#and im like im glad you had fun. wish i had such fond memories myself

[salvatoreren]

I finally watched AOT's last episode and frankly, I am not okay, I have been sobbing a river oh my fucking god.

Anyways, it was really good, as expected of MAPPA anyway, I was pretty much crying the whole episode actually.

I have complaints, mostly because of the not included anime, little things like not having the flashbacks of Armin of reading a book in the rain, the squirrels etc. etc. I would have love to see them in the market and the way to the boy who sought freedom, goodbye was not implemented, I WAS WAITING FOR THAT COME ON

The anime only scenes were good too, like Levi giving food to the refugees, falco and gabi, i wish we saw their outfits tho, they slayed with that one.

the way they played 13 no fuyu, im killing myself, ive been listening to that shit since 2022 which mind you was when i was active once more in aot, the fucking flashbacks my god, that was so tragic RAHHH

i also saw aot's op, EREN WITH A BOW? EREN WITH A BOW!!! MIND YOU I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE HUNGER GAMES SO IMMEDIATELY IM LIKE YES YES IT'S GIVING KATNISS EVERDEEN, WITH WHAT HIM BEING HUMANITY'S HOPE, ESP WITH THE FIRE COMING OUT OF IT FORMING A BIRD

THE SAME BIRD WE SAW ON S4 ENDING 1, oh my god, the opening was really cool omg, it perfectly showcased eren's journey, what he went through, despite being absent in the final chapters, it still showed Eren was still the protagonist...Which isayama did not understand when he made 139

Yes, I am bitter still with the ending, no, I am not hearing anyone out and no, I am not going to pour my disappointments with it STILL, here because yeah.

It's such a shame that's the last and final time we'll ever see it, devastating tragedy omg.

ARMIN AND EREN'S FINAL INTERACTION, IM GLAD THEY MADE THEM HOLD HANDS, THANK YOU MAPPA, PLS THE WAY THEY'LL BE TOGETHER FOREVER AND WILL BE WAITING FOR EACH OTHER IN HELL, GAGGED, IM DEAD, MY ROMAN EMPIRE FOR REAL

Now that's out of the way.

It's been a long and fun ride, regardless, the final season has been going for what three years, i've been with this series for three years, it was fun really it was, this series took such a simplistic and cliched approach then twisted into something more complex and truly gutwrenching. 2020 was nothing without AOT, in my opinion, watching AOT broadened my media consumption, yanked me into the anime world and i already have so many fandoms i'm in.

2020 was a hard time too, i couldn't have done it without this bloody series, god, i remember aboarding the train hype, everything was everywhere, fics, art, videos, memes etc. All those I read influenced my writing style, all those theories made me think more critically, those memes and videos of it made me laugh. It's funny how a series like this one comforted me so much.

I remember being so traumatized by the first episode i'm like who the fuck would ever like this series with this much blood and that night i immediately searched for eren fics because i was like who is this boy i like him, i fucking dreamt of the beast titan, all those nights racing with my sister who could finish the series first, i literally woke up at 4 just to watch it before she could.

Fucking terrified which of my favorite characters were going to die next, literally sobbing over armin's death, god and the mindfuck with Marley and Eldians and Subjects of Ymir in the fray oh my god.

Can I just say, I wouldn't be who I was without AOT? Even with my cynical behavior, it's all because of it.

2021 who i never fail to reiterate and think fondly is good because of AOT as well, I figured wow, the final season is coming back, I should rewatch it again and so the hyperfixation began, i was sick too, almost dying too actually, dengue is dangerous and it was just a fond memory because i was watching aot and i acted like i never had watch these scenes in my life and despite feeling like dying i felt okay.

I was so batshit crazy when part 2 came out, that was the one that was actually peak AOT don't lie, I was literally screaming like i was giving birth OVER AN OPENING AND AN ENDING, i'll never forget any of it.

When I cried watching the whole episode, it really just occurred to me that this is really the end for AOT, i was only ever able to go through it because I have the anime and it what really kept the whole fandom alive, the anime's honestly the reason why it had this many fans as you can see.

And again the way it's heartwrenching for it to just be a simple series and then it's full blown war, jean and reiner holding out to each other, remembering how they used to be close and comrades then betrayals and war happened and it's all ruined.

