#and then it just keeps getting worse ugh

[dawningfairytale]

babe wake up, new musical that’s going to make it so fucking hard to keep it pg at youth group just dropped

#npmd #nerdy prudes must die #like okay. it’s worse than ride the cyclone in this respect #bc the context is at least ‘oh it’s kinda a competition musical’ be it’s a bootleg bootlegs get taken down #but i refuse to talk about this musical with any of the youth who aren’t in year 12 (i think that’s appropriate) #bc it’s not just starkid it’s literally a ghost having sex #and i sing all the time and grace is like the first girl character in my vocal range #and. oh my gosh #and i KNOW people at my church watch starkid and i’m sure one of those kids will find npmd #and what would i say ‘love it too but that is not appropriate subject matter’ #do i lie?? like. ugh it’s going to be So Hard #i have talked about rtc but in my defence that girl was older. and not part of our youth group #trying So Hard to keep it child safe

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

just saw an article where someone attempted to use “science” to “prove” that cats are emotional parasites that should be culled and I have never felt such a surge of anger outside of like. actual human rights violations.

#fuck off. cats do get attached. they do experience affection. this will not show itself the same way as it would with a dog. #cats are social creatures. this means that bonding is both advantageous and necessary. just like any other social animal. #the only point I will not argue on was the part where they cause environmental damage as an invasive species #but there is a solution to this. KEEP YOUR CATS INDOORS. #also humans are. way worse for the environment fyi. if you want to go there. #storyrambles #UGH

[singingkestrel]

I'll give you a hint: It's Ted freakin' Faro.

#turns out ol' teddy had a history of making robots do Bad Things #he just keeps getting worse tho #tech bro AND a frat bro #ugh #the worst #horizon burning shores #hfwbs #burning shores spoilers #datapoints

[skunkes]

experiencing a weird thing where im trying to go to sleep earlier (because im tired and sleepy) but i take so long to fall asleep its the exact same thing as just going to bed late...feel so hopeless and i always end up tired either way... im very big on "i can always try again tomorrow" mentality in any way it can be interpreted (interactions with others, mood, the amount of work i do etc) but its so hard to Try Again when you're always too tired to do anything...

#i rarely take naps...i tried to do so today and after the hour i gave myself to nap i still hadnt fully fallen asleep #im so sleepy and tired .... #even if i manage to get my personal required 9 hrs of sleep im tired.... #i dont get it...im so sleepy rn + am going to bed but i wont fall asleep until much later... #god. i also hate this bc you'd think being an unemployed homebody who cant leave his house wld mean Constant #Naps and Sleeping. i avg like 6 hrs a night i cant imagine how worse off ill be with a job #i just want to sleep...! #and feel well rested... #talkys #sorry im just very frustrated...i try to do things to better my life and health and it ends up Not Working #like whats even the point. can barely keep my eyes open but i wont fall asleep until 5 am. why not just #go to bed at 5 am then. ugh.

[strawbunnycakes]

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#sales have been abysmal this month #thank god i have some big cons coming up bc i have a feeling itll just get worse #meanwhile im disabled and this is my only livelihood ugh #gotta keep pushing along and trying! #cute #art #plushie #plush #plushies #plushblr #support small artists #small artist #my art #cute stuff #cute art account #cute artstyle #cute artwork #cute artists #cute art #strawbunnycakeart

[sakura-fraust]

Not to preemptively doom post, but my hard drives crashed and things aren't looking hopeful for my computer rn :')

#things aren't looking hopeful for my will to live either #ugh #things just keep getting worse

[peachfruitcake]

#keep your hands off eizouken! #eizouken ni wa te wo dasu na! #keep your hands off eizouken fanart #eizouken fanart #Kanamori sayaka #Kanamori #sayaka Kanamori #digital art #art #procreate #fanart #doodle #anime #manga #hey waIten files followers I haven’t abandoned u btw I just love this show #ugh my sleep is getting worse and worse #how do I escape this

[skibasyndrome]

I'm about to throw all my academic values overboard to get this fucking article done

#linguistics are my enemy #not because I don't like the subject #I'm just........ so much less at ease with this than with literary sciene oh my god #I'm so glad I can mostly focus on lit in the future but let me tell you these few linguistics articles I have/had to do have really brought #me to my limit #and I thought I was already fed up and not giving a shit when I did that one article in summer... oh I had NO IDEA how much less of a shit #was capable of giving!!! #the thing is.... I think objectively I'm still? idk not the worst I could technically be doing #like there ARE people who straight up... idk don't even try to have a research question or who don't read more than a handful or articles b #t ugh #I like academic writing so much and I love putting in the work and I love actually getting into the reseach and finding the most important #texts and writing a balanced and well researched article but ugh..... I just feel like I keep reaching my limits with linguistics #and this time is worse than the others because this topic is SO FAR from being standardized and all I can do is ???? mention that there's #like a hundred different models and then just??? choose one and go with it? which is so fucking unsatisfying #but I swear... everybody in this field is just making up a new model that's just different words for the same thing (and not in the /normal #way that science /always/ is about making up a new model. no. this time they are very unnecessarily making up new models) #ugh. everything about this sucks #I should've chosen a different seminar I should've chose a different topic and I especially should've written more of this in summer when I #technically still had a little more time #sorry for blowing up your dash with complaints this festive season lol. I am just having a time (TM) with the different writing tasks on my #hands and I need a place to vent I guess #simon.out. #sounds so drastic btw I'm not about to cheat or plagiarize or anything but I'm about to do so much less of a proper work than I ever wanted #to allow myself to do. cherrypicking and all.

