#and she literally told me Yes He Would

[jimgandolfini]

the old man retires April 1 which is appropriate because he has been acting so foolish.. anyway I’m tryna get that D by April 2

#ik this bc my director called me and was like I was indirectly given permission to talk to you about some things… #so he said this #and my director was already putting in for a promotion for me #but today the old man was like well she’s the only one who can do this other thing so she should get that too #which is a bad look with being on the verge of [redacted] his [redacted] #but here we are #it would happen anyway but like can’t have ppl know I’m tryna get the D no one would ever think it didn’t overlap with this or I wasn’t try #ing to ~~seduce~~ him to get it 😬😬 #my director was like man he was in a good mood today bc you know he hasn’t been on for two weeks #*in #I was like yes…. yes I know that……. #I mean it’s not good folks like I was gonna get this position anyway bc I am the person for it and my director knows that but like the old #man literally told me he had a dream about me two days ago…and stuff…. so like… #🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

[hanzajesthanza]

reading other short stories and novels and essays and interviews from sapkowski is so satisfying because not only are these fun to read in of themselves but when my mind returns to the witcher i am like

#i just read maladie :) ive had the translation on hand for a while but only now got around to reading it #so. give it up for: doomed lovers. subverting the legend. love as illness. deathbeds. avalon and the rudderless boat. #i feel like i understand a little sacrifice way more now for some reason. NOT just the love as illness BUT #iseult of the white hands telling tristan that iseult of the golden hair was indeed on the ship in this retelling by sapkowski when #in the general way it goes (as what i gleaned from wikipedia) she lied in jealousy and told him the sails were black #maladie joins the group of 'i thought this would be really difficult to understand without the background knowledge...' #'... but it only took two to three wikipedia pages to make sure i understood what's going on' #and again no i probably didn't catch every reference or even understand perfectly. it's a first read after all #but did i have fun? was i emotionally moved? YES! #after reading tandaradei! i am like 90% more understanding of what he meant by the whole 'eyes of ugly girls' thing from the last wish #me beginning the story and it's going on about how she's not pretty: 'jeez i dont see how that's really relevant man' #me ending the story and it ends like *that*: 'I SEE.... I SEEEEEE i got it OK' #LITERALLY i feel validated though because that was how I INTERPRETED IT... it's about society. her psychology. not her looks. #it's about the CRUELTY OF OTHERS which THEN BECOMES the CRUELTY OF THE GIRL!!! #the 'girl is mistreated. girl goes WILD' recurring story. art should disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed #come on... it's like carrie x the vvitch x midsommar

[kn11ves]

emotional support group for autistics who got called condescending and rude as kids just for responding to things directly and still not knowing how they were being mean

#what did i do #i got constantly told by my mother and step father (and his family) that i always talked like i knew better than they did or that i was #just as mature. i was just fuckjng talking what the hell did you want me to do #why do you feel attacked when a 10 year old speaks to you as an adult????? literally what #i dont know on that note sometimes its just like i dont even feel like ive aged at all #sure i have a giant explosion of time in my head just Gone from my memory because i was getting abused but like i dont feel like ive aged #or really matured ive felt like ive alwats felt #i cant relate when epople are like me when i feel all my ages or i wish i could go back to being x age or being x age everything felt so #different..like no it didnt. or im missing something? #i have never in my life felt like anything has changed. ive always been this old. there is no ''inner child'' and ive never had childhood #innocence or a nostalgia or childhood to go back to. i have no idea what any of you are talking about ever👍 #ugh jst rmemebred skmething that happened with my white step dad's mother #we visited her house and she literally fucking didnt let me go (not physically) until i replied to her with Correct Granmar. what was i #doing? i was reaponding to her by saying ''yeah'' and she kept repeating ''yes'' like telling me to say yes instead of yeah and i didnt #Fucking Get It because guess what you old white cracker i barely fucking speak english and you are just saying things in an aggressive tone #like thats gonna make me get it. and i Didnt i just kept replying yrah to her yes's and then she got tired of it and we left out the door #and theeeeen i got yelled at in the car by being called disrespectful and rude by my parents. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO????????? #those crackers never liked me LOL i literally know they didnt #ugh i rmemeber this one time my step dads father was like trying to show me some dumb boxing or karate or something punching move and he #told my mother that i was good at it because he felt i had a lot of aggression and then NY MOTHER YELLED AT ME IN THE CAR FOR IT?????? #oh fucking wonder why te kid being abused mighthave aggression but she didnt Know (apart from what She was doing to me) like why would it #be my fucking fault if he thought i had aggression in me HOW IS THAT MY FAULT WHAT DIDBI DO I WAS JUST TRYING TO DO THE MOVE BECAUSE WELL #I WAS TRYING TO GET ALONG BECAUSE THATS WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO #she was like do you know how much that embarassed me and WHAT THE HELL HE SAID IT I DIDNT I WAS LIKE #8??? OR SOMETHING???? I DONT FUCKING KNOW!!! I DIDNT KNOW WOMAN WHAT DID YOU WANT FROM ME #mothers when they mother👍

