#and it just breaks my FUCKING heart

[amikoroyaiart]

Some 22 and 09 angst doodles

#mw3 spoilers #ghostsoap #soapghost #call of duty #modern warfare III #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #i tried to draw fluff but it didn't help me #so i've decided to just put all my feelings into these doodles #it was easier with 09 knowing they were both dead #but 22 were my safe space kinda like their second chance #and to see what the fuck happened in the campaign breaks my heart #because i know they did that just because it was rushed and it had no ending #such a disrespect to the cast and the fans

[sporesgalaxy]

its so important to me that artists remember they can fuck around. you never have to use tools as intended. you can always skip steps. you dont have to be organized. you dont have to be neat. you can put as little effort as you want into the parts of the process you dont find fun. maybe if youre making products you cant do these things but on your own time you can do literally actually whatever the hell. it doesnt matter how long you spend on it youve made art and its complete when you decide to quit. yee haw

#breaks my heart when i see people sad they cant 'finish' anything . i used to post comics without panels #just a bunch of floating heads with speech bubbles. ugly phone pictures of them. night unreadable #and i learned so much from doing that. im good at a lot of things bc i made those. they were valuable #all art is like that!!!!!!!!!! #*throws a chair across the fucking #adddna

[grvvves]

Concept: They actually love you and not just the idea of you.

#i’m such an idiot #I break my own heart #it’s been a while and I’m still upset #I let myself believe I could be happy #just to have my own realities get the best of me #fuck. fuck.

[fleapit]

can we pleasee please please stop fucking fearmongering and blaming trans men for the predstrogen situation. please god. posts about "trans men teaming up with terfs to get trans women banned!" with zero sources all over my dash. blaming "transandrophobia truthers" for all the transmisogyny. have you all lost your fucking minds?? what the fuck happened to t4t??? what the fuck happened to trans solidarity??? why is "transfem separatism" even a subject worth entertaining????

anyone who says other trans people are the enemy is a fucking fed. jesus christ

#my blood is fucking boiling right now and my heart is breaking #i keep seeing people go off the deep end with 'trans men arent oppressed! trans men face no discrimination because they have male privilege #its the fucking 2010 “trans men are betraying their female gender!” shit all over again! #transandrophobia #fleapit's patented rants #sorry im just. so sick of it. #saw it from a fucking FORCE-MASC BLOG like are you serious???

[slymanner]

hurt my heart why dontcha.

#adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #simon petrikov #BMO #this is seriously fucked up u cant do this to me im so sadSNSSN #IMAGINE BEING BMO #just one day finn and jake say they'll brb and they're going on a important mission... #and BMO after this and them being gone for awhile just see's the world go into peril #death everywhere. no sign of his friends expect remnant's of the past.. #and the only survivor is them... #no other's expect the thing who released hell upon this once lively and colorful world in the first place. #and BMO just accept's this...tells themselves that they're still around...cosplay's as they're old friend's...this is fucked up #in the current timeline all his friend's are gone to natural circumstances. #but for this one? it was too early. too sudden. atleast in this one BMO will remember they're name's but...man. #this poor lil robo cant get a BREAK. #AND THEY FUCKING DIE IN SACRIFICE AT THE END TOO SHUTUPPPDPDPDPD #and the fact BMO also consider's “jerry” a friend...not knowing...that the same person caused all this. #this is...SO FUCKED UP #WHY MUST THE SHOW WRITERS DO THIS TO MY HEART.

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

[gabe-lovebot]

councilor 3D model

i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him

[link]

please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)

currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.

#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild #have fun playing toys with him #ultrakill #councilor #councilor ultrakill #3d stuff #obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on #so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks #(like obviously the wings & halo) #(but also the chestplate design) #but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces? #i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored #i had to add them #to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff- #i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result #but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!! #gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but #i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this #i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project #and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going #(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress) #this was like 1 entire month in the making #but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost #so thank you guys for liking it <3 #i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head #but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe

[yea-baiyi]

say what you want about svsss but hands down the most distraught i have ever been while reading a mxtx novel is after the bing-ge extra. what do you mean he asked shen qingqiu to come with him. what do you mean “it’s not fair”. what do you mean he looked back.

