#and im kinda friends with them so i wasnt invited

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them- #better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so! #anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎 #i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay. #.vent

[little-pup-prince]

he is like me for real - ⚠️beware the trauma dump in the tags, i didnt tag this with the usual ones for this. ⚠️

#🦨 talks #got him as a prom/18th birthday present #i still have bad memories from that time #high school was bad. esp because the group of people i was kinda friends with were horrible but they were the only one talking to me #they went drinking after prom and didnt even tell/invite me. this continued to them partying and me getting excluded #not that they were great friends before but after they just casted me aside like they found better friends #whobwere cooler #meanwhile they were shitting on me for using alcohol to cope at home #for heartbreak #and hurt me over being gay too #and not like anyone else wanted to even talk to me because i wasnt that social and it icked people #idk why #im still sad #over people literally hating me everywhere i go #also this girl who knew i had a crush in her and ridiculed me but once were like you know what lets try being a couple #and all the time she was bringing up how hot other boys were #you know who were 'real boys' to her #and i got so insecure she even fucking cheated on me without trying to first idk breaking up #tw traumadump #tw trauma #to specify they counted me as gay because they didnt respect my transgender identity - now tho i cant have a crush on women because trust #issues

[prinzessinpluto]

the gratification of seeing your best friend get along with your family my heart is so full

#cant believe it took me 21 years to introduce them but it went so well :) #best birthday evor #:) #NO BC SHE WAS SO NERVOUS BUT IT WENT SO WELL CUZ OF COURSE IT DID SHE'S AN AMAZING PERSON #lol they got a littol confused bc in german 'girl friend' and 'girlfriend' are the same word and i could just see them Think abt it lol #but it was so nice! #and her and my brothers got along so well too!! #they kinda looked after her when i wasnt available so she didnt feel alone along ppl she didnt know :'( #literally the cutest i love them so much #and im so happy they love her too #the first birthday in a WHILE that i wont cry myself to sleep I'm so happy #next year I'll invite my other bestie as well tehe #but first those two have to meet separately i think #Soon(TM) #happy tag

[crushedsweets]

i am so so sorry for the sheer amount of headcanons i'm making you crank out, HOWEVER... i am so curious as to if you have any headcanons for nina and natalie as a duo. i love the way you perceive them and write them it genuinely makes me so happy

i had to doodle them . ok. lets go..

nat was one of the first people nina met from jeff, since she and jeff lived in the barn together.

nina thought nat was a lesbian when they first met . that is literally the only reason why she wasnt mad jeff was living with a woman.

although nina was like, one of the ONLY people to notice toby/nat tension and was sooo heartbroken when she realized they were never getting together..... but then was relieved they didnt get together when she got over jeff because 'well i can't be the only single one!'

again, natalie grew up with 0 girl friends, only hung out with her brother and boys. even after meeting the creeps, theyre still mostly guys. so she's just kinda really awkward and weird around girls. not in a like, 'oh girls r so annoying' way but like... she just doesnt know how to fit in. she just feels so different in the worst possible way and always has.

and nina is very girly, outgoing, touchy, friendly, cute, etc. so it was very like UMMM?!? idk. natalie kept snapping at her, assuming she was fake and weird and just trying to get something from nat, but nina was so persistent and just. friendly. it started making natalie feel warm.

nina's presence started to heal natalies inner little girl. she had it stolen from her time and time again, from her dad, her brother, her peers - the operator, too.

so the two are eventually actual friends. they'll text and play mobile phone games together. sometimes they'll just sit on call and nina will be talking her head off while nat does her own thing at home. one time nat was at tobys cabin and nina was talking about toby on speaker and toby walked in and was like 'hey nina' .... nina almost threw up she was so embarrassed.

nina loves visiting nats bar because everyone is always talking to nina and giving her attention and buying her drinks, and at first nat was irritated but it kinda got nat some better tips since the customers started realizing ninas her friend. so nat was pleased. LOL

nat was never the type to go shopping, but she'll follow nina around and sit while nina tries on clothes and carry around all her bags that she buys LOL... ninas made jokes about nat being boyfriend material and nat just flatout says smth about how nina should get over jeff cuz he would never.

nat is friends with jeff but she's oddly comfortable just telling nina that he's a piece of shit. and ninas always like NOOO U DONT GET IT U DONT SEE WHAT I DO and nats always just .. not... impressed..

nina's always inviting nat out to try new foods. nat grew up just eating bread and noodles with butter half the time so it's fun. nina always tries to pay bc 'well i invited you!!!'. sometimes toby tags along but he feels a way abt going in public places..

nina rarely visits jack cuz she has no reason to, but nat is friends with him so sometimes nina pops in and she's always like ^_^ HELLO TALL MYSTERIOUS SLIGHTLY MONSTEROUS MAN... <3... nat smacks the back of her head cuz she's being dumb and drooling over a bunch of rando freaks. ... . ok i love nina and she owes jeff nothing but she is def not loyal LOLLLL AND SHE HAS THE RIGHT TO FAWN OVER EVERYONE she's a fangirl at heart.

they watch a ton of shows together. nina got nat into horror kdrama stuff, but they have to watch in dub cuz nat cant read the subtitles fast enough . . . at first nina cringed but now she doesnt care.

nat's painted/drawn nina several times, and nina almost cries everytime. she's put the drawings up on her wall before but anytime nat's at her apartment, she takes it down bc 'i dont want my art on ur wall stop it' LOL... kinda rude but whatevs.

ugh theyre just so fucking cute guys im sorry i love them . holds them. brushes their hair.