[bumblingbabooshka]

Processing some things

Also the fact that he's crouching with his hands on his knees is so cute to me for some reason?? He does this in another episode too - the one where Chakotay finds a symbol on an unknown planet...it's just so adorable to me. He could just lean down but no. Also of course his fingers are spread again - GOTTA utilize the whole hand whenever you do ANYTHING (if you're Tuvok)

#anyway. he's so pretty I'm gonna bite my arm off spongebob style. #Tuvok in the Maquis: I'm gonna spy on these criminals but also?? I'm gonna try out a new eyeshadow look. #Tuvok calling Neelix 'sir'....one and only time v_v treasure it Neelix #Do these replicators make clothing? (yes.) Will they make me a uniform like yours~?? (No. They most CERTAINLY will NOT. <3) #<- also Neelix is naked and Tuvok brought him a towel in a way that was very theatric but also very 'lets dry you off' #like...not just handing it to him #I love Neelix's scrappier early seasons vibe <3<3 #I also like whenever he was like 'GOD these Starfleet people are a bunch of BABIES...eat the damn leola root. It's good for you~!' #I FROGOT KES WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THE KAZON???? KES ARE YOU OK??? #Kes: I'm told I'm too curious...it's my worst quality~ <- and then the writers never let her out of sickbay #In my ideal world Kes & Neelix are like brother and sister (harkens back to Neelix's lost family and gives a slightly more sympathetic #reason for his overprotectiveness which would now not be romantic jealousy but still something he had to let go of for them to truly be #friends) and also Kes tried every work station aboard Voyager...every episode she's somewhere new but her MAIN job is still in sickbay #Kes is in a pseudo cult and she said nu uh I believe in a different pseudo cult and I love that for her #Kes: I don't want to be dependent on the caretaker!! (reasonable) Our people have magical mind's abilities that allow us- (ok Kes) #just bc she was right doesn't mean it's not a WILD thing to think HEhehehe #SNRKEHEHEHE HARRY STOP TOM CAN'T TAKE THIS #Tom: How can I let down the only friend I've got~? / Harry: Friend? What makes you think I'm your friend~? / Tom: -sobbing into his pillow- #Neelix saying 'Well...the fool needs company!' ok <3 I'm twirling my hair a little....got a bit of rizz... #literally an hour ago he was willing to leave them all for dead and now look at him #OUG hTom Paris the racism....ough the racism...not even the fantasy alien kind.......oaaau ugh oh it hurts the real world racism..... #TOM NO STOP TALKING!!! TO M NO THE RACISM - TOM PARIS !! TOOOOM!!!!! <- walter white screaming meme #(remembers its Harry's FIRST mission) a different kind of pain.... #Janeway and Tuvok holding hands: We're so fucking doomed. This is a terrible position and we have to do what's morally right but #by doing this we're going to be trapped here - maybe for the rest of our lives and not just us but the entire crew. But we have to #do this horrible thing BECAUSE we're good people. #<- not enough attention is paid (including by me bc I forgor) to the fact that Tuvok was with Janeway when she made that decision #and backed her up...just a sad little moment to themselves #OOF Tom...three for three on the racism....TOM #Neelix's sales pitch...yeeAAAH~!!

