#and it make me feel like shit bc it’s not obvious to me

[torialefay]

hi your astrology post on chan are absolutely amazing, what do you think he will be like when jealous. I mean we all get jealous when it comes to some people but given how possessive chan is it can be bit overwhelmingly intense emotion for him and it can lead to steamy situation. So can you write a little about what he would be like when jealous in regards to astrology, please.

Thank you💕

of course, anon! i actually have v strong (and maybe not so popular idk) opinions on this.

yes yes yes! you are 100% right that channie can get super jealous & possessive. but the thing is, he is VERY good at hiding it. and let me tell you why:

• his venus in scorpio: this one is the most obvious and why i think a lot of people suspect his jealous/possessive tendencies. and duh, we know venus rules love & beauty, scorpio rules deep emotions, passions & desires, etc etc. BUT, scorpio also has also always been associated with manipulation. i feel like this is 100% the case with chan. he may not outright say that he feels jealous over something that you did, but he will twist things so that you end up feeling guilty and don't do it again (but that wasn't his intentions of course, you came to that conclusion on your own 😉🤭 sarcasm if you can't tell). he may even have this obsessive/possessive quality to the point that he subtly manipulates you into ONLY caring about him really. for you to put him before anyone else and make you feel like he's the only person in the world that can truly take care of & provide for you. very veryyyyyy subtly of course. but he may plant those seeds. why? because it makes you fall in love with him more & become just as obsessed with him as he is with you.... of course you're gonna know he has this side of him, but you don't know just how deep it goes

• his gemini rising & sagittarius mars: these signs are more about freedom & friendliness. making a wide array of friends & coming off as a "people person." very open-minded as well. these definitely aren't the first signs that come to mind when you think "possessive and jealous." but here's the thing, neither of these planets are necessarily WHO you are. they are more so who you come across as. who you present yourself to be. so channie's gonna come across as light-hearted and a super trusting boyfriend. he knows that & that's what he wants. he wants to be seen as someone who trusts you & lets you do what you'd like without making a big deal about it (after all, he's our sweet little channie and he would never try to control us like that! 🫠🤥).

• i also wanna mention his libra sun and moon. obvi we know that libra is all about balance & is definitely the type to run away from conflict. SO, if there's something chan doesn't like, he's probably not gonna outright talk about it. libras are also the "people pleasers" of the world and are greatttt at conversation, so more than likely, he's gonna tell you exactly what you want to hear. he's gonna struggle a lot bc at his very core (his moon), he really just wants to be loved and accepted. but he may feel like, in love (venussss), the only way he can do that is through manipulating you into seeing him as the only person in the world for you. libras love that shit too. feeling validated? feeling needed? they can be prone to manipulating the situation a little bit too. so yes, channie is gonna really have a tough time with it.

how i see this playing out:

• he will plant little seeds in your head. for example, he may say something like "i love you so much more than anything else" simply for the fact that he wants you to say it back. he wants to hear you say that he matters more to you than anyone or anything else in the world. he wants to be the only thing on your mind, but he'd never admit it.

• he wouldn't outright say anything if he saw you with one of his friends/another idol and got jealous... he doesn't want that confrontation. instead, he'll make snide remarks about them (again, tiny little pettttty things) to deter you from thinking ab them. like "oh you were talking to mingi at the party tonight? i heard he was pretty bad off tonight, got into some shit with one of his members" etc etc. just any petty thing he can think to bring up that isn't exactly putting that person down.

• let's say for example that you go out for the night & go clubbing and chan doesn't like it bc he wanted to stay in with you (but of course he's never gonna tell you what to do, right?). he MAY (depending on the day) do something that he knew you wanted to do without you. you wanted to watch that new movie on netflix? he totally forgot and he already watched it. "you would have loved it," he'd say. or maybe he'd hit up the cool new restaurant that you'd been dying to go to, and when he tells you, he'd brag about how cool it was & what a great time he had. basically, he'd make you feel like you were missing out by not being with him.

that's all i'll say for jealous & possessive channie, but i do want to end by saying that he doesn't have these tendencies ALL the time. and tbh, he's probably very unaware just how toxic he's being. he may even have conflicting feelings about it bc he DOES KNOW that you need your freedoms, and probably does TRY to gove you that. but sometimes, he just can't help himself. when he's in love, he wants you to himself & he wants to protect you.

