#and it just kinda stuck ever since

[ohitslen]

Something something I was thinking about this afternoon over on Twitter right here

#no real meaning behind anything I just thought it would be funny #inside my head there are things that are happening beyond our comprehension. mine included. this is one of them #wouldn’t it be so cute? not to Kni maybe but to me and Vash sure is! #I used to be at the church choir when I was a kid for like a year and then never came back to it #my mom was a choir girlie her whole adolescence so it just kinda stuck with me for a little #I am not a catholic since years ago so this is double the funny bc I can barely remember anything LMAOOO #ww WILL become a priest and he will be the worst priest ever committing sacrilege after sacrilege incredibly sinful #oh religious guilt! how great I used to have loads of that one when I was a kid. it wasn’t even endorsed by my family I just thought that #hell was a scary place even if they never told me I would be punished. lucky in that aspect but they didn’t count with the fact that #I had undiagnosed adhd and anxiety so that was a hell lot of fun so let’s project yeah! #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Kni saverem #millions knives #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #nicholas trigun #vash #wolfwood #nai trigun #Kni Trigun #church choir! AU #funniest thought ever like what the fuck even is this OQNMSKW

[sealrock]

me and a friend were talking about thetinne (tauvane) and the possibility of her being half-elezen and how that'll affect her storyline

I'm still on the fence about this but look at that sweet face. thetinne in her younger years maybe

#mypost. #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv oc #q. #baby girl. baby #idk ever since i made tauvane i was kinda stuck on how she looks. something about her gave me issues with visualization #and i don't have any other highlander oc save for chiron #i'm doing away with the sky pirate plot as i'm rebuilding her lore and this doesn't seem half-bad with the current plotline i have cooking #it just means every pic i took of her up until this point will be out of date :^) #rough draft i have is that she was born thetinne greystone and was the bastard daughter of baron ajax de euyevair and a midlander maid #her mom sent her off to a nunnery to be raised after being fired but she eventually came to live in her father's household #she did not have a good time at the nunnery and her relationship with her half-siblings was still volatile #her life in ishgard up until then was hell on earth. still working out the details of her takami and achille #if i go down this route it'll mean achille will be 1/4th elezen. it also partially explains why you can't see his ears. he's still tall tho #anyway i'm still on break i just made this quick set at 8:30 this morning lol #🎐

[mattodore]

#river dipping #every time i unlock my phone i get stuck for ten minutes just staring #anyway.............. hello nkjdfjdkfn #vanished friday night and then i've been SUFFERING #cramping like you would NAWTTTTTT believe #ever since then and haven't logged in to do anything other than read some quotes from literate passion which >:) i now have an epub for #so i'm going to read that soon i'm excited it's like 400+ pages i think so <3 #but god the amount of ibuprofen i've taken the last three days...... #the amount of SLEEP???? i've been getting??????????? insane #anyway. #i finished putting together a nav. post for mobile users but i like my pinned too much atm so for now it'll sit in my drafts #and i think my avpd is kinda getting to me so i'm having trouble getting myself to interact atm </3 #um. #so give me some time to check my activity and actually reply back #this post is fr just bc i don't want to leave anyone hanging but i'm also like. unwell atm kfdnjghkdnh #i will for sure be back sometime in like... the next day or two? #but for now i'm just going to stay offline for a bit #um. so like......... just don't be surprised if i'm pretty quiet in the tags on posts and stuff when i do? idk. i'm hoping the avpd is #just acting up bc i'm not feeling well? otherwise...... well. #f in the chat to pay respects #like i'll push my way through it anyway bc i've learned it's the only way to keep myself from having an Isolation Spell #but it's still pretty tough to do... anyway. love you all <3 miss you dearly MWAH #the disorders............ they're just winning out rn #.............also now you can see how long it normally takes me to type out the tags that i do. like yeah this took twenty minutes #i reread what i type a lot before i even think to hit post

[answrs]

playing Scarlet for a giveaway and doing shiny hunts in the crater and was reminded from my first time coming down here there's something about how the machines in this abandoned facility - housing an android completely isolated from humans, even her own son that she's not allowed to speak to except by proxy through you, who's entire identity was built by her creator to be a perfect replica of herself, memories and form and all, to literally Become Her after the original died - is the only healing station to address your pokemon by their names, rather than the more clinical designated species.

i dunno, maybe it's just the trans name and identity stuff I've been dealing with lately but like. it definitely made me feel a certain way back then when i first saw it, and especially makes me feel a way to see it now.