[lyxchen]

Fucking hate that I can't even talk about a guy that I think is cool without somebody thinking I have a crush on that guy :|

#like i was out at our local bookstore with my friend and there's this guy who works there who is definetly some kind of queer (i'm pretty #sure he's trans) #and he's so cool!!! #like i once asked him if they had any neil gaiman books and he was really happy to show me and was like 'have you read good omens already?' #and then he showed me all the books they had and i just really like him because he's cool #and after my friend and i were out of the bookstore again i told her about that guy just because i wanted to but then she was like making #suggestive comments and idk i just don't like it #and then i have to defend myself but that just makes it sound even more like i have a crush when i Don't #hhhhhhh #like also when talking about male celebrities that i think are pretty or cool #i always try to tone it don't because i'm afraid people think i have a crush #and like not everyone knows that i'm a lesbian #but also why is that always the first thing people assume?? #can't i just say this man is cool?? #it's the amatonormativity #anyways #idk where i'm going with this post all i'm saying is #if i ever call a man on here pretty or say things similar to that then i am saying that from the comfort of my own room and i would never #ever want to be in a relationship with him #same goes for famous people in general #like no matter the gender #like i don't get that that's apparently a real thing #that people actually want to be with a celebrity or kiss them or have sex with them #like noooo please no #looking at them very cool very nice yes i love doing that #but ever actually doing anything in the romantic direction with a person you literally do not know? #why would you do that? #like yes i say that i'm in love with charlize theron but only as an actress #never in real life #lea's random thoughts

[holyviolence]

omg i spent the whole day cleaning my entire apartment because my family was coming to visit and 1) so so so happy my adhd is being medicated now it's literally changing my life and 2) i FINALLLY got through to my dad about how he probably has ADHD too!!!!! he finally said Yeah i think i might have adhd. and my mom was like Me too (we've had this talk privately before, she knows she has adhd too lol) And my brother is literally transferring to a different school because he can't concentrate and isn't disciplined at his current uni. adhd family.

#literally thank goodness my brother was here to like Perfectly describe in real time what happens to adhd people when they go to college for #the first time. there's less structure and you fall apart. i used that as an opportunity. #i've slowly slowly slowly been chipping away at my Entire family btw. i've finally convinced my dad that medication is a GOOD THING. #i said You know. there's a lot in life that you feel like you Have to live with. but being on meds has made life so much easier and happier. #and that's when my dad finally said it. #:^) sometimes i like..... think about my family and how complicated i feel because growing up was super tough with all of them but now they #are all better people..... and i can't help but feel proud because as much as it is ABSOLUTELY great job for THEM for getting there But i #also feel uhhh partly responsible because i was constantly calling them out for shit. not always in the best way #but always standing up for others and challenging them on their worldviews and just casually talking about more liberal (as in free. not #politically) things. yes i do feel like if it wasn't for me my family would be worse people #i KNOW one of my brothers would be because he literally told me so. and it makes me happy. it is proof that my life is worthy and i have a #good impact on the world. it doesn't have to be a big thing i do to change things..... because i believe in the Ripple Effect #my dad is a teacher and he uses the proper pronouns for his trans students without complaint now. that has a good impact on SO many people #the trans students and their classmates who hear their teacher respect them. my brother is no longer homophobic he's bi lol and #if i hadn't argued with him about what bisexuality meant bc he was Wrong when i was 18 and he was 16... i wonder.... #my younger sister is one of the nicest kids i've ever met and i partly raised her. it feels great to see her be such a good kid #her best friend is a trans girl and when she first came out my sister was one of two people in their class who still wanted to be #her friend. #idk. just inspires me to keep being the best person i can be & always do what's right even if it makes people mad #bc no one can hurt me as much as my family has traumatized me (lol) and look what happened to them!! i didn't give up! and i see real change

[youremyonlyhope]

L0ok I get the whole "sharing the clothes because they literally split into two" thing and I get that Ncuti Gatwa is very fit and handsome and is probably the only Doctor actor who would ever be willing to spend every single scene in his first episode in his underwear, but it just felt disrespectful.

