#and i've been feeling so weird about mu body and food lately (uni stress killing me as per)

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this is a clip from the video i took of my training today - something that has REALLY helped my ~perception~ of myself has been seeing myself the way other people see me. it's hard to hate my body when i see it in motion doing what it's supposed to do. it's good to see myself looking strong and athletic because i don't view myself that way - i don't "see" myself looking like this at all, so when i watch this i'm surprised at what i actually look like in real life. it can be hard to watch yourself on video but it's a good thing to desensitise yourself to as well.

#i had to watch a lot of footage of myself during lockdown last year #when we were posting at-home workouts and i was doing the movement demos #and i like to record myself when i'm training alone to see things #and i've been feeling so weird about mu body and food lately (uni stress killing me as per) #so it's refreshing/comforting to watch this and like what i see #tw: ed