#and the role she was forced into

[yashley]

#critical role #cr lb #ygifs #imogen #and now I'm like did imogen have her own reason for not even going near the raven queen did she pray to her for her mother #thinking her mother was dead was gone and the goddess of death had her and it was just a little girl praying at her bedside #take care of her mother. tell her how much she misses her. she misses her so much. and the raven queen never answered #and she could find no comfort not even in a deity who brought eternal rest there was no solace. and there was no correction #did she pick a god and pray? for her mother to come back. for her father not to hate her. for someone to look at her like shes not a monste #that all this time this certified atheist to have zero interest in the gods or helping them not because she genuinely didn't care #but because once upon a time the little girl she used to be cared so much. and prayed so hard. never seeing the red veil around her #damning her from the grace of the gods #and isn't that just what a monster deserves #not even a gracious god will find you special enough you feel like nothing to them because you are nothing to them #and it's like is that true or is such an evil force preventing their light and it's like I'm chewing but I'm choking #I had to stop looking at laura's face because it was making me too craaazzzyy she'd just be like (bafta) and I'd be like (SCREAMING) #hey matt if this is a birdcall to make imogen a paladin tweet tweet beautiful man

[hylialeia]

you don't get it. she loved him once. she didn't have a maester, she had a brother. he sold their mother's crown to keep them fed. he said Dany, please. she loved him, once.

#I feel like the tragedy of viserys and dany is they really might have been close and loved each other normally of they'd been allowed to #barristan says viserys always seemed aerys's son but when has westeros had any sort of developed understanding of mental illness #dany knew him best and she said the last kindness left him when he sold their mother's crown #it begs the question how much kindness there would have been if they hadn't been children forced out on the streets #a brother dany says never forgave her for their mother's death giving her birth. #but who told her stories and brought her up while his own mental faculties were wearing thin #it doesn't feel like tywin keeping tyrion based on lannister name and blood alone #she loved him once. #that viserys had some inherent lecherous evil in him doesn't feel in line with that to me #it doesn't feel in line with dany please #if ned is the good guardian to tywin's bad one viserys was just a boy who found himself in that role under the worst possible circumstances #and who under duress of those awful circumstances and his own undiagnosed mental illness #(for which he never got any help or support) #failed his sister very very badly #leaving daenerys to feel the hole of his absence even when he was still alive #because she loved him. once #lol anyway! #asoiaf #daenerys targaryen #viserys targaryen

[cadykeus-clay]

a lot of people talking about vex donating the supplies for the rituals without batting an eye as a sign of how much she’s grown and healed, and that’s definitely part of it, it’s definitely a sign of her security, but also like.

her penny pinching was always trivial, she was the most altruistic of the party when it came to people who were otherwise beyond help. vex was the person who donated most of umbrasyl’s hoard to a ravaged westruun. the person who spent an exorbitant amount on the fire plane to buy two children out of slavery. her money has always been a measure of control, and she gave it away so others could have control when she felt guilty that her skills were not enough to help them.

and i think that seeing laudna, the girl who died because vex was careless with showing her face one night in uriel’s front yard, took her years and years back to that same traumatized unsure young woman, giving away the one thing that’s always made her feel safe to people she can’t think of any other way to help, people she failed by not being strong enough of skill. it’s not a just gift. its also penance.

#i dont know if my point is coming through here or not maybe ill be more coherent in the morning #but augghhh #she's FIXATED on this body she is right back where she was 30 years ago and she's using money bc she doesn't believe in Herself as a force #to fix this #critical role #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #cr liveblog

[walmart-miku]

Furina's character design fucks me up so much. Because when it's Furina the human she has short hair. When she's Furina the "God", she has both her short hair and the long hair in the back, symbolizing how Furina isn't really a "god" but more a human playing the part of a God. And then when she has just long hair Furina isn't Furina, she's Focalors.

Idk, just the fact that hoyo made it so you can tell them apart fucks me up on so many levels.

#I have so many feelings about her #Forced to play a role for 500 years #Can't tell anyone #can u imagine #the unbearable loneliness and pain? #I wanna give her a hug #Furina deserves the world and I will fight anyone who disagrees #She's my daughter now #I'll teach her everything she needs to know about being human #And she's already doing great #furina #focalors #genshin impact

[berunov]

Back in Black!