#i don't have nor care about the dlc so it might not be true anymore for the game as a whole #but base game? yeah. #pokemon scarvio #pokemon scarlet #answrs is queer #not gonna lie I actually kinda avoid the pokecenters now for healing? because it feels oddly (or not so oddly) cold #like it's frustrating. #sometimes i wish my character could snip back at them. because no! their name is not Chien-Pao #it's Cui-Cut! say their fuckin name! #(I name many of my Mythicals and Legendaries by their vocalizations if they have legible text cries) #(if pokemon name themselves in their vocalizations...) #(well then who am I to address them instead by whatever name someone else decided is theirs?) #(idk that's just the impression I got way back in the early days and it's something that's stuck with me ever since.) #pokemon

[rapha-reads]

Y'all: French is such a weird language

Me, helping my little sister with her English homework: how the heck did I ever learn English, none of this make sense.

I've been thinking a lot about Sofía Vergara's line in Modern Family lately: "Do you know how frustrating it is to have to translate everything in my head before I say it? To have people laugh in my face because I'm struggling to find the words? Do you know how smart I am in [French]?"

Because, like... mood. It doesn't matter how fluent I am in English, or that my friends don't mock me and are very patient with me when I'm struggling in Spanish. I'm never talking to them in my native language, so do they really know me? They've never heard me actually talk, when you consider it.

Doing my thesis defence half in Spanish half in English only made me all the more aware of how much I don't say because I can't say it.

#rapha rambles #languages #native language #secondary languages #good thing: i have been studying and talking english for more than a decade so i'm kinda good at making it make sense now #insane thing: teaching it to my 13yo sister makes me realize how hard it is #anyway i miss speaking french sometimes. i know i talk to my siblings or parents on the phone but it's not the same #i've never watched modern family (or maybe a couple of episodes here and there) but i saw that quote around the web one day #and it just stuck with me ever since because that's my reality

[maddy-ferguson]

i was so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere is literally me i skipped a grade and now my friends from high school are done with school and are getting their first jobs and stuff and i'm in school with people who were born two years after me. like i lost three full years lmaooo

#but i'm not that mad or sad about it because i don't mind not working like AT A JOB i'm even considering going into academia which would #mean even more years but like we'll see because i will have spent EIGHT YEARS in university when i'm done since it's five years to like. do #anything actually do something. only three more years to go yay #year 1: depressed year 2: not as depressed but i failed the classes i needed to pass to do the thing i wanted to be doing so i was kinda #stuck but i didn't know what else i wanted to study so i was like. i'll just do this get through my three years and then i'll do something #i like better. because i could have theoretically. except. i did not love it and i wasn't particularly good at it. also was still depressed #for like the entire first semester and my first year i passed for like my first semester so during my second year i had classes for year 2 #during one semester classes for year 1 during another semester. it's actually easy but i don't know if that'll make sense the way i wrote #it. year 3 was 2020-2021 so covid and like i was saying the other day i was NOT working like i was kind of for the first semester but. oh #my god. my favorite class i learned like 60 pages like what we had to learn was 60 pages long and then you had to do like an essay or #whatever idk. no it wasn't even an essay but i czn't explain. i got like. a 3.5. OUT OF 20 #so i was like yeah i'm not doing this anymore this is obviously not working for me so for the rest of the year (oh yeah we had class online #fully from november to well april when it ends) i was like. rewatching grey's anatomy and whatnot. that's when i rewatched grey's. also ahs #my not working semester in 2021 is also when i watched dawson's creek! because that's when they put it on netflix. #fun fact #good times honestly? but yeah #also i think about some of the things i learned a lot like it's very good to know i'm glad that i know it #i Am bitter but it's for other reasons #and like i say: brf slt #rory dropping out of yale is kinda so me if i had ever dropped out😁 which is why her graduating on time is very annoying and boring. her #ass should not have graduated on time...