#asks #creeped #natalie ouellette #clockwork creepypasta #creepypasta clockwork #creepypasta #creepypasta headcanons #nina the killer #nina hopkins #nina the killer headcanons #clockwork headcanons #sweetart #creepypasta art #creepypasta fanart

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for inviting my cousin to an LGBT meet up?

Cw: mentions of suicide and transphobia

I (18M) am a trans man and my cousin N (21F) is a lesbian who is very masc presenting. We're the only queer cousins in the family (at least in our generation) so weve always been good friends and shes been one of the biggest supporters of my transition, defended me from bigoted family members and always corrected family when they used my deadname/old pronouns. I lowkey hoped she would come out as a trans man or nonbinary as well. We dress in the same style which makes it so when were hanging out together one of us is gonna get misgendered since people asume both of us are trans men or masc girls. When N is the one being misgendered she doesnt bother fighting it since its more trouble than its worth but looking back i think it really annoyed her.

Earlier this year N was severely struggling with her mental health. I apologize for the wording i may have since i dont know the proper terminology for this stuff or any specific disorder diagnosis she may have (other than autism). She was having some sort of manic or depressive episode. She was dead set on pushing people away and making them hate her so she could take her own life without regrets.

I visited N once to give her my support during a struggling time but i stupidly told her there was nothing she could say that would push me away. She told me not to test her but i kept pushing it and i admit what happened next was my fault. She told me in a very cold voice that she was a terf, though that she didnt want me dead but that "we" (im guessing she meant trans ppl) made it so much harder for her to exist(???????). I didnt let her keep talking just and left her room, said my goodbyes to her family and just cried while driving home.

Im still not sure if she meant it or if it was part of her mental episode and just a way for her to hurt me and push me away. On one hand ig it explains some of her behavior? N sometimes complained when she got asked for her pronouns or being misgendered like I mentioned before. On the other hand, I gen do not believe she has been a terf all along esp with how supportive shes been of me. If she was a terf youd think she would try to subtly talk me out of it, but that has never happened. My friends have nicknamed her schrodinger's terf lol

Anyway, i went no contact with N for a few months for my own wellbeing. During this time i heard that she tried to kill herself a few times, which got her into a mental hospital. She was given higher doses of meds and seems to be doing way better.

We had a family reunion this week and i decided to approach her. N seemed a little hesitant to talk to me but stayed polite. I tried testing her and talked about the effects T has been having on me but she acted like she always had and congratulated me and even complimented me on how deep my voice has gotten. I wasnt satisfied cause i wanted an apology for what she had said to me so i pushed it more. She did end up apologzing but it was a very surface level apology. At this point i didnt want to keep pushing in case it set her off again so i just took her apology (plus i wanted my best cousin back) and spent the rest of the day hanging out with her.

On the way home my mom said she was happy me and N had made up and that i should invite her to the lgbt club meetings Ive been going to this year. It seemed like a good idea to me, she lost a few friends during her episode and she could make more queer friends here. If N is trans and just in denial it could help her get the resources she needs to feel comfortable coning out. If N IS a terf maybe having more positive interactions with trans ppl could change her mind on it. Overall i thought it would be a win for her.

I brought it up to my friends and some of them blew up at me. Their argument was that itd be exposing the other trans ppl in the group to a terf and putting them in danger. I truly hadnt considered this angle so im kinda conflicted now. She had never felt like an unsafe person before and now that her episode is over she feels normal again. Even if she is a terf i dont think she could actually cause harm? I want N to get better but i dont want to put my trans friends at risk.

So tumblr, WIBTA for inviting N to my lgbt meet up?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[genderkoolaid]

Hi this im sharing my experience w transandrophobia when i was younger. ⚠️TW for rape but nothing explicit. Also, sorry this might be long, theres a few parts I wanna cover, and I'm wondering if anyone else hs hd a similar experience. I was 15 and had only been out as trans for like a year or 2, and I didn't really know anyone else who was queer, let alone trans, so when a new trans girl around my age moved to my school I was excited, and I told her that I liked her outfit. We chatted a few times after that, and after a while she invited me to hang out at her place. I hadn't really known her well, but I was so excited to make a new friend that I kinda pushed any worries to the back of my mind. However, once I was there, we were bonding over being trans, and she started saying really weird things, that she couldn't understand why anyone would want to transition to being a guy, and that T corrupted people and made them ugly. At the time I still had a lot of iternalized transandrophobia, so I had initially brushed them off as a little harsh but ultimatly #feminist. Later that night things took a turn for the worse, and I'll spare you the gorey details, but I do remember that she told me that I'd be so much better as a lesbian, and that she had made fun of my packer to the point that I cannot pack anymore (something that used to help w dysphoria) bc of the assosiation of that night. She also said some fetishistic things about me being asian (shes white). I never ended up reporting it, bc at the time I still wasnt sure what had happened, and if it really had been rape. But I did ask her to never speak to/contact me again and blocked her. It made going to school really hard, because I was so nervous that I'd see her in the halls. After about a week, as I was leaving school she came up to me and started crying and telling me was sorry, and I didn't know what to do and people around me were glaring at me and it was just such a scary situation. I didn't really see her much after that. It was a long time before I told anyone. Its so hard talking about it because on one side, I'm worried that people will think I'm making it up to hurt trans women or to push a certain narrative. I want to say that I do not think this is a problem with trans women as a whole, moreso an individual problem with her. In fact, I had a similar experience at the hands of a cis woman when i was much younger. On the other hand, when I have talked about it, cis people have used it as an excuse to misgender her, or otherwise be transphobic, which doesnt help at all and just makes me feel worse. It just solidifies that they don't really see either of us as valid. That i'm just some poor little little girl who needs to be protected. Its been a few years, and I'm still getting over it, but I really wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks. Sorry it's so long.

