volume 9 reached for the stars without even bothering to build a ladder to the roof yet. Alyx's story, magic, the Gods, Jaune's status as the knight, how Ascension works... there are just so many Big Ideas relying on previous ideas that were either shoddily introduced, or are arriving for the first time years too late. The foundation of our house is cracked through and straight up missing sections.
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respectthepetty · 11 months
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Since I decided the best way to make it through Our Skyy 2 with minimal damage is to drink my way through it, welcome to the third round of
CockTails in the Skyy!
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This week's drink is Jack Nasty to honor one of the iconic lines from Brokeback Mountain since the boys were serving us cinematic odes in the trailer:
Jack Daniel's Honey Whiskey for the pair's sweet yet intense dynamic
unfiltered apple cider for the A+ prefect jerk, Akk
lemon juice for the wrench in the system and Sour Patch kid, Ayan
honey and cinnamon on the rim for Kan and Thua
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This drink is mostly whiskey because I know there is singing in BOTH episodes. I love spoilers, so I already know the BBM scenes are a dream, but it's too late to turn back now! I've committed to this drink (whiskey) and this journey!
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Bottoms up!
I don’t remember anything that is happening. THEY WE'RE EXPELLED FOR A SEMESTER?! (and still graduated on time . . . I smell a coverup!)
We got shots of the eclipse during the show, and now we'll get plenty of scenes with the sun because they are living in the light!
If only this could've been how Brokeback really went.
The way First, I mean Akk, just looked . . . ahhhhh
How long have they been there that there are multiple days of chores? I like camping but three days max!
A voice-over to make me feel worse that Aye is going to ignore Akk. cool cool cool
I don’t understand this space vs. place conversation, so the whiskey is working.
Aye throwing out a full moon and a holiday instead of Akk's birthday hurts me. As a Leo, this behavior is unacceptable.
Akk constantly saying "Aye" instead of Ayan, when we worked HARD for that during the series is feeding my soul.
Product placement! So glad we got someone to pay for our fanfiction this time around.
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I do not like to frolic. I do not like to witness others frolicking. Too much energy when we should be laying down.
What is this conversation about the motorbike about?
Oh! It’s about vers.
Thua's filtering Kan's bad personality? If we had to make a comparison of who is feistier, it'd be Thua! Wat is putting the blame on the wrong kid. Thua would be the bad influence!
Who’s Mork?! Now is not the time for MORE characters.
PAWIN!
As a college professor, this Wat x Sani agenda is a HARD NO! No further comments. No additional notes. Just no. NO!
I should've done a shot instead each time a film scene pops up. I'd be four deep right now and a lot less sober.
MORK IS KENJI! Twice in one week, sir! First in Step by Step and now this! Give my man the love plot I was robbed of in 609 Bedtime Story!
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Good friends for helping Wat who was the BEST BOY during the show always helping them. Also, AJ looks like he could cry on command, so I need this to be utilized more.
I can't invest in this fight when they are wearing shades of each other's color. The love is there. It's written all over them.
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Kan threatening Aye about touching Thua because he still isn't over the car moment. Stay petty, babes!
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Aye could hear the phone over this loud ass water?!
More product placement! We got McDonald's money, y'all!
Oh, shit! It's the guitar! MUTE
Kan being the lovey dovey type feels so good because he was so afraid to touch Thua before and was very aggressive. Now, it's all soft touches with Thua. Love that for them both.
Call me Sebastian because I'm not even hearing this fight since all I want Aye to do is "sha-la-la-la-la-la KISS THE BOY"
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Another Jack Nasty for episode 2! I need to STFU this round, but I'll blame my many thoughts on the whiskey.
"As a friend." AS A FRIEND?! See, Akk stays asking for it. These two like pushing each other's buttons.
I am Namo. Inviting myself places. Watching my friend's deal with relationship bs. Smiling when they get caught sneaking around.
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Wat making them hug is the friend version of making siblings put on the same shirt.
Stupid Dream Productions <- That's quality
Popsicles. Bike rides. Color exchanges. A bridge! Stupid Dream Productions made this possible.
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Kan and Thua sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G. (I see that neck grab, sir)
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Thua is SERVING in this outfit! With the smiley face and dice necklace too. No wonder why Kan is so protective. Thua's got looks while Kan gives hardware hubby vibes. I love it!
