#and my fear of failure

[sadquickchristmassnowman]

ever since annie said “and who the hell are you always texting??? 🤨 Everyone You Know Is Here!!! ✋🏻🙄” I haven’t been able to get this image of jeff texting himself out of my head so I drew a Very Shitty cartoon version of what’s been infesting my brain. do with this what you will (even if that is “🤨 what the fuck. anyway” *scrolls*)

#did this instead of paying attention in spanish 101 #omg spanish 101??? community reference haha!!! #also I am NOT a fucking artist and I Never Draw but yk. #I’m microdosing on creating shitty art to get over my fear of incompetency and failure #just do things for the love of it yk #whatever #community #nbc community #community nbc #jeff winger

[poorlydrawnandroids]

Every man (and android) for himself. 

More siblings content because idk that’s just the 2023 mood. My brother and I brought it in by drinking gross champagne and singing to the cats. Happy New Year!

#dbh connor #rk900 dbh #nines dbh #siblings #detroit become human #dbh #siblings memes #hank anderson #hank dbh #dad hank #i am keeping my promise on this series guys #it's coming along #there's also no greater motivation than procrastination #i have... so much homework #it's due in 3 hours #but i have a typing speed of 100+ wpm and a fear of failure that will make sure it's in on time #minor tw for dismembered limbs #tw mess #i wholeheartedly headcannon that deviants can be super messy #they just wanna chill #can't blame them for that #also someone asked me to draw sumo awhile back and i would like to point them in the direction of the mouse i drew #the answer is yes but please keep your expectations low #you know #like everything here #my style is so very inconsistent but let's all just vibe #also they're finally playing games together good for them #comic

[deltaruminations]

here are some stills i took from some of the "error" screens in the spamton love network video, in case anyone else was curious about what they said

CH 2 COMMUNITY WARNING

IF YOU SEE THIS TAXT THENS SOMETHING BROKEN WHERE IS THE PROMISE OF PERFECTION?

[marquee, repeated] THIS IS A WARNING

ERROR DETECTED ~[?]

WE DETECT AN ERROR!!!!!!!!!!!!

"WE DONT KNO WHAT HAPPENED!!!! :p"

WHEN AN ERROR IS DETECTED I SEE THE INTENSITY OF MY FEARS SURGING THROUGH ME LIKE SUSPICIOUS WAVES

[the text at the bottom is cut off and partly illegible, but my best guess is that it says something like] ERRORS SCARE[?] ME FROM MY DAILY LIFE PROMISE ME!!!!

to be clear i don't think this is directly lore relevant in any way, i think this is RTVS as artists having some fun and building on the themes and ideas they were given. i just think it's neat lol

#eyestrain cw #i’m going to put this in lore hell just to be able to find it in the future. but again i’m not actually treating this as ‘lore’ #$ 420 non gaster lore hell #‘errors scare me from my daily life’ man… #a broadcast error screen devolving into a lamentation of a crippling fear of failure is so. man.

[sluttylittlewaste]

I feel like Brennan keeps kinda nudging Kristen like "Hey, you can just...not be a cleric", especially in this last episode with the whole becoming an Archfey thing and it's so interesting that Ally/Kristen just... won't hear it. Hasn't even floated the idea of doing something else, just insists that eventually Kristen will get everything figured out (I don't see that happening)

#in the adventuring party when they get asked where Kristen considered letting Cassandra become an Archfey #and it just gets slid right over #like #baby #something something clinging to your old self #something something afraid of being proven a failure #something something the fear of being spiritually alone and powerless #but Kristen my love #you're barely a cleric. at this point that's just the title and powers you have #let Cassandra go #it's healthier for both of you #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #Cassandra

[cheeseburgersinparadise]

allegedly supposed to be applying for jobs but I’m super not

#lots of feelings #fear over leaving and starting a new job #feeling like a failure bc I have this degree and have done fuck all yet #I just feel like my graduation was a fart in the wind and it feels meaningless now #anyway I’m just being weird

[akira-seeya]

(supposed to be) shadow link

btw this is NOT done all from scratch. i did a sketch in 3d mode, did the lineart in regular mode, then deleted the sketch part (bc it acts as a separate layer)

#yepppppp swapdoodlin again #idk my go-to yonken when doodling is almost always shadow #it's the fun floaty hat i think lol #discovered that swapdoodle is very good for practice!?!? #the limitations force me to compromise. which is v good to combat my fear of failure/imperfection #also i can experiment bc if i don't like it i can just trash it #* #*en #*art #shadow link #four swords #four swords adventure #four swords manga #legend of zelda #fsa

[dundeelemonade]

cause like there’s something screwy with my brain or whatever that makes dying in a game scary, to the point that i can’t even proceed far enough in botw to figure out how to handle my first guardian, and i have a long list of games that i own and haven’t played more than an hour of because i just really don’t like dying! and i just want to know how get over that hurdle.