Thank you for sharing your experience. I know there are other transmascs who have been in similar situations with transfem abusers and not talking about it for fear of the optics & how it can be used as a weapon by others, so just know you aren't alone and I'm glad you shared this.

#m. #ask box #experiences with transandrophobia #rape tw

[bwobgames]

Previous First

"Hey kid! Can we ask you something?"

"Casually approach child"

"Uhh, are you cops or something?"

"No! We're interested in the museum! Do you know what type of exhibition they will have here?"

"Uh, I don't really know about the museum, my friend Owen is really into history and stuff so you should ask him..."

"So what are you doing here?"

"I mean, dad sent us an invitation, so we showed up"

"Are you Mr. Coli's son? Is this a family business?"

"Well, um, not really? To none of that.

My dad, uh, only helped with the place, and my mom did everything else, so.

And, um, Im not really his son anymore? He kind of... disowned me, so, yeah.

And we're also not really talking with mom either. We're kinda just here"

"He seems to be avoiding eye contact, i think, i can't tell for sure, I am also avoiding eye contact.

He should get an anti-eye-contact hat"

"You still came even though you have a bad relationship with both of your parents?"

"I wouldn't call it bad, i mean, with dad I was cool for a while and then the thing happened so he hates me now and I wasnt really sure if i had to come here but Nadia was gonna come here so i didnt want her to get here alone and i didnt want to be here alone either so i brought Owen along and nothings really happening but Nadia is like on edge or something and its a bit spooky so. Um.

Yeah."

"Have you considered getting a cool hat"

"Simon."

The door opens, and a teen girl appears

Player 3 has joined the game

"Are you two fucking cops?"

"No!!"

"You couldn't be more wrong. We're mere tourists"

"We were just asking about the museum"

"You should ask Owen that. He's upstairs"

"And what are you doing here?"

"Currently, looking for snacks and a baby brother. I already got one of them, so excuse us"

She and her brother turned to leave, but she suddenly stops.

"Before we leave,"

"Is any of you Detective Oliver Beebo by any chance?"

"I am"

"... Could I talk to you later? In private"

"Sure"

The Coli siblings leave

"So... Is she a fan? Or a client?"

"No, I've never met her in my life"

"But there's something about her eyes that's... familiar.

They scare me"

Ángel holds his hand again

"So, upstairs then? To meet History boy?"

"Yeah, let's go"

"I might not be the world's greatest detective like you, but I deduct that those kids are hiding something"

"I am not the world's greatest detective. That's Benoit Blanc or Columbo"

"Do you also prefer your detectives to stay fictional?"

"Yes, it's less competition"

They head upstairs

#no poll today #Nadia my beloved. lore girl #the little colis. Colitos if you may #detective beebo

[hexitca]

Rant about Puritan fandom culture!

Well I typed it on twitter but then I had more to say so tumblr it is!

Under read more

WARNING: Long as fuck

Here's some pics

I know I basically said the author of Heartstopper "brought it on themselves" but yea they kinda did.

You can disagree with BL/Yaoi you can hate the shipping discourse or shipping in fandom in general but you cant frame it in a "i hate [that] bc it's sinful/fetishistic and I'M ABOVE THAT BC I'M WHOLESOME AND BETTER THAN THOSE DISGUSTING SHIPPERS"

bc that's gonna bite you in the ass...as it is doing now. The fucking image of their character's google history is so tame and normal, esp in LGBTQ+ spaces! Yet they are being called a pedo? Crazy. In the end, you only hurt yourself!

I never bothered with HS bc i just wasnt interested in it but thats just my preference. It's sad to see ppl, esp young ppl, turn on a series of LGBTQ+ representation just bc of the author's past (or current? idk) stance on the BL/Yaoi or MLM or whatever genre just bc their stance wavered a bit in a simple comic image. Something that is so fucking normal also! but they will grow up and realized how limiting it is to restrict themselves just to appear pure within a group.

Yet the artists/writers/creators are traumatized by the witchhunt. I know I said the author brought it on themselves for supporting anti but damn I don't want them being accused of being a pedo! Or ANYTHING! NO ONE DESERVES THAT. I dont know anything about the author other than surface knowledge but at the end of the day, all this online shit, doesnt matter. It doesnt! Me saying that is ironic bc im typing this post up right now!

but it's something we care about! I care about fandom spaces, I care that creators are getting attack for something as mild as this even if they invited these ppl into their circle. We're human and we change our views a million times a fucking day. I could agree with one thing and disagree with it another. That's why anti discourse pisses me the hell off! It's just a bunch of bullies looking to make themselves feel better by shaming others! I don't respect that type of behavior. And I hate that they just run around saying shit like "kys" over a two characters fucking?!? It amazes me beyond words.

Fandom has never been without its discourse. But the puritan bullshit is not even fandom discourse, it's just straight up bullying and harassment. It doesnt take much to tailor your fandom spaces to your preferences, i should know ive been in fandom spaces since I was fucking 13 years old. I didn't explore nsfw/porn/anything until I wanted to when I was 18. That is MY personal experience. I never put that on anyone else BUT MYSELF. If I saw nsfw and didnt want to see it I blocked the person. Not make a fucking witch hunt out of it. You are in charge of keeping YOURSELF in check not some person who shared nsfw art/fanfic. How fucking hard is it to turn the "don't show me nsfw" toggle on??? Bc it's not about that. Y'all just wanna be mad and be above someone so why not ppl minding their own business.