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Akk and Aye wearing white is a callback to the OST, no?
I will never be over the fact that all of these boys bullied Nan, Nong, and Nian, and every time "the bad stuff" from the past is mentioned, I get in my feels.
Oh, no! This short film is taking me back! Deep in my feels with that burning dummy.
Golf! Hey, homie!
"they secretly transferred me money in the end." Why did this not land for me? I should be happy his family is supporting him, but . . . *gonna moonwalk away from this*
This guy talking to Wat is the assistant director of The Eclipse, Pro Siwasit, but Wat said Nut. I feel confident even in my whiskey haze.
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I am Namo. Putting my foot in my mouth when my friends are in distress. So glad he is less sus this time around.
SINGING!!!!! NO!!!! Why is this necessary?! Sweet baby Jesus with the historical accurate skin tone. I CANNOT!
I can't even enjoy what I like to call the sign-of-the-cross kiss because I'm still upset about the singing.
Another cake for the collection. Missed opportunity for a moon and sun themed cake, but at least there are stars and red, blue, and yellow candles.
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Dacryphilia - getting pleasure or aroused by others' troubles or tears -> Aye, we need to discuss this kink.
Akk: I love hugging you; Aye: I love pissing you off.
A shower scene! Drying each other's hair! Saying they love each other!!!!
Only Friends when?
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I'm somehow parched after that final scene even though I drank the entire time, so it's time for the rating. I won't deduct points for Akk and Aye's clear relationship dynamic (and kink), but I will deduct half a point for singing and a full point for that teacher/student plot this show is still pushing. Actually, that gets a point and A HALF deduction!
8/10 CockTails for making me, a person who believes in pushing boundaries, realize I have clear boundaries that cannot be crossed.
I didn't love Vice Versa, but I am ecstatic to see its installment next week. It's giving me Baby Shark. It's giving me colors. It's giving me Sea's side profile. It's giving me the possibility that Tess had a kid!
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Daddy Sharks, doo-doo, doo-doo. Daddy Sharks, doo-doo, doo-doo
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crittercrypt · 7 months
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Also one more thing. I’m rereading the little nightmares comics (the discontinued ones) and here are some connections I made:
Not really a big important theory thing but the achievement ‘little lost things’ for hugging all the nomes in ln1 might be a hint to the fact that the names are children, because they refer to children as little lost things multiple times in the north wind comic:
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I’m sure this is obvious (I think unless I’m being dumb??) but BREAD KID??? How did I not notice it was bread guy before ??? (The kid who gives six bread during one of her hunger fits)
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The ever-present eye, which might indicate that the flesh walls are spreading to the maw or have been there all along or something;;; and it’s not like a stone eye here
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definitely a flesh wall eye.
Ok bigger thing here I think ? Unless someone else has already said this ? Idk but it seems like the ferryman and the north wind made a bet to see who could take the kid away first . The question is does the north wind want to kill the boy or does he want to whisk him away to another place like the ferryman does ???? I think it’s the ladder because the north wind extended its hand(???) to the boy similar to how the ferryman was doing,,,, um I cant phrase it well but you’ll see what I mean, as if presenting him with the choice of who to go with and therefore who wins the bet or something.. I could be wrong idk but here
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so like. where would the north wind whisk him away to. Idk but you get my point woahahahaooah other transporter peopel maybe. Ya
but it would be pretty pointless for the north wind to kill the entire rest of the village ?? Unless. his way of getting the children to come with him is not isolation and offering help like the ferryman, but instead making the victim so without hope and shit that they’re just so tired and the north wind offers them a release or something idk
hhh yea .
Also one more thing — maybe two actually AUGH I’m never done talking 😔
I don’t think ???? Six is the lady ???? But I do think that maybe the lady was a child before she became this monster, maybe she already had the powers like mono did instead of,,, consuming them,,, like six does . And maybe her so called ‘daughter’ I’ve seen some people wondering about is actually like. Pictures of her former self. Or somehting. And maybe she hates her face because she doesn’t want to either A. Be reminded of her former self or B. Hates what’s she’s become , it all depends on the lady’s view of herself I suppose if my theory is even right ?? But here’s the page that led me to think of this;
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the ferry is in her eye hole thing as if indicating she’s been through that or soemthing ?? So yeah maybe the living maw took advantage of her powers and shit just like the tower did to mono
aughh ln is so sad and my theories might be shit but whateverrr
NEXT PHOTO LOOOKK
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also !!!! THIS PHOTO!!!