#please reblog and/or leave advise on how to not care about getting killed in video games #if i could get past my fear of fictionally dying i could accomplish so many things #i think it’s like #people who are ice skating who have to learn how to fall #but the act of falling on purpose is still extremely fraught #let’s be real it’s also a very real fear of Failure #TERRIFIED of failing. #i’m insecure and so i hate taking risks and so i fail inherently because i can’t rise to the challenge #this isn’t just about video games #it’s about art and jobs and taking control of my life #i’m scared of being unable to meet the conditions necessary and so i don’t even try #but what if i could begin to try starting with just one little thing?

[disgruntled-lifeform]

Anyone else get reeeaaaallllly close to finishing an embroidery project and just...can't complete it?

Like, once I do these last bits, then that's it and there is some strange fear attached to it?

No? Just me?

#yeah that sounds like a me problem #like a bizarre flavor of a fear of failure #if I don't complete it then it can't stuck because it is forever stuck in limbo and is thus still a changeable thing #embroidery #craftblr #.txt #I really need to finish my Witch Hat Atelier blackwork but I will actively miss seeing it on my frame #like removing the sketch lines on a but of inked art I feel like some bit of soul gets lost when you transfer an embroidery from a raw state

[a-r00m-with-a-m00se]

Anxiety and kisses

#pencil sketch with water color and the cheapest ballpoint pen #dhmis #my art #my works #fluffybird #red is smacking his tongue from the roof of his mouth - its really fun that neither of them have lips it lets people get more creative #slowly i gain more confidence on this website with my slow crawl i have here- please enjoy the fear of failure on display with how soaked #the page got with the first drawing and no amount of blotting revived the paper #it is an artistic choice of stress you see- hehe #ive actually really been enjoying watercolor- after really trying to practice with digital its nice to go to something that has no #smoothing or anti alies nonsence that ruins the integrity of the small millimeters of diffrence you can get on a real physical page #or i guess if you have some high end fancy computer with no lag and the best eqitment to record those gestures #but i dont- so i am constantly fighting agenst lag and adjusting my drawing tec to adapt to digital #so heres some authentic stuff finally as a late valintines day gift ehehe

[actual-changeling]

curled up on the floor, rocking back and forth: "there's no pressure to create, you can exist in a fandom without a constant output of something, there's no pressure to create, there's no-"

#alex yells at the void #my fucked up almost phobic trauma based fear of failure extends to even the most basic things #writing included

[the-kipsabian]

so. any specific kip thoughts on your mind? 👀

today in particular?

ARMS

#thank you for asking! <3 #thetimecrystal #among a lot of other things tbh but mainly just arms #so enjoy this small selection from my files lmao #box thoughts #really on an aesthetic kick with him right now like i wanna make edits so badly #but since its a bad brain day its hard to do anything without the fear of failure ough

[jkooktray]

[Aquarium] Ranpo while i continue to pull for Poe

#procrastination art #i want to work on painting but fear of failures fun #bsd ranpo #bsd rampo #ranpoe #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanart #bungo stray dogs fanart #traditional art #my art 2023 #bsd mayoi

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

you absolutely already know this, but i adore your work. i think it's hard to avoid the pressure of being surrounded by people we might consider "true artists," but the fact is that, frankly, everyone who makes art is an artist.

before this year, i hadn't drawn a complete piece in nearly three years. the line work i did produce felt abysmal and i was tempted to give up. then, i saw your comic and i thought, "wow, that's really cute, and it looks like a fun style to emulate."

i drew you, pondering me, eating grass. and it WAS fun. i forgot how fun it could be. i can draw lesbian horses, or pony!WWX throwing a chicken, or me eating grass. i can even make shitty memes! and all of it, no matter how good or how bad, is fun again.

you bring a lot of fun to people here. that's something equally as important as people who cultivate fancy line work or expert level digital painting. i'm sure that's something you know, but i hope it never hurts to hear it.

happy first season, friend! i can't wait to see the rest.

As a chronic perfectionist, it's been a long journey for me to accept that 'done is better than nothing' and that the worst critical voice is my own. Sure there's people who've gone to professional art schools, and those with a more than a decade of experience on me, but honestly? Would I tell a child their sonic drawing isn't art? Just because they have no 'experience' or 'technique'? Absolutely not. So I'm no longer saying my efforts should not count as art.