The devastating realization of seeing the last few panels animated, watching the end flash through the screen, realizing there was nothing out of this now, no more next episodes, no more hype, it's gone and it's so devastating because how happy it made you, the way you'll never see these characters again, only in rewatches or art. But it's not the same.

I admit I don't feel as hyperfixated over it now, after getting burnt out of it last year, even good things go badly sadly and i was just here for eren now, but doesn't change the fact this series has nurtured my quarantine, i grew up with this series even if it was only recent, who changed the trajectory of my life and had me find my paths.

I'll never forget these characters who made my life, who brought life to the story, even if they were just moved by the plot now, i'll always have a soft spot for AOT, i will always love it, regardless how much i hate it, there will always be fondness within it.

It's kind of weird, really to see Levi who has done so much to the fandom just by existing and being drawn and animated now cease to exist? I suppose, looking at him feels weird like imagine comparing 2014 levi to 2023 levi now omg, that's where you really begin to realize how much time has passed and how much AOT has evolved AGAIN JKSDHJ

well, i'm still on eren's side, still hate what happened to him but i'll always love him, he is such an important character to me, i don't think i truly ever loved someone like him despite representing the total opposite of me, he just had that charm i suppose, his views are so hauntingly beautiful, idealistic, him representing hope, despite what he did, in the end he did what he could for himself and for his people IN MY HUMBLE ONION

eren yeager i'll always love you

i'm kinda scared what would happen to this fandom now, will it die now? Will it live? I doubt, I haven't even finished my eren fic and lol, either way i hope someone will still enjoy AOT, i hope still there will be new watchers.

This is long but this is just how I really feelt about AOT which I wholeheartedly do love and cherish with all the memories and the pain it gave.

Thank you Isayama for this world, for these characters, for these mindblowing revelations about war, life and freedom, for the heartaches and the joy.

Thank you WIT for raising AOT and truly breathing life to it, for garnering fans for it to be more appreciated.

Thank you MAPPA for continuing WIT's legacy, you are not the same but still delievered, thank you for carrying the final season and the fandom on your back, may you sleep well and have your deserved pay.

Thank you for the voice actors who breathed those memorable lines to be used in edits.

Thank you Linked Horizon for coming back, aot was iconic because of your openings.

Thank you AOT for everything.

#shingeki no kyojin #snk #aot #attack on titan #thank you aot #thank you isayama

[thiscatiscreepy]

Kinda want to boot up Spore and make some funky guys.

#i got the fucking. origin version cause i read that it the best one for mods and such #so im wanna install a bunch of mods and make some dudes #i have a weird relationship with this game cause of my somewhat popular youtube career as a ~spore creator~ #cause it has been somewhat spoiled by dome people and the game just reminds me of gross people #but also like. people legit still find me on vk and tell me how much my videos meant to them #and im like im glad you had fun. wish i had such fond memories myself #theyd be like i loved them when i was kid! and im here like yeah. a was also a kid when i made em #i was like 11 #i think i deleted the channel whem i was 13 or something #okay im sorry #spore. love it. want to make some guys #cat talks

[draconicarsonist]

💚🌀🗣🐯🌈

thank you for the ask anon! i appreciate the attention, thank you for tossing enrichment into my enclosure/j

💚: What’s your favorite thing about your kintype? (The species, creature, etc)

I'm quite fond of dragons for more reasons than just because I am one. If we're talking dragons in general, I love how versatile their designs can be, you can find thousands of unique depictions of dragons from human civilizations and as an artist I love that you can take the basic draconic idea and make such interesting and different species, types, and looks that all fit under the term dragon. Its a really fun exercise in creativity to draw different kinds of dragons, and as a shapeshifter its fun to take on different draconic forms with different appearance features. Dragons are also just fucking badass and beautiful creatures whatever form or environment we live in. -[cl]

As for wolf theriotype, I love how caring and complex and thoughtful wolves can be. In human history we are painted as vicious monsters of trickery and violent desires who only wish to kill and feed themselves, but once you take your head out of pure stereotypes by humans who were only salty for the cow they lost to a wolf pack one time, you see that we have complex societies, relationships, emotions, and are a meaningful part of the ecosystems that different wolf species inhabit. Wolves are more than just themselves, they are intrinsically woven into nature and each other, can grow to care for certain humans and let them into their packs, aside from hunting and small mishaps wolves are very gentle creatures who care for each other deeply. -[gr]

🌀: Do you think kins are spiritual or psychological in nature?

