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#and tmi is... listen. i love it. but it’s like that one friend who you really like but you can’t take them anywhere because they will cause
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Hi there! For a cupid event, would you write something with phrase no 3, the character would be Ace. I just love him so much 💓. A bit about me though, I am an introvert girl and I like the idea of true love and soulmate. Another thing, I also love music and singing very much. (tmi: I am 5'1 ft tall). Thank you for your time and make this event🌹
Why do you sound so adorable?! You're so cute! And Ace sounds so perfect for you. I hope you like this and have a god day <3
Flowers for an Angel
Ace x fem!reader Note: just cute. wc: 1,1k
During the day you lead a quiet life, working in the small family store and spending your free time reading novels, listening to music or writing your own lyrics. You are a quiet and introverted young woman. However, you have great popularity. 
During the night, you are free. All your insecurities, shyness and embarrassment don't stop you from taking the small stage of the local bar more than one night a week. You can feel like one of the protagonists of your novels, being the main character. You allow to be yourself, show your soul and heart through your voice. Through your letters and melodies.
Ace is a free pirate, the old whitebeard left great freedom to all his children. And the young man enjoys this freedom, especially because he has the opportunity to visit a certain tropical and cheerful island, where almost every night he has the opportunity to delight in the voice of an angel. He still remembers the first time heard you sing. Marco, Izo and him were walking along the beach, looking for a little fun when he felt it. The magnetic attraction to the small local bar like every sailor he had heard legends and stories of sailors whose lives ended in death when called by the hypnotic song of the sirens. Ace had never really believed in those stories until then. He almost ran into the bar, only to find another mystical being. Standing there, on the small and precarious stage, next to your musical instrument, singing a sweet melody about a wandering man and a white dove. Ace never felt so at peace as when he heard you sing. 
Not only are you extraordinarily talented, you're also incredibly beautiful. You had no comparison in the pirate's eyes. Beautiful creatures like mermaids, nymphs, veelas or even angels couldn't compete against you. To Ace, you were like a miracle.
You also did not ignore how a young and wild, but always kind and gentleman, attended many of your presentations. The first time you saw him storming into the bar, only to stand still before you, felt a warm emotion wash over you. You regretted being so shy not to approach him, on that occasion and all the others that followed. Thanks to your friends you discovered that it was the famous Fire Fist Ace, son of the Strongest man in the world. A pirate. It was funny and hard for you to understand how such a sweet man could be a pirate with a high reward. 
Well, maybe you had never spoken to him enough to assure you that he was a kind, gentlemanly man and a good person, but you just knew. His crew took care of the island, they helped the townspeople when they needed it and were always kind to everyone. Ace did not prove otherwise. And every time he was on the island he went to see you, and stayed for the entire show. That must mean something, right? Again, you were sorry for being too shy under the stage to approach him and get to know him better. 
You have to thank Marco and Izo, who, tired of seeing their friend sigh with puppy eyes in love from afar, decided to intervene. It was obvious that you're shy and that their friend is an idiot with low self-esteem, saying stupid things like you would never even notice him. The older men were tired of seeing you two wishing each other from afar but doing nothing to change the situation. So Ace underwent a shower full of products that Izo insisted he use, with extremely specific instructions. Marco accompanied him to buy the flowers Ace liked to compare you to: white lilies. And so they pushed an embarrassing Ace to the bar, motivating him to finally give you the flowers, and then finally get to meet you. 
The starry night and the soft wind made your performance a magical spectacle. Dressed in white and singing your beautiful compositions, the pirate's vision felt blurry and bright, as if in a dream. All that had to be a dream. Seeing you sway to the rhythm of the music made his heart stumble and his hands sweat. He felt a little pathetic sitting there, so captivated by your people, sweating, shaking with nerves and holding a big bouquet of flowers. 
 And if you didn't like the flowers? If you are allergic? If you already had boyfriends? What if you hated him? His head was killing him. 
Ace reacts as the applause around brings him back to reality. He saw you leaving the show, taking the drink that the waitress -your friend, had learned- handed you and leaving outside. It was the moment. He followed you after a series of breaths that helped calm his nerves a bit. 
After each performance, where you received a lot of attention, needed some water to breathe and some fresh air alone. This time there was something that was bothering you even if you wanted to ignore it. Ace, the pirate who had taken over your mind and heart, was carrying a bouquet of flowers and looked more charming than ever. Was he waiting for his girlfriend? Boyfriend? Did he already love someone? A lump in your throat made it difficult for you to continue singing. Was stupid, you hadn't even talked to him and you were so upset. He was a famous, attractive and charismatic pirate, there was no chance that he would not have a partner. 
“Ummm, I'm sorry,” the soft voice gave you a small scare, spilling some of the water on your chest. “Oh, no. I'm really sorry. I didn’t want to scare you!”
In front of you Ace looks like a nervous wreck, trying to apologize while failing to hide the flowers behind him. You can only shake your head, dismissing it. At that distance and with the starlight you can notice his freckles and the golden flecks in his irises. It's even more beautiful up close.
You see him shift a little uncomfortably and his cheeks take on color before he pushes the bouquet of flowers towards you. You can only watch him in surprise, while you take the bouquet.
“I bought flowers for you,” he tells you, embarrassed. "They remind me of you" 
You take them carefully, deeply moved. You feel in a dream. 
“Thank you” you say and smell the flowers. “They are beautiful” 
“You are even more so!” He almost yelled at you, nervous panic. You can't help but laugh lightly. It's too cute. 
“Would you like to have something with me?” You ask him with a bravery that you didn't know, but you really wanted him to say yes. 
"Yes!" He shouts excitedly, making them both laugh. "Yes I would like it, very much"
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jaeminify · 5 months
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My Love is Always Yours | Na Jaemin.
— (alternative title, 4:03AM)
— Soulmate!au, Angst, Breakup (centred around Jaemin's perspective), no happy moments but it is bittersweet.
blurb ☆ Jaemin and you were always meant to be together. No matter how the story was written, how it started and how it ended, it always included with you and him together, written on paper; tethered by the red string that only Jaemin could see. Which is why every time he has to let you go, he goes through the same turmoil of emotions, so he can love you all over again just the same, if not more.
warning(s): jaemin is drunk in the first half of the story, is a little tipsy talking to mark and talks down about himself :(
note: no specific plot in mind when i wrote this, there may be some errors as i wrote it on a whim and didnr want to keep this in my draft any longer. if there are any errors/mistakes i'll fix them asap! feedback is deeply appreciated <3 idols mentioned and scenarios taking place is fiction and does not depict or accurately represent the idols irl!!
. . . tmi [about this imagine]: [i] listened to more than friends by mokita while writing this piece :)
happy readings! x
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“I miss her, dude.” Jaemin can't seem to stop the words from spilling out of his mouth, but the more he dwells on it, the harder it is for him to understand how he feels so voicing out his thoughts to his friend is the only plausible explanation he'll accept.
Mark draws little dots on his glass where condensation has started to form around the glass, looking over at his friend with not pity, but worry as Jaemin pours himself another shot, hesitating to bring it up to his lips when something makes the decision for him and he takes a small sip, then puts the shot glass back down.
“Easy,” Mark sits up to pull the bottle of soju away from his friend, deciding to be the more rational one to pull Jaemin out of his alcohol misery. “I know you miss her,” Mark can't seem to find any other words to console his friend because he doesn't know why the two of you ended things.
He can't help but think that you were good for Jaemin. He didn't know what could've led to you two ending up like this.
“It’s so…” Jaemin has his hands resting on his head, his hands threading through the strands of his hair roughly as if he's trying to physically pull out any sort of ideas in his mind, out of them and into his palm, but he's blank.
Mark can see the frustration on his face, but he doesn't do much to try and finish Jaemin’s sentence or whatever it is he's trying to say.
Jaemin’s feelings were his own, not Mark’s and Mark was patient to want to hear whatever was on Jaemin’s mind.
Better out than rotting inside, Renjun would always say.
“I don't know why I can't be better for her.” The crack in his voice tells Mark that Jaemin is on the verge of tears but Jaemin refuses to let Mark see them drop from his face to the table. He doesn't want to know that he's an actual mess, because feeling it was enough for him.
It was enough for him to feel regret, to feel… as though every good thing in the world that Jaemin knew of, suddenly disappeared within the blink of an eye and had been swallowed by the earth and to never be seen again.
God, or maybe he just associated everything good with you that now that you weren't here, in his ulife or would ever be, there was no chance of him ever getting that feeling or that hope back ever again.
“You were good to her, Jaemin. The both of you were good for each other.” Mark says, tone unwavering because he truly believes that.
“Not good enough." Jaemin’s firm with his decision of believing he wasn't enough for you, but Mark doesn't allow it. He won't entertain it, so instead he gets up from his chair and moves to stand behind Jaemin who barely reacts to the sudden movement.
“Come on, let's go. We’re going home and you're gonna get some rest after you wash all the alcohol off of your clothes.”
“Don't want to, I don't deserve it.” Jaemin grumbles, but Mark pulls him up to his feet, though a little wobbly, Jaemin manages.
“Everyone deserves to be clean, Jaemin.” Mark deadpans, “Let's go.”