[jrueships]

ted i have no idea of the context of this but i have Vital maxey content to show you https://twitter.com/ChrisScorch/status/1724566019812012282

it's like my favorite thing ever when videos just suddenly end with a silent selfie

#maybe my humor has been severely impacted by 50 cent why he say fuck me for video for the worse #UGH hes so CUTE #it IS vital maxey content THANK YOU #forever will love when askers show me stuff <33 it makes me feel so special #like getting something from my penpal like a special little hometown treat or smthing #a precious little maxey moment Just for Me <33!!! #he is So cute. im gonna hurl #i love nasal voices <33 i rlly do #'okieee 😸!! my nuggets 😺 !' ILY MEOW MEOW #maxey is giving fashion major who attends a bougie college somewhere in nyc #he is frequently late to classes bcs he keeps getting distracted by staring at nyc pigeons #maxeys 50 point game was a THRILL to watch!!! HE IS GOOD AT BASKETBALL‼️‼️ #if maxey cant finish all those nugs giannis will happily volunteer as help #seeing my favs have success... as much as i am a hater... i am also... a Lover #it warms my soul *basketball meme quote caption of a famous person's saying* #the context: he is my babygirl #i NEED to go to chickfila to get a peppermint shake!!!!! i love peppermint!!!!! ugh but i hate the cold so i never want to go #CURSE U CHICAGO WEATHERRRR!!!!! #anyways #THIS IS GORGEOUS. THANK YOU FOR THIS VIDEO!!! ILY!!!!!!!!!!!! #i hadnt seen this one by the time it happened!! i love having moots so much <3 my friends!! my allies !!! #my little gay people in my phone <3 #ted asks #maxey #hes my PRINCESS !

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[undeadunalive]

Don’t spread hate, support each other

So, yesterday I was unfollowed by someone who was angry that a character I write from an absolutely dead rpc was getting more interaction than their muse from an equally dead rpc.... I didn’t think this needed to be said and it honestly saddens me that folk can be like this....... we should be supporting each other, not throwing hate around or trying to put each other down. It can be difficult enough on here, at times, without people going out of their way to make people feel bad for absolutely no reason and no fault of their own.

Please, please, please, as I’ve said in a previous post, there’s still so much hate going around, I’ve had some absolutely ridiculous anons, myself, one who was viscerally enraged that I dared write a canon character, one that saw the need to announce to me I wasn’t writing a character to the exact standard and specific portrayal that they wanted from me, and the sad thing is I know we’ve all had awful experiences like this without there ever being need for it. If you don’t like someone’s blog or their portrayal, unfollow them, you don’t have to go out of your way to be cruel or try to demean them, just leave and remember that there’s a fellow human being behind that account with feelings, opinions and dreams of their own. 

SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. SUPPORT EACH OTHER. 

#OOC: #{ just.... UGH } #{ if folk keep treating each other like this } #{ we're not going to have an rpc AT ALL by the end of it } #{ cos nobody will WANT to be here } #{ just to be treated like garbage :( } #{ it honestly feels like it's getting WORSE not better }

[strrwbrrryjam]

I wish I had other ways to express my emotions but no I gotta be a bitchass and cry about it

#i wish i would get angry. scream and cry and throw things. i wanna throw things. but instead i cry and cry and cry #i guess it mostly comes from the fact that i was always told to be quiet. keep things to yourself. #theres people out there that have it worse tham you etc etc etc #and now when these same people ask why i dont come to them before having the breakdown i curse them in my head #bc im doing what they taught me. im bottling things up im keeping stuff to myself #i dont think my mum even knows most of the time when im upset. i just say im ok bc well. shes one of the reasons im like this #idk. ugh. i dont think theres been a recent time where ive actually been happy and i didnt immediately bc upset after #if there was i dont remember at all #idk. im tired n its been a shitty day #strawberry speaks

[the-kipsabian]

#sigh #i dont wanna be here. trying is so much work that requires effort i dont have #i also broke my own promise to myself and ordered groceries home. yes its good im getting something to eat but i know i shouldnt #im just incapable of going outside and everything hurts #depression and anxiety keep getting worse #im just.. idk. i need a break where its okay to be just this fucking broken and like a years worth of sleep #i know i'll feel a bit better when i get coffee in me but also just. ugh #i really dont wanna get up. but the delivery is coming. ugh #night is an absolute mess on main

