#and now my mom seems to be in on it

[adhd-chaos-queen]

An ADHDers room may seem messy, but this habitat is its own very sensitive eco system.

It should under no circumstances be tampered with.

If you move one thing just the slightest bit, they'll never find anything ever again...

#my adhd #adhd #adhd mood #adhd post #adhd inattentive #adhd brain #adhdlife #adhd memes #adhd humor #adult adhd #my mom picked up some of my stuff #and now everything is out of order #it might have seemed chaotic #but i had a system #and now it's disturbed

[spaceysketcher]

he protecc 💪💥❤️

#ive been meaning to post this for like a week but i came out to my mom yesterday so it seemed like a good way to commemorate that now #rottmnt #save rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise raph

[stuckinapril]

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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p

[unholy-boi]

deeply underrated duo. i think they should have hung out

#my art #fern the human #fern mertens #betty grof #magic betty #adventure time #fionna and cake #atimers #in my heart of hearts this is canon and we just never saw it #but i think that like. fern would go to Betty because she seems like the only person in ooo to be studying how to fix curses and fern wants #to fix his shit. betty takes him in only because it could be beneficial to her research #given that the grass curse is a NASTY ONE #and it’s holding his body together and affecting his mental state and ability to control himself #so betty is going to run like. every test she can on this boy #fern will go along with it because he’s desperate #and eventually #because fern kinda feels like he has Nobody he gets attatched to Betty and might even start seeing her as something of a mother figure. lol. #which is fucked up!! because betty has no interest in being this kids mom and she really only wants to use him for research but now she #can’t get rid of him and he’s still Useful obviously so she just kinda has to. deal with it #Does anyone hear me. please god.

[timey-fandom-stuff]

well, guess who lost control of my hands again and was compelled to scribble down designs for ANOTHER Deltarune AU? yeah. me. it doesn't really have a proper name yet so I've just been calling it Changeling AU for now, I'll figure that out later.

these would be the cast's dark world designs; they parallel early Deltarune concepts in which the lightners would turn into monsters in the dark world-- with a few medieval fantasy fae-flavored twists this time around. mortals become a variety of magical beasts in the fae's dark realm, with only 'Kris' strangely unaffected... aside from the hue shift and conspicuously pointed ears, that is.

the main 'Kris' of this AU isn't the only human in town. instead, they're ironically the only one in town who ISN'T human, though not even they know it yet. in reality they're a Changeling, a fae creature that was left as a 'gift' to replace a taken human child. they can do things, strange things. animals come to them in the night, and the cool touch of iron burns their skin. they're afraid of what they see in the mirror; human eyes don't gleam in the dark, and their teeth shouldn't be so sharp. so they hide their features, and they ignore the whispers of the townsfolk, and they keep their head down.

they made a mistake, a terrible one... and they need to set it right.

meanwhile, the human they replaced is still out there somewhere in the fae world, twisted by its curse into a cornered, desperate beast seeking any escape from the realm that has held them prisoner all their life. it's said that when the full moon casts deep shadows over the woods, you can still hear their anguished howls in the dark begging for the name that once was theirs. they can never leave the dark world without it. they'd do anything to get it back.

all they've ever really wanted was to find their way home.

#deltarune #deltarune AU #kris dreemurr #noelle holiday #susie deltarune #berdly #ralsei #my art #Changeling AU #oh i have a LOT of thoughts for this AU but it'll probably still be more of a side project compared to my other 2 AUs #i genuinely just HAD to throw this concept down or i was gonna actually explode. now i can go back to Dog HDJDHD #i know i'll revisit this in the future tho because there's so much to do with it. i have SO many plot beats for it already. man #the dog monster is actually not as scary as they seem. they're just a REALLY traumatized kid that thinks the Changeling is evil #it's a very unfortunate misunderstanding that almost ends in a kid losing their face to a very angry wolf monster! whoops! #the kids are NOT okay in this AU. sorry #tho the funniest part is that it's such a tragic AU and yet it still ends in a freakin' found family trope SOMEHOW. wack. #changeling kris coming home at the end: hey mom if you could adopt me a second time would you do it #toriel confused as heck: well... yes of course i would. why? is something on your mind my child? #kris hiding a second kris behind their back: uh. about that

