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#and then there's plenty of neurotypical people who just fucking do not care about sharing the conversation
calebwittebane · 1 year
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naur but legitimately. ppl im actually close to to any degree are people i rly rly care about which includes my fiance and my sibling and the two close friends that i have. other than that its like. the kinda bonds where i help them if they need my help and they help me if i need their help, but overall we dont expect each other to be in contact or be close emotionally. because We Live In A Society and its healthy and necessary to maintain mutually beneficial bonds and offer a sense of belonging. and i dont hang out with people and i tend to go places alone and i organize my time based on what i want. really the only hanging out i do is with some of these aforementioned close ones, which is to say mostly my fiance. im not interested in meeting new people, or be involved in Friends Groups. my closed ones dont even rly know one another, like they know about one anothers existence but thats about it, so theres absolutely no possibility of Internal Drama here, theyre each from a different Circle. im super wary of people. i just dont fuck w nobody! if someones attempting to know me well they can try but i can already tell them the outcome. do my long and complicated questline first, if you want to unlock my route. i can be vulnerable w people if it fits into the aforementioned notion of helping and being helped - which is to say there have been people im not like Super close with who have approached me to have a candid conversation about trauma (especially the incest kind), because i offered and because once again thats part of Helping And Being Helped, cuz in this case i think its vital for survivors to stick together and make each other feel heard and understood and not alone, and share own experiences with one another. but Thats Different cuz we're connecting about something that transcends regular human bonds i think. idk its an if you know you know thing, i think. my point is i dont fuck with nobody and im better for it. I Stay Out Of Shite. someone in close proximity having some kinda drama? well phew cause i dont know any of the people involved and dont have any kinda Allegiance and the possibility of making myself look like an idiot to defend a dipshit friend - or making myself look like an idiot And exposing myself to tedious hostility by trying to explain to a dipshit friend that theyre being a dipshit - doesnt even appear on the table. Good. i only concern myself with my own flaws, and brother, i have plenty! i stay in my lane and boy what a bumpy lane full of potholes it is, so i better pay full attention. with the exception of two, maybe three people, I Dont Trust People With Information. i dont subject myself to people. masking is a fucking chore i dont have energy for, why would i do it willingly? for fun, to hang out with people for fun? thats not fun at all. if i dont trust them enough to let them see me as i am then whats the fucking point genuinely. I Lied To The Producers So Im Sorry Now, Im Not Neurotypical-Passing In The Slightest, Bitch, I Tried
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interruptions are a natural part of conversation, and sometimes i want to strangle people who just dismiss them as “rude”. interruptions are not automatically rude. they are a social signal & a form of communication. they can be rude depending on how they’re used. but they are also useful and necessary for many people (neurodivergent people especially). so we need to have a conversation about different forms of interruption, and what they mean.
#what's really interesting to me as a neurodivergent person who interacts w/ neurodivergent & neurotypical people alike#is how very DIFFERENTLY so many people treat interruptions.#i meet lots of neurodivergent folks who are like 'PLEASE interrupt me if i'm talking too much and you want a turn to speak'#and then there's my autistic father who will fucking yell at me if i interrupt him#which has nothing to do with autism and EVERYTHING to do with his attitudes towards power & patriarchy#and then there's plenty of neurotypical people who just fucking do not care about sharing the conversation#in small talk especially. i've met soooo many people who just seem to view me as an audience for their opinions or backstory#and then there are neurodivergent people i'm related to who i see make very real attempts to interact thoughtfully around OTHER people#and very minimal attempts to do so around me#and plenty of neurotypical people who just don't think you're worth listening to until you can PROVE it#and like. neurodivergent people interact in different ways and we need to address and talk about that#but also the sheer extent to which so many of us find we get dismissed and ignored in basic conversation--#like i wanna talk about neurodivergent needs but also i sorta wanna shout about how the way society treats conversation in GENERAL#is sorta fucking toxic#and really tends to encourage dominating attitudes and hands control & influence to the louder ruder more 'authorative' individuals#which of course tend to be people with more social capital#i'm just fucking sick of it like please start making an EFFORT to include people#it won't work all the time but making an effort and above all trying to convey RESPECT in your interactions with others#that will make a huge difference. even and especially when you struggle with conversing in general#but anyway i do feel like neurodivergent people in general tend to be more understanding of interruptions#and more likely to react with 'oh would you like to speak now?' as opposed to 'i'm just going to speak over you'#like we tend to ramble but we also tend to be aware of that and to believe that you have a right to make your conversational needs known#so PLEASE stop automatically dismissing interruptions as 'rude'#and start examining why they are happening and what motivates them#examine the motivations behind the actions before assigning blame
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asterekmess · 4 years
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You and your shameless friends claim that there are plenty of canon reasons to despise the Latino hero/lead/protagonist and titular Teen Wolf Scott McCall and that disliking Scott has nothing to do with racism, but how many time have you guys said “Scott hated Derek and didn’t listen to him” or “Scott is obsessed with Allison” or “Stiles trusted Derek before Scott and took Derek’s side when it came to Scott pursuing lacrosse and Allison” even though we absolutely know that neither is true?
First off, I’m pretty sure you’re also the author of the next ask that I got, so I’ll just go ahead and tack that on here. Even if it wasn’t you, I prefer to answer my hate mail in as few messages as possible.
If Scott hated Derek the way that the Teen Wolf fandom interprets him as hating him, why didn’t he let Derek die at the hands of the Argents in Formality (1x11)? And if Scott’s sole motivation was his obsession with Allison, why didn’t sell Derek and his Pack out to Gerard in Season 2? Just admit you hate Scott because he is a Mexican brown boy and better and more important than everyone else and fuck off
Oh honey, that word doesn’t mean what you think it means.
“Titular Character” refers to the “role of a character after whom a film is named.” For example: Steve Rogers is the titular character of “Captain America.” Emma is the titular character of “Emma.” Scott McCall may be a Teen Wolf but he is not the Titular character of the show, because Teen Wolf isn’t a name, it’s a descriptor. Also! Fun fact, just calling him “titular” and not “titular character” means that you’re saying he is actually “hero/lead/protagonist” in title only, which I find just fucking hilarious. So, thank you for that lil giggle.
Also, we’ve said that loads of times, what about it? Those points have absolutely nothing to do with Scott’s race. They’re supported by canonical evidence.
Derek is set up as a character with far more knowledge that Scott, who has the answers to his questions and is willing to give them. Scott refuses to listen to him, except for the few times he goes to Derek specifically to get help from Derek. Every other time he ignores Derek’s warnings. And Scott does hate Derek, or at least he does a great job acting like it, considering he, you know, left him strung up on a grate where he’d been hanging for a week (during which time Scott stalked Allison [including sitting outside her window while she was fucking sleeping, even though she was in a house full of capable hunters] in order to ‘protect’ her because he ASSUMED that when Peter said “vunerable” he meant Allison) getting electrocuted and refused to let him out unless he promised to save Allison.
