#and that includes the guy that was on that anime lawyer post lol

[littlestpetgoth]

Tell us more about your little homestucks?

ok.. ill only go over my descendent ocs because they're the ones ive been posting about recently, i have too many homestuck ocs to cover lol..

mayosi pyrope is the first descendent oc i made back when there was a brief trend on twitter to make, fan descendants of the trolls. i think i was inspired by ko's descendent acarid, and terezi being one of my favorite trolls i ended up making a bootleg pyrope. (and i draw them together all the time bc they rot my brain)

they're a radical transmasc weeaboo skater "vigilante" who grew up being raised by humans in a very normal average household where they got basically anything they wanted with no issues. their interests include; dishing out justice, watching animes, playing videogames, and doing sick tricks on their board. they wield a katana that resembles terezi's dragon cane.. they're my simplest designed character, and though they look a lot like terezi with a skirt and long hair their design was heavily influenced by dirk because i imagined that dirk has influenced some kind of anime character that mayosi obsesses over and has based their look on..

they aren't at all interested in, being a lawyer or anything like that and would like to take care of bad guys samurai batman style in their ideal world.. unfortunately the loving gently parenting of their human family didn't toughen them up enough so they're mostly a baby who doesn't do well when faced with conflict. mayosi's easily bossed around by anyone who firmly tells them to do something because they're too scared to step up and stand up for themself and others, they have a lot of shame for not being as strong and cool as terezi or red glare. real wet blanket.

uuuh like terezi, they weren't always blind. they were lured in by their ex best friend now super complex hate not boyfriend acarid and he poured acid into their eyes, ruining their vision and giving them crazy chem burn scars.. i think around this time they were also given their super rad pointy shades so they can look more like their hero, but it was a major blow to their confidence since not only are they a weak coward they're now a weak coward who can't see. they eventually learn to navigate the world via sound waves, its not as effective as terezi's sniff and taste vision but mayosi isnt as interested as smelling and licking everything in their presence.

example of what i think it's like for them here..

theyyy are convinced by acarid to join him in his perfect sburb sesh, where they eventually grow a pair and cut off his arm and gouge his eyes before being shot in the brain and killed dead without ever waking on their moon. (sad) mayosi's feelings about acarid, who essentially abuses and manipulates them constantly, are very complicated because they feel an obligation to take on the brunt of his crazy in order to protect everyone but also because they cling to the nostalgic memories they have of him and are hoping he'll one day go back to that.

kokesi megido is based on kokeshi dolls, i think she sees ghosts and is really scared of them so she's super skittish and is always finding ways to shoo them away.. she probably knows how to speak japanese ig, i dont have a lot to say about her unfortunately.. i like how her design turned out though.

grimir maryam and romato vantas are brothers adopted into a rich human family, they're both spoiled brats and are constantly bickering with each other when they aren't pretending the other exists. grimir is mute and likes to garden (sooo original, i know) and romato speaks a lot and is a hopeless romantic writer. shrug.

i don't have as much to talk about. for any of my descendents other than mayosi because i have a really hard time developing ocs when i dont have people to bounce ideas off of. i mean most of mayosi was formed around acarid's existence and from ko's influence, otherwise they also wouldn't be developed . sorry .

#oc #ask #homestuck #fantroll #im not very good at working on ocs #i mostly just design them and pput them on a shelf

[dr-runs-with-scissors]

OC Name meaning Tag!

Thank you @multi-lefaiye for the tag uwu sorry this took so long, also much like yourself I adore behindthename

Also also, I apologise in advance for how bad I am at naming things hahah 

Aight so I have far far to many OC's but for simplicity I'll do my paranormal gang from my story "Into the Woods" which was actually named that way way before that movie came out and time will tell if I change the title. For brevity's sake I will also just be including the main lads and the villains, I might do a separate post for Liu's family uwu

TW - Suicide mention

Liu Willows - So Liu’s first name can mean “Willow Tree” which is good because willow trees are an important motif to his character. Willow trees have strong associations with hope, belonging and letting go of pain and suffering, all themes I'm keen to explore in the story, mostly through him. part of his character arc is learning to let go of his past so yeah, willow trees. His last name funnily enough means “One who lives by willow trees” so I guess you could interpret his name as willow tree in the willow grove. Since togetherness and friendship are also key themes for him I kind of like it, Liu is part of a grove, there's something almost poetic about that...I think.