[2bloved]

i caved and redownloaded crk a few days ago after seeing peppermint cookie finally being added and I was like. Omg ?!?!?! anyway I'm starting to redecorate my kingdom and i made a thing for my sugar gnomes ♥

since I did it for ovenbreak if u wanna add me I'm on the pure vanilla server and my ign is APPLEC0RE (probably will change soon, will edit if I do)

#derek.txt #its been barren for like.. a year after i removed everything (it used to be winter themed) #youd think my kingdom would look better since ive played since launch but.. nope! lul! #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #im a crk boomer.. i was here before the g/nshin fans attacked /SILLY /LIGHTHEARTED #i stopped playing around after the hollyberry update cuz i got stuck on the raspberry bossfight when that was still like #the hardest thing ever LOL #and also because i could only play on emulator and since. well. yea #but it can now kinda run on my phone!!! but even then its so difficult cuz like.. i have to restart the app #MULTIPLE times to do anything. like if i wanna battle the app crashes because i spent a wee second too long doing someghing else #idk why it does this?? if its a storage thing or just mu phone dying and being shit after hitting the mcdonalds pavement thing

[kkujo]

school is so weird... you see the same people in the same building five days a week for the best part of a decade and even if you're not friends you know their names and faces... and then one day school ends and you just. leave. and never see most of them again ☹

#thinking about all the people who touched my life who i'll never see again #wondering about my impact #do people ever think about me #the guy who would play chess with me at lunch when my friend group started excluding me.. #the girl who came and sat with me at prom to watch the firework display even though we'd never spoken before because i was sitting alone.. #the way people impact you and then they're just gone forever. sickening #but people are kind and good. like. i have faith in humanity #there were mean people too obviously but. there's always kindness #anyways just thinking about that. like. the people i grew up with. i wasn't friends with most of them but we watched each other grow #some of the people in my class had been in the same classes as me since we were 4 ☹ and then one day you're grown up and they're gone #that prom thing was important to me tho bc prom night was literally the last time i saw everyone #bc i finished my exams the week before so. aside from going in to pick up my results #prom night was the last time everyone in my year was together ☹☹ and then i just never saw anyone again #i hated school but i miss it so much. most confusing nostalgia ever #i didn't want to be there and i was so happy when i finished and i wouldn't go back if i could #but it hurts bc i missed out on so many experiences and just being around people.. i miss it #starting college (uk college not university) in september so maybe i'll be able to heal a bit #bc getting sick and dropping out of school ☹ being stuck in toxic friend groups and never having proper teenage experiences ☹ #kinda fucked me up i'm ngl ☹ #(no surprises by radiohead playing) no it's fine. it's fine #the way you spend so long in one place... with the same people... and then it's just gone. fuck 🤦‍♀️ #even if you didn't like the place or the people... it aches in such a weird way omg.. #i literally couldn't drive past my school for a bit bc. i used to get up at 7am & go there every day. and now i don't. does this make sense #ok to rb

[zemnarihah]

much to think about.