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #Reaper #I've started to play OW2 again and I'm a tank player (Zarya and Sigma mostly) #But all role queue just forces me to be a support on all games I play... So I'm a Baptiste main? #mon taff #I love reaper but honestly I'm not fond of his new OW2 design #I'm too attached to the OG stuff #Same for Sombra #she was already perfect before

[mell0bee]

i love orym and fearne’s friendship so much. fearne’s like “OMG guys i stole SOOOOO MUCH STUFF” and orym’s like “show us the top 3!” like he wants to support her in her thievery endeavors but also he needs to know if he’s gotta do damage control lmao

#he knows she is a force of chaos and he supports her 100% but also he wants to make sure it’s SAFE chaos #critical role #cr spoilers #bee watches c3 #bells hells #im 4 hrs into the vod #am hoping i’ll be able to finish it today

[cupophrogs]

I honestly dont trust Ollie either. I do wonder if he’s tried to tell drew to not trust daddy or pops. Cause like poppy Ollie seems to not care of the bigger bodies die or live.

“Poppy ain’t perfect, but trust me when I tell you that she cares. But you’re right about one thing, I don’t trust Ollie worth a shit.”

(This is a joke, please do not take this seriously! I thought it was funny)

#no Poppy slander in this clown car/lh #okay but seriously I ADORE Poppy’s whole character #OML I could ramble for ages but I’ll keep it short for tags sake #Poppy cares so much and I will die on this hill #she wants to be free; she wants to expose/uncover the company’s secrets so that SOMEONE knows what happened to them #she wants to LIVE #Yes Poppy kept us from leaving but she said it herself #she NEEDS the player. she physically can’t do anything on her own #and we see through her interactions with Kissy that she DOES want to save who she can- remember that she had no idea Dogday was alive! #likely why she never says anything about it #SO #What Poppy is doing; trapping the player. forcing them into this savior role so that she and anyone they can find can be saved #is incredibly human of her #trading the freedom of the one for the validation and seeing and possible freedom of the many is so human #and I adore it so deeply #phrart #art #ask phrog #poppy playtime #ask the three d’s #the three d’s #Ollie ain’t shit though lmao #that’s GOT TO be the prototype #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy poppy playtime #will smith meme

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Sunny my life my love my deranged little puppet from my brain

#she is so.... Transedgendered in her own special way #i realized her stitches look like top surgery stitches #however she never had a top to surgery #but somehow it still fits??? it makes Sense considering her background and personal lore #puppets are just so genderfucked <3 #scribble salad #forced idiots <3 #oc #original character #i didnt expect to get so attached to her!!! #i thought i was gonna discard her honestly! i thought she wouldnt Last in my brain! #but now she's irreversibly woven into the narrative #she's Important #also i just plain love her! #she's a huge opportunity to fuck with perception/flexibility of gender & sex & humanity & uhhhh whats the word??? life role??? #your place in life??? what you Do???? you know what i mean??? #its the making peace with yourself! accepting your role!! #she's making me unwell! #also she has retractable teeth <3 #was actually the second thing i thought of for her #literally the Exact Reason was because i imagined one of her fellow companions smacking her upside the head #and a full set of chompers Extended. they got knocked right out of her! chonk canines and everything!! #and then i figured out it ties into her journey and 'corruption' and oauasgasfja sundown summer you are my everything

[nellasbookplanet]

With Marisha mentioning on last 4SD that Laudna went to that dinner with the Briarwoods thinking it might be her in to leave Whitestone and go study/train her magic abilities, I wonder how much this early trauma has impacted how she talks, or rather doesn’t talk, about being a sorcerer.

Because Laudna doesn’t really talk about what it was like growing up as the only sorcerer in town with abilities she didn’t understand, nor does she seek to learn more about them now (but she wants to give Imogen all that she never had, and the first thing they try to do in the campaign is figure out Imogen's magic). She may talk about her death, sometimes almost flippantly, but not about how it feels knowing that it was her magic, that one part of her that made her special, that she wanted to use to get out of her simple life, that made Delilah choose her as her undead puppet, or the inverse in knowing that if it wasn’t for said magic dooming her, she would just be dead-dead, like the rest of the people in that tree.

And I wonder, is part of Laudna scared to explore her own abilities and self? Is it part of her compartmentalization, where doing so would force her to face a part of her own trauma that she’s been trying to ignore? Did dying trying to reach for something Bigger ironically remove the magic from it all, reduce her sorcerer abilities to just another thing that was used take control of her life away from her? Does leaving herself in the dark feel like taking part of that control back?

