#and its kinda draining

[tsukinoshinjiu]

XII - The hanged man

"The hanged man understands that his position is a sacrifice that he needed to make in order to progress forward - whether as repentance for past wrongdoings, or a calculated step backward to recalculate his path onward."

#my art #artwork #artists on tumblr #digital art #art #link #legend of zelda #lu wild #wild linked universe #breath of the wild #botw #malice #scopophobia #uncomfortable #corrupted!link #art juices going down the drain drain #body horror tw #like kinda #its debatable

[goatpaste]

I know a sorta made a small post along these lines the other day, but something a lil more official of!!

im kinda broke rn, between the recent stuff with losing my car and having to get a new one and work literally scheduling me 13 hrs a week. Im slowly losing money and it got really bad this month after paying my bills and everything and realizing I had just 300 bucks in my bank account.

My current job hasn't been working with me to give me the hours i need to make a living wage and iv been trying to get a new job for months with no success and it's looking like i could really use a lil extra support via online commission work rn until I can land a more solid paying job. I really hate to sound like a desperate wet cardboard box beast but I still need to insure my new car and cant afford it as i stand right now.

I wont ask for donations, I think im going to be fine, but a lil money to help keep my head above the water would be great so im just gonna promo my commission work. To anyone who can commission me in some way or another would be awesome! I appreciate any support I can get rn even just a reblog

My Commission Info

My Kofi

My Etsy

My Toyhouse

#again sorry for sounding like im crying wolf with 200 in my account but i havent bought groceries this month #or my car insurance #im waiting for my next paycheck #so i kinda know its about to get sucked down the drain #i still havent bought christmas gifts for my brother and the cousins which i would really like to be able to if i could #again im not gonna die #so im not asking for donations #i will be fine #im just a lil money stressed and if i could branch out to try and get some commission work rn that would be a huge help #again im not asking for donations #there defiantly ppl who need it more than me #but if you were everythinkin to commission me and have the funds rn #i wouldnt mind if you reached out #i know its the holidays and everyone is probably low on funds #i see the situation as it is rn #but if i could just make an extra hundred or two i think it put my mind at ease a lil more for when its time to pay all my bills again

[mythtiide]

todays falkler! more office au cause its cute ehe + some bonus stuff under the cut 🖇️

closeup of their faces cause i really like em

bonus flustered falke doodle

cut adler skirt content; i accidentally used the wrong brush but i really liked how this turned out ( + bonus sketch of the same skirt)

earlier falkler doodle that i kinda scrapped because i just didnt like how falke turned out; however i do like this adler ! so we win some we lose some

#signalis #signalis falke #signalis adler #the two paperclips look like an upside down heaet and i find that adorable #love can really bloom on the battlefield (the office) #not too much from me today because i really didnt draw a lot!!!!! #changing my blog theme kinda uses up a lot of my creative battery so after i do stuff like that i kinda become drained for the day #which suuucks because its like blog themkng has like nothing tk do with coding so like ?????? wheres the correlation #i dunno #myth.art

[nvoc]

#skyrim #skyrim screenshots #tesv #.skyrim #.c #.sc #idk why the lighting in the bannered mare is so washed & cooked #(the 3rd pic is bannered mare) in-game in the main hall it's so washed & foggy/misty #n in other building's interiors theyre very Sharp & normal #prolly something is overriding the lux patch #i'll troubleshoot later im alrdy drained asf from my ongoing tree patching madness 💀 #(it's been... 6 months?? i think?? on-and-off) #speaking of tree patches someone released on nexus a patch for ulvenwald and nature of the wild lands to work with each other #it's by ShadowPandah #its veryy good but ima stick with my own patches bc I spent too much time making those patches & it's alr personalized to my own load order #plusss i did so many stupid minuscule personalised tweaks in certain areas & it's how i envisioned things to look🥲 #not me using both the -ized and -ised spelling of personalized #also i kinda wanna buy a new disk drive bc My God. 1tb for modded skyrim isnt enough fam. (with what im doing at least) #plus i wanna beta test an upcoming skyrim modpack (if my internet even allows me to with the doo doo ass download speed i have 💀💀💀💀) #gnna put my 3060 to the test despite the probable minimum specs is most likely gonna require something like a 4070 .... #but that's with reshade & hardcore shaders like raytracing but we'll see ! #im yapping #we love yapping #im going to bed now gn fam

[nebulousmedic]