I believe that both spiritual and psychological kin exist, and for us personally we experience both. We are very much spiritually drawn to nature and the sky and the experiences of being nonhuman, but feel that our shifts and phantom limbs and even the feeling of being in a memory tend to have more of a psychological source. Both are valid and genuine nonhuman/kin experiences.

🗣: Does anyone know you are otherkin? Friends, family, etc? If so, how did you tell them?

Aside from online, one person in our life knows about our identity as nonhuman and otherkin. A few months ago after "therian" was referenced in a conversation our partner and us talked about our kin identities and we/I came out as nonhuman and helped him look at and reconnect with his own nonhumanity, it was really nice and I'm very glad we can be ourselves with each other. Other than him, weve briefly mentioned small aspects of nonhumanity to a small handful of people but never elaborated any further than "i dont see myself as human." or "some people do identify as something nonhuman" (the second was while explaining the use of it/its pronouns)

🐯: Do you wish you were your kintype? Why or why not?

I very much do. There are things in this life I love, but it just isnt me. I can have deep relationships like we have here as a dragon, I miss just the experience of going through the world as a dragon, whatever form I took. So much of this life feels wrong, our body, home, family, so many people and none of them can see me. it can be hard sometimes but with our boyfriend getting to be ourselves around each other and feeling seen with him is... really nice. Having a form and an environment in our system's headspace also helps with dysphoria, but to answer the question, yes i do wish I were a physical dragon. -[cl]

It's a similar sentiment as a wolf. I miss the life of a wolf, the family of my pack, being wild in the wild and being connected with and a part of nature. I miss having a wolf body, my strength, my claws and strong jaws and tireless muscles for running hours on end. My ears that could hear sounds from far away and identify them, my nose that could smell what walked by and how long ago, could smell that a deer had passed by a bush by smelling the leaves. Paws with claws that I could dig with, bristling my fur as a warning, chewing on things. I could go on, but again, to answer the question, I wish I were a wolf, with my wolf life back. -[gr]

🌈: Talk about any other kin thing!

tldr; i go on a rant about how stigmatized alterhumanity is and how much i hate it and wish ppl would just let us be ourselves, putting it under the read more cause i dont want to just put this on ppls dash on an otherwise non-discoursey post

I hate how stigmatized being an animal in a human body is to the general population here. people who like to wear ears or be treated like a dog doing normal things in their house are put on cringe compilations and wearing ears and a tail at home is seen as sexual intrinsically and I just hate that. Too many humans are too afraid of what is different from them, they like to peg us as insane or stupid or something to be "kept in the bedroom" or otherwise private and that really irritates me because suddenly doing anything deemed a little bit too far from normal "human" behavior is something to be laughed at and shunned and this hurts not only the alterhuman community but the disabled community at large (not intended to claim alterhumanity as a disability, it is an identity not a condition, but i'm comparing the way "society" views us) when people's body moves in a way that strays from the usual way "normal" humans carry themselves its viewed with fear or unease or disgust and this is just something that I feel is one of those things in human society that hopefully will get worked on over time so people get more accepting and accepted but right now its just causing a lot of shame and frustration. sorry for going on this rant but i do think about this. Forgot to mention the furry community in this too, it should be ok for people who do identify as human to also wear ears or a tail or a fursuit and have fun playing as animals in a nonsexual manner (not shaming ppl who do like kink pet play and stuff but im talking more out in the general world) and be allowed to do so without fear of being shamed and viewed with disgust or fear of literal actual violence because of expressing something they want to do.

#long post #text heavy #sorry for the massive post i just really enjoy elaborating on things #txt #and yes i did spend fucking forever on this thank you <3 #oh right the [cl] and [gr] tags are put there to indicate who wrote that basically #[cl] is caelum our original big dragon system member they wrote the dragon specific bits because we have several dragon headmates #as well as our sweeping ''dragonkin'' identities and caelum gave a pretty good representation of our general draconic feelings #and [gr] is lupas tag shes our pure wolf system member so gave the best representation for our ''being a wolf'' feelings and experiences #[gr] is her tag because its like grrrrrr growling type thing #we set it before she had a name cause she was only communicating in wolf sounds for a bit before she was able to figure out human language #and still has some trouble with articulating thoughts but here we did pretty well #sorry for compulsive oversharing and stuff its the adhd/lh