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To say that Jaemin is doing better would be an understatement.
He got himself out of bed a lot easier these days, stuck to a routine to keep himself healthy, but he still finds himself gutted every single time he starts to think of you. It gets him most days when he's cleaning after work and finds remnants of memories from when you two were together still laced in his apartment and his heart drops.
The hardest part aside from walking away from you, was putting away the framed picture he had of the both of you in the living room. He could've kept it up, but keeping it up only prolonged the hurt he'd feel every time he'd see it; see you, and remember how bad things had become.
It wasn't like the two of you hated each other but Jaemin knew that if there was ever a day for you two to fall back into what you both were, it wouldn't be easy.
He keeps the picture in his room now. Sitting on his dresser with his small stack of books covering it so at least it isn't collecting dust in his drawer but standing proud… somewhere only for him to see and cherish.
The boys would come over and see that Jaemin was making minor adjustments around his house.
A big part of his apartment consisted of you and him together. From redecorating the kitchen together to lazying around the living room together, being in his study room was the hardest because that was the room you helped design when he was renovating it and now he'd only be there if he needed to.
He spent a lot of his days in his room now or if he got home early, he'd be on his balcony watching the sun go down with a cup of hot tea since he stayed off coffee in the evenings.
Mark and Jeno would be over most days but if they weren't Jaemin was mostly alone. Not that he minded, he found himself enjoying his own company rather than being surrounded by people and feeling more alone than ever, Jaemin was alone by choice. He spent time with himself and found himself basking in the little things he didn't expect to enjoy like rearranging the books on his shelf, replacing his old mat with a new one that fit his interior a lot more.
Mundane things became the source of Jaemin’s happiness and gradually, he got himself back on his feet.
The sinking feeling that came with missing you was never going to go away, Jaemin figured, but that didn't mean he had to wallow in it and let it swallow him whole.
He could miss you and still live a life on his own, but he knew one thing wouldn't ever change, and that would be his love for you.
Even if you were to spend a million years away from him and was rebirthed into something else, Jaemin was sure he'd love you in this universe and the next, just like he always has and always will.
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additional author's note :)
— this is my first ever attempt in writing something for the dreamies! and lovely jaemin is my first ever one ^_^ it's been on my mind for a while [to write about them] now so i decided to push through and post this so it'll kickstart me (to hopefully) write more tehe
if you've read this far, thank you for reading this mess and attempt of a short imagine <3 it isn't my best but i believe with time and practice i'll hopefully get better !
with love, elly <3
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alreadyblondenow · 2 years
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Can we fix it?
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Johnny x Female reader
Genre: Breakup, Fluff, smut, slight angst
WARNINGS: Unprotected sex which is not advisable in real life situation, mentions of alcohol, drunk Johnny, cursing. Sorry if ever I left anything out.
TMI: This is for the readers who still comes back here and reading my old stories. Honestly I want to write and make time for it again and just like this fic, I want to fix my time hahaha forgive me though. But thank you for your support until now! How are you guys loving ‘2 Baddies’? I bought 6 albums this era, for sure I’ll buy more but I’m saving up to see NCT Dream and WayV next month. So, I think I’ll support 127 more during repack! I hope everyone is loving the album and has been streaming. Let’s give 127 wins huhu also im just uploading this thru phone so it might be jambled :(( sorry
“We need you here asap— he keeps smashing things” Jaehyun spoke through the phone as you hear Johnny at the background trying to get the phone from Jaehyun, shouting your name.
It’s been only weeks since you and Johnny broke up. He didn’t take it too well obviously, and you can’t believe you’re on your way to his place to take care of him. As soon as you arrived at his place, you went to the kitchen to heat something up for Johnny. And soon as you showed yourself to his friends, they were all relieved but Johnny was feeling… guilty, disgusted by himself and honestly all he wanted to do is hug you so tight.
You were purposely not answering every message he sent, not answering his calls, everything. You tried your best to avoid him. So now… you’re like a ghost. It almost felt like the first time he saw you. Your first date. A beautiful night. But now… the night was still beautiful because he finally saw you after the breakup but, he’s so broken right now.
“You can all go— sorry,” Johnny said, trying to get up from his couch while being mindful of the shattered wine glass on the floor. Successfully, you caught Johnny struggling to walk straight heading his room after you see Jaehyun and the other on their way out. You were quick to grab Johnny’s waist and helped him towards his bed.
He’s quiet now.
But he’s looking at your every move.
“We were fine. Why did you leave me like that” he started. Still in his drunken state. He leaned forward and rest his forehead on yours, all you can do is soothe his back and close your eyes.
“Wasn’t I your perfect man? How can you ruin us like that— we were fine” he cried out again. This time theres tears in his eyes and he was whimpering, blaming himself and trying to keep you closer to him even more.
You on the other hand, continue to gently try your best to sober him up. You used to have moments like this back in the past, moments that involves sweet talking, planning what to have for breakfast the next day, or how many rounds can you guys do for tonight’s love making. But now it’s just crying and wishing that you could go back in time.
“I wasn’t okay all the time Johnny, you have to understand that I can’t pull you down with me”
“What are you talking about—“
“You’re too good for me Johnny.
“What does that even mean? You’re the one who’s too good for me”
“No Johnny. Shut up you don’t know—“ you were getting really frustrated.
“No. You shut up. You didn’t even let me have a say in this. You just left me while I was still fighting and longing for us. I get it you’re not perfect, but I don’t need perfect too. I’m not perfect too, but when did I ever pushed you away? When did I ever stopped being a better version of myself?— I thought you love me”
He continued crying and whimpering.
You continued to listen and miss him even though you’re holding him. And you agree, everything he said is true and to be honest you’re already regretting that you left and made your lives miserable. It has been… nothing but dark skies ever since you left him.
Maybe all you need is talk. Talk it out. You never gave him a chance to convince you to stay.
“Fuck it— life continues without you. Fucking leave, that’s where you’re good at”
He pushed you away lightly, careful not to hurt you physically but the heartbreak that you’re feeling right now hurts even more.
As you close the door gently and proceed to cleaning up the mess he did, you remember how beautiful your relationship was with Johnny and you managed to ruin it and burn all the bridges down in a matter of weeks. You went inside again his room to take care of him, putting a clean shirt and managing to clean him up. It’s the least you could do.
What you didn’t expect was soft kisses on your neck from Johnny while you change his clothes. You missed the feeling of his lips. But what will happen to whats left in your relationship if you give in? You certainly didn’t want to be fuck buddies with him if that’s where he’s going. What you have… or what you had, was way more special just to go down this road.
“I need you to stop” you said calmly when you already felt Johnny’s big hand inside your shirt, cupping your boobs. He was humiliated once again, removed his hand before he left a soft kiss on your temple. He’s sorry and he’s already forgiven. Always.
And when the morning comes, regret was the first things that came into Johnny’s head. He was aware of what happened last night. What he said and what he did. But he didn’t expect to see you sleeping uncomfortably on his couch, freezing.
Of course you felt his presence in an instant. You’ve been craving for it. “Sorry I passed out, I was waiting for the sun to come out” You said with a warm smile, hoping that things between you two cooled down from last night.
“Well the sun is out. You can go now” he said coldly. He didn’t know why. He just felt the urge to be cold towards you this morning.
“O-okay. Thank you” you rambled and clumsily gathered your stuff. Heart broken as you help yourself out of his house. You never thought that Johnny would push you away like that… it must’ve hurt him too when you did the same thing to him.
Days went by and you two continue to miss each other.
You wanted to get back together, but you were scared that he will push you away again. And you can’t handle it anymore. Johnny on the other hand, was giving moving on a shot… because he thought this is really what you wanted.
But then again, the alcohol was just like magnet for the both of you. You received yet another emergency call from Jaehyun, telling you to go to this bar because Johnny needs you and has been asking for you non-stop.
“Can I pass this one out?” You asked Jaehyun through the phone.
“I believe no, the manager of the bar is already mad. Please Y/n, just this one time we’ll never bother you again”
Of course you went to the given address and looked for Johnny. There you saw him sleeping soundly outside the said bar and your heart was breaking as you watch him mumble that he’s tired and lost.
“Hi… Johnny, it’s me. I need you to take my arm—“ you said when you finally approached him.
“You’re not supposed to be here. Who called you? Jaehyun? Fuck him. He should know that I’m not your responsibility anymore, leave Y/n” he gently pushed you away. Again. And that’s it. You knew you couldn’t handle experiencing this again.
Of course you stepped back. But you watched him from behind, followed him every step of the way until he reaches his house. He forgot where he put his keys and if he’s totally being honest right now, he’s about to throw up from too much walking. When you decided to take it from there and offered to open his door, he didn’t stopped you because all he wanted to do is run towards his sink. But life had other plans for him because by the time you finally opened the door, he tried running inside but ended up tripping and you were quick to catch him. Making him throw up on your clothes.
You then realized how fucked up he is right now. Johnny is not usually like this. He’s never a handful and he never forgets to handle his own problems.
“This is all because of you” is all he can say.
And that completely broke your heart.