[disposal-blueeee]

halloween thing i drew for an art trade with @cherry-207 ! she asked for edgar and scri dressed as angel and devil . you can see her part here !

edgar vargas belongs to jhonen vasquez

scriabin belongs to @zarla-s

#hello . uhhhhhhhhhhh #UHHH WAIT WAIT I CAN EXPLAIN I SWEAR #i know i haven't posted a thing since like A MONTH AND I'M SORRY BUT i have a really nice excuse for this . yes . #right after posting devi's drawing my mom BROKE HER FOOT ?? WOAH ! #and idk maybe i was sad or . stressed because i had to do a bunch of things my mom used to take care of and it was really stressing #this + school stuff + a drawing a day + some other things pretty much started killing me #and suddenly i was getting hives every single day after 11.30pm . yeah . it was TERRIBLE #so uh . i had to stop doing some stuff for my own wellbeing . like . drawing . for example #but it worked ! #now i just have a bunch of mosquito bites on my hands . they seem to like them . #OH SO well um YEAH DRAWING #an art trade with one of my friends !!!! drawing this was honestly so fun #as you can see this is from october 25th . but i wanted to wait for brusk to finish her piece before posting it #te quedó precioso emily . valió totalmente la pena la espera . tqm #edgar's costume looked so boring next to scriabin's #he looked way prettier with wings but if i wanted to add them i would have to erase 90% of scriabin and he came out so pretty to do that #so . instead of making him wear something pretty and detailed like scri's costume i had to make him wear something you could see and think #“ oh yeah that's an angel ” #i explained this to brusk after showing her the drawing and she said #“ if you think about it . him having a traditional costume fits his character " #and i was like OH #ACTUALLY YEAH THAT'S COOL #anyways i really like this one . the colors are so pretty . i finally found a way to make my colors warm and pretty . #WELL UH THAT'S TOO MANY TAGS BYE #vargas #zarla s #vargas zarla #scriabin vargas #edgar vargas

[doubledyke]

it doesn't really make sense in the logic (lol) of the show but part of me loves the idea that edd is being raised by his grandparents.... kids who are raised by grandparents tend to be overly mature and a little uhhhhh off-beat. i feel like it could explain a lot.

#before you ask yes this is me projecting #i know some folks hc his parents as being a bit long in the tooth which i like too #but idk i just think it would explain so many things about edd to learn that he was in fact raised by senior citizens #and shit i still call my grandma 'mom' so to me its not weird at all that he'd call his grandparents 'mother and father' #everything else about them stays the same though #theyre still aloof and neglectful #and i still think the worst of them #anyway i love projecting my trauma onto edd specifically for some reason #he's such an easy target for angst i can't help it #oh and speaking of angst #for anyone who saw that post a while back and is interested in an update on my whole bastard landlord/roommate kicking me out situation: #i found a room and will be moving in 2 weeks 🥴 kill all landlords etc etc but hey at least i'll have my own bathroom #and won't be living with the final boss of millennials/reddit incarnate #unfortunately for you guys though that means i should be able to indulge in my tomfoolery again soon (shit posting and shit drawing) #even though it seems like our tiny fandom has gotten even smaller recently #alright i'll shut up now biiiiii

[hillerskaroyals]

wille not being able to say erik died is such an important showing of his grief

#young royals #we obviously saw his grieving in the first ep when he was in erik’s room #but this is the first time we’ve seen how his grief presents around other people #it was easy to admit erik was dead when he was drunk and high but now with nothing to hide behind he can’t do it #it’s almost like by saying it he’s still trying to forget that it’s real #it could also be that he doesn’t trust boris bc this is his first appointment with him #and august was like family #but as soon as boris says he doesn’t have to talk after this he stops #obvi we know he doesn’t want to be there his mom is making him go but k think he stopped bc talking about erik is too painful #every time we’ve seen him think about erik he shuts down #both in his room where he lets his grief surround him literally with erik’s jacket and also when malin broke the snow globe #all the fight seemed to go out of him as he took the phone from jan-olof to talk to his mom #but his focus was still on the snow globe and erik #also sorry about the pic quality i took a pic of my laptop bc i’m lazy lmao #young royals season 2 spoilers #yr s2 spoilers #my yr thoughts