And guess what? There ARE ppl who are bad and support nsfw art/writing. They fucking suck. They are outliers and deserve to be called out when they get exposed. But many times, ppl always go "see i told you all the ppl in THAT fandom were pedos/freaks/etc" hmmm sounds like when conservatives go "see...that queer person turned out to be bad, SO all queer ppl are bad" DO YOU GET IT?? It never works out with that line of thinking. You are harming innocent ppl minding their own business. You are harming yourselves when you grow the fuck up and realize that "OH actually...I am curious about sex" and have ppl who you thought were your friends eat your face. PLS wake the fuck up.

If you're an anti:

I hope you recover from that

go fuck yourself

if you're offended by me saying "go fuck yourself", pls take that as a sign to log off the internet and go touch grass. As someone who has done that many of times, it's very refreshing.

#fandom #fandom culture #fandom discourse #purity culture #i might go touch some grass for the rest of the week/weekend holy shit #this is why i try not to be on twitter a lot bc tumblr im at least in my own spaces with minor breaches of stupidity #twitter it just throws it in on my tl and i get fucking triggered and angry #ill be taking a long break from twitter holy shit

[mikasuxxx]

MW2 Random Headcanons part 2

this one includes graves and price

Graves

this man is definitely floridian

like he was a beach boy, like he has old pictures from when he was a teen with a tan

He's southern, and so is his family

They're the epitome of white people, but they're actually pretty nice people

like if you're Graves' girl spending the holidays at his family's place they'll beg you to eat with them and say its no trouble

Truly the southern hospital is strong with his family

He used to go miami and pick up girls from the club, and just have one night stands with them.

He has an older brother who's a professional poker player/gambler

and you can tell because of the big gold chain and the tommy bahama shirts and loafers he always wears (even when its cold he'll still wear them)

He also lives in vegas

He tries to flirt with you but Phillip shuts that down real quick

Phillip used to play baseball in high school, and his girlfriend at the time loved watching him play (but really she just liked how his ass looked in his uniform pants)

His brother played football for a bit

Surprisingly, Phillip was at the top of his class in high school. And he got a car for his graduation gift. a red 1967 chevy impala

that car was his pride and joy

You cant tell me that he wasnt a frat boy in college

Constantly picks up sorority girls in his car, and invites them to his dorm to fuck

Even girls who weren't sororities; atheltes, shy girls, even his professors (but that was when he was like a junior and senior, and he did it because his grades sucked and he was desperate)

What makes him different from other frat boys, is that he takes no for an answer. like hes flirting with you and and you say no he'll back off, no questions asked

He still has friends from college

Okay now to the sad shit: he constantly gets compared to his older brother. mostly by his dad (his mom is a sweetheart and loves both of her sons equally)

His older brother wasnt good at school, was an alcoholic, dropped out of college, the only thing that makes him better in their father's eyes is that he played football, and he's found a way to become rich

Phillip was good at school and sports, won prom king, went to college, had a degree and a decent job and yet that still wasnt enough to please his dad

His dad is...an old fashioned dude. like if phillip has a daughter and he sees him playing with her, he'll call him a pussy

Or even if he has a son and he even so much as hugs him, his dad will also bicker and bitch about him "acting like a mom"

Phillip still goes to family events but avoids talking to his dad as much as possible, or if he's forced too he'll just try to end the conversation

His uncles are alright, somehow. Like they're funny, but not in a misogynistic way. they're still kinda ignorant in their own way tho

His mom is a very good cook. like she actually uses seasoning and stuff (and of course his dad bitches and whines about it)

She wanted a third kid because she was hoping for a daughter, but the dad said he didnt wanna push their luck because he didnt want a girl, so they just stopped at 2 kids

Price

Jokingly calls Gaz his son. gaz is happy about it honestly

He loves kids. like when he had kids he was literally the happiest man alive

Yes, this man is a certified dilf

He has twin girls, both of which he loves to death and will die for them

He's always been able to tell whos who. Hes learned every detail about each one of them

Sometimes they try to gaslight him by switching identities but hes way too smart for that

Twin 1(pretending to be twin 2): "hey dad, can i have some candy?"

"You're [Twin 1], youve already had a ton of candy today"

Twin 1: "..no im [Twin 2] and i havent eaten any candy today"

"You're not fooling me [Twin 1]"

Twin 1: "damn..."

Has a small silver heart locket with their picture in it. he wears it all the time under his uniform

After missions he'll bring them gifts when he comes back from wherever said mission took place

One of them is really jealous and fussy, the other is chill and cuddly

like when they were babies/toddlers she'll screech if she sees Price giving her sister even an inkling of attention

when they were babies, sometimes price would be found on the ground in the living room sleeping with his daughters sleeping in his arms

as babies they would always tug at his mustache

would both freak out if he even so much as trimmed it

#mw2022 #mw2 #john price #phillip graves

[r0ttente3th]

hey if anyone wants the Who Killed Markiplier and a bit of Wilford Motherluvin Warfstache lore, heres all of it! (that i know of!)

WHO KILLED MARKIPLIER + WILFORD MOTHERLUVIN WARFSTACHE SPOILERS BELOW!!!!

have fun!! also please have watched WKM and maybe WMLW before reading

so damien, mark, and will have been friends since they were young. there is a woman named celine in all of this, who is damiens twin sister. mark dates celine because he loves her, but she cheats on him with will. so mark of course is beyond fucking angry at will, even though it was actively celines choice to cheat on him. so mark invites them all over for a dinner, all of them being damien, will, abe the detective (not an ego), anddd i think thats it?? other than us, the viewer, the district attorney, who happens to look a LOT like damien. mark dies. will doesnt care too much because he understands mark was angry at him, and damien gets upset with will because yknow, their friend just died and hes kinda nonchalant. so with abe, we start to try and find clues of who killed markiplier, of which will is always a bit suspicious. All the sudden, celine knocks on the door, and lets everyone know that something is happening that involves black/ evil magic.