When things cooled down and you finally got the chance to clean yourself up. You were crying while you think over and over again what Johnny said. You told yourself. This it. This is exactly why you broke up with him. One last cry and you will be totally out of his life.
Of course Johnny felt bad while watching you clean yourself while crying. He was having second thoughts about saying he’s sorry but what he said is the ugly truth. Either way he did not hesitate to hand you clean clothes and tried comforting you the best way he could. “I should be the one crying— stay for the night, the bed is yours”
But you couldn’t stand it anymore. You did not look at him while you try and make yourself decent again. You even ignored the clothes he gave you. “I’ll be fine. Good night Johnny” you said weakly and head towards the door.
Frustration hit Johnny again. And this time when you were just about to leave, you wish that he will stop you. Please stop me. You secretly wish, tears running down your cheeks.
And in an instant you felt him hug you from behind. Immediately hugging you oh so tight that you couldn’t breathe but you love the feeling of it. “You can leave tomorrow. Just stay for the night” Johnny said. He knew that by the time he watch you leave again, he will regret not stopping you just like the night you broke up with him.
Given that you cant get away from his tight embrace, you assured him that you wont leave and sleep here at his place. He slowly gave you some space and head towards the bathroom again and handed you the clothes for the second time before he says ‘good night’
Heading towards his room with your heart beating so fast, you changed your clothes, with only his shirt on and your panties. You sat on his bed for hours and hours, thinking about the future. If this is the last night you’re going to be together like this. Apart and broken. Or you can go outside and fix it. Either way, you’re not sleeping.
But just as you were about to stand up from your comfort… Johnny opened the door and walked towards you, sitting in front of you and reached for your hand immediately. You didn’t stopped him.
“I don’t want to fight. I don’t want to talk for hours and hours. I love you and I want you to stay. Not just for tonight though,” he was close to tearing up but he was stopping himself, “H-hug me if you feel the same” he said weakly, his grip tightened wishing you would pull him in for that hug.
And so you did. And you didn’t just hugged him. You immediately kissed him lovingly and said your sorry for ruining your relationship. He shut you up with a heated kiss, feeling his soft touch all over you. Hearing the words, “let’s never hurt each other again” and “I don’t want to hear the word ‘sorry’ from now on” and immediately made you giggle when you felt his lips on your neck, kissing you down until you’re comfortably under his huge frame. Feeling his hands all over your body, slowly running it up and down. Even his touch felt so good and warm that you missed him already when he pull away to remove his clothes.
It almost felt like it was your first time with him again when you were watching him remove your clothes. Every touch, every kiss and every sound you hear from him makes you tingle and your nipples hard. Of course he saw it, he smirked and teased it, making you whine and grab his shoulders but he didn’t stop. He flattened his tongue and gently flipped the tip on your nipple, making you close your legs and became sensitive. Johnny loved your reaction and to be honest he just missed doing this to you so he pulled you up and made you sit on him, making him hug you with both arms, and let you grind on his hard cock, making it wet with your pussy juices.
He licked your nipples softly, making you weak and melt with his feathery touch on your back, sucking and biting it gently when he wanted to hear you. Ending his teasing with lots of kisses on your chest all the way up your lips until you two fell on the mattress again.
“Want to make me harder?” He asked sweetly, lips beside your ears, nibbling it until you say stop and switch places. Johnny spread his legs very wide and you did not hesitate to lick his long and thick cock. The only cock you love and made you cum so any times already. You gave him head for a few minutes, playing with tip and watching him stop himself from cumming.
“By the way you can’t cum inside me tonight, you might get me pregnant—“
“What’s this torture I thought were okay?” Johnny pouted with lidded eyes. He wanted to fuck your mouth so bad but tonight is not the right time to be filthy. “But can we fuck raw?” He made you stop sucking him and pulling you to an embrace, cleaning your face his hand and switching places with you again.
“Of course we can fuck raw, what are you? A stranger?” You let out a small laugh and kissed your boyfriend’s lips. You knew the moment you placed your lips on his, he will immediately line his cock in your entrance and slowly thrust in.
Smoothly and slowly. Johnny is fucking you now, making you crazy and dizzy with his cock, making you moan and ask for more. He was bigger than ever, you thought that he will rip you even though he was going slowly. Bodies on bodies, he fucked you even slower and deeper, he was moaning the whole time with furrowed brows and when you came and tried closing your legs, he stopped them from closing and started kissing you hungrily. Feeling his whole weight on you, slowly fucking you open until you didn’t have a choice but to cum while he was still fucking you and still catching his orgasm. Slowly.
It’s crazy how no one moved fast but you two were tired and sweaty as you both catch your breaths. Of course Johnny came outside and was quick to grab a tissue. You laugh and helped him clean up, spreading kisses all over his body until you’re both covered with his thick blanket, both very naked beneath it.
You’ve never been this close before. Tonight was just very different.
“Do you want to live with me?”
He said out of nowhere while you were playing with his hands.
“What? Where did that came from?” You asked and came closer.
“I don’t want to see you leaving my place again. I swear Y/n— I’ll go crazy” he caged you with his long legs, and made you laugh again. He was still hard but he didn’t want to go another round, he was just happy and excited again for the future, he told you.
“Thanks for fixing us, for us.” You looked him in the eye and rolled on top of him so you could have a good look at him. “Yes I would like to move in with you,” you smiled and placed a kiss on his soft lips which formed a smile.
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stitch-n-time · 6 days
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Who wants some TMI?
Here we go anyway.
I don't know how many of you all were around a few years ago, but it was pretty common for me to literally not be able to get through a work day (sedentary work, sitting at a cubicle/desk, working at a computer) without taking mass amounts of anti-inflammatories. I was given a prescription for celebrex in my early 30s, in high doses. Even my doctor was like "we normally reserve this for people with heavy arthritis in their 60s and up". I moved to working overnights partially because of the pay hike, and partially because it tends to rain less during that shift, so I was able to miss fewer hours.
Then things went sideways. I was the reason the flashing lights showed up at a friend's wedding (love you guys!) and as a result I had to get titanium rods put in my ankle. Then the same ankle re-broke, bent the titanium rods, and the screws, and one of the screws broke. The surgery was repeated but better.
Last year I finally found a doctor willing to do imaging on my reproductive system. He immediately was like THIS GETS YEETED RIGHT NOW. Within two months everything but my ovaries were yoinked out. Which is a good thing. It turns out my uterus was twice the size it should have been because of benign growths, it had attached itself to my intestines and were pulling them out of shape, and a few other things that were sending everything pretty much from the ribs down into a pretty bad state of "not healthy". Why am I saying this?
Because today, it's raining. Less than six months ago I would be trying to sleep through the pain. Today, my ankle is a touch sore, one hip is a little grouchy, and I'm whining about having to do grocery shopping in the wet. This is a damned good improvement. I am thankful every day that somebody finally listened. But days like this really punctuate the difference.
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satureja13 · 1 month
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Jeb also went back to work to his potions shop after the Valentine's Desaster. But other than Kiyoshi, he doesn't get anything done right. All of his spells fail and he can't concentrate on his research. Why did Sai have to see him together with Kiyoshi alone on on a 'date' on Valentine's Day? Usually they would have spent this day - their first Valentine's day, at that - together. Ach! Another failed spell!
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He is just so afraid of losing Saiwa again. And again it's a situation where Sai already had been distressed from other happenings and it all piled up in him. Like last time they broke up after Jeb had a crush on Jack after Vlad's death.
Jeb just doesn't know how to deal with irrational, angry Saiwa. The others tell him to just give him some time and he will calm down eventually. But that hadn't worked last time either - and they had been separated for months! Jeb stared into nowhere, lost in his thoughts and fears. Another potion fail...
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Jeb knows that Saiwa is convinced that he isn't good enough for Jeb. And he still doesn't understand what Saiwa sees in him.
How Jeb and Saiwa see themselves:
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Vs how Sai sees Jeb and how Jeb sees Sai:
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What Jeb doesn't know is, that Sai (and Jack too!) always was jealous of him and Kiyoshi. (Even I don't know what past these two have. All I know is, that they already had been friends long before they met the others. And they do have a special conection. They are even able to meet in the Otherworld (long before the others were able to travel there) and Jeb shared Kiyoshi's burden when he was in the Tree.)
Jeb calls it a day. He can't concentrate and he's only wasting his valuable materials. They can't go on like this. They need to find a solution - soon.