#critical role #cr3 #laudna #it would be neat if getting rid of delilah took a sort of. laudna agency arc #finding a god/new patron sure but also reconnecting with her own sorcerer abilities #in a way it feels very fitting that bells hells didn’t manage to permanently banish delilah #they can weaken her sure but only laudna can get rid of her #just as only laudna could bring her back by choosing to kill bor'dor #she's been forced to be live with delilah for so long that it’s hard for her to step out of neutrality #and into a mentality of 'I'm going to fucking kill this bitch' #nella talks cr

[mueritos]

a small moment of kindness that touched me today. speaking about our struggles as grad students in class with classmates. our small group is all BIPOC; another latine and two arabs, one who is palestinian. we are speaking very honestly about our fears and frustrations. feeling useless. feeling scared. upset at the world and its horrors. angry at other peoples' silence. but at the same time so so full of joy and hope. i talked about being scared of being forgotten, and we continued on with our group task of creating a liberation health triangle.

professor transitioned us back to the full class and while our professor began speaking again, my Palestinian classmate--so beautiful and with the most wonderful curls--leaned close to me and whispered "I'll never forgot you." I almost didn't hear her so i whispered back, "what?", and as sweetly as the first time she said, "I'll never forget you. And I'll never forget what you said last semester. You were the first person in this entire program who spoke of your frustrations. I felt less alone."

the walk home from class was very cold, but i could not help but let myself repeat the moment in my head over and over again.

#muerto talks #the way we are all forced to carry on because of the horrors of this world #and we can still choose to be kind to each other #what i took as a frustrating and vulnerable moment in my 10 am class last semester #was a moment where she could find some solidarity in someone else's words #and my small comment about being scared of being forgotten.... #i just #man let me appreciate the small moments of joy and love please #we are so exposed to cruelty and i have been seeing war and murder and violence nonstop #i spent the rest of class giggling and joking with them as we did our class role plays #it had been a long time since i had laughed that freely #i need to remind myself of this joy #it is so so important to #getting emotional writing this but it was beautiful

[iintervallum]

sketch of beau because I miss her

#art #fanart #critical role fanart #my art #critical role #critrole #c2 #beauregard lionett #sketch #digital art #never not thinking about her honestly #have so many headcanons for her man #i've thought of creating this dumb idea of a pre campaign comic of teen!beau #where she pitches an idea of diversifying the winery after months of planning in between studies and working #only to get dismissed entirely by her father because shes “distracted” and needs to concentrate on what shes “good at” #aka just keeping silent and sticking to book keeping #so she finally realizes that she cannot live up to her fathers expectations and begins lashing out by being a criminal #meeting tori and tony and experiencing being a rebel for some time until she gets found out through getting arrested #instead of her father getting mad at her he instead just silently grounds her to her room #where shes there for some time before in the middle of the night being dragged out by force #and tada the rest is what we know #alas i don't have the skills to plan that out properly but #i will one day do it(no promises)

[broodygaming]

Often I think people need to separate above table stuff and in game stuff, but here I think the opposite needs to happen.

I don't think the narrative is "Fearne NEEDS to do this" it's more "hey Ashley you're allowed to take cool stuff and take risks and it'll be okay."

Like, we all know Travis is gonna pick up the talking sword and wanna keep it, even though it's a risk, right? Why. Why do we know this about him? Think about it. He's always willing to do the risky option. Take the least tred path, because it's THERE and he trusts the story to catch him on the other side.

Ashley from day 1 being on the show, even her telling the story of that first fateful birthday party, she's TALKED about feeling insecure, not wanting to pull focus, wanting to sit back and watch the others play.

For so long, this is great, everyone just wants her to be included. (This isn't me, like, reading into this btw, these are their literal words.) People online would complain about how "wow Yasha was actually here for a full ep and she barely spoke". She's talked so much about how she often just wants to watch what's happening.

Enter Fearne, Ash is here for every single episode. She's chaotic, she's in the moment. She wants to push all the red buttons.

But does she? Does she actually push a lot of red buttons? She steals stuff, sure. But she still has this "I dunno I don't wanna be disruptive" aspect to her, her being Ashley, not Fearne.

This isn't just about "Fearne does or does not want the shard". To me, it seems it's more about telling ASHLEY, hey, you're allowed to take the big magic item. It's okay. You have it. You be in the spotlight. You get the power up. PUSH THE RED BUTTON DO IITTTTTT THE STORY WILL CATCH YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE. It's less about Fearne trusting herself and more about Ashley trusting her castmates.

Again. Don't be weird. This isn't like, reading into anything that deep haha. C'mon. Like Matt literally told her in a 4SD you gotta take risks and do the scary thing and trust it'll be okay sometimes. That's the game.

#it's just not that deep this time yall cmon #cr spoilers #critical role #cr discourse #i know im gonna get hate for ppl saying im being parasocial and like - dont use that word unless you understand it cmon #these are THEIR WORDS #and as a really insecure person in big groups of friends I 100000% get where she's coming from #you dont wanna step on toes and you dont wanna pull focus #seeing so much hate about how the party is manipulating Fearne or forcing this narrative or blah blah blah #what a boring and aggressive take when what's really happening is so cool #let characters and actors do things and take risks without being jerks about it online 2024

[ickypuppi3]

Lucas On The Line // “For instance, the clothes she's been wearing lately have been... unusual. Old and oversize, and not in a good way. They remind me of Will's clothes, how he was always wearing something of Jonathan's, or even Mrs. Byers's.”