No pants for the entire time?! Seriously? They couldn't even have a member of UNIT toss him some uniform pants after the Toymaker was put in the box?

#doctor who spoilers #dw spoilers #doctor who #ncuti gatwa #(i'm american when i say pants i mean trousers don't you brits panic.) #i get that people are like 'oooh his legs' and yes he has great legs but pleaseeee why the ENTIRE TIME. #his first tardis flight and he's in his UNDERWEAR #like on top of literally having to share his first episode and not even getting to say 'i'm the doctor' #and instead having to say 'and i'm the doctor' then on top of ALL of that you leave him in his underwear #ncuti hon i would not have agreed to that. doctor who hire me for your wardrobe department. #the costume designer was Pam Downe and she also just did Mr Malcolm's List so girl i KNOW you can do better #like i enjoyed what you did with Ten's outfit being different from Fourteen. #i just wish you had told them to put Fifteen in some pants once the story allowed. but it's not totally your fault. #i blame RTD2. but if i had been on set that day THIS would be the moment i'd speak up and risk getting fired #for telling a director i didn't like the direction of that scene

[bibleofficial]

they didn’t know i was gay but set the pic for the druggie groupchat to a selfie, w me fully limped

#stream #me #mama … that’s a limp wrist in a CARDIGAN #& they still think of straight - well ONE of them; OR TWO idk i told KP bc he was like ‘wait r u gay’ after he made a joke & i said ‘yea’ #lol ALSKALKSLAKSLA HUT THEN HE BLACKED OUT LATER SO I MEAN #who knows what he remembered #GIRL #EARLIER DURING THIS I WAS FULLY KIKING W THIS GIRL THAT ASKED US FOR BACCY FOR A SPLIFF & I WAS LIKE ‘yes queen if ur sharin xx’ #& then she did then she was like ‘can u buy us vodka ? x’ & i was like yea why not then found out they’re 17 ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA still #smoked weed but ugh adorbs i remember being 17 #ALSKAKSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKLE #they GAVE me the money then i just bought it but still omg where was i going w this #GIRL OK THEY THOIGHT I WANTED HER NUMBER I WAS LIKE ?? why would i want her number ? 😭😭 girl i wanted the WEEEEDDDSD #like i shoulda got her DEALERS number #scream … anyway so this qat is DEFINITELY keepin me up i’m going to kill this mf #IT WAS SPRUNG ON ME TBF #i was just like ‘teehee are y’all chewin xx’ bc they were smoking downstairs & then they were lik ‘YEA WE R GOIN TO & SO R U’ & i was #owo ok !! #it was so fucking funny literally as they were picking up i was picking up weed then i got a call from him bc apparently they were yelling #but i was listening to music so i couldn’t hear 😭😭😭 #& there’s a tree that blocks the bench they’re on so i couldn’t even see #i was on AutoPilot i was like :D weed