Can I just say that the TF2 community (especially here on Tumblr) is so fucking good and hilarious man. Idk I haven't had such a good fandom experience in years. You guys are great I think every other fandom is ruined for me I'll just keep comparing it all to the TF2 fandom

#mun talks #dont mind me #just me rambling #I haven't smiled this much in a while #its just. fun. you guys are fun #im sorry I dont answer asks more often btw its just kinda draining shjdhd

[astranauticus]

orv sketchdump while i try to recover from midterms burnout

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv spoilers #han sooyoung #yoo joonghyuk #secretive plotter #oldest dream #art i made #is the text legible?? wtf happened to the resolution #i wanted to do a version of the traumatised and sparkly traumatised as yjh and kdj but i ran out of space and also patience #genuinely love that 1863 hsy canonically smokes bc WOW thats hot <- insane #most of this is just me clearing leaves out of the drain stopper but i'm actually proud of that ONE 1863 hsy. god i love her #anyway go check out my translation of eternal loneliness the chorus is very 51%kdj coded #kind of a weird thing to say about a song thats so much like. quotes from soure material by volume (its a tv show ost) but like. its true #世界隐隐作痛 像永恒孤独 你却留下爱 恒星如灯塔指引我重生 can apply to so many orv characters tbh #yoo joonghyuk? check. the oldest dream? check. 51%kdj? check (kinda)

[brudrak]

My brain went off these past months and I forgot to shate the few arts I've made lately here, so prepare for flood

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⚠ Please, DON’T repost and don’t use this artwork;

#law #law one piece #trafalgar law #law fanart #trafalgar law fanart #trafalgar d water law #one piece #fanart #chibi #cute art #brazilian artists #brart #ive been kinda away from social media in general lately tbh #i think the con i had earlier this year drained me so much that im still recovering LMAO #also im having a hard time to like anything that i draw for the past few months lol #but recently ive started watching that minecraft server with streamers an its bringing me back to interact and draw xD #so new art incomingggg #my art #digital art #does anyone even read these? lolll #brudrak

[mahoushojounightmares]

What kills me about Bruce is that he never really tries to make up with his children after abusing them ( no i will not debate that he is an abusive parent) or if they argue. He just lets it consume him and throws himself into his work without bothering to try and understand their point of view or even just talk to them and communicate at all at the core thats why his relationship with them is sooo fraught .

He has a severe lack of emotional competency and he is a WRECK when it comes communication Its like his .. worst nemesis All of his relationships are unnecessarily over complicated because he is such a nightmare to try and have a conversation with after . He cannot communicate effectively at ALL .

His priority towards The Mission above all means he only really clarifies his emotions when CRUCIAL. Which he has interesting opinions on what classifies as “crucial ” which isn’t usually the times when he needs to talk to people because of his aforementioned lack of emotional competency so he never understands he actually needs to like Fucking talk .

Like when he argues with his children . The thing is he never tries to see their emotions as well as his own . He never tries to dig deeper he takes statements at face value never back up what he says UNLESS it’s about crime fighting he never apologises really or tries very hard to fix it .

Bruce suffers a clinical lack of emotional understanding so it ends up with him never trying to see how people feel or understand why they acted like that like if it is outside of crime fighting because he is so obnoxiously bad at picking up or acknowledging problems. ( probably because how he solves all his emotional problems are by .. not he just ignores it and eventually has to give in because someone Babs , Dick , Tim , ALFRED tell him that he can’t do that shit forever)

This isn’t to say that Bruce is a bad person he saves hundreds all the time he is an exceptionally good person sacrificing his entire life ( and um those of people who care about him) and all he has ever had even the love of others he pushes away in pursuit of the mission. But at his core he is a bad father or just a bad person to care about. Because he doesn’t care about himself only the again THE DAMN MISSION.

Literally everything comes second place to the dedication of that crusade . A good fantastic person at his heart a failure at being a person in any and all interpersonal relationships 😭.

But it’s frustrating because he could so easily become a better person but because of the the cyclic nature of comics and the whole “he must be grim all the time ” even though YOU KNOW he could co exist as a hardened dark urban warrior AND a good father and other shit but alasss i feel like the one plot i have always wanted more than any other batman comic is him moving on from the unholy obsession with the mission help him to be a balanced person and live with emotional turmoil in an actually healthy way . Pftt like that’ll happen

Ah well nice to dream

#ok this is mostly my opinions but I digress #dc #dc comics #bruce is so emotionally constipated and draining that its kinda impossible for him to be a healthy parent #bruce wayne #batman

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

The idea of discourse around FNaF theories or interpretations is so funny to me cus this franchise has the plot foundation of fuckin' swiss cheese. Nothing means anything you can literally do whatever you want. Free reign, baby.