#bangchan scenarios #bangchan stray kids #skz astrology #bangchan imagines #bangchan angst #bangchan #bang chan #skz angst #chan skz #skz scenarios #skz #stray kids scenarios #stray kids

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao #feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy #danbles #and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth #or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities #or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to #or whatever else #i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy #I’M certainly not going to #but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer #and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc) #i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where #i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything #but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on #it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way #idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences #even negative ones are valuable to me #but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem #maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem #fuuck guys ​i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀

[starlooove]

Racist white ppl who don’t realize they’re racist getting mad about gojo is so funny

#y’all do the same shit #making them hot cheeto girl edits using AAVE USHER!! #helloooooo call in house etc. #but also I’ve been saying this for awhile #where ppl don’t want complicated characters or interesting arcs bc then they have to think about themselves #I’m not just yapping y’all u can look back #this is the second time feeling so vindicated #bc when it happened with Sokka and everyone was confused I literally said this is a product of this mindset #like grand scheme the reason they removed that from Sokka is that y’all can’t stomach ur faves having biases even when they improve #look at how y’all are reacting to gojo #I may tell a joke but I will never tell a WHAT #well no I lie a lot sorry #anyways point is y’all running to say gojo isn’t racist even tho the point of the scene is him unlearning that bias #and then turning around and saying you want complex characters #like it’s so telling when the only flaws u give ur characters is insecurity and maybe assholeish tendencies that don’t actually mean a lot #like y’all want these ppl to be you till they’re actually you #ugh #anyways y’all are so lucky I resisted adding my hate for another character for this #you ALRDY know who #just know he’s in here too #oh obvious obligatory duh ppl didn’t write sokka or gojo bc of eachother I’m talking about behavioral trends across media consumption dont #piss me off like with the way y’all act I wouldn’t be surprised #I’m not saying they’re related Like linearly or whatever I’m saying this shit isn’t coming out of nowhere it’s YOU!

[lighthouseas]

so uh

#don't. really feel too great abt stranger things right now for obvious reasons #it's....idk my feelings are complicated because i do know characters ≠ actors but also the shit that brett has been saying is absolutely #-batshit and then the stuff noah liked today....idk. seeing actors i once used to admire do this really fucking hurt. and made me angry. #-and sad. #it's not that i don't still like st it's just...complicated right now #and looking at the stuff they said makes me physically ill so #and anyway. sorry i know i never post about stuff like this on main but i just thought i should put it out there bc im . upset #and i also really don't want to cause myself to spiral anymore so #zionism #zionist #idk what tags my mutuals have filtered so if i need to tag anything else please let me know - i just don't want to clog the i/p tags w this #bee.txt

[outlawssweetheart]

Some writers/producers/directors have such obvious personal beef with certain characters, and it’s both hilarious and infuriating. Hilarious because of how pathetic it is, but infuriating because of how shitty they treat and talk about the character.

