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#and my Immediate reaction was ‘Aaaahhhhhh why Is He Like That
nullspace-mustard · 3 years
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i had,, the strangest gender-adjacent feelings today
#i got i think the closest i have ever been to Ah My Body Doesn’t Look Right !!! ive ever been but it was not about my physical body#it was about my player character in my pokeman save that i created like 7-10 days ago#which i made (1) so i could play w a different starter but also (2) bc i wanted to play the game as A Boy bc i wanted the boy hair options#bc i was about to give myself a Quarantine Haircut and i decided to compromise and give my second save file pokeman guy a Quarantine Cut#so Anyways me from 7-10 days ago give this little dude a short generic guy haircut(idk how to describe?) but made it Green bc it’s pokeman#so why not right? so Anyways me from 7-10 days ago was like Wow! Short hair and Boy Clothes(TM) this is great! incredible!!!#bc the logic was (1) this character is not Me But In Pokeman like in save 1 and (2) if i want a dress i can go back to save 1#so cool great catchin pokemon wearin Boy Shoes and Boy Hair and just generally having a good time Allowing This OC (Not Me!) To Live Dreams#so then today i play pokeman again for the first time since the 2-3 day period during the 7-10 day frame when i last played#and my Immediate reaction was ‘Aaaahhhhhh why Is He Like That??????’ even tho i am the person who made the oc trainer Like That#like i paid 4000 poke dollars to have the hair and face Like That !#so i was like ‘uhhhh we will investigate this Later bc it is Urgent we change this dude’s hair Now’ so i changed the style and color#so we went from Green to Ash Brown and from Short Cool Dude Hair to Medium Length Kinda Sloppy Hair#i was not thrilled with the style options and as much as i wanted him to have short hair all of the short options were like Stressing Me Out#??? it was very bizarre ? and once that was like kinda taken care of enough i changed the trainers clothes too bc needed a clean slate#but now weve run into the problem of He Looks Too Much Like Me bc the whole point was to have a wildly different Escapism Trainer OC#that was supposed to be so left field escapism that it would overshoot gender envy and end up in some other Not Necessarily My Vibe zone#so now this dude looks a lot like me (like his hair and fashion are probably more accurate than save 1 where the trainer is Ya Know me)#which isn’t like A Problem but isn’t what i wanted :-(#also there’s the actual can of worms about how Completely Stressed i was that this fake pokemon guy did not look enough like a Real Person#even tho that was never the intention for him and like the way that Stress About Appearance And Perception relates to me and my life outside#of pokeman bc despite the fact that a lot of these feelings were about this dude a lot of them Felt very visceral in like a Me way????#felt very weird am not a fan would not like to do again#gender stuff#also like the way i personally interact with my gender identity is pretty much exclusively through presentation atm?#bc i don’t really feel like having Emotions and stuff about gender vocab right now so I’m chillin in the#‘im me and im me regardless of what i wear and my gender feels the way it did a year ago except now there are some days i want a binder’#which to me does not feel like A Thing That Warrants New Vocab that is just wanting a broader range of presentation options#but bc basically the only gender thoughts im having atm are Presentation thoughts then it i think made this whole situation more Distressing#i think? but also i feel like i am simultaneously reading into this too much and not enough so :-\\\\ only time will tell i guess
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MC reacts to The Brothers (+Undateables)
In a crop top ~ yum
For @beelzebubs1trulove and for me too ngl
*NSFW* ish / undertones - these turned into mini drabbles ?? Lol?? Sorry??
The Brothers
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Lucifer 🔥
He freezes, his eyes narrow slits as they focus on you
“You want me to wear a what?”
You’d have to be very close to make that kind of request of him if he’s never worn one
He’s anxious it would damage his pride and so would vehemently dismiss the idea
“Luci ~” you’d lilt, winding your arms around his tense shoulders from behind, distracting him from his work
He knew that lilt. That lilt for when you wanted something quite specific. You were hellbent to get what you wanted
Consider the interest of this Sadist TM piqued as you toy with his raven locks, coyly starting cat and mouse teasing
“My answer was no.” “Was is a conditional, so that means there’s room for debate.”
He’d smirk at your coy and almost sly attitude, swiveling around so that he could grip your hips,
“You’re as troublesome as ever, twisting my words to suit your desires.” “:)”
You’d give him That Smile TM, when you wanted something. How could he refuse?
“And what if i refuse? What will you surrender to me in compensation?”
You’d bite your lip - he’s cracking, considering it
I’ll let you imagine what you’d be willing to do in compensation lol
He’d tighten his grip on your hips at the insinuation, your sweet words caressing the shell of his ear
It took everything he had not to demand payment up front, if you catch my drift
He’d ensure you swore not to tell a soul (nor demon ofc) no one. This would be private for you and no one else, or he won’t do it not even if you begged.
You’d stay true to your word, desperate to see him in the crop... you were not disappointed
You were leisurely atop his sheets when he finally revealed himself with a distinct cough, to clear his throat and make his presence known
Your jaw dropped. The Crop was an inky black and appeared to be water woven silk, one shoulder sliding down.
His cheeks tinged rouge as he brought himself to look you in the eye, a silent plea for you to say something. Anything.
You swallowed a golf ball sized lump as you rose from the sheets, approaching tentatively, finger tips mindlessly stroking the fabric
You could feel his abdominal muscles clench from underneath the satin fabric, a sharp breath in from his handsome lips
He quickly grew quite fond of your reaction to the clothing item, and how the events of that evening took a turn for the unexpected
Would most definitely wear it again when he wanted you and may try another
Mammon 💵
Makes a sound akin to a “guh!” at your request
Is certain he misheard, until you ask again
“What d’ya think ya talkin’ about, huh? Askin’ me to wear a thing like that...” BLUSH
“But you don’t mind a bit of skin, you’re a model!” “T-that’s not -“ “AND your demon form?! Hello?!” “Hey! That’s not the point!”
The point is, it’s because it’s you asking and his imagination takes him to naughty places due to your request
You’d have to wait a few days before bringing it up again, asking sweetly
He’d be unable to look at you, a blushing and stuttering mess if you tried putting your arms around him to ask
“Why’d ya keep askin’ me somethin’ like that, huh? Quit it...” you’d let go, a little disheartened
“Hey, wait!” He’d unintentionally holler, stumbling after you
As you turn back around, you thread your fingers through his snow white hair, “Come to my room?”
His Adam’s apple would bob uncontrollably as he swallowed, offering a faint nod before snapping back into his usual self
“Ya better not ask this of the others.”
He’d come to your room, bright red and at the door, unable to walk in further
You’d calm him down, casually patting your bed, “What are you doing over there? Come on.” With an easy laugh
He’s won over pretty quickly and at ease
He’s lying on his front atop your sheets, on his D.D.D when you hover over his back, palms either side of his shoulders. He freezes
“Mammon?” You’d call sweetly, brightening the tips of his ears
“Can you please wear this for me?”
You’d ask in a soft whine, making it nearly impossible for him to form a coherent thought, let alone turn you down again
Despite actually wanting to do as you’d asked from the beginning
Your arms ensnaring him in place so he can’t run away, “You’d look so good in it, you should model it for Majolish.”
He can’t get much more blushy or flustered than when you start talking to him like that, he’s a goner
He finally relents, and returns wearing the Crop you picked out for him. Your eyes shamelessly trail his perfect form, far from disappointed
His chin angled towards the floor as he flushes, he’ll snap, “Quit lookin’ at me like that, would ya?”
You can’t help it. The loose white T with tiger print looked so much hotter on him than you expected
You got it cause you thought he’d look so cute in it... which of course, he did but... his exposed torso, coupled with his lean bisceps folding as he waited for you to speak, had made it all the more difficult to do so.
You’d hum in approval, quick to slide your hands under it to make contact with his bare skin if he’d let you
If you were tactless about it, he’d growl. No touchy lol
But if you got him into the right mood, well
He’d gasp in surprise, uttering your name as you roamed his body with your hands
Fingertips ghosting over his lips to hide his vulnerability, as you grip his hips towards you
Things would get a little more heated than intended, but neither of you were complaining
Next time he was more confident and wore a mesh one for you to tear off, he did That Growl TM as you did and it sent you
Levi 👾
Oh boy haha, good luck with that lol
Reacts worse than Mammon
“W-w-wear a C-crop Top?! Me?!”
Instant nosebleed lol
You’d have to get him in the mood, boy won’t just do it out if nowhere. Ever.
His self consciousness would mean it would take A LOT of coaxing. A lot, a lot.
But he would do anything if you were having a little dom-sub play, and it was your turn to dom
Given that he was comfortable enough to do that with you anyway, what’s a little crop in comparison?
“Think of it as a little cosplay...” you’d whisper seductively, hot and damp against his ear before nibbling at his lobe
He’d almost whimper at the request now that you have him where you want him
He’d flush harder than any of the brothers, obvi
“W-what do you want me to do?” teeth sunk into his lower lip as he peered up at you, playing along. AAAAHHHHHH
Your soft hands at his chest, before slowly lifting the hem of his shirt, only breaking eye contact when necessary
He would be speechless watching you
no more hiding, no more excuses. He wants you, like this. He’s not so nervous anymore
You didnt want him to feel too self conscious, so you got him a loose fitting neon crop with a black mesh to go over it
His anxiety had melted away but he was still a little self conscious, you’d have to coax him out a bit more
Would actually really love the feel of the top and the mesh did make him feel better
You thought his body was perfect, literally God given ha ha and wanted him to show it off more
You made sure to say as much, making his heart swell.
you wet your lips at his new clothes, making him flush harder and his hands creep to his face again
You gently removed his hands from his face, “Don’t shy away, you have a perfect body... i love it”
May day may day Levi is dying from loss of blood at the nose
Similarly to Lucifer, you may have to coax him with some promises of gameplay/concert tickets/cosplay and roleplay
“Does... this mean I get to see you in one too?”
His dominant side comes out real fast when you wear a teasingly revealing number, crop and thigh high stockings
He is a goner
Just the thought of someone else possibly seeing you this way darkened his expression
You are in for a wild night w this Dark Horse TM lolol
This side you didn’t often see exhilarated you
You silently thanked your idea for the crop tops
Stay safe kids ahha
Satan 📚
His face would flush, hand flying to his chest, “Excuse me?”
Careful Satan, your Lucifer is showing
You’d thread your fingers through his hair as he’s reading. It’s a risk, sometimes he melts into your touch - other times, well -
“If you’re trying to please me, you’re doing it all wrong.”
His blonde brows would frown, before going back to his book.
You’d huff - what to try next? #Take2 I guess...