[wygolvillage]

i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will n

#if you dont take into account that albus is just as traumatized by barlowe as shanoa is you are wrong about him ok #and so many of his illogical actions can be traced back to how he responded to his trauma #and i literally discussed this EXACT TOPIC in the ooe section of my video #like. you can criticize his actions but to imply that albus never cared about shanoa *as a person* is fucking stupid and youre going to die #like. are we ignoring the line from pre-amnesia shanoa in that flashback that implied she wouldve done exactly the same thing for him #are we ignoring that so much of what happens after albus's death is driven by shanoas own agency #albus never knew the whole truth. shanoa chose to find it. shanoa chose to raid the castle. shanoa chose to use dominus anyway despite #albus's wishes because she saw saving humanity as more important. #albus had no part in any of those decisions #'ooooeh albus had a big brother complex and cared more about protecting shanoas innocence than her life' im going to kill you #he gave up the only home he ever had he made himself the enemy to everyone who ever cared about him he gave up his life twice #and yes he could have told her. but loyalty towards barlowe had been so engrained in the both of them #even when he found out barlowe lied he was like 'no he would never do that to me' at first. like genuinely #hes scared of the idea of control being taken from him; because it already had been #and his attempts to actually have any control over the situation got the autonomy OVER HIS BODY stolen from him via possession #idk banging my head against the wall. the game is more nuanced about this idea than you think #i am an albus defender till i die. goodnight

[fagrights]

my dad being clearly in a mood that only he knows the reason for and then my grandmother asking him if he’s mad at her and crying I’m going to BED

#mhm yes life is worth living #literally nothing even happened we fed the cats then took Ellie #out and then he was just mad and I knew he was cause he didn’t come inside #right away and I’m like?? we gotta let the cats out why is he outside. #then he comes in stomping around and huffing like ok. what #why she would even say anything to him when he’s mad like that idk she’s so annoying #I wouldn’t even be around him for 3 weeks cause I couldn’t handle it #and I told him how anxious it made me and he’s like well I didn’t realize it bothered you that much I’ll stop #well it took you like a weeek to be annoying again ok #fact that we will still have to deal with her after we move #from here is so not stressing me out and torturing me every hour or anything #I mean that’s what it is if she wasn’t here he wouldn’t be mad

[insertcoolnameherethanks]

My one fear is that ST5 does go back in time and no one remembers, therefore Steve is still King Steve and loses the friendships he's made with the kids and Robin

#Like dont get me wrong I love King Steve type media BUT THE CHARACTER GROWTH WILL BE GONE #bad ending right there v bad ending #“Well at least he's alive” no. Shut up #I am that no fear one fear tshirt guy #Robin walks past and Steve gets a confused look like SOMETHING is off but he doesn't know what #Then proceeds to let his friends bully her??? I actually will riot #“But that means they can save Eddie and Barb” BRO BARB GOING rip Barb IS NANCY'S WHOLE ARC #SHE WOULD NEVER BE THE BADASS BITCH SHE IS IF BARB DIDNT GO rip Barb forever will be missed #LIKE YOU THINK LIL MISS STRAIGHT A NANCY WHEELER IS GONNA HAVE GUNS IN HER ROOM AND GO AGAINST THE GRAIN? #NAH SHE GONNA BRING HOMEMADE STUDY CARDS #I LOVE EDDIE JUST AS MUCH AS THE NEXT PERSON and I do think it was unnecessary to kill him off #Because they can say “oh its growth for Dustin's character” we've already seen a lot of growth for his character #It made no sense to do it and didn't further the plot and literally everyone seemed to forget 2 seconds later (ya other things were happeni #But like you mean to tell me no one but Dustin told Wayne????) #Duffers said we originally wanted to kill Steve off and regret we didn't so we're gonna create someone JUST to kill off #Like every death makes sense to the plot and to further the plot except his and yes I can go into detail BUT I WONT #BACK TO STEVE BABY #This is quite literally the worst thing for his character if they make him grow so much snd become loved #Just to put him back into asshole douchebag status (of course I would still let him get it rip to u but im different) #Like honestly that's worse then death for him and if Duffers are doing that??? #Duffers its gonna be ON SIGHT #You will catch these hands #Steve Harrington #Stranger Things #Stranger Things s5 #Stranger Things thoughts #King Steve Harrington #Hello I'm speaking here

[gompereatsall]

uhh im just gonna ramble about my a3 "winter swap" au for a bit because i really love it but i doubt i'll ever make anything for it