Miles Whitby - Miles can mean soldier! Which is super unfitting for this English lad, he’s anything but a soldier. Miles is somewhat cowardly, flighty and not particularly disciplined. This actually kind of works since, despite being his parents ‘golden boy’ he deals with a lot of insecurity about not living up to their expectations. I like the idea that his name doesn't quite fit, suits his arc. It can also mean gracious which he absolutely is, Miles is a lovely person and he likes to take care of others. His last name is names after the port town Whitby so his name can literally be Soldier of Whitby. makes him sound kind of badass, which he most definitely is not lol

'Swift' - Not going to use his actual name because its a spoiler but Swift names himself after the animal, and Swifts have some interesting symbolism. They can be associated with nomadic lifestyles due to the fact they live life on the wing. Their also sometimes called “Devil Birds” and seen as bad omens. In the UK their synonymous with Summer, and as a result bring associations of better weather to come. As a name Swift means, quick and windblown. Mixed bag here, Swift is sent to keep an protect Miles and Liu and he has to travel to get to them, which is why he took the name. I suppose the argument could be made their lives get better after he shows up, much like how the birds he names himself after herald Summertime over here. I like how it turned out! 

Martin Kingsley - So Martin means Of Mars, warlike or Warrior. Super not accurate, Martin is a sweet, wonderful blorbo who would much rather have a peaceful outcome to confrontations. Honestly Swift would be more suited to this name lmao. Kingsley means “kings clearing” which I like because it ties another characters name to tree themed goodness. The fact it means clearing is great cuz Martin is actually an entity using the body of a boy who let them take it after they killed themselves. As an entity Martin represented loneliness and isolation so the idea that their last name means clearing, as in a space in the woods with no trees, no friends or ties to others, is just perfect to me. 

Calvin Learmont - Calvin, the absolute bastard man that I named myself after. (PS I absolutely do not condone anything this man does in his cannon.) Calvin means bald. Which he isn’t. However, one of my favourite tropes is “Bald of Evil” where the bad guy is bald, like Lex Luthor. SO I do like how that happened. I also just happen to think its funny the big bad man’s name means bald. He deserves to be bullied. John Calvin was a humanitarian lawyer (my boi is also a lawyer) who broke away from the catholic church. My Calvin is a Cult leader so...Read into that how you like. His Last name Learmont is based on the Scottish Surname Learmonth, a noble family from Fife. Which just means, “of Learmonth”.  I’m Scottish so I like sneaking in references to my country lol. Calvin comes from a family of old money though so having his last name be derived from the name of a noble family is very befitting. 

Jacob Learmont - Jacob means supplanter and given the fact Jacob is the host for an eldritch being and is more or less just pretending to be human? I like this. A lot. The name is also pretty biblical and Jacob has some rough history with religion. Jacob also is the one Calvin has decreed will be the next high priest of the cult the family runs, meaning Calvin's sisters are unable to lead the cult they by all rights should have some birth right claim to. Interesting. Jacob took Calvin's last name when he was adopted and refuses to acknowledge his old name, so “Supplanter from Learmonth” which makes him sound very scheming. Which he is so I guess it works! 

'Ash' - Ash is named after the tree, but as a given name, Ash is short for Ashley which means “Ash tree clearing”. Ash trees have lots of supernatural associations, some people believe the smoke from ash wood wards off evil spirits, sometimes ailing children were given ash sap as a medicine and  Yggdrasil, the world tree is apparently an ash tree! Ash as a character is incredibly linked to the supernatural, without getting into spoiler territory the fact his namesake is so closely linked please me. This one I actually did do on purpose. Ash is also, what's left after a fire, and the idea of being what's left, is incredibly important to his story arc, again I don’t want to like, spoil to much but yea read into that how you like haha 

This was super fun! I might do this for some of my other characters just for fun lmao! Again thanks for the tag Xavier! Just gonna leave this as an open tag for whoever would like to do this! PS- I hope i did this right lmaooo

#OC #my ocs tag #into the woods #might rename idk #Liu Willows #Miles Whitby #Swift #Martin Kingsley #Calvin Learmont #Jacob Learmont #Ash #Ash tree #name meaning #name meanings #symbolism #idk how to tag

[danideservedbetter]

Alright so, here’s how things are gonna work.

First off, welcome to this side blog. Since it won’t be jolly fun fandom content and will be a little more personal I decided to separate my health and writing journey from my fandom stuff, although all my fandom content will still be linked on my main blog here.

(I write Izuocha/bnha content which isn’t super popular so if you’re not here for that then yeah, I don’t blame you. But if you are I have a link to our discord and community content pinned so def check it out if you’re interested.)

Secondly, you guys will hear details about stuff relating to my health like what kinds of things affect my disorder based on the tests some doctors are ordering, how I’m trying to improve my diet and activity, and routines and goals I’m attempting for myself. I am underweight, and that’s something I’m going to be talking a bit about, so if that’s triggering following this blog might not be the best thing for you. Details under the cut.

So, what kind of disorder do I have and why did I decide to make a health journey blog? My disorder is called idiopathic hypersomnia. Basically what that means is that when my disorder is acting up (based on factors like stress especially or my generalized anxiety rearing its ugly head) I have the capacity to sleep. And sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep. My longest recorded uninterrupted “sleep-attack” was 26 hours long and ever since I caught Covid in January, my body had been slowly growing weaker to the point I was starting to develop atrophy. I’ve had this ten years and my neurologist suspects inactive cells from mononucleosis I caught at 14 was the cause, because other IH patients have linked their sleeping problems to a case of mono or have had it at some point in their lives.