At the end of the day, art is what we choose to make it. We have the power to create whatever we want. And we are going to use it to have fun! We never lost the love and fun for creation we all had as children, we just told ourselves it wasn't enough. But it really is B*)

#ask #non mdzs #Thank you so much for this very heartfelt message B'*) #This kinda hit hard for me cause this blog isn't actually my first attempts at art (started with the classical florals and life drawing) #but it stressed me out immensely. All I could see was flaws and it made the process miserable knowing I wasn't going to succeed #So I stopped trying. I didn't draw for *years* #The point of Poorly drawn mdzs was always 'it doesn't matter how it looks it matters that I just keep going' #and it made art fun! I was making comics for ME and no one else. The bar was so low and I really could only go up from where I started #I think art block might be 50% fear of failure and 50% the weight of expectations. *That's* why art is perceived as 'hard'. #I'm gonna be fully honest here; your art is GORGEOUS!!! I'm glad you didn't give up B*) Though I understand the feeling. #I have greatly enjoyed chatting and collaborating with you! Thank you for so so many things #I hope to see more of your work again in the future!! I hope you keep finding the joy and fun in the act of creation! #is it not so amazing we can make something out of thoughts in our heads? #Lets all remember that art let's us draw ourselves eating grass and realize how wonderful that is

[beanghostprincess]

My brother asking me why the hell I don't write an original book when my Fairytale Sanuso AU is literally the length of one and I just stared at him and said "but writing is hard" and he was like "WHAT DO YOU MEAN WRITING IS HARD YOU WROTE THIS SHIT IN A WEEK" and I just started shaking like a little tiny creature and said "buuut but original characters in my head don't move the way my blorbos do and writing original things is scary" and he side-eyed me and walked away 😭😭😭

#he is so done with me #'you should turn that fanfic into a book' yes but what about the constant worry of it not being good enough #ena shinonome walked so my constant fear of failure could run

[maliciousalice]

omg i booked driving lessons im going to be sick!!!!

#lmao i never got my full license my parents kinda idk were horrible when it came to addressing this so at 33 im going to do it myself #having license will open up opporutinites but like LOL shit's expensive #i should have done it earlier but i have intense fear of failure because i learn things slower than others #just doing my learners was hell it took me like 2 months of doing practice exams every day to remember content in the test

[patchwork-crow-writes]

Today, I would like to talk about why it's okay to be imperfect.

This is my wedding band. It's made of silver and has a little rose-gold band running through the centre of it. I've had it for almost six years now, and I wear it out most places I go with my partner. Naturally, I am very fond of this piece of jewelry, though it's not the flashiest ring that ever existed.

Thing about silver is, it's quite a soft metal. Rings and bands are more commonly made of palladium or platinum, both very hard metals that are highly resistant to scratches and marks. And as you can see, my silver ring has has its fair share of knocks and scuffs. Perhaps I should have looked after it better. Perhaps I should have spent a little more on a palladium, or even a titanium band. Perhaps.

But far from being a downside, I see this as highly symbolic of my marriage and my life as a whole. Because its flaws and imperfections tell a story - it's evidence that this ring, and the marriage it symbolises, has bourne both joys and hardships.

There have been bumps in the road getting here, and I have made many mistakes through my life. There are things I wish I could have done better, times I wish I could have advocated for myself better. At times my mistakes felt so grievous that I thought I'd never be able to get my life back on-track, that I was forever doomed to failure.

And yet, despite all of that, here I am, happily married, able to live somewhat comfortably, with both friends and family who care deeply for me and for whom I care deeply in return. And I'm very aware of how fortunate that makes me, but it also makes me aware that I don't have to be absolutely perfect in every facet of my life... or even any facet. I can be "good enough". I can bare my imperfections to others and be mostly assured that I will be accepted regardless, that I will at least be given the benefit of the doubt.

I think of this whenever I look at my chipped, scratched wedding band, and I find myself comforted by this. I am reminded not to be afraid of being less than perfect or exemplary, that it's not the end of the world if I don't do things exactly as they ought to be done. That far from being a failure if I slip up, it's just a normal part of life and I can try and do better next time.

I hope that this might resonate with somebody reading this, who feels like their life might come to an end if they don't do exactly what's expected of them. I promise that there are people in your life who will still love and think the world of you even if you're not always performing at your best. I also hope that we can normalise being imperfect, and forgiving others for their imperfections. Perhaps that way, we can be a little kinder to ourselves and to others.

Thanks for reading :)

#rambling #long post #my photography #fear of failure #perfectionism #mental health #it's okay to make mistakes #It's okay to not always be perfect