You’d hum, sinking onto his lap to straddle his thighs. He’d tense his frame from under you, fingertips whitening on the book he held between your chests
He’d blush, unable to look at you for a moment as you’d try asking again,
“For me? Please?” Voice up an octave to sound cute, rubbing soothing circles into the taut muscles at his shoulders
“Why would you want me to do that?” He’s flushing harder now, less resolve in his voice. Bingo.
“I think you’d look really good...” fingertips trailing to his bowtie, eliciting a nervous chuckle from his throat
“You’ve got a lot of nerve, human.” He almost stuttered. Your seductive eyes would meet his with a coy smile, “please?”
“You really are cruel.” He’d say so quietly as though admitting to a great sin. Your teasing would stop immediately, smile faltering
With gentle fingertips you’d encourage his chin towards you, sincerity in your eyes, “What’s wrong?”
His brilliant emerald orbs searching yours, “If we were to do what you’re insinuating, i’d want it to be more.”
You gasped, realisation hitting you like a smack to the face. Your form relaxed above him, gently carressing his beautiful face,
“What makes you think that I don’t want more?”
You’d brush your lips against his in a gentle carress, winning him over
He’d have to be close enough/comfortable enough in your relationship to do it for you
He feels vulnerable without clothes covering him quite well, even in his demon form
So he’d want you to keep this private and would find it really hard to forgive you if you betrayed that trust, especially to Lucifer
Knowing this, the first time he tried it for you you’d helped him pick out one that was loose, comfortable and longer in the sleeves - revealing his lower abdomen in a tease.
It was green to match his eyes. His eyes searched yours for your thoughts.
The first thing you wanted to do was graze your hands at his exposed hips, his breath caught at your actions
“You look ... so sexy.” You’d praise in a hoarse whisper, he’d make a choking noise
Quickly gaining confidence as your hands roam tentatively at his hips, he’d smirk
“You better enjoy this whilst you can, I won’t be doing it again.”
You’d find a way to convince him into it again, dont worry lol
Asmodeus 💋
Bold of you to assume he isn’t wearing one right now
You two have just come back from a well deserved shopping spree ‘for making it through a particularly boring student council meeting’
Asmo’s wearing a crop that barely covers his chest, skin tight, revealing his perfectly sculpted shoulders
He said it was “‘cause it was hot that day!” even though there is no sun in the Devildom
You two were on your way back to The House of Lamentation when he caught you stealing surreptitious peeks
He’d smirk, “Take a photo of me, it’ll last longer.”
You’d laugh, but your blush would give you away
He’d shift his bags to one hand so that he could hold yours, “Come on, honey - it’s time for our fashion show.”
You’d ask him to go first just so you could gawk at him and his stupidly perfect body
He would not complain - even though you’d already seen the outfits, you wanted to see him in them again
If you were feeling particularly confident, you’d pluck out the small bag containing the crop you bought for him as a surprise
He’d squeal with delight, “Ooh for me? What is it?” You’d deny his snatching grasp with a teasing tut, “It’s a surprise - i want you to wear it tonight.”
His eyes would glaze over with anticipation as he’d hum, shifting slightly, “Watch what you say, you know anything can set me off.”
You’d giggle and he’d add with a pompous air, “If it’s ugly, i’m not wearing it.”
When night came and you’d revealed the crop, he gaped. He was very pleasantly surprised.
It was a maroon, lace number, long sleeved and high collar - it was surprisingly high fashion
You thought I was gonna give him some BDSM leather didn’t you? You cheeky thing you
He slid into it effortlessly with another hum of approval, “ooh i love it, thank you.” Planting a chaste kiss to your cheek
Warmth spread through your chest, he must really love it if he wasn’t trying to immediately come onto you
He flushed, rubbing soothing circles into the back of your hand. His adams apple bobbed as he shifted, “You always know what to do to drive my heart wild, don’t you?”
You’d plant a sweet, lingering kiss on his soft lips and share a surprisingly tender night with him
Variety is the spice of life after all, so he had many many more crop tops to satiate your curiosity
“Your turn ;)”
Beelzebub 🍔
Has probably worn a cropped, sleeveless hoodie to work out in
He doesn’t show off his body but is far from self conscious, he works hard for what he’s got
When you ask him to wear one, poor baby won’t see it that way
“Uh, sure okay, why not?”
Would whip out a cropped T-shirt and change infront of you, honey i know, i feel hot just thinking about it
He’d turn to you with That Smile TM coupled with his sweet chuckle, “‘Like this one?”
You’d probably get him to try a bunch on just to see him change lol
If he had the time, which for you he usually did, he’d have no problem being your doll to play dress up with lol
Literally would just let you dress him, as long as the boy has a snack he’s gucci
You quite liked the sleeveless hoodie crop, knowing he works out in it gave it that edge
He’d be comfy, smiling brightly as he’d wrap his big arms around you
You aren’t complaining, you get to feel those abs lolol
If you were feeling confident, you’d roam your hands under the hem, or your hands would wander south -
He’d flush, brows raised slightly, suddenly realising where your thoughts were headed
“So you really like this one, huh?” He’d smile, palms resting comfortably at the small of your back
You’d nod, chewing your bottom lip. His smiling lips would meet yours sweetly, before scooping you up in his arms
Your legs around his waist like a koala, you’d smile, tugging at the drawstrings, “I wanna see you in this more often.”
“Come to the gym with me.” “Lol no.”
“I’d rather see you out of it anyway.” He’d blush as he held you, whispering your name like a blessing
He’d be loving and tender, surprisingly flushed as you’d worship his toned form under that crop
You’d have to try to keep cool if he wore it out, not only would it attract a lot of attention but he wouldn’t really realise
Jealousy wouldn’t really be the problem, it would be more to do with you not gawking at him all day lol
He’d ask you to wear one for him, too, making you flush with anticipation
Would tug at it with his teeth.
You explode
Belphegor 😴
You’d tend to the flyaways of his thick bangs, his head on your lap as your soft hands lull him to sleep
“Belphie?” “Hmm?” “Can I ask you something?” “Sure.”
You’d grow quiet, teeth sinking to your lower lip as you suddenly felt anxious to ask
He’d prop himself up with a yawn, at attention with dark brows,
“What is it?” It can’t be that bad, he thought
You’d realised as you were in the quiet if that attic that you’d only ever seen him in loose fitting and soft clothes
Your flustered cheeks would grow warmer at the thought of him in a tight crop...
His fingertips would caress your chin as gentle as the breeze, the depths of his eyes swimming, “Tell me what you’re thinking.”
You’d eventually utter, “I was wondering if you’d wear something for me... just to try it.”
His brows would raise in surprise, that wasn’t what he thought you’d say at all
At your darting eyes, he quickly melted into a suggestive smile, “What is it you want me to wear?”
His expression would harden slightly as you said ‘tight’, but he was surprisingly willing to hear you out
When you showed him what you had in mind, he was surprised once more, “huh... this one?” “MmmHmm.” “Sure.” “:D”
He’d shrug, much like Beel he’d have no qualms changing in front of you, which surprised you some
You were not complaining though...
It was an off the shoulder number, tight but not constrictive, just well fitted. Perfectly
You found yourself having to slam your jaw shut after gaping in surprise at his lean torso
He appeared almost bored until he noticed your state, his hand creeping to his cheek, “Like what you see, MC?”
He wanted to hear you say it out loud
‘Cause Damn... yes, yes you did like it
You couldn’t bring yourself to look away, getting more than you’d bargained for - your imagination didnt hold a candle to the real deal
“Come here.” He’d beckon, tearing you from your reverie
He’d hold you close, somewhere in your mind you’d register that you hadn’t seen this much skin of his... your cheeks heated at the thought for some reason
“I want you in one.” He’d say unabashedly, eyes pirecing yours
You’d gasp, trying not to think of a double meaning
His hands would roam your body with a hum when you did, rather enjoying it himself - suddenly understanding the appeal
Would tear yours
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I hope you enjoyed these as much as i enjoyed writing them lolol - when i do the Undateables lol stop it i will link the posts! Due to the nature of these HCs, i will NOT be posting for Luke, obviously. I’ll probs edit these but have them for now! ✨
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sprydecreates · 5 years
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‘babylove’?
requested: nope
warnings: nothing this is really cute (language is a given at this point)
pairings: tom holland x reader
type: fluff ; headcanon/list ; 2k+ words ; gender neutral
summary: it's the first time you visit the holland's at their home in london, and you're trying your hardest to impress everyone. you aren't tom's lover just yet, but it's obvious that you two fancy each other.
disclaimer: the depictions of tom holland and the holland family in this are of my own imagination. none of this is real!
a/n: another oldie of mine refurbished and posted here! back when my writing was Decent LOL.
p.s., the dialog isn’t like it is with my latest ones as in y/n gets italics and bold n everyone else just gets italics. it’s just emphasized when need be, and i thought it was alright that way. srry if it bothers anyone who reads my newer stuff!! adding in a disclaimer from now on too. never got someone thinking something was real, but it’s good to be prepared :-)
also, when i put things in parentheses, it's usually me putting in my reactions.
"PIP PIP 'N CHEERIO GOVENAH!"
"y/n we don't actually say that"
"tom, i have to get myself situated. with the boiling tea and crumpet chip biscuit whatevers.”
YEEHAW. you're traveling to meet tom's family back in london.
you've met harry, sam, and harrison already, but there were still three very important people to meet
you had met tom through a mutual actor friend who brought you on set one day
obviously it went like a fairy tale
your friend left you alone on set while they went to get snacks for you both
tom seen you, and came to tell you that only actors could be on set at that time
causing you to freak out, because UH, spider-man is speaking to you (ohMygOd, it'spEterparker)
which of course made tom cocky, and he was like "ayyyyy baby i'll give u an autograph"
then your friend came back and officially introduced you two
and tom saying "you're friends with y/f/n? i'm so sorry"
"i know. it's tragic."
"you two are perfect for each other" with an eye roll
so to say the least, you and tom had sparks from the beginning
not to mention the backhanded, sarcastic compliments that often lead to flirty and witty comebacks
"you're cute, for 5′8″.
"good thing you have a good personality because that outfit today was... :/"
"just wait until i see you again. you're dead, holland"
"well why don't you come over right now and show me what you'd do?”
going over to play wrestle until you dominate him and straddle his hips while your breath is hitched and he'd just look up at you like "holy fuck"
with the whole banter situation taking place, it kind of shocked you when tom asked you if you wanted to visit his family with him
like, REALLY took you off guard
because this was really domestic of him, and he hadn't really ever showed that side to you
but nonetheless, you took the opportunity
took a bit of persuading to get your family to allow you, but eventually, everyone agreed.
