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hongism · 4 years

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okay hi. so. first of all this incredible and stunning banner was made by the talented and lovely @hobiance! the banner at the bottom was made by the equally talented and lovely thot @franklytae, and i’m so so grateful to both of them for helping me out with this and am really touched to have their creations on this post. now. it is absolutely unreal that i am making this post. it’s crazy to see how my blog and i have grown in the past year and a half, and im so grateful for every single one of you who follows me, whether you are an active follower or not. also this is absolutely insane because in just six months you all have made my following nearly quadruple and that’s absolutely bonkers on so many levels. while 2020 has been tumultuous for us all, i cannot argue the fact that it has been my best year on tumblr so far.

i have been able to meet so many fantastic people, grow friendships, grow my skills as a writer, gain confidence, and i have found friendships that are so treasured and valuable in so many ways. i’m really so so grateful for this platform and for the opportunity to share my work here with you all.

i really don’t know how to verbalize how i’m feeling because on one hand, followers are just a number and it’s unimportant in the long run. on the other hand i truly am grateful for every single one off you and i want you to know how grateful i am. but i really don’t want this to be about me because i really wouldn’t be on tumblr still without the people i’ve met along the way. through tumblr i have found lifelong friends who are beautiful inside and out and i will never stop being grateful to know them and walk this path alongside them. it’s truly a blessing and i feel so so lucky to get to know them. cue the ridiculously long tags of people whom i love and cherish so so much. i apologize in advance because no matter how many times i stare at this post and try to remember and get every single person who is valuable to me, i know i will inevitable forget someone so i am very very sorry if i miss anyone.

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓂𝓊𝓉𝓊𝒶𝓁𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@hobicomeholla29 @thatmultifandomhoe @yoongi-sugaglider @strawbxxymilk @meowxyoong @blondenamjin @dee-ehn @a-tiny-8iny @atiny-dazzlinglight @atiny-piratequeen @atiny-wooyoung @kesmonster @theredcarat @enchantedyeo @seonghwabrainworms @jintobean @jinterlude @joonsrack @moonmintrails @inkedxclouds @koophoriia @kimcritique @moonpjms @daechwlta @suhdays @ppersonna @vivpurple7 @ironicarmy @joopiterjoon @btsxdoll @btsbiaswreckedwriting @minniepetals @chillingtae @searchingtae @ladyartemesia @staerrylights and many others who i literally cannot for the life of me remember right when it’s important aoifdjjioejsoi some of you guys i only really talk to on discord, but i think that’s where i talk to people the most anyways. i know im really bad at following people so i may miss a few of you here and there, but know that our friendship through tumblr and discord is so valuable and important to me and im grateful for all of you 💕

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓉𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@yolokoo @franklytae

hhhhh you two little shits honestly i know i won’t be able to tell the two of you how much you mean to me because words are Hard. still i am so so lucky to know the two of you and so so lucky to be able to be friends with you two. y’all know i would swing so fucking hard for you that i would dislocate a shoulder but it would be worth in. i love you both so so much and know that no matter what paths we all take in life, i will always be here to support you and cheer you on along the way

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝓀𝑒𝓉𝑒𝑒𝓇𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@hobiance @miamorjoon

lainey within ten minutes of meeting you on discord i married you iajoidfoisdjfo. honestly that’s the boldest i’ve ever been, but i’m really grateful that i stepped out of my comfort zone and interacted with you because if not i would be missing out on such a crazy crackhead amazing friendship that’s filled with rats and roaches and annoying atlas bc we love her. sometimes it’s scary how similar we are but i love our late night crazy music sessions and your passion for cowboys 🐀🤠

atlas i honestly do Not remember how we met aoidjfoij pls don’t be offended i don’t remember how i meet anyone. i only remember meeting lainey because she reminded me of it the other day. but anyways i am super glad that we started talking because you’re one of tha craziest wackiest zackiest ladiez i’ve ever met and you really unleash the inner crazy in me (in a good way i swear). even though you tell me to shut up most of the time, you are seriously one of my fav writers out there and so knowing you and being your friend is seriously w o a h and a blessing for sure 🐀