everyones kinda like, woah, huh? and she just kinda, forces everyone to do some stuff? she does something with a crystal ball in a room, upon another character (forget his name) says "hey, ive prepped for this, we gotta get out of here or youll all die". damien says no, goes in to try and help his sister, and will and abe fight because will is sus. will accidentally shoots abe through the heart, and while we're trying to wrestle the gun away from him, he shoots us, and we canonically die. we wake up in a black void, where damien and celine are there. they explain to us that actor mark has actively possessed damiens body (through the crystal ball thing celine i did i guess??) and has the ability to basically warp time and space, and create his own personal timeline in a way. but before we "died", damien had an encounter with mark (where he learned this info, celine already knew and was trying to protect him ig), and this is where actor mark tells him "im going to make my own story, the one where shit goes my way, but every story needs a villain" and he actively pushes damien to be said villain. anyways, we meet in the void, get informed, and celine tells us she can do something (i cant remember), but whatever happens, whatever she does, results in all three of us, damien, celine, and us, repossessing the district attorneys body. but considering i think it involves black magic, damien, or the body, now known as darkipier, has dark powers as well and is a little bit goofy! anyways, dark decides to be actors villain, but in the way he doesnt want him to be.

Darks entire personality to me is ironic because his main goal is to literally be as fucking annoying as possible, fuck up all of actors storylines and basically just be a pain in his fucking ass throughout the stories he creates

anyways, we wake up to will sitting on a nearby bench, clutching damiens little staff (because he had one), and we can see hes yknow..... fucking shocked! is beyond happy that we arent dead, and proceeds to be delusional, think its all just some funny sick joke, and stumbles off screen calling for damien. and this is where it gets kinda complicated??? so, think of like, each of marks videos as well,,, a video, or a comic book! actor can create videos of his own, and proceed to crawl into the white space of the comic books. dark and wilford (who becomes wilford after the WKM incident, william J barnum quite literally no longer exists) can also do that. each character has their own story, which is obviously written! but william was pushed out of his character because he ran into a scenario that wasnt scripted for him, which is where he becomes wilford warfstache. so what he does, is he spends years hopping into other peoples storylnies, trying to break them out of character because hes the only one who is truly aware. and then "wilford motherloving warfstache happens", where abe comes back (because he wasnt supposed to die), and is actively hunting him down because he killed us, the district attorney.

all he remembers is, the stuff that his character needs to know. he doesnt know where hes been ig, hes just the classic detective noir character. he knows hes hunting down warf, doesnt need to know the specifics bc his CHARACTER already knows it. but, he encounters warfstache! manages to capture him, which im presuming wasnt meant to happen, because this is where he realizes: 'wait.. i dont know anything about where youve been, i dont know any of the specifics, i dont actually have all the places youve supposedly been'. and warfstache manages to break him out of character. abe ofc is freaking the fuck out because that technically means none of this is real, and none of it makes sense. so warf technically presses pause on abes youtube video, and says 'hey, you need to destress, lets have some fun before you have to go back to your story'. because in a sense, wills story already ended, so warf has to create his own story line. he has no destined future. so they dance and have fun because inevitably, abe will have to resume his own story, and warf is gonna be left alone with nobody bc nobody is sentient! which is why hes constantly trying to fuck shit up too! breaks in suddenly in the middle of videos, causes havoc, because hes trying to create a scenario that breaks the person out of their character, so theyre aware like him. anyways, he inevitably starts to go insane and desperate, which is why hes known for 'haha shooty shooty bang bang!' because hes just, kinda fucked in the head i think. anyways we havent had a continuation in awhile really, but thats where they all kinda are atm!!

have fun!!

#wilford motherloving warfstache #wmlw #wmlw lore #abe wmlw #wilford warfstache #william j barnum #wilford wmlw #warfstache wmlw #who killed markiplier #who killed markiplier the colonel #wkm the colonel #wkm wilford #wkm william #wkm damien #who killed markiplier the mayor #who killed markiplier damien #who killed markiplier actor mark #wkm actor mark #wkm mark #wkm lore #who killed markiplier lore #abe the detective #wkm abe #markiplier #mark fischbach

[just-rogi]

this is so stupid but im depressed, and im angry im depressed because i want to be happy right now you dont understand. i have been struggling so fucking bad these past few months when my health went downhill and i had to go on medical leave, i couldnt see my friends for so long, and i stopped getting paid and its fine i have money saved up but i feel insane guilt at spending any money on anything at all for pleasure while im off work. like ive dropped hundreds on doctors appointments in the past two months and cant rationalize concert tickets or shit. ive been having just bouts of anxiety and grief and i can manage them because i know HOW to manage them but its just frustrating doing all the depression upkeep when i WANT to be happy. i turned twenty two last month and i havent celebrated my birthday since i was in fourth grade because of reasons, and i was really scared of being let down so i just dont celebrate, but this year i begged my closest friend- i dont want a party i dont want people there, i just want to not be alone, and not be sad and i want to listen to 22 by taylor swift. and due to an emergency she had to cancel on me at nine pm the night before and i was so upset about changing plans i just wasnt able to regulate my emotions or be there with my other friend who showed up at my apartment unexpectedly, because i wasnt emotionally ready to be happy, i just didnt want to be devastatingly sad. I have been waiting to play 22 by taylor swift on my 22nd birthday for at least a decade. its so fucking stupid, its SO fucking stupid, but i was so disoriented and depressed that i cant bring myself to listen to it which is dumb because its not even a good song but it was supposed to be happy. my grandmother was the only member of my family who wished me a happy birthday, and less than a week later was easter and i wasnt invited but all my siblings were there. and im trying so hard to go for walks and talk to friends and go to the library and make art, but i keep going to doctors appointments and i cant do shit i used to be able to do and i feel so isolated at home... and it just kinda hit me... im not excited to listen to the new taylor swift album tonight. what the fuck. im taylor swift girl. im like THE swiftie friend. there were people in highschool who only knew me because i loved taylor swift, hell even on tumblr i was known for my stochastic terrorist taylor swift post that went viral, and.... i dont care. Its not even that i dont care- its that i actively dont WANT to listen to the album tonight. my phone lock screen is a sylvia plath poem, i have a full shelf of just my favorite poets, like poetry and taylor swift are my favorite things in the world and everyone knows it... and im not excited. what the fuck. i want to be excited again. i want to be happy about this. im sick of doing depression manitence and going outside and eating fruit and taking showers and going on walks. IM ANGRY BECAUSE IM SICK AND I DONT HAVE ANSWERS AND EVERY WEEK IS A NEW DOCTORS APPOINTMENT AND I DONT EVEN GET TO BE HAPPY ABOUT TAYLOR SWIFT???? cmon man its hard enough i just want to be feeling something again. i deserve to be happy about this so why am i miserable and apathetic. i get it. im a swiftie and taylor isnt even that good and its not even something special because she releases new music every other week..... but man... i want to be excited about something again. its not my fault this time- i did everything right and im still just so fucking sad i cant cope