(boy it's a good thing you got that passport that you totally didn't get for the sole purpose of this occurring)
"as long as you call every morning and night, and text when necessary. and take pics."
lots of preparation through facetime
"i heard it's really fuckin' cold in england. should i pack a parka?"
"y/n it's not that cold. plus you won't need two."
"what do you mean i won't need two if i-"
in a thick accent "peta parka."
"...."
deep sigh
"can i get a refund for my ticket"
"don't think so, love" in a soft laughing tone
(AAAAHHHHHH)
after two or so weeks of packing and unpacking, and checking the checklist fifty times, it was finally time to depart to southwest london, darling
this boy got first class tickets for the both of you
or at least that's what he thought
he actually only got one for himself lmao
so instead, he swapped seats with the person beside you
oh my god shy hand holding on the plane would be expected
also cute little candids that would go up on each others instagrams wow
fast forward to arriving at the holland home
p.s., the entire car ride there was filled with little thigh touches to try and calm you down.
but that only made you more nervous because god have mercy this beautiful boy wasn't trying to act funny or anything like he usually acted, he was being genuine and that made your heart full
once at the door, you were greeted by nikki, dom, and a very excited tessa
"hello love! it's so nice to meet you! tom has told us SOOO mu-"
"DAD!!!!" would be said between clenched teeth while he would be blushing
with red cheeks of your own, you'd walk in to see the two brothers you had previously met, and a new face, who you recognized as paddy
sam and harry would say hello, but paddy would whisper yell to one of the brothers, "is that who tom calls his 'babylove'?"
both you and tom would just stand there, his jaw would drop and one of your eyebrows would raise up
and you'd turn to tom with a huge smile and just whisper "babylove?"and he'd blush even harder and be like "let me show you to your room!!!!!!!!!”
he'd bring you upstairs and into the guestroom so you could put your stuff up
then you'd follow him to his old room, and you'd sit on his bed and just have a look around while he piled his clothes into a hamper
hear me out
there would be little spider-man symbols across the wall, with some football flags strung up every so often
and you'd be like "you really weren't lying about your obsession with spidey, huh?"
and he'd come and sit beside you and shrug while looking at his old decorations
you'd lean in and give him a lil kiss on the cheek before saying "it's really cute, tom." and he'd immediately light up and become a shy baby
then you'd hear footsteps coming up the stairs, and you'd pull away from each other with cute little grins
sam would look in and be like "mom wants to know what ya want for dinner"
and tom would turn to you and be like "well?"
and you'd insist that he choose, since he hasn't been home in awhile
he'd say something he heard you talking about wanting to try
sam would leave and then you'd just nonchalantly grab tom's hand and follow sam down
once down there, you'd be met by the family, minus nikki and sam who would venture into the kitchen
you'd let go of tom's hand, and sit by paddy on the couch
little conversations would start up from dom
literally just things like "so tom said you can sing" and "tom said you guys met through a friend of yours?"
he wouldn't even have to ask you questions directly because tom has told them virtually everything because the boy was swoon as fuck
but after a little while of tom and the rest of the family in sight getting caught up, you decided to slip out of view yourself and join nikki and sam in the kitchen
a "hey sweetheart! whatcha need?" coming from nikki
but you'd be like "i just wanted to know if you guys wanted an extra hand?"
sam would be like "hell yea y/n knows how ta cook"
but nikki would be like "that's alright, it's our pleasure to treat a guest of tom's! thank you though, that's really sweet"
so you'd walk back into the living room after a few "are you sure?"'s
and dom would be like "kicked out of the kitchen?" with a small laugh
and you'd answer with "yeah. you holland's are stubborn."
which would definitely make tom pout, and your response would be to pat his cheek and say "pouting wont exclude you," followed with a quiet "babylove." while you dropped your hand
some time passed before nikki and sam returned, and nikki said dinner would be ready in about thirty minutes
those thirty minutes consisted of the family sharing embarrassing stories about tom
and him eventually hiding his red cheeks in the crook of your neck (sweet god)
soon, the timer went off and everyone made their way into the kitchen and got their plates
tbh i see the family taking all the seats around tom, so you'll get to sit in between dom and nikki
(i'd love that holy shit)
after dinner, you helped wash the dishes. that earned major brownie points from nikki and sam
it was getting kind of late, so the family suggested watching a movie or two together
oh my god tom would take you upstairs again and tell you to change into your pajamas because that was a tradition for movie night
wearing batman pajama bottoms knowing it would tease him
him refusing to let you go downstairs before changing into a pair of his spider-man bottoms
giving in once he gives you the puppy dog eyes while his forehead is pressed against yours
watching some sort of proper english movie because it was your first time visiting
angus, thongs and perfect snogging came into mind
harry loudly asking if you and tom ever snogged like that
cuddling with tom under a big blanket
when the family started to get a little drowsy, they decided to call it a night
everyone started to head upstairs, and you and tom did the same after grabbing a few snacks and some drinks
once in his room, you'd sit on his bed and just smirk at him until he'd ask what was up
and you'd immediately be like "what's up with this lovey dovey side of you? you usually act like a sarcastic shit around me"
he'd just look down and press his hand against the nape of his neck and mumble "i like you"
and you'd say "well i got that part awhile ago"
but he'd sit there for a few seconds, trying to think of a way to say what he had in mind. he finally sighed and spoke out to you, "i mean, i think i'm falling in love with you"
and you'd sit there with your lips parted, and your eyes darting back and forth between his
he'd start to blabber on about how it was just a strategy that he used because he didn't know how to show you how he really, truly felt
and you'd cut him off, and say "can i kiss you?"
and a few seconds of silence would take place before he would cup your cheeks and empty all the passion he held in his body out in one single kiss, while you would do the same
after you both pull away, he'd lower his hands and you'd both just sit and stare at each other
you'd raise your hand up and cup his cheek and rub your thumb across his cheekbone
eventually, you would say you're tired, and press a small kiss against his lips before getting up and heading for the door
"goodnight, thomas."
"goodnight, y/full/n."
shutting the door and doing a happy dance all the way to the guest room
it's sunday morning, and you couldn't get any more sleep in due to the kiss from the night before still swimming through your memory
finally deciding on getting up and cooking breakfast for everyone to return all the love you were given the day before
carefully sneaking down to the kitchen
taking a long ass time to find all the ingredients you initially needed (oils, other stuff)
googling measurement equals because what american knows european measurements off the tom of their head
deciding on making some fancy omelette roll ups you once had with your actor friend
taking so much time to make everything perfect
when you finished making the omelette's, along with some other sides, you would set everything out for easy serving, and then you would head upstairs again
since it was a sunday, everyone slept in
you'd gently knock on everyone's door, and say breakfast was waiting for them downstairs
but when you got to tom's door, you'd softly knock before heading on in
tom would be sleeping on the side of the bed that faced the window, and you would walk over to that side and crouch down
you would subconsciously lay your bent arm on the bed by toms face, and lay your head on your arm. you'd raise your free hand up to toy with a few loose curls while you looked over his features
he'd eventually wake up, and smile in a way that was really wide, but evidently tired
he would kiss your forehead and say "what a good way to wake up; an angel playing with my hair." you'd giggle really quietly and stand up while saying "c'mon, babylove. i've made breakfast."
and he'd pull you down onto the bed with him, and pepper little kisses against your shoulders, collarbones, neck, and cheeks before pressing a lingering kiss to your lips!!!
while he rested his forehead against yours, you decided to confess something you totally forgot to last night, "by the way," you'd say in a really soft voice while swiping a messy curl from his temple, "i think i'm falling in love with you, too."
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The House of the Witch
A lad stopped in front of the iron railing. He’s your regular high school teen in search of excitement. Beyond the fence, the impressive building of “Madison House” surrounded by the vast land. He got off his bike while looking around warily.  
“PRIVATE PROPERTY. KEEP OUT. NO TRESPASSING”. It could be read in the tattered sing. A black hood covered his head and a dark ski mask hid from his nose down, so his hazel eyes is the only you can see of his face. He pulled back the hood and wiped his sweaty forehead with his hand, now it could be seen his brown hair with golden highlights nicely styled in a man bun. He took a deep breath while replaced the hood on his head. Then he pushed the rusty fence and biked forward with determination…
 Three days earlier
Four teens were walking by the town.
-I assure none of the Bakers lives there any longer–stated Samantha.
-My dad says the family’s living out of town now, but they still own the land –said Lynda.  
-Why don’t they sell it? –asked Fabian.
-Perhaps they’re thinking in fix it and rent it –deduced Lynda.
-Bullshit! –said Fabian-. They didn’t even take care of the house.  
-No one’s gonna buy it ‘cause of the “witch” –Samantha whispered.  
The four kids kept silence for few seconds.
-Last week the janitor’s son tried to cut the grass and he couldn’t… - said Samantha. She and Fabian chuckled mischievously.
-Please guys… -said Peter-. Officer Paterson arrested him for violation.
-It hasn’t sense –protested Samantha-. The grass is actually very grown and he’s not a stranger. They don’t want nobody get inside the house.  
-Some people say it’s haunted –said Lynda.
- You won’t believe in that, will you? –taunted Samantha-. Hey guys, it’s just a myth!  
Lynda and Peter exchanged doubtful looks. Fabian sniggered.  
-Mister Baker’s grandmother was the daughter of a witch –said Samantha.
-No! –interrupted Lynda-. She was blamed of witchcraft, but she was innocent.
-How you know it, dear? –asked Samantha-. You were there?
-Many women accused of witchcraft were innocent –said Lynda-. At least, it’s what my mom says; she and Mrs. Baker were friends. And she also said that Mr. Baker’s aunt brought the ashes of the witch, six months before they moved.  
-Don’t you think it’s… weird? –asked Peter trying to conceal his unease.  
-Hey, guys, is Halloween! -said Samantha-. “Madison House” is creepy. I think it’s a good challenge. Thirty bucks for the “Keep out” sing.
-That’s too easy –replied Fabian.
-This isn’t easy –retorted Peter-. We better look for another challenge. We don’t want Officer Paterson arresting us for trespassing.
-Yeah, Fabian’s right… -accepted Samantha-. What if… taking a higher risk?
-For example? -asked Fabian with interest.
-The numbers on the door –suggested Samantha.
-I bring you the number and you spend the Halloween night with me in “Madison House”… alone -added Fabian.
-Mmm… deal! –accepted Samantha with a naughty sparkle in her eyes.  