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓁𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@jamaisjoons @honeymoonjin @ddaenggtan @cest-la-tae @bangtiddies @mygsii @mindays @luxekook @floralsuga

oh god i hope im not forgetting anyone hhafhiuehisuda oKAY you each are super duper special to me in your own special way and i could sit here for literally hours and ramble on about how much i love each of you. the basic fact of the matter is that each of you have impacted me and my life in some way.

sol, sora, bette - i am so lucky to have been able to meet you and work alongside you and talk to you daily. it’s normally extremely hard to work with friends or make friends through work, but i got so lucky with you guys and am so blessed to get to talk to each of you and know you ((special thanks to sol for Obey Me and 7 demon daddies)) ((another special thanks to backbone bette for having the courage to speak up when no one else does)) ((one more super special thanks to miss sora who is the kindest and sweetest ball of uwu i’ve ever known and Stan the Man the Icon and the limbless basketball game story remains Iconic))

dAIJA gahhh im so lucky to know you, you are such a valuable and incredible friend. you have a huge heart and you’re always looking out for other people. as much as i love screaming about hyunjin and victon with you, i really love just getting to chat with you in general because you’re so sweet and loving :ragecry:

e m i omg i wish i could remember when we first started talking bc i feel like it was some crackhead energy but honestly i feel like we have that crackhead energy 24/7. i really love listening to your stories because you have such a knack for storytelling which duh of course you do you’re an actress you know how to tell a story, but also you are just fun and exciting to get to talk to.

renae my lovely spiritual girlfriend you are such a wholesome sweet soul on every level w o w you have a heart of gold and you are so talented and wonderful as well, truly the whole package and a half, and you are such a good friend. somehow i only recently found out that you’re a multi but having listening parties with you (even if discord doesn’t tell us we’re listening together) is so fun and i just love chatting with you

reese omg i dont appreciate how you attack me with jisung and hyunjin but we are linked because we both switched to jungkook urls aoijsdfoij you’re such a fun person to talk to and i love getting to talk to you more and getting to know you better because you’re so sweet and loving and have a love of tea that rivals emi’s and mine which is crazy

monday mondayyyyyyy omg i remember the first time we talked was in a kakao chat about the flower shop story and i was Shook because i loVE your works and you were talking about how you liked mine and i was internally p a n i c k so bad ajflkjflk but after that we started getting to know each other better and we started the bee gang then we bonded over piercings and honestly you are just such a cool gal. like wow a queen. idek what else to say other than you are so cool i wish i was half as cool as you asoifjiof but really ily lots uwu

and last but really absolutely not least, mr. beau. wow i feel like it’s been such a long time since we met and started talking to each other. you were one of the very first people i talked to on tumblr, and you welcomed me so swiftly and with open arms. i know i can really rely on you and trust you, you are such a valuable friend, and i love being able to talk with you. i am so beyond proud of you, i know both alex and i are so so proud and happy for you, and i am so proud to be able to watch you grow into the person you are and deadass im crying rn just because im so proud and lucky to have been able to talk with you and help you. you know things about me that no one else does hehe and you are truly such a valuable and wonderful friend on so many levels. i will always always always be able to say that i am proud to be your friend and proud to know you 🤧

#thank you #really so so so much #thank you so much #moots #mootuals #follow forever

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meepface · 7 years

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these questions seem very therapeutic and i have been havin a week so im gonna do em, please ignore me

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

say no to people!! post selfies and not feel ashamed of myself for doing so!! stand up for myself without immediately crying!!

2. What has been on your mind most lately?

well this week i’ve been in kind of a negative headspace so i have sorta thought about how much easier dying would be than dealing with any of my problems, but i have also thought about how much i don’t actually wanna kill myself also so i’ve been feelin sorta trapped between ‘mannnn if i would just fucking do it’ vs ‘but i don’t wanna my mom would be sad’, so that’s a real fun time!

3. Right now at this moment; What do you want right now?

i wanna feel myself again honestly. i’ve felt super weird n distant from who i used to be and who i wanna be and i feel like im just floatin. i feel super dissociative and i don’t feel genuine in how i behave anymore like idek myself. another super fun time!