[blackrosecapri]

i wasnt in my winter play so im coping by tell you all what i think jrwi pcs would do in a play/musical

riptide

chip - he always auditions and signs up for crew, its not really what he does that matters its that hes there (though he perfers being onstage) hes always been cast in bigger roles because hes really naturally charming and funny!! but when hes in the crew he does carps, and weather on cast or crew he helps paint whenever he can

jay - stange manger or head of costumes. easy. maybe she Was in costume but production kept asking her for help in her free time and was asked to be the stange manger. she takes her job very seriously and probably owns a stange manger shirt or hoodie

gillion - SOUND CREW! easy! hell listen to sound effects for hours picking the right ones and makes sure everyone mics are good and the cast loves him! he isnt head of sound but people have stared calling him "head of mics"

prime defenders

dakota- i dont think hed actually be in the show, but rather, the kid eveybody on the show knows. people around the school will always ask of hes in the show because hes friends with All of the cast and crew. director knows him and will sometimes let him stick around for rehearsals! and hes ALWAYS at the stage door lifting up his friends and spinning them around

william- lightning. nobody really knows him because hes always up at the spotlights bisides maybe sound crew to mess with lighting colors. theres only a few other poeple on lighting but that doesnt bother him because he likes to do things himself

vyncent- he signed up for crew and didnt pick a category? so it was kinda up to the crews where he went. most often hes at the props table making sure nobosy touches anything and making sure eveything is clear. when hes Not at the prop table hes a runner. "hey vyn, go grab the lead" "ooo vyncent do you think you can run up to sound and ask them about the effect there?" all that shit

ashe- he was only on one show but everybody loved him. he had a smaller role and he was super funny and made always the actors feel better! gave great pep talks and he was even invited to crew only events because of how well liked he was! they all wish he was in the show again

blood in the bayou

kian- obviously, the lead! he was the one all the newbies looked up to. he was a great actor and singer and he was really nice to eveyone even if he didnt really like them. when ever he was rehearsing in stage he was helping other with their lines and giving them advice

rolan- production! he made posters and walked all around town putting up signs and made sure to get people talking about the show. this is really were he really learned how to convise people of anything! when your convising the high school that that play nobodys ever hear of is actually good you can anvise anyone of anything. great in court

rand- head of carps and set. oh my god he Screams carps kid! he loves the power tools and the smell of wood. made him feel big n strong! he knew that the show wouldnt be anywhere as good without HIS set! he loved it so much hed forget that kian and rolan where also on the show

OKAY IM DONE. THANK U ALL FOR LISTENING TO ME MISS BEING ON STAGE!

#being a stange manger is easy! its like riding a bike #expect the bike is one fire #and your on fire #and eveything is on fire #ill never forget that stange manger shirt #also sorry for not including apotheosis #rumi wouls be the lead #peter would be a runner/crew hand #thanatos would be on props #OKAY IM DONE RAMBLING AGAIN #jrwi #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi riptide #jrwi bitb #chip jrwi #jay ferin #gillion tidestrider #dakota cole #william wisp #vyncent sol #ashe winters #i love ashe i miss him oh my god #timothy rand #kian stone #rolan deep #just roll with it #headcannons

[ickyyuckyugygrl]