 The Halloween Night
It’s still afternoon, so the people is preparing all stuff for the night. A thin, agile figure crossed the streets in a bike. The face was hidden behind a ski mask and a hood. It’s dressed with navy t-shirt, black jacket, dark pants and red Vans. It stopped in front of the railing entrance of “Madison House” properties. The surroundings were lonely, as expected. The hood is pulled back and the ski mask removed from the face: it’s Fabian. His hazel eyes stared at the old building with awe…
He opened the railing door, got on his bike again and quickly rushed by the path toward the uninhabited house. He felt a strange sensation in the air, but he blamed the anxiety. He left his bike on the overgrown grass and then his slender figure reached the doorway. Old remains, broken windows, dead leaves and others things scattered all around.
The main door was shut. Fabian took a screwdriver out of the rear pocket of his pants and began to pull the number out with the tip of the tool. The number was pushed out of its stud and fell down the floor. He heard a voice and turned around: a bus and two cars went by the street, nothing else. Fabian bent over to pick up the number and, surprisingly, the solid door opened. It came into view a huge hall covered with dust.  
The boy glanced inside the hall with a mix of curiosity and dread. He walked two, three steps inside.  
-Hello?!... –he asked. His voice echoed through the hall unearthly.
No answer. Just a mild sound of sleeves and the whispering breeze. The daylight gave way to the darkness beyond the hall. That fainted voiced made him stare back again. Now he could swear he vaguely heard his name. Proud of himself, Fabian walked back while kept the number in his pocket, but before reaching his bike he was seized from behind and shoved inside the house abruptly. He gripped the doorframe as tight as he could, but he was pulled with incredible force. He looked back and there was no one, just a black cloud that took form in a terrible face…
-AAAHHHHHH…AAAAHHHHHH…AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH…!!!!!!!      
Fabian was thrust toward the hall and the main door got again closed, his hopeless screams were fading within the walls…
 Sybil the witch
The intruder was dragged by the dusty floor of “Madison House”. It suddenly stopped. He stood up in a hurry and ran toward the door when his eyes collided with the most hair-raising sight he’d seen in his short life. A humanoid figure was floating above the floor; it seemed to be a woman with long hair and a white gown. Two blazing embers in the center of her face petrified him. The figure charged toward the boy and enfolded him. He emitted a cry before shut his eyes and passed out…
The black cloud gently lifted the out cold lad and placed him in a bed. It took a female form and caressed Fabian’s boyish face. She took his black jacket off, then his shirt. Fabian had a lean pale torso and his nipples showed sweet rosy areolas. A few hairs covered his chest and ran down the flat belly to the navel. She unlaced his Vans and gently removed them off his feet. A distinctive smell wafted from his Vans that made her drag her attention to the lad’s feet. His white socks were damp with sweat and somewhat dirty on the bottom. She rolled the pants out his legs. His boxers and socks were off too, leaving him in his birthday suit.  
She got fascinated at the view of her prey, so tender, so innocent, which made him even more adorable. Fresh meat to devour. However she weren’t going to wolf him down nor drink his blood; she wanted something else from him. She brought his forearms above the head. Then stretched the legs and separated the ankles from each other, so that he adopted the form of an X on the bed. She stroked lovingly his head trying not to ruin the cute bun on his hair.
For some odd reason, the witch got devotedly mesmerized with the feet of her victim. Fabian’s were lean just like his frame, about size 10, they had a wonderful narrow shape, milky arches with crisscrossed patterns tending to wrinkle when the feet scrunch; the toes were lanky and knuckly with very tender gaps between them. The toe tips, ball of the feet and heels were silky smooth and deliciously pink. The toenails were clean and trimmed. Unlike most of bikers and skaters’ feet, Fabian’s were unusually soft; his soles were unblemished and free of calluses, obviously because of comfy sneakers and lots of boy foot sweat acting as natural lotion. Such feet couldn’t have been born except to be tickled.  
The witch gently slid one finger by Fabian’s sole from toes to heel. This foot immediately twitched and, interestingly, the other foot also shook in a sort of sympathetic reaction. He burped a childish giggle in his unconsciousness. It was really funny to see the way Fabian wiggled his long toes.
She now scratched the other sole, his giggles got clear but he stayed out-of-the-world with a big smile in his cute-boy face. His lanky toes looked like crazy worms as the witch dragged her nails in between them and the length of his super tender soles. She pricked his rosy heels with her sharp nails and reflexively the toes fanned out very wide so that she could see how long this boy’s toes really were. She rested her nose over them and inhaled deeply: a pungent smell of restless, sweaty feet filled her nostrils. Then she licked those toes and soles lavishly to taste their flavor.
By ancient experience the witch knew that there is a secret link between the feet and the genitals in the man body, so when his soles and toes are meticulously tickled, the nervous overload may tend to be unleashed through powerful orgasms. And since such natural reaction was having effect on the healthy young Fabian, the witch knew what’s going to happen to him as soon as she noticed his cock getting stiffen till resemble a raging missile ready to shoot.
She kept gliding his nails along his soles and in between his toes: now his testicles began to jump inside the scrotum. The witch stayed tickling Fabian’s feet and he stayed giggling silly like a baby. His breathing got a characteristic pace; his lips trembled and his face was contorted. His nipples got hard and his mouth opened in a strange grimace. Within few minutes, the slit of his swollen penis opened wide and started releasing semen, creamy and abundant that went by his chest like a river and poured down by a side to the sheet. None of his previous wet dreams had been so thrilling and breathtaking…
The witch licked avidly the semen splattered all over the lad’s chest.    
A high-spirited music came from a pocket of his discarded pants. Guiding by the loud sound the monster caught Fabian’s phone in her creepy hands. It was Samantha, wanting to know if the mission was accomplished. There were some messages about their private meeting tonight. The monster showed her teeth in a horrific smile and left the phone on the clothes.  
Still deep in his unconsciousness, Fabian didn’t feel how the sheets took the shape of hands and grasped his wrists and ankles.
Sometime later the lad gave sings of waking up. He found himself in an unfamiliar bedroom.
-Where am I…?
The sun beams going inside through broken windows, lighting up a room long time unused made him realized that he was still in “Madison House”. He tried to stand, but he couldn’t move his arms.
-What the hell…? Why I can’t move…??
Fabian tossed his head and looked around. He tried to get free, but to no avail; his wrists and ankles were held in place by robust knots formed by the sheets, so he noticed that he was stark naked.
-HOLY SHIT…! -he gasped, reluctant to believe. Who had stripped him off? He fought to pull out of those knots, again without success. He recognized that those weren’t knots, but looked like… hands! Some more hands rose from the sheets and grabbed around his elbows, knees and waist. His heart was racing at top speed now.
-I see you’re awake my little sweetie –said a female voice.  
The hairs on his neck stood on end as a chill went through his spine.
-Wh-who a-are you? –his terrified wide eyes were searching everywhere.  
-I’m Sybil, the witch... and this is my home… -the voice said.
A dark fog emerged from the shadows, taking a woman form. The figure floated on top of the bed and brought her face close to the lad’s. Fabian was going to die; he closed his eyes and just stayed there, froze.
She smiled and started running her fingers all over his torso.
-No-ha…no…nohahaha…hahaha…ohho…noohonono… itti… it titickles-sss… ohh-hohohononoo… I WANNA GO HOME! HELP ME!!! AAAWWHHHH!!!
He unleashed a sudden piercing scream when his armpits were attacked. Anguished laughter echoed through the bedroom as her hands rubbed and danced over the soft skin of his armpits. No matter how strong he pulled on his arms and legs, the sheets held them tight.
-HAHAHAHAA!! PLEASE LET ME GO!!… LET ME GO!!… LET ME GOO!!!!
His screams turned overwhelming panic when he saw another two identical women joining to the torment and offered their wicked fingers to “caress” his defenseless body. Now his torso, sides and belly were purposely tickled. He answered with a burst of hearty boyish laughter gusted out of his wide open mouth. The ladies smiled as if they were listening music.  
Fabian had been ticklish his whole childhood; his mom and others close relatives played tickling with him when he was younger, he’d always could endure it quite well and even loved being tickled. Nonetheless, what he was feeling under the witches’ clutches right now was BEYOND all he’d felt before. It’s as if the witches were touching directly his nerve-endings with some kind of electric source and it was getting worse with each touch.
-SHIHIHAHAHAHAHA!!!! IIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI!!! OUGHHUHUHUHUHU!!! AAWWWWWHHAHAHAHAHA!!!! EEWWWWHHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEE!!!! PLEEZHEHEZEEZEHEEEHEE LET ME GOHOHOHOHOOOO!!!
Every part of his willowy flesh released a different tone of laughter when it’s stroked. At the time there was four women working on him; two at his armpits, neck and face; the others two were tickling his sides, chest and stomach, so devotedly, so tenaciously that they all seemed to perform a concert, playing their instruments with perfect skill and he was the singer, doing the only thing he could do: laugh, laugh and laugh as strong as he could to at least alleviate a bit the increasing torment he was undergoing.
The unlucky teen didn’t know why all that cruelty was thrown upon him. He only knew that all this torment was consuming his strength and he was about to lose his mind. But, poor thing, those monsters didn’t know pity and they weren’t going to free him soon. And since no one knew he was there, no help was on the way for him.
Then all of a sudden, ten hands, fifty evil fingers assaulted the young flesh in unison. A lady was now gliding her lips over his face and neck while another slid her tongue over his chest and stomach and a third one relished herself licking his left armpit. The others two ladies added her tongues to the right armpit. The feelings got now a never-reached level of excruciating intensity. Those tongues had something unnatural that engulfed his nerves in a hell of sensations, totally incomprehensible for the human flesh. Sort of nerve-eating waves swept his nervous system, bringing him to the edge of collapse.  
Fabian was in absolute hysterics. One thing is that he felt agonizingly ticklish, but now, in this place, incapable of escape and stark naked, every single touch of those vicious creatures sent him into paroxysms of helpless laughter and involuntary spasms which menaced to dislodge his thin body and drive him to insanity or worst: his death.
Without notice Fabian felt the ominous torture was subsiding. When it finally stopped, he thanked God amid panting and coughing. He was too terrified and confused that he couldn’t form a coherent thought in his mind. However he felt as if he’s going to sleep for a whole month, but “the calm” lasted only a moment.
With his face and eyes bathed in sweat and tears he made out that the witches had retreated to his lower legs. He gasped and heaved, fearing the next target. He was painfully right: two witches crouched at the end of the bed and started to lick the soles of his feet like cats lapping a bowl of milk. Fabian felt as if waves of electric current were running through his young body: he began to convulse and howl in complete madness.
-NOAAAHAHAHAHAHATHATTICKLESTOOMUCH!!!! NOOHONOT ON MY FEET!!! NAHAHAHAHAHA!!! NO STOP! NOT MY FEET!!!! NEHEHEHEHE!!!! HIHIHIHEHEHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! NONONOHEHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! I CANT STAND IT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! PLEASENOHEHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!