Now, Stiles didn’t trust Derek ‘before Scott’ (in part because Scott literally has never actually trusted Derek in any meaningful way). But, he does share the same opinion as Derek multiple times in regards to Scott needing to not play lacrosse/go out with Allison. He warns Scott that lacrosse is too dangerous before he ever talks to Derek about it, and tells Scott he shouldn’t play anymore because he’s going to keep losing control (which he does, multiple times, even after finding his anchor) and Scott refuses to listen to him because he doesn’t want to be taken off first line. He also reminds Scott multiple times that it’s really safer if he doesn’t play in the stupid lacrosse game because it’s one fucking game and Scott ignores him because he wants Allison to go out with him, assuming she’d no longer be interested in him if he didn’t play lacrosse. And while he’s never outright said “Don’t date Allison,” he has suggested Scott put off going on his first date with Allison, or just not skipping school with her during a fucking crisis, so they can try to save some lives. How fucking hilarious, that the ADHD kid is the one who has to suggest moderation to the neurotypical character in order to try and keep people from dying. By hilarious, I mean terrifying.
In what way did Scott not let Derek die at the hands of the Argents in 1x11? Yeah, for about ten seconds he talks about needing to find Derek, but it has absolutely nothing to do with Derek? He explicitly says that he needs Derek to help him protect Allison. That’s it. That’s all he cares about. Besides, he also says that he knows the Argents aren’t going to kill Derek, so he’s not doing anything heroic by suggesting they find him. And he doesn’t continue looking for him either, when he can’t get ahold of him, just leaves him to be imprisoned/tortured while he follows Allison around. Literally all he would need to do is go back to the house where he last saw Derek and he’d have found him instantly. Yeah, in the next episode he finally hunts Derek down (if a howl would’ve done it, why the fuck didn’t he do it earlier? Oh right, because he was busy watching Allison’s every move.) but it’s not for Derek’s sake. It’s so that Derek will help him save Allison and kill Peter so that he can turn human again and be with Allison. (Are you starting to see a fucking pattern here?) Now, you could try and say that he just has multiple motivations, and yeah, sure, characters are capable of that. But that concept is kind of undermined by the fucking blackmail that Scott uses by THREATENING TO LEAVE HIM TO BE TORTURED.
Are we watching the same show? Scott did sell Derek and his pack out! He leaked information about them to Gerard, let Isaac and Derek follow him into what he knew was a trap, and then forced Derek to bite Gerard against his will.
Also, I just cannot resist. “better and more important than everyone else.” What are you? Three years old?
Now, listen, I don’t pull this card very often, but my husband actually asked me to please say it.
First off: Fuck you. Just had to get that out there. Second: My HUSBAND IS FUCKING MEXICAN. HE IS FLUENT IN SPANISH. HIS MOTHER’S ENTIRE FAMILY IS MEXICAN. I spend my holidays SURROUNDED by brown boys and girls who call me FAMILY. My FUTURE CHILDREN will be Mexican. There is EVERY likelihood that I’ll have a beautiful brown-skinned baby. My husband sure as fuck doesn’t think I’m racist, and I think he’s got more right to make that judgement than strangers on the internet. Third: FUCK YOU. Fourth: For the record, My husband ALSO thinks Scott is garbage, and he’s only 5 episodes into the fucking show.
As a last note, while I’m happy to discuss the show in a reasonable manner, any more hate mail I receive of this particularly pathetic caliber is getting deleted automatically. I don’t play games.
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autistic-dragonkid · 4 years
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This kind of thing makes me sick. I see it all the time and it always makes me mad but this one especially got to me. "Invisible meltdowns"
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I dont even know how to BEGIN to describe how unusually and rarely high functioning you are if you can fucking CONTROL whether or not you have a "visible" meltdown. You are so lucky and rare among Autistics I cannot even descrive it.
"perhaps we aren't in a safe enough space to let ourselves go and be vocal without serious repercussions." And what about people who DO have meltdowns in unsafe spaces and face serious repercussions, because they cannot CONTROL their fucking MELTDOWNS because it is a disorder?? "I learned to look and act 100% neurotypical because I grew up in a dangerous city." And?? Plenty of autistic people grew up in dangerous places and still cannot mask and still cannot sense danger. And that is EXACTLY why THEY NEED AWARENESS AND SUPPORT. MUCH MORE THAN YOU.
So you're high functioning as fuck. Accept your privilege and get over it. Stop erasing the very real experiences of autistic people who struggle every day and wish they were not autistic like me. Autism is the OPPOSITE of a "joy" or "amazing" for SO many people and it is so cruel and offensive of you to say that those people should not be listened to or believed, or that they are being "too negative", or that their pain is "erasing" your oh so wonderful and joyful 'autistic symptoms' that are literally just 2014 Introvert Quirkiness rebranded for 2020. "Invisible meltdowns" oh for fuck sake the DEFINITION of an autistic meltdown IS 'being overwhelmed and loosing behavioral control'! If you remain in complete control of yourself, it's not a fucking meltdown?!? You're just completely rewriting the meanings of words now! Shut the fuck up forever.
All I'm getting from this is "We need to STOP talking about autistics with severe, visible, disabling, uncontrollable symptoms and start talking about ME and my cute funny quirky magical ridiculously-fucking-high-functioning-to-the-point-where-no-doctor-would-actually-diagnose-me 'symptoms', aka my fun special quirks because 'symptoms' implies a disorder and is ableist! Because autism is not a disorder, it is FUN! And when we talk about and share the stories people who are NOT having fun with autism, who have extremely severe/violent/disabling/'ugly' symptoms, who need 24/7 lifelong care, who ACTUALLY FUCKING NEED awareness and understanding, it makes ME look bad, so all those drooling loser Bad Ugly Autistics should all shut up! I should get to talk about how great and awesome MY autism is, ALL the time, because MY experience is the only real one!! It's all about me, me, me, me, ME!!!"
People are gonna get mad at me but I dont care, because you're only mad if you're one of those idiot people and you know Im right and feel attacked by this. As neurotypicals say, well if the shoe fits fucking wear it.
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nonbinarypastels · 6 years
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The issues with the recovery vs. anti-recovery discourse in a nutshell.