#svsss #luo binghe #luo bingge #lbh #meta stuff #every time i read that part i literally have to just stop to recover #because what the hell. he’s making his escape but at the last moment he turns. #he turns and looks back and then he vanished forever. and the narration is shocked #that it was so easy. #what in the eurydice mangan’s sister and lot’s wife have you done to me #turned into a pillar of salt #i don’t know if i have it in me to be more eloquent about this. it’s just. #out of everything this is just the ultimate tragedy #the fact that it’s just part of an extra. the FIRST extra #i just sit there like i’m supposed to just move on from that????? i’m supposed to read ahead and watch bingqiu fuck #and not want to rip my own heart out?????? #i just. i just. i said i’m not ready to get into it with svsss i just know it’ll break me

[beescake]

Sorry for the spam (^o^;) I just really like your blog

no need to apologize ayy!

in this corner we welcome all forms of enjoyment, regardless of whether you're a

happy to have yall here w me,

headin into homestuck 2024 :^)

#was debating if sollux truly was lurker type but then i rmbr'd him quietly reading all of karkat's memos for a good laugh HAHAHAHAAH #ask #aleemie #homestuck #karkat vantas #sollux captor #solkat #2024 #vioart #but o. regarding the etiquette learned frm other socmed #spamming here is safe+good! it does not harm the op by shadowbanning like instagram #and its not 💀 like twitter where ur likes/following are permanently set to public #ur tumblr experience is within ur control it can be as free/empty/curated as u want!! #((tho ofc i do encourage rbing for ppl who've been hoping to start that habit!! #s'cool to slowly work ur way up from the extra special posts that hv lingered longest in ur heart and quietly build ur cache trove :-) #for example back when i was struggling to rt on a new twt acc i just started setting nonsense criteria for myself LOL #like “breaking this void is scary holy fuck ok i shall start by rting posts w brownish/reddish clrs bcs its inspo vibes for my art” #and gradually after a while of deliberate sharing i gained more confidence to share a larger variety of posts that make me feel things!!!! #no more training wheels i may be scared but i love loving more!!!! #same goes for engaging w fics too it takes energy to think of how to comment and thats ok‚ do ur best to explore what works for u!!!! #take screenshots of ur fave paragraphs & start annotating in gallery/notes app if that helps!!!! #also tumblr's customizable queue means u can stack posts and bolt hgehehe. my preferred form of existing on the net))

[madootles]

it’s always october 3rd somewhere

#I cannot stop drawing them #it's fun so fun #shout out to everyone who follows me who has been enduring the last month of this with me #i'm sure it won't last forever but it's nice to want to draw something for once so I will continue to lean into it :-) #edward elric #alphonse elric #fma 03 #fma 2003 #fullmetal alchemist #fmab #although I haven't seen brotherhood in like a decade and I don't even know if I finished it then #it's weird... I vividly remembered 03 but I definitely remember things that I remember from fmab that aren't in 03 #this is barely a sentence... u get it tho #anyway brotherhood #maybe I'll watch it soon idk #I should just read the manga probably #ed's BIG BOOTS #look at them #al in the outfit #idk man cos .... breaks my fucking heart #you really need some recovery time after watching 03 #it's just brutal #this brush has quickly become my favorite i am obsessed clearly #sketch scribble!!!!!! #also I know their eyes aren't dark ok but they are here #ed and al #automail #ok love u bye

[transzilla]

I believe in not only corrupting eggs to transition to men but to light fires under the asses of men who transition but stop taking it seriously for whatever reason. With enough repeated failure and desires left unsatisfied, even these big shot, loud and angry, rowdy tboys start to have that soft boy fetishized weakness rigomoroll shit catch up with them. They start to familiarize and hide behind their own percieved inferiority, these hot young soldiers with all this potential losing steam and left to reminisce while they're still half-baked, a bunch of poor bastards. Steam powered, roided inertia slows to a vapid convention and stops at a stale, repetitive restriction of depleted self esteem. The raw abrasion of transition wears off and the bullshit we deal with as men wears on us, makes us minimize ourselves, keeps us bound to the same old same old, always for the best.