4. In order of importance, How would you rank: Money, Happiness, Love, Health and Fame?

love (not strictly the romantic kind), happiness, health, money, fame

5. What would best describe the way you have spent your time in the last month?

feel like i’ve been wastin a lot of time bein super unhappy. buuuuut i spent a lot of time with people i love last month so that was good. kinda mixed, neutral feelings about it

6. What is the #1 motive in your life now?

to learn how to live for myself more

7. In one sentence, who are you?

i would say i am an extreeeeemely sensitive and compassionate person who’s always tryin to do the right thing and make a few people laugh when i can

8. What do you want to be known for?

being good and kind and gentle and positive

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what would you miss most?

my family, my dogs, my girlfriend, my friends, my grandma, this local restaurant that has amazing pancakes, my university bc i really like it there, the general atmosphere of downtown Austin, my therapist, my bedroom. in no particular order

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

hopefully i’m taking care of myself well, am happy in my current situation and if i’m not i am actively working to do what i need to do to fix that, maybe i’ll have finally gotten another job and have moved out possibly. who knows. just hope im doin well

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

my friend Stein, my mom, my girlfriend, my therapist, a few of my internet friends

12. What are the top 3 qualities you look for in a friend?

someone who makes me laugh, someone who is a good listener, someone extremely supportive and non-judgmental

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

joining a club and being more social in college, getting another job, moving out, making videos, volunteering at this abuse center i’d really love to volunteer at

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

a golden retriever

15. What stands between you and something you want?

fear of change

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

i find something to calm me down and distract me, like a game or something i can play so i stop thinking too much. also talking to someone helps but whenever i’m not in the mood to talk i try to do something to distract myself, or go to sleep if it’s a good time to

17. What do you need to spend more time doing?

being with friends and family, writing

18. When did you first realize that life was short?

i mean i had a few near-death experiences as a kid but none of em i was like “wow i could’ve died and that would’ve been the end” bc i didn’t really process them like that when i was that young. one of first times that i can remember feeling really deeply anxious about how short life really is is when i saw a bad car wreck just last year that had just happened and (TW ahead) i saw a person dead on the road with his head smashed. that was so scarring for me and now wrecks make me uncomfortable and i used to drive kinda recklessly as a dumb suicidal thing but now i would never ever drive the way i used to. another time i can think of is when a girl in my grade who i had actually been close friends with all throughout middle school up until freshman year died in a car wreck and our whole school was devastated

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

honestly i want to confront and fix or work on all of my issues lmao so

20. What is something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

there’s a lot of homophobic and transphobic people in the small Texas town that i work in and a lot of em say super offensive things really casually and i hate it so much. also a lot of people enjoy jolly ranchers which i will never understand

21. What is a common misconception people have about you?

i’m shy, i’m straight, i’m lazy, i don’t work hard

22. What is something no one can take away from you?

no one could pull me away from my mom tbh that bitch knows everything and no one can tell me not to tell her what they tell me bc she’s gonna know in the next hour

23. What is something you would hate to go without for a day?

ummm chicken probably. it’s all i eat

24. When you look into the past what do you miss the most?

how cheerful and happy i was in 2015 and some of 2016!!!!!! the fuck happened!!!!

25. What memory from the past year makes you smile the most?

hmmm probably the times my gf and i spent hours making out n stuff in parking lots bc we finally got over our fear of havin our first kiss w each other and went all out

26. What is the number one change you need to make in your life within the next twelve months?

hmmm don’t wanna share it but i know in my head the answer to this

27. If not now, then when?

when i’m ready and when i know for sure that it’s what i want. because right now i don’t know what i want with my life but i just know that right now i am not happy. baby steps

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

i gained soooooo much confidence after graduating high school. came out to everyone, told my mom i wanted to finally try to go to therapy which has been a blessing for me

29. What is something new you have recently learned about yourself?

i’ve learned where my dependency issue that i used to have super bad stemmed from. i’m kinda growin from that though. i still have residual anxieties that were caused by it but nothin i can’t work through