First problem: Nobody knows what anyone else is talking about (but they keep arguing like they do).
no one actually defines recovery the same way.
when we talk about 'recovery' half of y'all use that word to mean "doing what you can to manage better in your day to day lives" and the other half use it to mean "being totally cured, completely and utterly mental illness/neurodivergence/disability free" so we constantly end up with 2 or more people arguing about recovery thinking the people they're arguing with are defining it the same way as they are but in reality everyone involved is talking about a different thing entirely.
whether you define recovery as managing better or being cured there's also an issue of interpretation there because different people have different ideas about what managing better and being cured mean as well.
does 'managing better' mean simply doing what you can with what you have? or are we defining it as nothing short of getting out every day and living some 9-5 job, white picket fence sort of life? i've seen people define it both ways and a thousand ways in between. when you consider recovery to be about being 'cured', how do you define that? how do you see it happening? are you acknowledging that there are people who cannot or do not want to be cured and saying this shit anyway or are you only thinking about say, only depression, but simply not naming that thing in your post which brings me to
when we talk about mental illness, neurodivergence, and disability, people are STILL hopelessly vague.
take a sentence like "if you're mentally ill recovery is possible" and ask yourself what mental illness are we talking about? what is your definition of recovery? because we've already established that 'recovery' could mean any number of things and 'mental illness' tells us nothing. are we talking about depression or anxiety? or are we talking about personality disorders? psychotic disorders? what? saying you can be cured from depression is not the same as saying you can be cured from a personality disorder - tips people share to help manage anxiety are not going to be applicable to all mental illnesses. y'all are constantly saying 'mental illness' in posts when you're actually only talking about depression or something and people with mental illnesses that are not depression are reading that and thinking "what the fuck" because what's true for depression is categorically false for plenty of other shit.
people are constantly ignoring physically disability and chronic illness in discussions about recovery.
'recovery' is not only a term used in discussions WRT mental illness but also with physical illness and disability so when a person who is chronically ill or physically disabled sees a vague "recovery is possible" post even if you did not intend for it to be about them they have no way of knowing that when you're being vague as fuck about what you're actually saying and who it is your post is about. and i shouldn't need to explain to y'all why telling a person who is physically disabled and has zero chance of that ever changing that they can be 'cured' is on a whoooole other level than telling someone with depression they can be cured.
Problem Two: Y'all can't tell the difference between personal anecdotal posts and posts that are specifically addressed to/for other people.
raise your hand if you've been victimized by regina george had some "we can't all be neurotypical karen" comment added to a post you made about your own experience with some kind of coping mechanism or something you did that helped you with whatever is going on with you?
a lot of people involved in these discussions see a post that says "i tried yoga and it helped with my depression" and they think it's the same thing as "you need to try yoga because it will cure your depression" but...they are totally different. personal anecdotes are not personal recommendations, a person talking about something THEY did to help with THEIR self =/= a person telling YOU what to do to help with YOURSELF.
y'all also constantly misconstrue posts that are brainstorming different potential coping mechanisms and positive things to do with posts that are specifically instructing you to do something and assuming that these posts are guaranteeing you 100% that all the things on them will work or your money back.
example: y'all see a post that's like "here's a list of some positive things you can do to help with your anxiety" and you think the OP is specifically saying that all of them will work for everyone...but that's not what those posts are about. they're not instructions, they're ideas. they're not meant to tell a person what to do or even promising them that any of that shit will work, they're for brainstorming and coming up with something that might be helpful.
Problem Three: Some of y'all think too narrowly.
a lot of people on this site have an issue with black and white thinking.
nuance who? y'all don't get that not only are all mental illnesses, neurodivergencies, and disabilities the same but that people who have the same thing are not going to experience that thing in the same way. example: two people with bpd can have a WILDLY different experience with it and can have wildly different methods of dealing with it. what works for the one can have the absolute opposite affect on the other.
y'all assume that you can see one post a person made or even a couple of posts and you think you know everything there is to know about them and their experiences.
but a person's blog is only just a SMALL window into their life (even when they run a blog specifically about their mental illness, neurodivergence or disability you STILL don't know even the half of what there is to know about them). you can't see a couple of negative posts and assume that that means the person making them is "doing nothing" to help themselves or that they're "anti recovery" because those posts are just a small fraction of who they are and what they're doing. this is also even more ridiculous of an assumption because plenty of people use their blogs specifically FOR venting their negative shit and who someone is IRL is never going to be a living, breathing personification of who they are in their vent tag.
as much as people talk about "the mental illness community" or whatever, the fact is we're not actually a community.
we're a bunch of people with one common thing posting in the same tags and occasionally we form little connections when we all follow some of the same blogs and we see the same familiar usernames but we're not a community in the sense that there's a community leader or a set of community rules or a list of things unifying us together or, for that matter, any actual interaction between us. the fact is that tumblr is a website with MILLIONS of users and the view you have of certain groups of people on tumblr (the mentally ill, neurodivergent, or disabled for example) will depend radically on who you follow and what tags you're viewing. if you hate being exposed to negativity and people who are negative about their lives, you can prevent that from happening by simply not following those people, by blocking them, and perhaps by finding other tags to post in. saying "tumblr is anti-recovery" is much like saying "the city of new york is anti-recovery" just because you stumbled across some people in a back alley complaining about their anxiety. you can leave the alley and go somewhere else that's more suited to you, you don't have to stay and tell the people there to shut up because they're not being positive enough for you.
And problem four: Some of y'all are just assholes.
i think the majority of the recovery/anti-recovery argument could be solved if we were all a little less vague in our posts and made an effort to word them as specifically as possible and if we were all just a little less narrow-minded in both our thinking and listening but there are still people on this site who are just jerks because they will always assume that they know better than anyone else and, worse, that they know other people's experiences and minds better than those people do and will absolutely lose their shit if anyone tries to tell them otherwise.
this goes back to more black and white/no nuance thinking and it's a problem on this site that goes well beyond recovery discourse. the solution for this is for all of us to try and think more critically, listen more carefully, and consider other people beyond just our initial reactions. most of being an asshole comes down to not caring about other people---not caring about how they feel, what they think, what they have been through---and the rest comes down to caring so much for ourselves and what we personally feel and think about any given thing that it makes us ignorant to everything else, so obsessed with our own opinions that we're happy to fall face-first into the pond and drown in them. we all have to be cautious that we don't fall into that and that we don't end up creating our own little bubbles where our voices are the only ones we hear and we can do that by talking (not vaguely) and even moreso by listening to others when they speak.
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lulusoblue · 7 years
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Headcanon: Casey Jones being on the Autistic Spectrum
I see plenty of neurodivergent headcanons for the turtles galore, but never for any of the human characters. In all honestly, saying one of the turtles is on the autistic spectrum is iffy and uncomfortable to me at least because it’s sorta implying that said autism would be the result of a mutation caused by an external element. Because it’s not like we’ve had shit over some dickhead portraying autism as a side effect of vaccination rather than it being a mental disorder that’s as embedded in our genes and beings as internal organs and a massive part of who we are as people. also fuck you wakefield
And so thinking about it more, it just clicked that Casey could fit an autistic headcanon. So here’s a list of things about his character I believe fit such a headcanon based on personal experience and from other autistic people I’ve known:
• Apparently the writers put him at around 17 years old, a year older than April, with some intent that he might have been held back during his education (probably to tie into him seeking April for tutoring). I don’t have any knowledge of American education beyond secondhand information I may see on the internet or pop up on my dash, so my only knowledge of being autistic in a learning system built around neurotypical students is from brief personal experience. Neurotypical education sucks when there isn’t enough awareness of learning difficulties or the teachers don’t have enough training to know how to handle it. Casey might have trouble with his education because he may have difficulties trying to pay attention and absorb information without the tools or support to help him focus. This can get you labelled as just bad behaviour or being dumb/stupid. I sure as hell wasn’t able to follow lessons in school until I finally had someone who listened to why I didn’t like lessons and found them hard to understand. We don’t have any clue as to when Casey was held back if this concept still applies in canon, but being held back might not mean he just didn’t care to study or doesn’t have the smarts to pass. Granted it gets harder to care about learning when you have trouble understanding and your educators don’t bother to help you so much as call you lazy. Which brings me to my next point.