This disease stole many years and many things I’ve looked forward to from me. I lost friends and experiences and failed so many college classes I had to drop out.

I’ve decided I’m taking them back.

It’s not going to be easy. Just as it took ten years to convince myself that my tiredness was something I chose to give into, it took several extra years and many fights with my family to convince them that I had a real actual neurological disorder and that I need help sometimes. My parents and grandmother finally understand that I have to finish college and find a very special boss willing to work around my erratic progress on projects, but the outsiders they married are not as convinced. My grandmother’s husband kicked me out of their house because he wants to be the center of attention and doesn’t like that some days I’m so weak that I needed my grandmother’s help, and my father’s wife thinks I’m a lazy and ungrateful leech who “gets anxiety just being around” me. Both told my father I’ll never be happy so why even bother with me, but my dad is actually striving to understand his own recently-diagnosed PTSD so while we still butt heads he’s understanding that I have to take things day by day because every tiny circumstance affects my disorder.

Now, why did I decide to air all this out? Well, being open about my disorder and how it affects me has helped at least two people that I know of find out that the tiredness they experience isn’t the typical “American work force exhaustion” they were trained to believe is normal. So if I can help even one more, I’ll gladly talk about what this entails and how I deal with it day to day. Another reason is that I’m also one of those big advocates who believes talking candidly about mental health destigmatizes it and sharing ideas can help us grow as people and maybe make it a little easier to deal with.

So now that you know a little bit about me and my disorder, here are my big goals for the next three months provided my university takes pity on me and actually lets me go back.

First up: create routines to train my body to get used to living a full day fully awake. This includes waking up at the same time and going to sleep at the same time. It means getting dressed and going out and doing things, even little things— which I’ll get to in a sec.

Second: I write. I have a novel in limbo and I write fanfics. Writing is a big part of who I am and I’ve written one thing this year, which for a whole six-month stretch is upsetting and disappointing. Today is my reset. In the next 569 days I want to to finish the six stories I have in limbo (except the larger one) and finally reach my goal of posting 200k words in a single year. I wont be hard on myself if I can’t accomplish this because honestly finishing anything in the chaos of my life is going to be a miracle but. There ya go.

Third: go back to freakin college. I don’t care what it takes. Sit down with every official, every lawyer, and every professor it takes to get me back enrolled in classes in the fall.

Fourth: I have several smaller things I have to do, short term goals, stuff like that. I’m gonna create a to do list each day of small tasks I want to get done and while some of these things will be part of my daily routine I am throwing in like one or two things a day that just need to be done. My writing goal will change daily and I’ll keep y’all updated on that with every post I make.

Now, I know what you’re thinking. Dani! That’s so much!! Well, a few months ago I remembered hey!! I basically have a computer in my hand, why make it hard on myself. So I downloaded certain apps to help me out. This isn’t me saying “hey go subscribe to these apps because I said so” it’s just that through a lot of trial and error I’ve come to find that these certain apps work for me and I’ve yet to come across one that has the functionality of everything I need.

Tiimo — so this is an app I found developed by people with autism for people with autism to help them develop good habits and routines. It has preset daily schedules (things like morning routines or nightly routines or work routines) and an internal alarm to let you know when to move on to the next task. I myself have extremely low-level aspergers (to the point where my doctor won’t give me an official diagnosis because I didn’t want people think that *it’s* the reason I have issues with school), so moving from task to task can be difficult sometimes and I also deal with getting distracted. This widget also appears on my home screen so I know what I have to do at a glance. You can program in weekly and daily tasks to fully customize your schedule, which is fantastic for someone like me who wants to for example rotate chores. This is hopefully going to help me get my body in the habit of adjusting to routines and transitioning from one task to another, as well as getting important things done responsibly.

Promptly Journals — I’ve been told for a while that journaling is helpful mentally to kind of recenter yourself, so a bit ago I downloaded several journal apps to add to my morning routine. Now some will prefer more creatively free journals, but I prefer this one that gives me small prompts I can do in a short amount of time that just allows me to get my thoughts down. I can even add pictures at the bottom that go with the theme! I’m scared I’ll run out of prompts eventually lol but until then this app works very well for my needs.

Stretchingexercise — Now idk if it’s from lack of sleep from my disorder, the position I sleep in when I do sleep, all the physical labor I’ve had to do in the past couple weeks, my medicine, or w h a t but I suffer from body aches like no one would believe. I know stretching is supposed to help with that, so I downloaded this app to help me do non-demanding physical activity that wakes me up in the mornings and helps relieve pain so I don’t keep having to take pain relievers. This one has different plans for things like muscle tension, back pain, warm ups— and it also gives you rudimentary weight updates (I’m underweight lololol so we’re looking to fix that) or plan updates. It’s worked really well for me so far and gives you animations and descriptions of the workouts (some taken from yoga) as well as timed breaks and a narrated guide. It’s been pretty helpful in temporary relief and if nothing else gets my blood flowing in the mornings.