#billy hargrove #max mayfield #max wearing billy’s clothes #the same way will does with his brother #with his MOM #i wanna die actually #‘or even mrs byers’s’ #nothing but pain #+ words #billy being forced into not only the big brother role but also the parental role #something about max seeing him as a parental figure #their relationship is so complicated and people who hate billy aren’t allowed to speak on it because they simply do not get it #it’s more complicated than just hating or loving one another #something about max finding comfort in billy even though he tried to distance himself emotionally for neil related reasons #i hate it here i hate it here #that sweater and that shirt were most definitely billy’s like there’s no other explanation #max keeping his brown leather jacket in her closet and not wearing it because it still smells like him and she doesn’t want that to go #max realising his cologne is starting to wear off the clothes she is wearing but not wanting to use up his cologne #to make them smell like him again so she just has to have a moment about it #:(

[cluescorner]

I gave myself a writing challenge and I am fascinated by it

So basically I put the robins in a randomizer to give them a new order/role (because I just...kinda wanted to see what would happen + I like role-reversal AUs) and got results that are giving me a fucking brain blast.

Stephanie, the first sidekick who defines the role

Tim, the sidekick who dies and comes back wrong

Dick, the sidekick who saves Batman from himself

Damian, the sidekick who was never supposed to be a sidekick but would go on to prove everyone wrong

Jason, the youngest sidekick who is still the Kid Wonder

...So this is fucking wild. I've got some ideas and several of these fit perfectly (Dick's role is pretty similar to his one in canon), but some of these are fucking INCREDIBLE to explore (Steph being the first Robin is something I never even considered but tbh I kinda love it).

I probably won't write a fic or anything because tbh I don't like publishing my writing that much, but I might expand this into a full AU and post about it. I might randomize other stuff too (ie, stuff that I cannot change vs stuff that I cannot keep the same) but this fucking rules as a starting point.

#uhhh what am I calling this?? #randomizedrobinsau #stephanie brown #oh my god I am so excited to figure out how tf to write this. #because she's my favorite of these characters and having HER be the first sidekick + the one who has a mentor/older sister relationship #with the others?? kickass. though I'll probably keep her and Tim's relationship as 'dating-then-exes' because I think it's funny #and then SHE can be the Robin who Tim got fixated on + figured out her identity?? holy fuck and then the angst of Tim later dying #Tim Drake #tbh I kinda wish he'd gotten a different position because 'sidekick who dies' Tim has kinda been done a lot with the standard #reverse robin aus. But it'll still be fun to write. Definitely going the Joker Junior route with this because Batman Beyond kicks ass #Dick Grayson #He'll honestly probably be the easiest. Like...his role has not changed much outside of being younger/not the one who defines this #But I still think it'll be good to see how well I know Dick beyond his eldest brother thing (which is my best way of relating to him) #Damian al ghul #damian wayne #oh this is gonna kick ass #Bruce does not want his son to be a sidekick but Damian just kinda forces his way into that role #and everybody doubts him because of his history with the league but he later proves himself more than capable #to the point that he can set out mostly on his own and still thrive #Jason Todd #Jason being the baby of the family is also something I have never thought about but holy shit it could kick ass #I really hope that I don't roll 'Jason must die' or 'Robin 5 must die' on the randomizer. I just kinda want Jason to live this time #But unfortunately I double-screwed him because he's on the 'must happen' wheel twice now. I did not think these prompts through #TBH I am so happy that none of them rolled their OG roles. because that would have been so fucking boring

[yashley]

imogen & fearne in 3x50

#critical role #ygifs #imogen x fearne #imogearne #what's WORSE fearne thinkin gross thoughts or imogen not even needing to read her mind to guess she already is these TWO #also like ..................... imogen quietly yelling at fearne to give back what she took and the whipped way fearne listened to hersdjk #but the way fearne stood there silently panicking as imogen just silently puts her arm around her #there's like this split delusional second of heaviness before it just goes into ''it'll be fine'' and it's chewing my brain #it's like after all they've been through surely a passing friendly I love you see you later wouldn't be too much so like..... im the problem #the way they force a brave face in place of any vulnerability oooook

[school-zones]

Y’all, Fearne took the shard. Ashley was happy. It was exciting and fun to watch. Did you see her smile? THAT’S what matters.

#there was no forcing #they asked her if she wanted it and apologized for being rude before #she said she wanted it #that’s all #fearne calloway #critical role #cr campaign 3 #bells hells #ashley johnson