• Casey’s interests and knowledge in gadgets, vehicles, and metalwork. The boy knows his stuff when it comes to Mad Max-looking makeshift weaponry and devices, which is clear from his decked out bike and the crude taser that he’s managed to strap to his arm without frying himself. He worked with Donnie to rig up a supercar as a hobby and helped pimp up the Party Wagon. And he’s still flunking trig. (so’s April but shhhhh that was just a Season 1 thing) Casey seems like a very visual learner in this case: he picks up on things through observation and is self-taught on what interests him. For all we know he figured out cars while being cooped up on a farm with nothing better to do while one of his terrapin friends was in a coma. I’ve ended up doing that with some programs I use or with life stuff in general. Manuals are boring and slow and easy to lose focus on. Maybe look up a couple of video tutorials for something but most of building skills and interests is self-teaching and trial-and-error. (my experience of video editing and art programs is “what’s this do and can i figure out what makes it tick without looking it up”, which is an approach to new interests I think also fits Casey). Likely not something specific or common in autistic people, but figuring things out in such a way has been a thing that popped up for me and a couple of old friends. What I’m saying is Casey made that new mask after half-watching a couple of cosplay tutorials and winging it with some scrap.
• Casey wears those gloves and that headband all the damn time. Even when he’s eating pizza, he’s eating it wearing gloves that have probably been worn working on his bike, wielding a hockey stick/baseball bat that’s likely bashed sweaty heads in rain two weeks ago without being washed, and just the day-to-day things that would get those gloves sweaty or grimey or icky. He wears that headband at all times, even when he’s wearing a mask thank would probably fit better if he took that band of material off of his head. What do his headband and gloves also have in common? They’re articles of clothing that usually have elastic to stay in place. Sure canonically they’re just there to fit his grungy look (get to that hoodie in a second), but digging myself deeper into this headcanon i got to thinking they might also serve sensory/stimming purposes. If there’s something that I think is one thing autistic people have in common or a feeling they share, it’s fiddling/fidgeting and certain sensory things to some level: e.g. I usually wear loose tops because i like fiddling with the hems and corners of my clothing. Some people wear tight or loose clothing based on how they process the sensation of skin against different type of clothing. Casey never taking off his damn gloves or headband could be seen as him liking the sensation of the elastic in them around his wrists and forehead. He probably pings the elastic as well because that’s fun too when you’re bored and need to fiddle.
I refuse to believe that he has never washed that hoodie. I mean yeah the turtles have smelt worse living in a sewer but Casey is a Human who has spent most of his life around Humans and his Human father would probably have burnt his clothes by now if Casey never washed the stink out of them. That and Casey is a hockey player, and I imagine stinking clothes is an annoyance that comes from most sports. Those paint stains on his hoodie I think he’s leaving there on purpose, like he’ll wash his clothes but no dad his clothes get washed separate because he can’t wash his clothes with your clothes because you use stuff that lifts stains and that’ll get rid of the paint splats that he likes on his clothes and why does he want paint splats because he does and they look nice and he probably won’t get the same splatter pattern again if he tried and shush dad this hoodie stays the same because it has to because shut up. We don’t really see Casey tagging anything regularly so unless it’s because they don’t change the texture on animated models because what’s the point it’s not a cgi blockbuster we’re making here Casey probably keeps his paint splattered hoodie like that because it looks nice and it’ll stay nice dad. It’s a Thing.
• Casey constantly refers to a love of heavy metal music. Too much sound for an autistic person can end up in sensory overload and that fucking sucks. And in general just the world around you can suck and you wanna shut it out because ugh. You know what helps? Headphones and really loud music. What genre has really loud music? Yup.
Casey having a social battery. He just pops in and out of the show all the time because the writers dunno what do with him shrug so yeah. Autism likes to play up the variance of a person’s social needs and wants and limits. You want to be friends but you just can’t be asked to be with people right now. You get this surge of wanting to hang out with friends and be loud for a bit, and then you have this mood where you just want to not exist or just not do things. Basically like this:
“raph great to see you i love your face” “whatever weirdo”
[dude where are you] [home] [you’ve been at home for three days] [i’m waiting until i stop hating faces to talk in person again]
If anyone has any other things to add to this headcanon, please do share/add onto this post. Now if you’ll excuse me i’m gonna dig myself further into this headcanon.
EDIT: I forgot another point I wanted to put in and also @a-specforest added some cool addon tags so broski if you don’t mind imma put them here too
• #okay so one symptom of autism is speaking in ’pre learned phrases’ #and casey has a ton of catchphrases • #sometimes speaking in a tone that doesn’t match the conversation? #casey does that a lot too • #he seems to have a few hyperfixations #in season 2 he’s practicing hockey late by himself #and the working on cars that you mentioned
1) how else would he come up with Goongala of COURSE!!! That and pre-learned phrases are great to have when spontaneous speech is a bitch and you trip over words and stammer. not that i would know anything about that nooo We’ve already heard him muddle up words in the moment (I think he said jumbled up “racism” later in S4)
2) Tone control is something I’ve dealt with, too. Apparently I have resting bitch voice so I’ll say something and get asked if i’m in a bad mood or snapped at for “being rude”. Also knew other autistic people who would have ranges of tones in certain convos too, e.g. one always sounded happy and chipper and laughed a lot even when something wasn’t particularly funny, one person’s tone of voice went everywhere it was hard to tell what their feelings were even with the context of conversation. Casey’s attitude and tone in conversation, even serious ones, might be an indication of that, I agree.