Widgetsmith Step counter — in addition to the stretching thing one thing my doctor and I discussed that helps with the sedentary lifestyle is simply walking. I’ve needed so bad to relieve my stamina and reverse the atrophy, and walks have been stellar for that. Now I live in the New Orleans area so humidity and heat force me to go at the crack of Dawn, but honestly my weenie dachshund Charlie really enjoys our time out so he goes with me! The CDC recommends 10,000 steps a day which seems like a lot and it is if you don’t get out much. But this gives me an excuse to get dressed and do the hygienic thing and help Charlie be healthy too, as well as give me time for brainstorming because we walk in a truly beautiful area. I’m sure everyone installed widgetsmith with the last iOS update (Apple users anyway) and while at first the step counter was just interesting I’ve since come to rely on it! We do our 5000 in the morning, which of course is half, and I find that other things I do throughout the day typically drive the counter higher. Anything leftover can easily be accomplished by an evening walk in our neighborhood. Now the caveat is that I have to remote have my phone in my pocket because I don’t own a watch or anything fancy lol, but honestly I need to keep it on me anyway so that serves as a good reminder.

Todoist — this one is my FAVORITE. Ever since I’ve decided that I have trouble keeping track of things I need to do and small stuff I need to keep in mind and appointments, etc, I decided to find a list app. This is the one I found that absolutely helps me for everything from my list of room supplies I need to buy, to my reading list, to general tasks I have coming up I need to complete. And its widget functionality keeps it right on my Home Screen! More organized individuals can just use tiimo, but I’m definitely not one of those individuals so this app is sorely needed and appreciated.

And of course, I know building habits the first few weeks is HARD. So for days my body doesn’t respond to my alarms, I have a checklist of the key things I have to do to keep my life as functional as possible.

So that’s that on that. I’m going to try to keep writing updates and my daily goals in a post in the morning, and reblog what I accomplished in the evening. It’s gonna be tough. But I’m thinking if I can start small I’ll be able to build my stamina enough to return to college and be successful when I do. I hope that anyone watching this journey draws some kind of meaning or inspiration from it. And you guys can even follow along if y’all want! Especially for writers or people trying to get healthier. I can’t promise what works for me will work for you (and honestly I expect things to change especially if I get accepted into college again) but hey, I figure it’s worth a shot.

I hope you guys enjoy watching this journey, if nothing else I hope it’s entertaining. And maybe it’ll be successful. I do know that I’m just gonna try for it, and hope it works out.

First daily update to follow

Xoxo

Dani

#idiopathic hypersomnia #health and wellness #writing challenge

[nny11writes]

can you do a fic rec for family oriented tcw fics? I feel like I've read everything lol

Hey anon, thanks for stopping by! I can certainly try, but I’m not sure exactly what you mean by family oriented. Just, like, generally across the genres Imma try. But I will say as I was doing this, several of these are not strictly TCWs. Some are actually outside that completely but still include the main trio and Padme as major characters so I’ve put them in here in case you’d like to give them a whirl.

My absolute #1 suggestion for under appreciated family fics:“Where I’ve Always Been” series by Gabby (Kirahsoka) 

It’s not clone wars exclusive, it does build from TCW’s forwards and is both a barrissoka fic and semi-medieval AU. But you wanna talk family oriented? This series is THE BEST FUCKING THING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone comes together and there’s a constant focus on family first. Gabby does a great job at address the ups and downs of family, and always writes relationships that are either A. Healthy as Fuck and Beautiful, or B. Unhealthy With Everyone Involved Trying. I love this series. I could probably write a whole fucking long ass post about this series lol! It’s got god damned everything, Luminara is amazing, Obi-Wan is fantastic, the original characters I would die for. The thing that might be lacking for you in here is there isn’t a lot of Padme or Anakin. There’s more Anakin than Padme, but he’s really not a main character of this series. Ahsoka, Barriss, and their daughters really become the focal point but I’m not lying when I say basically everyone fucking shows up to this one. It’s amazing and I beg you to give it the chance it deserves, it’s SUPRA, and you will understand what the hell I mean when you get in deep enough lol!

Also straight up, up front, Mylordshesacactus and alexkablob have both written some fantastic barrissoka fics that often also have a focus on family (looking at you Brave AU and Beauty and the Beast AU). If you haven’t looked at their stuff, and don’t mind the barrissoka, I think their works are fantastic!

NOW ONTO THE REST OF THE RECS

“Stuck in the Middle With You” by victoria_p (musesfool)  is a fucking delight of the trio having to share a bed platonicly (or however that’s spelled ig??). It’s got great humor and the way the three of them are just so well written is excellent. I love re-reading this one!