FIRSTLY it’s a cameo of the pale city before ln2 came out !! Very swag!!! And secondly umm idk six in the pale city. Alone. With her raincoat. So somehow at some point she was in the pale city after dropping mono I assume and then the ferryman takes her to the maw yea
and lastly to lighten the mood. Nome cameo :D
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yeah that’s it
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who The Fuck is manhunter
god this is such a good question. who the fuck IS manhunter. well okay so let me pose a counter-question. what if women sucked and were not fun to hang out with. do we still support their wrongs?
no okay (visibly trying not to laugh) heres the girlcrush of the day. she's got what ive jokingly called "bull-in-a-china-shop lifestyle". her name is kate she's a famous federal prosecutor who specializes in prosecuting supervillains. and brother she loves pushing for the death penalty. one day when she was pushing so so hard for the death penalty, the jury did not go for it. and she got so so so mad that she decided to go find and kill the guy herself
and she liked it.
so she blackmails some guy in the witness protection program into being her gadget guy & from then on she's the vigilante "manhunter" (yay!) who kills bad guys she thinks deserve it. when she's out there she's basically operating on a completely circular logic that goes like "well if i can't kill this villain here, i'll simply get him the death penalty in court (which i'm very good at), and if that falls through, i'll just go back to Plan A (killing him with my own hands)" and it's like girl i think you just kind of Like Killing. good luck with that
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it's like what if batman not only loved killing and jumped directly to it every time, but was also working With & Inside the system at the same time to ensure there is no other way for things to end. that's a weird thing to do, right? girl? this is weird?...
& like MAYBE in 2004 america this setup was written to appeal to a certain type of reader who'd go "yeah girl the System never gives the bad guys what they Deserve lets fucking go #justice" . i couldn't really tell you to be honest (and her murder mettle is proven entirely in scenarios that are like "well maybe she's morally in the clear here because the guy in question is a cartoon snake-man who eats people") (to me personally, on its face, this all reads like the origin story for a supervillain lawyer named Death Row or something. but that's just another part of her womanly charm in my eyes.) what i CAN tell you is that deciding to become a coldblooded premeditated killer in her spare time is Really cutting into both her professional and private life and now her ex-husband is suing for full custody of their son
oh yeah. she has a son and she is like a deadbeat mother she never shows up on time she forgets to pick him up and he hates going to her house when it's her weekend she is NOT doing a good job on this one. figuring out how to actually mom this kid is also kind of a thing for her and she DOES figure it out but i have to tell you. her Divorced Milf Who Totally Sucks appeal. VERY High
man. yeah she's always getting her shit pushed in during fights because She Is Just A Lawyer but she just like Walks it off (girl...). she's addicted to nicotine in a major way. she's cold and cranky and would not be fun to hang out with. she's terrible at banter. she actually sucks to the point it makes me feel Bad for her ex-husband who has to keep hounding her like "don't forget to pick up our SON" it's kind of a feat to be honest. she just sort of is charging blindly into things and wrecking her life because she has a chip on her shoulder and Maybe Enjoys Killing but at least she's also got a certain failgirl swag about it
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there is a major theme of like, legacy, but crucially (and most interestingly, imo) most of the time kate is completely ignorant of said legacies existing around her while she's stomping through the porcelain with her hooves until they rear up to bite her directly in the ass, which i enjoy very much. she is very much focused on her own thing and consumed by her own motivations and does not really give a shit about these things and it's a major issue every time. even "manhunter" itself is a name that's been used by multiple dc characters (sometimes simultaneously) (including a whole cult), which suddenly becomes a problem for her when someone starts murdering all the other manhunters until she's the only one left standing. uh oh! i was just doing my own thing and thought the name sounded cool! noooo!