(to preface: it's been a while since i've played a3 and reviewed its story, so I may have some things wrong here and there. it's part of the au now lmao)

okay so basically just an au where tsumugi, tasuku, hisoka, homare, and azuma are actors for the God Troupe instead of Mankai. (inspo for this was just that I, a tsumugi lover, just really wanted him to be mean and a "bad person" i have no idea why) These guys are the most popular actors for the god troup with Reni as their director; Taichi and Haruto also act for the god troupe, but they almost never get to see the spotlight, only as background characters. The two were lowkey treated like shit by Reni, and all they wanted was to become a good actor and to get fame.

It's still the same song and dance: Reni sends in Taichi as a spy, but Taichi ends up joining Mankai instead. Things explode over at the god troupe, especially between Tsumugi and Tasuku when the latter actor said he would also be leaving the god troupe. except before tasuku leaves, he essentially tells haruto, "you don't have to deal with this shit, you can come with me and join mankai." he doesn't at first, Tsumugi answering for him, "no, he won't and you won't," but Tasuku promptly left after that to see Tachibana. (Tasuku did offer Tsumugi to join Mankai with him, but Tsumugi was more disgusted with the idea of acting for the rival troupes, and was also angry that Tasuku was "abandoning" him). After stewing for a while, Haruto realized he hated being treated like dirt by the god troupe more than he hated mankai; he left and joined mankai shortly after tasuku left.

Needing a winter troupe, Izumi happily let Haruto and Tasuku join after the audition. Seeing potential in him, Haruto become the leader for the winter troupe.

Meanwhile, Tsumugi is fucking PISSED and is in an even worse mood than usual, and azuma, homare, and hisoka are starting to get sick of his shit. Reni, who's also getting sick of his shit and needing him to calm down, offers to Tsumugi that they should challenge mankai. Reni wanted to do this just to one up the rival troupes, and tsumugi saw this as a way to show Tasuku that he was better than those other actors, and to have him come back to Tsumugi.

Haruto took a while to adjust to the mankai company. He still acted like he was better than them all, and only tried to stop acting superior after getting a good talking to from tasuku, izumi, and others who were done with his shit. he is still confident, but his arrogance got knocked down a few pegs after meeting yuzo for the first time. He starts to settle in after a while, though. He was able to apologize to Taichi for treating him so badly before, and was able to befriend the boy. There, he started to feel like he belonged, and even started to let people call him by his real name, Genta Yamada, and slowly stopped hiding his dialect.

Izumi, taking on the challenge, still needed more members for the winter troupe, only having two at the moment. Holding auditions, Shift Arakawa finally decides to at least try and follow his dream, and ends up getting a part in the winter troupe. Madoka and his father have been working for the god troupe for a long while; after seeing the ad to audtion, in an act of defiance being fed up, Madoka audtions to be apart of the winter troupe. To be honest, I'm still not sure about the last troupe member; I'm leaning toward the idea of Guy appearing much earlier in the story for the same reasons, and he joins the winter troupe.

It takes a long while and some supernatural things to happen, but they all begin to understand one another and get closer as actors and as family.

but tasuku still misses tsumugi, his childhood friend. he was a nice guy, a good friend, but something changed when he started acting for the god troupe and under Reni. It's the same thing that made Taichi and Haruto so desperate to attention, the same thing that makes Hisoka either stay in his room or leave all day, the same thing that makes Homare say nothing other than his lines, the same thing that makes Azuma drink so so much. He just hopes that they're all right (even though he knows deep down they're not)