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[giyuulatte]

i feel like this is a great time to announce that i am a monster movie enthusiast. i LOVE monster and mecha movies!! godzilla, king kong, transformers, pacific rim, kaiju, alien, predator…GIMME IT ALL

#i’m on spring break so i’m rewatching a bunch of movies with my mom #and i forgot how much i love this genre(?) #if y’all have any recs for me i’m all ears #the 2014 godzilla movie will always remain my favorite for some reason #but the others are good too #except godzilla vs kong bc i blocked that one out of my mind for some reason #i also really like cloverfield for some reason and my mom HATES it lmao #she just doesn’t get it like i do (she hates found footage movies) #i also love transformers age of extinction too #tho i think it’s just for the dinosaurs bc it was lowkey ass #but i wouldn’t have it any other way #i really need to watch shin godzilla and soon #OMG AND SUPER 8 I LOVE SUPER 8 #super 8 is one of my top favorite movies it’s SO good #godzilla #king kong #cloverfield 2008 #pacific rim #transformers #battleship 2012 #super 8 2011 #alien #predator #alien vs predator #monster lover #do i tag this as monster fucker or will i be normal for once #i will be ‘normal’ it seems #…for now

[dreameroftheblue]

I don't wanna wait till the sunshine fades And bury our love in a shallow grave 'Cause the world could be cruel to us or We could live for the dangerous so Let's start, let's start a riot Hard to sit still when your head's on fire Oh yeah 'Cause I'm a supernova And you're my four leaf clover

#this one just kind of spilled out of me very quickly - lines done in like. one session right before I should've been going to bed lmao #and then spent a few more finishing and fiddling with it including finding that middle version kinda neat #all those studies comin' in clutch! didn't need to use a particular screenshot of crowley's face as direct reference this time :D #good omens fanart #good omens #aziraphale x crowley #aziracrow #wings #angel wings #naga #lamia #artistic nudity #nsft #? #not really hornee because naga junk should be at the end near their tail #and right now it's all tucked away inside anyway haha #also I showed my mom this one and she seemed very very confused lol #haven't really gotten much other feedback so uhhh if it needs critiquing. go ahead I guess

[sleepinglionhearts]

Gougar (George) is a photogenic young man

#cats #of mom's cats gougar seems to like spending time with me most #when he's not hanging out with her #fred sometimes comes in but I've noticed he did it more often when i was lonely and sad on my days off #bc my fiancee wasn't home on those days lol #now that fiancee and i's off schedules line up better fred has other stuff to do i guess #anyway gougar is great he's such a baby #steps all over you. doesn't want to cuddle just wants pets. still sounds like a kitten when he meows for attention #wants to be friends with lune but she doesn't wanna be friends #though she will now tolerate him laying near her #just a silly little guy...

[greencarnation]

There is no such thing as too much or too little you can do for Iran right now. Talk to your friends, tell your family - mainstream news is barely covering this, and people without social media are unlikely to know much. Sign and share petitions, create and promote content, do not stop talking. Write to your local parliament, and attend protests in your area. If you don't have any, see how you can get involved in organizing them. From what I understand US sanctions make it impossible to donate money, though.

This is overwhelming for everyone, but we owe it to the people of Iran to not close are eyes now. They don't have the luxury of ignorance. We must be their voices while they're being silenced. We can't let the world forget them.

If all you can do is share, do that! Do that! Don't underestimate how much the smallest things help, and remember that anything is better than silence.

#and also! i know that if you're like me your fyp has been full of this stuff for days so the information you have may seem obvious #but i promise you that most people don't have the barest idea of whats going on #you have to tell them #i brought it up at dinner today and only one other person knew it was happening at all and he didn't know any of the details #now they all know and are posting about it. my moms writing letter after email after letter to the local govt #little things matter i promise #just don't stop talking #iran #iranian lives matter #mahsa amini #islamic republic of iran #mine

[fictionadventurer]

After very little research into the other writings of Laura Ingalls Wilder and Rose Wilder Lane, my hypothesis about the Little House authorship question is that the writing is mostly Rose's, but the heart is Laura's.