"Sometimes a family is a cultural anthropologist, a PoliSci PhD, a snippy sophomore, a golden cat, a Snorkie, and a guy who just wants to build a really smart robot” by all these lovelies: bessyboo, cantarina, exmanhater, forzandopod, heartequals (savvygambols), Opalsong, reena_jenkins, sophinisba, theleanansidhe!!! This is actually a pod fic/audio book, but I have trouble listening to stories so I am SO glad they included a transcript. This shit is gold! It’s sweet, it’s funny, it’s ridiculous. Anakin and Ahsoka run a youtube channel for “Waffle or Waffle Not!” where they pour various things into a waffle iron to see what works. Padme and Obi-Wan show up too, as it is obianidala. I know that’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but I love this fic and the dynamics between everyone.

“The Living Force” by mathelode (engmaresh) is quick look at Anakin teaching Ahsoka how to choose insects and bugs to eat. There’s some crude humor (barf jokes mostly) but I do like the way Anakin and Ahsoka interact!

“Of Love and Family” by Ferith12 is exactly what is says on the tin. All about Ahsoka and the family she finds along the way.

“Saw The Waves But Not The Tides” by Meiloorun  is a bit dialogue heavy but focuses on Anakin and Rex talking about war and family when they get a transmission from Mandalore. It’s a really nice fic to me, feels cozy!

“Little One” by Fawkes_Rinzler  is a great Plo Koon & Ahsoka Tano fic about sharing a language together. They’re family and this is the hill I will DIE ON.

Parts 3-5 of the “Pesky Birthday Gifts” by peskylilcritterare short and sweet little slice of life fics that aren’t explicitly family oriented but I read then that way. It’s totally possible the rest of the series is great too, I just haven’t had as much interest to read them/look at them (some of it is fan art I think).

I know this is not a TCW only fic recs, but! I swear my stand by these days, “Of Queens, Knights, and Pawns” and “Shifting Sands” are both fantastic Leia centered fics by chancecraz! There’s a lot of focus on what makes family, and family relationships/importance in both of them so I’d highly recommend them. They are VERY long, and there is plenty of drama and angst inside so it’s not family in that fluffy happy fam way all the time. Vader, Obi-Wan, and Ahsoka are all major players, as is Rex. But it /is/ more OG and Rebels than TCW. Still I’d say give them a read!

The “Jedi Shmi AU” series by MirandaTam covers more than just TCW, but a lot of it does take place during that time frame. There’s some great Tatooine culture building in the series and I really love the way the characters are imagined in this AU. “Shwiya Root Soap” by sharkcar is a great look at the dynamic between Obi-Wan, Anakin, Ahsoka, and Padme. It’s a relaxed feeling fic to me. No high angst drama, and a lot of really nice long hold points with characters working through a lot. There’s still some action and romance etc, so it’s not sedate. A well balanced one I think! It is 1st person PoV which I know can throw some folks off but I think it’s fantastic.“The Light You Leave Behind” by laventadorn is a post Ahsoka leaving the order fic, and did in large part plant the seeds of Padme Says No, which exploded after I saw a post here on tumblr that was *mwah*. It is unfinished with the last update in 2016, I still rec it! It’s got a good mix of things going on genre wise, and I love the way Padme was written in this one.

The whole “b sides (SW lawyer AU)” by triviaseesaw (ladydaredevil)  kicks ASS. It is a daredevil AU but you don’t have to know anything about that to enjoy it. I also really like that this one is multiple SW fandom friendly. There are stories focusing on prequels, og, and sequels, as well as the animated series but you can sort of pick and choose which ones you want to actually follow. There’s fluff, drama, angst, the whole nine yards dude. There’s a lot of focus on what is family and how to connect with one another. It is vaderkin status tho so just a heads up!Okay, look, “good opinion once lost”  also by triviaseesaw (ladydaredevil) isn’t completely a family oriented fic, it is a barrissoka fic. But there is still family stuff involved! It is a Pride and Prejudice AU, and while I will admit I never got into P&P, I love this story and I had to rec it

Alright, I need to just rec all of triviaseesaw (ladydaredevil)’s stuff. While some of it is more romance focused, almost everything still includes a good cast of people in really unique and fun AU’s and settings. This is probably not what you’re look for but I realized I was gonna rec more of their work and so here’s the link.“all the words you do not speak” listed via orphan_account, is not a happy family fic. It is hurt/comfort post Rako Hardeen, but it focuses on the Trio and their bonds so I think it would still work out.

The “Circle ‘round the Sun” by risinggreatness is one that I remember loving. I went nuts every time I saw that series name pop up in my emails as updated. But I will also be honest, it’s got so many entries that it’s all become a mush of “oh HELL yeah” in my head. Like, I wanna go feral over the characters and relations but I can’t explain why. I do know that it deals across a lot of times and relationships which is part of why I liked it, but it is focused on TCW.