#richie kirsch #RICHIE! OH MY GOD I swear Radio Silence knew some guy they based Richie on who they fucking HATED #because all they do is shit-talk him in interviews and in the damn 6th movie!! #Not to mention that those guys are such obvious Pick Me Guys; it's PATHETIC! 🙄 #I swear they just hate any guys who aren't Chadley angelic; or they act like they do to impress women who are antis. Idk which. 🙄 #Either way it's annoying and pathetic and while *hate* is a strong word... I strongly dislike them. 😒 #ethan landry #Yeah I think they hate Ethan too. Idk why; I can just *feel* it. 😒 #vince schneider #They left him out of pretty much all marketing even though other characters in 5 & 6 who got posters/on the main posters #got basically the same amount of screen time before getting murked?? 🤨 And he's STU'S FUCKING NEPHEW ffs! #jason blossom #jason carver #These 2 have been SO BLATANT; especially Jason C! 😤😤😤 #(I mean on Riverdale and in the various comics. Especially AWA.) #pietro maximoff #I wanna say #wanda maximoff #as well but Idk if Marvel writers *hate* her or if they just like to torment her bc she makes a good victim. #mk skarlet #petyr baelish #PETYR WAS A BAD BITCH (in more ways than one) and they made him die like a PUSSY! Just to service to most BORING fans. 😒 #aegon ii targaryen #OBVIOUS. 🙄 #daemon targaryen #Idk if it's Ryan Condal too but Sara Hess has most OBVIOUS beef with Daemon and it's so fucking stupid. 🙄 Please fire her already. 😒 #daenerys targaryen #Do I even need to explain this one? (D&D; not GRRM.) #rant #txt

[mainfaggot]

omg first time i socialized w someone on campus and didnt feel immensely uncomfortable constantly

#i am now feeling a little anxious but honestly its like . half as bad as it usually is!! #that is pretty big tbh #shes just SOOOO real #like well dressed ✅ well spoken ✅ kpop stan who hates skz and likes wayv rv and defends itzy w her life ✅ non white so she Gets It ✅ #the way shes a hater in the same way as meeeeee #oh also shes bisexual like come onnnnnn ‼️ #really really sweet person all around the only thing making me anxious is if it was too obvious that. i am so deeply insecure 💀 #i try to act really self assured and never say self deprecating shit ever in front of ppl but it's hard to seem perfectly charming and also #not a people pleaser #like im performing so hard. almost constantly #w her it was pretty relaxed bc we talked about kpop 80% of the time and school/family the other 20% of the time #so most of the time i was just saying opinions. about stannie life. which is easy since that's my literal escape from facing my own life as #when we got to other topics i was like Ah Time To Act Put Together and Humble And Charming #z.post

[ironmanstan]

I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

#m thinking now and im like #i havent read ... anything consistently .. or watched anything .. or had time to like do anything #in genuinely so long #and i was like kinda becoming ok w it #my brain issues .. nothing matters i dont need anything all i need is me i dont need to have anyone or anything with me <- bad. stop it #part of this was the i need my dad to be proud of me braincell but well i win award i have 4.0 gpa and he still yell at me #deciding now to stop caring so much (i still do but ill ignore it) i need 2 be alive again i dont care #im so mad i dont even know .. im so viscerally angry like actually i dont even know what to do with that lmfao #my brother does shit all and u give him sm slack have NEVER treated him as bad as youve treated me #and nothing i do NOTHING is good enough or changes how u look at me #like idk he called me and i cried so much i got so fucking upset i fhkdhdkf ok. ok. #he will b like omg im so proud of u i love u so much ive always believed in u and i just think back to when #he yelled at me once like fiiive years ago and i was like u just make me feel so worthless all the time #and he was like yeah bc you are worthless #and im like hmmm idk bestie i dont think youve ever changed from looking at me like that and it is insanely obvious lmao #i dont even know bro im crazy. m insane got given an inch and tried to take a mile like omg i can actually be recognized as worth something #nevermind ill stop killing myself for that pipe dream now lol #m not even upset im just mad lmao i dont wanna hate my dad and i dont but every day i feel more and more like i should #vent

[skitskatdacat63]

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#im noy gonna start beefing w people over politics on tumblr dot com #but i just wanna say #my god sometimes i see posts where it makes me feel very pretentious and uppity #bcs people often just over simplify and act like a solution is obvious and easy #meanwhile for me its like. girl you do not understand international affairs #i just mean to say politics is extremely complicated even to me and even the people involved #and im sure people have good intentions #but my god you are over simplifying the situation and the solution #if it was that easy they would have done that #i dont say this from some point of superioty bcs im still learning and am in no way an expert #bur seeinf some peoples opinions on reddit and on here. its just so polarized and over simplified #like yeah sure i wish it was that easy BUT its not and why are you acting like it is 😭😭 #im never gonna go so far as to post serious shit on main bcs its not smth I'm interested in #even posting this feels weirdly too far for me #but its hard holding it at bay bcs stuff on here has to do w stuff im studying #so im often very *looking intently* #interesting to see the difference in opinion on here vs reddit vs my classes #catie.rambling.txt

[fangedtracks]

sorry i am having Real Emotions about this cm punk thing (and the sonny kiss thing) and also how AEW has been dog shit .