[lovely-quarterlife-crisis]

Victon and Nu'est!

victon

do i already stan them? yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

bias/bias wrecker

i actually dont have one right now cuz i love them all lol. i started by biasing byungchan tho

first time i heard of them

I had a friend who was really into them since predebut and she showed me some of their videos and also their debut song

when i became a fan

i think just before their eyez eyez comeback

favorite / least favorite title

time of sorrow and nostalgic night are top tier songs. least favorite is mayday. I havent heard the song enough times to like it

favorite / least favorite bside

BLANK!!!! they have such a cute stage for it. I have to watch it at least once a month for a happy boost. theyre just so adorable!!

i dont think i have a least favorite bside

favorite / least favorite mv

nostalgic night for sure. went insane with that mv and song and literally everything about that comeback. and for least favorite i guess im fine??? just cuz i barely remember it

favorite / least favorite album

nostlagia. No skips. its a good album. its a good era. my least favorite is mayday if you count it lol. if not then none???

a concept i wish theyd try

i dont really know. im pretty happy with any concept cuz i know they can pull off anything.

what i like most about them

like i said they can pull off anything! theyre so diverse!!! also theyre just fun boys i really enjoy whatever relationship they have with dingo lmao

Nu’est

do i already stan them? yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

ok so disclaimer. i kinda stopped being a fan after they went onto pd101. so this information is from pre nu’est w

bias/bias wrecker

Ren was my bias and JR bias wrecker

first time i heard of them

i came across sleep talking while i was surfing youtube one day

when i became a fan

sleep talking era lol i was so starstruck. i got so into their stages lol. i remember thinking that part where they all lay down on each others knees was so cool

favorite / least favorite title

sleep talking is my favorite. Its just branded into my heart forever.

least favorite is action

favorite / least favorite bside

not over you, climax and please dont are my all time favorite bsides.

least favorite is lost and found. for some reason the beginning of it reminds me of pink panther and i dont vibe with that

favorite / least favorite mv

My favorites are face probably just cuz svt was in it and they all looked so cute lol. and good bye bye. the aesthetics were so on point. 

least favorite is... action

favorite / least favorite album

favorite is hello and canvas

least fav is Q is but i remember thinking i was scared they were gonna disband so i bought it lol

a concept i wish theyd try

i dont think i should talk on this cuz i dont follow them anymore

what i like most about them

i like their old sound. after q is their music kinda started changing and i didnt really enjoy their newer music as much but (eww im about to get emotional look away) i am happy they are doing well now! im so glad they have more fans! and that theyre able to do alot more in their career. i dont consider myself a fan anymore but they still have a place in my heart cuz they were a group i was hardcore for and every time i listen to their old music they bring back fond memories. Nu’est is nostalgic for me. I love them and im so glad theyve come this far.

✨💖💞Thank you for the ask 💞💖✨

Send Me A Kpop Group

#asks #su-beanie

[yourghastlycloseness]

i cant spend all day stressing worrying crying wondering about where this will go (answer: likely nowhere) but also i like how he has been handling this friendship. when it comes to things like this, neither of us are so simple to be deciphered by a cosmo girl article on attraction and flirting. i was ruining myself over him -- it's just the way i am; for the longest time, i've stayed away from the people i cld potentially fall in love with and who cld potentially love me back because i've always known that i wld get deeply attached and obsessive -- the woes of a romantic lmao -- but i can feel him distancing himself from me (he seems to have set an allowance for himself to text me only once every 2-3 days) and yet, at the same time, promising me his friendship, which is all i need right now; we can be two adults who are somewhat attracted to each other but who don't act on it, right? at least, not now. because he's attached. and if that attraction gradually fizzles out because we don't see each other anymore, then so be it, this wasn't for us. or maybe we'll be lifelong friends. there's a lot i can learn from him. i know that on my end, i'd probably still like him all the way, so the ball is pretty much in his court. but that's not to say that if we are end game, i'd continue liking him the way i do now; i don't know what kind of a person i'd be when i actually have to commit to loving someone. right now, it's all fun and games and crying myself to sleep indulgently; i'm taking snapshots and trying out lines i never thought i would get to say. assuming the attraction is mutual and we end up in a situation where we're both able to make something more out of it, i suspect that the honeymoon phase will blow over quickly, i will go back to seeing him as just another guy, then i'll crash land and set us both ablaze. i think. i wouldn't know for sure because i have nothing to work with.