30. What do you want to remember forever?

hmm. probably that one quote that’s like “anything that costs your peace is too expensive”. either that orrrrr that one scene in the office where Jim gets drunk and crashes his bike into the bushes

31. What could society do without?

religion (yikes yikes yikes) (don’t hate me, just hear me out) - this doesn’t mean the spirituality of it but like..... the whole rules and order part of it. the ancient outdated books and everything being taken so literally in today’s world. everyone could have their own takes and believe in their own things and they can just be without feeling like they either have to go to church or celebrate a religious holiday or be a certain way bc ‘god’, whoever they may be, wants them to. idk i like to believe there’s a higher power that just represents love, in its purest form, and that’s it. that’s all you gotta know about them. there’s no rules to that, you just do with that what you will, learn from that what you can. does this make sense at all

32. What is the one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

right now i am totally sure that i shouldn’t have started doing this survey bc i am exhausted and i have work in the morning but i’m definitely gonna finish it

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would you say?

be kinder and gentler, thank you

34. What is something that you said you would never do, but have since done?

this is uhhh super emo but i didn’t think i’d live this long and here the fuck i am

35. What is something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

my feelings about The Gays, since i grew up to be one and when i was little i was terrrrified of that idea. i didn’t care if other people were but when it came to me i was like noooo way jose. also? the concept of marriage? i’ve become super apathetic towards it. i don’t care if i end up married or not anymore, i will commit to someone for life regardless and i don’t need a ceremony and anything official to prove that. buuuuut that being said, if my future partner wants to be married, i’m 200% there and i’m already starting to think about our wedding color scheme. man. idk if i’d rather wear a suit or a dress at my wedding

36. What didn't last forever, but was still worth your while?

hmmm maybe my current therapy stuff?? i know one day i’m gonna stop going to therapy but man have i learned a lot and man have i grown. i truly think everyone needs to go to therapy at least once in their life, you learn things that are valuable in every aspect of life

37. If you could go back and time and tell the younger version of yourself something, what would you tell?

you’re not stupid, you’re allowed to make mistakes, maaaybe ask for the braces that aren’t clear bc those just made your teeth look massive and you hated yourself while they were on and you can’t look at pictures with them even years later. aaaand they made you super insecure about your mouth and smile even years down the line so, please dodge that bullet if ya can. also you’re super gay!

38. If you knew you were dying in the next 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

finally

39. When it is all said and done, would you have said more then you've done or vice versa?

hmm i’ve probably said a lot more than i’ve done, which i wanna change. if i’m understanding this question right

40. What question do you often ask yourself?

what do you want? what do you need? which of the two is more important?

#this was as expected.... very therapeutic #i recommend answerin these #helps u figure urself out #anywho #like if ya read #about me #long post

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mysewoon · 7 years

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“SHOULD WE KNOW US A LITTLE BETTER” TAG 📜

i was tagged by @urmomstax and lauryn but idk where she is thank you :” this is late i think but you must understand i procrastinate like crazy

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people i refuse

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: i don’t talk on the phone 3. Text message: “NOTHING REALLY” 4. Song you listened to: now the future pass of this love by BTOB 5. Time you cried: like,,, this morning bc i was watching maury and that shit was funny as hell 6. Dated someone twice: i’ve never even dated anyone bless 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: do you really think i have kissed someone without dating them?? well you’re right 8. Been cheated on: do i look like someone who would ever let someone get that close 9. Lost someone special: i’ve never lost anyone special?? 10. Been depressed: i’m always depressed wth 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i’ve never been drunk wow

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: baby pink, baby blue, and mint green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yup! and they’re awesomee 16. Fallen out of love: i’ve never fallen in love anyway 17. Laughed until you cried: i laugh really hard so it’d be weird if it didn’t end with me in tears 18. Found out someone was talking about you: not in the last year!! i kept a low profile 19. Met someone who changed you: nope 20. Found out who your friends are: i’ve found out who my friends aren’t?? specifically in february of this year... that... bitch... 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I WOULD NEVER STOOP THAT LOW