#chatter #not to be controversial on main but . #1) @TK just say you hate women and go. it has become increasingly obvious how little you care about the women on your roster #2) stop fucking . booking shit like ur smashing action figures together. yes wrestlers r dolls nd yes we make them fight fuck nasty in the #ring and kiss but that doesnt mean that you can just. squish wrestlers together and have it make sense (see adamjf vs. dark order.) #you HAVE to build up a story. you have to add context and emotion and personality to it. you cannot just pick wrestlers like ur throwing #a dart at a board. anyways . #3) i feel like AEW's roster has gotten SO large that storylines and whatever have become diluted. like there are SO many people (that he is #ACTIVELY NOT USING) that its like hard to follow whats happening and what feuds are occurring . #4) its also increasingly obvious to me how little he cares about queer wrestlers (see what he did to sonny + how he treats nyla rose + #how queer wrestlers are very often tokenized but not utilized or showcased) #5) i can also see where his . loyalty? lies (see to the elite) because i do feel like that has effected storylines (still REALLY angry how #their feud w the bcc went down whatever) #anyways i just feel like . AEW has been dog shit for a little bit and its just going to get worse bc TK literally does not know what hes #doing.

[izzy-b-hands]

Reminder that if the first thing I see on a blog new to following me are even vaguely positive posts abt h*rry p*tter, I'm gonna assume ur a t/erf/transphobic and immediately block u

Shout-out to the person this morning who liked one of my fics on here, followed me, then when i went to their blog literally the only post was something abt h p. Had me really excited (new person reading!) then really sad (they're most likely a transphobe) in the space of less than a minute before I blocked them. Hence this reminder that tbh I really didn't think I'd ever need to make but. Here we are.

(said as someone who read the books as a kid and at the time did v much have them as a big part of my life so like. I see the angle of nostalgia/rose tinted lenses that many claim, but the thing is that joanne is a piece of shit who wants ppl like me dead so fuck nostalgia, fuck her, fuck her books, there are far better authors and books out there to read/support/make a major part of ur life if ur so inclined.)

#censoring the bits i did so it doesn't wind up in those tags #I feel incredibly weird and uncomfortable making this post bc i fully anticipate another deluge of nasty msgs in the inbox as a result #I don't have anon on but you'd be shocked at the amount of ppl who don't care and will say the nastiest stupidest shit w/their url attached #but at the same time i do want ppl to know even tho this seems it should be obvious to me lmao #so. yeah. this was an uncomfortable thing to wake up to! I really wish they'd been chill bc i did get excited for a new reader but #I don't want a new reader if they're also someone who supports the sentient pile of shit that is j/kr #tbh this has happened at least once before and i still really wanna ask them like #u like my writing but must not like trans folks like me so. u want me dead but still want to consume my art? the fuck is that? #never will get an answer on it bc it likely wouldn't be worth the time or headache to ask but. anyway #i need to get up and get dishes done so when Housemate gets home we can hang out & i can maybe get some writing done

[enrapture]

I really hate how my brain works sometimes ;-;

#i feel so stupid #I feel like I never know when to stfu (thanks to adhd/experiences and shit like that) #and I just go on and on about a random ass topic or subject and I feel like #no one really cares they just make fun of me and I’m looked at as crazy lol #like pls I don’t want to ramble or talk your ear off or come off as annoying or weird pls #like it’s just how my brain works I’m sorry I am the way I am?? lmao #like I’ve always felt misunderstood and felt the need to overshare over explain even the obvious shit bc I feel like my point hasn’t gotten #across and I just dump dump dump esp if the conversation stimulates me FUCK #or something I find even remotely interesting