The witch had an accurate knowledge about the male body, so she focused her malice right here. Fabian writhed and squirmed hopelessly, the tongues kept licking at the exposed bottoms of his feet, between his wiggling toes, up the arches, making him laugh helplessly and beg for stopping! No stop. No lessen. No mercy. All he could do was receive, endure and laugh his head off as if it was the end of the world. His wide open mouth dribbling, his lungs burning for air, his riotous guffaws echoing within the enormous house just like a banshee in hell. 
-The pink of your soles… oh the pink of your soles…
The witches made a leg-lock around his calves and held his toes back to make the soles stretched and taut. Then they devoted to scratch their fingernails the length of that super tender skin. Those evil nails travelled along his helpless soles with greed, not making any harm, just sliding gently over the delicate skin. Fabian bucked and pulled with all his youth might. Her fingers scratched the lad’s naked soles harder and faster as if her earthly presence totally depended on it.
-BHWAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!! AWWWHUHA-HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!!! PLHEHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! ICAHAHAHAANHNTT AWUAAAAHAHHHPLEHEHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!
The witches in his chest used her tongue to tickle his nipples with abandon. And with abandon the laughter poured out of him in response. Another lady came to deal with his groin and thighs. She slid her feathery fingers randomly around his penis and testicles. Thanks to the tight sheets he had little room to thrash around, so his exposed hips and sides received the whole treatment for long long time. Another lady twirled a finger into his navel. He tilted his head back and laughed without control. Meanwhile, she used her other hand to scribble down his belly: his flat stomach started bouncing like a jelly in an earthquake.
Meanwhile his teen cock was again ready to shoot his load.
The witch got oh so wicked! His whole body was shaking and his feet twitched wildly due to the way those fingernails and tongues treated his soles and toes. It was enough to drive him beyond madness. He was swimming in sweat, convulsing and braying with laughter. Every now and then his armpits were also tormented as well as his sides, ribs and belly.
On and on the foot-tickling continued, Fabian could only thrash his head about as he was tickle tortured with the cruelty that only displays the creatures from hell. On the screen of his phone was shown the picture of a naughty Samantha smiling to the camera. If she just could hear his desperate gales of laughter…
-NEAAAAEEEHAHAHAHAHEHEHEHEHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!! NOOOOOHOHOHOHOHOOOHAAHAHA!!!! STAP PLEEEHEHEHEHEZZZZE I CAHAHAHAANHNN’T TAKE IT!!!! AHHHNOOOAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! PLEEEEESE!!! STOHOHOP! AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!
The witch relished nibbling and munching his super ticklish soles.
-AAAWWWWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAHAHAA!!!!!
Minutes later, he came again. The foot-tickling never stopped.
-NOOOOOOOHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!
Sometime later, he came again, but the tickling torture went on…
-PLEEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEZHEZHEZHEZHEZHEZHEZHEZZZ!!!!!!
Outside the magnificent old building, the silence reigned peacefully, like in some bucolic portrait of a charming town. A sign half hidden amid the overgrown grass on the railings says:
 “WARNING - NO ENTRY - TRESPASSERS WILL BE TICKLED TO DEATH”
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LYON II PATHCODES VOL. II
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ACT III./Pt II. “Cucumber Melon”
Length - 6,603
Mood - Disenchanted, Wearied
Pairing - Baekhyun x Reader
“Losing my breath
At your glance, my world stops
My heart is true, trust me
A burning passion
I’ll stake it all for you
There’s no other way
You know it…”
“Ice Queen” by Baekhyun
Present Day
“_____? The water is boiling. I can finish up in here with the tea if you’re going to be awhile!” _____ (Marseille Reader) called out to you from her kitchen.
You stared at the vomit swirling in the toilet as you flushed for the second time, and waited for the telltale hiss to subside before washing your hands at the already running faucet.
Oh God Oh God Oh God Oh God Oh no Oh God
“_____?” She (Marseille Reader) gently rapped at the door and tried the door knob.
“Sorry, I’ll be right there!” You answered and heard her soft “ok” before her footsteps receded back out into the hall again.
You washed your face clear of vomit and washed your hands for a third time before picking up the tube of her toothpaste. Unscrewing the cap, you squeezed a glob onto your finger and scrubbed at your teeth, and gargled mouthwash in a cycle of two.
You turned to look at the bottle of her cucumber melon shampoo whose cap had not been closed properly atop her bathroom vanity. One whiff of that as soon as you entered the bathroom had you running for the toilet.
I’m pregnant. I’m definitely pregnant again.
Cucumbers had never been your favorite vegetable though you had never had a particular aversion to them either. It was not until much later in life that you were very strict about not having anything to do with the scent and sight of cucumbers in your home even though it didn’t affect you. Yet.
The only extreme reaction you had ever had to the scent of cucumbers had been over a year ago during dinner with Jongdae and Baekhyun before he had temporarily moved to Almaty for their first gig.
You had ordered in from The Beef Club to celebrate, and after setting the table, abruptly vacated the area, leaving an equally stunned Baekhyun and Jongdae in shock, after smelling the cucumber ribbons you had specifically requested not be included in your summer spinach salad order. Baekhyun spotted them just as you lurched up and away from the table, his fork in hand to pick the ribbons from your plate, clattered to the floor as he hopped up to run after you.
“Poor jagi doesn’t like them anymore than I do now,” Baekhyun cooed as he came in behind you to help you clean up.
He held your hair back from your face as you vomited, rubbing your back until you dry heaved and sat back against him, his hand still at your back.
But after your solo appointment with your gynecologist later that week, you knew that was true in more ways than one.
The notion of this possible second pregnancy both horrified and delighted you all at the same time.
You couldn’t imagine this possibly being the best time to announce such news.
_____________
“Madame, Mr. Byun left with Mr. Byun and YunHee this morning. I have begun to pack your things for the week as he instructed,” your butler informed you upon your arrival by taxi that Sunday afternoon from ____’s (Marseille Reader’s) apartment.
“Yes I spoke with my mother on my way in. Both she and my in-laws are at Grandmother’s house and I will join them later this afternoon. I do however have a conference call scheduled...if you wouldn’t mind continuing to help me with my things?” She had greeted you at your front door, and quickly shared the week’s events planned in anticipation of your participation before dismissing herself at your request to continue with her work.
She dismissed herself down the hall ahead of you where you heard her dismiss the nanny from YunHee’s room.
“Monsieur already packaged all of her needs. You may tend to the laundry.”
Outside the gardener waved through the window.
You were still reeling from the earful your mother gave you.
“Why would you cause us to worry like this, ____? I cannot imagine what could have happened. Darling why couldn’t you come to me instead of taking off in the night?! What if something happened to YunHee? Baekhyun would never forgive himself-”
“Why are you defending him as if I am the only one in the wrong?! I’m not some spoiled brat-”
“Oh? And running away in the middle of the night says otherwise? ____, I will not tolerate this. What is so difficult to resolve-”
“Why do I have to resolve this issue with him?”
“Can it be such an unforgivable thing?!? I can hardly believe that. You will come to his grandparents’ this weekend” she demanded with a shout before hanging up, something she had never done even when you had pissed her off as a younger girl.
It was intolerable to be alone in this house with your solitary thoughts a moment longer but you would wait to finish the conference call here before joining the ambush you were sure this meeting at his grandparents’ house would be. After a moment of pacing from the foyer to the entrance of your family wing, you decided to wait for the call from ______ (Berlin Reader) and the others in the home office you still hadn’t finished designing.
You continued to pace the floor even in the office, stopping at the half unwrapped mirror leaned against the nude wall as you caught your reflection, and the memories of your crazed trek through the dark of your rural community to the greater city resurfaced.
You looked as though you were one of the Wild Hunt, suspiciously returning to a vacant castle whose master and mistress were exposed and impotent.
“Let me shower first,” you whispered to your own reflection, your eyes descending for a moment to your belly.
I even took you out there with me.
What if something had happened to us?
Again in the hall, you made your way to your bedroom, pausing at YunHee’s opened door to see her room neatly clear of the toys she would usually pull out to play with by this time of the morning.
He took everything she needed.
Even toys that she sometimes had difficulty describing with what primary sign language she had been learning with her speech and music therapist who made frequent house calls outside of her regular office visits when necessary.
After washing up and approving the bag packed by your butler that she brought to the front door to wait for you, you returned to the home office, dressed in an acceptable sundress and blazer to greet your family later on, in time to see ____ (Berlin Reader’s) name flash across your phone’s screen.
When you answered you heard a collective welcoming of cheerful, well rested voices.
“Hello everyone. Just wanted to update you all about an event coming up in the next month or so. Remember we had discussed a possible business package in tandem with a women’s seminar. Will all of you still be able to attend?,” she inquired, the sound of a pen scribbling on paper sounding in your ears at her brief pause.
“Mhm, we’ll be there,” _____ (Almaty Reader) chimed in immediately, speaking for _____ (OG Arizona Reader) who was listening in from her line.
____ (Marseille Reader) texted you asking you if you made it back home as she responded to the group line, “I’ll be there.”
“I’m back home, yea. Heading to grandparents in a little while.”
“I will have to see now that I’m back in town. There are some things that I need to take care of later this afternoon,” you were the last to answer.
“Oh damn…that’s sudden?”
“I should have known it would happen tho.”
“I do want to bring ____ (Yúnnan Reader) into the fold on this one because of her expertise. I’m not sure if you have all reviewed her numbers outside of Pathcodes but if you haven’t she is well connected and resourceful. She has quite a lot to offer to this conference. I’d like to put her to the test, if we are all in agreement?”
The decision to allow the trial was unanimous and so _____ (Berlin Reader) continued.
“Ok. We will reconvene by phone or email later this week or next week. I’d like to conference in the rest of our women’s board once there has been an adjustment period,” she stated before ending the call, wishing you all well in your coming week.
_____________
You knew this winding road.
The tall canopied trees.
The sound of this wind empty of other street noise and industrial chatter whipping past.
A breath of fresh, purified country air.
The eventual break of the long winding path to a house set back within a surrounding forever summer garden.
The fragrant roses planted closer to the door every year by grandfather on white day.
You had been out to their house plenty of times.
During the holidays.
On anniversaries.
Birthdays.
When family came into town.
It had always been a welcome space for you.
A familiar extension of him.
Your butler had been given instructions to drive you there in the staff car since Baekhyun had taken the family car.
You saw it parked in the circular brick drive and heard a familiar cry as you pulled your purse strap over your shoulder and opened the door.
“Aaaahhhhhh!! Maaaaa!!” She squealed happily as she came tumbling out the front door, her grandfather on her heels as she went, his huffed “조심해, 꼬마야! 조심해야 해!”