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'I am sailing, I am sailing home again, 'cross the sea I am sailing stormy waters to be near you, to be free
I am flying, I am flying like a bird 'cross the sky I am flying, passing high clouds to be with you, to be free
Can you hear me? Can you hear me? Through the dark night, far away I am dying, forever crying To be with you, who can say
We are sailing, we are sailing home again, 'cross the sea We are sailing stormy waters to be near you to be free'
Sailing - Rod Stewart Link above leads to the MV on youtube. Just Rod Stewart on a boat, I could listen and watch him for hours... (TMI: Baby Jane was one of the first vinyl singles I've ever bought (in the early 80s (I still have it!) ^^' And I still think Rod Stewart is one of the most talented, beautiful and hottest men who ever walked on this planet :)
From the Beginning  ~  Underwater Love ~  Latest 🛺 'Home happy Home' from the beginning ▶️ here 📚 Previous Chapters: Chapters: 1-6 ~ 7-12 ~ 13-16 ~ 17-22 ~ 23-28
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Coming to Bandcamp March 1st!!!!!! Then to Spotify and the other places a little later. Pre-Order now (if you want)
1. The Retirement Home Waltz 2. Word Vomit 3. Sounds from the Basement 4. Sharpie 5. Boring Balance 6. Were You Dropped On The Head? 7. Giraffe 8. Mistake 9. Just cause my body's reacting, doesn't mean I'm turned on 10. Kicked Out 11. Neither Easy Or Worth It 12. Doomed 13. Fight 14. Letters to Ex Friends 15. The Grass Turns Black, And My Ambition Is Dead
My new release "The Grass Turns Black, And My Ambition Is Dead" continues my trajectory of making noisy folk / alt tracks with a very heavy focus on lyrics and unorthodox recording styles. While I am proud of my previous releases, this record sees me returning from a 2-year recording hiatus with much stronger vocals and a lot more music knowledge. Plus, a better understanding of how to get across my rather brooding messages. Across 15 tracks and 50 minutes, I WILL BECOME THE NEXT UNDERGROUND SENSATION.
In addition, this might be tmi but it's on the record now so there's not much I can do about it. I've experienced sexual assault/coercion a few times in my life, and it's had a greatly negative impact on the way I view a lot of things. On this record, I have a song that directly relates to one of those experiences, which will be my first time discussing it outside of close friends.
Aside from that, the record touches on themes of mental illness, insomnia, obsessive love, finding meaning through artistic expression, and also directly addresses the listener on multiple occasions inviting them into my brain in a weirdly cult like manner. We are Legion and all.
On this record I find myself being more personal, heartfelt, and passionate than ever before, and I really think I have something worthwhile to say. Thanks for reading, hope you get a chance to listen.
Huge thank you to my incredible girlfriend Bella, and to everyone who has supported me since I was 16-17.
Y'all over here on tumblr are the first to know:)
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em03z25 · 1 month
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Chapter 3, Bedroom.
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You awake to the soft sound of rain against a building. This ASMR playlist was truly way better to wake up with than an alarm blaring. Lazily, you searched the bedside for your phone without moving much from your sleeping position. Peacefully scrolling through the notifications from overnight, primarily consisting of interactions with the photographs you’ve uploaded to Tumblr. Unfortunately, the peace only lasts for about three minutes until your phone starts ringing. Minho’s contact name pops up on the screen: ‘Mean Bunny 🐇' 
You almost forgot about the inebriated man from last night being downstairs. 
“Hello?" you grumble into the phone. You knew Minho would call, but you had hoped it wouldn’t be this early. 
"Well, good morning, sunshine! Ah, it’s not even eleven yet; I didn’t think you’d answer so quickly. Better yet, you actually even be awake." he said cheerily. You hear a giggle in the background and identify it as Han Jisung. Not surprisingly, they are a package deal nowadays. You groan as you sit up and slightly stretch out your legs. 
“Why wouldn’t I be awake before noon, Minho?" you ask, attempting to lead the conversation towards the subject, which is the man knocked out downstairs. You're still not over how he was trying to push a stranger into your bedroom. 
“I just assumed that since Chan never came out of your house, you finally got laid. I’m pretty sure it’s been like a year," he quipped. His remark sends you into a coughing fit; you were actually choking on your spit. As much as you love Jisung, you prefer the details of your sex life to stay between you and your best friend. It's too much of a TMI between you and someone who isn't that close to you yet. Once you regain composure, you bring the phone back up to your ear. 
"Listen, Minho, I would appreciate it if you didn’t attempt to get me laid anymore," you scoff at him. “Do you know how annoying it is to have a best friend who only thinks about setting you up with every guy he meets on campus?" you sigh. Chan was only the last straw; over the past month, there have been five men sent to bother you by Minho. The very last one ended up with you being followed on the way home until you pulled out your stun gun on the guy. You hear Jisung in the background again, but this time he agrees with you. Thankfully, someone in that house actually has a brain. 
“Okay, I know the last few have been a little much, but I promise you that Chan is a great guy... Like genuinely, I even saw him help an old lady cross the street once.” he added. “Plus, he’s a Libra, and I know you mentioned something about how much you loved those people once!” he laughs, earning another sigh from you. 
“When are you coming to get him off my floor?" you ask. It’s too early to argue with him about astrology and your love for most Libras. Your eyebrows knit together when you hear Minho and Jisung giggle together. 
“Oh, we’re not coming by. We mean it when we say you both need to get laid.” and with that, he hung up the phone. You take a deep breath before swinging your legs from underneath the warm covers. After taking your pill and a few sips of water, you decide to shower before facing the man downstairs. It’ll give you more time to think about what to say to him. You’re totally not stalling because he’s quite literally the most breathtaking human being you’ve seen all year.
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This is also on ao3 by me, snowballing97, please do not copy my work or post it elsewhere. -em :)
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jmdbjk · 1 year
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White Day, Pt. 1
 JK spent the evening of March 14 with us. As most of you know, White Day in South Korea is equivalent to Valentine’s Day in that the gift-giving and whatnot between lovers is switched and the giver becomes the receiver, etc. So at 8:11 (ahem) JK fires up Weverse Live and spends 49 minutes and 38 seconds with us and ends it right at 9:01 (ahem)...the giver that he is... We thank you Jungkookie.
He shares some TMI’s with us... never in a million years did I ever think I would be listening raptly as he tells about having a few zits extracted while at the skin clinic...
And how adorable while he was explaining the sous vide cooking technique. Sous vide is when you cook vacuumed sealed seasoned food, usually meat, in hot water of a certain temperature for several hours. Very time consuming but with delicious results.
I am surprised he had those bottles of whiskey right up in the camera. Weren’t we NOT supposed show or mention brand names during lives? Didn’t we get in trouble for that a while back and we were careful about avoiding that before? Hmmm?
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Suntory is expensive Japanese whiskey. So was that Talisker whiskey. Johnnie Walker is the cheap stuff. 
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And JK affirming that we do indeed only have one life and that life is short. According to Kookie, you must have fun and drink all the whiskey you want while you can...he spent quite a few minutes discussing alcohol because Armys in the comments were crossing that boundary big time when they really need to shut the fuck up and stop preaching and let the man live his life how he wants to. He can’t go out in public, he can’t have a relationship with someone else in public, and now y’all want to make him stop something he thoroughly enjoys while he’s doing it in his own home? Let the man indulge in the simple pleasure of having a drink for god’s sake. He’s going to enlist soon and he won’t even be able to do that when he wants to. 
He drifts through a playlist...more of a viber than a real listener. The two songs he did deliberately stop on were There for You by Troye Sivan and Mistletoe by Justin Beiber. He acknowledged that he associates There for You with he and Jimin’s trip to Tokyo. He also sang/hummed along to Mistletoe which is the song he and Jimin sang in Korean and posted it as Christmas Day only on Bangtan TV.
He obviously was trying to get a club vibe on and Armys were being so Mom about it. He was chit-chatting with us like we were all sitting around the table drinking and vibing at the club. I enjoyed our date. The fun police need to get lost.
According to him, it’s too late for him to learn English. I disagree. I am trying to teach myself Korean and I am a few years past the age of 25. It’s never too late. But I do agree that English is a hard language to learn. When you have words like clothes and close... their, they’re, there... you’re, your... see what I mean? But I think his attitude about learning English is just his personality dictating his thought process about it. 
He gave us an update on Bam, said he was doing better. He also reassured us that we’d see him and Bam together again later... very often... YAY! He said this after telling us the eye drops he just used on his own eyes were supposed to be for Bam...
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JK is a true Belieber too. He admits it. 
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And then he started being very charming at the end of White Day Live Part 1 when he was trying to speak English and switched to Korean and fumbled words and admitted he can’t speak any language very well...HAHAHAHA such a cutie. 
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Honestly, he’s got a good start in English, he just needs to practice daily with fluent English speakers who can help him along. He admitted he needs someone who will crack the whip on him and make him study.
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Same, same, Kookie. Y’all, that’s his personality through and through. He will live like a rock until he is made to get up off his butt. I love him so much. 
The way he speaks to us during these lives is the best thing ever. Like we are his best friends sitting around having a drink. 
So he tells us he will be back and leaves when he does because he was watching the clock and he signs off right at 9:01. He might not be a planner but he had a plan for White Day Live Pt. 1 and mission accomplished.
He then proceeded to change clothes and do another live. Then changed clothes again and did another live. Then did a last quick live. 4 parts in one night. And left telling us to look forward to midnight when something amazing would happen: Jimin’s MV teaser.
I will be back with my ramblings on Parts 2, 3 and 4 soon. 
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BUTTerfly Tattoo —M.L
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》in which you get a butterfly tattoo on your ass as a surprise for Mark since he loves your butt so much.
Warning: definitely suggestive,humorous (at least I tried), alot of dialog, alot of talk abt your ass (body worship ig????), mentions of being high, choking, fingering, and pain?? (I mean mark slaps your ass A L O T)
A/N: LISTENNN so I had found that picture on pinterest just cruising around and I was listening to music then mark just popped into my head so I HAD to make something up about it with that picture reference shown above.