#sorry my respect for a story goes down the drain when they basically pull a 'everything we've told you up to now was a lie' thing twice #and as always scott cawthon can eat my shorts or whatever #this isnt about anything or anyone in particular i dont go in the fandom tag at all specifically to avoid #this kinda shit #but idk fnaf has such a soup of a story and i mean i like it otherwise i wouldnt have this blog #but one of the reasons i like it is the variety in readings in fosters cus its author didnt (and still doesnt) know what the fuck he's doin #anyway short ramble over i hope you have a nice day :] #rant #just incase ppl wanna filter this kinda stuff i doubt ill post like this often here tho #fnaf #yelling about the bear

[whatthefuckisasweep]

cant sleep … plagued with thoughts.. overstimmed… also starving… time to scroll tumblr till i have to go to class :,((

#my thoughts #i slept like 3 hours but my roommate kept moving and it bothered me where every movement made me irrationally angry #and i keep waking up and having immediate brainrot lfjkfnfjnf so its fun but also not bc im literally SO drained pleasssseee shut up brain #like baby i have a presentation tomorrow at 8:30AM and i have to do a whole reflection paper #go to fucking sleeeeeeep #and the worst part is i FORGOT to eat . before bed . cuz i was too tired and said fuck it ill eat in the morn #which is horrible bc now im like. starving and gross bc i also didnt do anything i kinda just collapsed JFKDNDKDN #but i dont wanna get up. because. um. four am and i dont wannnnaaa eat.i waanaa eat in the morning #so ive just been holding stan bunny close and thinking thoughts while actively trying to sleep JFKDNFKDJD #anyways. Im a functioning human person! #: D ! #GggfrRRRAGGhggh #so annoying bc i usually can sleep on command like its nothing lmfao #but i have too many things on my frickin mind i cant shut it up pensive #anyways THIS IS A LONG TAG THING NSJFJDKFJD UHHHHH runs away #DELETE LATER????

[risingsunresistance]

big fan of whatever is happening on alpha rn

#CORPSE LOOTER! 👍 #chat #sb #been on testing for a bit and tbh uhhh. idk how i feel about it? #LOVE the new gems and the concept of a dungeon-like mining area IS fun #but it's kinda... empty? #the glacite shafts are VERY tiny #i just feel like they should be easier to get lost in #also goddddd i can tell this stuff is gonna SUCK to craft in bulk #all the keys... so many new items to forge #also WHY THE HELL DID ONE OF MY TREE PARTS START TAKING *MILLIONS* TO LEVEL UP HELLO??? #idk i'll need a more in-depth look at it to decide how much i like it #right now it seems like a ''mining got stagnant lets add something that takes 1k hours to complete'' #like eventually it seems like it'll get stagnant on its own with just how long this stuff is gonna take #it'll get draining...

[liazrad]

god i am so ridiculous in the best ways. earlier today i accidentally dropped a hair clip my sister gave me into a storm drain or whatever and i thought I'd never be able to get it out. but i just had the deranged idea to take the chains from my skirts and some magnets to pull the hair clip back out. my idea fucking worked and i have my precious hair clip again. what the fuck.

#weed screams #THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX BITCH I AM A GODDAMN GENIUS #also there was a huge truck parked over the drain so i had to sit right under it while i was doing my thing #its midnight and kinda cold out on st patricks day and i was out there doing some stupid shit for a hair clip

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Not liking Naruto as a character is a big red flag for me tbh

#it tells me u r not watching bc u want a show abt love and empathy saving the day #listen i was watching a video ranting abt naruto calling him lazy and entitled and stupid #and im like. how. how do u see something so different from me? #maybe i just get triggered bc naruto has neurodivergent energy and when ppl call him lazy and stupid im like: no. no. his brain just works #different and no one bothers to help him understand in a way that makes sense to him. it makes me so mad #its the system that deserves ur rage. not the boy #i kinda feel the same abt boruto. like i understand how ppl could dislike him but honestly im on his side 60eps in #like he just wants his dad to show him affection and attention and the village is draining narutos soul #and im supposed to think boruto is ungrateful? after all naruto as sacrificed? this is what he gets? a miserable life? #no. boruto is right. something is wrong here and he's rightfully lashing out. #oh god. im so tired. what am i doing? sigh... #naruto ramblings

[chokchokk]

teaser for 2/2 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 [𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬]

would yall hate me if the build up was. uhm. 10k words? LMAO like i just put it in a wordcounter and i think i went a bit too wild with the building-up-tension angst

ill def put a border in but i dunno if yall want to read 10k grimy-ass words of reader being down bad LMAO

anyhow here's a preview!!!!