#star wars #fic recs #star wars the clone wars #here's the thing this is what I found after just an hour and a half #refreshing my memory in my history section on AO3 #and it's a slim fraction #hopefully there's stuff on this list you haven't read before! #but if you look at this and go #T-T I've done it all and/or I can't stand a trope/set up in these #hit me up again and I will look some more! #192 is a reminder for ME #hey future me #fuggin don't forget dumby! #Anonymous

[mrfanjerry]

Lol nearly two years have passed since I last posted. Which is crazy, because I still tell people I have a secret page on here. I think this page is public, actually, but who even uses tumblr anymore. I think I’m in love again, which is the first real relationship I’ve had since I separated from my wife. It’s just kind of got some weird situation stuff about it, and I’m afraid I’m going to get hurt again, which I don’t know if I can handle. I’ve waited three years to try this again, and I’m not even 100% sure I’m ready. I work a lot, between my real job as a Metrologist, and my “YouTube career” I spend a lot of time focused on things that aren’t human relationships. If that even makes sense. Plus I totally have substance abuse issues, she knows about them, and wants to work on it with me, but I’m not even sure if I want to stop completely. My anxiety keeps my brain going 24/7, so being fucked up either makes it stop, or helps me express my thoughts better. Luckily my boss hasn’t asked why my nose is always running . That’s not the worse addiction, the drinking is my crutch. I had a 12 pack every single night this week. I was on a business trip to Santa Clara, and the only friend I have there was actually in San Diego which really sucks lol. I got to see him Monday night which was nice, but Tuesday- Saturday he was in my hometown (adult hometown I should say) and I was in his. Crazy how small the world is. I’m picking up my son next Saturday and taking him to Upstate NY to see my parents, and I can’t fucking wait. I haven’t gotten to see my little man since Christmas. I try and be strong and act like seeing him everyday doesn’t bother me, but it secretly is killing me. I’ve done everything to keep trying to get him back, but it all feels pointless. I’m a dude, and I’m depressed, so I don’t know if I would ever get it to work. Unless when he gets old enough to put his opinion in and then maybe! But he’s only five so I’m just going to have to wait. I haven’t even been able to take her back to court for over a year, because Covid the courts started pushing it further and further back. I don’t even have a lawyer anymore because it’s honestly just too expensive, and that doesn’t help anything. Plus my living situation has never been the best. I’m staying in a studio apartment, which is technically a motel, but it’s the cheapest rent in San Diego. It’s $1040 every four weeks, utilities included. If I moved into a not hotel it’d be easily $1300 for the same size space. For a two bedroom for my kid? $2,400 or so. It’s not like I don’t make any money, I get $33 an hour with my metrology job, plus all the over time I work, which is like $49.50 an hour. Like, I worked 65 hours THIS WEEK. Unfortunately they tax the fuck outta overtime, but it’s still nice because it’s how I’m affording the rental car when I have my son for the couple weeks. Plus I make ‘some’ money off YouTube and other socials, somewhere between $20-$500 a week, so it’s hard to trust that income. Also they only do payments once a month on the 21st which is a pretty random date tbh. I also get my disability from the marine corps, which is like an extra $900 a month. But after child support, which is a 1/3 of everything, rent, cell phone, food, water, food for my animals, and subscription based services which I only have the necessary ones now, but it’s still not cheap. Idk now I just feel like I’m bitching. Like I’m just another white guy that doesn’t have it as bad as everyone else, but depression fucking sucks. Fuck, I wish it was just the depression. BPD has continually run my life since I was around 22. Five years. It’s not like I haven’t tried to get better, so much therapy, medication, meditation, the whole deal. Just nothing seems to make these demons leave. I want to say things are looking up though, I’m sitting in my comfy chair (which is honestly shitty but I’ve had it for years and refuse to get rid of it, and I don’t tell anyone that), rearranging files on my computer and trying to upload some stuff to Google drive, and I can see my new girlfriend, tbc

[quonit-aceattorney]

1-3 Reaction

Rules:

Q = Me, Quonit.

BF = Bardic Feline, the friend that made me spend 30 dollars on the game and whom I am messaging

I don’t use those when I send the messages close enough my username doesn’t appear.

Any typos (unless they are funny and part of the conversation) will be fixed.

Index

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BF: are you still on case 2?

Q: nope 3, the samurai dude.

Me: Okay so he was sleeping during the time of dead. the producer was telling everyone where to move and what to do and later told everybody not to tell anyone. It could've been their fualt.

:nobody in game thinks this:

Me: Am I dumb or are all of you

I keep going to that place but I can't go get the key or whatever because first penny was blocking it and now oldbag is. Better go to every other place I can and examine and talk to everything before I can.

(edgy-boy)

oooo i found somebody :o

Q: yaaaaay time moved forward. Probably the 3rd grader mentioned earlier.

Q: YAY I FINALLY GOT THE KEY

now to wait until I get stuck again

BF: hahah yeah, I've played through that case multiple times and I STILL sometimes get a bit lost in the investigation phase

Q: yay I'm not alone!

BF: there's that one thing were you have to do a trading card exchange between multiple characters that can get a bit fetch questy

I still love that case so much though

Will is such a sweetheart!