3) Oh yeah, he definitely fits hyperfixation. There’s his hobbies, and also there’s how he sees his future. When he and April are in the park for their first study session, he’s got two clear ideas for what to do with his life; Hockey Star or Bounty Hunter. With him immediately trying to play hero when confronted with a walking talking tank of organs his bounty hunter fantasy may have something to do with it. He’s reckless and headstrong, but it also lends to his fixation on one of his dream careers; if fighting a monster that he’s confronted with something he sees as a step to bounty hunting, he’ll likely put up his dukes and get melted because ACID HANDS I have definitely known people who were determined on doing something because it was what they wanted. It might’ve come across as stubbornness or rigidness depending on what it (even something as simple as just doing something like a chore a certain way), but in context of ambitions and their future they were pumped as hell to take the steps they needed to take to do what they liked and what they wanted for themselves. They didn’t care about what people thought of them even if they didn’t pass as neurotypical and would get stares on the street. Not sure how they would react if say culinary career path involved fighting mutated food, but considering the show itself is an action-adventure cartoon with mutant turtles I think we can give Casey a pass on that lack of realism there. we begrudgingly give the writers passes all the time so why stop now
Aaaand the point i forgot to put in my original post:
• Casey’s less-than appropo reactions or attitudes in situations possibly links to difficulty reading people, being empathetic or understanding social cues/priorities. Reading and understanding facial expressions and body language can be a bitch if you’re autistic. There’s even a learning software program a couple of students from my school would use in one-to-one sessions that specifically addresses this for those who find it THAT hard to tell what another person is expressing. It’s especially troublesome because empathy can be a confusing thing too, because it can go from you not really having any empathy to you having so much that you think you’re hurting the feelings of a pair of shoes because you chose to wear something else that day which totally isn’t the extreme i experience at all hahaha help i’m mentally apologising to a boot Casey doesn’t appear to take things seriously in dangerous circumstances the majority of the time, nor does he appear considerate of others at other times. It’s a lot of confidence and certainty that things will turn out OK (with a heaping spoonful of “self preservation instinct what self preservation instinct”). It’s not always an appropriate attitude to make jokes and quips and tease and make jabs at people, but he HAS taken things seriously and shown worry/sadness at appropriate times. He’s really quiet and almost numb when the subject of his family’s fate comes up in Invasion, and he was surprisingly the only one to be most affected after watching someone get mOLECULARLY RIPPED APART. From experience, both personal and through observation, figuring out how to react and respond to things when you don’t really know how to is a pain in the ass and often distressing because you feel bad for not knowing. Sometimes you resort to humour to lighten things and try to ease tensions, sometimes you have an internal screaming match with yourself and panic and go through an archive of potential reactions because what the fuck would apply here, or sometimes you just shut down or just don’t react like it’s not really a big deal or even happening. Or you end up going through verbal barfing and dig yourself deeper into a hole of instant regret because you’re making yourself look like an ass when you don’t want to why is this so hARD. I think Casey would fall into the “address things with confidence and cockiness” kind of reaction pool, because it’s an attitude he’s comfortable with and how he better deals and processes things. It’s not to say he doesn’t have some empathy or disregard for other people’s feelings (hello Buried Secrets), it could be that it’s not comfortable territory for him even when he wants to be serious/emotionally supportive. did any of that come out right fffffffffU
• Casey’s small social circle and it possibly being by choice. His best friends are the girl who he met through tutoring in a subject she was failing before and four giant turtles who are trained in ninjutsu. He only mentions having one friend before, a friend with whom he had a falling out, and he didn’t seem to like Irma all that much (you can say it’s because “she’s a third wheel on dates” but even outside of that he didn’t seem to get along with her much). With things like hyperfixation and the like making a vast group of friends is tricky. Being autistic might mean the friends you choose to make have lots of interest in common with you rather than just being someone you get along with. Not to say being autistic means you are limited to a few friends. I’m no expert on autistic social lives, I can only draw from firsthand experience. I found trying to maintain a number of friendships difficult and often overwhelming so at some point in school I stopped trying to make friends, with the exception of a couple of people I liked and had common interests with. I chose to keep my social circle small because the thought of making lots of friends and keeping in touch with them all and remembering who likes who and what overwhelmed me and made me nervous as a child. Still kinda leaks into adulthood because I don't have many friends outside of the company I keep on tumblr. In this autistic headcanon, Casey’s very small social circle could be by choice. He doesn’t mention having any other friends besides one previously, fixates on April (and yes I am knocking the romantic aspect out the window for this) after approaching her for tutoring because he found her cool and likes hanging out with her (and probably saw kicking a mutant’s ass as common ground/bonding too), hung out with her even when a person he wasn’t keen on (Irma) was also there, and even when he’s introduced to the turtles and befriends them he still appears to be platonically closest to April arguably, depends on how the writers want to write him that week. Considering how the love triangle bullhockey has been given little to no reference as of late, his concern for April in Tokka vs the World and his annoyance at Leo’s teamup picks in Tale of Tiger Claw might be more because he can’t be with his favourite person. (and yes that can be a Thing too) He might also fixate on having April’s company because she isn’t much of a social butterfly herself outside of the friendly neighbourhood mutants living in the sewer. Compare how many times we see him hanging out with the turtles minus April versus when April is present.
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Autism Myths
I'm always intrigued by what someone who isn't on the autistic spectrum believes about us, how we function, the ways in which we behave, et cetera. And how peculiar the arrogance of making assumptions is when they could just ask us. One of my favourites, though, is rigid thinking. You see, autistic people tend to come across as contrarian to those on the neurotypical spectrum due to not sharing a tribal-oriented focus, the neurotypical lacks this aspect of Theory of Mind, so they don't have the self awareness to see in themself what the autistic person sees -- that they're worryingly prone to binary absolutes. As such, the autistic person will appear to be oddly combative, since they'll feel as though they're being manipulated into believing or thinking a certain way. The neurotypical doesn't have any self awareness of the manipulation tactics they use on a day to day basis, so they're unfortunately oblivious over what the objection is. They then incorrectly parse this as 'rigid thinking,' which honestly can be better described as 'not thinking like I do.' Projection is an interesting facet of psychology that even so-called experts on the neurotypical spectrum can fall prey to quite easily, it's one of those obvious little quirks you can look at to see precisely where the neurotypical spectrum lacks Theory of Mind. They're not cognizant of their own behaviours, so the autistic person being aware of them makes them uncomfortable and causes a sort of cognitive dissonance. One of my favourite examples of neurotypical projection was that of applying NT-think to wolves. The whole alpha, bullshit, omega structure. This actually is how neurotypicals always function as they seek hierarchy, but it isn't at all how wolves function. I found this 'research' to be erroneous in my youth, decades ago, when I felt that there was something very wrong with it. It was almost as if, I thought, the researcher was projecting their own desire for hierarchy onto the wolves, so they were looking with an expectation of finding something. They tried so very hard to tamper with the common behaviours of wolves to make them match what they wanted to see. So they tossed strangers together in a box with no way out, even going that extra mile to make absolutely