#OKAY. I know jack shit about madoka and shift bc i stopped playing after the en server closed down. #just. in this au they're apart of the winter troupe okay? #shift told azami abt manki; later when he runs away he goes straight to shift and stays with him. same events of him joining mankai #literally know even less about madoka other than hes a part of the god troupe so. he is now a part of the winter troupe :) #Is tsumugi lowkey a bad person in this au? yes #he tries to emotionally manipulate people whether he realizes it or not #hes been through shit; don't get me wrong that doesnt excuse anything #but he has a long way to becoming that person he used to be before meeting reni and became his mentee #just. ugh. so much angst between tsumu and tasu #tsumugi just smiling and happily challenging izumi to the act off thing. and deep down hes so furious that she 'took' tasu from him. #but he's cool on the outside! he would never let that show. #this was not proof read :) sorry #a3 #a3! #a3! au #a3 au #a3 tasuku #tasuku takato #a3 tsumugi #tsumugi tsukioka #a3 hisoka #hisoka mikage #a3 homare #homare arisugawa #a3 azuma #azuma yukishiro #a3 reni #reni kamikizaka #a3 haruto #haruto asuka

[menalez]

How were you forced to be with your ex-boyfriend when you said your parents didn’t approve of the relationship and compared it to Romeo and Juliet? Couldn’t you have told your parents that he was pressuring you to date him if you didn’t want to be with him? You apparently had the relationship with your mother that you could ask to use her birth control as a morning after pill, so why didn’t you tell her that this guy was being awful to you?

why didn’t i tell my mother that i was being raped when she was at home when it happened?? why didn’t i tell her or anyone when my ex gf was abusing me? why didn’t i go to my mom about ppl at school bullying me?? why didn’t i go to her when my cousin would beat me? i don’t know. the answer is that i get scared, i feel like im being dramatic and ridiculous, i don’t want any drama to come out of it, i fear losing these people bc it’s not like they were pure evil but rather someone that was important to me somehow, and would tell myself i should suck it up.

#yes my mom eventually did see that it was hurting me tho and told me to cut him off after a suicide attempt of mine #no i didn’t do that bc at that point i had literally no one lol and while i would try to leave i never stood my ground enough #its not like she was the one forcing me to be w him 😭 she hinted wanting it when it started but the ppl pressuring me were ppl my age and #him himself. i love that this is turning into the very typical victim blaming stuff tho?? ‘well if he was abusing u why didn’t u just leave’

[heathermason]

i need to talk to my older brother about some health stuff

#hes the one that had that rare cancer. i told my pcp that once and she was like umm are you sure? thats kinda rare. and im like yes? he saw #cancer specialists and had surgery and now has nerve damage #but this isnt about that but that DOES piss me off majorly. #i need to know what else i was wrong about family history wise because #i thought my grandma died of liver cancer but it was kidney cancer #that i literally found out the other month #he lives w our dad so he would know more than me

[noxtivagus]