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"You think he's gonna like it?" You asked your closest friend, Haechan who you could depend on for any opinion.
"Fuck yeah, Mark Lee is a perv...and so am I because I'm pitching a tent just looking at it." Haechan said.
You pulled your jeans up, "Okay gross, anyways I'm a little nervous because it's not like a small little cute one it takes up half my ass."
" He's gonna love it! It's pretty colors too, and it goes nice with your skin complexion. Your ass is fucking beautiful y/n, you'll be fine!" Haechan waves you off trotting in your kitchen to get another snack.
"Lemme facetime Jaehyun, he's like a pro Ass man." You said.
A few rings and your met with Jaehyun face shoving some food in his mouth, "Wassup Twin."
"Hiii Twin, okay jae I need your opinion on something. And it has something to do with my ass" You say. Jaehyun gave you a suspicious look raising one eyebrow pausing to eat his food.
"I'm all ears??" He suspiciously said.
"Okay are you with anyone?" You questioned him.
"Yeah I'm with jungwoo, are you with mark?" Jaehyun answered.
"No, Haechan."
"Are you trying to get me caught up in a affair scandal?" Jaehyun nonchalantly said.
"No! Just listen! so, I got two butterflies tattooed on my ass and I wanna know what you think and if mark will like it." You explained quickly.
"Show."
Simply with that command, you showed the small portion of your ass to Jaehyun.
"Oh shit, that's fire you should definitely get it." Jaehyun says.
"Yeah I did, right here." You said with an obvious tone.
"WAIT THAT'S REAL?!" Jaehyun widen his eyes getting closer to the camera.
"Yep!"
"I said I got it tattooed."
You giggled at the slight glitch in his voice from the bad internet wherever he's at.
"Sorry, I'm high right now- but that looks dope, it fits your booty so nice I don't know how to explain it." Jaehyun complimented.
"Can I see?" Jungwoo chimes in.
Jaehyun asked you again if he could see, you nodded and Jungwoo took a look.
"DAMN! That's really nice."
Jaehyun agreed with Jungwoo, "Mark might have a heart attack seeing it, he's gonna love the fact that you have butterflies on your ass. He's a perv."
"I SAID THE SAME!" Haechan also chimed in putting his hands in the air.
"I don't know if I'm liking yall calling my man a pervert even though it's true but that's besides the point." You chuckled.
"Listen as an ass man, I would love for my chick to have a sick ass tattoo on her butt so like when I fuck her from behind I can see not only her beautiful ass but also beautiful art." Jaehyun elaborated.
"I swear you guys never know when something is TMI" you said.
"I'm just saying"
Jaehyun sipped on his drink, and with that you said your farewells to him and jungwoo before ending the call.
"So now do you believe me?" Haechan raised his eyebrows with folded arms.
"I guess so."
"Now can we go to the mall like you promised? I'm starving." Haechan rubbed his belly.
You nodded grabbing your keys, Haechan jumped off the couch following you like a excited puppy.
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You came back to your house with haechan following suite with all your bags in his hand, he struggled getting inside the house.
"Uh.. a little help?!" Haechan cried out, you opened the door up more letting him inside.
You saw Mark and Johnny standing in the kitchen looking at Haechan struggle with the heavy bags in his hands.
You placed your small purse on the counter, also watching the poor boy struggle.
"Here let me help you." Johnny suggested, he picked up 2 bags placing them on the counter as well.
Haechan could finally lift them up on the kitchen island.
" Hi love, You must've had fun today." Mark scanned you up and down admiring you before pulling you in for a kiss, resting his hand on your hip.
"I did, I very much did. You know how it goes, Haechan kinda lost in a game of rock paper scissors." You said, Mark replying with a soft 'ahh'.
"Never EVER have me keep your girl company while you are gone, NEVER EVER." Haechan huffed and puffed aggressively trying to catch his breath.
"They weren't even that-"
"Don't." Haechan put a finger infront of Johnny's face.
"You got alot of stuff baby." Mark rubs the dip in your back.
" It's not even that much, plushies, some clothes, lingerie, other accessories, hair products some are mine some are yours." You said.
You knew that smirk anywhere, Mark knew what time it was once you named Lingerie.
"Don't you have like alot of lingerie already?" Mark questioned.
"Not when you keep ripping them up." You say grabbing the hair products out the bags.
Mark only shyly laughed before slapping your butt, the pain from the tattoo and the slap only reminded you what you had to do today.
"Ahem! We are still present!" Johnny excused.
At this point all of you and Mark's friends knew about the tattoo except Mark.
"Now that I've caught my breath, I want to leave." Haechan announced.
Johnny was ready to go as well, "Oh I didn't bring my car here because I thought it would be a good idea to walk and burn some calories, so you're driving me home."
He explained to haechan as he grabbed his phone from the counter.
"I guess I'm just everyone's slave around here." Haechan said.
"Guess you are." Mark gave him a sheepish look tilting his head.
Haechan gave him the middle finger before exiting the house, "Night lil bro" Johnny closed their front door.
After a little silence, Mark's attention suddenly shifted towards you, beginning to feel nervous you poured yourself a glass of wine.
"So about these lingerie, you gonna try them on for me?" Mark questioned peeking through the bags.
"I mean, if it makes you happy." You smirked drinking your wine.
Mark looked at you trying to read your expression, he felt as if you're hiding something from him with that slightly mischievous grin on your face.
"What's wrong baby? Is there something on your mind?" Mark gripped your waist kissing down your neck.
"I have a surprise for you." You said.
"Hmm? A surprise?" Mark continued to place kisses on your neck and collar bone.
"Yeah take a guess, even though I know you Won't ever get it." You say with full confidence.
"You got new toys?"
"Nope"
"You have a costume in there?"
"Nah"
"You got nipple piercings?"
"No, but not a bad idea.."
"Oh my god..." Mark finally let's go of your neck, looking down at your stomach.
"Oh my god you're PREGNANT?!" Mark nearly squealed in excitement.
"What? No!" You said.
"Oh..." Mark pouted rubbing the back of his neck.
"Good to know if I was you'd be excited, anyways I'm gonna reveal it to you. Follow me" You said.
You led mark to the bedroom, Mark slapped your butt again.
"Mark stop it's a little sore."
"Still? It's been 2 weeks since then, I couldn't possibly have smacked it that hard"
"You're more heavy handed than you think you are." You simply replied, you lead him inside the bedroom.
He started lurking around to see if the present was perhaps in here, you ordered him to sit down and he did so at once.
"Did you get a whip?" Mark guessed for the several time.
"No, I'll be right back."
You went into the bathroom with a new pair of lingerie, you slipped the set on. It was a pastel blue color with lacey material.
"It's totally a costume, babe you literally could've said I was right the first time."
You walked out the bathroom then you hid yourself behind the bedroom door frame, " are you ready?"
Mark replied with a simple yes and you stepped out with a exaggerated pose, Mark definitely was excited but not all that surprised considering you've worn many lingerie around him.
"Oh shit babe, you look so sexy" Mark said, he walked up to you snaking his hand on your waist squeezing the love handles.
"This isn't really the surprise though," You reminded you kissed his lips gingerly, "I'll give you a hint it's on my body."
"You got a clit piercing?" Mark questioned.
"No! What is with you and piercings? Is it like a kink?" You asked.
"I don't know it sounds like something impulsive you would do." Mark shrugged, you only smirked.
Mark grabbed your ass again, he maneuvers his way behind you and then you grinned even wider. His idea was to start teasing you but his eyes were glued to your ass once he saw it.
Your tattoo.
"Dude..." Mark paused his entire world stopped to look at it, "an ass tattoo.."
You looked at him over your shoulder biting down on your lip with a grin, "Do you like—"
"AN ASS TATTOO?! SHIT THIS IS GORGEOUS!" Mark exclaimed, he kneaded your butt in his hands just staring at the art.
The smile on his face was like a kid in the toy store, this may have made him fall even more in love with you.
"I got it a day ago, I had asked everyone if you think you'll like it. I was nervous about it, I already liked it." You explained.
"You like it, I fucking love it!! This is actually so hot of you," Mark paused for a minute, "wait..does that mean haechan saw your ass?"
"Uh yeah? Jaehyun saw, johnny, jungwoo, Yuta, Jaemin, and Jeno y'know all the ass guys." You clarified.
"Get on the bed." You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion, you surely hoped that you didn't just make him jealous.
"Please I- I need to see it clearer, get on the bed, lay on your belly." Mark pleaded, you found his frantic state adorable as you silently obeyed.
Crawling onto the bed, laying flat on your stomach as Mark instructed, he sat on the bed sitting next to you. He started to grope your butt for the umpteenth time, he gave it a few smacks. Mark seeing the recoil everytime he hit it only made him hypnotized.
"Fuck princess, your ass is just so beautiful even more with this gorgeous tattoo. This was one of your best decisions ever." Mark gushed.
"I'm glad you like it Markie." You smiled at him watching his every move.