Doesn't have to be the case. In an age of mediocrity and the demonization of queer masculinity, be that man. If you feel unhappy and discontent and you don't know how, take your transition a little more seriously. You don't just do it once, you come out and take the steroids, heehee hoohoo i'm pinocchio and the blue fairy made me a real boy and you're done forever happily ever after. Masculinity is about constantly challenging yourself, and if you're being challenged as a man constantly it can be a sign of a good thing. You will grow in the face of, in spite of, and because of adversity. Shoot things. Hit things. Fucking stand up for yourself and stop letting people walk all over you. Step outside of your comfort zone. Make yourself dangerous. Make others dangerous. Walk the streets with no fear knowing if somebody gives you shit you've broken yourself in so many times you're equipped to deal with it. Don't slow down and remember who the fuck you are.

#forcemasc #autoandrophilia #forced masculinization #cause i see all these men who just lose confidence and choose to shelter themselves as much as they can. anxiety takes over they surrender #breaks my heart. #if you cant transition and its not safe to do so? microdose on transitioning. be that safe person that people can come to. #stand up and call bullshit out when you see it. don't let anyone push you around. #and honestly the most masculine fucking thing you can do is endure it i mean fucking live through it #work and live to see better days because i believe in u champ and i know u can do it #take it one day at a time. work with what you got.

[charrfie]

#im so sad it was such a good ask blog too but my mood has been so severely impacted by it i literally could not handle it anymore #big surprise your favorite character being put through constant and severe turmoil is emotionally damaging. who wouldve guessed #it makes me sad people are so fucking mean too :^( #<- in relation to some of the asks folks send in to guide stories along #like sure cute aggression yeah whatever but some of yall are straight up cruel for no reason. ill never understand it #i really wish i had the heart to keep following this blog bc its such a huge and beautiful passion project... but im sensitive:^( #even if its fictional #sorry to the mutual i had to break </3 wahhhh #late night personal posting. goodnight #laika originals #oh should i tag this as uhhh #vent #? kind of not really im just talking here

[sittinginsunflowers]

My heart absolutely breaks for Amangeaux. like imagine after not seeing people for half a decade, you finally reunite only to immediately be plunged into battle. No time for awkward explanations or stilted apologies, it’s fight together or die. But she also can’t help herself but care for them. She tries to protect raphaniel from his own worst instincts, but steps back when she realizes he needs this for himself. She tries to reign in karna’s blood-thirst, while still being willing to follow her down into the pits if it means a shot at helping karna to safety.

(She doesn’t know that these people she cares so deeply for are the ones who poisoned her husband to keep her from producing an heir. Or that karna offered up her baby for murder, not even caring to check if he actually posed a threat to the throne. And even worse, they’ve told each other these secrets, and are completely remorseless about what they’ve done.)

And then, after being blackmailed into doing the FDA’s dirty work which nearly broke her as a person, she discovers the person who organized it all was the same woman who’s looked after her all her life!! and she finds this out right before she has to deal the final blow to end her suffering!!

#the ravening war #the ravening war spoilers #lady amangeaux epicée du peche #anjali bhimani #dimension 20 #d20 #i am not well #characters who love and care despite it being not in their best interests just break my heart #she’s got the biggest fucking heart and I just want to give her and Colin a hug #she’s trying so hard to do the right thing and be a decent person in the worse circumstances #and no one really cares for her the way she does for them #I can’t wait to see where she ends up

[slavonicrhapsody]

so sick of seeing elden ring fans saying stuff like “blaming george rr martin for this part of the game I don’t like because we all know he loves violence and misogyny and incest and being edgy and the game would’ve been better off without him 🙄🙄” first of all you people actually have no idea what grrm’s work is actually about and second of all the demigods in elden ring are so wonderfully complex and interesting because grrm writes incredible characters. i’ll not hear any more of this slander