[starlooove]

The way I don’t post about hobie is akin to gatekeeping

#I adore him you don’t understand #but if I see another post that’s like #‘guys!!! hobie was played off as a joke but he was serious and kind!!! that’s what punk is all about!!!’ #I’m gonna lose it #nothing against it I actually agree #it’s just. so obvious #like it does not need to be paragraphs explaining that that’s literally the point #and again I don’t have issue with ppl who make the posts or whatver #but ppl being like ‘OMMMGGG?!’ #in the replies is so #like idk how to explain it I feel like a majority of y’all are caught up in the most obvious aspects of his character so u don’t look deeper #but to you it IS deep bc those obvious aspects aren’t obvious to you #idk like I feel like it’s only other black punks that get him beyond what y’all keep saying #bc the things y’all are discovering is shit we’ve lived and known for years like me personally I’m over it I KNOW #it’s as if someone just turned mha on and was like ‘guys…Dabi is angry at Endeavor. endeavor is meant to represent toxic societal standards’ #or someone made a 100k note post going #‘guys…Jason doesn’t HATE Bruce. he wants Bruce to love him in the way jason would love him’ #like we know that’s the plot #and don’t get me wrong some of y’all are incompetent asf and need it spelled out #but it’s just. annoying to see. #anyways yeah I love hobie but I can’t stomach going into his tag and seeing shit that’s like. the main point being treated as some profound- #-discovery. this is prolly pretentious asf but I have the right to be I’ve been a strong hobie stan for 5 years mwah <3 #and when I said blk punks earlier I acrually wanna say punks of color #like me personally I’ve seen so many Latino and native punks GETTING it #it’s actually just white punks acting brand new hate to say it

[louderfade]

exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.

#google has helpfully flagged this as a 'conspiracy theory' which let me know it was definitely worth paying attention to #sometimes a conspiracy theory turns out to be flatearth-tier but anything those in control are putting effort into discrediting #concerns me and makes me look deeper. if they're going to the effort to control the discourse there's something there that #threatens them. anything google calls a conspiracy theory is worth a closer look. it often means someone has gotten too close to the truth. #she's brave to be talking about this shit they basically cancelled her and forced her to apologize for talking about how they want #to take our guns and the media is lying to you and stirring up fear so they can get away with passing gun control #like wtf leftists should be all about gun rights. a disarmed population is totally at the mercy of the state's authority #it's not very punk to surrender entirely to regimes in power and let the only people with guns be the police #like c'mon guys we need guns. and it's like drugs. they exist anyway. better they do so in broad daylight than in the shadows #they let adam curits talk about this stuff for some reason and no one calls him a conspiracy theorist idk why but there's a reason #i guess his stuff is not a threat to them bc it's dense and heady and seven hours long so the masses will never absorb it #ex punk rocker yelling about new world order in plain language monologues of digestible length is a much bigger threat #i swear there are secretly fifty people in control of everything and their entire aim is to make sure it stays that way no matter what #but it's really gross how obvious it's getting like the whole system just funnels money straight to the top and they don't even care #about hiding it anymore they're just doing it out in open and denying objective reality with confidence it's too much sometimes #i swear i can feel my grasp on reality deteriorating. it's as if there were a loud buzzing in the out of doors that was getting #louder every day and nobody ever said anything to acknowledge that it was real nobody talked about hearing the buzzing but it just #keeps getting louder and i'm finally like wtf is with this buzzing and everyone gets mad at me for shouting over their netflix show #that they weren't really enjoying in the first place. like no one is happy in the modern world. why can't we talk about why without #turning against each other. that's why doug saying 'maybe we're all the same' is such a big deal to me. anyone who is trying to unite us #is doing important work. that trump supporter is not the enemy. they are the victim just like you.

[amsterdamlouie]

i forgot grey's anatomy had an autistic character in season 5.. but i truly hate the way richard lowkey disparages dixon for being autistic. i promise u.. her being autistic doesn't reflect her job as a surgeon. it may influence her bedside manner and how she interacts with others, but nothing about her work. i love richard but he can be a real 🤡 sometimes...