Someone tell me if im overreacting

Im with this one guy and he says he loves me right? but then the first while we were together he told one of my best friends he loved her eyes and that her eyes were his favorite thing to look into. (well we are together he has done all of this well we are together) i confronted him he apologized he said he wouldnt do it again We planned a date he then invited her to go with us without asking me first I confronted him he apologized and said he would communicate more clearly then he invited her to his house without telling me first, she was the one who told me she was there, then they both didnt reply to me for 3 hours, he ended up telling me she just wanted to talk to his mom ab some of her problems i asked her about it she said she didnt end up talking to her and she got mad at me accusing me of being suspicious and said she wasnt going to deal with it, i never even said anything back i just said it was nice they were able to hang out, i apologized to her and said i wasnt suspicious i did not really confront him on this the day before my birthday i introduced him to another one of my friends, that same night at 4 am he invited her to hang out with him alone she declined and told me i asked him about it and he said he was just bored and wanted to see if someone could come out next he asks the first girl to ask me when i was ready to have s3x with him, i was upset because we had been dating for a little over a month at this point i was a little hurt he didnt ask me privately but i was too scared to bring it up i found out he was telling things i was privately telling him to the girl as well next i find out he has told her that he originally had a crush on her but because he kissed me first he felt bad and didnt want me to feel like a second option so he stayed with me and said he ended up gaining feelings after or something. I was so upset over this i confronted him i couldnt even get 3 sentences out before i started crying which made everything even more embarrassing he assured me he didnt like her anymore and that he did like me etc but not even three days later i find out he was play fighting/flirting over text with the same girl, she showed me a video (i guess she didnt think it was a big deal? maybe im overreacting idk) but they were calling each other names in a very flirty tone and under the video she said "beefing" and put two smirk emojis after it then she said his name over text and put these emojis 🥰🥰🥰😍 in that exact order after later she told me that if i hadnt met her or him at the time i did something could have happened between them but said she was "glad" it worked out this way but idk it just felt very back handed and fake, i cant complain to her either or tell her how i feel because she'll villainize me i've tried a few times just to say "hey im kinda worried ab this or that" but never in an accusing tone and it was never ab anything serious or even about her it was mainly ab him and how i was a little sad he replied to her asap and told her everything he was up too or planned to do but ignored me for up to 4 hours at a time, and she would say stuff like how me saying that isnt fair to her etc and yeah she also got mad at me when i talked to another girl privately for exactly 8 minutes not even joking and idk i also keep having dreams of him leaving me behind/sleeping with her or walk away holding another girls hand and im so stressed out to the point where im puking and up all night but i cant find it in me to leave him either i dont know if im being dramatic or if its not that big of a deal and im just being sensitive i just dont know what to do or what to think of it hes also recently not hanging out with me and always making excuses im worried

#sh #help #advice #baby cvts #sh cvt #cvtting addict #ed not ed sheeran #tw restrictive ed #relationshipadvice #sos #so silly #someonehelpme #silly thoughts #silly posting #realtionship help #crisis #mental health #experience

[br1ghtestlight]

It's currently 2:30 in the morning and I have a very important question for my favorite favorite bobs burger blog...

Any mickey headcannons? 🙃

THANK YOU FOR ASKING SORRY IM SO LATE ANSWERING THIS LOL i was very busy and didn't have time to write anything <\3 mickey is so funny i love his character sm

his parents were both kinda terrible people and criminals so he was involved with that stuff from a young age, he really isn't a bad person but he never had a choice so he just kinda fell into that lifestyle but bob and linda definitely helped him find something better he could do with his life even if it wasnt long-term, he liked doing actual honest work for a change :)

he likes living at the trailer park with all the other carnies and working with them at wonder wharf bcuz they're all also criminals and he doesn't feel insecure or like theyre judging him/think theyre better than him, he feels like society looks down on him most of the time and he usually takes it in stride but it does hurt sometimes

related to that he LOVES louise gene and tina so genuinely, he loves that they don't judge him and that they like spending time with him and think he's fun and he kinda considers them the nieces he never had, louise probably convinced him to come to her school for career day once and she got in trouble with mr frond bcuz apparently bankrobbing isnt a "real career" (she disagrees) but mr frond talks to him and he agrees to come back and give the kids a scared straight assembly where he talks abt being a criminal and prison and how much it sucks

he's bisexual This isn't relevant to anything just my understanding of his character. he had a friends with benefits kinda relationship with rodney before he went to prison but they were never officially dating

just like with the one-eyed snakes louise very consistently threatens ppl by saying she's friends with an actual criminal who robbed a bank at gunpoint and he'll kill them if she asks him to, mickey would not kill anyone or hurt a child but if somebody is being a bully he'll agree to pretend to threaten them and basically act like a super edgy criminal to scare them (he's a terrible actor tbh)

^^ mickey was bullied when he was a kid bcuz of his generally anxious pathetic vibes so he will always stand up to the kids bullies, its like a personal thing for him he wants to be the person that he wishes he had for the kids

most of the people who live in the carnie trailer park don't have any actual family or loved ones in their lives so they celebrate holidays like christmas and thanksgiving together :) mickey joins them sometimes but he has also been invited to spend christmas thanksgiving etc etc with the belcher family and he always accepts, bob also offered to cook dinner for the entire trailer park one thanksgiving it was SO GOOD and the first homemade meal a lot of them ever had, bcuz of that he has at least 50 hardened criminals ready to fight and die for him (and also mickey <3)

mickey sneaks the kids free cotton candy and prizes whenever they go to wonder wharf when he's working also sometimes tickets for the rides, he is trying to be a better person but in his opinion there's nothing morally wrong with giving kids free candy bcuz the fischoeders are so rich and he loves the kids a lot he's like their cool fun uncle (one of many!!!!!)

#mickey is great 10/10 best character in the seri3s #just a weird little guy #ask #bob's burgers #headcanons

[blueberryratz]

i wasnt tagged i just jumped into a reblog game for fun bc someone on my dash invited anyone ehehehe

Are you named after anyone?: nope im an original

When was the last time you cried?: 2 days ago ;-;

What sports do you play?: i am not active but i used to play tennis with my friends and family as well as like. sports swimming lessons (hot tip: if you have an anxiety or panic disorder do not go into a sport where your breathing is constantly restricted 😭)

Do you want kids in the future?: i do not think i am capable of being a good parent but i do want to make a positive impact on other people's children's lives so long as i do not have to take them home with me

Do you use sarcasm?: not really its kinda mean sometimes

Whats the first thing you notice about someone: outfits and whether or not they're a good conversationalist

Whats your eye color?: hazelllll

Movies with sad or happy endings?: happy please god i get so easily emotional

Where would you like to live?: honestly i dont think i can ever move out of texas because im too sentimental and nostalgic but i at least wanna live somewhere with a lottttt of trees and nature

