#and like i get it

[ihni]

Apologies that Billy Hargrove will never get:

"I'm sorry I left you behind" and "I'm sorry I didn't come back for you" (his mom)

"I'm sorry I hurt you" and "I'm sorry I made you feel worthless" (his dad)

"We're sorry we didn't see or care what was going on with you" and "We're sorry we didn't do anything to help you" (his teachers)

"I'm sorry I just stood by and watched" and "I'm sorry I looked the other way when you were hurt" (Susan)

"I'm sorry I got you in trouble with your dad" and "I'm sorry I didn't notice how he used me against you" (Max)

"I'm sorry I acted inappropriatly towards you" and "I'm sorry I treated you as a piece of meat when you're just a boy the same age as my daughter" (Mrs. Wheeler)

"I'm sorry I lied to you" and "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about everything that was going on" (Steve)

"We're sorry we only saw you as a monster when you were a victim" and "We're sorry we didn't try harder to save you" (the Party)

"I'm sorry you had to go through all of that" and "I'm sorry you didn't have anyone to turn to when you needed help" (me)

#billy hargrove #I'm having Feels #in many fics I read (and write) a big point is always when billy apologizes for his actuons #and like i get it #its a big step in the right direction #but it always leaves a taste of ash in my mouth when he's the only one to apologize because #he is owed some apologies too #why is he always the one to be forced to apologize #why is the pound of flesh always carved from his body? #ihni writes

[bericas]

teen wolf scenes that make me remember they're teens: allisaac edition

#twedit #allisaacedit #allisaac #teenwolfplus #teendramas #and then 4 my tags #teenwolfteens* #allison argent #isaac lahey #tw #anyway i love these guys #i never like fully vibe with multi ep allisaac sets just bc i feel like a lot of them focus on the more dramatic scenes #and like i GET it #but theyre so dear to me becuse they are soooooooooooo seventeen #theyre just little guys #the shot where she rubs his shoulder and the yellow goes over her face is pissing me off btw but theyre SOOOOOOOO SEVENTEEN THERE #if their actors were 30 no they werent!! not in these scenes!!!!! #look at him backing up towards her in the last gif and tell me theyre not 17!! YOU CANT. #speaking of 30 they should not have updated the image limit to 30. heres 16 gifs. i cant be stopped now #also posting at 10:30 pm est bc i cant be stopped #mwah mwah etc etc #OH #flashing gif tw #for the gif from illuminated

[qsmpbutwithsignlanguage]

I think that a shocking amount of QSMP discourse could be resolved by circling back to the idea that not every family needs to be full of labels. Obviously you will have parents and grandparents and aunts and uncles and sons and daughters and everything in between, but you will also have people that are just. Family. Labels can be vital to relationships between characters, I recognize that, but that is not always the case. The characters don't have to be sisters, brothers, or siblings. They're not father and son, mother and daughter, aunt and nephew, uncle and niece. But they still matter to each other, they still depend on each other, and they're still family, regardless of whether or not that label exists. Do you catch my drift? Does this make sense?

#qsmp #qsmp discourse #maybe that'll get this post blocked for some people but oh well #I think I make a good point #This stems from recent stuff about Empanada and Tubbo and discourse surrounding that #and like I get it #it's important to have conversations about stuff you think is important to talk about #But just keep in mind that found family doesn't need to have a label #this is directly based off another post that idk where it went #BUT IF YOU FIND IT TELL ME #PLEASE

[thecherrygod]

i think its funny when during the morning/day i see posts that are like "good morning lets not kill ourselves today" and "have a good day, survive" and at night on the same day i see stuff like "when i cant control how people percieve me" and "im unloveable", it truly shows what its like being alive and what it being well over sunset does to people

#my posts #tho both the lets not kill ourselves today and the when i cant control how people percieve me posts are queued i think #but still it truly is like that #and like i get it #it is kinda funny we are just going through it but surviving but i think theres a good amount of us that truly dont want to lmao #and yet at least i saw the morning posts. i will survive. i hope you all do to

[irish-belle]

Struggle city this morning.

#I really felt like I’d made progress on the house this week #but my husband was getting the kids ready for our walk and it was all #where’s xyz #kicking toys out of the way #up the hall now there’s no room in here #out now I can’t move in here #and like I get it #I didn’t get to the bedrooms #and children 3 and 4 keep dumping out my catch all baskets #and he’s a big man #but geez did I just feel so shitty at my job #I really thought I’d be good at being a homemaker #I mean I was my moms right hand for most of my life #but I don’t know how to get things done without the fear of my dad yelling at me #which is obviously not great in any sense #but I feel like a failure #and I don’t know how to make things better #I feel like I should have stayed home and made some progress #but I’m on my period and I prob woulda just slept

[queenofmalkier]

Trigger warning for discussion of rape and victimization regarding Mat/Tylin.