another fond memory: i don't think i jotted this down earlier. the last time i saw him, he had walked into class with a haircut from what was probably a neighbourhood barber or one of those chain barber shops scattered across the island. before that, his hair had been voluminous and beautifully and neatly swept back, such that i could see the pure symmetry of his pale forehead. idk why, but upon meeting him, i immediately thought he was a player lol. when i saw that fresh haircut though, so style-less and neat, like it couldn't have cost more than 20 bucks -- a schoolboy's spartan haircut -- i realized there and then, that he wasn't someone who put in a tremendous amount of effort into his physical appearance. he just happens to look clean-cut and nice most of the time, all of it, the boyish handsomeness, the seeming goodness of character, the soft body language — god-given. he seemed to inhabit a different sphere of the universe from me. was i intrigued for this reason? i rarely find myself drawn to people who are conventionally attractive because i just can't fathom how our perspectives could ever be aligned when we've lived in discrete worlds. but it’s friction, opposites attract, isn’t it?

i may not hear back from him again. if so, i may not reach out again either. there’s only so much silence and uncertainty i can take

if this is goodbye, then let it be so. thank you for the short-lived friendship/fantasies. it was painful, but i grew up so much in the past few weeks. it might be the end for us in that we can’t pursue anything further from this, but i still intend to keep you as a friend, not in a way that would invite hope for something more, but just as somebody i'm glad to have met and wish the best for in life, if you'd be so kind. pls be well, wherever you are and whoever you’re with

LOL all that and

ok tbh im not ready to give up on you yet until someone else better comes along the way. i definitely don’t want to say goodbye completely. but i’ll go slow and steady. if it’s a hard no by then (he hasn’t rejected me at this point — more of kept the doors closed but not locked, kept the bridges barricaded but not burnt) then i’ll go away. as ldr once sang: “hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have — but i have it” — and im ok with letting it ruin me

[dalrynne]

1, 8, 11, 14, 15, 17, 24, 32, 33, 37, 28, 39, 40

OMG IM SO SORRY FOR NOT ANSWERING THIS ASK UNTIL NOW AJSDKHAD

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

omg idek which movie i would consider my favorite movie... but i think i have this reoccurring feeling of “OMG that was the best movie ever!” whenever i have a new fav movie hahahaha

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

hmm i guess i’d say my fashion sense? i’ve worked quite hard for a long time to get where i am now (i think my style is pretty good now) and tbh it’s one of my fav compliments to receive! i’m still working on expanding my wardrobe and  building on it; there’s always room for improvement~

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

i think i would have to say the one where i met my ultimate fav celebrity/singer, kyuhyun cho from super junior! in my dream he even touched me and i remember even feeling the warmth of his touch... it was such a vivid dream LOL i still remember it even tho its been so long?

14: Talk about a vacation.

the vacation that lasts the most in my mind is probs the most recent one. i went to greece during spring break with a friend this year! tbh it wasn’t as fun as it could have been bc the weather was cold and bc it was easter, everything was closed for several days and at night it was really scary bc there were all these men hanging around outside, smoking and staring us down. but it was also really fun bc i got to see the beautiful ocean. the best part was going horse-back riding for the first time!! omg it was such a great experience bc i’ve loved horses ever since i was young but i had never been able to ride one (besides this one time when i was like 5 at a petting zoo or something). shoutout to kayli for making that happen omggg

oh man, now i want to talk about my trip to paris with a different friend and met a couple of my internet friends, but i guess that’s a different story hehe (if you wanna hear about it, hmu tho!)

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

oh shit LOL have i Ever been fully content in my life ahaha... i honestly can’t really remember? probably when i was younger...? or perhaps now??? idk man.