#i had lunch w my sister today and she was talking abt our dad and abt how him being like emotionally abusive made her a huge people pleaser #and she was like yeah i think you didnt get that as much #you were always the one who stuck to your guns or just didnt talk to him #and at first i was like what bc i literally dont think anything i ever did could be rlly described as actually sticking to ones guns i alwa #felt like i was so avoidant of any conflict w him bc yk i was like. terrified of him. but i was thinking abt it and compared to her i think #like yeah actually shes right? bc i would avoid conflict w him but i did that by like fully cutting off our relationship as much as #possible and she did it by trying to please him all the time. which probably neither were that healthy obviously they were jsut like. our #instincts for how to protect ourselves yk. but the thing is for the past few months i thought i had been learning how to not be so scared #of making ppl mad and to be more assertive and stuff. but i think actually i probably have always had that strength maybe it was just. #kinda beaten down for a while since standing up for myself always made things worse. so the other option to not allow him to treat me like #that was to cut myself off from him. But i still did that yk? idk. #like i was thinking more abt it and #i was the one who left the church at 18. after i moved out but i did. and i didnt hide it after that. my sister has apparently been mentall #out for years now and nobody in our family knows but me. bc she is so scared to disappoint him. and like idk. i always was like why couldnt #i get out earlier bc i know so many ppl who just said fuck you im not going anymore at like 14 or smth and i was like why couldnt i do that #but i guess looking at it from my sisters pov our situation was just really fucking hard. and i guess im realizing i was honestly a lot #stronger and braver than i thought i was that whole time. idk. #lol its like bittersweet. bc it makes it so much more real that it was actually super fucked up. the way we grew up. like i think sometimes #the easiest thing is for me to go haha yeah my dad was kind of a dick and whooaaahhh so crazy i grew up mormon hahah! but its like no that #was fucked up. but look at how i made it through that yk. its kind of making me. idk. develop some more respect for myself i guess #idk idk #ignore me i am just journal posting . lol #exmo tag

[hakkikun]

I haven’t made any new content since october. WELL...

#i dont know why but i feel stuck and cant make anything new #before i felt like i could express myself through making gifsets and all but it started feeling like a 'need' #instead of 'want' #which is why i decided not to torture myself and this was it ever since #of course im sorry to those who follow me for this type of content and i appreciate the support for my sets i received! <3 #but mental health has been acting up badly and i kinda dipped all social media except for tumblr lmao #but yeah i will still reblog and rethink life choices about the content here on tumblr because very small part of me want to go back to #doing it #but another bigger part is saying a big no and to just go do anything else #yeah anyway this is the hiatus update nobody asked for it but i felt the need to explain myself xd #hope everyone is having a beautiful day/night <3

[pikachu-deluxe]

so. i had a dream some weeks ago

i was a pikachu, and i remember this dream vividly mostly because i experienced some kind of microagression (also because i was a pikachu)

no idea how to express what the whole experience of it was but i'll try

for context, the world was like normal except with pokemon. i just happened to be a pikachu

in part of the dream, i went into a restaurant, but i remember once i was there, the staff didn't want to let me in with the people eating there because i was a pokemon

they said i had to have an id (like on a collar or something) to prove i was domesticated or something like that

if i didn't have one they wouldn't let me in, but i saw that there were no pokemon in there

there was a separate room/division in the restaurant for pokemon. like, a small section to the side while everything else was for people

the pokemon that were eating over there looked either annoyed, bored or just sad, and there were some people outside the area with i think houndooms to make sure the pokemon there wouldn't cause trouble for some reason

it made me so irrationally angry to see that. i was seething there, that they'd treat us like pets at best, and did some things that made the staff have to throw me back outside

so i just ran back to the streets as soon as they let me go

#there's some parts of the dream i left out #but this is the part that most stuck in my mind #i was most likely a wild pokemon based on what i remember #just wandering through the streets #tho i do remember i seemed to stop in one place often at least #so idk #personal #? #just kinda wanted to share this #bc it was something i just had on my mind ever since #not sure if i said this coherently #but i hope so lol

[chisatowo]

Decided to tweak Pent's design a bit and decided to make her a new ref while I was at it! MUCH happier with this design