"Yo, I might just be obsessed."
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You were draped over his lap whimpering for him, your ass was beyond sore and you were soaked.
Mark gave you no mercy, smacking your ass repeatedly and teasing your folds. He held your head up with his hand around your neck, he entered two fingers inside you slowly he fucked you painfully slow.
"You're so wet from me abusing your ass, you like when I slap it like this?" Mark's hand collides with your booty again even harder than the last 20-ish slaps, he soothed the pain with generous rubs and grips.
He had let go of your neck and started to focus on your pussy, he had a cheek in one hand and had two fingers pleasuring you with the other.
You're afraid he's not going to keep his hands off of you for awhile because of this tattoo.
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lady-of-endless · 2 months
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I saw you were doing matchups and I would love to join in❤️
Id prefer a male
My eyes and hair tend to be my most prominent features. My eyes are really blue with some yellow around the iris. My hair is long brown thick and wavy and 90% it gives off mermaid vibes. I am fairly short and most of the time I get mocked for it. And like I get it because I only know a single person that is shorter than me. That being said I give back what I receive so mock me and I will roast you.
I am an ambivert. I like being around people but silence and stillness is preferred more times than not. I am the friend you can count on for anything. Literally nothing is tmi. I am also very meticulous and analytical. Like numbers, logistics and statistics is my jam. Really scratches the itch in my brain. Always been a good problem solver and I prefer to do things my way. Will genuinely get upset if someone starts helping me with asking if I want help. Not even upset. It will ruin my day, and I will hold a grudge at least until the task is complete. Sometimes I get too focused though and will just completely zone out. There really is no way to reach me when that happens. You just have to wait it out😅
I do love a good laugh at the end of the day and I prefer to spend my time happy rather than waste it being sad and angry. I really can be one of those annoyingly positive people and especially in the morning😅
Hope you have an amazing day/night/whatever it is for you!❤️😊
Author's Note: Thank you for your lovely request! You seem like such a complex and wonderful person! Hope you'll like it!
I ship you with...Trafalgar D Water Law!
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- You two will not get closer to one another as allies, friends, or anything like that. Straight up you two won't stand each other initially. (Be patient, it will get better)
- At first, he thinks you're just a pretty woman who would get his crewmates or Sanji to fall head over heels and that's all. Sike.
- He's surprised by how logical and analytical you are. He starts to think that if you let your differences aside, you two can come up with effective plans and strategies.
- Law will respect that you're an ambivert, he gets how complex your personality is from that.
- However, expect him to tease you, only because he knows you'll always have a comeback. He enjoys this back-and-forth going on between you.
- He realizes he is drawn to you when he sees how you're always there for your dear ones if they need help. From that moment on, he gets more protective over you, but it's something really subtle (expect him to tower from behind you, looking at a threat with narrowed eyes, without you feeling it). He knows that you can protect yourself just fine but his fear of losing someone again gets him to act like that.
- Law learned his lesson not to try to help you when you got it under control, although this bold independence worries him at times.
- The Heart Pirates will notice all of their captain's subtle changes and sometimes will tease him for falling for a mermaid, like a true pirate lol.
- After he gets attached, he starts to worry more about you overworking yourself. Yes, he is also guilty of overworking and thinking he can handle it just fine, like you. But it's you...he needs you to be healthy.
- I can picture this: him trying to distract you during the day so that you will take a break and you trying to distract him at the end of the day to finish his things and just rest a bit.
- At the end of the day, he'll like to listen to you talk about just anything. It's the time in which you two bond together the most.
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Hi, Jade!! This is probably not the place for this ask, so please feel free to ignore it. But I'm in need of advice or more like a listening ear and you're the one I thought could help. So at almost 24 years old I've never had a relationship, never even kissed and, to keep it short, I see myself as quite a loser in general, and I just met a guy that seemed like a potential romantic interest and he asked me on a date and my mind started racing anyway and I'm scared shitless of all the things that come with a relationship. I'm afraid if I don't address this, I will sabotage the whole thing, but I don't know how.
I'm sorry if this is tmi or not the place for such thing
hi honey don’t be sorry—
I get messages like this every now and then, of course not the exact same, but usually someone who feels down about themselves because of a lack of romantic experiences who’s worried it’ll reflect poorly on them when they do try to be romantic. I don’t personally think it makes you a loser, and anyone who DOES think you’re a loser is a jerk. I don’t mean to be annoying or bossy or rude to you and im sure you know yourself and im not saying YOU are a jerk, and you could even say there’s nothing bad about being a loser anyways, but also you’re not a loser and it’s no reflection of your heart that you haven’t been in a relationship or kissed someone. I think love is awfully difficult. I mean I think it’s great that you have thought to yourself about how you might sabotage this if you don’t address how you’re feeling. I’m not a therapist but I defo think that self reflection is great and it’s like the first step to your solution. I think that it’s natural to be nervous about stuff you’ve not experienced, like, what if he does want to kiss you, and what if you’re not a very good kisser yet! But I also think that anyone worth kissing won’t mind if you’re not very good at it to begin with, or that you’ve never done it before. The only love worth your time is a patient one, full of understanding (but obviously this doesn’t make it less terrifying!!) there are definitely videos you can watch about this, not just kissing but the intimacies of relationships, there are videos about how to hold hands! There’s no shame in not knowing something!! And every one person or relationship is different so it’s not like you’d be the only one learning, your partner will have to learn about you too
altogether I think you’re right in that panicking about this might sabotage it before it’s even happened, and adding weight to things can make them so scary when they aren’t. Milllions and billions of people have fallen in love before us without a manual and im sure they’ll do it again, but you’re not wrong to be worried either!! Depending on how worried you are, you could talk to a friend, the potential partner, you could even talk to a chat service or helpline. tl;dr — it’s okay to be scared about this, but you aren’t a loser, tons of people don’t know a thing about love at your age and you’ll learn as you go. there will probably be things you don’t like, but im sure there will be double good!!
I hope this helps, and I really hope none of it comes off as though im patronising or condescending you because it isn’t my intent at all. I’m not an expert but just from my own life experience this is what I think of it. I really hope things go well for you and that you make decisions that make you happy!!!!
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[July 18, 2023 6:26PM] disclaimer: long post ahead. This might be TMI for some; you can skip it.
To those who are new to my dash [yes, I followed some in the last few months because I wanted to see new people], Hi, I'm Jelli! It was nice to be your mutual here.
As usual, I just woke up again because I slept late last night due to one of my major subject submissions at 11:59 p.m. Anyway, good evening. Well, maybe good morning if you are living in a different Time Zone. Here's a life update that you didn't ask for:
Well, I have a few more days before my one-week diet and my therapy. I've been waiting for this time to share what's really happening to me alone. I've been receiving messages lately; some were asking how I was doing, some were already aware of my health condition, which I have shared here, and some were just skipping those posts because that's really what they were supposed to be.
I've already mentioned this in my previous posts, [but let me repeat it again because who cares, right?] I was diagnosed in April 2023 with a non-toxic goiter and underwent surgery in May 2023. One week after I was discharged, my biopsy result came out, and I was diagnosed with papillary thyroid carcinoma [this is curable, by the way; it's just that I'm really scared at its finest because we have a strong family history when it comes to this type of illness]. Yes, you can do your own research on what that is [if you would like], but that was really the term that I would like to go for. In other words, I'm not yet done with medications, laboratories, and hospital admissions. Frankly speaking, it's really hard to accept it at first, but I really need to, because for me, acceptance is really the best thing that I can do to go on with my day while I'm waiting for my next doctor's appointment. I am just hoping for the best with my radioactive iodine therapy on the 31st. It might be a little harder for me and for my loved ones because I need to be isolated for 3–5 days and another 15 days once discharged.
Due to my health condition, I've been on leave since April 10, 2023, and I'm still not sure if I will go back to work or not. We'll see after my therapy and recuperation period. Despite my current situation, I will still be able to retain my academic achievement as part of the president's list from last semester. For sure, you were able to see it if we are friends on Facebook.
I was able to see my longtime friends from 2013 on July 9, 2023. I've been missing in action for four years due to personal matters. I had a great night with them and with our partners, just like in the old days. It might be a short period of time that has been allotted for that dinner because we have our priorities the next day, but it's really memorable for me. I am truly grateful to have them in my life.
There's nothing new that happened in my life during the second quarter because of my current situation. Aside from me trying my luck in freelancing because I really want to change the industry in which I am working, I am also just going back and forth to the hospital, and prior to that, I was given a chance to go celebrate my Birthday with @/niiiikkotin and @/p0poynawalangbasha weekend after the holy week last April 2023, visit Nikko's family mid-April 2023, and take a long week vacation with my family last May 2–5, 2023.
I think is the best thing that I could share here. If you will ask me, How am I doing? I am currently okay while I'm typing this. But still, not every day is a good day. I still have days when I'm at my lowest physically, financially, emotionally, and mentally, but I know how strong I am and I can get through this. A little progress every day is still progress for me. I hope everything goes well in the next few days.
If you reach this point in your reading, thank you for taking the time. We might not be that close personally, but I still appreciate you listening to [or, initially, just reading] my chika. Have a great night, and take care always!