certain that one of those strangers was a sociopath. So, they look at how a bunch of strangers in a box with a sociopath behave and they conclude 'ah, the pack hierarchical structure!' You see, the wolves prowling the edges of their box is a militaristic effort to patrol their borders, and not at all a bunch of very afraid puppy dogs who were trying to escape the 'alpha' (the sociopathic bully) who was doing everything in their power to make their lives miserable. You see, in the wild, wolves ostracise sociopaths (unlike neurotypical humans who tend to give them power), they'll simply leave them behind and make it clear to them that they're not welcome with the united family groups who're making this decision. Oh, says the researcher, this is the 'alpha' making a call on the 'weakest' who needs to be cut away. It's just wolves separating the wheat from the chaff, of course. It's fascinating as I see minds on the neurotypical spectrum do this all the time. It's why I'm always suspicious of NT scientists as the science they're responsible for is overly sensationalist and often is tainted by them trying to create the results they're already looking for. This is why we need peer review for neurotypical scientists, versus other minds who'll actually check their own work for bias. I think what I'm trying to say is unfortunately that bias is strong in the neurotypical mind, and they lack the self awareness to be cognizant of it. Other minds are way better at this. There's actually a really great video that illustrates what I'm talking about here so beautifully, the lengths that the neurotypical mind will go to to construct a reality that meets what they expect to find rather than objectively viewing the reality that exists. Shaun (of Shaun & Jen) is one of my favourite 'Tubers (potato!) and I honestly believe he's as un-NT as fuck. I'm sorry if that's an insult to him but the awesome levels of awareness present in his videos aren't indicative of the neurotypical spectrum. I don't know whether he's autistic, per se. I mean, I'd hope so. I'd find that lovely as I'm always happy to encounter intelligent people with autism, but that would be a bias. No, I just think that he isn't on the neurotypical spectrum. He could even simply be introverted, which as I've pointed out before isn't exactly neurotypical either. Whatever he is, I adore him. He's very nuanced, and he shows in this video how far 'Tuber (yams!) thunderf00t will go to warp reality with lies, deceit, and manipulation to meet his expectations, to have others agree with his position as well. I'd go so far as to say that thunderf00t may very well be a sociopath, or at the very least an agentic extravert considering how effortlessly he weaves lies together. And those lies work on other neurotypicals as they're more likely to operate on tribalism than fact. However, for someone who isn't all that neurotypical, there's going to be a bullshit radar pinging on just about everything that thunderf00t says. The way thunderf00t creates a tapestry of his reality's Sarkeesian is similar to how unethical groups like Autism Speaks would portray autism. You see, because we don't agree with neurotypicals (why, we certainly would agree with them if we were smarter, right?), we must be rigid thinkers. This is another example of what I wrote about in my prior post. It's the autistic flavour of manufactured idiocy. Effectively, if you aren't in absolute agreement with a neurotypical all the time, there's something fundamentally wrong with you. You're going to be portrayed by their mind as inhuman, somehow. Unintelligent, autistic, or perhaps it's because you're a woman/ethnic minority! It's worth a bit of thought, isn't it? I mean, I'm autistic, and I don't think I'm an overly binary thinker. I see things with plenty of nuance and shades of grey, I also have a bullshit radar that pings very loudly when most neurotypical spectrum individuals I've ever met talk. They've got such a strong tribal-oriented focus to their thinking that everything that comes out of their mouth is going to be strongly biased toward some tribe they happen to be allied with, and coincidentally it's going to be speaking openly against another of these tribes that they're absolutely opposed to. It seems that the neurotypical mind desperately needs an opponent for each of their tribes to give their own tribes a semblance of meaning. A point which, as I've said, they have absolutely no self awareness of. This is one area where the neurotypical spectrum is lacking in Theory of Mind. They're good at spinning a lie and projecting, though. Just like we see thunderf00t doing with feminists. So, clearly, autistic people must be rigid thinkers. And this toxicity is spread to parents of autistic children who're then expecting them to think in black & white terms, whereas in reality their child is more likely to think in nuanced, subtle, contextual ways than their more neurotypical parents. And that's not the only myth that arose from this cognitive dissonance, is it? You see, one of the tell tale signs of autism is 'lack of empathy.' Apparently a lack of empathy to a mind on the neurotypical spectrum is 'someone who doesn't like me.' So if an autistic person gives an NT the cold shoulder -- most likely because the autistic person finds them skeevy, unethical, manipulative, and a bully -- they just aren't capable of empathy at all. It took a long time for this to be overturned, and it even required going as far as various kinds of brain scans to do it. It turns out that autistic people are capable of empathy after all, in fact, we often feel empathy very deeply due to our pronounced capacity for introspection. We feel on a very profound level. Why did it take so long for this to come to light? It's obvious really, isn't it? Like I said, it's all about the lack of Theory of Mind that the neurotypical spectrum has and how they fail to separate things properly in order to look at something objectively. So in the NT mind, disliking them means you're of another tribe; It goes downhill from there, since you're now lesser and they have to invent a reason as to why you're lesser. Now what manner of thing could they say about an autistic person's emotions that would make them appear inferior could they say? Ah, they have less empathy! You see, it's not that we don't like the skeevy, unethical, manipulative NT who often bullies people into agreeing with them. No. It's that we have less empathy. That makes perfect sense, then, doesn't it? We're just not capable of any level of empathy at all. This is how we treat everyone, even those we care... deeply... for... oh. I think by this point we've established that the neurotypical mind has a propensity for doing this, so let's look at the projection angle in relation to the first point, that the autie mind is rigid, black & white, and lacks nuance. This must be unlike the neurotypical mind, right? Okay, well, let's take a look at some NT problems, surely they’re not binary...
"You don't agree with my 'extreme' right wing views? Then you're just a filthy, bleeding heart, white knight SJW." (Do I need to cite this? See: YouTube. Suffice it to say that politics is nuanced and good/bad ideas can come from anywhere.)
"You're not skinny so you're fat. I don't care if you're only a few pounds over your BMI, I think you look fat so you need to take these dangerous dieting pills." (I believe that you can be fat and fit, there’s research to suggest it. I’m not against losing weight but pills that can kill you or make you psychotic isn’t what anyone should be pressured into taking.)
"You're not a man if you're not holding down a job as the breadwinner, you've been emasculated. Men aren’t allowed to stay at home." (Gender roles are stupid. I’m sorry, but that’s all there is to this.)
"If you're not willing to be confident and take what’s yours then you’re just a beta, you're never gonna get laid bud." (Toxic ‘ideology’ peddled based upon an entirely BS hypothesis about wolves that’s been disproven into the ground. And yet it’s still going strong. Grump grump grump.)
"Straight is natural and as god intended, there aren't any gay animals. Being gay is like... a guy using the woman's toilet." (Orientation is genetic, it isn’t a choice. So saying something like this is just exploitative and opportunist in the first place.)
"I guess I don’t like ethnic food but it’s not real food like American food is. Foreign food is... foreign. I just like American food better." (I eat whatever, I’m a human garbage disposal with the crap I eat. If it tastes good to me, though, I don’t care where it came from.)
"Yeah, I'm loyal to iPhone. Apple or nothing! Android just isn't on the same level, because... reasons. Apple-y reasons." (I owned an Apple device. It wasn’t open enough for me. I owned an Android device. It wasn’t open enough for me. Now I own a device with a fully fledged, open Linux OS on it because I’m a hipster or something.)
"Oh, you've got to have the latest fashions! Get fashionable or go home! You’re no one without fashion!" (I don’t care what I wear, so I guess I’m nobody. Plus, I’ve been told that I look like a suave eccentric and a tramp by the same person, in the same sentence. I’ll take it.)