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #furry #furry art #sfw furry #oc posting #pent my belovedddd #I hope that with this design I have an easier time drawing her since I rly do wanna draw her more #but yeah bitches who walked into a clothing store and immediately go for ripped up shit with big pockets #but yeah my main issue with her old design is that it just felt too plain to me? #she just wasnt very shaped is what I mean her siouette kinda sucked #I just realised I dont think i ever explained pent's basic deal? uhhh #ok basically she used to live in a small town but then uh oh town was attacked and she got hurt rip #next time she woke up she was in cake's lab and freaked the fuck out and hid in the vents until she passed out again and woke up again a #few months later rinse and repeat for like 4 years (she was 8 whem the town was attacked) #when she was around 12 she finally stopped instantly running away since the friend she liked to hang out with in the lab left and she was #able to be slowly more stabalised physically but she still needed to replenish the magic keeping her alive every now and them #she stuck around willingly for much longer than she wanted to since she was scared of cake and found tge other ppl living there annoying #but she wanted to actually recover as much as she could have since as mean as she is her parents always drilled into her head how rude it #was to run off before a doctor is done helping and undo their hard work #but eventually she started getting really homesick and feelimg real cooped up since nome of them were allowed outside and decided she #wanted out but cake was like. no lol. and at that point she started getting more actively agressive and cruel to the other residents #most of them didnt want to be here either but she was likr 13 and freaking the fuck out so its understandable #eventually some melody stuff and some ari stuff colides in the lab which lets most of the other patients leave along with pent #and then applebounce has a breakdown but thats not that important to pent rn #pent wants to run off and go home but she cant actually go too far from the lab since she still needs magic recharges #enter bud and daisy being kidnapped and pent sees the two freaking out and seea bud and is like oh shit is that my old friend #and Im out of tags rip

[bumblingbabooshka]

Kes!

#Kes #st voyager Kes #uhhh I like redesigning her to look like a little mischief maker #In my mind her personality is a bit naive - very quick on her feet - a bit mischevious/meddling - a tendency to be overconfident #She has a 'I'm sure everything will work out!' mentality #In my Voyager canon Kes & Neelix only ever have a friendship brother/sister relationship #but I do like how even though ocampans typically only have one partner their entire lives (since their lives are so short) #Kes is canonically willing to break up with Neelix! It's interesting - she's a free spirit! #So I think Kes is a bit flirty...not really looking for a long term relationship with anyone though! #She just wants to kinda vibe around wherever she ends up #also she gets white hairs very early which dull to a gray the older she gets #I think it'd be fun if she stuck around Voyager when Seven is introduced and SHE was her mentor-figure instead of the doctor #Bc it'd show growth in my version of Kes (from a more reckless person needing to be mentored to a person who can mentor others) #Doctor mentors Kes and Kes can now mentor Seven in her own different way! #Also bc I thought of the following exchange #Kes: Oh Seven it's always a pleasure talking with you..I never found the time to have kids of my own so it's almost like you're my daughter! #Seven: (staring at this person who she was told is like 3-4 and who looks only slightly older than her) ???????? #st voyager art #st voyager #star trek kes #kes art #canon Kes is too bland for my taste so I will creechafy her #I also love that the doctor spends like so much time with Kes worrying about her and teaching her and everything #and then Kes turns to Tuvok and is like 'you know...you remind me of my dad :)' like DAMN girl the EMH is RIGHT there !! absolutely WRECKED. #Doc: What about me Kes!? #Kes: You remind me of my granny :)

[girlboysollux]

uhhhh jade harley dressing up as herbert west for halloween

#aand post #my brain has been stuck on reanimator ever since i finished the first movie a few days ago #and of course homestuck has been a long running interest #so my brain just kinda. mushed the two together when i saw a piece of jade fanart just now #anyways. i would draw this if i had the time. or the skill. but alas. i have neither #homestuck #jade harley #homestuck headcanons #homestuck hc #<- does this post even count as a headcanon #whatever. its my blog. i can tag my posts however i damn well please