Honestly probably shouldn’t be writing this, but it’s been scratching at the back of my mind for a while now, and if I don’t get it out I won’t get any peace.

As somebody who has been in some really fucked up relationships and situations, Mat feeling guilty about Tylin, even missing her and wanting to honor her? It feels uncomfortably real. It doesn’t matter that he didn’t want any of what she did to him. It doesn’t matter that he hated it, that he had no way to explain. That the world he lived in had no concept of what was happening to him as being a bad thing.

Did he hate that he thought about her? That sometimes the memories were hazy, survival coloring in the worst of it, convincing him it wasn’t so bad compared to the rest? Probably. But it doesn’t mean every single second from start to finish it was all negative, and it’s the little positives that sting. Maybe after she was finished they talked. Maybe she was even nice. Buying him things, things he’d never had or thought he could have.

We have this idea of rapists as the man in the mask, the bad guy in the shadows, lurking and looming and hurting. It’s worse that they’re not. When they’re George down the street, who waters his begonias and has a penchant for curry. When it’s Lisa from accounting, who is so pretty you can’t imagine a world where anyone would see her dimples and not want to take her home. When it’s a person and not a boogeyman.

It’s why rape is so rarely punished with more than a slap on the wrist - if that.

It is all too easy to imagine myself in Mat’s position, terrified, confused, my body reacting in ways I don’t want it to, betraying me. Feeling like I’m wrong, that I must want it because I responded at all. Wondering if I was crazy because everyone around me liked and respected Tylin, even people I had known my whole life. People who were friends.

So yeah, maybe it was easier to live with if he thought about her as a former lover. It wouldn’t take away the cold sweats when he couldn’t immediately find an exit, wouldn’t prevent him from flinching at the word pretty. But he could live with it. Tell himself a story again and again until it felt more real than the truth of things. Because that’s how you fucking survive.

You love the monster so it doesn’t eat you alive and when it’s over, when you’re out and free and safe, sometimes you still love the monster.

As Vonnegut says: so it goes.

#Wheel of Time #wheel of time book spoilers #matrim cauthon #tylin quintara mitsobar #just seeing that situation used in the normal sanderson hate lately #and like I get it #you do not have to like sanderson #but the human experience is vast and varied #and it's kind of hurtful to see people be so dismissive of the fact that abuse victims aren't so black and white #it's a lot easier to love somebody you hate than you'd think #no hate for the various posters of those opinions #just hoping we can all be mindful of nuance

[mysticsormr]

personal hot take since im in the sharing mood,

i LOVE zheng, shes effortlessly hilarious and fun as a character,,,,, literally could not care less about her and olu together the chemistry is non-existent im so sorry

#im rooting for her tho shes so funny #and like i get it #but i think for me w them #theyre just telling us these ppl like each other and the immediately jumping to kissing #and im like???? ok?? #both just felt like there was not enough preamble for me to feel much for that relationship #i love all of the characters individually tho!! #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death

[thenainitaldisaster]

okay but

Kinn telling Porsche in ep 6 to leave and start a new life doing the things he loves because he likes to see him happy and porsche walking away and coming back to kiss him

has the same energy as Pat telling Pran in ep 9 that he'll post a status saying that they broke up and that he's willing to do that for him

#bad buddy series #patpran #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche #okay but both kinn and pat vibe the same when it comes to their lovers #and it's not like porsche and pran are any different #they're willing to do anything for them #you can't change my mind #and like i get it #they're different genres #but like the shows are about love at the end of the day #and both porsche and pran are like #????? #excuse me you're the love of my life and i've not loved you with everything in me for us to pretend now #also it took me ages to find the right gif only for it to disappear so yeah #honestly that's all i want

[silent-partner-412]

the shitty statement aonuma released about being surprised by fans being disappointed by the direction of the zelda series has spawned a million people who clearly have only played breath of the wild and tears of the kingdom being extremely smug and annoying about their massive sales and just the current state of the series, and while all that is absolutely bothering the fuck out of me i just want to say this instead: what happened to 2d zelda???