#maybe i'm just a little sensitive to tones n shit but it didn't make me feel good #bexley chatter #bexley watches #grey’s anatomy #keep in mind this season is from 2008-2009 so i'm not expecting good representation.. #i forget if they've attempted another autistic character in recent seasons but i want them to give another shot #and make it more relatable tbh... #bc i promise u. not every autistic person is virginia dixon. #so far it really feels like they wanted a dislikable character and put in virginia. #give me a character of an autistic individual who went thru years of social trauma #and had to wing it thru life understanding social cues etc etc #someone who you'd NEVER expect to be autistic #bc that's how many people go undiagnosed #especially women/afabs #if someone felt represented by dixon i love that for them and i won't take that away from them #i just want to see someone where it isn't as obvious... #we all have different support needs #different personalities #anyway i'll shut up now

[yatiso]

Hey I was just peaking at the reblogs for my addition bc I did not expect it to pick up any kind of traction but then it did dhjsks anyways I want to clarify that when i said its not the artists fault what I meant (and didnt say bc I felt it was a whole other discussion oops thats on me) is that its the labels fault. Recording labels are notoriously nefarious in how they exploit artists and i didnt wanna blame all artists for that (tho some are def part of the problem as a whole they are not imo). I hope that clears things up and I enjoyed reading ur thoughts!!!

omg when i was typin up those tags i was literally hoping op wouldnt read bc it came off so cunty >~< im not upset at you im just really passionate! record labels ARE notoriously horrible but i rlly feel like if an artist has a backbone they can figure out SOMETHING ya know! is a painter a painter if they only paint what and how and when theyre told to? is an ai algorithm that produces something that makes u think of a painting based on what you feed it a painter? no! it might be interesting, might be cool— but theres no substance to it, intrinsically— the art aspect would come from the person putting in the keywords or the viewer (art is in the eye of the beholder, but art isnt art without some sort of soul.) would u want to only see ai paintings forever? would you get bored with meaning strictly coming from how you perceive it and knowing that thats the case? or would you start to crave something created by a real person? record labels are horrible and theyre seemingly doing just that with music! but i feel like if its not common knowledge that record labels are rancid rotten… then im not sure what is! i think with such an in flux of Artists that are more Face than talent, and with Influencer becoming a dream job for every one their kids and their mom, if someone that is Not an artist decides to try make it big as a musician for fame (or sells out for the maintenance/continual acquisition of fame) then i think theyre also to blame and theyre gonna get (and according to the streams, are getting) whats coming to them ya kno. (note that im not saying Bad Artists, music is subjective but i think its very easy for ppl to recognize on some bare minimum level when someone famous/trendy that puts music out that doesnt have a musical bone in their body, or a vision/idea to express truly) like its late and ive been up since 6 am so im passionate but the adderall is wearing off so im not sure how much sense this makes, but an artist, i feel regardless of most situations, is responsible for what they put out, especially with how easy it is to do the work of a record label pretty much on your own now.

#the q&a #definitely not ALL artists. but how many artists since hmm 2013 do you think this applies to? #far too fucking many! #and this makes it seem like i take music so seriously. and to some extent i do #but even fucking parody music has more of a vision than the shit thats comin out in boat loads in recent! #its not about bad vs good music its truly due to artists (whether from restrictions or selling out) not being artists! #and hmm i dont want to go back and rewritr this response but i feel like i should say #its very obvious to me that not everyone knows that about record deals or that straight up scamming/loopholes/whatever form of fucking over #doesnt happen bc it truly does. but is it happening at more of a rate (or maybe proportion is a better way to think of it) than it has #over all these years? #again i want to say im sorry this all definitely sounds like im yelling at you but im soo soo tired and so soo high strung about this topic #im trying very hard to get out what i think about it all… if it doesnt make sense im so sorry #edit: i also want to add that i think wanting to have fun and make music can be a Genuine reason to make music #but if youre doing it primarily for money or fame than like *spits*