#and overenthusiastic though but what matters is that it's done!!! it wasn't even af unpleasant email or anything i've just been

[galadriiel]

there is a very fine line between "alright i'm pretty exhausted and i'm way past caring about anything so i might as well use this time to email back someone i've been ignoring for weeks seeing as i'm not riddled with anxiety for once" and "i'm actually high on exhaustion and spouting bullshit and shouldn't be allowed anywhere near my phone" and i toe it almost every night but i only ever know whether i crossed it the next morning when i face the consequences of my actions

#i get so talkative when i'm tired i actually annoy myself so much i always get this sudden motivation to text like five people #and make like ten posts on here but i've learned to uh not do that because i always regret it the next day but maybe i should just #go ahead with the email because cringing at my reply in the morning is still better than stressing about it all day for another day #god i am such a mess!!!!! but it can't get any worse so i might as well go ahead with it #anyways sorry i'm rambling!!! like i said i get increasingly annoying the more sleep deprived i am honestly 90% of the personal #posts i've made on here fit into the second category hbfjdvfjd i hardly ever talk on here when i'm not procrastinating sleep #ok i'll shut up now and write the email and i'll probably cringe at it in the morning but idc!!! #angie.txt #okay update no one asked for #i did it and it wasn't even as awful as i thought it'd be idk why i was dreading it so much!!! i probably sounded really cringe #and overenthusiastic though but what matters is that it's done!!! it wasn't even af unpleasant email or anything i've just been #procrastinating replying for so long it was getting embarrassing and i was running out of time and i was so stressed about it #and every day i'd jusr internally scream at myseld about it and then pointedly not do it because i was to scared to even open it #how am i 19 i'm honestly so incompetent i hate myself i keep doing this for no reason and idk how to stop!!! i just constantly ghost #people abd then feel bad about it but get so stressed about how long it's been that i don't end up replying for like forever yikes #okay that's all i'm gonna go and actually get some sleep now bye i'm so sorry if you #actually read all of this it's probably like 90% incoherent and not worth your time