[frienderbender]

did mal praktis survive the end of the world oh my god

#i need him to. just because it’s funnier. #he was kinda banking on that…..now he has to live and continue to care for these guys…..he has the hardest life on the planet #i bet his office is gone too he’s like ugh this day just keeps getting worse

[thethingything]

I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #posts made on pain meds #I went downstairs to get food but ended up having to wait longer than anticipated which is whatever #but then that meant I ended up sitting down and once we sit down it's like our brain stops being able to process that we can leave #I'll sit there the whole time going ''I need to get up and go back upstairs. I don't want to be sat here'' and just can't get up #I hate that this happens because while I know our executive dysfunction isn't our fault #and it's the exact same issue that stops us eating or drinking or going to the toilet or whatever when we need to #I still feel like I should be able to just get up and do the thing and just leave if I'm in a situation that I don't want to be in #and it's so hard to get other people to understand that I can't ''just leave'' because my brain just won't let that happen #like I want to but my brain won't register it as an actual thing I can do and it feels more like a weird abstract concept #than a thing I could actually do. it's like my brain can't connect the concept of the action to the act of doing it #and then I get frustrated because why can't I just do the thing that I know I should be able to do #and then I've spent hours not doing anything I meant to and mostly just feel like shit because of it and it keeps happening #and now I need to lay down and I know what's likely to happen if I do that #but I do need to listen to my body especially after getting stuck in a situation that makes our pain and fatigue worse #also we had to take pain meds earlier and that's definitely not helping with us feeling shit emotionally about all this #I hate having to navigate our brain and body just not functioning properly #I feel like we've had so little energy lately and it's reminding me too much of this time last year when we had that blood infection #I'm terrified of that happening again because we almost didn't get treatment because we started to assume it was just our new baseline #hmm apparently within like 5 minutes we've gone from ''ugh I wasted 3 hours'' to almost crying over medical trauma #I probably need to try and do something to calm us down but also I'm too tired to really do anything #which brings me right back to the issue that triggered this whole rant and me getting upset in the first place

[rinzler-smoocher]

Ok but like. What if I'm a little obsessed imagining Rinz initiating the first kiss with Flint & NOT the other way around.

With Rinz carefully covering his hand over Flint's eyes, so he can remove his own helmet without fear of judgment, & with Flint trusting Rinz's intentions are good, not shying away as the program's sickle claws trace lightly over his cheek.

Claws Flint's personally seen maim & mangle, now shockingly nimble for such dangerous impliments...

Flint isn't sure where this is going, but his heartbeat surely spikes as Rinz takes another step toward him, his other hand gently - so gently, it's like it's not even there - hovering at Flint's back, only ever so slightly grasping onto Flint's cape as he forces himself forward to close the distance between user & program.

Flint nearly yelps out at the unexpected movement - having anticipated /something/ was coming, but not a KISS over anything else - but it comes out more like a /moan/, surprising himself even more by just how much he didn't even realize he NEEDED this from Rinz alone.

Claws & hands grasping tightly at one another, a stray jolt of electricity between the two sends Rinz's hand covering Flint's closed eyes curling, cutting a small knick over the swell of Flint's reddened cheek.

It takes just a glance at his user to notice the red liquid gathering along the thin line his claw created that forces Rinz to animalistically act on his impulse, his hunger, his desire, without another thought.

Mind completely empty, just repeating the command of /more more MORE/, Rinz breathlessly pulls away from Flint before immediately delves closer to the user and carefully runs his tongue over the fresh red blood bubbling to the surface of the small incision. In Rinz's desperate hunger for affection, he accidentally lets off a small spark as he repeats the motion, swiping his tongue over Flint's flesh, at once sending chills up & down the user's body & his dyed hair standing sharply on edge.

& all Flint can do is let out a soft "wow" as Rinz's surprisingly gentle lips find his way back to the user's, & willingly allowing himself to be drawn into the monster's hold. All while that electronic purring from deep inside Rinz's core rumbles through both of them, their entire existences shifting in that moment, changing their code & very reason for being. Moving together from survival mode to something so much more...

#look at that rinz #flint & twizz #so like i imagine #at some point early on #flint tries to make a pro & con list about rinzler #really torn up about the prpgram from being taken in & protected by him #& it leaves flint even worse a mess because instead of helping him keep his own mind unfettered & focused on tr on #instead one of the only cons in a sea of pros is just that #rinz isnt tr on #& that makes poor flint want to SCREAM #instead he just goes & drops himself into rinz's lap until the program retracts his helmet so they can fucking make out #& flint eventually introduces him to moving on to 2nd & 3rd base #coUGH COUGH #the dream right there #YEAGHHGH #also ugh nok stop re-imagining the same set up pver & overrrr #FUCKING BITE ME #its my blog my sad imagination I get to day dream all the fluff i want #so THERE