In Laura's newspaper columns, the parts that sound most like Little House mostly come from the extracts she shares from Rose's letters (incidentally, it's kind of adorable how proud she is of Rose: "My daughter's in France!", "My daughter's in Albania!", etc.) The prose of Old Home Town, Rose's inspired-by-my-childhood-home novel, has some of the same concise descriptive prose that I've come to associate with the Little House style (I could hear passages in the voice of the Little House audiobook narrator).

Yet the Little House soul is all over Laura's columns. She's fascinated by the simple tasks of life, believes in home and family and hard work, believes in holding onto the goodness of childhood and looking forward with hope toward the future. There's an optimism, almost a romanticism, about life. The children's series that bears her name clearly comes from the same woman.

Rose, by contrast, is much more pessimistic. When writing about childhood, she's almost cynical about the life of a small town. She highlights the dark stories underlying the wholesome exterior, is extremely sensitive to the pitfalls of the social scene around her. Part of the difference is that Rose is writing for adults, but there does seem to be an essential difference in the personality behind the pen, despite the stylistic similarities to Little House.

(At the risk of pop psychoanalyzing people long dead, Rose seems much more neurotic and introverted and sensitive than her mother. In her writings and in the books about her childhood in Missouri, she comes across as child of a fairly comfortable modern life, with all the modern anxieties, in contrast to a woman who grew up starving on the prairie and knows that there are much worse things to endure than small-town gossip).

It's not much of a thesis, but I'm just fascinated by the fact that the Little House series can share so many stylistic similarities with Rose's writings, yet feel so much more like Laura.

#little house #laura ingalls wilder #rose wilder lane #i did not finish old home town because it came uncomfortably close to deal-breaking swearing and i don't feel like dealing with that #but the book was interesting in its way #rose clearly has an agenda about women's rights #but in focusing so heavily on social justice it loses a lot of heart #if the mother is supposed to be based in any way on laura she's a bit harsh as a mother #though more open-minded than her neighbors #(always standing up for the gossiped-about women) #rose's stand-in (i'm going to assume it's a stand-in because cranford has trained me to assume #(that any first-person narrator in a book based on the author's childhood hometown is a self-insert) #kind of disappears into the background #and it's very tempting to consider how the woman who made her living as a ghostwriter disappeared behind others' stories #(also this book unfortunately seems to confirm that almanzo was a mason) #(sorry mom) #(seeing the freemason symbol on pa's grave was my most terrifying moment as a catholic little house fan) #(i'm pretty sure my mom threw holy water on it) #(took me a few years to get over that) #(now i've just accepted that american history is full of freemasons) #(and as long as she's not spouting anti-catholic propaganda her books are fair game)

[holocene-sims]

a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊

#holocene.txt #hlcn: story extras #consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :) #i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me #it really does mean a lot #it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/ #i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues #i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing #and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it #and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything #i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned #i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels #i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice #and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly #i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox

[moe-broey]

THE MILFS ARE FIIIIIIIIIGHTINGGGGGGGGGG

#feh #and. sothis #i feel legally obligated to join henriette's team obviously #and you know as far as moms go henriette isn't bad! just a bit absent (obvs due to the nature of her position) #but also something that has always stuck w me about her is ..... there is something off. about her. #like i don't think she's a bad person or even a bad mom. she just seems like. she's hiding something. #i have always been equally put off and intrigued by her. #LIKE. OKAY ANOTHER THOUGHT i think i've voiced before but when sharena comes off as 'fake nice' #it doesn't FEEL fake. it feels overplayed and forced but it's so geniune actually. she is just fighting for her life #to pass a social interaction and make a new friend #meanwhile henriette's 'fake nice' feels like. she knows something all of us don't. she knows something that died w gustav. #she has always felt. foreboding. #also doesn't help though that i inherently distrust mother figures LMFAOOOOO #LIKE. coin flip between 'oh she's a good mom i'm gonna cry forever now' and setting off my fight or flight response LMFAO #no need to dig into that! #fe henriette #<- just for henriette thoughts