What talents do you have?: i give amazing head

Do you have any pets?: no :( my mother doesn't like animals. i used to have a pet ball python tho (and 2 cats before my moms ex husband took em)

How tall are you?: 5'10 BABEY

Whats your favorite subject in school?: language arts cuz im a nerd

What is your dream job?: i honestly would enjoy doing porn if i wasnt scared of the porn industry . for a normal job probably like an editor or something idk

tagging: @solitair-e @werewolfclaws @fanboyistransboy @binked-bonked @angstics @crumpetfucknuts @mino2aur @techniccolor and anyone else who wants to go nuts go crazy

#🦈 #tag game

[crvstybowlofcereal]

this is a really specific vent(?) post. im processing things by putting them in words. its not serious, feel free to ignore me lol

i just want to say that a couple years ago when i was in the beginning stages of researching autism (and would soon realize i am most likely autistic) i was in a relationship. and communication in a relationship is So Very important to me. I would constantly ask how he was (obviously it was more specific to whatever situation was going on) and he would always say he was fine. If I had even the Slightest hint that he wasn't actually Fine (like 19 times out of 20) i would continue asking if he was sure and if he wanted to talk, and he continued to say he was fine. half the time i assumed he meant it and i read the situation wrong, the other half of the time i assumed he didn't want to talk about it.

he ended up breaking up with me because i

"didn't pick up on some things"

"what kind of things?" i asked

"idk, just, things."

and he had been talking to my friend (U) about our relationship, and telling her that i wasn't picking up on things. she got mad at me and we had a "fight" for a short time, she thought i was being a bad partner, and her sister (M) (who is toxic and possessive) felt like i wasn't spending enough time with her, so she complained about it to their mom, who got mad at U for it for some reason? so U also brought all that up, telling me M felt left out. (i wasn't leaving M out of anything, i was sitting with my partner at lunch half of the time, she was welcome to join, but didnt, looking back i think M has RSD and maybe i should have been more direct when moving to a new location to explicitly invite her) (U was also not in school at the time due to covid, so its not like i was spending more time with her over M, which is something M would get so upset about if she perceived it to be that way [she was incredibly possessive of me as a friend and the extent of it made me feel like an object tbh])

U never brought up the issues my partner talked about, because that's how we are, we don't make it known someone was venting to us, to respect their privacy, but it fueled her emotions during our "argument" so i really only heard her being mad at me for not including M, (which i later learned is because M's emotions were made to be her problem when they shouldn't have, this has been a running problem so it wasnt that surprising to learn) so i started spending more time with M, but it was school, and i had work, so schedules only allowed so much time, and any time I was with M (lunch and one class) was when i was also with my partner, but i had other classes with him so i assumed it was fine, but he started drifting away (also around a time i attempted to communicate something important about our relationship, which ended up making him uncomfortable, but he didn't say anything about it until we had a conversation after breaking up)

i was stuck in a place where i felt like no one around me communicated how they felt and still expected me to understand them and do what they wanted me to do

U and i recently reflected on this and realized my ex was a shitty communicator (he and his next partner also broke up because he didn't say how he felt and expected them [also most likely autistic] to... just kinda know ig?) and that she should have gotten my side of the story (she had no idea i was frequently checking on him and trying to get him to talk to me)

and that she wasnt actually upset at me about M, she was upset that people were making it her problem, and she was especially upset during this reflection to learn that M was not being left out at all, she was just doing That Thing again where she wanted me to be Her friend and Only Her friend.

U AND I ARE NOT MAD AT EACH OTHER FOR ANY OF THIS, I WAS NEVER MAD AT U AND U WAS ONLY MAD ABOUT HER PERCEPTION OF THE SITUATION, AND ONLY FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME, EVERYTHING IS FINE

so basically i went like a year and a half thinking that people were rightfully mad at me and i was too self absorbed to pay attention to other peoples' emotions and i started learning how to read people again (clearly my body language research from middle school wasn't cutting it anymore) only for me to realize i just need people to be a little more direct that allistic people typically are, and those specific people were just being dogshit at communicating, (even for allistic people, relative to my needs)

anyways highschool post-covid was Really Fucking Weird and socially stressful for me

TL;DR reflecting on my communication needs not only not being met, but being far undershot for even a "normal" persons needs and how i was convinced I was the problem because of circumstances

#U and i are best friends and have been for 7 years now #U and M are twins #M and i barely talk anymore now that she has Other Friends (grateful tbh) #i know i previously brought up having an ex bf with messy hair and eyeshadow. this ex was Not Him #(my identity as a lesbian was shakey in highschool- i was figuring things out) #(i had several “girlfriends” in middle school (all lasting less than a week after the first because religious guilt)) #(but in highschool i had two separate boyfriends and zero girlfriends) #oh god my first ex is such a fucking story but thats for another time #also the ex in this post was like. REALLY fucking obsessed with spiderman #it was great frfr #but it made anything spiderman related super weird for me for a like a year after the breakup #he broke up with me On our 7 month anniversary like right after school got out for summer #the next school year was awkward bc he was in one of my year long classes and we had a LOT of mutual friends #he also started dating his next partner like a week or two after breaking up with me #i was also pushing down ALL my emotions at this time so when i finally Let Myself Feel Things a couple months later i played Good 4 U a LOT #17 was a fucking weird year for me frfr #honestly ALL of my teenage years have been rough and i have never actually let myself acknowledge that before This Moment #and that feels really weird to say because im technically still a teenager #this post ended up way fucking longer than i thought it was gonna be #(also going back to the middle school “relationships” ive sorta-almost-dated a good handful of people #but i only consider 3 people to actually be “exes”)