#and this was. right after i told her how much i hated my chest asdfghkl

[lady-caden]

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#sorry ima rant in the tags lol #it just. feels more private ya know? cuz like wayyy less ppl will actually read the tags lol #but yeah dyshopria tw ig? #today waa a good day aside from like. my one friend #like i have this one friend that i have a class with and ya know she knows im trans #but she just gets like? rlly upset that i dont rlly like my body agdgdjsks #she constantly is like 'i dont get y u dont like ur figure until i remember why' and its like...yep yeah #and today she said she was wishing she had my figure cuz i had 'big ass tint waist medium chest' #and this was. right after i told her how much i hated my chest asdfghkl #i just. shes trying to b a good ally but. like. she isnt great with this whole trans thing #she wants to hang out one of these days ill prolly bring it up then cuz even when i say i dont rlly like when ya know she brings it up i #always get interupted by the teacher or someone else cuz. school lol #idk i just. gahhhhh having a body ya know? wish i could just. i dont even know. i cant wait till i get older and can start t and even maybe #one day save up enough 4 top surgery #then one day i call this body home ya know? or actually make it feel that way at least #idk how t chnages fat distribution in like thighs/ass but even if that doesnt change too much ig id b ok with lookin like solid snake lol #also istg i only rlly have skinny jeans and leggings cuz they feel nice and i keep jusy tryin to make myself like how I look till i realize #that how most ppl clock im afab :') #whatever ima just distract myself w/hyperpop #ok rant over ! #idk if ima actually keep this up i judt wanted to write it out ya know? #i use tumblr tags like my own personal journal lmaoo #ok well i hope these tags dont get messed up cuz i dont wanna fix em #also srry 4 still bein inactive #its just cuz im busy as hecc lately #rambles