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Lemme hold one of them nijisanji matchups 😛😛 (sfw) or (both) BOTH
Gender: Female
Pronouns: She/Her
Sexuality: Pansexual
Appearance: OMGGG walk with me now. Right now im a little bald headed (jk but i had to cut my shit into a pixie cut bc i kept dying it too damn much 😞✊🏾), i am African American mixed with Somalian, I’m like 5’5 or 5’6 idfk 😭, ive been doing my squats plus i got those natural genetics so my booty is literally so humongous (HOUR GLASS 🗣️🗣️) (tmi?) it literally thunder claps when i walk i be getting scared sometimes 😅😅 (jk jk…), i have four piercings on my 🍒’s , lower back, eyebrow and belly button, i also have a butterfly tattoo behind my ear. ermm im pretty sure that’s it, my eyes are black and doe-like 💁🏾‍♀️
Personality: im just wild fr idek. jk but personally i feel like im a chill person and my friends think im really cool to hang around. my social battery is always up 100 but all you gotta do is put me in a crowd of people with some good food and suddenly im the most quietest person on earth 🤩
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
MBTI Type: ESFJ
Likes: Cats, food, stargazing, psychological horror movies, needle pain (not in a freaky way but like that pain you get from tattoos or piercings ykwim? 😅), dark green, food, reading, taking naps, food.
Dislikes: traveling (my motion sickness is so bad dude), waking up early, loud and obnoxious people, wet dog smell, fireworks (the colors >>> the sound), dark ness, butterflies. (laugh it up but i have such a huge fear of them, like they’re actually horrifying)
Hobbies: read, paint, listen to music, making music (album dropping december 43rd), baking
Quotes: OMGG I LOVE THIS
“it’s because im black huh…” (my friend wouldn’t share her fries), “i bet barack obama wouldn’t treat me like this”, “if we were on the titanic… i would’ve let you get on the door with me”, “my head is getting so fucking huge”, “THE HOES ARE CALLING”, “what if water was fire and fire was water.. like imagine someone saying ‘MY HOUSE IS ON WATER’, “*using tiktok filter* my soulmate initials start with a b?! omg bvox bakuma 🥺”, “idk im in the christmas sprit (as im taking off my Halloween costume)
Secret: I had gotten grounded this one time so when my mom was out running errands I snuck out to a friends house. I was getting a little hungry as usual so I was like “let me borrow your car so I can get us me some food” and she said alright. I went to the mall since i was really craving mall food at the time and right when I was walking out GUESS who’s car I see MY MOMS!!! when i tell you I BOOKED it to my friends car and hopped in the driver seat (thank goodness she didn’t see me in the mall because WHEW) anywho, right when i was about to pull off her ass wanna walk out of the mall and like a total dumbass instead of pulling off, my ass gon duck and slouch in the seat so she couldn’t see me 💀💀. as soon as she got into her car i started up my friends car and the craziest shit happen WE BOTH BACK OUT AT THE SAME TIME (her car was park backwards and mines was forward) I ended up scraping her car up pretty bad and THANK YOUUUU she didn’t recognized the car or see me either 😭. but anyways i pulled tf off 🌚 and zoomed to my friends house, dropped the car off, and literally RAN home. i hid the food under my bed and deadass acted like i was sleep so like 15 minutes later when she came back home she burst into my room like “GUESS WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED” and she started screaming about how a non-driving, blind, stupid bitch scratched her car and the whole time Im just sitting there like 😦 “damn that’s crazyyyy” and until this day she still think a random person scraped her car but uhm…. (which made it even funnier is that she literally came home with mall food for me so i was eating DOUBLE GOOD that day 😋)
Miscellaneous: im such a huge cat person im trying to break the world record (28000) with the most cats owned.
A/N: Okay you are CHAOS and you know who will love that?
VOX AKUMA
Your personality is like a lot, in the good way, and ass? Our demon lord REALLY loves you.
He is a pretty loud and interesting person, but somehow he managed to slip his way into your life like the (not so) little shit he is <3
I feel you being so spontaneous is something he will adore about you, the vibes you give off just keeps attracting him, like a moth to flame and god does he love it.
With your sense of humor, and his combined you both will constantly be at risk of getting cancelled, and you know what? Maybe it's not too bad as long as both of you are laughing.
Despite the 'action-ey' parts of your relationship I believe intimate moments are sacred.
While for Vox, sleep isn't a requirement, he will most definitely come cuddle you while telling you how beautiful you are to him even if you are balding, he wants to make you laugh don't blame him.
On this topic, somno. That's all, that's everything. Those 'innocent' moments don't remain innocent for too long. Soon enough you will find yourself asleep after a long day or just possibly eating really good food, you look so peaceful to him.
Would that stop Vox from sneaking his hands up your shirt in a not-so innocent manner, touching your piercings and whispering about how tempting you are even when you're sleeping.
You'd probably wake up to him rocking his hips against your behind, his hands groping your tits, breathing heavily into your neck. How dare you reduce him to such a state?
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libra-stellium · 3 months
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Visiting my Astrocartography Mars/MC line for a week
This is the description from astro.com which sounds like a great place to visit for me right now because I’m trying to either get promoted at my job or get a new job soon or both lol
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For some reason people really hate their mars line???? All I kept seeing was people saying how horrible it was when they lived on it or visited it 😭😭 I was like damn I had great expectations! I only saw one short YT video saying how they love living on their mars line and have been more active physically and socially. I heard someone say that the second they got off the plane they were just angry lmao which is hilarious to me like you were just angry at nothing??? 🤣 and I also saw stuff about how aggressive men were and they hated it lol I don’t think the ones I saw said what their mars placement is and what aspects they have but honestly even if we had the same exact ones I think it may be about perspective and what you’re used to lol
I have my mars in Scorpio in 9H. I have Mars trine saturn in pisces and mars trine ascendant in pisces so no harsh aspects.
A general theme for this week was very mars like bc I did Knott’s Berry Farm, Disneyland and Universal and visited so lots of walking and action the entire week!
Sunday - literally at the plane doors when I landed in LA a male flight attendant pretend to grab my leftovers from my hands like “oh is that for me? Thank you so much!” 😂😂 I was like oh this is the aggressive men on the mars line! But I just joked back at him lol
Monday - I broke EIGHT nails!!!!! 😭😩 one was like 🙄 but by 4 I was telling my bestie “would you believe me if I told you another one is gone?” And she knew immediately that I was talking about my nails 🤣 none of them broke too far down so it wasn’t painful and I don’t think my mars line “made” then break lol I think they were weak and being held together by my nail polish so when I took it off bc it was chipped my nails were like “it’s time to let go” 😩 everyone was super nice so nothing else happened that day! I didn’t bring my work phone with me so who knows what was happening at work 🤷🏾‍♀️
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Tuesday - i feel like there were some aggressive people throughout the day but not directed only at me lol bc it was the park workers at Disney just being like THIS IS A WALK WAY ONLY KEEP MOVING when we stopped to take pictures of the parade. I also found out that the shoes I wore the day before gave me a blister on the bottom of my toe which was so painful
Wednesday - I feel like this was the most mars line day tbh bc I got my period that morning and I did “surgery” on myself 😂 bc of where my blister was I had to pop it safely (TMI incoming) so I doordashed a first aid kit and a sewing kit and I sterilized the needle and drained the blister and it’s insane how the pain was gone right after that! Then I went to go visit the Observatory to see LA and the Hollywood sign and that was really cute but then a bee flew into my friend’s hair and she was freaking out and I’m allergic but I could see it so I had to do something so she didn’t get stung! I used my phone like a paddle and beat it out of her hair and it fell on the ledge in front of us and I pushed it off 😩 then we went to In-N-Out and some guy tried to take my order for his friend lol I was 7 and his friend was 12 and he was like oh I thought you said 12…..🙄 also on the day to the observatory I realized that I had a lot of requirements to fulfill before I could renew my bar license 💀 I deadass thought I just had to do the CLEs and pay but I have to find a mentor too?? 😩 so I was listening to the CLEs on the long car rides.
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Thursday - Another Mars/MC day because I was listening to more CLEs during car rides and I looked up who I could email and ask to be my mentor! I was at universal that day and nothing major mars like happened lol and honestly idk why aggressive men was something that people emphasized bc they were all really nice to me 😂 even the Grinch! This girl did have an attitude towards me while we were watching a show bc we were standing there for 30 min and she shows up and tries to stand in front of me and I’m 4’11 and she was at least 5’5?? And she motioned for her bf to come stand in front of me too and he refused and told her to come back and she was brooding the rest of the show 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️ After that our Lyft driver was so nice bc the app sent him to a different location than where the park told us to go get rides and he came and found us instead of canceling! 💕 and his car was so nice and smelled so good!