there's also the very pointed matter of her gear which is all "borrowed" from just like. the lockup. (girl...) so she's wearing someone else's suit and someone else's gauntlets and using someone else's weapon (actually one of the previous manhunters! there's that manhunter lineage again!) and while the audience is treated to a whole issue elaborating on the backstories of these things, kate herself is completely unaware and uninterested in the significance and legacy of these hand-me-downs because she picked them out at complete random to go do premeditated killing. it's really underscored in an interesting way how much she just is kind of bulldozing straight through everything--whether it's her own life or her proverbial predecessors--towards her own ends
the whole lineage and legacy thing is something of a Theme i guess. especially when it turns out her own biological father is an absolute sicko with a murder charge and he's on his way right now to bulldoze her life for his own ends. that's funny. maybe she's got that serial killer gene from riverdale,
jokes aside i would give her a 10/10 failwife cringemilf rating, with ample extra points awarded for being divorced, for the broken ribs, and for how much i would hate hanging out with her if she were real. this is a certified manhunter post. i hope you enjoyed it.
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(reading manhunter 2004 and shaking my head sternly the whole time but also smiling. so people know i don't support the death penalty but i Do support women's wrongs)
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mabelancholy · 5 months
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I was one of the original whiners two years ago when the manga ended that the ending was kind of bad because WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT WAS ALL BECAUSE OF MIKASA, but now watching the anime, it’s like. No. I get it. I get it now.
No shit there wasn’t a budding romance between Eren and Mikasa during the anime/manga. Eren is dumb as hell (he admitted it!), so he won’t know how to go about it, and ever since he was a child, he was in fear for his life due to Titans, he trained for the most dangerous part of the military, watched his comrades die or turn into Titans, is a constant center of attention, whether it be good or bad even since he got the Attack Titan. Like, He Was Going Through It! That’s too much crap for his brain to handle. And when he saw how shit goes down after holding Historia’s hand? It was BOUND to get worse.
By the time Eren enters his “Villain Kirito” saga, we’re disconnected from him as much as he’s disconnected from himself. He’s like an automated robot doing pre-designed tasks for him, because Eren knows what’s going to happen, and because “future is set in stone”, he has no choice but to play his part. His spirit is broken, in a way, and we do get brief glances of his emotions coming through the surface like how he broke down in front of that boy he saved from robbbers on the street, crying about how he’s still going to murder him (and that kid does get mushed by Titan foot later on).
But the real, true moment of Eren being himself is when he contacts his friends, and then seals those memories away. We see him talk to Armin about Everything, and all the cards are laid bare. And his response to everything is just so, human. Because he is a human. Eren shows he never truly matured, he’s still a child looking at the whole situation in a childish manner (Kill all Titans -> Kill all humans beyond the walls, “Mikasa better mourn me for 10 years goddang it!!!!”, crying like a literal baby, saying he doesn’t really wanna dieeee uwaaahh sniff sniff). And you can’t really blame him, when you remember he didn’t really have a childhood, being thrown into the Titan business so damn young! But he did, however, realise that he can’t fix humanity indefinitely, but he can make it so his friends get to live happily ever after (at least those who survive). He admits that he’s an idiot, a slave to his version of freedom, and a ticking time bomb of rage, but he’s got the power and he has to do something with it, anything to make the world around him a better place for the people he cared about.
I was never an Eremika shipper because I wasn’t an AOT shipper in general (not even YumiHisu), but I’m literally not mad about it being revealed in the end that they were in love, despite 0 communication, despite the ongoing war, despite the struggle for survival and constant trauma, it was still a version of love. With how everything played out in the end, it does make sense to me. And an anime ending was so nice to show them being reunited in the afterlife! <3
(And no, Mikasa didn’t end up with Jean or Armin or anyone in either endings (there’s multiple evidence online, from lillies on Mikasa’s grave, to an indecisive sillhouette of the man and the child (I personally think it’s Armin, that he and Mikasa stayed as best friends and either adopted, or brought Historia’s child to the grave)), which I think is a further testament to Eren and Mikasa’s bond, which is sooooo AUGH! I’m a huge sucker for unfulfilled, sad, full of yearning yet getting none, so close yet so far away romances in fiction, so this one is definitely tickling my fancy.)
Maybe the anime did the ending better, maybe it was me who matured, maybe it was both, I don’t know. But I’m glad I’m able to enjoy this masterpiece to the fullest!
AOT is a deserved classic and one of the best pieces of media ever made. Big thanks to Isayama and all of the people working on both anime and manga production <3
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