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

tbh lately, i’ve been feeling kinda antisocial... i don’t really have a desire to make new friends or get closer to some friends/acquaintances bc i feel so drained? i feel this way especially towards internet friends tbh bc i feel like we’re never going to meet anyway so why put in so much effort. ugh, i know thats horrible and i don’t want to feel this way but :’) alas. maybe its bc i’ve been feeling kinda insecure lately too? LOL idk. but i do want to befriend my crush tho... bc if i befriend him, maybe it’ll develop into something more~

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

oh wow, hmm. i’ve been told that i’m stylish and have a good sense of humor, which are some of my fav compliments hehe. like when someone actually thinks/says that i’m funny, i’m really happy! i can’t really remember anything else atm but haha i’m sure there were some other things?

28: Talk about your fetishes.

LMAOO OMG AJDKAHSDASD i ummm... idek what qualifies as a fetish, like is it just a kink? are those the same things?? do i even have those????? i guess i’m kinda into bondage tho, probs light hahaha

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

i grew up in indiana and i had really fond memories of it. i moved to nyc in the middle of 3rd grade and it was really hard adjusting at first. but now i’m a new yorker so LOL. i remember indiana being almost this enchanted place bc i felt so free there. i could ride my bike with my friends until the sun went down (that was like 8pm in the summer) and i barely got any hw which was lit. (stranger things makes me feel really nostalgic bc its supposed to be set in indiana and i used to bike around with my friends all the time too hehe)

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

hmm, this is a very good question bc i honestly hardly know what to do with myself when i’m sad and i just feel like i wanna die a lot of the time tbh HAHA. but i’ve been trying to find healthier coping mechanisms to do when i’m sad... like i usually try to distract myself by listening/watching shows or movies or whatever. or try to hang out with my friends. or sometimes i just go to bed early by getting myself very very sad by listening to sad songs and thinking of things to upset myself further and then cry myself to sleep. that actually works quite well bc i wake up and feel refreshed most of the time? haha

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

huh. was i ever really truly in love tho LMAO... i suppose the closest thing to that was with my latest ex. our relationship was so short-lived and hes lowkey kinda psycho so um Yikes. i’m glad i didn’t get back with him bc hes obviously not good for me. there were some red flags but i just ignored them OTL. but well, he was sweet and it was nice while it lasted but hmm, Yikesss. 

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

omggg ok i wish i knew sooner that you need to play an active role in your life or else you’re going to be very unhappy and feel really hopeless. listen, you are in charge of a good portion of your life; your decisions and efforts are important. if you want something, go get it!! you can’t cry and complain about things yet never try to do something about it. but on the other hand, there are some things in life that you can’t change. somethings just happen and the best you can do is deal with them to the utmost of your abilities. there’s this delicate balance of determinism and free-will. but its always better to try and fail than never try and regret it.

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

the end of high school was really nice i think. i was really excited for freshman year of uni in london bc i had never been out of the country before and i’ve been interested in britain since i was really young! i was hopeful for the new people i’d meet and the cool new things i’d experience. it was kinda disappointing but it was still a great experience i think haha. i definitely grew and matured as a person, which i’m really happy about.

thank you to the anon who sent me this ask!! i’m sorry again about the late reply ;;;

if you’d like to send me more, here is the post!

#anon #Anonymous

[jewel-kr]

Reminiscing the friendship

So hello Tumblr... After a few yrs, i am back w a banger lol jk no . Just a few simple short-composing-alike that i’d fancy to jot down here . On the other hand, it feels so good to be back after maybe 3yrs of being inactive . hahahah sorry for that , got no time w all these growing up issues and responsibilities , ya get me right? was prolly 18y/o the last time i wrote here, On the verge of being 21st this yr hahaha .

Okay, I am not here to shittalk abt myself (prolly some other time) . Legitimately, the caption written above *Reminiscing The Friendship* . Friendship can comes in any way, any time and only the realest one would stick to your dummy freaky ass  hahaha . I got homies myself: from elementary school , middle school , college , social media acquaintances and prolly a ‘hai bye’ kinda friends hahaha . ykno, when yguys only met once and not having the chance to introduce yourself on the first place so on the second meetings yguys just ‘oh hey tsup? all good? aight nice to meet you , again’ . yup, you can relate . But yes i still got my realest blood that doesn’t wants me to die hahaha *Forever Grateful*