[astrxealis]

sometimes i randomly remember things about my childhood! (neko atsume)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i miss the games i used to play as a kid !! on browser or mobile or whatever !! #there's this one. ps2 or ps3 game me and lune used to play a lot and we once looked for it years ago and found it again #but now. ever since then. we can't :(( i still remember jumping... and then that waterfall...... #kh is so special to me. only ever played a bit of 1 and then the full of 3 so i am very weird but. yeah! #i never got off the island! and then . that really stuck /pos and then i got into kh3 yeaaaars after #bcs my aunt (bless her. shes the one who gets us into a lot of games ngl) got kh3 but she didnt. really like it if i'm not mistaken #understandable but i still really enjoyed kh3 hehe ^^ even w its imperfections! game was kinda ya fr but <3 #and then i really just. realized. that oh! this is something from my childhood!! #anyways yeah most of all i probably miss ofc the memories #but also the games on browser. jmkit was smth i really remember LOL i was a roleplay kid fr lmfaooo #BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT. since uhh. that thing people used to do games n stuff on browser shut down #ig ever since then i've not played on browser as often! ig that's one reason why i really like gbf #it's better for me to play in the app on my phone but also browser is just. really nice for numerous reasons ofc #but also it reminds me of that !! anyways i rmbr the bartender game so well #and the one w the haunted house and the ghosts good gods the games i liked to play as a kid #lowkey really make sense LMFAO SOME OF THEM WERE REALLY. untitled goose game vibes fr #yeah i once got scammed on this one browser game. i was so sad LMFAO BLESS I NEVER USED MY ACTUAL EMAIL #<- back then my emails were random ones like. they always were to do w crystals tho #so you can see one reason why raha is vv special to me :] awh man i used to be a mlp kid. good times #mhm yeah ... !! i used to be super into lego too. movies games and ofc the toys and all. hehe #tbh a lot of these stuff i actually do want to get back into. its less... 'growing out of it' for me and more 'growing into other things' #as i age and having to actually manage my time now. and the reality of being an adult somewhat soon is. there #and i don't think peer pressure affects me as much as... some but it's also quite there. i want to fit in... kinda? not really? kinda? #whoops that took a turn. help. ANYWAYS BACK TO IT ARGHH I MISS THOSE WEBSITES !!!!! #wordguy or something awh man no wonder i was a smart and nerdy kid and until now. i was always into those stuff #fun fact kid me i liked to collect paper. mostly so i could write but yeah. fun fact i also was known as the jacket kid in like idk 6th #grade and 5th? bcs i always wore my jacket even w ph weather being the way it is <3 #yk change is scary. im a sentimental person! its so scary but at the same time so cool n interesting #sigfjsbdkdbskdn. interesting how all we come across in life (esp as kids!) shape and change us

[thurnerstorms]

this band is the only thing keeping me sane rn

#so many assignments and shit to do #but just opening spotify and listening to this album again and again makes me feel so much better #crazy to think that like 3 months ago i was buying the ticket to kalorama just because #i guess i had to since they were apart of my life #the thing is they still are and my love for them ever since the tour started has become bigger and bigger #this album has surpassed all my expectations and i can't begin to describe how good it makes me feel #i'm genuinely in love with it #i wouldn't want it any other way #this is something that didn't quite happen with tbhc #i even gave up on the tour like halfway #i have no recollection of their 2019 concerts #that era was kinda weird and i think we can all agree #still i listen to tbhc now and appreciate it soooo much more #had it on loop for the past few weeks along with the singles #this era feels right #and i fully support their artistic choices and the direction they take #will never understand people saying they want wpsiatwin shit back like come one #get over it please #it's like they're stuck in time #not only are they 16 years older we are too!!!!!! people change our music taste expands #music fucking evolves #why would they be a one trick pony #the talent of mr alexander are you kidding me why would he limit himself to that #let him express how he wants let the band do what they want if you don't like it's totally fine but don't just bash it cause it's #not your thing anymore #bro humbug owns my soul but i wouldn't fucking beg for humbug 2.0 unironically that would be so boring #each album has its meaning its sound its purpose #what am i even saying anymore lol i'm just venting #i finished a meeting now for a college assignment and yes i'm super tired and want to sleep but i just instinctively went on spotify #and started playing the album