She slowed to a stop, her tutu flouncing down in a whoosh at her abrupt halt, as you dropped to your knees to embrace her, your entire world.
“Hello my beautiful, beautiful darling,” you whispered against her hair, kissing her hands, her cheeks, her closed tearful eyes.
She wriggled as you tried to hold her still against you and you knew that if she had the words to say it that she would tell you that you upset her by being gone all night long.
You could feel her little finger drawing her long syllabled protest against your cheek, letter by letter.
“I’m sorry I was gone. I’m sorry,” you whispered against her ear, feeling her little hands grab as much as she could of you, trying to pull herself up higher into your embrace.
“안녕하세요, 아버지, 건강하세요?” You said after standing and giving a cordial bow to your father-in-law who greeted you as always, with a small smile.
“저는 건강합니다. 집에 오신 걸 환영합니다, 딸,” he beckoned you forward with a slight tipping of his downturned hand and you went in obediently behind him with YunHee’s hand in yours.
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Your mother and mother-in-law both waited for you in the family den, anchoring grandmother who was nestled between them, their cups of tea on the low rise table before them.
They chattered noisily amongst themselves, a clucking of hens you once fondly dubbed the trio.
YunHee trilled in greeting, announcing her and your return, her voice rising in volume as she bounced around the sofa where her father sat with his back facing you.
You saw her sign to him happily, “Mommy is home.”
And when he asked her, her ever watchful eyes focused on his delicate fingers fluttering soundlessly, “are you happy?” she nodded and danced in her seat.
“Mother, Mother, Grandmother,” you tried to smile calmly as you spoke your greetings to each of them.
You stood just to the side of the sofa, remaining on your feet where he sat.
You caught your mother’s eyes as you approached.
Her gaze scaled you, appraising the distance you kept from him and your daughter.
“Get ready,” her unshakable gaze warned.
You greeted grandmother and mother-in-law in a similar fashion as you had greeted father-in-law before stepping closer to the sofa beside Baekhyun who was cuddling with YunHee.
She stood on the sofa to kiss his cheek and he turned into her kiss to blow a raspberry against her nose making her squeal even more.
“Pa pa ahhhh!” She chanted, dancing, swaying her hips side to side where he held her close to him, his back to you.
“We prepared lunch YunHee! Let’s go make a spot for Mommy now that she’s here!” Your mother called to her granddaughter approaching Baekhyun who raised her up into her grandmother’s arms to be carried away.  
Grandmother, mother and father-in-law all followed along, their carefree chatter escaping to the inner patio dining area where more white day roses waited.
You kept your gaze to the floor as you took the seat beside him but now that all distractions were gone, you turned to him to find his eyes trained on the now displaced cups of tea that had been such well placed props.
What exuberant life he had embodied in Yun Hee’s presence was forbidding, and listless now that he was left alone with you.
You contemplated telling him now that they had gone but felt the thought twisting your mouth shut.
“YunHee wouldn’t stop crying all night. I wanted to come get you this morning but she wouldn’t let me leave her alone for even a moment-”
“But you’re her father that’s-”
He sucked in a breath, exhaling sharply as a burst of tears and a cry finally forced their way out of his pressed lips.
He clapped his hands over his mouth at his tormented outburst, closing his eyes as he frantically tried to compose himself.
“I’m glad you’re alright,” was all he said, his tone stricken, after a moment longer of your halted silence before he stood, swiping his tear stained hands along his thighs, pulling nervously at the sleeves of his newly dry cleaned trench coat as he went and followed the trail your family had left.
If he had waited, you would have tucked his hair at the nape of his neck where his collar rose.
But he didn’t wait for you.
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He sat beside you where YunHee placed him at the dining table, who swallowed every bite whole, and squealed between sips of milk, and clapped and danced all the while she ate, but was careful not to let his body brush or linger against yours.
He leaned away as you leaned forward to wipe her mouth with her napkin.
To offer her more food.
To mind her chewing.
To beg her to please sit down.
To smile at her playful twirling of her fork.
To comb her hair back into the French braid her father had done.
He had even threaded the ribbon through it like she liked.
She had seen you braid it like that once and demanded to have it that way for any special occasion ever since.
“I want that,” was one of the very first phrases she learned to sign and that was the first thing she requested.
Baekhyun had sent you a video when she first accomplished it that you stopped to watch on your way home from the office.
You remembered his tearful voice asking her to show him again and again as she pointed to a picture from one of your first anniversaries together where your hair had been done.  
“Ahhh wahhh daaa!” She exclaimed a final time in a triumphant tone and her father cheered and cheered before putting the phone down to run and grab the comb and brush and ribbons from your bedroom vanity where you kept them.
He let the phone record though they were out of focus while he sang to her when making bunny eared loops of ribbon and when he tied her shoes before they got up to dance.
“산토끼 토끼야
어디를 가느냐
깡총깡총 뛰면서
어디를 가느냐
산고개 고개를
나혼자 넘어서
토실토실 알밤을
주워서 올테야”
You felt the degree of heat in your cheeks rise the more you tried to keep your gaze trained on the second helpings of food you served him without looking at him whenever he asked for more.
“Here ____. You can serve,” your mother would prompt you the moment his request passed his lips, her hand pressing the cool steel of the ladle into your hand.
You kept your eyes on the ladle, shifting them only to his plate, avoiding their eyes, also.
It was pitiful.
It really must have been.
To watch you both.
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She napped immediately after brunch, again as she had been all afternoon, between you both, bringing you closer together to hold her up, with her lips pressed against your stomach where her younger sibling began to breathe with her arm around her father’s waist, his hand caressing her hair and back, careful to avoid bumping against you.
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After a bitter rebuke from grandmother, “right now it does not matter whether you are comfortable discussing this with us being present. We have YunHee to be concerned with now,” Baekhyun finally looked at you.
In all the days and nights that had belonged to you two alone, you had never seen the depth of panic you saw in his eyes.
And you were sorry.
You were sorry to see the prince of stained glass you epitomized, shattered before you and undone into this very broken, fearful, desperate man.  
Grandmother insisted that you went first.
And you respected her wish.
“I have always known that you loved me first. From the moment you saw me even. I was a heart that you aimed to possess. I knew you could provide for me. That you would take care of me. But I was never sure that I could ever feel safe with you…”
You took your time, unearthing what remained unspoken, seeing the cracks in his heart deepening the more you shared.
Seeing the iciness of every word that left your lips steadily building a rising barrier between you.
You coolly doled out mortar where he laid bricks.
“When YunHee was born it couldn’t have been at a more confusing time for us. We had just gotten engaged and still weren’t sure what we wanted in our relationship. Whether we were ready to move into a house from my old apartment or not. Yes, we knew that we belonged together and that is still very true. There is no one in the world that I could love, the way that I love you Baekhyun. But-”
His unsettled tears stopped you.
And where you paused, he began to speak.
“I always knew that one day I would fail you. I knew one day that no matter how much I loved you that I would make a mistake that you would never forgive me for. I knew you were waiting for me to fail you. And my anxiety over the years is not something I can blame anyone but myself for.”
“I shouldn’t have played that role. You never explicitly asked to fill the role but then again you did. I had to be worthy of you. And I wanted you to love me. I didn’t want to possess you. I never wanted that. I thought I could beat the odds. I thought that if I did what you needed and I proved you wrong then maybe one day you would accept me as the man that I am. I was hoping that one day you would stop treating me like your father and that you would finally see me as your husband, and your life partner,” he kept his eyes on you as his tears fell.
And you couldn’t discern what was worse to endure.
Your truths, finally, simultaneously, pushed out and through to the surface, their dreadful petals made bare in this summer garden of love in front of your mutual, unassuming family, with your children at the foot of it, helpless.
Or
The way that his eyes watched as you finally came into realization of how he actually saw you.
How he had always seen you.
Not the princess destined, as you’d always believed, for her fated prince.
But an ice queen in form and shape only dressed as a princess.
They shifted uncomfortably as they waited for either of you to continue.
They had been accomplices to his misadventures in this hapless affair.
Cheering on his every attempts to melt the ice from your heart.
What must they, all of them, have thought of his daring summit?
They had goaded him on day after day and year after year to amount to what?
Your rage from the night before shuffled forth to the forefront emboldening you.
You felt it rising in you as if it were a weapon raised and poised to strike.
Did they all see you as some monstrous beast to contain?
Were you the very ice dragon guarding the catacombs below that the prince dueled to win his slumbering princess's heart and favor?
“Why didn’t you go see YunHee in the hospital? Why did you leave her alone?”
You barely whispered the pointed, poison-tipped question but he heard you, his gaze unwavering though torn.
It was as if he had stripped himself of his armor, piece by piece.
Until there was nothing left for you to pierce but his very bare heart beneath his flushed, humble skin that he exposed to you, willingly.
“I couldn’t leave you. I just couldn’t _____. I couldn’t walk away from you. And I couldn’t walk into a future without you. I couldn’t bare that thought. That if I left you by yourself that something would happen to you and I would never see you again. We have never spent a day without each other since we met. I could never imagine a life without you. And I couldn’t look at her, knowing how much I loved her the moment you told me she existed and be able to endure all of the things they had to do for and to her, all the while wondering if it would be enough and if I would lose her also. I thought I would lose the both of you and I couldn’t choose. No. I did choose. I chose you. I was selfish. I am not proud of that. I am not proud of how weak I am when it comes to us. The things I am willing and not willing to do. I never imagined myself this way.”
His eyes were reddening but he blinked the tears from his vision, forcing himself, his body trembling like it did when he was trying to hold back deeper sobs, to remain focused on you.
“Was that why you left us last night? You have hated me since the day she was born. I know it in my heart. That hatred you’ve kept for me has overgrown and I feel like there’s no room left for us…” he sniffled as he looked at your daughter where she pulled him closer, cooing in her sleep.
“I don’t hate you-”
“Hate is a very strong word, yes. But you are disappointed in me. It’s in everything you say to me. It's everything you’ve stopped saying too,” he wiped his tears from his face as you felt your own falling.
“Baekhyun I…”
“What do you want to do, ____? We can’t keep doing this.” His tone was softer as if he was measuring out what he could do with the failing strength he had to say what he needed to say.
You knew how difficult this was for him.
To admit his errors not only to you but in front of your family and your daughter.
You knew that you caused him ever more heartache now because you had left last night.
If he had given you space to be angry maybe you could have resolved this alone.
But turning over the thought again and again in your mind, you knew that it wasn’t just that the tumult of his anxiety that had suddenly driven you away and into the fright of night all the way across town.
It was as he said.
You were disappointed.
A word that was greater in meaning than hatred.
It had an indefinite end to it.