like, we got a decent remake of link’s awakening a few years ago. but before that? triforce heroes in 2015 (which i think only barely counts) and then for a bona fide new 2d zelda game the most recent was link between worlds in 2013, over a decade ago. even then, that’s still basically a spiritual successor to link to the past, so if you want a game that’s a fully original concept, the last new 2d zelda game was spirit tracks in 2009. there is an obvious lack of 2d zelda on the market right now, despite the fact that they have actually made up the majority of the titles in this series in the past.

this seems like such a missed opportunity to me, especially in the current climate of the zelda series. you have these new big blockbuster games in breath of the wild and tears of the kingdom that are selling like nothing in the series ever has before, but have left a substantial number of core fans (myself included) feeling disappointed because the design philosophy in the older, more linear lock/key style has more or less disappeared with these new games. i feel like this should be an opportunity to try and please everybody; keep making 3d games in this new open world style that has clearly managed to reach a massive audience, but then keep the smaller scope 2d series running with the old style to please the weird veteran fans like me who have oracle of ages in their top 3 of the entire series. but this isn’t happening, at least as far as we know.

that said, the implication of that statement is that aonuma doesn’t even get why old fans might not like the new direction of the zelda series which is just so frustrating. i would love it if at some point they gave a small studio (or maybe a second or third party?) the greenlight to work on a new 2d zelda but i’m really not holding out hope.

#zelda #the legend of zelda #i was thinking about how i was 12 years old when i got into this series #and since then the only games that resemble the old style that have released are all remasters #it’s been almost a fucking decade since i became a fan of this series and not a single new game that resembles the games i originally loved #and like i get it #by that point that style was getting stale and that’s why we got breath of the wild in the first place #but i feel like there are ways to innovate that old style that didn’t involve completely changing the identity of the series #idk man it’s just frustrating #i’m not even sure if i’m articulating this right #but it’s even more frustrating seeing people just be like if you don’t like it then shut up and go play the old games #like i don’t feel like this is an unreasonable frustration lmao

[electronic-pizza-spy]

i hate my brain because it’s like “hey your exes life is so much better because you disappeared; wouldn’t everyone else’s life be better too?” and like

that’s such a good fucking argument that i can’t even really make any counter points

#like they’re better off without me right #so shouldn’t that be true of everyone #because like everyone had to deal with me when i was at my worst #bee just got the absolute brunt of it because i was a fucking monster #and like i get it #they shouldn’t talk to me if they don’t want to #but like wouldn’t everyone else be better if they got a taste of what bee has had for almost two years

[brattylikestoeat]

Shit so messy these days. 😭😬

#did someone say beach trip? #potentially #in august #but it’s with Donald friend #and like I get it #but like it’s messy

[thatonefandomjumper]

That fun and definitely not at all frustrating moment when you get obsessed with a ship that's decently popular within the fandom but is literally always a side paring in fanfics

#On a Clybe kick right now #Like I enjoy Creek just as much as the next guy but every fic tagged Clybe is always a Creek fic first #And like I get it #I understand why it's like that #But man it's a bit frustrating #This can definitely apply to a lot of WlW ships in general when people are writing MlM fics #*CoughRosemaryHomestuckCough* #Realized this kinda made it sound like I'm calling Clybe a WlW ship which it is not it is a het ship #Which is pretty rare for me to get this invested in #So tragically the one time it happens there is very little content #south park #sp clybe #bebe stevens #clyde donovan

[froggybangbang]

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#made a 15usd donation to a place in ukraine and idk wtf happened but my payment ended up being 516cad and man..... i could have used that $ #i sent the place an email but so far no answer #and like i get it #refunding donation probs isn't something they want to #but like #i had 20cad i could give coz i got my pay today. not 500 #I'm moving next month #i need that cash #ugh

[talysalankil]

tumblr tournaments are fun and all but it is getting grating to me how, for instance, zagmegthan can be losing in the ot3 tournament to a non canon ship. like. most of the time it really is just about which fandom is more vocal in the vicinity of the blog running the tournament huh.

#and like i get it #i don't usually vote for someone i don't know lol #but it is kinda disheartening #because the biggest fandoms are actually very cishet and yet they win these for no reason #we have come a long way from cecilsweep but not the RIGHT way

[autistichansolo]

ok, so the guy i have a crush on wanted to hang out today just him and me and afterwards he called and confessed to having feelings for me and we both decided to like explore that and i guess were kinda dating i think

#jack talks #like i’m really happy about this #and ahhh #like he didn’t know how to say it in person and was nervous about it #and like i get it #and just yes #i’m like yeah

[chipthekeeper]

doesn't matter how many goddamn times i tell google docs to save "Mon" as a word, it's ALWAYS going to suggest Mom instead

#and like I GET IT #but not in this story please