"You can't show your emotions like that! You're a guy. You have to be strong, so... go out the back or something if you need to. You want to be heckled for being a girl forever?" (This is the kind of toxic patriarchy feminists fight. Me? I’ve wept openly in public, I have bawled like a newborn. Apparently this means I no longer have a Man card. That’s okay. Sexual identity confuses me.)
"I voted for all immigrants to leave my country! I don't care that you're a third generation British person, you're not white!" (There are valid reasons to be concerned about the EU, there are far more valid reasons to be scared of an independent UK. I felt it would’ve been best to stay in the EU and try to work toward fixing some of the things I’m concerned about. But what do I know?) Oh. Oh dear. That's... Um. Oh dear. These are all arguments I've heard from NTs in the past six months. Some from a bodybuilder I know, some from Brexit, and one is from the mother of a friend. You see, I don't think that toxic masculinity or toxic femininity is a thing. I think it's a case of toxic neurotypicality, and I say this because it's incredibly neurotypical to push these things to bizarrely arbitrary extremes. You won't see toxic masculinity or femininity coming from anyone outside of the neurotypical spectrum. It's very much an NT construct. I've never imposed gender roles on anyone as an autistic person, I'm always left scratching my head by those that do. It's all so arbitrary. Though as an autistic person I have the self awreness to actually recognise that it's all so arbitrary. And then there aer the lies, deceit, and manpulations which are piled on top of these arbitrary factors to make them out as being important anywhere othere than in the mind of the NT in question. Which we see in that video Shaun had to deconstruct. What thunderf00t is doing is such an incredibly neurotypical thing. I see that behaviour from NTs all the time, and it's why I tend to give them the silent treatment, too. I just find them skeevy and scary. I'll keep saying as well that I do try to find evidence to disprove my view of the neurotypical spectrum. I'm always trying. I just keep finding more and more evidence supporting that they're just predisposed to unethical behaviour. Which is very, very unfortunate. I need to raise awareness of this, though, because of how corruptive their behaviours are. And the example here, of course, is parents of autistic children who absolutely need to not believe the myths. Myth: You're NT or you're retarded. Reality: Different kinds of brains work in different ways. The neurotypical brain has a strong socially manipulative focus which the autistic brain is poor at (which is why autistic people don't make for particularly great politicians as we can't fool people), however the autistic brain is more inclined toward creative activity. Autistic children have a propensity for creative thought that shouldn't be undersold. Where they lose out in NT social skills, they gain in creativity. Myth: All autism is an illness. Reality: All brains are different. This is, once again, the cognitive dissonance of neurotypical minds not knowing how to deal with anything not like them. I'm sure if we ever met an alien species, they would be 'ill,' too. Look at how this applies to women or ethnic minorities when the NT speaker is a white male. Myth: Autistic people are 'black & white' thinkers. Reality: This is caused by our lack of fakeness. The autistic toolset doesn't include any capacity for manipulation, so we'll tell you what we really think. As part of the constructs of NT socialising, though, manipulation is an accepted aspect of social bargaining. NTs are used to hearing what they want to because it means they'll pretend to budge on other things in order to make friends, even if they don't believe what they're saying (which sets off the BS radars of autistic people). This often came up with my NT acquaintance who couldn't understand why I wouldn't budge and agree with him on certain issues, why I was so set on agreeing to disagree (this is a crime, apparently). That said, if you want an actual example of black & white thinking, research sociopaths. It's why they'll pretend to be chill until things stop going their way, then they'll flip the fuck out and go crazy. So you can see what's going on here, right? The autistic person sees the world in nuanced shades of grey, the NT will be working with manipulative simplisms expecting to get someone to agree with them, if you don't then you're just too rigid or you don't understand. The resulting cognitive dissonance means they'll project their own arbitrary binary thinking on others. Myth: Autistic people are easily taken advantage of. Reality: Oh, the horrible events that occurred throughout my life just because people thought they could get away with it. "He's retarded, he won't complain. We won’t get in trouble." How very, very, very wrong they were. And I countered this in a recent post where I talked about recent research that shows how autistic people will call BS when marketing tries to fool them whereas the NT will fall for it. This just happens to be a skill that autistic people have. Myth: All autistic people are capable. Reality: All brains are different. Some minds might be lower-functioning, others may experience co-morbid factors such as PTSD, ADD, anxiety disorders, bipolar, schizophrenia, and so on. So the argument goes that if you're autistic you don't need government help, because autism. Autism isn't a superpower. It's just a different configuration of brain. There is no inferior or superior, here. Myth: Autistic people have no social skills. Reality: There's so much wrong with this. It's true that autistic people are lacking in certain NT social skill, that's for certain. Being manipulative is one NT social skill I lack, I'll admit. However, a higher-functioning autistic person can learn to emulate the cues and behaviours that NT people intuit. They won't do it all the time as it's tiring and not all autistic people enjoy interacting with NTs anyway. On top of this, autistic people have perfectly functioning autie social skills, to our minds NT people are lacking in autie social skills just as much. We wish they were better at being honest, at having good manners, observing protocol, et cetera. Our social skills are different because our brains are different. Not inferior or superior. Stop with the bloody hierarchy, already. Myth: Autism only affects men. Reality: There are genetically likely to be just as many autistic women as men. This is why autism is a feminism issue and needs to continue to be one, because our male-focused society (yay, gender tribalism) doesn't really notice mental illnesses with women as much. Women and mental illness is under-researched and under-documented, as just about any woman with a mental illness or feminist will tell you. Myth: Autistic people can't have loving relationships. Reality: Really? That's news to me and my partner, then. We've been in one such relationship for the past five years, now, and we're still going strong. We spend so much time with one another that we've already spent more time together than some people do in twenty years, and we're still more stable than any NT relationship I've ever witnessed. Still, I know what's going on, here. This is NTs mixing up autism with sociopathy again. Sociopaths can't experience loving relationships due to a lack of empathy, that's indeed very true, they tend to exploit vulnerable people rather than do anything that anyone could consider mutually beneficial. But once again, autism is sociopathy's antithesis. Myth: Autistic people are sociopaths. Reality: This is the most harmful myth of all due to how often people mix up the traits, or get confused about what they're experiencing. For example: The autistic person is tired of an NT's manipulative behaviours so they stop talking to them because the NT regularly makes them feel like crap, the NT feels less empathy so when the NT is spouting repugnantly exploitative crap about Muslim immigrants, the autistic person wishes for egress like nothing else. Get me out of here! Of course, as I've mentioned elsewhere, ignoring an NT must mean you're a sociopath, right? Well, not really. I don't think ignoring obviously unethical people makes one a sociopath, quite the opposite. Autism itself is the antithesis of sociopathy, these two types of brain couldn't be any more different if they tried. So, no, there's