And the fact that he knew it and admitted that aloud here…
You had wounded him deeply.
To say that in front of his parents, your mother, your family, because they refused to allow you another opportunity to delay this resolution privately.
They knew better than to leave the two of you to it anyway.
But you knew that he would allow you to hurt him even this way because he loved you too much.
And you were horrified at how justified you still felt.
Even in your tempered disappointment, you felt your heart breaking for the way he was hurting so openly and willingly for you.
“Baekhyun...I am disappointed. I am disappointed that you did that. I feel that I have a right to say that. I...I know what you’re saying and I understand what you mean. I know that you love me. I know what you would be willing to sacrifice everything for me. I...I’m sorry. I am. I am sorry,” he looked away from you as you began to speak.
“When you did that I felt so angry. I was so angry that you abandoned her when she needed you the most. I was so angry that you entrusted her safety to other people and that you never went yourself to make sure that she was safe. I was angry that you could be so cowardly for some superfluous reason that seemed nonconsequential at most.”
“When you did that...I did think of my father. I thought of the way he had abandoned me and I resented you for showing YunHee that. Even afterwards when we brought her home and you did your best taking care of her, doing everything possible for her to the point where I became the primary breadwinner for our household...I was still angry at you. I am still angry at you...I couldn’t forgive it...it was the one thing you promised. That you would be different. And I can’t let go of that. That anger. And when you tried to force me to be vulnerable with you the other night as if you didn’t know why I was so angry...I hated everything all the more. I was so angry at you again when you didn’t defend me when I told you what Minseok said. I was so angry at you.”
“And it was then that I realized that I never trusted you. Never,” you sobbed as he began to sob also, turning further away from you, YunHee clasped him tighter, shrinking into his embrace.
“I know…” he answered between hiccuping cries.
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You placed YunHee in your mother’s arms as she brought her up and away to the nursery her great grandparents created for their grand and great grandchildren in their summer garden home.
Baekhyun waited for you to continue, after wiping again at his eyes, his nose and mouth with the tissues grandmother had given to you both.
“Baekhyun I don’t know what to do. I want what’s best for YunHee. I want what’s best for our family. I want her to have her father in her life. I want to forgive you. I want everything to be...I want her to have a happy home,” you said to him, willing him to turn and face you.
He seemed to hear your telepathic call and turned to face you, bleary-eyed. Both his nose and cheeks were splotched with red where he had been wiping away tears.
“I want YunHee to have her mother in her life. I want her to have her family, both yours and mine with her. I want us to get through this. I want you to trust me. I want you to forgive me. I want you to forgive me for where I haven’t defended you. I want you to forgive your father. I want us to have a happy home too,” he answered in kind, his cadence lifeless.
“B-Baekhyun,” you sputtered past fresh tears, a new look of dread and knowing on his face as you touched your stomach.
You didn’t have to say it.
His eyes welled up in such petrified anguish.
It was as if he was looking at you in a glass enclosed box without a way to get you out of it as it sunk lower and deeper into the ocean’s dark depths.
He couldn’t touch you.
_________
“I had a dream about my grandson after YunHee’s first birthday. And I’ve dreamed that dream night after night until last night when it changed. And where I saw my great grandson once before he was no longer there. There was an empty space where he once was.”
Grandfather spoke in deliberate rounded tones as you and Baekhyun both tried to quiet your sobs.
“I hope you don’t do what you’re considering.” He finished after a pregnant pause.
You gasped at his insinuation though you knew better than to act so startled.
Wasn’t that the very reason for the anguish on Baekhyun’s face only a moment ago?
You were the only one hearing this dream for the first time. Of that you were sure.
“Before I came today I did wonder what I should do...I want our child but things with Baekhyun were not certain and I wasn’t sure what else to do. Had we not come here today...I honestly don’t know what I would have done. I don’t know if I could have seen that through,” you looked at your hands against your stomach where Yun Hee had been and where this tiny child was.
Grandmother spoke up, clearing her throat.
“Our families are united by YunHee. Her future is very important to us. This was once such a loving match. But hearing your stories and perspectives, we realize that we saw more in it than what you saw _____ for the sake of our grandson,” grandmother spoke to you now, in tones not as round and deliberately thoughtful.
You straightened.
“I come from an old way and an old life that encourages bonds made in marriage to be kept sacred no matter the cost. But where there is marriage lacking in this situation there are children. And more than one at that. And so we consider this similar to a bond made by marriage that cannot be undone.”
“I would advise that you spend time apart from YunHee, together. I would advise that you allow us to keep her for the summer. I would advise that you decide, grandson, what you would like this relationship to be. I would advise that you decide what kind of father and husband you will be going forward. I would advise that you hear the concerns of your loved one and that you take responsibility and respond for the sake of your children. I would advise that you truly consider each one of her thoughts. I would advise that you both seek counseling and resolve to marry before the close of this year.”
Baekhyun raised his eyes to his grandparents, his mother, your mother, your family in terrified protest to the demands that they made.
He caught your eyes watching him and turned from you, embarrassed.
Was he sorry that they were impressing this upon you now?
Was he sorry because he felt that it was his fault?
“I can’t spend a night without her, grandmother,” he answered the demand, an edge entering his voice.
“She will be close by. We have an interview this afternoon with a preschool close to us that she can attend-”
“Why can’t we actually discuss this? We are her parents,” he answered, his tone rising in exasperation.
“As her parents, you have every right to protest. Please do not misunderstand me,” his grandmother stated, and he snapped his mouth shut.
“What you must also understand, grandson, is that we are not willing to give up on this relationship even though it is very clear that the two of you are uncertain. You cannot see what we see. You have not lived long enough to understand the endurance, resilience and the strength relationships truly require. And because of that we will not let you abandon this. You will come to an absolute resolution that benefits both your daughter and this new life,” grandmother stood after finishing her statement, bringing forward a school voucher pamphlet she had kept upon her lap while she sat listening to you both.
She placed it before you both, at the center of the table.
Baekhyun received it first, reviewing it several times before placing it on the table directly in front of you.
_____________
“I know that the pain your father dealt you was great. But I had no idea that it would turn you into this kind of person, ____. How could you do this? For years?” Your mother waited until you placed the pamphlet on the table before she spoke.
She had always been the one to encourage you forward.
She championed your fearless spirit, and your passionate nature.
But she knew the other side of it.
Both the cause and the pain.
She knew the height of your fury.
And she wasn’t apologizing for how things had gone.
She too kept her eyes open and she brought things to your attention every step along the way.
But she allowed you freedom where he perhaps did not have it.
And maybe that was the source of the cloud of guilt cast over her face.
“Why would you string someone along who loves you? Is your heart that broken? Or are you that afraid to trust?”
You fought the rage that twisted within your mouth.
Pummeling back the very words you knew you shouldn't say to her, a verbal assault you could never return from.
Not only would you injure your mother but you would destroy yourself in trying to deflect the light shining on you.
Instead you began to cry.
“I don’t know how to forgive him. I don’t know how to make peace with him. I don’t know how to move on. I hate him for what he did to us. I hate him for lying to you. I hate him for forcing you to be alone. I hate him for abandoning me. I hate him but he doesn’t care that I hate him. He doesn’t care how I feel. He cares about the way that he looks. He cares about what other people think of him. He never cared about whether I liked him or whether I loved him as a father. He never wanted a relationship with me. Or you. And when I realized that it just completely ruined me. He doesn’t care about how you feel either...he never cared about us. He could never be held responsible. He would never ever ever be found guilty. He would never ask for forgiveness. And so I’m left here with this pain and this fear that there are men out there who will do these things to you...and they don’t care…”
And you looked at your lover then.
Your heart.
Your soul.
Your conscious.
Your everything.
Begging him to forgive you.
Begging him to know that you knew how pitiful and selfish you had been.
Begging him to understand what strength this rage had given you.
How it had for years and years and years sustained you and kept you safe from harm.
Begging him to know that you loved him in an inexplicably unrelenting way.
And he answered you in kind, finally reaching to wipe away the tears on your cheek that mirrored his own.
He shifted closer to you, the ice of your heart cracking though not melting the closer the heat of his heart pressed forward against the barriers you both haphazardly rebuilt and dismantled as the day now greeted the first dimming shades of night, coming to a clear draw.
You sat on the floor of the garden before your family who waited, patiently throughout the deconstruction.
He pressed his lips to the top of your head.
And you whimpered into his chest as his welcoming arms finally received you, his earnest touch finding your womb.
“But I cared about you. I cared about you more than I cared about myself. I was willing to do anything you asked. I cared about what you thought of me...and that’s all that ever mattered to you.”
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Scarlet Heart Ryeo: Episode 8 Part 2
Ah yes we begin with a scene of the brothers and everyone picks on jung and it is beautiful. Eun is a lovable dork per usual and Wang So is the voice of reason and intelligence
OMG YESS WANG SO IS CHOSEN TO LEAD THE RAIN RITUAL! AND MY BELOVED IS SURPRISED BECAUSE YEAH I AM SURE THIS WILL BE DIFFICULT BUT A. HE CAN HANDLE IT AND B. THIS IS SUCH AN HONOR FROM HIS POV! Also I love Yo’s facial reactions, like first he is what no, the scarred So is not good for this and I don’t like So getting the task, and then he smirks as if he is thinking that well at least he doesn’t have to get really thirsty and So will suffer which should be amusing and wait no NOW I AM FURIOUS WITH YO.
CHOSEN. Hmm I have a feeling ji mong was behind that. Angling for So to get a better reputation and more power? Idk. Look astronomer guy, what is your deal anyway?! Why are you so invested in all this?
NO WHAT THE FREAK LEAVE MY SO ALONE I CANNOT DO THIS POOR SO. HE IS WORTHY YOU FOOLS, STOP THROWING WORDS AND STONES AT HIM! NOOOO
THIS IS THE WORST MY SON HEED THEM NOT. AAH BAEK AH LOOKS STRAIGHT AT HIM AND SOO LOOKS AT HIM SHE CAN’T HELP IT AND EVIL QUEEN LOOKS SO HAPPY AND SO RUNS OFF BECAUSE THIS HURTS HIM SO FREAKING MUCH AND BAE TRIES TO RUN AFTER HIM AND IS STOPPED AND YO WIPE THAT SMIRK OFF YOUR FACE AAAAHHHHHH *SCREAMS ETERNALLY*
wHY DO WE HAVE THE PARALLEL BETWEEN EVIL QUEEN AND SO? THEY BOTH SAY THAT PEOPLE CANNOT MOVE THE HEAVENS AND STUFF.