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i know them all 23. Do you have any pets: she’s not really mine but i’ve been living with a cat named baddie for the last year she’s really annoying 24. Do you want to change your name: not really?? rachel feels like me 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i didn’t really celebrate my birthday on the day of my birthday?? like a week later was when my dad came and then we celebrated... but on my actual birthday i just ate cake and sat around 26. What time did you wake up: 10am!! don't let the exclamation point fool you i wasn't v happy 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was reading a new webcomic named lookism it’s really good so far!! but the wifi was so bad where i was so i had to wait until i went to my best friend’s house to actually finish it 28. Name something you can’t wait for: um?? the morning bc the breakfast at this hotel starts at 6am and i’m ready to eat until i suffocate 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: a little over a day ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i had more money so my mom wouldn’t have to struggle so much and that i had more opportunities to put myself out there 31. What are you listening right now: naturee 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: actually... no? that seems like such a common name but i guess... there aren’t a lot of toms just lying around for you to speak to 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my fucking laptop won’t connect to the hotel wifi although my phone is connected so my ass is sitting here like an idiot writing wonhyuk fluff on this BIG ASS computer screen oh my god 34. Most visited Website: AO3 ofc 35. Mole/s: the only one i can think about right now is the mole on the inside of my left middle finger 36. Mark/s: i’m covered in scars omg and i have a bruise on my leg that has been there for like a few years??? maybe it isn’t actually a bruise idk how bruises work 37. Childhood dream: hmm,,, i can’t even remember yesterday tbh but i guess my childhood dream was to be a writer but then i realized that i don’t want that to be my whole life 38. Hair color: black 39. Long or short hair: i just cut my hair in april and i’m so happy that i did!! 40. Do you have a crush on someone: what is a crush?? 41. What do you like about yourself: my lips when they’re not dry 42. Piercings: nope it’s not really encouraged in my religion 43. Blood type: i actually don’t know?? that would really suck if i needed blood 44. Nickname: rae... there’s not much you can do with the name rachel 45. Relationship status: single af 46. Zodiac: virgo 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: broad city, andi mack, and age of youth 49. Tattoos: i am ink-free 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: nope 52. Piercing: who made this list?? 53. Sport: i can’t even get off the couch 55. Vacation: this is such a vague question?? but lately i’ve really wanted to go to botswana and italy 56. Pair of trainers: i have a pair of adidas and space converse (if converse shoes even count)

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: vague question?? but i love to eat! my favorite is miso soup 58. Drinking: tea and coffee is all i need to get by honestly 59. I’m about to: possibly go to sleep 61. Waiting for: breakfast in the morning 62. Want: to become an online model so i can get free clothes :( but guess what biNCH?? i’m UGLY!!!!!!!!! 63. Get married: marriage isn’t for me idc what anyone says 64. Career: my dream career is to be an engineering psychologist

WHICH IS BETTER?:

65. Hugs or kisses: hugss 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. Sensitive or loud: idek what this means to be entirely honest... but sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: hook up 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: lmao yall 75. Drank hard liquor: unfortunately... it wasn’t a thrill 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes,,, idk if i regret buying hyungwon’s circular lens glasses bc i’ve lost them twice already and i just got them last month 77. Turned someone down: oh yeah 78. Sex in the first date: i’ve never been on a date do you understand??? 79. Broken someones heart: i break a heart every time i step in a room 80. Had your heart broken: sigh... when jooheon dyed his hair blond that really hurt me 81. Been arrested: don’t play me i’m black i have to be careful 82. Cried when someone died: oh yes :// 83. Fallen for a friend: noooo

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: BUHAHAHAHAHAHA 85. Miracles: hmm?? yes 86. Love at first sight: nah 87. Santa Claus: lmao i was never even given the satisfaction of believing in santa claus 88. Kiss in the first date: hmm i don’t know 89. Angels: i think so

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: kadee, samantha, and rachel (we’re name twins) 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: don’t have one?? i’m not really a movie person

i’m tagging @kimiin, @1reol, @hyunqwonnie, @hyukbinnie, and @chaerismatic

#feel free to ignore #tag game

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