really no such thing as an autistic sociopath, or a sociopathic autistic person. It's just another very harmful myth. Myth: Autistic people can't speak. Reality: Hello! There are two likely factors, here. The first one I mentioned where the NT believes that autism equals retardation as a binary opposite to 'normal,' or more likely the atistic person simply doesn't have anything to say to you. Of course, to the rather ego-fuelled NT mind, this is an affront. So clearly it must be that the autistic person cannot speak rather than they just don't want to because they find NTs manipulative and skeevy. Some autistic people speak only to other autistic people, and it's looking like I'll include myself in that, soon, considering the constant bad luck I've had with NTs. Myth: Autism Speaks (oh, the bitter sarcasm) is an autistic support foundation. Reality: Autism Speaks is very anti-autism, they're always looking for a cure and they demonise autistic people regularly, empathising with the NT parents of autistic monsters. They also support the use of excessive electroshock and convulsive torture as a 'cure.' This is actually practised at the Judge Rotenberg Center (look it up). If you actually want to know of a group that has the best interests of your autistic child at heart, check out ADAPT instead. Myth?: Autistic people suffer with depression. Reality: Yeah, that one's true. A lot of us do. I wonder why that is? In conclusion, a lot of people seem to mix up sociopathy with autism. The reactions to Benedict Cumberbatch's in Sherlock is a fantastic example of this. He's such a mixed bag that it confuses viewers, they can't decide whether he's sociopathic or autistic. The truth is is that he's a little bit of both. The creative, original processes behind his thinking? Yes, autism at work. Autistic people do tend to think outside of the box quite often. The utter lack of any empathy whatsoever? That's sociopathy, through and through. This misunderstanding is very beneficial to sociopaths. You see, sociopaths are the sexy vampire to our loser nerd, in a way. So whenever the autistic person does something that people think of as good? That's probably the suave, clever, successful, sexy sociopath. Whenever the sociopath does something cold, manipulative, and evil? That's probably the scary, loner, loser autistic prick. These are exactly the kinds of myths which are really harmful and hurtful to us. It's so harmful that sociopaths get misdiagnosed by less informed professionals as autistic, this happens quite often and it's a very real problem. We don't want to be classified the same as we're not skeevy predators, it's undesirable to us. The NT doesn't make the distinction though as they don't see sociopathy in the same light that we do, the NT mind seems to love to romanticise the heartless apex predator. Tyger, Tyger burning bright et al... Also Twilight, if I really have to go there. Vampires are sociopathic parasites, and NTs adore them for it. Why? I don't know. I can't figure out NTs. Don't ask me. This is why I brought up the 'alpha, bullshit, omega' perspective on wolves that, to no one's surprise, turned out to be completely wrong. It tried to make wolves into a more appealing creature for neurotypicals. Wolves are doofy, friendly, fun-loving derp-meisters who're really bad at hunting. They had to develop some basic tactics and evolve in a way where they could go without eating for very long periods because they're so incredibly bad at hunting. It's why wolves (and dogs alike) become incredibly dependent on anyone who gives them food, because they're excited about the mere prospect of no longer having to hunt. The Moon-Moon memes are true to how wolves actually are. Yet look at how NTs view them. There's this tribal argument between them over whether wolves are these pure, noble, beautiful unicorns or evil, savage, monstrous creatures who deserve to be hunted. The reason these two NT groups can't figure this out is because they're neither. It's not a binary, there's a third option. The third option is that wolves are basically Moon-Moon. It's entertaining because the Moon-Moon meme was started by those who wish to hunt the monstrous wolves to attack those who view wolves as noble, pure unicorns. Except the funny thing is? This manipulation revealed the truth of wolves. Moon-Moon is just how wolves are! Has an NT never had a dog in their family? Or is it that every dog whose master is an NT is so neurotic after being put through training to show them who's the 'alpha' that they're neurotic enough to be aggressive? I look at NTs, the things they believe, the things they think, the things they say... And my BS radar is pinging so loudly it's deafening. Please stop. This is why autistic people always need to get away from you NT types. We can't handle it. We just can't. And then there's even reactionary BS to deal with us not being able to handle your BS in the first place. We just don't like BS. That's all there is to it. There is just so, so much NT bullshit, and the NT BS is really, really harmful. It's even harmful to them when it affects women, minorities, trans people, or those who aren't straight. It's why I genuinely believe that anyone who can see the BS and call it isn't on the neurotypical spectrum. That's why I tend to think that Shaun of Shaun & Jen isn't. As I said, I'd just love to think he's autistic, that would really make my day, but I can't know that for sure. What I do know is that Shaun is about as NT as I am. As much as I hate to say it? Shaun is too honest to be NT, he's not manipulative, self-interested, or tribal enough. There's even videos where he worries about speaking about the prejudices experienced by other people as a white male, because he feels he might not understand all of the nuances and he might belittle them and I just want to give him this massive hug for that. If you're reading this, Shaun? Hugs. Seriously. You deserve hugs. I can't give you hugs, so have some Patreon money instead. Anyway, that's how I feel whenever I'm talking about prejudices outside of autism, but I know how genuinely important it is to do so. It matters. People matter. Even the people who manipulate and hurt me, they matter too. I don't like them, I'm ethically opposed to them, but I wouldn't want to see them suffer or hurt. I just wish that was mutual. I wish they didn't think that my children deserved electroshock and convulsion 'therapies.' But hey, what can you do, eh? What can you do? That was a heartfelt sigh, right there. I wonder if you felt that one, through my words. I'm old, you know? I'm almost too old for all of this. I wish I were still young, I'd have more patience and I'm sure I could put up the manipulative pretence of being a little nicer to the NTs. I just want to be honest, though. I'm tired of the lies, the deceit, the bullshit, the manipulations, and the bullying. This is just how I feel, straight from me brain to Tumblr. Unedited, no PR, no doublespeak, just me. I don't even know where I'm going with this, now. I think I'm really bad at outros. I'm not as bad at Russel T. Davies at ending things, but I'm still pretty bad. Still, I hope you'll find something of use, here. And I really hope that parents of autistic kids are paying attention.  They're probably not, are they? They're probably blaming their kids for engaging in self-harm because their kid can't deal with how terribly manipulative they are. That's how this always goes. God I'm jaded. I'll tell you now, what I wouldn't have given to have had autistic parents myself. I'm really sorry for the depressing tone of this post but, like I said, I'm not going to deceive you. I really don't like NTs. I don't feel good about that, but the more I try to find reasons to like them, the more reasons I find to dislike them. I've even tried to have both my autistic partner (whose heart wasn't in it) and an NT acquaintance challnege this, to no avail. It's hard to see beyond the unethical, self-interested skeeviness and BS. I'm doing it again, though. I'm getting distracted when I should be wrapping this up. I'm sorry. Tell you what, have a picture of a basket of Samoyed puppies. They're my favourite dog breed. They love everyone. I wish I could be more like that. As a footnote? Funnily enough, NTs won't read this. In my experience, they have notoriously bad reading comprehension. I doubt they'd bother. Sigh. Fuck it all. I should go back to bed.
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