In this “so-called-diary” ,I  would only include one and only honorable mention for one of my 3yrs long-servant best-buddy (coming 4yrs this September) . Oh first of all, I won’t gonna include name of her cause she would notice this too . YES A SHE OMG HAHAHAHA . A funsized , adorable , lovely little buckteeth of mine (IF SHE’S TAKEN THEN SHE’S NOT MINE SO THIS CONTEXT WOULD AUTOMATICALLY CHANGED) . where were we? Right , our size is really not an issue *sobbing cause i am a huge beast standing to her*

It all started on 2013 (Actually way earlier cause i’ve been knowing her eversince she dated my friend , But i wasn’t  fond abt knowing her that period) . SO ITS A ONE SUNNY DAY IN 2013 WHERE .. jk it was on break-time period around 10-10.30 in the morning where i (okay i actually really have forgotten either i stole her number from a friend or ask for it) NEVERTHELESS THATS NOT THE CASE (it will be the case Joul if she finds out you forgot abt it) UGHHHH...PLS...ENCOURAGE...ME... OKAY I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAD ASKED FOR IT (don’t lie Joul) ... ITS BETWEEN THE TWO FFS , STOP MESSING W MY FEELINGS YOU SICK HUNCH! *inhale-exhale peacefully* . I AM OKAY NOW :) SO :) HMMM (whats w the smiley face) *this paragraph is a chaos create new one*

*new paragraph* so its between those two , the reason why i *EITHER* asked or stole it, its bcs she seems friendly the way she texted w him (they actually talk abt Neymar that time hahaha i remembered) , and no im not gonna spit down what our convo looked like afterthat , but forreal we got that same thinking w all the pros and cons of everything , abt the past and the future , we coped well cause she’s VERY VERY VERY AND REALISTICALLY FRIENDLY so idts it would be so hard for her to make friends and make a bond w everyone (WAIT... IF YGUYS ARE COMPATIBLE , WHY DON’T YGUYS JUST DATE?) . well Tumblr , if i wouldn’t be thinking of my future w her. I might have dated her long ago , She knows the drill too but it was never an issue for us

Had a thought during our fun-joy texting period that I and her would only be friend for temporary or maybe just a “hai bye” acquainted . BUT ... 29th September , 2013 proved me wrong . Its the day where we actually met , Accidentally i shall said cause we didn’t really planned on meeting . As i walked past by her group of friends she called up by my nickname hahaha , w that “ HAI DITO” all clear and clarity to that sound so i just said HI back and smile . We don’t really talked that day (idk why) . We did texted when we reached home abt meeting eachother and “oh wow you’re cute in real life” kinda expression. i wish i could actually tell detail information abt our conversation and what we’ve been thru but this story wouldn’t get to its end for even in 2hrs hahaha . Since that day , we’re officially-lawfully-ideal best buddy for life.

Time flies so fast , as if i’ve just known and met her yesterday . We went to the same college for a year in 2015-2016 , she’s still there but not me . I still remember the first day we met on college after such a long-drought of not meeting each each other .We had this cute-little hugs on elevator on our way to the basement hahaha . ITS SO CUTE , and ofcourse many more hugs came from her . okay back to basic.. We shared our stories together, We called each other on phone tho very seldomly hahaha but the memory stays fresh in me . We talked abt how stupid , reckless and unworthy our ex-es were (mostly came from her) . i know i can sense if she’s not okay even that she said she’s okay . some ppl might say she’s problematic but that’s not how i view her . yes she got plenty of problems but she intends to keep it , that’s what i called that she’s just the victim of situation . Not truly her fault . Tho she can be so stubborn yet i would still love her . At some point i’ve been thinking that both of us is the contrast of each other character : Our attitude,  social life, style of living ... yet , its the same moment where i felt that I and her have that strong bond towards each other . We had our ups & downs , She was there when i needed her the most : I loved how she never judged me . I am always the pessimist and negative side but i know she got my back and vice versa, Cause that’s what bestfriends would do . Supportive and encouraging towards the journey. She might be a Diploma holder in the nearest time and i would be glad for her achievement , And i hope she would achieve much more in life.

We may not talk nor meet regularly due to focusing on studies but i know at some glance she’ll remember me , Even if i dropped drastically from her ‘important ppls’ charts . As long as i’ll have 1% chance of going top , I’ll put 99% faith on it . But hey, that’s part of growing up : Living w big circles of countless friends , active social life cause that’s what growing up needs to do for living (:

xoxo, J  *stopped writing at 3.56AM*  *currently missing the hugs hahaha*