Friday - traveling day! Again dealing with really nice men 😂 bc I was in line for this place to get coffee and a pastry and the person skipped over me bc she couldn’t see me and the guy behind me was like “someone’s down here” 🤣🤣 and then later this other guy was just making small talk with me while we waited for our stuff lol but the cashier??? Who was a girl literally told me she wasn’t “spelling all that out” when I told her my name and spelled it out and she said I would have a nickname for the day 💀💀 my name is 5 letters long lmao she shortened it to 3? Like okay I guess?? 😂
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Now I’m home and I checked my work phone and nothing happened while I was gone but today they sent an email congratulating the intern (who was there for 4 months and is still in law school) for accepting an attorney position in our office and I’ve been there for 2.5 years and it did make me feel some type of way bc 🤔🤔🤔 no one offered even after I got barred but they offered it to the person who hasn’t completed the degree yet and doesn’t have a bar license yet…?? I have been trying to get out so 😂 I’m not toooooo mad bc also that’s not the field of work I want to be doing long term but idk it’s the principle lol also I don’t remember which day but I saw something about the federal cost of living being increased for 2024 and I think fed govt employees get a pay increase bc of that?? I’m hoping that contractors like me do too!
Overall: Mars/MC line was a fun little time and productive trip! I feel like if you’re quick to anger I can see where you’d end up being really angry on your mars line but I just be looking at people in disbelief tryna figure out what possessed them to act like that towards me and then I just laugh and move on lol I didn’t like LA that much it was way too crowded for me omg but I’m not a fan of New York either and I feel like they’re similar 🤷🏾‍♀️ I would definitely go back and visit other parts of California tho!!
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imnotavamp1r3 · 3 months
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♡ TMI tag!!! ♡
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So the other day I was watching some of Eugenia Cooney's old videos since I used to watch them a lot as a kid. I found some of her tag videos and I guess I thought it'd be fun to do one of those 2015 Youtube tags but on Tumblr. I'm not sure if this is going to be that interesting but yeah. You can watch Eugenia's video here btw.
🎀 What are you wearing?
I'm wearing a Misfits Marilyn Monroe t-shirt, black cargo pants, a skeleton hand bracelet, and Hello Kitty headphones because I'm listening to music right now.
🎀 Have you ever been in love?
I've had crushes but I doubt I've ever been in love
🎀 Have you ever had a terrible break up?
No
🎀 How tall are you?
168 cm or 5'6
🎀 How much do you weigh?
Last time I got weighed I think it said something like 105 lbs
🎀 Do you have any tattoos?
No
🎀 Do you have any piercings?
No and I don't even have my ears pierced
🎀 What's your OTP?
Buffy x Angel
🎀 What's your favourite show?
Gravity Falls
🎀 What are your favourite bands?
I love so many but The Pretty Reckless, Paramore, Tally Hall, Pierce The Veil, and Sleeping With Sirens are probably my top five.
🎀 What's something you miss?
Nigahiga
🎀 What's your favourite song?
I don't think I really have a favourite song but my top song on Spotify every year is always Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless so I guess that's my favourite.
🎀 How old are you?
16
🎀 What's your zodiac sign?
I'm a Gemini but I don't really know what that means other than that I'm apparently evil.
🎀 What do you look for in a partner?
I don't know
🎀 What's your favourite quote?
'I'm just a girl'
🎀 Who's your favourite actor?
Anya Taylor-Joy, she's so gorgeous and smart and she always chooses great projects (except for that one time when she was in the Play Mobil movie). She's probably my favourite scream queen too.
🎀 What's your favourite colour?
Probably really obvious but pink
🎀 Loud or soft music?
Loud
🎀 Where do you go when you're sad?
Notes app
🎀 How long does it take you to shower?
When I'm not crying, less than ten minutes
🎀 How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Usually about 10-20 minutes
🎀 Have you ever been in a physical fight?
I have a brother so yeah
🎀 What's a turn on for you?
Guys with long hair, mainly because of Kellin Quinn
🎀 What's a turn off for you?
Guys calling girls 'females'
🎀 Why did you join Tumblr?
I was bored
🎀 What are you afraid of?
Looking dumb and doing badly in school
🎀 What was the last thing that made you cry?
Probably my mom arguing with me the last time we had lunch together.
🎀 When was the last time you said you loved someone?
I think it was to one of my friends but I'm not sure
🎀 What is the meaning behind your username?
It came from the Falling In Reverse song I'm Not a Vampire. There's not really a reason why I chose that song specifically, I just really like vampires. Originally my username was just going to be imnotavampire with no numbers, but that was taken so I added a 13 into vampire.
🎀 What was the last book you read?
Lapvona by Ottessa Moshfegh. I might write a whole post about it because I really enjoyed it.
🎀 What book are you currently reading?
Cleopatra and Frankenstein by Coco Mellors
🎀 What is the relationship between you and the last person you texted?
She's my mom
🎀 What is your favourite food?
Probably apples because they're the thing I eat the most
🎀 What is a place you want to visit?
I would really love to visit the Palace of Versailles. It looks so beautiful and I'm so jealous of all of the French queens who got to live there.
🎀 Where is the last place you were?
Panera Bread parking lot
🎀 Do you have a crush?
Yes, on thirty year old emo men
🎀 When was the last time you kissed someone?
I've never kissed anyone
🎀 When was the last time you were insulted?
The aforementioned lunch with my mom
🎀 What is your favourite flavour of sweets?
Strawberry. I'm so addicted to strawberry flavoured things that someone could tell me their vomit is strawberry flavoured and I'd probably try it.
🎀 What instruments do you play?
I play guitar
🎀 What is your favourite piece of jewellery?
Probably the skeleton bracelet I mentioned before because I wear it the most and my mom hates it.
🎀 What was the last sport you played?
If taking ballet as an elective in middle school counts then ballet
🎀 What is the last song you sang?
I sing a lot so I'm not really sure. Probably Bubblegum Bitch by Marina because I sing it all the time.
🎀 What is your favourite pick up line?
It's a toss up between 'Dang, girl, are you a construction worker? Because you are BUILDING,' and 'I want your bull in my Bronx.'
🎀 Have you ever used it?
No but I will
🎀 When was the last time you hung out with someone?
I have no idea. Really all I do is just rot in my room.
🎀 Who should answer these questions next?
Anyone else who also wants to overshare on the Internet
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That's it, byeeeee!! ˚。⋆୨୧˚♡
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‼️Warning‼️ This is boutta get really TMI but fuck it I don't care
"I really fuck, I wanna cum, so badly, please baby, please...please m-mommy."
THE FUCKING SOUND I MADE???? Idek if it was a moan, a gasp or a squeal or ALL. All ik is I gushed a little- He fucking said MOMMY
...you, bouncing on Minho's cock, his thighs covered in hickeys, his hands fisted into the sheet, hair plastered to his sweaty forehead as he moans wildly.
Burned into my fucking brain. A treasured image. Never to be forgotten. FUCK it's so hot??? Holy fucking shit May THE IMAGE MAY!!
"Need something in my mouth," | "please, let me suck your pretty cock, Jisungie."
Oh. I moaned. I actually, legit moaned.
Jisung stares at you with wide eyes before looking down at Minho.../...he shoots pearly white ropes of his cum into Minho's mouth and all over his beautiful, beautiful face
That entire paragraph from start to finish had me ACTUALLY biting my lip, holding back moans and trying not to let my eyes roll back into my head because WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! THAT WAS SO HOT FOR WHAT??? SO SEXY AND SO FUCKING GORGEOUS!!! The mental image of that is never, I MEAN NEVER, leaving the confines of my brain. It's engrained in there. Forever.
I was practically vibrating the entire time I was reading May that was fucking insane you're fucking insane. You're demented. Truly. There's no way you made this. Read it. Looked at the post button and was like "...They can handle it" *shrug*
BECAUSE I DID NOT FUCKING HANDLE IT MAY!!! You absolutely gorgeous fucking soul. I love you so much wtf why would you do this to me???
Sub!Mino Supremacy
It is a rare delicacy in this establishment and I will pay MILLIONS to watch it if need be. Why can't I exist in that universe of yours??? Please??? Anyone know a witch I can contact??? I need to be in this world. As a part of Y/n's friend group. Who she thought would be an interesting hook-up just like with the rest of Skz. There's no way I could be friends with her, hear about her arrangement and NOT want to hook up with them. No way in hell. Jisung and Minho are fucking gorgeous, exactly my type AND the way you've written them in this universe is fucking PERFECTION. And the way you write Y/n too???
She's so fucking hot JESUS😭😭😭😭
May. I need at least 15-30 business days to recover from this holy fuck-
- 🦁 [ I AM NOT OKAY ]
GIRL I AM SCREAMING, THIS IS KILLING ME THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU
he just said mommy one time, we should all forgive him and never mention it again reader will never forget it and most definitely make him say it again and jisung will nut in his pants when he does
You're demented. Truly. There's no way you made this. Read it. Looked at the post button and was like "...They can handle it" *shrug*
I am hollering, I keep getting called insane today and somehow I keep taking it as a compliment 🤔
There's no way I could be friends with her
listen!! she's the hot girl in all of us!! but yeah, I also wanna be her friend. she exudes such calm, sexy confidence, I love her. (fun fact, i wanted her to be a middle ground between minho's solidness and jisung's sluttiness so she can balance them out)
ANYWAYSSSS AS ALWAYS ILY ILY ILY THANK YOU FOR READING AND ENJOYING AND TELLING ME ABOUT IT!!!
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