Yaaaassssss Soo has gone looking for So in the garden! AAAHHH WRIST GRAB AGAIN My poor son asks her if she thinks about why she was born and he just looks so HURT like he is wondering why he was born and what his purpose is and this just tears my heart. Also Hae Soo is the lady of hope and I love her. This boat scene is beautiful
UGH Ji Mong trying to kick Wang So into action and I understand why but gosh sir you have NO IDEA what So has been through, the way his heart has been stripped and flayed and crushed…please try to be more tactful and stuff. Also SO I AM SORRY SO SORRY FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH YOU DESERVE THE WORLD. YOU ARE NOT A SLAVE, YOU ARE A MAN WITH A WILL AND A HEART AND A SOUL AND YOU ARE BRAVE SO BRAVE DON’T CRY BECAUSE THEN I’LL CRY HARDER
OMG SHE IS GOING TO COVER HIS SCAR WITH MAKEUP! HE IS SO UNSURE AND IN AWE OF HER AND EVERYTHING IN THIS MOMENT AND HE OPENS HIS EYES TO GAZE AT HER AND SHE IS JUST LIKE WHOA SUPER DISTRACTING THERE, YOU BEAUTIFUL MAN. Luckily he closed his eyes then because he would never have been ready in time BAH HE SAYS HE IS HERS. I AM IGNORING CONTEXT HERE BECAUSE I AM PRETTY SURE THIS IS WHAT WE CALL SUBTEXT
AHHH YES SO SHOWS UP IN TIME AND GRABS YO AND LIKE NAH BUDDY YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE HERE. AND YO FREAKING HITS HIM AND CALLS HIM A BEAST ( I HATE YOU YO) AND WHOOAAA LOOK SCAR VANISHED! HA! YO IS IS DISCOMFITED TO THE UTMOST DEGREE AND IT’S BEAUTIFUL
SO STARTS WALKING AND AT FIRST HE IS LIKE THIS IS WEIRD TO HAVE PEOPLE BOWING BEFORE ME WHEN JUST YESTERDAY THEY WERE PELTING ME WITH MUD BUT THEN HE STARTS REALLY APPRECIATING THE FACT THAT THEY ARE BOWING TO HIM AND YOU CAN JUST SEE THE CONFIDENCE GROWING IN HIM!
AND BY THE TIME HE GETS TO THE ROYALS HE JUST FLICKS THAT BRUSH WITH FLAIR AND PERFECTION IN TIME WITH THE MUSIC AND EVIL MOM QUEEN AND YO ARE SOOOO TICKED AND IT IS GLORIOUS AND BAEK AH IS LIKE HERE IS A MAN WHO SHOULD BE KING AND HAE SOO SHOWS UP AND IS EXCITED AND HAPPY AND WOOK IS JUST LIKE HEY NO SHE CAN ONLY BE NICE TO ME WHY WAS SHE HELPING SO (bURN SON THIS STORY AIN’T ABOUT YOU AND YOU AREN’T A QUARTER AS COOL AND PURE AND DESERVING OF LOVE AS SWEET WANG SO)
WHOA MAN WHOA SOO AND SO SMILE AT EACH OTHER BUT SO SEES A VISION OF SO AS EVIL KING (LOOKING FINE STILL, AS @thelonelybrilliance POINTED OUT) AND THEN AS SOON AS SO STEPS UP NEAR THE TABLE THING IT STARTS RAINING IMMEDIATELY BECAUSE SO IS JUST THAT AWESOME THE HEAVENS CONFIRM IT
CAN WE ALL GIVE MY LOVE THE HAPPINESS HE DESERVES NOW?
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Okay, so I just finished Voltron Season 2 and: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
Short, spoiler-free version: I have a few things to take issue with, but as a whole I absolutely LOVED this season. *screeching* !!!
Long, spoilery version under the cut
Starting with my three big complaints before this devolves into excited screaming:
1. They’re still going with the Hunk food jokes. Like. Please. The mall cop episode (which was fantastic, by the way) did Chef Hunk right--he’s competent, he knows what he’s doing, he’s cooking in a way that obviously a large number of people like, AND he actually taught Sal how to cook?? Like oh my god, Hunk is the best space Gordon Ramsey, yes! A lot of the other episodes, though, are more of the same old tired fat jokes. Hunk’s always hungry. He’s always talking about food. He’s always making shallow food metaphors. We get it. I’m really hoping the writers cut it out in season 3, or at the very least continue to shift the focus toward other aspects of his personality.
2. I’m more than a little salty that we didn’t see half the team’s reactions to Keith being Galra. Like... I didn’t need a “reveal scene” (we got that with Shiro, and I loved that it was a shock that immediately turned into a non-issue.) What I wanted was the kind of thing we got with Hunk--the aftermath, and the other paladins figuring out how they feel. Hunk’s stuff was great, tbh, and Allura’s was pretty good (a little disappointing that she was so harsh with Keith, but I get it. She’s lost a lot to the Galra and all very recently.) I just wanted...something. Something with Pidge and Lance, at least. Some interaction that wasn’t in the middle of a battle anytime after the reveal. Maybe that was supposed to be because they were all so rushed trying to put their plan into action, they didn’t have time to process. Maybe we’ll get Lance, Pidge, and Coran’s responses in season 3 (god I hope we do). I just wanted more emotional fallout from the reveal (or support. Support would be good too. Somebody give my son a hug.)
3. Everything else can basically be summed up with, “Why isn’t season three here yet??” I wanted more of a lot of things, and I get that you can only fit so much into thirteen episodes, especially when the plot was so BIG. Holy shit you guys, so much happened in this season. So, yeah, I really wanted more Lance development (more Hunk, too). Klance? Shallura or Shatt development?? Keith and Pidge??????? The team was split up for so much of the season, and fighting battles the rest of the time, that a lot of relationships got shafted. I’m not overly bitter about that, but I am hoping we get that relationship development in season three.
Okay. There’s my salt, now time for the screaming: (Sorry, intermittent caps lock because I couldn’t control myself.)
AAAAHHHHHH OH MY GOD GALRA KEITH!!!! I have never been so alive! Fuck. I’m so happy (lack of fallout with Lance and Pidge aside. Dark Voltron season 3, give me an episode specifically dedicated to Pidge’s reaction to Keith being from the same race that took her family.) I’m choosing to imagine that Pidge has bottled up any reaction she may have had, and that it won’t come out till things have calmed down (or she’s stuck alone with Keith) and that Lance considers it such a non-issue that he had no reaction, and for him to be surprised when Keith is wary around him after that last battle.
ALSO????? I’m so happy that Keith’s mom is apparently the Galra??? I jsut?? YES??????
MATT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my GOD Matt! Matt’s out! Matt’s with rebels! REBEL MATT HOLT HOLY FUCK! I need season three like yesterday, and it had better have Matt Holt, Rebel soldier/spy/hacker/medic/literally anything. I’m so freaking happy Pidge actually got a chance to search for her family--and FOUND SOMETHING! Ahhhh!!!
HAGGAR’S ALTEAN! HAGGAR’S ALTEAN!! HAGGAR’S CANONICALLY ALTEAN!!!!! I so called this, and I could not be happier!! Augh!! I screamed! I screamed so much holy fuck
DRUID ALLURA????????? What???? I need more of this. What happened? Is she using magic or just redirecting it?? How?? Why???? Is she going to learn more???? Allura being badass with that staff was awesome, but imagine Allura charging into battle with her staff a deadly blur and a lightning storm swelling around her oh my GOD MY QUEEN!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO SHIRO????? I’m so scared for him, oh my god?? But, like, in the best possible way. He’s not dead (I hope????? Don’t kill Space Dad, Dreamworks, PLEEEEEASE!) But we can still have Black Paladin Allura in season 3?? And maybe even Matt Holt, Rebel (TM) saving his boyfriend???
SHIRO AND KEITH OH MY QUIZNAK! “You’re like a brother” haaaaa Okay, I’m dead. “My live would have turned out a lot different without you” *screeches* I still want more (mentor at the Garrison? Foster brother?? How??? do you know each other?????) ((Presumably not forever, because Shiro didn’t know anything about Keith having a knife, but still???????))
ALLURA CALLING CORAN A SECOND FATHER AUUUUGH JUST KILL MY NOW MY HEART x.x
The heITH in that one episode?? Or like... at all??? Keith joking? Hunk making Galra Keith jokes? THem workibng togethera and thanking eachother and Hunk standing up for Keith when Allura’s tyring to ingore him???????? AUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH
Klance Emperor’s New Groove AU???? Oh. My god. Like. We didn’t get much Klance this season, but we got them cliMBING UP AN ELEVATOR SHAFT like pros?? I die.
KEITH’S FRIEND FROM THE TEASER? Who are you?? Are you Matt? Are you WITH Matt’s rebels?? What did you need the Weblum secretion whatever for?? Why aren’t you talking??? Are you mute?? Are you a lady rebel?? Please be a lady rebel! (Mute or nonverbal lady rebel, y/y?????) *whispers* season threeeeee
Space spore snowball fight!!!! I’m so happy!!!! Lookit my son Shiro being a kid!!!!!!! Lookit Keith and Lance flirting with glowy space goop. :)
Pidge/Tech continues to be my otp
Shiro? Getting pushed past his limit by what’s his name. Slav? W/e. I died. Even Space Dad’s patience isn’t infinite.
When Keith was asking Coran about whether Galra have ever been to earth and Lance is RIGHT THERE? LIke??? You’re in the middle of your facial regimen, Lance, what happened? Did you hear Keith’s voice and  immediately sprint to the door??
Pidge having a gay squish on Alan Turing??
Ryner??? Is??????? So great?????? My biologist daughter????????? Also she came so close to the “we’re all made of star stuff” quote and I just? Die??? hONESTLY, season three needs to bring back her, Shay, and Nyma and let them be badasses.
FORM BLAZING SWORD!!!!!
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There’s tons more I’m sure, but my brain is on complete overload right now and I just. I can’t. Frick.
EDIT: I cannot believe I forgot: Pidge is SO NOT CIS!! Like! Frick! The bathrooms! Which were conveniently color-coded in a way that’s consistent with Earth bathrooms. In a way that Keith didn’t even stop to think about. But Pidge??? Is at the very least much more aware than Keith that the gender binary is a social construct--and you could very easily make the argument that she was debating whether aliens have the same biases as humans. Should she risk using the girl’s bathroom? Does she pass by alien standards? What even ARE alien standards for gender conformity? All this to the point that she’d rather just hold it.
(On that same note: trans Hunk? y/y)
((On a closely related note, rewatching the mall episode: Keith pulling Hunk onto the cow is weirdly adorable?? This season is gonna make me ship Heith more than ever, frick.))
I think I need to rewatch this for character/ship tags now, kthanx. Feel free to yell at me about anything!
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