#you don’t have to like grrm’s work and there are many things to rightfully criticize him for #but it’s so irritating to act like his intentions are to make everything more violent and edgy and fucked up just cuz he feels like it #because that was never the point of asoiaf and it isn’t the point of elden ring either #breaks my heart that asoiaf has this awful reputation because game of thrones is just the worst ever

[luck-of-the-drawings]

IM SO IN LOVE WITH VAMPIRES!! and boy do i love THE SUCKENING!! VERY excited to see the misadventures of sad wet cat, sharp angry cat, and the COOLEST cat i ever did see

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #some of these were drawn with MOUSE and others were made with my COOL NEW TABLET OOOOHYEAH!! #I JUST FINISHED EP 3 AND OOOHHH MY GGOD. OHHH MY GOOOODD IM IN LOVE WITH EACH OF THESE CHARACTERS #LIKE ARTHUR OH MMY GOOODD ARTHUR FUCKIN BENNEEETTT #SO CONFIDENT SO COOL I FUCKIN LOVE THOSE JUST. UNBREAKABLY CONSTANTLY STOIC CHARACTERS #HIS LIKE CATCH PHRASE. HIS TO-THE-FUCKING-POINT BEHAVIOR #HES LIke a hard candy with TRAGIC GOO TRAPPED INSIIDEEE he is a mollusk to me and i wanna break opEN THAT SHHHEELLL BABYYYY #AND SPEAKIN OF SHELLLSS emizel oh mmy god little guy #i KNOW hes softer than he lets on. and yet i wanna see him bite and attack more people and set things ablaze #i wanna fund his research. and by research i mean arson #AND OOHH SHILLOOO lil prince shilo hes my small baby boy whos okay with death as long as he doesnt have to see #THERES SOMETHING RRRROTTEN AT THE CORE OF THIS BEAUTIFUL APPLE PIE #AND I CANT WWWAIT TO SEE WHAT COMES OF IT #ALSO FUNFACT!! im tryin to make emizel n shilo look more similar #so if u CLOSELY LOOK u will see that their hair is similar. noses n face shapes are the same. they have Heart shapes in their bangs #also unrelated but im a lil in love with deacon keller.... i just rly like cowboys.... like i just think hes neat.... yeehaww #I ALSO LOVE KITTIEESSS ALL THE LIL KITTY SOUNDS IN THIS SHOW ARE SO CUTE... #i heard 'gray cat with round orange eyes' n immediately thought of tama from jjba. yknow the stray cat? dies and becomes magic plant?yeaaaa #cant wait for more. ill scream abt what happened in ffUUUCUKKIGNG EPSIODE 3 LATER BC OH MMY GGOOODDDD!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!

[tobythewise]

I just think there’s something incredibly special about being a mage Hawke romancing Anders. All of the other companions find the mage plight annoying at the best of times and WRONG in the worst of times. Hearing their banter HURTS me sometime because hey… you’re saying all mages deserve to have Meredith imprison them because they’re all weak?? IM one of those mages you’re talking about! You think tranquility is fine? That’s ME you’re talking about??

The only one consistently fighting, consistently seeing mages as good and PEOPLE is Anders.

He’ll fight by putting his very life on the line for our freedom. Hawke is willing to throw away his home and be on the run again for their freedom.

I just think that’s really beautiful and really special.

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #handers #Anders romance #Toby rambles #this brought to you because this game is amazing but sometimes it make me so frustrated #Isabella hating slavery but being a jerk about the mages while actively wearing my favor #fenris constantly talking about how magic ruins everything while actively wearing my favor #like plz y’all…. #have an ounce of empathy? please? #this is my first time playing as a mage and it’s ROUGH #and Lowkey is heart breaking because these are Hawke closest friends?? these people who are so indifferent about all the abuse? #critical #<— tagging that just in case? s #I’m just upset y’all 😭 #also fuck Cullen specifically bevause WOW