I like to imagine him and Juan being friends.

Q: I haven't met him yet, I'll tell you my thoughts on him when I find him

BF: Will is the client of the case. :O

Will Powers, the Steel Samurai!

Q: oh ya!

BF: the big scary lion looking dude who's actually a big softie

he's a recurring character even hahah

Q: I like that guy. I disliked it when the first thing Maya said about him is "he looks like he's definitely killed people before". How dare she. I knew right form the start he was innocent.

yaaaay he appears more :D

BF: lol she changes her tune fast

but yeah...I have some speculations about how the victim of this case is connected to Juan, but I'll tell you about that later

Q: She does at least, I am still mad at her though haha

and phoenix, he also still seems suspicious of him.

ahhhhh juan is in the game

not even enough to get colored

BF: WELL it's a very very LOSE connection.

To be fair, the creator hadn't even conceived of 2-4 when he made this case, and it's a detail I had to really search around to find

it's more like a connection between one of Jack Hammer's old movies and Juan's show.

Q: hehe

oh ya I forgot Juan has one huh

fanthoeries!

Does Juan do anything more in the anime? I heard he got colored

BF: he got an official color for his jacket, and you get a few more full body shots of him that you get in the game

it's not much, but considering what we had before. :/

Q: aww oh well

JUST LEAVE IT TO THE FANS THEY ENJOY IT

Q: "Some people take their jobs a little too seriously" says the lawyer.

should I comment while I play or would that just be annoying

BF: nah, keep going! I actually like getting people's live reactions to games I've played before

Q: yaaaay :D

I just had to stop, pause the game, and sit a minuet after he said that.

"YOU'RE A LAWYER, IF ANYBODY SHOULD BE TAKING THEIR JOB 'TOO SERIOUSLY' IT'S YOU"

Q: Penny just tell please I don't wanna wander around for another 30 mineuts looking for a lead

oh yay penny may have the ultra (really super?) (some stupid namde) card

yaaaay

why not fucking trade! this is a spare card the kid doesn't want and she has the card we need to get him to talk!

Q: thought i'd have to look a lot more... guess not

HEY KID I GOT YOUR DAMN CARD

BF: Oh Cody...just gotta keep reminding yourself that he's too young to know any better

HE'S NOT OBSTRUCTING JUSTICE ON PURPOSE

Q: "WHO WAS THE PERSON WHO KILLED THE GUY IN THE VILAN SUIT? NOT THE NAME OF THE CHARACTER HE WAS DRESSED AS BUT WHO THE GUY WEARING THE SUIT WAS."

Q: hehe, the last option is the worst... I'll probably have to say fighting because that is probably what the kid would want most is an answer

yaaaay Cody likes me

See if this was made today Cody would have a phone instead of a camera

People give stuff to mia because she never wears any fucking clothes. YOU'RE IN YOUR SISTERS BODY, GIVE IT SOME RESPECT.

BF: hahaha

BF: TO BE FAIR, IT'S NOT LIKE MAYA RUNS AROUND WITH A LARGER SET OF ROBES FOR WHEN SHE WANTS TO CHANNEL HER SISTER

Poor Mia...she's honestly a great character, but no getting around the fact that she's a walking boob joke

Q: Least she isn't as bad at the April May character

BF: I don't think there's anyone in the original trilogy as bad as April

Q: man what if Cody actually pulled out his sword and stabbed gumshoe

BF: couple of ladies in the spinoff games starring Edgeworth who can rival her

yikes! poor Gumshoe!

Q: none of that guys name is good. He should get a nickname.

Edgy-boy

"Dick Gumshoe". He doesn't like being called 'dick' and gumshoe is just not really a good name.

Q: WHY IS EVERYBODY STILL SO SUSPICIOUS OF WILL

ALL THE KID SAID IS THAT HE SAW THE GUY IN THE COSTUME KILL THE GUY WITH THE SPEAR.

THIS CHANGES NOTHING

Q: yaaay savepoint

**BF: hahah YOU'LL FIND THAT ARGUMENT COME UP A FEW TIMES IN THESE GAMES And I'm not gonna like it is annoying **

'yeah I totally saw them! From the back!"

"I saw them there! I recognized them by their full body, figure concealing, face covering costume! it was them alright"

"what do you mean, of course no one else could have worn that outfit"

hahah there's one character in the spinoff games who calls him Gummy

Q: hehehe

Well Gummy is better then being called dick or dumshoe so

Q: "we're going into this trial utterly defenseless" NO WE'RE NOT MIA >:(

yaaay finally trial time :D

I really like the trials I finally actually get to do something

Q: hehe the guy is scared of Edgy-boy

that name will stick with me till the end of time I swear

BF: hahah yeah investigation time is your getting evidence period and such

but the trials are where you make it happen~

Q: yaaay

this guy condridicts himself so much why

Q: "Haven't we had enough of this pointless line of questioning???"