“You know he’s here somewhere, right?” “Yeah, but the probability that we’ll see him is like zero, so that’s not my concern.” “You’d be concerned if he saw us, though?”, Seonghwa asks, loose-tongued, murmuring against your neck. He’s definitely fully gotten drunk, his body heavily weighing into yours, as he gets one arm up and around your head; his hand is tangled into your scalp without a caution of messing up your hairstyle. You finding out what the molly will do to him is only a matter of time. “Are you asking if I’m committed to him?” Seonghwa licks his lips, “accidentally” getting your skin with his tongue. It takes you aback a bit and you whine, your eyes dozing off for a short moment. You can still taste the remains of the shot at the back of your cheeks and it's the only thing you can sense correctly. Everything else is either fogged or slowly disappearing, or becoming even harsher like the red laser lights that you fear are going to pierce through you. “No, I’m not asking whether you’re committed,” Seonghwa answers, leaning into your skin even more, “I know you guys aren’t in a relationship. Or, you know, at least he isn’t committed.”

expect it to be posted in a few days hehe <33

#am i getting drained by writing this #kinda #LMAO #no actually its a lot of fun #to be down bad #and be down bad insanely #i am not okay #men are pathetic #but so am i #촉촉

[yandereshingeki]

also wanna say thank you to those being patient with me and my slow ass self with writing… I’m trying to write as much as I can but it’s hard to find the motivation with work weighing me down so much （；＿；）+ the holiday seasons been so busy for me… but im hoping stuff will cool down after and it’ll get better. I’m also actively looking for another job that I hope will be less physically draining so that I’ll feel better lol

#im actually gonna apply to a local pet store soon…. praying I get that job because even if im there 8 hours a day i’ll #at least feel better about being there with all the birds and bunnies and pigs #I think the difference would actually be kinda big considering birds are like. so important to me. pet animals in general lol #maybe it won’t feel like I’m getting the soul sucked outta me if I get to listen to the loud tweeting all day #you’d also be surprised how physically draining it can be to bring in carts all day and have to constantly bag for like 3 cashiers at once #having cart duty is only fun at night bc during the day once you bring in one stack of 6-8 carts they’ll all be gone by the next time you #bring in another 8 #and we have to do it all manually with straps cause our store doesn’t have the cart machines 😞 #NOT TO MENTION. THE PARKING LOT IS ON AN INCLINE TOO. all of that pieced together just kinda makes it suck lol #I can do it but my body is so sore after every shift its so hard smtimes

[astranauticus]

(spoilers up to orv chapter 270) (sort of?)

you ever just kinda. suddenly realise what you're listening to

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscent reader #orv spoilers #orv #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #art i made #the first hyperlink is to the song on youtube the second one is to my translation btw #that caption was not an exaggeration i was deadass like walking back from class with my spotify on shuffle and kinda like #tuned back in to what was playing in my ears and just had a kinda. HOLD UP WAIT A FUCKIN SECOND #honestly the whole song is kinda yjh if you squint and like for what its worth literally the only reason this is tied to like #that scene from 269 specifically is bc i literally just read that part today so it was really fresh in my brain #god the process of making this was so strange too bc i did it in almost one sitting except i had a fuckin SPORTS EVENT of all things #in the evening so it was like. 3 hours straight of doing this 2 hours of playing sportsball of all things then another 3 hours of this #so now i am physically mentally AND emotionally drained! genuinely couldntve had a more exhausting consecutive 8 hours if i tried #btw fun fact in the spirit of like. making life easier for myself all of yjh's flashback frames or whatever are webtoon panel redraws #except for that last one obviously cuz the webtoon isnt there yet (which. wow the processing of drawing that was. very painful) #but its like. I AM THE WAY THAT I AM if given the chance to draw to my knowledge one of the most tragic moments from the story I WILL DO IT #ok looking back theres a bunch of editing errors but also i just. really need to go do my ACTUAL FUCKIN WORK LMAO #god my arm hurts #hmmm i might clean up that 10 scenario sketch later on. i kinda like how the wings turned out #and also kdj's dipshit expression.