THE ZACK FAIR BRAINROT IS SO REAL

#tag later #HERO........ CRIES I LIKE CHARACTERS SM THAT ARE LIKE THAT HUH 😭 #'hey would you say i became a hero' bb boy you're gna make me cry #the price of freedom is steep.. #WINGS. ANGELS. MONSTERS. FUCK CC FOR THAT MY POOR HEART #dreams n honor n burdens n. living legacy sobs 'theyre yours now' 🥹 #n then flowers. aerith. she's so cute she's so cute twenty-three tiny wishes 😔 I'M SO SAD #zack literally fell from the sky 💀 hey bro did it hurt when you fell from heaven #HDFLKAJSDLFKSDJ N THEN THE PARALLEL WITH CLOUD :<< THAT HURT #aerith is so cute pls pls i love her so much she's rlly special to me 'id like to spend more time with you' AAAAAA MY HEART SOB #cries zack the puppy he's so cute fr #the sky.. THE SKY THE BLUE SKY. EYES THE COLOR OF THE SKY #being a 'monster' an 'angel' or 'human'. that. oh no i'm like obsessed w themes like that #he's such a good person :<< he's so charming fr n such an inspiration n sob AGHHH HE'S SO COOL I REALLY LOVE ZACK!?!?!?!?! #i've mostly been talking abt zack but. goddamn sephiroth in cc is so special to me he's one of my favs too. N ANGEAL. EVERYONE! #I CANT EVEN RAMBLE ANYMORE THIS IS #i have no words oh man i rlly rlly want to play ccr i'm gna cry so much when i play it 😭😭 #i'm really thankful to video games n just. stories in general bcs i've always been rather reserved n #bro even as a kid i barely cried. my mom told me i didn't even cry when i got out or smth?? idk if that's true but she said so #i've always been emotional n rather sensitive yes but i grew up not being the most expressive of it. not really sure why #nyways especially in times where i ended up bottling my emotions so much bcs i wanted to 'handle it on my own' so #others 'wouldnt worry' (backfired)!!!! video games. i mean stories in general like books n anime even #really served as an outlet that helped me let it all out. ffxv for example in early 2020 and ffvii mid 2020 n ffix throughout #school during 2020 n ffxiv late 2020 #YOU SEE. THERE'S SM OTHER GAMES TOO BUT FINAL FANTASY REALLY WAS SO PRESENT THROUGHOUT MY LIFE #no doubt that it's my fav series fr :c i really love a lot of games but.. yeah ff rlly is so special to me #THERES SM MORE TO RAMBLE ABT BUT I HAVE ASSIGNMENTS TO DO SOB BUT. CISSNEI N. EVERYTHING ELSE 😭🫶🏼 #apollo says hi. n says i have no ass wtf man they're so random but it's adorable 🥹 THAT SAID THOUGH FUCK LOVELESS IS SO COOL FUCKK DFJAKDSL

[sluttyten]

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#I woke up with a pit of anxiety in my belly and I was so confused about what had me feeling this way #just like dreading getting up out of bed and going into work #like I didn’t know what I had so much anxiety over #and then I remembered my boss offered for me to go work at a different location in a different city for a week and I didn’t actually give #him an answer yet #I’m a huge homebody like if I have the choice of being at home or anywhere else I am most likely going to choose being home #plus I would be going to a city where I know no one and staying in a hotel alone for a week and driving to this place by myself and I’m just #so unsure about all of that. I think I should do it because it’ll probably be fine but at the same time I’m just incredibly like anxious and #because* of the thought of having to stay alone in a hotel room for a week #staying home alone for a week is bad enough #and when I asked my mom for her advice she didn’t really help me much but I think that’s because I wanted her to give me a yes or a no #and then my best friend was literally exactly 0 percent helpful because I vented all this too her and her response was ‘oof’ like??? you #don’t have anything maybe a little more helpful to at to me? #anyway my boss works today so I might have to give him an answer today #but I’ve been feeling sick to my stomach since he gave me this offer which lol is exactly how I felt when he offered me a promotion like 9 #months ago and I worried about it for a week before agreeing to fill the position for a month (which gave me anxiety every day literally the #day he told me he had someone else to fill the position if I was sure I didn’t want to stay in it I felt a wave of relief literally so much #tension left my body immediately upon hearing those words) #anyway though that’s why I was so inactive yesterday bc I was sitting in my house in like an anxious stupor just watching Netflix and trying #to avoid thinking about this because it made my heart pound uncomfortably but also it was all I could think of #but also I was kinda in a weird mood before that yesterday #ALSO the week he told me he wants to go do that I’m like?? bc recently he also told me he needs me to fill in for a week for the girl who #filled the position I stepped back down from and I’m like? so you’re gonna have me go work in a different store then come back the next week #and do a different job that I don’t want to do in our store? all the while I really want to just take a few days off but I haven’t been able #to because there’s no one who can cover for me to take off and I don’t want to leave us shortstaffed and now it’s summer and we finally have #more people he keeps telling me he needs me to do/wants me to do things that make it impossible to take a few days off #but also my family is planning to go on a trip probably in the fall we don’t know where to yet and we have zero plans made but I probably do #need to save up my PTO hours for that instead of just a few random days off but ugh #also more and more lately I’m like I should really just find a new job. but this one gives me good hours like 40 a week and the hours I want #sorry for this rambling rant