#and like... whenever that self-doubt seeps back in (hard to say if it’ll ever fully disappear) all he has to do is look around him

[mars-ipan]

thinking abt how ever since edgeworth started making the change to be a better prosecutor and work on achieving the truth rather than a guilty sentence he immediately started getting in trouble with the higher-ups... the self-doubt that must have instilled in him.. especially for someone who was just forced to remember all of his trauma and come to grips with the fact that the man he thought was like a second father was actually a horrible person who never truly cared for him and in fact killed his birth father...

and edgeworth has had perfectionism drilled into his brain since like... 9 years old. imagine being “perfect” your whole life and when you start trying to heal from the abuse you never realized you were a victim of you immediately face backlash from the people whose praise you sought for YEARS.... the fear that you were making the wrong choice... damn....

#like. i can see why he faked his death. this was a man who had too much to deal with #and was so used to not having a support system that he didn’t (and still doesn’t really) even know where to begin asking for help #because for most of his childhood being vulnerable was considered a bad thing #but also like. he probably started seeing a therapist over in europe and the amount of growth he went through in just a year? amazing #he comes back completely confident that he’s doing the right thing (maybe not fully but ‘fake it til you make it’ is a good strategy) #and even when he’s still facing backlash. still getting in trouble. still having his badge threatened #he KNOWS he’s making the right choice and refuses to back down #because if he were wrong he wouldn’t be as happy as he was now. he would still be studying under mvk and cursing that man for ruining things #and like... whenever that self-doubt seeps back in (hard to say if it’ll ever fully disappear) all he has to do is look around him #and he remembers all the people that love him so dearly and how he would not be able to accept that love if he had not made this decision #and he trusts them- so he trusts that they love him for a good reason #and i just.... #sorry i don’t normally rant about edgeworth but like. that dude’s been through so much #the amount of growth he went through in such a short time span is amazing. it’s silly but #i’m genuinely so proud of this fictional character and how far he’s come #i hope he is too. in whatever little universe he may exist in