NO EDGEWORTH

WE HAVE NOT

They couldn't have gone to studio one because a tree was blocking it...

:(

Pheonix why are you so upset YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS

Q: THE THIRD GRADER IS PART OF THE TRIAL???

Great. time for a break where everybody tells me how hopeless it it even though it isn't

BF: hahah yesss the BADGER THE CHILD

Q: LET US DO SO >:D LET THE BADGERING COMMENCE!

hehe he's too short for the stand. Are they gonna give him a step stool or something

yep

BF: the creator's logic for including Cody like this:  a child would have a different reason to lie than an adult would, and he wanted to explore that. :3

tee hee

poor tiny cody

I love that you can see the box in the distance shots

Q: I do not feel for him. The adults should phrase it differently, I'll rephrase questions as we go for fun.

hehe i wanna see the box

2nd????

he's 7???

BF: I think he's supposed to be 11?

Q: but then he's be in 5th or 6th

BF: though that seems a bit old to think that superheroes are real

Q: so he's either 7 or 8... imma go with 8

BF: you can check his profile and get his in-game age haha

Q: alright imma do that

7

he's 7

BF: dang, younger than I recalled

Q: we already have is book why do we need the camera

BF: okay, so maybe not TOO old to believe superheroes are real, but a super young to be running around unsupervised like that

BF: mayhaps the camera contains some photos the book does not. 83

THE GAME RARELY GIVES YOU EVIDENCE YOU HAVE NO USE FOR

Q: wonder if his parents know about the trial

Mom: Hi honey! Where were you today?

Cody: I snuck into a building I wasn’t allowed in and went to court as a witness for murder! It was so cool!

yaaay

the guy in the flashback is wearing a mask

why did they let him bring his sword

BF: hee hee...this is one place where I have to credit the anime adaptation. in the anime version of this case, Phoenix questions Cody at the studio, and no one forces him to take the stand.

Q: hey if he went through there so could the adults

yaaay

good anime

this is a murder trial kid

Q: he's dead

Q: hmmmm

I mean the picture could be of use, but the only time I really present is when there is a contridiction

Q: ...should I try it? I don't think I'll get anywhere if I don't

ill look at what i have again

Q: "still learing how to use camera"

maybe he did have it he just didn't take a picture

Q: http://imperfectapollo.tumblr.com/post/172111532663/ananxiousraccoon-ananxiousraccoon

BF: remember: when in doubt, you CAN take a few hits to your damage meter without getting a game-over

and if you are REALLY  REALLY In doubt, you can save your game before making a decision

Q: :(

fine I'll try it out

ooooo

BF: some of the penalty dialogue is funny enough to be worth the damage to your health meter hahah

Q: I've only gotten two so far, funny but disappointing still

Q: :D

I was too scared about my first idea so I use my second one: Are you sure you didn't take a picture? I have your camera

hehe the box

BF: hahah you should try to prove why he WOULD take a photo

Q: yaaay

because it's every battle he's won

BF: yep! And the samurai always wins!

Or DOES HE

Q: DUN DUN DUN

Q: he isn't mentioning the spear he didn't watch it but i don't know why

BF: Well, think back

what did he say about his camera?

Also we know he couldn't have used the spear for an important reason that came up ages ago

Q: yaaay i was right he was trying to photograph it but couldn't because it isn't working

BF: or more to the point he couldn't get it to work fast enough!

still learning how to use iiiiiit~

Q: yaaaay

BF: So he looked down to fiddle with the camera, and looked up to see? 83

Q: See mia what this boy says means nooooootttttthhhiiiiiiiing.

:D

Q: moving strangely either from ankle or the person wasn't used to wearing the costume

Q: how dare you erase the pictures

honestly he would not have though, he would want to keep them and put them in his scrapbook

Q: SEE I WAS RIGHT

Q: what truth???

what am i supposed to be thinking???"

only reasonable one is he didn't win _ DUN DUN DUN_

Q: aww :(

BF: YOU GOT IT. :(

which raises one very very sad possibility about the fight...

Q: oh dam

who is the victim? the guy wearing the villan outfit, right? they taped around his helmet

BF: yeah, Jack, the guy who plays the villain character

Q: and hammer wasn't there, he was sleeping wait no

not hammer his name is will

who is hammer???

BF: No, Will Powers was sleeping

Jack Hammer, tee hee

Jack Hammer was the vicitm

and he WASN'T sleeping...

Q: :o everyone in the court is confused

BF: hahah cause you just hecked up the timeline! :D

Q: i like how during the rest of the trial the kid just sat there and quietly watched

it's just a funny idea to bme, thinking about what he thought about

Q: the sky is clear how can you be watching it

Q: 5 years ago what I'm pretty sure happened is that the guy accidentally killed another guy and then the girl covered it up and i think it's blackmail not and that is why from now on the other guy didn't work for big studios anymore

names, too tiered to memember

(I beat the case but didn’t record it)